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Wanting a romantic relationship as a (most likely) aroace not in a "If you want a girlfriend you can't be aroace, it doesn't work like that" kind of way but in a "I want someone to choose me. I want someone to choose me, day after day, for the rest of our lives, because they want to. I want to be someone's partner, I want to be someone's first pick, I want to be their favorite one. I don't want to be shunted aside in favor of husbands, wives, and kids, because our schedule changed, because we've moved on to different things. I want to be a priority. I want them to fight to keep me, I want to fight to keep them. I want to hold someone, I want to be held. I want to exist in their space, I want them in mine. I don't want to find out they mattered so much more to me than I did to them. I dream of a love so heavy it makes my spine throb." kind of way

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This book made me cry so many times and then I go on tumblr and no one’s talking about it like WHAT

getting into in memoriam a year late is wild because there’s no hype anymore and then I go to see if there’s a fan base and it’s like five people

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alice winn you will be hearing from my lawyers i don’t think i’ve ever cried so hard at a book

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Ok so I am half way through ‘In Memoriam’ and it is RIPPING OUT MY HEART. IT’S SO EARTH SHATTERING YET ALSO SO BEAUTIFUL I CANT COPE-

SCREAMING AND CRYING

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Listening to Hoziers Francesca and thinking about how it did not matter to Gaunt whether Elly loved him back.

How Gaunt fought tooth and nail to get back to Ellwood. How despite his fear, the thought of his Sidney believing him dead was enough for him to fight it.

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The way that they scream for each other when Edwin gets dragged to hell, the way that Charles grabs Edwin’s hand when they think they are going a be obliterated by the ghost fungus, the way that Charles literally walks through hell to rescue Edwin. I love them Your Honour🥹

the way both Edwin and Charles are so adamant about staying together for eternity. They have both stated it explicitly multiple times. They are equally bound together, their love each other so much you know it after their first scene together. They went through hell together and came back. The toiches that linger that neither pays too much attention to. The casual ease they work around each other. Because they have. For decades. G o d they make me insane.

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I need some one to read salt to the sea so I can talk to some one about it like it’s the kind of book you realize that rock bottom has a basement and I love it I read it multiple times

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Thinking of Wolfstar and how I sound like a freak trying to explain how

This

Became this

Like I would love to explain how around 2014, there was a sudden rise and resurrection second coming of christ our lord saviour Wolfstar. And, we fancasted so hard that almost 10 years later, we’re still stuck on this. And how most of the hp queer fandom started to latch onto these characters cause there was no other representation and these two started it all.

In the wake of she-who-shall-not-be-named spitting in our trans brothers and sisters’ faces, more of the hp fandom has retreated to the Marauders Era (a completely fanon lore with POCs and Queer people). That somehow this fanon non-profit lore had a better understanding of the world than canon and redeemed Slytherins by showing how inter-generational trauma affected them. By showing us that Bellatrix Lestrange was only a pawn in the Black family’s game. That Narcissa and Regulus were only doing what they had to do to survive. Sirius’ madness was not just for eccentric reasons.

This fandom highlighted the treatment of house elves. Talked about slavery. Talked about Queen Dame Lily EVANS’ childhood!! She wasn’t just a plot device to redeem Severus Snape. She was the muggle voice in the group. She was the witch that was outcasted by her muggle sister because she believed in magic. She was minority in two worlds. She was the Marauders’ friend. She wasn’t a prude or a damsel to be saved. She wasn’t just Harry’s mother. She was one of the brightest witches of her time. Harry inherited her WIT, her perseverance, her defiance, her pride, unrelenting nature. Harry Potter inherited more than her eyes. He inherited her ability to thrive in the face of trauma.

Joanne could have never given this to us. I don’t think any one person could give us this. This was a collection of rewritten lore from people who loved the universe it created but wished to be seen. And, I love my sometimes problematic and inconsistent little fandom.

How do I not sound insane doing this?

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i want someone to love me the way august loves jane and jane loves her right back. something that transcends time and space but exists exactly when and where it needs to. something so unlikely that the universe just had to make it happen because why the fuck not. the beauty of being queer and in love

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If I had a nickel for every time I read a sapphic romance where a background gay man experiences a traumatic event, moves on and becomes happy before dying in a car crash where someone in the car is related to the main character I’d have two nickels which isn’t a lot but it’s strange it happened twice

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*Deep inhale*

WHAT THE FUCK?!

Ok,look, I bought 'The seven husbands of Evelyn Hugo' thinking it was a sweet sapphic love story,right?Oh boy was I wrong.

This book has been a rollercoster to say the least.I knew that it had some sad parts but I got more than I bargained for.

This book had me asking existantial questions that I am not ready for.It was ✨️beautiful ✨️ but I've been honestly sobbing all through out the last few chapters.

So if you wanna read it be ready to have your heart shredded and put together over and over again.

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when you’re halfway through the book and the couple is already making you swoon so you know it won’t end happy

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I’ve been rewatching Jojo Rabbit and have had some thoughts on Finkles cape in the final battle. It always makes me sad to see it, a combination of knowing that he’s chosen to live his last moments as free as possible (homosexuality wouldn’t be decriminalised in Germany until the 1990s so it was likely he knew he wouldn’t survive) but also seeing Captain K clutching it as he was dragged away and knowing that meant Finkle had died first. Anyway I just have a lot of feelings about that cape and wanted to share

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I hate the way I don’t hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

10 Things I Hate About You (1999) dir. Gil Junger 

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#married behavior

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Who else feels very protective of Fred on Call the Midwife? Like if his dreams or feelings ever get crushed I'm ready to square up or tear up

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Oh you JUST KNOW Mia Thermopolis Renaldi, Queen of Genovia sent a congratulations letter and flowers to Wilhelm after he came out to the whole world.

And of course HRH Henry of Wales did the same.

In fact I bet the three of them would be good friends 💗😭 (I mean they're probably all related anyway)