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Rant on SPN finale

Obviously SPOILERS ahead

Whoa, this got a lot longer than I anticipated. And I have a suspicion I forgot to add something, but hey, I had to vent.

I just binged the last few episodes of Supernatural, on a very legal site. It took me quite a few tries to get back into it, because by the time the end came, I thought the show was stupid. And i still kind of think it is, Somewhere around leviathans and cain’s mark it went downhill. It was getting more tangled into itself and the stories weren’t enjoyable anymore. 

So when they announced this is gonna be the last season, I was rather relieved. Yeah, there’s enough episodes to rewatch and have good time reminiscing about the old times. And it lets the show finish on a note that is not the worst out there. 

I still stand by that. Most of the season was boring, predictable in a way. But towards the end, episodes 18 and 19 weren’t bad.

Let’s not comment on Destiel’s weird and awkward confession, during which i had to look away and nervously laugh to survive the second hand embarrassment. It was quite out of place and I think the perfect happiness thing would work out a lot better if it was Dean suddenly realizing Cas is about to sacrifice himself and confess. But hey, we go by bury your gays in this show, so that can’t happen and instead we get a half-assed reaction from Dean, who doesn’t pick up the phone to inform his beloved brother that it was all Chuck’s doing and instead kind of sort of cries. I mean, they could have at least texted Sam it’s the Death, it’s the God, it’s worse. But that’s just my logic and common sense speaking, sorry. I do realize I started this paragraph with let’s not comment, but I had to. 

And maybe this makes me a bad person, but  I am glad, that Sam didn’t get to Eileen on time. Their whole relationship seemed forced, maybe because it was mainly Chuck’s doing, but nonetheless, I wasn’t really on board of that ship.  Besides, if Cas and Dean, don’t get their - hinted at - happy ending, why should Sam and Eileen get one. Because that one’s straight? No, thanks. Not to mention Cas’ death seemed kind of glossed over... I don’t want to get into that, but that was a part I didn’t like in the slightest. 

Jack apparently had to die several times in an episode to be a proper Winchester and catch up on the total deaths count. I love Jack, he is very adorable and Dean’s way of treating him got on my nerves a lot. I’m not saying he should have forgiven him faster or at all. But the kid wanted to sacrifice himself for them - and the world- he could have appreciated it a bit more than saying he is no one or nothing. That was a moment where I lost all hope for Dean.

The first time I thought of Jack becoming God was when they mentioned that somebody has to fill up the place after Chuck and Amara are gone. For some reason, they never really considered Jack to be the one to do it, even before they knew he was supposed to die. Which baffles me, because he proved time and time again, he is on their side and he is good. But whatever, him actually becoming God was probably the best thing to come out of this ending. The worst scene was when Chuck was laying powerless on the ground and they fucking explained step by step what happened. Talk about spoon feeding the audience. I hated that part with flashbacks and all. I’d understand if it were something that happened long time ago and only now became useful, but it all started in the previous episode at most. They super obviously left Chuck to rot, because he deserves it. But it was obvious since the first moment he started talking about it being a poetic ending and Dean being a killer, when Cas just told him he is not... Then a super religious Jack monologue when they brought back the humanity. Although I am not sure who he did bring back. I kept thinking about Eileen and if Sam wouldn’t want to get back to her or something, but apparently he forgot already. 

The 19th episode ended somewhat fanfictiony when you think about it. Just the two of them, free and in peace riding into the sunset while clips from previous episodes flash on the screen. (A lot of them were from Gabe’s episodes, kudos for that) I have seen quite a lot posts about similar ending and with maybe it prolonged for a minute, we could the end with carry on playing in the background. That would have been nice. 

