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“body horror” not to me. Not if it’s you

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helena / family tree.

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do   you   like   true   crime?   what   about   cults   and   cryptids?   if   you   like   all   those   things   and   are   a   fan   of   makeup,   then   look   no   further!      monday   is   the   day   it   all   goes   down   on   helena’s   channel.      she’s   accumulated   a   pretty   substantial   following   over   the   last   few   years   -   her   first   video   featuring   an   in   depth   study   of   ‘the   night   stalker’   garnering   over   3   million   views.      she   has   been   steadily   climbing   since   then,   having   friends   on   as   guests   to   participate   in   both   makeup   and   talks.      video   revenue   is   used   to   fund   her   education   and   keep   a   roof   over   her   head,   though   some   videos   don’t   make   enough   to   keep   youtube   as   her   sole   job.      when   she’s   not   working   or   going   to   school,   most   of   her   time   is   spent   researching   new   topics   for   her   channel.  

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“  i am a clusterfuck of fun.  ” ; @heatherbecker

"wow,  you  convinced  me. i  am  convinced."        a  smirk,  dulcet  laughter  melodic  as  it  titters  free. "i  believe  the  only  fair  way  to  settle  the  argument  is  for  you  to... prove  it."        she  smiles,  lifts  thick  brows  with  a  closed  -  mouth  smile.    (  a  challenge?  perhaps,  a  fun  -  having  opportunity?  absolutely. )

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“  let’s do something tonight. i feel like setting things on fire.  ” ; @perniicious

 the  sun  hangs  low  out  of  the  front  window  of  the  shop      (  all  ochre  &  red,  summer  breeze  clattering  windchimes  in  a  soft  burst  that  can  be  heard  over  the  barely  -  there  drone  of  the  air  conditioner. )      helena  pushes  a  book  into  place,  one  of  the  last  few  on  her  stack  of  returns  before  her  workday  is  done. she'd  thought  maybe  the  night  would  end  with  a  cup  of  tea,  a  re  -  run  of  the  munsters  and  perhaps  a  well  packed  bowl,  but  it  seems  buck  has  other  plans. (  doesn't  he  always?  )        "not  sure  setting  things  on  fire  is  the  best  low  profile  activity  we  can  get  up  to  tonight."        said  from  behind  the  bookshelf  she  finds  herself  leaning  against,  standing  atop  tip  toes  to  shove  yet  another  book  back  into  it's  place. "but-"        (  always  a  but,  a  little  room  for  wiggling  when  the  curiosity  of  what  his  eyes  might  look  like  with  the  flicker  of  fire  in  them  piques. )          "i  might  know  a  place  that  could  work  for  that."

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𝑤𝘩𝑎𝑡 𝑐𝑜𝑙𝑜𝑟 𝑖𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑎𝑢𝑟𝑎?

ivory. lace, marble, china dishes, doves, paper, bones, vanilla shakes. your essence is ivory: you are a piece of history, sturdy and eternal. others believe you to be gentle; they don't see the pressure that is threatening to crack you. you seek control and organize your life into rows. you are the overseer. you are the porcelain. you find kinship in like-minded individuals of grey, noir, pearl, and ashen, who share the pressure you put on yourself. ( you are also drawn to the expressive rose and lilac, who will help you grow and learn that things will be okay even if they don't go right. ) however, you may struggle to get along with the indulgent personalities of sky and apricot who need too much stimulation and decadence.

