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you ever find yourself holding onto something because of how hard it was to get it—not because of how it’s serving you, but because of what a past version of yourself hoped it would do for you? not because it’s worth holding onto, but because you don’t know if you’ll ever find anything better? i’ve done this, a lot. even after doing my due diligence and realizing that i’m not the problem, i found a way to blame myself. i gaslit myself. i told myself that i wasn’t good enough. i started to think that it would be better to compromise my values than to risk losing this thing—could be a friendship, an opportunity, a job, a relationship…the list goes on. i’ve lied to myself, and hurt myself, because of an underlying fear that losing a temporary thing would somehow lead to me losing everything. i’ve danced around the issue to my own detriment. i’ve justified being overworked, under-appreciated, and taken for granted in the name of continuity. and every single time i decided to go against my gut in that way, i got hurt. i’m telling this story in the past tense because i can see it for what it is, now. i can call a spade a spade. and now that i have this level of clarity, i won’t be compromising myself in this way anymore. i’ll take discomfort, uncertainty, and disappointing people over trying to be somebody that i’m not. [tweet screenshot; tweet by michell reads: “nobody talks about how hard it is to let go of what no longer serves you. we’re human. we form attachments. we crave familiarity, even when it hurts us. and we have to let go before we can see what we’re making space for. that’s where faith steps in. that’s where God steps in.”] . . . . . #blkcreatives #brooklyn #444 #quotestoliveby #inspirationalquotes #blackauthors #selfsabotage #courage #wisdom #alignment #impostersyndrome #anxiety #writing #qotd #agentlereminder #vibratehigher #clarity #loveyourself #scarcitymindset #abundance #discomfort #discipline #comfortzone #motivationalquotes #777 (at Bedford-Stuyvesant) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cp7zEIOu-5b/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[michellcclark]