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truth

TRUE!

(and the meme is repeated, but it is still rigorously true)

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A brief moment of happiness

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I'm quite proud of these photos. I made them when I decided to try my hand at pro-domming...lol, it's been interesting to say the least. I don't think I have the "pro" part down at all. But I wanted to put in the effort for the visual representation part. To create a character that is not me but still me in a way.

Photography is one of those things where I was told I'll never be good enough at it. This is sadly a recurring theme in my life and now as an adult, a middle aged woman, I'm slowly going over these things and seeing for myself again if there's something there and making peace with the idea that A, I don't have to be the best at it if I enjoy it B, it's okay to let some things go, to admit that I'm just not built that way.

I recently applied for a job as a decorator. Sounds great, right? Oh and I would need to use my knowledge of English as well as brush up on my German. I was excited! But at the interview, as is to be expected, the lday told me, I would have to learn to work quickly with the hot glue gun, that efficiency is important. Here's the thing, I always take a little more time learning new skills, I can get quite good at it, but it takes time. I'm going to write her an email telling her I'd rather not waste either of our time, as I already know the script, exactly how that trial day will go. I don't think it's worth it just to show that "I'm really trying." I think it's something, as much as I really would love to learn how to do decorator work, I have to let go for now.

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I really love how the photographer leaned into the harder lines of my face. I look kind of like a witch here and it's awesome:)