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—Sharon Olds, “Love Fossil” from Satan Says

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Teeth Never Sleep, Ángel García

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    an  original  multi media  inspired  character,    𝑯𝑬𝑳𝑬𝑵𝑨  𝑹𝑶𝑫𝑹𝑰𝑮𝑼𝑬𝒁.  ᵉᵐᵇᵃˡᵐᵉᵈ ᵇʸ ʳᶤᵒᵗ ⁽²⁵⁺⁾ˑ  minors  &  personals  please  dni.  𝖒𝖆𝖙𝖚𝖗𝖊  𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖒𝖊𝖘  + 𝖙𝖗𝖎𝖌𝖌𝖊𝖗𝖎𝖓𝖌  𝖒𝖆𝖙𝖊𝖗𝖎𝖆𝖑𝖘  𝖕𝖗𝖊𝖘𝖊𝖓𝖙.    (  an exploration  of  :  loving with your teeth,  girlhood vs gorehood, self acceptance, love & yearning, the beautiful macabre, catholic guilt,  and the blood stained poet.  )    𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑙𝑦 𝑎𝑓𝑓𝑖𝑙𝑖𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ :    @inhericurse​               ​𝑎 𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠 𝑜𝑓 :   cannibalism, religious trauma, body horror, abuse, sexual themes, blood and gore. please do not follow if you are uncomfortable with these topics. 

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   𝙵𝙰𝚂𝙷𝙸𝙾𝙽  /   𝙰𝙿𝙿𝙴𝙰𝚁𝙰𝙽𝙲𝙴   𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚃𝚂 .   bold   what   applies   to   your   character  .

𝐁𝐎𝐃𝐘 .

long legs   /     short legs     /   average legs   /    slender thighs  /     thick thighs     /   muscular thighs   /     skinny arms    /   soft arms     /   muscular arms   /    toned stomach   /     flat stomach  /     flabby stomach     /   soft stomach  /     six pack    /     beer belly     /   lean frame  /    muscular frame   /     voluptuous frame     /     petite frame     /     lanky frame     /     short nails   /     long nails     /    manicured nails    /     dirty nails   /     flat ass    /   toned ass    /     bubble butt     /    thick ass    /   small waist/    thick waist     /    narrow hips    /   average hips   /   wide hips  /     big feet    /   average feet  /     small feet  /     soft feet   /   slender feet  /   calloused hands    /  soft hands    /     big hands    /    average hands   /     small hands     /     long fingers  /     short fingers    /     average fingers     /     broad shouldered   /   underweight    /   average weight    /     overweight

𝐇𝐄𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 .

shorter than 140 cm     /     141 cm-150 cm     /     151 cm to 160 cm    /     161 cm to 170 cm   /   171 cm to 180cm   /     181 cm to 190 cm    /     191 cm to 2m    /     taller than 2 m.

𝐒𝐊𝐈𝐍 .

pale  /     rosy    /     olive    /     dark  /     tanned    /     blotchy     /   smooth   /     acne     /     dry     /    greasy    /    freckled

𝐄𝐘𝐄𝐒 .

small     /    large    /     average     /     grey   /     brown     /     blue     /    green     /   gold    /     hazel     /  doe - eyed   /     almond   /     close - set  /     wide - set     /    squinty     /     monolid     /  heavy eyelids   /     upturned     /     downturned

𝐇𝐀𝐈𝐑 .

thin     /     thick     /     fine   /     normal     /     greasy     /     dry    /  soft   /     shiny     /   curly   /    frizzy     /     wild     /    unruly    /   straight     /     smooth    /     wavy     /     floppy     /   cropped   /     pixie - cut     /   shoulder length   /     back length    /     waist length     /     buzz cut     /     bald     /     jaw length     /     mohawk     /     grey     /     platinum blonde     /     golden blonde     /    dirty blonde   /     strawberry blonde     /     blonde     /     ombre     /     light brown     /    mouse brown     /     chestnut brown    /     golden brown     /     chocolate brown  /     dark brown /     jet black     /     ginger     /     auburn     /     dyed red     /     dyed an unnatural color     /     thin eyebrows    / average eyebrows   /   thick eyebrows  

𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐎𝐎𝐒 / 𝐏𝐈𝐄𝐑𝐂𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 .

