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[narcolepticnurse]

Finally realized in January that I’m asexual. Thought to myself I might be Demi, but I’d never experienced that attraction before so I wasn’t sure. Met someone in May and realized I’m definitely demi 😮. But the someone only sees me as a friend😶. Nothing more frustrating than experiencing a type of attraction for the first time and not being able to act on it🙄

[narcolepticnurse]

So I accidentally set up two of my friends with my brother. . .

Cause I spaced and forgot I’d already set him up with the first friend.

Only one of the two knows what I’ve done, and she doesn’t care.

But the other one has no idea he’s texting more than one girl.

And he’s so oblivious, I’m not sure he realizes that both girls want to date him.

They both text me about him.

What have I done?

[narcolepticnurse]

Have you ever wanted a specific food item, like say a hamburger?

But you know that you don’t want a certain piece of that food item (I.e. the bun).

But you also don’t want to eat the item sans the piece of it you don’t want, because that would make it not the thing you want anymore. (Because without a bun, it’s not the same thing anymore)

So you just don’t eat anything, because you can’t make your brain happy.

That’s how I’m feeling today.

[narcolepticnurse]

I had an important phone call this morning. I took my adderall so I’d have a clear head for the call.

Mentally prepping for the call made me forget to eat.

Then the adderall kicked in and made me not want to eat.

Then the phone call made me anxious and emotional, so I went back to bed for a nap.

So ya, it’s almost 4pm and I’ve ADHD’d my way into not eating anything all day. 🤦🏻‍♀️

[narcolepticnurse]

So I just moved halfway across the country to start a new job.

I didn’t know anyone here before I moved.

I have so many things my brain needs to process that my head is just constantly full of noise and I can’t focus on anything.

I can’t even sleep normally.

It’s been over two weeks since I slept through the night and woke up feeling even remotely rested.

Oh, and my clothes have been in the dryer for two days because I keep forgetting about them.

[narcolepticnurse]

Do you ever feel like everything you know to be true and constant has just been shattered and shown to be fake?

Yeah.

I’m having an existential crisis.

Nothing is what I thought it was.

[narcolepticnurse]

I’m internally panicking right now.

Something that can affect my livelihood is happening and I have no control over it.

I need to talk to someone about it so it doesn’t drive me crazy.

But all my close friends are at work or on a trip right now.

And the one person I want to call, I’m afraid to call.

Why can’t I just pick up the phone and dial their number?

It shouldn’t be so hard.

[narcolepticnurse]

Spent three days agonizing over calling the vet to get my cat an appointment for her immunizations.

Finally decided to take my adderall today and within an hour called the vet without a second thought.

Why am I like this?

[narcolepticnurse]

Hey you.

Yeah.

I mean you.

This is your daily reminder that just because someone doesn’t text you back doesn’t mean they hate you.

They probably just spaced out or got busy and forgot to reply.

Don’t believe the lies your RSD tells you.

You are valuable, loved, and important.

[narcolepticnurse]

I am bagel

pls take my what kind of bread are you quiz

[narcolepticnurse]

I kinda hate how attached I get to crushes.

Like, why do I have to feel my emotions so deeply.

Other people have crushes and they can be chill about it, but I have a crush and they become my new hyper fixation.

Like, I’m supposed to be an adult. Shouldn’t crushes stop being such an issue when you are an adult?

I can’t get my crush out of my head and I’m constantly checking my phone to see if he’s texted me back.

I’ve tried everything I can think of to get him out of my head, but he’s still there.

I hate my brain.

[narcolepticnurse]

Do you ever want something specific really bad, but you don’t know if it’s socially acceptable to ask for it?

Like, I’m craving a super long hug with a specific person. But I don’t know if it’s socially acceptable to literally walk up to him and say, “hey, I’d like a hug, but I need it to last a solid minute”.

So I just get the normal 5 second hugs whenever I can, but the short hugs never fully satisfy my internal need, no matter how many I get.

[narcolepticnurse]

Yes

Hello

I need help.

How much eye contact is socially acceptable?

I rarely make eye contact because I’m afraid I’ll hold it too long and it’ll be weird. But looking around or at the ground when you talk to someone isn’t any less awkward.

Why am I like this?

[narcolepticnurse]

Praise the Lord that I am on antidepressant/anti anxiety medication and ADHD meds.

My car got backed into this morning, and I know for a fact that if I were not medicated right now I would have completely lost it. But thanks to my meds, I handled it like a normal person and the person at fault is getting my car fixed.

[narcolepticnurse]

I never thought I would have to force myself to eat. I’ve spent my entire life eating constantly and always wanting food. When I read that a side effect of adderall could be appetite suppression I thought, “ha, I bet that won’t work on me”. And yet, here we are. I literally have to have my friends remind me to eat and force myself to eat something every few hours because the adderall kills my desire to ingest anything other than water or Sprite Zero.

[narcolepticnurse]

I just got diagnosed with ADHD combined type in February, but my executive dysfunction mixed with anxiety and stress from school kept me from going to the doctor to get a prescription for it until about 3 weeks ago. I now have the prescription, but when I went to the doctor to get adderall my doc asked me about symptoms and told me I probably also have narcolepsy. Lol, I’ve gone my whole life thinking everyone fell asleep during movies, church, class, while reading, sitting on the couch, hanging out with friends, etc. Thankfully the treatment for narcolepsy is the same as for ADHD: adderall. But I’m already up to 60 mg per day and i still get tired sometimes. Anyone else dealing with something like this? I only know the textbook answer for a normal adderall dose, and I’ve already hit the textbook max. Anyone on here take more than 60 mg per day? I just want to not feel like a crazy person.