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i feel like that margaret atwood quote about the male gaze. do i want a boyfriend because i desperately want to prove myself wrong when it comes to men — that out there, amongst all the bad apples, there is one sole good one that will choose me — or do i want a boyfriend because despite all my misandry, there is a male gaze inside my head and all around me and i cannot truly perceive myself or life without going through it? do i want a boyfriend because parts of me want to fulfill the societal prophecy, adhere to the convention i was trained on, fit in?

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bro people at restaurants are literally always so nice when ur there alone lolz !!!! like probably cuz i’m a clean young girl but still it’s like always better service, sometimes free food, like 😛🫶

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exchange has changed my life. i will never forget it. god!

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hello. i hate the cool aunt stereotype. as if a woman who chooses not to get married has no other possible paths to being socially acceptable and/or deemed as successful. as if marriage is a such a defining trait of a woman that only by being married can her character have further development. it reduces women who choose not to get married to some mythical kind of creature that somehow is still able to be cool despite all odds. as though only in this scenario can an unmarried woman be looked up to — she is forgotten or deemed unacceptable/failed in every other case.

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bro i love when i see a fellow solo ninja turtle im like silently waving frantically like hi i see u …. !!!! 🥹👋🙋‍♀️

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omg that person on reddit was SO right helsinki is a city of freaking experiences gah !!!!! the museums i just went to (amos rex, ateneum) are literally in top 3 best museums i’ve ever been to????? the freaking curation???? and i’ve been having so much fun just meeping around (although over-consuming a bit) but holy fuck from the fun delicacy grocery store to the weird empathy echo chamber experiment in the museum w that random japanese guy studying architecture to buying the cutest bowl, book, poster — RAAAA! and so much more to come today:,) i love ! <3

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HIHIHOHO this random group of guys came up to me and asked me if i spoke english and i was like uh…… yea…. and turns out it was one of them’s bachelor party (he was wearing a goofy shirt with “bientôt marié” and a checklist of goofy stuff on it) and apparently they were on this random quest where they get people to sign his shirt and take pics with him. LMFAOAOAO so i took a pic with him and signed his shirt and he asked if my name was amelie and i was like no sorry and he was like damn i need to find an amelie (lowkey assuming that’s his fiancée’s name?). anyways goofy ah interaction that makes solo traveling so fun !!!! oh yeah also they were from belgium and i was like i also speak french !! and it was all funz

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the guy next to me on my flixbus is reading a self-help book lol

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omg because if all my friends get significant others how can i still really hang out with them in big group hangouts because they lowkey won’t be able to all invite their s/o if i’m around or they’ll all hangout with their s/o without me arjgkgkffikd this makes sense in my head this is basically what’s happening with c&m argh

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like do i want to be straight the same way i want to be a skinny pretty asian girl in stem with long black hair, the same way i want to be in a relationship ???

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always thought i wanted to be gay but tbh, new phoneless thought unlocked, am i straight or do i want to be straight ??? am i straight or do i want what straight people have ??? omg

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maybe god does exist and i have all this circumstantial luck because i was devout to god for so long like do i get 15 years of luck since i believed for that long???

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this exchange is a testament how you can move across the world and still eventually your problems will catch up to you

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what if i never get to give a maid of honor speech THE FUCK

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i live for the flight attendants doing the safety demonstrations it’s so satisfying how it looks like a well rehearsed choreography although idk if they feel awkward or enjoy it lol also most people aren’t even watching and idk if that’s better or worse for them but i’m also guilty of literally never paying attention and clocking out as soon as i sit down 😭

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when will i be more than cute; all i ever wanted was to be pretty

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i wish someone i could love who could love me back would just fall into my lap