no tattoos /     one tattoo    /     a few here and there  /     multiple     /     full sleeves   /     thigh tattoo     /     neck tattoo   /     chest tattoo     /   no piercings  /  ear piercings  /     nose piercing     /     lip piercing     /     tongue piercing     /     eyebrow piercing     /     navel piercing     /     cheek piercing     /     nipple piercing  /     genital piercing  

𝐂𝐎𝐒𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐒 .

eyeliner   /     light eyeliner    /     heavy eyeliner     /     cat eyes     /   mascara     /     fake eyelashes     /     matte lipstick   /     regular lipstick    /    lipgloss   /     red lips   /     pink lips     /     dark lips    /     bronzer     /     highlighter     /     eyeshadow     /     neutral eyeshadow     /     smoky eyes     /     colorful eyeshadow     /   blush    /     lipliner     /     light countouring     /     heavy contouring     /     powder     /     matte foundation     /     shiny foundation     /   concealer    /     wears regularly     /   occasionally wears   /   never wears

𝐒𝐂𝐄𝐍𝐓 .

floral/     fruity   /    perfumes   /     aftershave     /     cocoa     /   moisturizer   /   shampoo /   scented laundry detergent   /  cigarettes   /     leather     /     sweat  /     food     /    incense    /   marijuana    /     cologne     /    whiskey   /    wine     /     fried food     /   blood    /     fire    /   metal   /    ice

𝐂𝐋𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐒 .

jeans /  tight pants   /     over knee socks     /     tights     /     leggings    /    yoga pants     /     pencil skirt     /     tight skirt   /    loose skirt  /     formfitting dress     /     cardigans   /     blouse /     button up shirt    /     band t - shirt   /     sweatpants     /    tank top    /     wifebeater   /   cutoff t - shirt     /   designer  /     high street     /     online stores     /   thrift    /     lingerie     /     long skirt     /     miniskirt    /    maxidress     /    sundress    /    overalls     /   tie     /   tuxedo     /     cocktail dress     /     highslit dress/skirt    /     t - shirt    /   loose clothing   /   tight clothing    /   jean shorts   /     sweater    /     sweater vest    /     khaki pants     /    suit   /    hoodie   /     harem pants     /     basketball shorts   /     boxers   /    briefs    /     thong     /     hotpants     /     cargo pants  /  hipster pants    /     bra   /     sportsbra    /    crop top     /     corset     /     ballerina skirt     /     leotard     /     polka dot     /     stripes     /     glitter     /   silk     /     lace    /     leather    /    velvet    /     chemise     /   patterns    /   florals   /     neon colors     /     pastels    /     black   /    dark colors     /     fur     /     faux fur   /   gloves  /   mask

𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐄𝐒 .

sneakers /  high top converse  /     slip - ons     /    flats     /     slippers     /   sandals    /    high heels   /     kitten heels     /   ankle boots     /     combat boots  /     knee - high     /     platforms     /     stripper heels     /     bare feet   /     loafers    /     oxfords    /     gladiator shoes    /   boots   /    timbs

𝚃𝙰𝙶𝙶𝙴𝙳   𝙱𝚈  :  stole  it  :))   𝚃𝙰𝙶𝙶𝙸𝙽𝙶  :  youuuuu

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just  a  reminder  that  helena  is  a  FAT  muse.  she  is  PLUS  SIZED!      she  is  soft!      her  tummy  pouches,  her  hips  are  wide,  her  legs  are  thick!      when  you  squeeze  her,  there  is  softness  and  give.      when  she’s  on  your  lap,  there  is  weight  and  heat.    she  has  folds  and  rolls  and  ripples.      kiss  her  stretch  marks.      trace  her  curves  with  your  fingertips.        (  appreciate.  her.  )

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𝑵𝑬𝑮𝑨𝑻𝑰𝑽𝑬  𝑻𝑹𝑨𝑰𝑻𝑺  𝑶𝑭  𝑻𝑯𝑬  𝒁𝑶𝑫𝑰𝑨𝑪  𝑺𝑰𝑮𝑵𝑺.                   BOLD    :    always  applies.   ITALICS    :    sometimes  applies.     repost,    do  not  reblog.

