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If you were put in a robot you would still feel a woman or a man right? Bitch, if I was put in a robot I would feel like a robot

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Man scrolling down the Izzy tag is a journey you can actually see people responding each other from post to post, but never interacting one another. It's an endless call out posts, and you're like, wait what was that about? Then you scroll down and two post later and you find the post the first one was answering and ranting about. Amazing. Truly amazing

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Of course that I see a wild and frankly delusional take about deserving abuse and shipping and it's you

Didn't I already blocked you? How many blogs of yours I have to block? Why can I always recognise your brand of rancid takes even under a different name?

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You know what's therapeutic? A self care time if u wish? Blocking people in the tag you like to browse

And I mean I usually am very tolerant, but sometimes people have just the weirdest and self projecting take on fiction characters that make me reeeally ✨ uncomfortable ✨

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Anyway, Duolingo is literally hunting me

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Anyway today I did half a lesson

13 more to go

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So Tumblr banned porn and then it add Tumblr live which is basically used for porn...

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You know what? I get it now. I was reading a fucking good fic and I was finally at the best part where they would talk abou feelings and I had to collect myself for a second because I was giggling uncontrollable and having second hand embarrassment and and I put down my phone for a sec JUST a sec to act cool and...and it was gone. All gone.

And I'm 10 hours later still with a gut feeling like a ghost from Whispers I have still thing to do, I didn't finish something

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Okay but people call their fanfic books? What the hell?

Like I open my word file and I see my lovely last 100k fanfic, and I see lovely lovey garbage. Like in no way I would ever consider that a book. A book? Are we serious now?

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Okay, but why the fuck I have reality shifting in my for you page when I have all their fucking tags blocked? How?

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Sometimes while working in the lab I wonder how with a straight face I'm going home and writing fanfic and the next day go back to work with my lovely blood samples, like I didn't wrote the most heart wrenching thing the night before-

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Please for the love of God dear anxiety let me send that mail. Please I can't get stuck again, let me sent it tomorrow

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I'm going to telling on myself but this is my fuck it all account, so it's cool.

I'm going to watch the new thing only for Bunbee, I mean, I'm not even ashamed of it.

Like, with no Bunbee what's the purpose of the a new season? The old man is in every other Precure season in random scene and episodes, without a rhyme or reason and if it won't be in his own Precure sequel, what's even the meaning? Bothering many people as he could?

I don't even care what humiliation they get him through.

I just want to see my disaster old man once again. Because I think unironically it's one of the best villain arc I saw in a precure show.

Also I shamelessly love Girinma so u kinda break down an unlock door here. He's fun and I kinda see his point now that I'm an adult. I still don't know if I dreamed (pun not intended) the fact that him and Bunbee were old friend, since I couldn't find that scene again.

But it would be lovely a nice flashback of him. I think it's a bit of a bummer he was one of the old precure villains that could only die at the end, instead get redeemed (I still think Bunbee open the dance for that trope, which I love, I have a soft spot for losers as you can see), Girinma's end still leave me pretty chill to the bone because of how brutal it was? Like, it's a cruel way of going and even when I was a kid I understood that was pretty fucked up.

Sooo realistically I would say not a chance in hell they'll bring Girinma or the others back, not even as a flashback.

Unrealistically but pretty nice to dream? Hell yeah, bring them back and possibly make them hunt Bunbee ass (listen I have more than a decade of headcanons and theories, you opened a Pandora Box here). But alas I would grinning and kicking my legs in the air like a fool just for a brief flashback, even a reused frame to frame of the old show.

I have no idea why I'm so excited for this, but I am and I have no one to tell about, so OP please forgive this unhinged rant.

over/under on girinma showing up in yespre season 3?

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Listen I'm not telling on myself, but I started writing fanfics when I was 11 for a fandom, and now more then a decade later I'm still writing for that fandom.

I just can't u know? There is something in the first fandom that u just cannot stop loving it. Like multiple plot, ships, OCs, lovely AU, I remember everything, even the small things I never wrote down, it's like my baby, I literally grew with it, when I'm bored I sometimes still invent new plots. They are my silly rabbits, my little meow meows, before the term was even invented.

And it's a kid show, but, like, the character literally grew up with me in my mind, they have all jobs now, the have rents to pay, I cannot explain it, they are adult like me. I wrote hundreds of pages barely knowing how to write since when I was 11 years old, how is this even possible?

Should I laugh or cry?

And it's mine, like I never shared it. No one but me will ever read a word, it's my story and mine only. I wrote because I like to re-read it, I wrote it because I had the need to read what I was seeing in my mind.

I think it's hilarious that to this point the only constant in my life was a story I started writing when I was 11.

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Dear God it's getting even worse

welcome home

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*Me * calling myself the bitchest person in the room

* Also me * crying for the guilty because I killed a spider when I was just trying to open the window for letting it out

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Update it's official. I'm super happy, BC graduation here I come. but fml, man.

Not me having a story of depression and GAD (worsted by my academic burnout) asking to get a stage in a psychiatric research lab by mistake and also getting it.