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Just remembered I was vegetarian for a solid chunk of my life and wtf was up with that I hate vegetarian food and I hated the notion of vegetarians cuz they were always so pretentiously displayed even when I was a vegetarian

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Hello Philo 👀 I've been trying to get back on Tumblr, so there are quite a lot of things I need to get up-to-date with. So, how's it going? 👀👀👀

Note: I wrote this response back in the first or second week of august lol so so SO much has changed but it’s worth posting cuz it’s a cool snapshot of my life back then boyfriend and I broke up cuz long distance, I just quit my job I talk about here and also have a new one lol and I’m going in all sorts of new directions at school now

Victoriaaaaa my lovely 💖💕 I’m so sorry I haven’t been on this blog for a YEAR (do you follow me on Insta? Dm me and I will send if u want) I have been very very busy you sent this back in December so wishing you a belated Christmas and new year!! Been a very very past few months for me, I unfortunately got very very sick in October thanks to going to a frat party which then lead to me developing this thing called costochondritis (the cartilage in my lungs and my sternum was super super inflamed and could not breathe) so I had to go to being a part time student and delay my graduation by a year (poopy). If you go back to my posts during that time you can tell I was feeling a little miserable but I’m glad to say that I’ve had a lot of highs since then as well as some lows and I’m just trying my best to to navigate my life with both and figure out where to go from there. Here’s a little list if you wanna be in the know:

I’ve made a really great recovery since first semester, both socially, in regard to my voice and my heath, and in terms of activities. I still ended the school year with several performances, solo, large ensemble and in a small ensemble, and have been invited in august to take part of a summer program in a reputable summer vocal festival where I’ll be able to perform on a barge, have private and public masterclasses, etc. also have a very fun private gig with my friend (although I have worries there that she might drop the ball as she’s lead musician but I have faith in her). Am starting to explore other genres of music outside of classical.

Got a new job!! It pays less than the bakery but they give me some tips, I got promoted twice in like four months so I happy for that. They break a lot of labour and health laws and I will be sueing them with other former employees when I quit 🥰 am planning on looking for new jobs soon

the boyfriend and I are still very strong despite having his ex situationship lean into stalker-like tendencies (y’all. When I tell you that I had to block her mom on Instagram. Why are you getting your entire friend group and your MOTHER to constantly be watching my stories 😩 stand up that’s so embarrassing) and I’m honestly so so blessed to be with him he’s one of the few men I like, he’s given me a lot of level headed perspective on things I honestly would not have had the maturity to have had even a year and a half ago, and has been a rock during a lot of hard times. My only gripe is the grooming jokes he makes (he’s 8 months younger than me). Was getting very stressed out for the end of summer ngl because he’s graduating in November and is going back to New York at the end of summer but we talked about a week ago about how we DONT wanna break up as we agreed to last year and I’m very thankful for that.

I made some friends and lost some (do you remember the childhood friend I talked about a few months ago (a few scrolls down) we are not friends anymore not only is she racisttttttt (which is crazy cuz she’s visibly Jewish/middle eastern how are you gonna be a minority and then go on a rant and post about ‘Arabs being violent and terrorists’) she started dragging my other friends (in fact, my entire school’s music faculty) and their talents out of no where and I realized that something happened in the past few years that has made her become into a person that no amount of childhood nostalgia in my brain could justify liking or remaining close to her, even professionally). But on the opposite end I became much much closer to a friend of mine who had always been in my friend group but we never hung out as much as I’m grateful we are getting close because she and I have always been in the same situation in terms of positions at school with our programs and she has grown so much too and come so far despite everything and I’m very happy for it.

Went to Greece and just got back last week!! Was so so so cool got to horseback ride which was amazing, and my friend group of nine (tbf there were only 7 of us on the trip but still) survived the girls trip?? Incredible. There was a bit of fighting but that was more due to exhaustion as stress as someone got sick but again we made it through and it went really well. Did not enjoy the plumbing situation over there. You can’t flaunt anything down the pipes, even on the mainland, so every restaurant I went to felt weird because it had a little trash can for ur used toilet paper. Reminded me a lot like camping. But it made me realize that y’all my city does suck as much as everyone says 🫠 she’s just not the vibe (although she’s MY vibe still I’ve grown to love my city so much) but at the end of the trip I was feeling homesick for proper trees and grass so I’m pleased to be back in Canada.

Very hot and fresh, got rejected from my undergraduate Opera program again which was really really heartbreaking because I was able to enrol and am still enrolled in the program but have been told by the director that it was a mistake lol did NOT have a fun time the last two days but I’m working through it slowly. I’m very heavily considering my career options because I don’t think I viable career in opera and it might be time to stop beating a dead horse. Very heartbreaking as I’ve spent a lot of time chasing this dream and I’ve been told by so many I would thrive at it, and I might consider applying to graduate studies in opera when I’m older but for now, I might hold back on grad school for now. I think I need a break from academia, as the kerfuffle of being told I didn’t get in, but then was let in, but then was told it was a mistake was very very damaging to me (again speaking from a place that is very fresh). If I apply it won’t be at my school. Considering going into teaching, as it would be more stable and might make me happier. But I would love to perform, and I think this is more a matter of going into the wrong genre than lifestyle.

