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MARAMING SALAMAT 2023 ✨

Last Sunday service (Dec. 31), I can’t help but cry as I listen to testimonies of miracles. What really made me cry was the last part, sabi nung nagte-testimony, “yung makilala mo lang si Lord, and lumalim ka sa relationship mo [sa Kanya], 'yun yung miracle” - and that really hit me hard. Five minutes (or more) na siguro ‘yung preaching, nagpupunas at nagpipigil pa rin ako ng luha (as iyakin hahaha).

As the year ended and as I look back, 2023 was indeed full of surprises from God. My learnings and experiences made me know God even more. I have experienced healing from wounds I haven’t acknowledged and didn’t know existed. I have seen how mindful God is to me. I saw how limited and finite I am as a human, in need of an able and infinite God. My Creator really made Himself known to me 🥹🥹🥹

In all these, I’ve learned to actively choose to surrender to God every day. I don’t like to overthink and overanalyze things, so I just take things as they are. In 2023, I’ve learned not to dwell on things that steal my joy and peace. At the end of each day, I thank God for the things He allowed, and did not allow, knowing that He is protecting me, and He wants the best for me.

This 2024, I will continue to walk on the path God has prepared for me. I do not welcome any feelings of envy, intimidation or comparison, knowing that I have been and I am chosen without rival in the calling that I have, and in every area of my life. So, I pray for a heart that is always willing to obey, trusting God that He is leading me where I am meant to be. I am fully convinced that His love covers me, and there is no fear in love.

THANK YOU, LORD, FOR 2023 ✨ I WELCOME 2024 FULL OF HOPE KNOWING THAT YOU ARE AHEAD OF ME 💖

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Hahahahaha bakit ka nasa tumblr!!

Hayyy i miss the tumblr good times HAHAHA planning to write a post. Kaso andaming gustong sabihin ng utak ko, nung magta-type na sana ako parang na-lost for words ako 🤣🤣🤣

Hellooooo 😆😆 Since tayo na lang naman ata nandito, eto na lyf update ko emeeee

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Wow nasa tumblr ako ulit 🤣 selfie muna before mag-breakdown 🥴😂😂

This month is about to end, and it has been a roller coaster of emotions. I hope i can put in writing all the important things i've learned and experienced as i turned a year older, pero that would consume a lot of my time.

So, here i am posting something tonight as a reminder to myself to write 'pag napagtagumpayan na natin lahat ng kinakaharap natin wehe

And as alwayssss, and even more, i believe na "..in all these things, I am more than a conqueror through Christ who loved me." 🧡

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Wow, haven't been here for so long, but i just checked my drafts, and may mga sinulat pala 'ko rito??? Written around 2019 to 2020. In one of my drafts, i described those years as the hardest season of my life; 2020 - sino ba naman ang hindi? Pero 2019 ko sinulat yun 🙃

I'm here again just because I want to put this video here hehe. But i guess i'm gonna write na rin something to remind myself in the future 😆 as this video is not just nice to look at, but also gives me so much peace and unspeakable joy, specially now that i've read my drafts from 2019 & 2020.

Last year, on our VG's Christmas party, we wrote one word each to describe our 2021, and what we're looking forward to in the year 2022. I can't remember exactly how i described my 2021 - maybe overwhelming, or something synonymous to suffocating loljk. But my word for 2022: BREATHE.

And seeing this shot from my recent trip at Las Casas 🥺🥺 i'm overwhelmed on how God has been so good to me, and how favored I am all this time.

In 2019 and 2020, i have been crying out to God, telling Him how i feel like sinking most of the time. In one of my drafts, i wrote, "My heart is sinking. This season of my life... has been the hardest one for me. I've always chosen to see the beauty and positivity around me, but now, even the simplest thing became so complicated for me. I cry most of the time, out of frustration and exasperation." And reading this now, grabe, i can still remember how i was and how challenging life has been for me. But also reading my drafts now, made me see all the more how God carried me through it all 😭 Yes, kinarga lang talaga ko ni Lord, all the while being patient with me amidst all my complaints.

