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thought that only similarities bring us happiness yet diversity teach us patience and understanding

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Afraid

I'm afraid that you will give up trying

Then, i'm afraid that i will be the first for giving up in you

I'm afraid that you will go

But then, i'm afraid that i will be the first to leave you.

I'm afraid to hurt you.

😢

Then,

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Baby, i love you.

It might because i love you so much so i don't wanna hurt you by telling the truth.

But i'm sorry for still not be able to hide this disappointment.

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All my love song is dedicated to you.

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I hope the longing torture you, so you will call me to meet you.

I don't mean to hurt you, but it hurt a lot not be able to meet you while i could not reach you either.

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God, i miss him so bad.

But, i can't do anything about it.

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Hey U

Do you have plan to take me somewhere tomorrow?

I'm breaking since the day of this week started.

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My new wish

Mom, i happen to miss you again after back from hometown.

Mimi, i miss you so much.

I never know living without you is hard.

As i grow older i miss you even often.

I want to live a good and long life.

A full of grateful long life.

I want to make sure my future daughter will not feel lonely.

I want to make sure i give her all my love.

I want to be always by her side, be her shoulder when she cry.

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Irreplaceable

I tried to find heaven phone number to tell you directly about this.Mom. I tossed today. Another one who 'replace' you did it. I never she him this obedient and terrified when he was with you. My heart only saw your figure was getting tired to handle this man. Your swollen wet face that day only remain tears on me. Back then the fact were reversed, you are the one who terrified. I never love those who try to 'replace' you, never. Even though he does. I only have this kind of gratitude to thank them for taking care of him. I will never thank them for taking care of me, because they don't. I breathe with my heart calling for you. I pray for a little place there in heaven for me to meet you later. I pray that Allah will give you ease in barzakh. Aamiin.

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Raisa - Usai Di Sini (Official Lyric Video)

those backsound when everything goes difficult.

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that morning... the time when you smiling at me with your eyes.

I was so happy to saw you in my dream this morning. and sad at the same time because it's end pretty fast. however, you was so clear in my dream. after long time we are not see each other and after the accident that i even didn't want it to happen if i know it will end with distance between us which going more far than before. you smiled, looking at me with that eyes like welcome me to start over and forget about my stupid fault. It was part of my 10's happiness to have you as my friend even you make me your close friend. i do remember every story you told me, every part of memory where we were together. i hate it when all of it gone so sudden at a time. It will be weird to ask you to meet each other after long time, but what i'm trying to talk to you is forget the fault i make in the past and i want we are become friend again. I wanted your name will shown again on my message every time and convenience each other. From that dream i realize i still nothing. i don't know how to fix it unless forget it and try to avoid it to happen again for the second time. I wonder what will happen next 👧

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Setelah sekian lama tertidur dan tak tergerak menulis, di tengah ketenangan menyendiri, di saat pikiran ini terbang dari dalam sangkarnya, dan senyum yang tiba-tiba tersimpul di wajah atas angan dan bayangan yang bebas tergambar, menggerakkan hati untuk kembali menuangkan perasaannya. Iya, sekian lama bersibuk ria dengan hal-hal berhubungan dengan k-pop, akhirnya just back to the basic. Panjang cerita, lagi nostalgia lagi sama yovie & nuno ♡ They are not my first for my fangirl life but yovie & nuno is the special one among others. A sweet pure childhood story behind why i love them so much and crying out when i don’t even know how to come to their concert even thought about how much the price i should spend for it during my middle school era, and it’s hurt to know that i only can able to listening to live report from the radio. Aaaah~ it’s so precious to remember those pieces of memory 😢 What’s with that lyric part? “Lebih baik aku” salah satu lagu dari recent album yovie & nuno “still the one”. Sedih kalau inget dudi nggak nemenin dikta lagi, fyi~ i fall in love with them on 2007 with yovie&nuno in 3rd formation so that’s what makes dudi special for me but we just need to move on as long as it’s better. Welcome Windura! 😊💑 Selalu ada yang menyentuh dari setiap lantunan lirik dari lagu-lagu yovie & nuno. “Ku tak akan peduli, sampai akad mengikat dia Takkan pernah ku jera kan ku buktikan lebih baik aku” ♡ Bahagianya mampu menjadi seorang wanita yang pantas diperjuangkan dan sangat dicintai. ♡ Penggambaran sosok lelaki yang rela berkorban untuk mendapatkan cintanya, tak peduli besarnya rintangan ♡ Realisasi usaha seorang lelaki untuk menunjukkan bahwa dirinya pantas, bahkan lebih baik dari siapapun untuk wanita itu. Tersenyum, mata yang berkaca, membayangkan apabila wanita itu aku. Wanita yang sangat diperjuangkan saat yang lain memiliki. Wanita terbaik yang akan mendapatkan seseorang yang paling baik diantara sekian banyak laki-laki. That’s just too sweet as the way is it. 💝

