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[literaila]

in ur canon is tsumiki seriously cursed??? … im gonna start crying T^T

(To me your canon is the only story to ever exist i do not touch the source material bc i know that is just heartbreak fuel)

um no. of course not. canon tsumiki is sitting at the dinner table making everyone laugh and repeating the same joke over and over again so they’ll keep laughing. i would never do that to my girl

(the source material is… questionable. not sure if it’s completely accurate if you know what i mean. i mean, sure, gojo is sealed blah blah blah but we all know he’s actually just shopping around for some purple shampoo to keep his hair fresh)

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No bc you're right, everything tastes better after midnight. Noodles. Heart wrenching angst. But mostly food

i get too involved in cooking when it’s late at night so i can’t personally relate but i still support! also angst. angst is always better when it’s at night

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Guess who's making noodles at 1:07am. I need to be up at 8am tomorrow but I just want to pester someone.

that sounds perfectly acceptable to me. anything at 1:07 am probably tastes better anyway. might have to make it a routine

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He has satoru sussed outttt but also his shirt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Elf number 1 I'm sobbing

he was coerced into that shirt.

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Same thing different font

I'm gonna eat him look at the way he's 🤨🧐 at satoru on the couch 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

he’s like “i know santa claus doesn’t have those freaky looking eyes”

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Devastated

megumi sipping on his drink with nanami and shoko 😭😭😭😭

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https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTL5rpcpq/ saw this jjk edit and IMMEDIATELY made me think of your typical family series. which i’ve been binge reading for the past two days, easily became my new fav jjk series!! :3

why did you have to show me this??? was it really necessary?? i’ll be billing you the cost of my emotional pain

aww you’re so sweet but i still don’t forgive you.

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what was readers (atf) reaction to finding out tsumiki being cursed and put in coma? probably felt like she’s failed at protecting her children after years of balancing their lives and safety. hopefully sobbed in gojos arms 😭

“satoru,” you croak out.

your voice is nothing but a mere whisper. it’s a drop of water in the ocean, a footstep on the expanse of the world.

you’ve never felt so small. you’ve never felt like your actions mean nothing more. never more helpless, than this.

“hey,” satoru says, and you know that he can tell that there’s something wrong. “what’s going on?”

“can you come home?”

“yeah, yeah of course i can, baby. i’ll call ijichi to pick me back up. what’s happening?”

“satoru,” you say, again, because there’s almost nothing left.

“hey. hey. we’ll fix it, whatever it is. talk to me.”

“tsumiki’s in the hospital.”

your hands clench around the steering wheel. there might be an ethical discussion to be had about the danger of driving with tears in your eyes, talking on the phone.

but you could give less than a damn about safety, right now. right now—it just doesn’t matter.

there’s a pause.

you can hear satoru breathing.

“what?”

“megumi—“ you wipe your eyes, speeding up. the law can be damned too. “megumi said that she wouldn’t get out of bed this morning—that he couldn’t wake her up. and so he called me and then i—“ you stop, gasping for air that’s practically unreachable. “i told him to—“ but you break off again, because your throat is burning.

“what hospital?”

“i don’t—i can’t remember the name.”

“okay.”

“i’ll—i’ll send it to you. when i get there. im on my way now.”

“are you driving?”

“yeah.”

“okay, baby. send it to me when you can.”

your eyes well up once again. “did you finish your mission?”

“no. i’d just gotten here. it’s probably better that way, ijichi isn’t far. i’ll be there soon as i can, okay?”

“okay. i—i’m sorry.”

“why are you sorry?”

you can’t hold back a gasp, a sob, any iteration of failure that might fit. “satoru,” you say, wishing so badly that he was right there with you. “i should’ve stayed home. megumi shouldn’t have found her, he shouldn’t have—“

“you think this is you fault?”

“i just—i shouldn’t have left them alone. what if—“

“no.” satoru is almost whining, but not quite. “megumi isn’t six anymore, sweetheart. he’s fourteen. he’s alone all of the time. how were you supposed to know—“

“i’m their mom. i’m supposed to protect them from stuff like this.”