Now, when I watched it, I was about halfway through the season when I googled how many episodes does it have. Because I thought 20 is not enough, I remembered there being around 22 or 23. It showed 20, so I continued watching. When I was watching the 19th episode, I kept thinking, this is a good end, that it was not bad. But I also kept thinking, what is going on, there is another episode. And I read somewhere, that the finale is supposed to be longer, but that part of it was just behind the scenes and stuff. So I thought, the 20th episode I see on the website is that, behind the scenes. I stopped the episode at some point after th drive into sunset started, still thinking there is another one after it when I googled  again season 15 episodes. For some reason it showed 19 and I thought I was robbed of that feeling of THE END at the finish of something that was such a huge part of my life. I was so confused. Then I started the 20th episode, thinking already it is indeed behind the scenes, only to find out there is another episode. 

I did cry at the final ending, but I also kept thinking it was stupid. The whole episode was stupid and completely unnecessary (I mean they spent ten minutes on Dean conversing with Sam, impaled on a pole...). I guess it was the final happy ending. But when Bobby mentioned Cas helped Jack rebuild the heaven, I expected a little more than just a smirk from Dean. I mean, I would have been completely okay if they just hugged reuniting, meaning they had sort of happy ending, with Cas occasionally checking in on Dean. Anything really, after the queerbaiting... But what should I expect after the same person who killed Queliot essentially killed Destiel too. 

Then the whole montage of Sam living his life to the fullest and Dean driving Baby in the heaven. I lost it when they showed Sam’s kid wearing overalls wth his name on it. That was ridiculous. Dean stopped at the most random bridge, just to have a nice shot with the crew I’d guess. And super obviously Sam appers behind him, I could tell and hour in advance (complete exaggeration) that he’s gonna say Hey, Sammy. Because this last season was riddled with bad throwbacks. This particular scene reminded me of The Untamed last scene, which played out very similarly, except way better(Honestly, everything is better, if you like chinese drama, you’ll love this one.  It’s gay, although censored and originates from a book) 

It was as if Dean didn’t deserve to live his life to the fullest on Earth. Maybe they wouldn’t get families if they stayed together and continued hunting, okay I can get over that. But when Sam’s kid told him it’s okay, he can go now, that was some high level cringe. I get it was because Dean wanted Sam to say it to him, but their whole conversation was very cringe at the time. 

Well, I decided that episode 20 does not exist and I do not accept any criticism on that. They could have used Carry on my wayward son in episode 19 and that would have been a better ending.

Thank you for reading through if you’ve read through it all. Thank you.

[lokisarmyfirstwarrior]

you get a destiel veterans discount if you understand what the words twist and shout mean

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Destiel

So I havenpt used this site for over a year at the very least. I left a lot of stuff unfinished for which i am sorry, because i never wanted to be that person that leaves readers and fans on a cliffhanger. Not that I have any readers or fans, but still. Thank you to anyone who interacted! That’s not the reason I write this however. 

Although I haven’t watched the second half of the latest supernatural season I learned today that destiel just became canon and i had to rant somewhere (Along with the news that putin is resigning) .  When I stumbled upon this information accidentaly on twitter, i was confused greatly for I did not expect that, even though it’s the last season and i guess they wanted to please the fans. It’s quite unexpected and when i found out it’s true, i couldn’t stop laughing for a good while. Haven’t seen it yet and I’ll probably wait until the finale to binge watch it, but this is so amazing, I had to share. To rant somewhere. I am in awe.

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So this is a WIP for my commission for this month´s @gabriel-monthly-challenge ´s aesthetic prompt. Fire and ice, elemental Gabriel being torn inside.... Well that was the idea behind this work. Unfortunately I didn´t have the time to finish up this piece before the end of month, so i am posting only WIP, to still be in time. Stay tuned for the finished version. I do promise to finish it eventually :D

@archangelgabriellives @archangelsanonymous @revwinchester @ttttrickster @archangel-with-a-shotgun @warlockwriter

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It's a belated happy birthday to our adorable little bunny 🐰

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This set of gifs has added 20 years to my lifespan

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Rise Dragon Riders

I need to know that the Inheritance Cycle fandom is not dead yet. Please reblog so I can know that there are still people out there who remember and cherish these books. I CANNOT BE THE ONLY ONE LEFT

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If you have read Eragon (The Inheritance Cycle ) reblog this.

