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Chill's ramblings about the DCA fandom and personal feelings and issues towards TSAMS (both positive an negative):

(I'm writing this like an essay but treating it like a diary, so if I jump from subject to another, it is because I am just typing as the thoughts hit my head. Sorry for being so wordy.)

I simply feel like I need to write my thoughts down, so why not share them with you. Maybe you can validate my feelings or something, I don't know.

Intro:

So, oof, I got a fic rec from @thedenofravenpuff and I'm loving it so much I really wanna draw fan art for it...

But the problem is that it's a TSAMS fanfic and I've sworn to my name I'll never draw anything related to the show because that will make me engage with a part of the fandom I'm not comfortable with.

My biggest issue with TSAMS:

I have such complicated feelings towards the show and its fanbase and I do not wish to make my life and work more difficult because of it as it already is.

My own work and characters are already constantly being compared to TSAMS. When I first introduced Solar to my fic, he was constantly being referred to Eclipse from TSAMS. Now that the show had a character with THE SAME NAME, it has been even worse.

Dolldrop Moon has been compared to Lunar. Even though the dolldrops existed before the youtube channel was even created (and Lunar made his debut much later).

The biggest issue I've had has always been the fanbase, that takes the show as the canon for Sun and Moon from FNAF and uses it as an excuse to harass shippers like me because they think Sun and Moon are brothers.

I've first handedly seen the damage the fanbase has done to some of my friends who draw, or have previously drawn art for the show besides their own AUs and personal headcanons of Sun and Moon as lovers. I'm sorry to tag you, but @kriimhild and @fablekitty : I've seen how the immature side of the show's fans have treated you, I am so terribly sorry you've had to defend yourselves over and over again for things that were not meant to be mixed up.

I have posted some ideas of a possible Animutant Moon and Sun forming a polyamorous relationship with Solar in the future of "My Dear Daffodil" on my personal/adult Twitter account. Someone kept commenting on my posts that I was glorifying incest, because Sun and Moon were brothers and Solar was their cousin.

The post had "Animutant" in it. Not "TSAMS". These comments came from a person saying they were 19 in their profile. So it's not just kids who can't tell not every fanwork is about TSAMS. It's starting to be some adults too.

Vice versa I've had another person comment on my very clearly SFW Twitter how they're following me because I am an adult artist who draws TSAMS incest. I have never drawn TSAMS art. I ship Sun and Moon, but they're never related with family bond, because I love presenting them as lovers.

Why I ship Sun and Moon:

Because I am a hopeless romantic. I love romantic love. Every single story I write is always about love.

The only exception to this is the Poppy Playtime comic I am doing. But even then, I was originally planning for a romantic love between Dogday and the Player. Yet, I decided to leave it, and keep the relationship open for any type of representation the reader themselves will prefer.

I used to watch The Sun and Moon Show when it first started airing. I loved their playthroughs. I had a big distaste for them calling each other brothers, as well as some of the first "lore" videos they had. My biggest issue at the time was how Moon treated Sun, though. As someone who grew up with an abusive sibling, it sometimes just hit a bit too hard at home.

But it got better after Eclipse and Lunar appeared. Moon was more caring, and I started to really like his character development. There was one episode where Sun explained to Lunar that he and Moon had simply just "decided" to be brothers, despite not having a canonical relationship.

This actually made me really happy. Because the Old Moon was aroace, the love he felt was simply never meant to be romantic, but platonic. And by making Sun his brother by choice clearly indicated that Sun was always the one he loved the most - in a way that was suitable for aromantic person like him.

And it really made me enjoy the show for a while. Sun is my favourite character, and despite not always liking the way the show presents him, I always feel so much love for him, no matter the AU he is in. So I loved that Moon loved him more than anything, even if it was just platonic. Because I've always been under the impression that the canon Moon loves Sun, and is only under a virus to protect him. For me, the best part of any Sun and Moon AU is to know that Sun is the most important thing to Moon.

Why I stopped watching TSAMS:

And then that Moon I had really started to like, who loved Sun more than anyone else but just platonically, died.

It hurt so much I simply stopped watching the show. I've watched a few episodes here and there after that, but I am having a hard time liking the show the same as I did before.

Partially it's because of the fanbase. Partially it's because I don't find the lore very interesting and some of the stuff a bit repetitive. Partially it's because I am scared to see Sun eventually crumble up into madness, because he has been through so much.

I like the New Moon. He is funny and nice, what I've seen. His relationship with Solar has been interesting, and I genuinely hoped they would've been able to take the romantic route after Moon said he wasn't sure if he was aroace anymore. But as I said, I've only watched a few episodes after the old Moon died, so I don't know either of their characters that much to form any strong opinions about them. I just listen to the Monty and Puppet podcast once in a while and get a little inside to some of the lore that has been happening.

But hey, at least there's fanfics. Which is why I am rambling here today.

Fanfics:

It is a rare treat to find Sun x Moon fanfics that aren't simply just porn, or do not include reader inserts. So since my romance-filled brain needed something to fill the void, I've started reading some TSAMS fics with romance (that wasn't between Sun & Moon) and plot in them.

I know Solar was settled to be a "cousin" to the weird family tree of TSAMS. But I simply crave for Solar and New Moon to be at least queerplatonic. Solar is not from their dimension, no matter how much they decide they're 'cousins' it doesn't make him their real cousin or relative because they're not from the same world.

Sun and Moon are brothers but they technically gave birth to Eclipse, who then created Lunar so Eclipse is technically Lunar's parent and then brother and Lunar is Sun and Moon's brother and... do you see what I'm trying to say?

The family tree is so complicated that I don't think I'm a horrible person for shipping Moon and Solar and reading fics about them. Tell me if I am wrong though.