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Hey, Dad look at me...

everyday is such a loveable and very precious day if everyday everything is going well like today

nothing specific i should say here but happy to see the way my father response it, i have at least have four thing i should tell to my father and if you know how hard i try to memorize it because i'm forgetful person haha

first, i need to give and tell to my father and my step mother too of course about my college annual fee

second, i get homework from my friends to ask my father did he would allow us to borrow his car to go to puncak next saturday

third, i need to ask for permission from my father whether he will allow me to go to Thailand for my college purpose

fourth, omg... i even didn't remember how many is it lol

the way how my father nod and response it all is so cute hehe

i also tell some story that i keep repeat how good my campus is and some horror story about my dorm, and again his expression is just so... <3

everytime i'm going down, i always remember him to make me stand still no matter how hard this life is gonna be

how hard even i hurt myself to make him happy

he is the only one i love after my mother passed away since 2 years ago

how hard i try to hold my tears everytime i back to dorm to leave him for study

how bad he is, he is father that Allah gave to me. I Love You!

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New York’s hottest club is SELFIE!!!!!!!

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guess who is she!

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man in black

hey u, long time no see.

and i'm back with my morning dream story, thing that seldom happen to me and every people, remember what and how was their dream.

back from college, i got giant blue dolphin doll from a muscle man in blackshirt, we got it because we're dare to ride giant boat and got shaked inside, we even almost fall.

but because i didn't like blue, when he gave it to me i refuse it and he was understands why. the next day i start my class, i see him bring giant green frog doll and gave it to me. i was shout like "aaah frog!" and hug it tightly, feels so happy while that man keep look at me with his smile.

start from those stories we're getting closer.

we're talking each other in front of the woman that i shipped her with that man before.

one day, we're going to some place. on our way, suddenly he was braked his motorcycle. make me shock and scared than accidentally i hug him tight. everyone look at us confused. reason why he stop his motorcycle is, he looked some stuff (id remember what is it) and without thinking i look at it too.

when we arrived in the place we suppose to go to, which is not far from the place that man stoped his motorcycle. everyone in that store busy talking negative thing while looking at us because they're keep wondering why suddenly he stop his motorcycle while i hugged him. in their sight we're like doing dating scene in public place. i ignored it all.

if i'm not wrong, that store is doll store, he bought one giant doll again for me. our further story is not far away from doll and getting more and more close. he always protect me wherever we're together. that's it.

so the background story of my dream, which also make me confused too is... i guess that man is my friend in my real life and part which i talked about i'm with that man talking each other in front of a woman i shipped her with him before is also happen in my real life. neither than muscle man, in my real life my friend is kinda fat and he is often wears black suit.

idk what's going on, whether i'm kinda jelaous because i shipped that man with a woman in my real life because tbh i can't stop thingking of him, or what? in another side, actually i'm currently like my senior in college