My friend doesn’t belive there are others whom have read it.

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Death Note (spoilers)

I have been a fan of Death Note for a longer time now, anime mainly. But I´ve also seen the live action films and even the short series...

Now those at least tried to stick to the original one..

But now, I´ve just seen the Death Note by Netflix and oh my goodness that was bad. I cringed, or yelled bullshit at least every three minutes.

I´ve read somewhere that this one should be only a film based on the concept of death note, different characters, different setting... And that might have worked out, if only they had done it that way

Light Turner? The equivalent of Raito, however  only the name is the same..

Misa Amane? Who is that?    Although there was a girl that fell in love with Light, but completely different circumstances....

L? Ok, I could get over the fact that he was black, different setting.. makes sense. But his behaviour? They made him so idiotic, they degraded him so much. In anime, he missed Watari, that was the death by Kira that touched him the most. But in this fricking film? They made him lose his mind over this, He chased after Light with a gun, with the intention of killing him, he hated him and he was 100% sure he was Kira. No “you are my first friend Light” which gave their relationship so much more depth.

Ryuk? He was too serious. In anime and in the live action films, and mostly in the series, he was joking all the time, light hearted with no care for the world. He didn´t care about the rules of Death Note, he was a spectator most of the time. Not according to Netflix.. they made him this kind of messenger of death note, he only possessed it for the time until he gave it to somebody else. Not to mention he was practically non existent creepy figure in the background. 

And don´t even let me mention Watari... poor man.

There were so many holes... “How did you get this information? I have no idea, it was in the script.” As if they didn´t know how to get the info, so they just invented some bullshit that sounded smart. 

Urgh, I hate this film, another american remake that just dishonoured the original artwork...

Although there was one good thing about it. I liked the soundtrack. I must give them that.

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As I said, Namjoon is here next!

The colours are a bit brighter than intended, but I like it anyway.

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Spider-Man: Homecoming

SPOILER ALERT!! So I went to see the new Spider-man... The film was quite good, had its moments, but what I want to talk about are post credits scenes. I've seen several posts about how marvel has us completely hooked with the credits scenes. How we are fine with sitting through all the credits for a few seconds more... And they are completely aware of their influence. Here's the story: We were sitting in almost the highest row, so we saw most of the cinema. Now, the usual amount of people left during the first credits(about 85%) We laughed, ha they're gonna miss it.. There was a scene afterwards, ok cool, several more people left. But with Marvel you never know, so we stayed. At this point there are like ten people there... A few rows beneath us, three guys stood up after the scene and started leaving, but then halted and after a brief discussion, decided to stay until the end. So we sit there, watching the credits, no scene... When suddenly the credits come to the end and fake Captain America waltzed onto the screen and proceeds to talk about how patience is so good... So yeah, Marvel made us sit there until the end and then lectured us that sometimes you wait for a disappointment. SCREW YOU MARVEL, I'll do it again next time.

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Not that long ago I became a huge fan of BTS

And although I can´t decide who my bias is, I like Jin a lot, so here have a drawing of him :D

I would like to draw also other members, especially jhope and rapmon, so stay tuned :)

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OKAY TUMBLR. IT'S TIME TO SETTLE THIS ONCE AND FOR ALL.

Reblog this if you pronounce “.gif” as “GIF.”

NOT JIF,

GIF.

And here is the link for the opposite.

WE SHALL SEE WHICH ONE PREVAILS.

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Let's run away

Pairing: Sabriel 

A/N: This was written for April’s Gabriel Monthly Challenge. Finished a bit more than hourbefore deadline… I got inspired by their statement prompt again! Also, have no idea what the word count is 

Summary: Gabriel is a photographer, Sam is his client. Gabriel should take Sam’s wedding photos, but what if the marriage is not what makes Sam happy? 