“you can’t control when something bad happens.”

“i can’t—she’s—“

“we’re going to figure it out. tsumiki’s strong—she’s probably the strongest of all of us. she’ll be fine.”

“you don’t know that.”

“i do.”

“why’d this have to happen to her? to our little—“ you stop, feeling that digging in the pit of your soul. that tiny little chant—failure, failure, failure.

“i don’t know,” satoru whispers. “i’m sorry.”

“why are you sorry?”

“i don’t know,” he whispers again.

“is ijichi there yet?”

“almost.”

“okay.”

“hey,” he says, again, in some kind of secret language. “it’s going to be fine.”

“okay.”

“are you still driving, baby?”

“i’m almost there. one, two minutes.”

“want me to stay on the phone?”

“yes.”

“okay. i’m right here. i’m almost there,” and he says it over and over.

hoping that maybe it’ll come true.

though, you’re not quite sure that satoru will ever get there fast enough.

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OMGGG i just read "a typical family" IT WAS SOOO GOOD 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ youre an amazing writer!!

thank you 🙏🙏🙏🙏 glad the torture i went through isn’t going to waste

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Hmm, I suppose that makes sense. I completely get the fascination with the imagery of water.. I've always loved bodies of water so it was a beautiful movie to watch in that sense too.

:/// I deserved a gold star..

Cooking~ do you get to do it often? I enjoy cooking, unless I don't know what to cook, in which case there's nothing more torturous. Hmm.. I like the usual stuff. Music, reading, watching movies/shows. Interesting interests...

Nah, I'm a pretty mundane person. A cliche once you get to know me but that's kinda fun for whoever is on the receiving end lol

I need to go cook now. I've yet to have breakfast...

did you? i didn’t get the memo

if i don’t cook for myself then i would go hungry. so yeah, pretty often. mostly just for necessity sake, but i think it’s fun anyway. not knowing what to cook is the bane of my existence, or when nothing sounds good but i know that there’s something i want. truly evil.

i looove cliches. what’s the point of life if not to be like every other person?

thinking about it my life is severely boring but my mind is a whirlwind so i’m typically never bored. just restless, at the most.

mmm breakfast. i like to eat breakfast during lunch time.

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Reminded me of Ponyo

real

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i say yes for megumi friends to lovers trope! 🥹🩷

anyone who says no does not have a valid opinion

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I need satoru and reader to actually confront some of their issues bro😭😭😭 I feel like they would after so long and them just pushing eachother away every time they get upset hurts. Like their relationship doesn’t feel serious 💀😭😭 they don’t have to confront everything all at once but I definitely think they would start communicating better and not just keep going in a loop. I love angst and hurt comfort but I need more comfort 😩

the thing about their relationship is that it is so unserious.

i mean, both of them have grown up in places where everything was overtly serious—reader had to grow up and learn how to take care of herself, and satoru has always had to be a grown up, the strongest.

so although i agree that they never really talk out their issues, necessarily (or at least not on screen)—they also don’t need to.

there’s a strong understanding between the two of them. and something a lot of people miss (or i don’t describe very well lol) is that reader needs someone like satoru—someone who doesn’t want to be serious, or talk about everything—and satoru needs someone like reader—someone to care, someone to keep him grounded.

and when they’re avoiding each other, it’s because there’s so much that both of them need to comprehend. and understanding someone like that can be very fulfilling, but also equally exhausting.

also! i must add that i really don’t write about a lot of every day things for them—because it’s not very… helpful in guiding plot purposes. but they fight a lot less than as seen. or there’s subtle corrections:

“satoru, if you keep leaving your disgusting mugs in the sink, i’m going to plunge all six of your eyes from out of your skull.”

“that’s impossible.”

a harsh glare and satoru holds his hands up in defense. “okay. no more mugs. how about bowls?”

“satoru—“

or in a more serious case:

“please stop telling megumi that he should be on the lookout for curses at school.”

