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Minsan nakakainis rin talaga ang pag-ibig, 'no?

Tahimik kang maghihintay ng bus. Makikinig ng musikang pantapal mo sa maingay na mundo.

Bago pa man tuluyang mangawit ang mga binti, hihinto sa harap mo ang bus, bubukas ang pintuan.

Papasok ka, maghahanap ng bakanteng upuan.

Maghahanap ka ng puwestong solo mo.

Saka aandar ito—liliko, aabante't aatras.

Dudungaw ka sa bintana. Magmamasid.

Hindi ka malungkot. Hindi ka rin masaya, pero ayos na iyon.

Pagkatapos ay biglang hihinto ang bus. Normal lang naman iyon kaya hindi ka na mag-aabala pang lingunin ang pintuan.

Pero sa hindi inaasahang pagkakataon, may uupo sa tabi mo—bagong mukha, bagong kuwento.

Nakakainis rin talaga ang pag-ibig 'no?

Kung kailan ka nananahimik, saka naman darating.

Hindi kayo mag-uusap sa simula.

Pero katagala'y aalukin ka n'ya ng baon n'yang bibingka.

Pagkatapos ay magsisimula ang kuwentuhan.

Sa kanya iikot ang buong biyahe.

Para bang makakalimutan mo ang matagal na paghihintay sa estasyon, ang mga taong nakipagbanggaan sa'yo, ang maingay na mundo.

Makakalimutan mo ang lamig ng hangin, ang ulan, ang pakiramdam mong noo'y nakuntento ka na kahit hindi masaya.

Sa wakas, hindi ka na sa bintana nakamasid,

Kundi sa mga mata ng taong pumuno sa malaking espasyong matagal mong hinintay na maglaho.

Habang tumatagal ay hindi mo na mamamalayang umaapaw na ang mga ngiti.

Makakalimutan mo na kung saan ka papunta,

Maliligaw ka na sa kanya.

Pagkatapos, kung kailan hindi ka handa,

Hihinto ang bus.

Hindi ka sana mag-aabalang lingunin ang pintuan, pero mapapansin mong nagliligpit s'ya ng bagahe.

Saka mo maaalala;

Hindi pala kayo magkasama.

Nakasabay mo lang pala s'ya.

Nakakainis rin talaga ang pag-ibig 'no?

Kung kailan nasanay ka nang nariyan s'ya, saka naman mawawala.

Ayaw mo sana s'yang hayaang bumaba.

Gusto mo sana s'yang pigilan, hatakin pabalik.

Pero iba ang rutang tatahakin n'ya.

Hindi mo gustong magpaalam,

Pero doon, hanggang doon na lamang ang mga tawanan.

Kaya mapapatingin ka na lamang sandali sa bakanteng espasyong nasa tabi mo,

saka ka dudungaw muli sa binatana.

Hindi ka masaya, kundi sobrang lungkot.

Hihinto ang mundo mo,

Pero magpapatuloy ang biyahe.

Kaya wala kang ibang magagawa kundi ibulong sa hangin ang iyong panalangin na sana,

Sana pagdating mo sa iyong destinasyon, mahanap mo s'ya roon.

At kung hindi man, sana sa araw na iyon, hindi mo na s'ya hinahanap.

—Ali

Larawan ni Isko Gamboa

grabbed from Pahmikas’ page on facebook

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Paglisan (2018)

this is an animated musical film that I really enjoyed. it’s simple, unique and full of heart. sana mabigyan pa ng pagkakataon ang mga pelikulang Pilipino katulad nito to promote and showcase what it has. 

It’s up on CinemaOne’s youtube channel until September 30. Please take the time to watch this and other Filipino films!! 

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Grey’s Anatomy S15 EP4

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Baka Bukas (2016)

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Baka Bukas (2016)

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The Tale (2018)

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Singin’ in the Rain (1952)

I really find this film fun to watch. It’s so graceful, and honest.

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“I’m homesick all the time … I just don’t know where home is. There’s this promise of happiness out there. I know it. I even feel it sometimes. But it’s like chasing the moon. Just when I think I have it, it disappears into the horizon.”

— Sarah Addison Allen

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you walk around my mind like you own the place. you take a walk into my dreams and sometimes take a dive into my thoughts during the middle of the day and you leave me thinking about you, missing you, longing for a glimpse of your face in a time and space where reality actually takes place. it is amazing how long you have been gone and the power you still hold over my heart. you are a ghost; forever hanging around, never to be touched.

ghost. (via sunsetico)

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I can relate :3

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seen on Jojo Rabbit

Directed by Taika Waititi

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The Longest Ride

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The Notebook

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It’s More Fun in the PhiliFILMS

whew! the term is finally over! I’m officially a 3rd year student (TANGINA LAST YEAR KO NAAAA!!) 

anyway, as a requirement for our finals, we have to arrange a film forum where we have to invite a professional to be our guest speaker and to talk about the our chosen topic which happened to be film tourism. so HEYYYY, guess who had a CineFilipino entry that showcase the beauty of the Philippines? Ice Idanan!!! 