God has reminded me that this is not my home, and all these are temporary. The lack of problems and challenges in my life is not the reason i was able to "breathe" this year. But I realized now, the moment I surrendered to God all my cares and burdens (yung ginawa talaga, hindi lang sinasabi 🤣), is the reason why I'm able to run freely (refer to video hahaha di man 'yun run tho??). I still have the same big problems, (hayyy God knows 😩), i still worry and get nervous, but... i do not doubt God. At the end of each day, I am assured of His love and promises.

Like a fragile clay jar, i have this great treasure. Everything I have is from Him. I am pressed on every side by troubles, but not crushed; Perplexed, but not driven to despair; Hunted down, but never abandoned by God; Knocked down, but not destroyed. (2 Corinthians 4:5-10)

Remembering that this life is temporary made me just want to accomplish the good works God has prepared for me to do in His perfect time. I realized that the years I was really having a hard time, were the years I was trying to accomplish things according to my own plans and timeline - I was really frustrated that the things i wanted to happen, didn't happen. I was in doubt, full of questions and disappointments. But thank God my mind was renewed.

Just like my prayer on my last birthday, "In the coming days, there would be no disappointments, because I will put my hope only in You." 🧡

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“hbd - HAY BERNICE DUDE!”

KORNII MO LABYU HAHAHAHA

Always late, but never never.

YA! HEART HEART HAPPY HAPPY LAST TEEN BIRTHDAY!

Ang tanda mo na :( 

BOGOSHIPO, REALLY.

I couldn’t believe that it’s already a year since your debut happened. I could count in my hands the number of days we met each other in a year. WHYYY. I hate na months ang pagitan ng pagkikita natin :( But I’m happy too dahil minsan nakaka sneak tayo ng kahit mabilis na pagkikita lang :)

Tinext kita ng

hbd - HAY BERNICE DUDE!

Nagreply ka naman

ty - TEH YOW?

TAWA KA MUNA HAHAHAHA ANG CORNY KO

SERYOSO MISS KA NA NG KWARTO KO, NG BED KO.

LET’S MEET SOOOOOOON PLEASE!

Enough for the wishes, I know that the best life you deserve has already been planned ahead of your plans.

saeng il chuk ha ham ni da

saeng il chuk ha ham ni da

sarang ha neun YA shi

saeng il chuk ha ham ni da

I LOVE YOU!

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY!

XOXO, UNNIE.

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Hi Trish!!!!

Happy birthdayyyyy!!! We've known each other almost half of our lives, and have been sisters in Christ for (more than?) seven years now.

TOGETHER, we've rejoiced and praised God for the blessings He has given us, we’ve celebrated our individual milestones, we’ve cried over the painful challenges, struggles, and disappointments in life, we’ve seen each other be directed in a different path, and transition from season to season.

We've witnessed each other grow deeper in Christ.

We know almost all the important and most personal happenings in each other's lives. I think all these became very possible because literally, we were together. God sent and called us to be part of one community.

And now, it actually makes me emotional, because we both know naman that we were once again called to be in a different season. And in this season, we are no longer together. We have to grow now in different communities. Drama ba? Haha. Kinda sad, pero I really appreciate that you still let me know the important ganaps in your life for the past months. I still have a lot to say na ka-dramahan, but it's your birthday, and i want us to be happy. So, I really hope we get to see each other at least once a month. Kasi di ba, we're not getting any younger and in the coming seasons, it might be harder for us to see each other, ALAM MO NA 😏😏😏