Sending you so so much love and hope you are doing well I’m pretty sure u have my insta and def have my discord so feel free to message me there!! Miss and love you

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Guys me and my bf had to break up and I’m going back into my fourth (technically fifth) year to complete my degree in a program I’m exhausted with prepare to become sick of me and all my thoughts

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i’m in such disbelief right now and beyond disgusted.

i really hope y’all are choosing your morals over kpop; because we do not know these men at all. i will never side with or defend a predator and a criminal, even with little to no proof. even if there is the smallest chance he may be innocent, i will always believe the victim first.

some of you, as fans of the boys for years and him in general, i know you must be feeling disappointed and betrayed. you’re not dumb for previously supporting him, as we couldn’t have possibly known. but now is the time for a reality check and it’s time to wake up. this just goes to show that we know absolutely nothing about them.

for sm to just outright put out a statement on their own before any rumors even surfaced and immediately kick him out? this has to be insanely serious and i’m terrified of what he could’ve done. the crazy thing is with everything currently happening in korea with the telegram situation, and korean women constantly being in danger in general because of the men there, i’m not at all surprised that celebrities are being exposed. sm has protected criminals before, and held onto lucas when his scandal came out as well as other artists who have been exposed for similar crimes. i can’t even imagine the severity of the current situation. we’ve seen what happened with the burning sun, and these men are not immune to being misogynistic, vile human beings.

members have already unfollowed him and deleted posts with him in them; his best friend of 17yrs has unfollowed him. the company taking the initiative and him getting kicked out of the group in less than a second before anything even came out, no denying the claims or even trying to defend him. that should be enough to tell you and understand how serious this actually is. i am beyond disgusted with him and this whole situation.

i sincerely hope the victim is doing okay and praying for them to heal and get the justice the deserve. and remember that your love for these celebrities should always be conditional, because we do not know them. it’s their job to put on a show and show you their public persona, but behind closed doors? we don’t know what they’re actually like. we put them on a pedestal and yet we don’t know what they’re really capable of. they are still men after all. i hope the police are taking this seriously. there needs to be consequences and these women need to be protected.

let this be a lesson to all of us. they don’t know us, and we don’t know them, not really.

ALWAYS choose morals over kpop. and as women, we should be standing with the victims.

maybe not all men, but enough of them. and maybe not all men, but somehow always a man. and going forward, i will of course still be supporting nct as a whole. however, keeping the situation in mind, i will be supporting from afar for a little bit. i hope the rest of the rest of the members are doing okay, and hopefully no more members were involved, but this today, just shows that they can always surprise us. you never think it’ll be your fave, until it is.

sending love to anyone who has ever experienced sexual violence or has been targeted and been in a similar situation. it is not your fault and it never was!

love you all and my dms are always open if you need to vent. <3

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FUCK. honestly just FUCK. We missed a very important day yesterday.

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Reading through the atlas six and every person here is pleasantly and almost unknowingly bisexual

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Deciding I am an Ariana fan (horrible I know!) but I saw this clip of her from the trailer and I felt the bond click she’s cool asf and such a hard worker I’m a fan

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BRIDGERTON — S3E1: Out of the Shadows

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Colin you’re giving me the ick

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I love Francesca so so much already we’ve never been able to really see her before and she’s such a lovely sharpwitted shy wallflower she’s so real

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Oh god five minutes in and it’s already so good

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But she’s being really weird and is befriend a bunch of people I know that she didn’t know before and had started to lurk around faculty which she has nothing to do with and is still reposting nasty shit about me and my boyfriend and I’m so done with obsessive women trying to get at me.

LETS FUCKING GO THE GIRL OBSESSED WITH MY BOYFRIEND FINALLY UNTAGGED HIM FROM HER POSTS

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I NEED MONEY

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I keep trying to get back into genshin but never have the time— rahhhhhhhhh

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LETS FUCKING GO THE GIRL OBSESSED WITH MY BOYFRIEND FINALLY UNTAGGED HIM FROM HER POSTS

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THEY BOMBED NASSER HOSPITAL

They're not even trying to hide behind the "There’s tunnels under the hospitals" excuse anymore.

The Israeli Zionist Occupation has bombed all hospitals in Gaza Strip thus changing the conduct of modern warfare forever.

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She also reposted a post talking about how Palestinians needed to get over losing their land and lose the victim mentality and I’m… what

Truly insane to watch one of my beloved childhood friends transform from someone with one of the most caring and kind heart people I know become someone who encourages Israel’s collective punishment to Gazan’s and continuously promotes racist, anti Arabic posts on Instagram and defends the mass murder of children