“it’s a school,” satoru points out. “and megumi is basically a beacon of cursed energy.”

“that doesn’t mean he needs to worry about it every second of the day.”

“he needs to keep his guard up. it’s good practice.”

“he doesn’t need to do anything.”

satoru smiles. “sweetheart, do you want him to be hurt at school? in front of his classmates?”

“well…”

“he’s a strong kid, and he already knows about them. you can’t just expect him to forget because you’d rather him not care.”

you pout.

satoru kisses the top of your head. “he’s just going to go down to the nurses office and call one of us, just so we know.”

“fine. but i’m not dealing with it.”

“wow, you’re a real slacker, you know?”

readers biggest flaw is that she wants to deal with everything on her own, and she thinks that the world is naturally evil. she’s good at talking her feelings out—but sometimes feelings aren’t logical. they can’t be. and living with two children is definitely helping her realize that.

satoru’s biggest flaw is that he’s spent his whole life holding everyone at arms length. infinity is a huge clue to his character, and how he relates to others (it’s my favorite detail about him, can you tell??). but he has to let it go, release his limitless technique, so he can get close to reader and the kids.

they’re taking steps, albeit baby ones, but steps nonetheless.

(plus, with their relationships in the past, the moment something’s gone wrong, people leave. so they both have abandonment issues, and yes, it’s so much easier to avoid a conversation than risk losing the person you love most in the world).

it also feels important to note that parents (most of them, at least) can’t focus so much on themselves. and it plays a big role in struggling families and relationship problems. because having kids is a devotion, a huge responsibility, there’s less time for other things.

so really, i think they’re doing pretty good. i mean, if toji hadn’t died—or hadn’t existed—their relationship would be more developed, obviously. stronger. but for their circumstance, they’re two very strong and intelligent people.

and they love each other, so what else matters?

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OMG yes please!!!!! friends to lovers it is!! in case you if you decide to do it, i'll be the first one to read it hmph!!😤😤🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

i love you so much!!! <3

-Juxi

it’s a challenge, then. i am seriously drained for words but my soul knows that megumi falls in love with pretty much anyone who is nice to him. i can feel that.

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Lmaoooo your legacy deserves better.

Ohhhh I want to pick out the little bits you've held onto, wander into your mind and see where they lay, what shelves and corners it's colourful creatures occupy. I wanna know more, but I'll take what you give me. Oh god, song of achilles. That's a wound that feels like a bruise everytime I brush my hand over it.. I, too, only ever managed to read it once.

Thank you, I'll take a gold star (please)

Aside from writing, do you have other things you like to indulge in?

soo true

just the water imagery and the idea of a goldfish turning into a girl. i don’t even remember most of the story, to be honest. whenever i watch it now its a completely different movie. i’ve even tried to listen to the audiobook but i can never finish it. i have to physically separate myself from it or otherwise id be in a constant state of despair (even more so than currently :p)

nah, i think i’ll go with a good “nice try!” sticker instead

umm… reading. binge watching tv… oh! i like to cook, i guess. i don’t know i kind of just absorb things like a sponge and then squeeze them out. how about you? any more interesting interests?

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I mean it sorta sounds like you're seeking out becoming immortal.. Or do you just not want an mc tragic death?

Ohhh that's interesting... So its organised chaos. What's a movie/show/book/piece of literature that altered your brain chemistry?

I just watched past lives last night and finished it off this morning and it twisted something inside of me that I thought died when I was 8. My tmi for the day, you're welcome.

i just don’t want to be tricked by my enemies 🙄 i’m too prideful for that

mmm when i was a kid i used to watch ponyo with my brothers and something about stuck with me because like two years ago i randomly remembered it and then watched it fourish times straight. also the song of achilles—read it in one day and ive only been able to finish it once since

i looked that movie up and i think a piece of my soul would crack if i attempted to watch it so… congrats for surviving!

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now this isn’t what i meant but soooo relatable

i am fighting demons!!! in my own home!!!!