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Your love was like a Rubik's cube, colorful but sturdy and has a pattern. It has a way, and it can be memorized. Yes, it is fun to look but it's still logical and I was a Kaleidoscope. We both were colorful and with every turn we change and the colors become different but unlike you, I don't have an algorithm, a pattern, or a sturdy body. I was what I could be, I cannot show the same pattern I had before, I could not be predicted. We were similar in some aspects but in reality we were totally different and could not be compatible no matter how hard we try.

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Kakalimutan na kita

Kakalimutan kita Lagi ko itong tatandaan Para rin ito sa ikabubuti ko, at ikabubuti mo na ren naman kakalimutan kita, at di na hahabulin pa diretso ang tingin, nakataas ang ulo, at pormal ang tindig

Pero hindi lang yon ang gagawin ko syempre, Iiwan na kita, gaya ng pag iwan mo sa akin, pero maraming salamat paren Napapaisip tuloy ako bigla kung paano tayo nagsimla kung pano ka naging mabuti, hanggang natapos nalang bigla

tanda mo pa ba nung binangga mo ko, napaka siga mo pa kase, pati naman hanggang ngayon Bumagsak mga gamit ko, at tinulungan mo ko Di pa tayo magkakilala non, pero unti unti rin yon nagbago Nagkakilala tayo, pero dapat pala di kita binigyan ng pagkakataon

dahil lang sa simpleng banggaan na iyon, nagkakilala tayo Dahil lang sa simpleng banggaan na yon, nabuo ang "TAYO" dahil lang sa simpleng banggaan na iyon, naparamdam mo sa akin, na sobrang saya ng mundo pero dahil lang din sa simpleng banggaan sa gawing doon binawi ka agad sa akin ng pagkakataon.

Kakalimutan na kita Ilang ulit ko na ba sinabi ang mga katagang yan kakalimutan na kita! oo, mahirap at masakit, pero gagawin ko yan kakalimutan kita! gagawin ko lahat para lang magawa ko yan kakalimutan kita kakalimutan kita kahit ang sakit sakit na kakalimutan kita, kahit na nakikita kita sa bawat sulok ng aking paningin kakalimutan kita, kahit na palagi ka paren anjan sa aking tabi kakalimutan kita, hindi dahil sa masama ka o dahil sa ayaw ko na kakalimutan kita para sa ikatathimik ng lahat kakalimutan kita, pero patuloy paren kitang mamahalin kakalimutan kita, para matahimik na ang iyong kaluluwa.

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Just a quick question.

How many "female bestfriends" is normal for a guy who is commited?

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And just by one snap everything fell together. You were the most unexpected thing that has happened to me, I didn't want you, but now you're all I'm looking for. I know I was just one of your options, and you weren't even one of mine but we jusg felt things all so fast. We fell so hard and so fast for each other that it terrifies me, because I know that falling out of love will be the just as fast and hard and I'm not ready for that yet. You were a dangerous decision, and you snapped me out of his hands just like that, before him and I were ready to make any commitment and foundation and I don't know if that was a good or a bad move.

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Change

My stories used to be about darkness and sorrow, now it's about the different hues of tomorrow You gave color to my view which was once white and black and now all I wish is to never give you back.

- H. Catangui 

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An Open Letter for the One Who Let Me Feel Love For One Day

I know it hasnt been long since I promised I'd wait for you, but I guess waiting isn't my forte. Remember that day? The day we told each others secrets, and treated each other to drinks and snacks we didn't really needed. The day we understood each other even for a brief moment. The day you told me about your family problems and how you figured out I had those too. The day your friends saw us together, and my friends too. How we told each other different stories until midnight. i felt like Cinderella then, but you weren't my prince charming you were the glass slipper which I left behind when midnight struck, the only difference was you never made your way back to me like in the story. I was positive that day the you weren't like the others you were too kind to be that type of man but I was wrong. I was so wrong. Until now I treasure that 1 day of love, I get high just remembering it, but at the same time it hurts as hell. I'm sorry I thought you felt that way too. I guess you were like that to every girl you knew. Im sorry . I'm really sorry if I made things awkward for us, or even if it's just me feeling it. I can't finish this paragraph because it hurts like hell, I remember it all like it was just yesterday and I just wanna punch myself in the face.

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520

yes, you’re damaged, but that doesn’t mean you have less value than anyone. You deserve the best since you’ve experieced the worse. I want to give you the treatment you deserve but you reject and push me away. You have imprinted in your mind that everyone will do the same to you but no. All I want is to care for you and be there when you’re feeling down. Maybe wake you up in the middle of the night just to talk about the stars or cuddle with each other as our bodies are intertwined. You are so damaged that you have forgotten how to accept love, or maybe you just don’t want to accept my love?

     It’s hard to fall in love with someone like you, you make me feel that you need me but when I try to show you that you can count on me you push me away. I want to be there for you, and don’t tell me that this isn’t love. I have fallen inlove before and I have never cared for anyone else’s welfare as much as I have for you. Just tell me if you need me but you’re just having a hard time accepting and trusting people again or tell me frankly if you can’t develope any romantic feelings for me. It’s so hard investing time for someone who will probably leave me behind when they’re happy and ok again, but that’s what I love about you. I love your broken heart, and I love how you unintentionally break mine. 

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8/14/2015 (22:06)

I walk a road with different paths, and curves

then i stop to think, If this is really what I deserve

“If I disappear will that get on anybody’s nerves?”

This question, I shall always preserve. 

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I want all of you, even the parts that you refuse to show or give to anyone, especially those parts because, light is easy to love. Show me your darkness and I'll prove that someone can still love the things you hate the most in yourself.

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Give Me A Chance

Let me write you letters, and text you in the middle of the night. Let my annoying gaze see through you as I hide from your sight. Let me prove to you that not all girls are the same, that you should pick a woman who could hear all your plight yes, we may be too young for love, But my soul is longing and wants to hold on to you tight..

- H. Catangui

Okay, so I still wonder if this poem I wrote is a good material to use for our midterm examination. We were assigned to write poems, but I think it still needs more content.  It reflects how I currently feel today about a boy whom I know wouldn’t like me back but I still want to show him that I’m deserving and not just some cheap bitch like all the other girls who hurt him before. It’s not easy to fall in love with a damaged person, but I know this will all be worth it even if he doesn’t pick me. Just letting some feel like they are important and can be loved eventhough they think otherwise is enough.