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Thanks for the tag @caroliendsk <33

Why is this literally me lol?????

No pressure tags: @nothing-is-black-and-white @lisislife @vanillasodaaaa @kirireyn @handsomefrog12 @female-overlord-3 @phan-meme-trash @sofileall @reblog-solamapienadiamici @depressed-musiclover

i thought this quiz was really cool so i’m starting a tag game :3

this uquiz! ⬆️

npt: @fakestziv@a-wondering-thought@sleepy-vix@jeanosthecatperson@annotated-catastrophe@arson-the-living-crime@imnotpayingforurtherapy@zinepunk@cloroxcasserole@secondbutonenothird@carrotsinnovember@maximum-tragedy anyone else who wants to join

(as always if you weren’t tagged and you want to be let me know and if you were tagged and don’t want to be also let me know)

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On Tuesday I was at this amazing modern art museum (it’s called voorlinden) and I think these are my fav photos:)))

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wish you a very good vacation! (:

and my question:

if you would win the lottery tomorrow, what would you do?

Thanks a lot:)))

Probably I would by more plans for my room because I love plants (I have 21 at the moment)!!!

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First day in vacation!! I am here with my bestie and her fam and it ist amazing. Our house is soo cozy and with a beautiful view at the flow. All in all it is really cute. Today we were at the beach and my bestie and I took really cute pics and videos together.

(Btw I try to post more in vacation-so see you tomorrow. Good night you all 🫶🫶)

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I don’t feel really well. I thought everything will be fine by now but it’s worse. How do I even know if this is true. It feels like it’s true. Why does it feels like my heart is broken but it isn’t. When can I stop pretending everything. I don’t want to. I am so sick of all of this. Why can’t the world be okay? Why can’t I be okay? I have seen a video of me talking to my future self I it feels like this is a other person. This person who is talking is loud and doesn’t care about all of this. This person thinks her dreams are just dreams and that all of this will never come true. This person dreams every night about this girl and can’t imagine her life without them but now.. I should be happy. That’s what they all say. You should be happy. You have everything you want. There is no reason for you to be that way. Should I end it? Should I end her? Idk

Idk anything. Why am I crying all night just because I miss her. Why am I still thinking I don’t deserve her? Why is she still so mean and loud in my head. WHY ARE YOU SCREAMING? IDK! IDK!

Get out of here. Let me live my fucking stupid life and get out. Now.

(Sorry needed this as a diary and as therapy)

Thanks and I am sorry if you understand it:/

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what‘s something simple that makes you smile?

A hug! Definitely! I love the feeling that someone actually likes me and wants to hug me. That way I feel safe:))

Thanks for the question<33

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i am so glad you‘re back on Tumblr! Missed you<3

what is the most important thing to you at the moment?

Thanks I missed tumblr tho!!:))

Probably this special person. They are fr my everything.

Btw I have been getting a lot of questions lately about this person and also stuff like I love them. The thing is I do love them but in general loving doesn’t mean that you are in love with them or anything. And I know I haven’t been talking much about them but actually I don’t really want to.

So pls respect this:) thanks tho I just wanted to make this clear

Thanks for the question!!!<33

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i know its deep but

who do you think will sit at your grave the longest?

Tbh I don’t really know. I don’t want people to think about how I left them yk. I don’t want people to cry about me. My life is not that important. So I actually don’t want anyone to sit at my grave and think about me lol

(I know this is probably not the answer you thought I would be but I am just telling the truth)

Anyway thanks for the question!!<3

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Happy international woman’s day 💐

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Omggggggg it’s my birthday!!!! I am so excited:)))

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I know I wasn’t really active the last 3 months but I try my best to be more active now because I have missed you all and I liked sharing my stuff and having this special place for myself.

Here are so many amazing people that inspire me in so many ways.

Btw I am trying to answer all the questions I got !!

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do you have a favorite memory of 2024?

Yeah I do but I can’t say much about it.

1/1/24 was the best day. Ever since life was hard but I try to remind myself of how beautiful this day was.

Thanks for the question:)

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do you have a person you love the most?

like from your family, from school or maybe a teacher?

ps: i think you are such a strong beautiful human being! keep going! you got this! <3

I do have such a person. Maybe it’s silly but I would risk everything for this special person. And I am trying for them. I am trying life for them. I can’t say anything else except how deeply I am in love with them.

And thanks I am trying<33

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how are you? like really? how are you? whats going on in your life?

I am not okay lately. Everything has changed in my life and I don’t know how to deal with it. I am losing people and I can’t change it or be a better person. I am not myself rn or I never was. It’s difficult. I feel like everything I do is wrong and I know it’s wrong but still there is no way to make it right.

I need time to change. I need time to focus on myself ig but it’s so hard. I can’t even deal with my own thoughts. Ig that’s why I have always been so much into other people’s thoughts.

I have got diagnosed with depression and it’s kind of a relief but also a curse because people have to deal with me and it’s difficult for them so they need space.

Idk if this makes any sense but that’s how I feel. Thanks for the question tho and thanks for your caring<3

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what is your favorite memory of 2023?

btw love your blog <3

Thanks for the question:))

I think I have two fav memories:

1. that now my brother is living with us and that he is safe and in good treatment. Idk it is really important for me to know that he is safe

2. last year I met this special person (in another way) and now I can’t imagine my life without them. I love being around them and they make me feel special. I think this might be the first person I would literally do anything for!

Anyway I think those two things made my year even tho there were bad days too.

Short reminder: focus on good stuff not only the bad things!

Love u all and good night <33

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Favourite avatar (atla) character ???

Katara for sure! She is an incredible waterbender and also bloodbender. I think she is amazing and I love her personality:))

In my opinion she is one of the strongest characters in the show.