The FIC that is making me question everything:

So Puffy recommended this fic by @theinfamousdoctorf , "Eclipse Meets His Match".

I'm currently on chapter 40, and I am genuinely surprised how much I am liking this fic so far. It got everything; redemption and character growth, the representation of Sun as the good, glowing angel he is in my mind (for canon, and every AU. He is always perfect in my eyes I love him can you tell lol), slow-burn romance, drama, excitment, plot, jokes and funny moments... even if there are a lot of mentions of sex and sexual pleasure, it doesn't feel out of the place as there is so much more to it too.

Eclipse's redemption to become better and realising he is in love with Sun has been so interesting to follow. Sun deserves the love. I love when Sun is getting loved. I literally ship him with every other animatronic in the games and love it when people ship him with their self-inserts and OCs. Because I love him so much I want him to be loved in every possible universe he is in.

Even bigger bonus to this fic is the second pairing, Solar and Moon, which I already opened up about above. I don't know how much the fic is truthful to the canon lore of the show, but I wish to pretend this fic is the canon now /hj.

I love the characters and how they're written. I love the descriptions of their flaws and hopes and dreams. How vulnerable they can get. How closely they stick together. And as an appreciation for making me tearful and excited about fanfiction in such a long time, I would hope to be able to gift the author some fan art for their fic.

But I've sworn to not draw anything for the show. For my own good. I've got too many awful comments already from the fans of the show despite never doing any art for it. I am just scared it will turn things worse.

End words:

I don't know if creating a new alias would be the right choice. So my main name/account would be spared from the confusion that the show's fans seem to stirr into, where one tsams artwork turns all of the artist' work into tsams.

I don't care if the art style would be recognisible. The artist would be me, but not PixelChills. Just so I could gift something to the author of this fic that is currently saving me from the boredom of being unable to write my own.

Thank you.

(This text has been typed on my phone, so pardon for any typos).

-Chill

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Hi! How are you? Genuine question:

I saw an ask you answered and one of your conditions was that the person not translate your comics/art. Obviously people should respect that, but I’m not sure I understand what’s “bad” about translating things. Could you clarify this?

Hello! I'm okay, having a little holiday and resting for the rest of the week.

The reason why I don't want my comics to be translated, is because

1. The translations usually bring more followers and traffic to the person who translates them, meaning that they will gain the followers and views for MY work from an audience I simply cannot reach the same way.

2. I've had troubles with people translating my work when I was much younger. I had a small following on DeviantArt, made some comics in English, somebody translated them into Spanish and posted on Youtube, gained way more followers from it than what I ever had, misgendered my characters, and used a slur in the translation (the original English version didn't have any slurs in it) I then received multiple comments hating on me for the slur in the translation because people thought it was originally there.

I'd rather not let people translate my work unless I am paid for it.

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I would say dog cage but that would be too mean to the Dolldrops

I actually had a dream once where I took the dolldrops to my parents and let my mum babysit them and when I came back she had put them in a cage because they were running around too much and gotten really dirty. 😆

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Hello, you have a good comics 👍. Can I use it on my youtube channel? Make sure to mention you as the author in the description. If you need anything else let me know. Thanks in advance!

As long as you can credit & link me in the description and don't translate them, it's okay.

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Same flavour :D

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Patreon request for Sun and Moon!

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you drew it ibis that's right

No, I use Clip Studio Paint.

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Hi, I saw the timelapse for your new pfp, and I was wondering if i could ask why you put down some color before you did the sketch? I'm just curious cause I don't think I've seen anyone do that before.

(Have a good day btw! :D)

That is my way of "rough sketching" actually :D

I put down a block of colours to see how I want the piece to be composed. This way I don't need to think of any details but rather how the artwork sits to its frames. Helps me to draw the sketch on top of it.

Think big first, start smaller later! :D

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New PFP!

It's been almost 2 years, so I decided to upgrade a little :>

Comparison and timelapse under the cut:

May 2022 vs April 2024

Timelapse:

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I've been considering things like acupuncture for my difficult long-term nerve pain, and hearing you be brave enough to face it makes me feel maybe it's worth s shot for me too. I wish you all the best for your healing journey! And thank you for making me feel like I'm not the only one, I hope we both heal quickly!

Oh, I hope it helps!

Though, I'm not getting acupuncture done (at least not yet) but an EMG scan. Dunno which one is scarier though D:

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Another idea from Twitter... I think Catnap really likes baking.

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Wouldn't it be better to put a dolldrop in the child seat?

they'd find a way out of it-

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Hey Dolldrops, you ever ride in a car or on a bike?

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How would Solros and Luan react to Solar? And vice versa? If that wasn't already asked before

Both of them would be intimidated by Solar for sure. Just imagine a 7 foot stinky mutant with yellow teeth looming over you with a creepy smile.

Solros would probably squeeze Luan's hand until his knuckles go white and urge his boyfriend to leave.

Luan would try to stand in front of Solros to protect him, while trying not to breathe in...

... And then Solar would call them with flower names and release some tension between them.

At the end, Luan and Solar would lowkey bond by talking about what a cute flower Solros is- and Solros and Solar would find it funny that one of them looks like a sunflower, and the other one is literally named "sunflower".

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Dogday is precious and must be protected at all costs fr

He absolutely should 🥺 poor baby

Thus me creating a comic where player saves and protects him like we all wanted to do 🙏

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Hi sorry if this has already been asked, but, since moon had to spend all that time with El Chip, can he speak Spanish fluently? (I don't know if I remember correctly, but I recall you said that moon gets triggered when he hears someone with a deep voice cursing in Spanish, so that got me wandering whether he can speak Spanish or just comprehend it)

He can comprehend Spanish but only speaks a little of it!