Tags: @gabriel-monthly-challenge, @lacqueluster, @revwinchester, @archangel-with-a-shotgun

Gabriel was sitting in his office, facing the whole-wall window with his mahogany table behind him. The office was in grey colours, modern and stylish, but that much colder. A bit too fancy for a photographer. But Gabriel was told by his boss that in order to become a professional photographer he needs to have an office. A posh one. So to balance the harshness of the room, he wore mainly warm colours and almost never suit. That day it was a brown leather jacket, yellow-golden trousers and vanilla t-shirt. His honey eyes were following the raindrops racing down the window. The rain was heavy, but somehow it wasn’t dark outside. Not completely. He sighed heavily and leaned his head back. Needless to say he was quite bored, and lonely. During high school and university, he has been known as the Trickster. All joking and with the maddest ideas. However it changed after he graduated. He struggled. He was a talented photographer, but that didn’t secure him a job. That lasted for a bit longer than year, but he almost got kicked out of his flat. He managed, but he got into depression and that soon resulted in his girlfriend Kali breaking up with him. He started drinking. A lot. He ended up in mental hospital, with his camera, a few personal belongings and no flat. Photography was his only passion, the only thing that kept him alive. The doctors noticed his photos were almost professional and one of them showed them to a friend, who happened to own a wedding company in need of a photographer. After Gabriel got better, he was contacted by that man, who hired him. Under one condition, that is. Gabriel couldn’t touch alcohol no more. Gabriel agreed as he wanted and needed the job. So he watched the droplets run down the glass, occasionaly merging with others on their way down. He spun around, facing the table once again, just as the door opened. He lifted his gaze to see a gorgeous man enter the room. He was tall with dark brown hair that curled at the base of his neck. His suit fit him well, but his eyes were empty. He seemed young, as if he came freshly from university. “Let me guess.” Gabe put on a smile. “Your parents have anniversary and you want them to reenact their wedding, so that I can take beautiful photos of them.” He left it hanging in the air for a bit as the client seemed rather stunned and.. nervous. “Uhmmm, no. Actually, it’s…” The man still standing close to door halted, seemingly unable to say what was the business. “Ok. Now,calm down. Sit here and tell me what is the situation.” Gabriel sat there in silence, anticipating an explanation, while the tall man sat down and looked at his fidgeting hands in his lap. His eyes flew up to look at Gabriel several times, but he remained silent. Gabe was getting impatient with the client and tried to stay calm. “Tell me your name at least. I won’t bite.” The client relaxed a bit, looking up and breathing deeply. “Sam Winchester. I want you to be a photographer at my wedding.” Gabe’s mouth fell open. His wedding? “Sorry for being rude, but isn’t it too soon to be marrying?” “It’s arranged.” He said sternly, leaving no space for further questions. Of course Gabriel didn’t like the sound of that, but he didn’t want to pry, so instead he decided to arrange the job details.

