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Fyodor Dostoyevsky // Alanis Morissette

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The sun watches what I do but the moon knows all my secrets. - J.M. Wonderland

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August 12, 1914

The Diaries of Franz Kafka, 1914-1923

{The fact that I am sleep deprived today and Kafka wrote this}

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“What cannot be said will be wept.”

— Sappho, Fragments

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opening paragraphs of all time

The Haunting of Hill House by Shirley Jackson

We Have Always Lived in the Castle by Shirley Jackson

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What if dysfunctionalities are the only sane way of living? What if abnormalities are the only norm? What if all social constructs are the most insane structures laid out to live an ideal life? What if objective reality never existed and it was a mere hallucination? What if they could hear the music Nietzsche was talking about?

-Her Schrödinger's Cat, Third Insight

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Normalize functioning solely out of spite

Wake up? Out of spite. Good grades? Out of spite . Show up to class on time? Out of spite. Breath? Out of spite.

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doom yourself before the narrative does

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— Vita Sackville-West, from “Solitude.”

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Poetry by Lyra Wren on TikTok

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Soldier, Poet, King

And once you've come across them, light and thunder will come from above and shake your soul.

Inspired by the song: Soldier, Poet, King by The Oh Hellos

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The Soldier ⚔️

There will come a soldier

Who carries a mighty sword

He will tear your city down

Oh lei, oh lai, oh, Lord

Righteous, impulsive, reckless

Will always get back up on their feet

Will be by your side no matter what happens

Protective

Burns fast, bright, and beautiful

Follows their own moral code

Struggles with anger and feels too much, all at once

Ready to sacrifice themselves for the sake of what they believe in

Bold and decisive

Their let themselves get consumed by their own feelings and emotions

Competitive, likes to win

A shoulder to cry on, they will protect you when you need it

Is afraid to ask for help

Puts others before themselves

Afraid of being too reckless

Ignores their own problems to solve other's

Always feels like they have to do better

Doesn't trust easily

The Poet 📜

There will come a poet

Whose weapon is His word

He will slay you with His tongue

Oh lei, oh lai, oh, Lord

Independent, curious, unreliable

Hyperfixations

Afraid of being left alone

Hard on themselves

Willing to try out new things and step out their comfort zone

Finds good in everyone

Never gets enough credit for what they do

Good at comforting others

Tend to hide their struggles

Hopeless romantic, idealist

Good at communicating their emotions through their art

Gets told "you've changed" instead of "I'm sorry"

Wears their heart on their sleeve

Trusts easily

Follows their dream wherever it takes them

Commitment issues

They can build entire worlds with their art, but they can also destroy you with it

The King 👑

There will come a ruler

Whose brow is laid in thorn

Smeared with oil like David's boy

Oh lei, oh lai, oh, Lord

Self-critical, self-isolating, self-referential

Afraid of never being good enough

Overworks themselves

Bound by their sense of responsibility

Maladaptive daydreaming

Afraid that no one will ever understand them, and because of that is always ready to listen and tries to put themselves in other people's shoes

Pushes themselves in situations they are not comfortable in because the feel like if they don't, nobody else will do it; and somebody has to

Feels like has something to prove

Ready to sacrifice themselves in the name of their duties

Afraid of being judged and hated by others

Overthinking

Decided to give up their dreams because they had duties to fulfill

Tries to solve everything by themselves

Finds comfort in art, music, poetry

Feels disconnected from those around them

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The love language of annotating a book

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The secret history aesthetic

Masterlist

Henry Winter

cold hands whenever you touch him;

being pendantic every time when it comes to cleaning;

but at the same time has a terrible number of coffee cups in his sink;

the smell of roses that gets into his clothes;

secretly the fan of herbal tea (pepper mint and camomile ones);

eyes stinging from late-night reading or studing;

washing hands with soap for about half and hour because of ink on his fingers;

clean sheets of white or grey and soft pillows;

closed curtains while migraines;

wants someone to massage or rub his head in these moments, but will never say it;

the strange urge to kill or hurt someone when he is pissed off.

the familiar feeling of freedom that lasts several minutes;

formal suits ahd white shirts, but also comfy sweaters and chekered shirts while he's at home alone;

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Joseph Sheridan Le Fanu ― Carmilla

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You will never be able to experience everything. So, please , do poetical justice to your soul and simply experience yourself.

– Albert Camus, Notebooks, 1935-1951

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