Again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! I am really happy that you found a new home and that you have a new spiritual family now. I am genuinely happy for you in this new season. Alam mo Trish, sobrang gusto ko na maging masaya ka at matanggap mo lahat ng pagmamahal na deserve mo sa buhay!!! Kine-claim at dine-declare ko na ‘yun for you. Kaya ang prayer ko talaga is i-prepare ni Lord yung puso mo para sa lahat ng pagpapalang ibibigay niya Sa'yo in the coming days. Lalo na yung matagal na nating pinagppray!!!! My goodnessssss Trish, sobrang excited na 'ko for you!!! Iniisip ko pa lang, feeling ko OA pa 'kong umiyak kay Tita Ethel sa kasal mooooo!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I thank God for your life Trish, even if we're in different season and communities now, you're still a big part of my life. KAYA GRABE! KITA NA TAYO! CELEBRATE PA RIN TAYO TOGETHER 💖 OKAYYY??? SEE YOU 😊

I love you with the love of the Lord 💖

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~ 2019 셀카 of the month 😂~

jan - feb - mar

apr- may - june

july- aug - sept

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Huyyy, miss na (ulit) kita

replying after five years HAHAHAHA

i miss you so muchhh. i wanna hug you

My bed miss ya too >:D

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Keeping the memories...

Still on Tumblr?

Made a new blog... reblogged the old content

I can’t open my original blog, so i made this one. i have to keep all the memories i had here on Tumblr.

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Paggunita at pasasalamat

Hello to all, especially to the people who already know me five years ago. Many of you may already have forgotten, but I just want to share to you that it has already been FIVE YEARS. Well, more than sharing this to everyone, I am actually writing this for myself as a reminder of how God has been faithful in my life. But if someone’s actually reading this… Hi, this is my testimony.

So yes, it has been five years since I had an accident and had five fractures. Five years ago, same day and around this time, I was in the emergency room. I can still remember almost everything.. mula sa kung saan ako galing, anong ginawa ko before maaksidente, ‘yung mismong aksidente, sa emergency room, hanggang ma-confine ako sa ospital. ‘Yung ‘pag tinatanong ako kung hinimatay ba ako nung naipit ako ng jeep, hindi e. It’s still clear to me how people looked in my direction when it happened. Feeling ko nga una pa nilang na-realize na naaksidente ako kaysa sa akin haha. I can still remember na unti-unti akong nanghina, pabagsak na ako pero kinuha agad ako ng tricycle driver at sinakay sa trike niya. Di pa nga ako komportable nun dahil nilagay niya ako sa floor ng trike. Hoping pa ako nun na di malala ang nangyari sa akin dahil inupo ko pa ‘yung sarili ko sa upuan talaga. Sa isip ko nun, “sana hindi ako napilay, konting sugat lang ‘to tapos uuwi na ko mamaya sa bahay, secret ko na lang kina Mama.” Some people have asked me, “Edi umiiyak ka?” Well, gusto ko sana, kaso hindi e. Ang weird lang pero honestly, nung nasa trike papunta sa ospital, pinipilit kong umiyak para naman dramatic, pero walang lumabas kahit isang patak ng luha on our way to the hospital. One thing I’ve learned about myself is that I can tolerate excruciating pain, pero medyo mahina emotionally speaking. Little did I know na bubuhos ang luha pagdating sa emergency room. While very important to me and crucial to the story, the following events that happened would be very long if typewritten that’s why I’ll cut those parts. Maybe I’ll just write them some other time.. or not. It depends. The truth is those happenings are really heartbreaking for me and up to this day, still make me cry. What I can say is, my life has changed in many ways.