It was supposed to be a day off for Gabriel and so he planned to go into nature and take photos to relax. But apparently weather felt really sad because it was raining again. Gabriel put his feet up on his table in his office, listening to the rain. He opened his laptop on his knees and looked at old photos. Memories filled his mind and he got so far in his photos he suddenly saw Kali. It was a selfie, he was smiling into the camera and Kali had her arms wrapped around Gabriel’s neck. She was smiling, her red lips beautiful on her dark skin, eyes glowing with happines. She was beautiful and Gabriel’s heart clenched at the sight of her. If she just saw him now. Just then somebody knocked on the door. Gabriel instantly closed the folder and photo and put his laptop back on his table. “Enter.” He said loudly. The door opened and Sam walked in. Gabriel stopped breathing for a while. This couldn’t be a coincidence. He somehow developed a crush on this man. He was dressed in grey sweatpants and jacket with a big sport bag on his shoulder. His hair was constrained with a thin band positioned above his eyebrows. “Sorry it’s so sudden, but I got a call from my… uh… fiancee… and I was rather close by so I stopped here…” “You know you’re lucky?” Sam lifted one eyebrow. “Really?” “Yes, I wanted to go to countryside for some photos… but it’s raining.” Gabe motioned towards his glass wall, where water obscured the vision. “Oh, that’s pity. I like your photos.” It seemed as if he regreted he said that, as if he only blurted that out without thinking. “Oh, thanks.” Gabriel was taken aback by that before he regained his composure. “Anyway, you wanted something?” “Ah, yes, my fiancee…. she said she wanted photos somewhere near a castle….? And also in mountains… I’m sorry, I feel like I will be dragging you all over the place… for nothing.” “Don’t be. It’s not your idea… I wonder when I’ll meet your to-be-wife.” “She’s really busy. I am afraid it won’t be before the actual wedding…” Sam looked apologetic and it made Gabriel sad. Sam didn’t do anything wrong, yet he was there, apologising for everything. “That’s… unfortunate.” Silence covered them for a long while, when both of them seemed to be lost in their thoughts, about Sam’s girlfriend. “But taking photos at different locations shouldn’t be a problem. It just might be a bit uncomfortable in a gown… Also, I forgot about this the first time you came, but here’s my number in case your girl changes her mind again.” Gabriel extended his hand with a card in it and Sam took it, immediately putting the number into his phone. “Thank you.” “If that’s all?” Gabriel slowly stood up and waited for Sam to react. Sam was silent, unmoving for a while before he stood up too and reached out to shake hands with Gabriel. Gabe, however,ignored the gesture and went to his door, opening it. Sam’s shoulders fell in disappointment as he passed Gabriel, but Gabriel walked out too and closed the door behind himself, locking it. “I thought I’ll call it a day and leave, since I was supposed to have a day off…” Gabriel shrugged and started walking down the corridor, with Sam next to him. Gabriel tried hard to ignore the height difference between them and just chat lightly.

Sam and Gabriel were getting along very well, even going out for a beer once or twice since they exchanged numbers. They didn’t talk about the wedding or Gabriel’s past. And Sam called quite often, be it a change in the arrangement or just quick five minute chat, so it wasn’t much of a surprise when Gabriel’s phone rang that morning, Sam’s name on the screen. Sam wanted Gabriel to come to a sports hall, where he was training. He said he didn’t have time the whole day, but needed to tell him something. Personally. Gabriel agreed, although he hesitated for a while. He realised some time ago that he was developing feelings for the boy and didn’t want to encourage it by meeting him outside work more than needed. But Sam sounded really distressed and Gabriel couldn’t help, but go there. He sat down on an empty seat in the highest row and watched Sam run from one side to the other. He was in black short sweatpants and white sleeveless t-shirt, with his hair pulled back into a messy ponytail. His mouth was slightly opened from breathing hard and his skin glistened from being covered in sweat. Loose strands of hair stuck to his wet temples. His expression focused and serious, yet his sparkled with joy and playfulness. It was the first time Gabriel saw Sam playing basketball, and he loved it. It seemed as if Sam was in entirely different world, without any problems that this world offered. After the final whistle echoed throughout the almost empty hall, Sam stopped and looked around. His eyes stopped on Gabriel and he smiled, waving his arm. He jogged up the stairs right to where Gabriel sat and greeted him. “You said you wanted to continue what your father started and lead the company, but down there it didn’t seem like that was what your heart wants.” Gabriel pointed out. Sam frowned. “I was looking forward to seeing you and this is how you greet me?” Gabriel just shrugged. “Ever since I was little, I dreamed of being a basketball player, and my parents let me practise, so I thought this dream just might come true. Only recently I realised I can’t do what I want. That my future has been decided even before I was born. The marriage…. She’s flirty and checks out every guy she sees. In front of me and when with friends… I don’t care, not about that. But she behaves like an angel in frontt of our parents, so if I try to defy them, even the slightest bit, I am ungrateful brat. They set her as an example to me. When I play…. it’s my only escape.” The sudden outburst of emotions and thoughts surprised both Sam and Gabriel. But what was more sudden for them, was Gabriel nearly jumping up and embracing Sam. Gabriel felt like a fool and he jumped away quickly, apologising. Sam was stunned for a while. “Screw it.” He muttered before closing the distance between them and bowing down to plant his lips on top of Gabriel’s.

