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Still tied to you

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brb getting married this week ✨⭐

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I've fell for this guy and I don't know how to recover

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Just getting into that N109 zone, hopefully I can get one with Mr. Dragon soon

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pov you started the game three weeks ago and this merman myth is the first main event you participate in from day 1

Must be beginners luck, at pull 52 even, not soft pity, not even my main, I'm so sorry I feel this should have been for any of his brides.🥲

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'It's not too late to learn, Fenris'

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Not all lovers are soulmates, not all soulmates are lovers

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it solos - Submitted by: fastman27

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『💕』 -> "You're here. You're really here."

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what we had was real

One thing that breaks my heart about Solas and Lavellan is that Solas is so obviously haunted by the fear that one day Lavellan will look back and think he didn't really love her.

All through DAI, he anxiously reiterates the reality of his feelings. He confesses his love after the second kiss, and he doesn't even wait for her to reply before walking away, because this isn't about trying to elicit a confession of love from her as well; he simply says those words because it seems essential to him that she should know how deeply he feels about this.

The Crestwood scene begins with him, again, trying to prove to her how much she means to him. And when they break up, if she asks him to tell her that he doesn't care, he'll respond 'I can't do that.' He can leave her, but the one thing he can't abide is to have her believe that his love wasn't real. We see this again after the final battle: 'Whatever comes, I want you to know that what we had was real.' And again, in Trespasser: 'I would not lay with you under false pretences.' And eight years later he's still anxiously writing letters trying to tell her how much she meant to him: 'What I feel for you will never change.'

The anxiety makes sense of course, because he's clearly still hurting over the way his story has been misremembered. Almost everything he's ever done has been painted in the worst light by history: in this, at least, he wants to be sure that his intentions are never misunderstood.

I also wonder if part of him is thinking of Mythal. Looking back and coming to the painful realization that Mythal never really loved him, or at least not the way he thought she did. Understanding how humiliating and heartbreaking that feels, and desperate to make sure he doesn't leave Lavellan feeling that way.

What I really love is that in the end, Lavellan shows him that his fears were unfounded. She has her doubts over the years, of course; she expresses them to Solas in Trespasser, and later to Rook. But when that final scene comes - she knows. She goes to him without hesitation, without even needing to ask. I know a lot of people wished that Solas would be more effusive about his feelings in that final scene, but I actually love that he isn't, because he doesn't need to be; the love goes without saying at this point. She understood what he was trying to tell her, because she may not have known all his secrets but she always knew his heart.

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Just a tiny update because i'm not here as much lately. Complicated IRL world chain of events are keeping me drained, world state is keeping me emotionally devastated and spiritually very fucking annoyed with human kind, and there's been some minor health concerns that are not playing well with the fact that i rather jump into a volcano than call for a doctor appointment and that i pay a small fortune for a healthcare provider that provides only big bills but won't even cover my eye drops.

ANYWAY

My tiny secret project is still ongoing -slowly but i'm working on it-, i resume my language course next week (help, i don't remember how to speak chinese after summer break), and i'm looking into learning how to drive which at almost 40 feels kinda silly but this is what happens when you live in a city where everything you could possibly need is whithin walking distance: if you can't afford a car you don't even bother. Hospital? two blocks away. Farmacy? same but to the left. Municipal hall? three blocks away. The main avenue? three, maybe four blocks away. Supermarket? four blocks away. Mom's house and the train station? eight blocks away but in opposite directions. I was clearly blessed big time by the gods of location. BUT 90% of my family is 400km away in a different province and i've been thinking a car, fuel and tolls might be cheaper than the two-ways bus ticket.

I've also bought some basic art materials because i want to try to draw again but i'm still not feeling it, which only adds to my ever present frutstration about it but i hope once the present ordeal is resolved i'll feel a bit lighter or at least enough to sit down and put pencil to paper to make something other than taking work notes.

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LUCANIS DELLAMORTE 🐦‍⬛

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Lucanis Dellamorte profile appreciation post

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Thinking about how many people complain that Lucanis's romance doesn't give much and then how, in bad ends, Isabella remarks that he always looked at Rook like they were a fever dream. Thinking about how Lucanis is so blatantly afraid that he will lose Rook that those fleeting touches are all he allows himself, how he says that Rook is leaving their life in the hands of a killer. Thinking about how Lucanis desperately pulls Rook out of the Fade whether you romance him or not, but stumbles back and releases them when they finally slip through. Thinking about how Lucanis stands there near tears saying he thought he would never see them again, and only goes to Rook when it's clear that Rook is not okay, either by masking their pain again or saying they aren't even sure they're real. Thinking about how Spite's wings come out to protect Rook while they make love. Thinking about how Lucanis lays in their lap instead of Rook in his.