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Rafael Silva via Instagram stories. January, 4, 2024.

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Rafael Silva via Instagram stories. January, 4, 2024.

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Rafael Silva via Instagram. January 4, 2024.

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The person I reblogged this from is someone I enjoy seeing on my dashboard.

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Holy shit Ahella this is so bad oh my god!!!!! I can only imagine how a wound like that feels like Gosh. Get well soon and rest well 💔 I read every word on your last post and it really hit me, I'm sending you so much strength baby. i know there is really nothing i could say to make this feel a little less insane but please know you're not alone. I'm trying my best to take action. I went to a protest with my friends and their cousins last weekend (third time for me to join a pro palestinian protest), I'm aggressively boycotting everything that supports Isr*el, and I'll never stop taking action. I'm appalled by everything I've been seeing and learning for the past three months. I can't believe it's been 84 days of this absolute madness and there is still no ceasefire. The very bare minimum!! You're so right, we cannot continue to live in a world that has no red lines like that. Again I'm sending you a tight hug Ahella. You're not alone. this year is ending and I do not feel the spirit of celebrating holidays and a new year either but I hope you're surrounded by loved ones at least to see you through those times. We're truly going through some of the darkest times in modern history but it is always darkest before dawn. I have faith in liberation more than this unhinged evil

Gonna cry stoppp, I'm hugging you back dear :')))) thank you so much for your kindness. It means a lot to me. And yes!! Keep pushing!! We can't stop. It's not an option. Like I know we're sick and tired of watching it through our screens for far too long so imagine what living a genocide feels like... And I'm glad you're able to go to protests with friends, I'm glad you're surrounded by a good company. Community is so important to achieve this.

I'm hopeful too. Very hopeful. People are so radicalised more than ever and I'll never back down on that trust in liberation. Because like you either fully and unconditionally stand with liberation or you sell yourself to the death cult by merely believing they're far too powerful to not last forever.

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hey guys, hi friends, how are you? I miss you. and i miss being here. This was supposed to be a "2023 is over, here is a summary" post but this is just a life update.

TW : wound (⚠️ it's gnarly, ok)

I know I've been MIA for the past two and half months, I've been struggling to write this post. I don't sleep well and I've lost weight. I've been struggling to sit and write about how I'm personally doing. Unable to express personal thoughts. Maybe because I'm the least important thing to me now. All I know is the gut wrenching screams of bleeding Falasteen. I can only tune in that collective suffering. That's where I belong. That's every human being's duty. June Jordan is right "Palestine's liberation is a litmus test of morality" I'll always go back to that quote because so many are failing it. So many disappointed me. It's like they made their humanity crumble into irrelevance the moment they reveled that showing up for humanity is optional and conditional depending on how comfortable and relevant it is to the white western values.

But simultaneously I've been feeling the tourniquet salvaging the wound. The strife for liberation is well and alive. Liberation and Decolonization had become mainstream concepts and practice (although some are still struggling to stay fully principled away from normalization but it's happening!). Like all arabs. I grew up watching the dead kids. The slingshots and rocks combating massive occupation tanks. I grow up haunted by the assassination of 11 year old Mohammed Al-Durrah, by Naji El Ali's Handala being a signature graffiti art in random streets, knowing that Israel assassinated Naji because he was a Palestinian artist. A truth teller. I grow up witnessing how they bulldozed 23 year old Rachel Corrie. I think often of Rayan Suleiman from last year. still haunted by his big rounded brown eyes — this 7 year old, chased by the terrorist zio occupation forces that he fell to the ground and died of a cardiac arrest. A 7 year old. His body shut down. Fear transcended his fragile anatomy that it shut down and died. I'll never forget the photo of his little body surrounded at the funeral by his friends. A bunch of 7 year olds. Starring into the void. not able to process what's happening because it's such an absurd concept. Kids consoling kids. My head hurts witnessing extermination campaigns and mass graves, and maimed bodies beyond recognition — WHOLE full fledged lives turned into literal dust. For 84 days straight now.

My brain, soul, spirit, psyche will never ever be the same again. And I pray this horror dig itself in the depth of the bones of the entirety of the fascist zionist world and their systems and fuel us to take action and never go back to statue quo!

