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worried starters

trigger warnings apply! ( mental illness, drugs and alcohol use, self-destructive behaviours, and vomiting )

“You haven’t slept for days, have you?” “Are you eating properly? You don’t look it.” “Why do you keep stumbling over your words? Just how tired are you?” “You need to think about yourself every once in a while.” “I know your work is important, but you’re going to end up in hospital if you go on like this!” “You haven’t even touched your food. What’s going on?” “You look so… empty. I’m worried for you, please talk to me.” “Are you alright in there? You’re so quiet.” “How did you get these bruises? Please don’t lie to me.” “There’s something bothering you that you’re not telling me and I can see it slowly destroying you. What happened?” “You’re sleep deprived and you haven’t been eating. Why do you think you’re feeling dizzy?” “I can give you some pills to help you sleep. They aren’t healthy, but this is even less healthy.” “If you didn’t just blink I would’ve sworn you were dead, that’s how sickly you’re looking. Go to bed, please!” “Have you drank all of these bottles in one weekend?!” “I know you don’t want this, but it’s for your own good. Sign the papers so they can pick you up tomorrow and you can get clean.” “What the hell are you doing?! Did you do that to yourself?!” “When was the last time you left the house? Or opened the curtains for that matter.” “Here, just keep breathing. It’ll be okay. Better out than in…” “This can’t go on like this! You’re not eating, you’re not sleeping, you barely talk!” “I’m sorry. I went through your room and found this. Explain what the hell this is doing in your room!” “I thought you’d quit! How long have you been lying to me?” “I’m only trying to help and right now I think I have a much better idea of what you need than you do.” “Did you take anything? Why are you passing out? Hey! Stay with me!”

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(i'll be a potato with you)

lets all be shy potatoes together.we’ll be the shy potato group.potatoes anonymous.

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I am a shy, sad potato.

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This is an official PLOTTING CALL !!! I want to plot threads, preferably longer ones than just short one-lined starters. I like those too, don’t get me wrong. But I’m in a writing mood right now so I want to plot things out!!

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                       @outcastcd​ || x.

       Distracted eyes immediately fell upon the part she had picked          up to inspect. The words flew out of her mouth before she could          even think beforehand. It was a mere chat between the two as          she shopped for parts, she didn’t expect to say something that          gave out an open door to her world. To her feelings. She mentally          cursed herself for doing so, avoiding eye contact. She might as          well answer his question ---- even if she planned on being vague.          Further prying into the subject at hand, and she’d change the          subject to a more comfortable line.

                                          “ The pain. I want to forget the pain. ”

       To numb it. To make it stop. To make the indescribable pounding          pain in the back of her skull cease. 

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                                     “ I buy? Are you forgetting who’s fixing your                                         ship? I think you owe me. ”

       She couldn’t help the smile that crept along the edges of her          lips, giving a slight shake of her head as she reaches for another          tool at her side. Not to mention if she waltzed into one of those           places to buy a drink... she’d be laughed out the door. Technically,          she was too young. And such drinks had never even touched her          tongue before. It was simply a saying said by a lot of older adults          who drank to forget their troubles, or to numb them for a little          while. She could honestly relate, with the pounding of her head          that was creeping along right now...

                                      “ It was only a suggestion, anyway. ”

        fingers readjust his robes, busying the body to quiet the mind. ( and how he hopes it will work. )  a near-silent, humorless chuckle leaves his throat at her words, suggesting a drink.          it may be that he did need something down that route.        ❛ a drink? ❜   

          his meditation exercises had not been working for him, his mind’s whirring gears overwhelming steady breathing and a quiet mind.     he felt as if he would never find his inner peace again, and that thought, even know, instead of the dead of night when that thought had come in recent nights of unwelcome awareness, scared him. 

           ❛ a drink.❜   he repeated, more affirmative, now.      ❛ that is, of course, if you’re paying. ❜        he has to lighten his mind.          fear leads to anger. anger leads to hate. HATE – leads to the dark side.       

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raven + season 2 smiles

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( I dunno if any of you know of my second addiction that I hoard. But you do now. Woke up early in the morning for these babies, dang it. )

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       ❛ goodbye, old friend.                                         may the force be with you. ❜

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so I had a dream where I was a companion to The Doctor and we had to fight off Weeping Angels. we got in trouble so I had to use the TARDIS to ask for Dean Winchester from Supernatural for help. I loved it so much.

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time for work.....

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Okay so no more complaining about work and how horrible it is. The more i focus on the negative, the more i start to feel really bad about myself and i’m tired of feeling that way. i just need to remember that i don’t /have/ to stay for the last week. if something sets me over the edge, i can just walk out with no problem.  anyway, some friends of my boyfriend ( and I, but more so his side ) went to disney world last week and told us to give them a list of what pins to look for ( as i am super obsessed with collecting pins as i am tsum tsum. ) They got me a BB-8 pin! The little spinning one. I dunno if they got me any more than that, I had my boyfriend tell them anything Beauty and the Beast, Baymax, Figment, or BB-8. They got this really cute belle pin and i’m kinda hoping they got me one, too? if not i’ll buy myself one on the disney parks app with no shame. :)))))

not only that, but this tuesday is TSUM TSUM TUESDAY!!!! Zootopia tsums, and i’ll get to see what next month’s is. PLUS!!!!!! Later this month I BELIEVE are Star Wars Tsum Tsums!!! I want so many out of the two sets, but I really have to be picky so that I don’t spend 70+ dollars on tsums.

I know I definitely want Qui Gon, Obi, Luke, Leia, Chewie, Anakin, and Han. I kinda want R2-D2, too. And maybe a Storm Trooper.... but definitely those. 

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