Two weeks later Gabriel sat in his office, waiting for Sam with his parents. He was nervous. Not only because his parents were kind of famous, and rich and probably strict. They were Sam’s parents! During these past weeks, Sam and Gabriel developed somewhat of a relationship. Not quite lovers, but they went on dates. Mostly to other towns, so that people wouldn’t see them together. They arrived, and the first one to step into his office was Sam, so with Gabriel they shared a quick warm smile. Gabriel shook hands with both of Sam’s parents. His mother was beautiful, dressed in the newest designer clothes. Her blond hair was cropped short, just under her jaw. His father was tall, not taller than Sam, though, and in expensive looking grey suit. He had stubble and rectangular glasses. They both sat down and let Sam stand behind them. “We are here to arrange pre-marriage photos. Ours and Serena’s company will unite once the wedding takes place.” That was the first time Gabriel heard Sam’s to-be-wife’s name. “We want a nature themed photoshoot. Like an elf and a fairy. Let’s make it fantasy themed too. Sam has longer hair, so we can braid it.” Gabriel looked at Sam quickly, who gave him apologetic look. The Winchesters talked for more than thirty minutes and then they finally left. Sam stayed back, with the excuse that he will go and train a bit before going home. Gabriel kissed Sam lightly before almost kicking him out. Gabriel needed thinking time, alone.

The fantasy photoshoot was a while ago. Gabriel found out that what Sam said about Serena was true. She even flirted with him, in front of Sam. He could sense that the tall boy was uncomfortable and ignored Serena most of the time. She could as well be a ghost. That however didn’t go unnoticed by the couple’s parents and Sam got grounded. Now they suspected something was going on between Sam and Gabriel. Gabe tried to meet Sam at the sports hall, but Sam didn’t come to any of his trainings. He tried texting him, but he got no replies. Gabriel soon fell back into his routine, back into feeling lonely. Back with no Sam. There was only the ineviable date of Sam’s wedding. Second after second it was getting closer and Sam further. Gabriel was getting increasingly sadder.

It was the day of the wedding, Gabriel put on his suit and packed his camera. The wedding was located at a nice site with a church in gothic style with a huge garden in full bloom. Before it all started, Gabriel let himself wander in the garden and take some photos to relax his stressed nerves. Gabriel stood at the back of the church as he wasn’t responsible for the photos taken at the ceremony, watching Serena in her magnificent gown walk down the aisle. From distance he watched the man he came to love in white suit with golden ornaments and tie. He looked handsome as ever, and Gabriel’s heart constricted. It was time for Serena to say her I do, and she did it gracefully with smile on her lips. Then it was Sam’s turn. He hesitated, looked around the church and when he saw Gabriel in the back, he straightened to his full height. He muttered something to Serena, then looked briefly at his parents. Sam walked with determined steps towards the exit, rising a wave of murmurs around the church. He grabbed Gabriel’s hand and whispered. “Let’s run away.” With that they started running, far away from that church, far from responsibilities and far from everything.

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Oh, but we do. Being from Slovakia, it's rather relevant topic in tv and radio, and we talk about it a lot at school. There just has been a lot bigger fuss around Trump and good ol' 'murica, so Turkey slowly turning into dictatorship slipped under the radar of many people. Another thing is that it seems majority of Tumblr is made up of Americans...

I’ve seen a lot of shit on tumblr about how America is going to shit, but is no one going to talk about Erdogan who just won a majority vote that allows him to change the constitution and enforce the following:

• He can now directly appoint top public officials including ministers and Vice Presidents.

• The prime minister has been basically scrapped.

• He now has the power to intervene in judiciary powers.

Yeah and he wants to introduce the death penalty.

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Well, Robbie is so short almost anybody would be taller than him :D

Mark Pellegrino is tall compared to Rob benedict and i just cry because that means Chuck will be smaller than Lucifer in height while using their vessels if they ever interact again ;-;

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I can't even write one motivation letter. I'm so demotivated that I can't motivate others to accept me. Urgh, universities.