I already talked about her movie Sakaling Hindi Makarating a lot of times but I just want to share where my excitement is coming from..

When I moved back to the Philippines two years ago, the adjustments was really hard and to add, I got my heartbroken. I kept questioning myself if I made the right decision, did I take the right path, is this worth it, can I still turn back, etc. It was just a really hard time for me. Then I saw the movie Sakaling Hindi Makarating, which changed my perspective about what was currently going on with my life. It really did slap me with what I needed to do: to gain myself back. so I did. 

so back to the forum, since the film showcases tourism in the Philippines, we invited Direk Ice Idanan to screen her film and do the forum. I was ecstatic. imagine having the person who basically changed your life right in front of you, wow. just wow. 

she is so pretty btw!! not the pabebe pretty but super natural na ganda.. 

I was a bibbo kid in asking questions, lol. I really did fan girl in the forum. (I wasn’t feeling good that day. hence my look in this photo, pardon me)

Our class with Ms. Ice!

and of course.. hahaha. 

<3

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I was asked to babysit this weekend for my two younger cousins-- 2 and 4years old. well, I volunteered.but this isn’t how I imagined it to be. 

I started babysitting when I was 10 years old. this is legit babysitting-- no adult in the house just me and the babies, which are less than a year old (these are twins). I remember having fun with this babysitting thing, no relevant complains whatsoever. I rock them to sleep, make their milk, and I even change their diapers, no fuss. so when I was given the chance to do it again 13 years later for for my other cousins, I volunteered. 

BUT, one thing that I totally didn’t thought through was the age of these kids. the 4 year old was okay. behaved and I can already ask him to do some stuff. but the 2 year old? mhennn. she’s a cute little monster. loljk. but I think this is the stage where the tantrums are in the worst level. she cry and scream at the same time when she doesn’t get what she wants. it gets frustrating, especially when I don’t understand what she wants sometimes (she can’t clearly pronounce words yet). the house is a mess, there’s this basket thing where they put all their toys. she would turn this basket thing upside down and play with the damn empty basket, which she would fight over with the 4 year old! with all their toys, they both want to play the damn empty basket! unbelievable. the toys are all over the place too! sleeping time, oh man. last night it was easy. I put on a movie and bam! both asleep! but tonight it was a little tougher. they were asleep but would wake up crying! this isn’t easy peasy crying. this is a full blown breakdown crying. my back hurts from rocking them. the 4 year old was easier of course, he was back to sleep in no time. but the 2 year old, I rocked her for almost an hour then she woke up and broke down again. i sat in the bed because my back hurts already, then she started running away from me. bruhhhhhhh. i was hella tired from the whole day of babysitting then night time comes, i still have to chase a 2 year old? i gave up at that point. i called our helper to watch over this little girl.

at this moment however, the 4 year old is sleeping soundly. the little girl is still on youtube singing her ABCs while I wait here for her to knock herself down.

gahhh I’m tired. great experience but I ain’t doing this again. one more day til their parents come back!

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hala, been listening to this song but never had time to really get into the lyrics until I saw this cover. it’s so beautiful that I had to make time to listen and really chew unto the lyrics. been crying for days because of this.. ugh! really wish i could see Sheeran in his concert here in the Philippines but gahhh, sold out agad! bukod sa gusto ko siyang makita, I think kailangan ko din, hahaha! 

well, i have few trips coming up this year and early next year so I really have to save big time! hope i can still get a concert ticket if ever I get a chance to spare some money for this upcoming concert :|

PS. Philippine concerts’ locations are shit!! kaya nagdadalawang isip ako to watch, I really can’t spend money na may chance ma-disappoint ako or di ko masulit :( 

PS. THIS WILL BE MY WEDDING SONG (TOGETHER WITH RIGHT TIME BY JOHNOY DANAO). AND IF THAT FUTURE PARTNER OF MINE WOULDN’T AGREE, I WOULDN’T PUSH THROUGH WITH THE WEDDING. HAHAHHAHAHAH CHAROT. 

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July 20 of last year, my kuya was here for vacation. It was really early in the morning when he busted into my room and caught me crying. At that time, I really do spend a lot of time mourning from a really bad heartbreak. I would cry at night until I fall asleep and would wake up in the morning in tears. When he entered my room and saw me in that state, he scoot in my bed and just hugged me without saying anything. After a couple of minutes, he got up and went out to get a bottle of water and put it beside me then he left. I was trying to calm myself down because I couldn’t catch my breath anymore when he entered my room again and put a mucho red horse beside me. I was crying and laughing at the same time when I saw it! he jokingly said “eto lang katapat niyan” with a very bright smile.

I know kuya very well. He is not good in comforting people, especially in that kind of state where I’m almost breaking down. But welps, obviously, he knows me well too! I don’t like the “baby” type of comforting. I like to be left alone and NOT answer ANY questions. Simple gestures like that is just perfect.. I was so fond of what he did and took this pic lol (I actually managed to smile for this photo because of what he did..)