Magj-jump na’ko dun sa part after my operation. During those times, I had a lot of concerns, fears… for my future and all other things. Nun pa lang, marami na ‘kong pangarap sa buhay. I had plans on taking admission exams on three universities. Pero wala. Thankful ako dahil during that time, naka-schedule na’ko for UPCAT (thanks to PHS for making that possible). I’m sorry to write this pero hindi UP ang dream school ko. Don’t get me wrong, I have so much respect for UP even back then pero may mas gusto akong school haha. Pero pati UPCAT, nag-worry ako kung kaya ko na ba nun kasi it was scheduled na in a month. Eh ni hindi ko man kayang umupo nun. I had three broken pelvic bones, btw (at dalawa sa right knee). Hindi ko actually alam nun kung makakalakad pa ‘ko nang maayos on my own. The day before the accident nakikipaghabulan pa ‘ko sa classmates ko. So there were a lot of times I cried wondering if I could still be able to run and do the things I do. (Wait, iyak muna ‘ko… joke) So back to UPCAT, praise God dahil yung week ng exam, saktong nakakaupo na ko. Hindi ko na maalala ‘yung exam dahil ang mas naaalala ko, around 30 minutes after mag-start, sobrang nangangalay na ‘ko. After ng exam, ang nasa isip ko na lang nun, “UP or nothing.” I was 16 and a graduating high school student. Well, my whole UPCAT story and UP life is yet another long story so I wouldn’t include that here. But wow, pumasa akong UP! It still amazes me that NOW, I’m a college graduate. And I just have to say na I am not disappointed na hindi ako napunta sa dream university ko. Everything in UP is worth it and I have so so much love and respect for my university (sings UP Naming Mahal) haha.

As I look back, I want to thank all the people na naging bahagi ng part ng life kong ‘to. I praise God for the lives of my parents (who deserve a long appreciation post), family, relatives, friends, churchmates, classmates, teachers, schoolmates and everyone who prayed for me, gave financial and moral support. Also to my blood donors. I am forever thankful for each and every one. I can’t mention you all by name because super dami talaga. God and you know naman who you are :) Hanggang ngayon, I am overwhelmed for the love and care you’ve shown me. I speak blessings in your life.

And of course, throughout the story, God has been there. May times pa rin na iniisip ko na pwede namang hindi ‘to naging part ng life ko, ganyan. Pero syempre, God allowed it to happen and sabi Niya nga sa Isaiah 55:8, “my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways.” And it’s really true that He will not leave us or forsake us (Deut. 31:6, ESV). I can’t put into words all the things I feel right now but I’m just really amazed on how amazing God is, on how real my God is. Amidst my ranging thoughts and all my fears, I would still be able to sleep peacefully. We were not financially stable during those times but it was really God who provided. Gumaling ako faster than the expected time na sinabi ng doctor. He really is my comforter, provider, healer, my source of joy, strength and hope. I’m overwhelmed on how mindful He is to me. I still have a lot to say but if I say it all I wonder if matatapos ba ‘ko.

Five years ago, I could’ve lost my ability to walk forever, or I could’ve died. But behold! I’m still alive and could run freely. A loooooot of things have happened. Pagkalabas ko sa ospital, dun ko naranasan ang napakarami pang kadramahan sa buhay ko. I still remember nung umiyak ako ng more than four hours straight dahil… secret. Basta, andaming nangyari talaga. But now, I’m in a new chapter of my life. I know better days and greater things are ahead of me. And I want to forget the things in the past and focus now on reaching forward to what is ahead (Philippians 3:14). I’ve learned a lot of things. The way I look at things changed. I had a new perspective in life. Sabi nga ni John sa John 16:12, “I still have many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now.” Joke. It’s not you, it’s me hahaha. I’m sorry dahil di ko na kayang mag-type for now.

I’d like to end this post by saying that God is faithful. Since He gave me the chance to live, I want to praise and glorify Him all the days of my life. I am thankful that I still have the opportunity to celebrate life everyday :)

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Happy BIRTHDAY PAUL!! Binata ka na xD

Nakakatuwa kayong dalawa =)))) at dahil diyan, nawa'y umusbong pareho ang inyong lovelife :DD Pero syempre, mag-aral muna kayo at unahin si Lord :) Keep safe. God bless you!!

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I gotta tell you that I like the way Anytime anywhere any place It's written all over your face The way you love Jesus And it always speaks to me A little joy with a touch of peace It's so inspiring The way you show Jesus So gimme that gimme that And show me that show me that Oh gimme that gimme that The way you show Jesus