On another note, I've had a quite terrible accident. A deep second degree burn as you can see. Accidentally spilled boiling water directly from a pot on the stove all over my left thigh. The pain is terrible obviously and I caught a really bad flu on top of it in the first couple of days because i wasn't able to cover it, wear pants or properly cover myself while I'm sleeping. So I've been bed ridden, bone-tired with fever and a massive wound.

Day 4 Day 7

Mind you this happened the day before i was supposed to start a new teaching job. Obviously wasn't able to show up and that was a bummer because i needed that job. desperately so and not just financially, I couldn't and can't handle anymore the anger, grief and anxiety pressuring my nervous system. I needed to start that new job immediately to refocus my daily life on a track again just to gain a routine so i could cope. Usually between jobs when I'm unemployed I thrive in doing nothing but my fan hobbies. Art, fandom and creating make my life so rich I could never get bored but in times like these "balancing grief and joy" is NOT an option.

And here is a thing. Because I've seen many many fucked up self-centred individualistic takes coming from white liberals telling us how we should feel (they always feel entitled, don't they), like the irony in the colonial paradigm harming us then offering us their therapy as the solution, coming with "protect your energy", "choose peace", "practice daily masturbation to relieve the stress of what's happening" (yes I watched this being directly and openly suggested on a panel about Palestine) imagine fucking telling somebody to go finger themselves and masturbate the stress of a GENOCIDE away.

The strangest manifestation of the white "self care" industrial complex, where people think they can therapize their way out of colonial mental consequences of bearing witness and being complicit in genocide. Maybe we're not meant to cope with this because it's literally beyond comprehension. Insane pathological narcissistic behaviour to think it's even a goal to feel good right now- if you want to"feel good" your only goal should be mobilising and organizing for revolution through action to destroy and dismantle the imperialist systems, to never go back to status quo!

On the physical aspect. I've been lucky, my dad has been taking care of me, taking me to the hospital visits, paying for my meds, cooking for me and all. And as I sit here, healing and being taken care of, I can't stop thinking of how I have resources, I have a roof over my head, warplanes are not buzzing in my ears 24/7, I get to sleep in my bed. I'm injured and I'm healing, able to sedate the pain with medicine. Can use the bathroom because there is water. But Palestinians in Gaza do not have any of that. None. Kids have their limbs amputated without anaesthesia amid ongoing denial of medical supplies into the strip. Some of them die of pain during that deadly surgical intervention. It makes me sick to my stomach. And I don't know what else to say tbh. I just know we live in a world that has no red lines and we can't continue to exist like that. Empire shall fall.

I genuinely don't know what to say, new year spirit and holidays mean nothing to me. My only new year resolution is to never again get numbed by the Empire. If standing for the lives of people of colour and their liberation is radical in a cesspool of white supremacy and imperialism, so radical it is.

I hope you're doing fine though. i hope you're well and okay. and to be honest I don't have it in me to ask about the fandom and how is it going.. It's probably going, I'm just not there at the moment. But i want to hear from you. How's life lately? What have you been up to? Also I am sorry if you've been tagging me in wips, games or sending me asks, I am genuinely sorry if I did not reply, I promise i see it and appreciate it ❤️‍🩹 I appreciate the special friendships and bonds I've formed in this fandom here, especially this year, and I don't wanna feel like I'm losing that.

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For the first time, Bethlehem has not set up a Christmas tree in Manger Square. Instead, it was replaced with a model representing the damage inflicted on Gaza. Only religious ceremonies will take place in the birthplace of Jesus.

This symbolism depicts the suffering of the first Palestinian refugee family, who endured oppression and displacement, fleeing to Egypt after the birth of Jesus Christ. The scene displays the immense destruction and imperialist-backed genocide over decades, a scene words alone cannot describe.

The Virgin Mary is seen embracing Jesus in a way resembling the mothers of martyrs, while Joseph comforts her amidst their deep sorrow. The angels hanging around the rubble represent the souls of children, martyrs of repeated massacres throughout history, starting from the massacre of Bethlehem's children by Herod at the time of Jesus' birth, through various historical massacres by colonial entities against the Palestinian people and their ancestors, up to the present-day massacres in Gaza by the occupation.

