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hope was a dangerous, disquieting thing, but he thought perhaps he liked it

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Don’t mind me, I’ll be sharing some thoughts about me and Andreil right now.

Is funny how being a writer can change your way of seeing life, and it’s even crazier when you’re a reader.

My lazy afternoons consists, mainly, of living everyone else’s lives but mine. I write about someone I will never meet, I read about something I will never live and I daydream about things that would never happen.

Does anyone from my old posts remember a girl I used to talk about frequently? I don’t really think so, I’m actually glad people didn’t read my posts back then, but still. It has been over a year, but I’m not over her yet.

Some many things happened, nothing important, not really. No. I think that’s the main problem. Nothing happened.

Nothing.

When Neil told Andrew about him being nothing, because Andrew wants nothing, all I could dream about was being nothing to someone, because “nothing” as in the “absence of something” doesn’t make it less important. The absence of something doesn’t exclude you from feeling something. That’s what I love the most about Andrew and Neil and their relationship. There’s nothing, so what could you expect? If there’s nothing, you can’t feel left behind, abandoned or even betrayed. It’s just nothing. I like it.

I wish I had nothing with the one I love, instead, we have everything but nothing.

We have this completely different lives where somehow we met and we have this friendship that means so much but goes nowhere and this routine together because, again, somehow life made us meet each other but it doesn’t need to mean anything when it actually is everything I have. Because I read and I wrote about Neil and Andrew and their love thinking that one day it could be like us but I know it will never be true, because you are everything when I am just some thing.

Today I said to a friend “this year I’ll be a clown for Halloween.” As a joke, because after all this time, with me trying so hard and wanting so much, I made a fool of myself.

I understand why Andrew says he wants nothing. It’s less painful, because if you don’t want it, then it doesn’t matter if you didn’t get it.

And I, too, understand why Neil says he’s nothing, because that’s all Andrew ever wanted, and he didn’t need to do anything to be that. It was easy.

Stories always make it seem so easy, don’t they?

This is stupid.

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some sketches of my precious boys 🦋

usually i don’t post here but i love neil and jean so much that i decided to upload them here

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“The Golden Raven”

I am both a 2d and 3D artist but I have never attempted animation before so please don’t look at this too closely lmao but I’m really happy with how it turned out.

Im wanting to get more into animation and will be using aftg to do so, Neil (and maybe Andrew) are up next.

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AAAHDJWJDGAOHDKW

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CHAPTER 24 IS OUT GUYS

Here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/56393155/chapters/163842016

And here’s a few spoilers~

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I can’t imagine how annoyed Andrew must be to have a break from Exy, poor guy

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I love him so much

jean is genuinely so funny. he voiced what all of us were thinking.

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"misplaced forever partners"

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first forever partner friday of 2025? (comm for @ajmprnt through the @aftg4palestine fund!!)

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I have no excuse for this one. I woke up from a fever dream with this prompt in my notes app. I think Neil just really reminds me of a scruffy scavenger animal you'd find in a trashcan. Anyway bonus panel:

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inspired by the adam parrish version from @likeasecondself

🎨 art by the woman, the myth, the legend @rainbowd00dles

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OHMYGOD

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