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i started therapy again… forgot i don’t like talking about my feelings

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you know how much pain i could’ve saved myself if i had actually just killed myself five years ago like i wanted?

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Maybe things will get better but will it be worth all the pain it took to get there?

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best thing about my tonsillectomy was losing 10 pounds in two weeks

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pretty girls dont bodyshame

pretty boys dont bodyshame

dont fucking bodyshame ppl , we're all suffering through the same disorder no matter or weight

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you know i really do feel like a pig wearing lipstick

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Can’t wait to finish my classes and read the book that triggered my restricting again :)

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Found out the guy I’ve been talking to on and off for three years has no interest in me beyond fucking me.

Will I ever be more than a body to someone?

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I want to be loved but the idea of someone actually loving me disgusts me.

How could someone love me if I can’t even love myself?

Am I even worthy of wasting someone’s love?

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I feel like there are weights tied to my limbs

And life is water

Just trying to keep my head above water takes all my effort

All I want to do is drown

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cutting and ignoring your responsibilities >>>>

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i made it through my first day and all i had was water and a zero sugar monster

had a movie night with friends and don’t eat any snacks

feeling proud of myself

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i just want to starve so i can get skinny and get cute tattoos

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for some reason i feel like i don’t deserve to cut myself if i ate normally that day because consuming that many calories is punishment enough

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i wish i could hurt myself worse than just a couple of small cuts

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I heard someone on EDTWT just recently passed away due to her Bulimia and went into Cardiac Arrest. We’re all aware how this disorder can kill, but please, be safe, sometimes it’s not worth it. It may seem like it in your head now but don’t do something you won’t have the chance to regret.