This year, the Magi will not bring gold, frankincense, and myrrh, but a white shroud. The shepherd, forced to leave the manger, walks away carrying a bundle symbolizing Palestinian displacement. The completely destroyed house mimics the traditional form of Jesus Christ's manger, while the roof, depicted from an "overhead view," is in the shape of the Gaza Strip. This time, it has been bombed, and its shattered roof forms a star from which light is emitted, inspired by the Star of Bethlehem. This light represents a message of great hope despite immense sorrow.

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"Palestinian protestors dressed as Santa Claus as they clashed with Israeli soldiers near the separation wall in the West Bank" 18/12/2015

Merry Christmas y'all.

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“Queers were here”

Graffiti in Ramallah, Palestine

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the absolute power these images hold

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Munther Isaac's Christmas message from Bethlehem. It's in English so there's no mistaking who needs to hear it. Please don't ignore it.

"We will be OK. Despite the immense blow we have endured, we, the Palestinians, will recover. We will rise. We will stand up again from the midst of destruction, as we have always done as Palestinians. Although this is, by far, maybe the biggest blow we have received in a long time, but we will be OK. But for those who are complicit, I feel sorry for you. Will you ever recover from this? Your charity and your words of shock after the genocide won't make a difference, and I know these words of shock are coming, and I know people will give generously for charity, but your words won't make a difference. Words of regret won't suffice for you. And let me say it; we will not accept your apology after the genocide. What has been done has been done. I want you to look in the mirror, and ask: Where was I when Gaza was going through a genocide?"

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Rafael Silva via Instagram. December 19 2023.

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i am so broken lol i am just flattened and feel absolutely hollow. everything is so backwards. It's so hard to trust people anymore.. I'm not looking for attention btw, this is just me going through my 9th rollercoaster wave and plummet of the day these days when the reality of human suffering hits me very hard.

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Rafael Silva via Instagram, December 3, 2023.

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not at all criticising op or anyone reblogging this PLEASE keep talking about palestine! The temporary ceasefire has ended this morning and the genocide is still happening! I just want to take the chance to bring more awareness about this UN orchestrated event and why we should not celebrate the International Day of Solidarity with the Palestinian People.

What is the premise of the UN's International Day of Solidarity with the Palestinian People? It is a reaffirmation of the UN's commitment to a two-state solution and the continued occupation of Palestinian land.

Pro-palestinians responding, celebrating and rallying on this day using the enemy's language word-for-word without context are inadvertently pushing a dangerous narrative. The very recognition of this international day of "solidarity" supports a narrative of normalization. These "observances" and "commemorations" cannot simply be depoliticized for the sake of basking in the compromising light of Western attention.

Pro palestinian organizations must uphold the highest level of accountability to the principles of liberation as a bare minimum of their existence. Anything stepping outside of those principles undermines their credibility and inadvertently contributes to the erasure of the Palestinian fight for liberation. Palestinians do not need an international day of solidarity, and certainly not one built on the premise of normalisation and served in a poisoned cup by the UN.

Palestinians have solidarity every day from the masses, the working class, and the oppressed who stand unequivocally with Palestine.

In the very language of this so-called day of solidarity, it does not say "Palestine" for a reason. It is carefully crafted to say "with the Palestinian People" watered-down language that masks the reality of the land occupation that the word "Palestine" threatens.

The UN has been complicit in the genocide and occupation of Palestinians since the beginning. Its policies and agencies are even designed to profit off the plight of palestinians through the disaster capitalism it perpetuates. They are even active enforcers of the siege on Ghaza, with a history of policies of reconstruction cooperating with "Israel". Not only does that legitimise the siege but also ensures the continued profiteering off the suffering of Palestinians.

Say no to this International Day of Normalization. We refuse the language of the enemy and their illegitimate events. We refuse this day of normalisation and everyone should call for accountability on any organisation that manufacture consent to oppression, ethnic cleansing and occupation through glorifying that event.

And for those who might be tempted to say "but we need a day for Palestinians" This is not your day, this is the day of your colonizier. Why would you celebrate palestinian solidarity on the day palestine was divided up in pieces 76 years ago?

Be aware of the colonizers' machinations. Remain principled and do not waver. Stay steadfast in the fight for liberation.

Today is the International Day of Solidarity with the Palestinian People. Keep talking about it. Keep it on the front page. Do not let a genocide continue in silence.