ARIES    :    tries  to  do  everything  at  once.   doesn’t  know  when  to  stop  and  take  care  of  themselves.    bends  over  backwards  for  everyone  even  if  someone  did  them  dirty.   has  entirely  too  much  on  their  plate.

TAURUS    :    idealistic.   spends  a  lot  of  time  trying  to  impress  others.   doesn’t  like  to  apologize.    eating  is  a  coping  mechanism  or  just  addictive  personalities  in  general.    a  tad  co - dependent.

GEMINI    : the  most  flip - floppy  people  ever.    what’s  today’s  mood  ?    never  apologizes. in  denial  90%  of  the  time.    their  way  is  the  highway.    desperately  needs  a  break.   they  have  a  hard  time  setting  goals  because  their  goals  scare  them.

CANCER    :    the  literal  meaning  of  "  i’ll  give  you  the  shirt  off  my  back  ".   isolates  themselves  in  fear  of  someone  hurting  them.    wants  to  change  but  is  scared  of  change.    complains  a  lot  but  never  takes  advice  people  give  them.

LEO    :   no  one  takes  them  seriously  because  they  always  have  to  portray  themselves  as  the  fun  one.    is  actually  really  sad  inside.    honestly  needs  a  hug. exhausted  always.

VIRGO    :   can  dish  it  but  can’t  take  it.   rushes  everything.    anxious.    plans  their  future  but  forgets  to  live  in  the  moment.    sometimes  ignores  their  friends  because  they  have  so  much  on  their  mind.    talks  about  themselves  a  lot  and  sometimes  forgets  to  ask  the  other  person  how  they  are.

LIBRA    :   solves  everyone’s  problems  but  their  own.    is  actually  really  sad  and  lonely.    gets  easily  heartbroken  but  tries  not  to  show  it.   will  do  anything  to  justify  bad  decisions.    honestly  just  wants  everyone  to  love  them  but  doesn’t  really  love  themselves.

SCORPIO  :   easily  set  off. will  give  anyone  the  cold  shoulder  at  any  given  time  even  without  reason. keeps  a  lot  in. so  observant  that  they  oftentimes  find  out  things  that  hurt  them. too  many  “  what  ifs  ”  swirling  in  their  heads. has  trouble  showing  their  true  self.

SAGITTARIUS    : impatient. brash. commitment  issues.    body  issues.    doesn’t  realize  they  don’t  need  to  change  for  anyone.    has  a  lot  of  different  goals  to  a  point  where  they  get  overwhelmed.   just  wants  to  disappear  and  do  what  they  want  without  anyone  questioning  them.

CAPRICORN    :   scared  people  won’t  like  them  unless  they’re  at  the  top  of  their  game  24/7.    takes  a  lot  for  them  to  talk  about  their  feelings.    secretly  struggling.    fake  happy.    needs  a  plan  but  doesn’t  know  what  that  plan  is.    confident  but  insecure  at  the  same  time.    wants  to  be  stable  but  sometimes  wishes  they  could  drop  everyone’s  expectations  of  them  and  live  normally.

AQUARIUS    :    gets  heartbroken  like  thirty  times  a  week.    trust  issues. can  be  unmotivated  and  disinterested.   feels  they  have  to  adapt  to  every  person  they  meet  so  they  can  be  liked.   doesn’t  know  how  to  tap  into  their  emotions  despite  being  very  intuitive.    confused.    expects  little.

PISCES    :   empathetic  often  to  a  point  of  no  return.    plays  the  victim.    doesn’t  know  when  to  say  no.    cynical.   hermit. is  very  impatient.    trusts  everyone  too  much.    can  be  secretly  very  critical  and  judgmental.    can  only  tolerate  maybe  ten  minutes  of  social  interaction.    needs  a  lot  of  validation.

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