light-as-lavender

[light-as-lavender]

Hello flowers!! 💐

Apologies for how long it’s been. I was on the road to recovery, and trying hard to beat this. I did not win. But it’s okay! I’ve had a lot going on as well and I apologize. I was told some misinformation was spreading around, and I am alive and well! I have not passed on 🫶🏻 I’ll try to be around and post more. Stay healthy loves 🌸

[light-as-lavender]

Just ate lunch (292cal) and I didn’t eat that much and I’m actually so stuffed I feel like I’m gonna puke. Yk what that means?? My stomachs finally shrinking ! 🤩🤩🤩

[light-as-lavender]

its funny edblr hates edtwt and edtwt hatea edblr

[light-as-lavender]

when i realize this isn’t just a quirky silly little eating disorder, it actually affects me and takes a toll on me constantly 😍🤩☹️.

[light-as-lavender]

[light-as-lavender]

Babe, it's not real. That's not real hunger, you know. You're just craving another blood sugar spike. Why give in to that? Just ride it out and you'll see how perfect your body is without you feeding it junk.

[light-as-lavender]

TW // @n0r3x!@

One binge won't make you fat, just like how one fast won't make you skinny. Get up brush yourself off and DO BETTER TOMORROW!

You got this gorgeous 💕

[light-as-lavender]

[light-as-lavender]

mentally im friends with a lot of u guys even if we dont talk or never have talked and probably will never talk directly. its ok. the warriors bond transcends words

[light-as-lavender]

to all the people who told me that being skinny wouldn't make me happy, fuck you. I'm the happiest I've been in so many years bc I feel good in my own skin and i like what j see in the mirror, and yes, it's bc i lost sm weight

[light-as-lavender]

The way i went for coffee and dinner with my bf to the café i used to work at, and my previous manager saw me and was very concerned about my weightloss

on one hand- hell yeah, it means that even if I can't see the change, there IS change

on the other hand- i really hate getting attention for my weightloss, i don't like comments about my body, i DON'T wanna be perceived lol

also- it's so funny because a girl i worked there with saw me a couple of weeks ago and really complimented me on the weight loss, so it's just so funny how different people( especially men vs. women) react to my weight.

[light-as-lavender]

Witchy spø for children of the moon and stars 🌙✨

4na tip: have fiber and big glass of water before your biggest meal of the day, it can really help with your appetite and help you feel full for longer. the best fiber is the drink mix powder and it’s really cheap (but this trick works with any kind of fiber, even the kind in fiber heavy fruits like raspberries)

[light-as-lavender]

*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ "every meal you skip today guarantees the scale to lower tomorrow" ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*  *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

[light-as-lavender]

Why eat something you won’t be able to track/log? Why eat something if you don’t know how many calories are in it? One of my rules- don’t eat it if you don’t know the cals, and can’t track it.

[light-as-lavender]

I’ve been feeling really discouraged lately. But when I stepped on the scale today, I was at 129lbs. I have no idea how I managed to lose 8lbs since the first, and it feels fake. I’m terrified of gaining that back or seeing the number go up. I need to go shopping for low cal foods, but I’m so tired. No will or want to get out of bed

[light-as-lavender]

the realization this brought me made me cry actual tears.. [not mine]

[light-as-lavender]