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man ok i'm getting really Into phoebe hc again and wanted to talk about some of the things i regret not getting to do with her on poketumblr, relationship-wise

i can't even hide anymore that i shipped her with flint like a trash baby. the couple of interactions they had were so sweet and fun, and even if things sort of got a sexual start i think they were actually very compatible! personality-wise they were similar, and it's corny as shit but their astrological symbols (leo & aries) were ideal matches. i think they would have been a really fun and upbeat couple and i wish that i had been more outgoing in my interactions with other rpers back then--i held back too much and feel like it caused me to miss out on something that might have been really, really good for her, at least for a little while

i never got a steven who i was able to explore any sort of relationship with, platonic or otherwise, so her romantic feelings spent a few good years just hanging in limbo from steven to steven. owen playing him could have had a better chance to give her some closure on those feelings, but nothing ever came of it; she's still tangled up in her love for him and it's very painful, even though she still never shows it

she and sidney never got to happen! sidney and phoebe are my go-to phoebe ship, and i've rped it before but i love jordan's sidney more than any other sidney and phoebe never got to kiss his stupid face and it makes me very frustrated. they never got to get their stupid feelings out in the open--another romantic feelings limbo for phoebe

she never got to fuck surge

i was a big weenie and was so afraid to socialize with people and i missed out on what i'm sure could have been some great interactions and relationships! i wish i could go back and redo a lot of it and be more open with the community

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it hasn't been easy but she's getting better. relationships are still a big no-no though. she won't be romantically involved with another person for a very long time.

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friends with benefits really reminds me of phoebe and f[truck roars by]

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Candice wasn't the only one.

But he's dating Karen now. She feels really alone? But she's not. She'll be okay. Probably won't date for a while, but I don't think she'll sleep around quite like she did before, either.

It's time to find a happy medium!

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she and Brawly are fucking adorable, good moirails best friends

observe the evidence

also [rough] translations under the cut because it's fuckin hilarious

"ko aloha makamae e ipo" - sweetheart, you are so precious

"hele a hiamoe" - go to sleep

"aole" - no

"Maopopo ia`u `ole" - I don't understand

"aia i hea ka lua" - where's the toilet?

"E hea māka`i ana au" - I'll call the police

"hele aku" - go away

"au hele moe moe" - something to the effect of I'm going to sleep

"honi ko'u 'elemu" - kiss my ass

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so do you want to talk about that dream

"NO"

are you sure, because that was pretty interesti--

"STOP"

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man okay again: I really love the idea of FP!Phoebe because she finally!! has to!!!! let me dress her up in other clothes!!!!!!!! she has to be much more modest and it's really fun, I think she looks super adorable

normally at work she wears a white coat over whatever outfit because it makes her feel important in her position which she takes super seriously

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when I see other Phoebe roleplayers who appear to be somehow based off of how I play her (is this egotistical of me? I've just seen so many that are so similar lately) I get really happy and pleased with myself

like there's one in particular I've seen reblogging stuff from her old PT blog and from my personal and she even seems to be adapting the stuff about her feelings for Steven and she seems to be!!! really good!!! and I just :') wow

I love Phoebe, all of the Phoebe's, they are all my precious baby loves

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talking about deaths?? I have a few different scenarios in mind for that actually, depending on the course of her life so

a lot probably depends on whether she gets married/falls in love and is in a lifelong partnership of some kind, and if she has kids. if that's the case, she'll probably outlive most of her friends and her partner, and die very, very old, but happy in a quiet, sort of nostalgic way. she knows that she'll find her loved ones when she goes.

if not?? I think that without having someone there with her, someone close to hold her hand and remind her that she's still alive, she eventually will slip away around forty/fifty. she'll be mentally dead long before age/illness takes her, pretty much unable to regain consciousness of reality because she spent too long, went too deep into the part of her mind that only sees the dead. she'll degrade and eventually pass away of the same disease that took her mother when she was younger.

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her relationship with Archie is so... weird... like I used to think she really did hate him but just hung out with him because??? why not???? but apparently I was wrong

she actually really likes him, even if he still has the orbs and punched her grandparents. they have a surprising amount of fun together and sass it up at the bar together and apparently have movie nights? she probably doesn't really... trust him exactly but at the same time she also doesn't care what he thinks of her as much as she does with most other people, so in a sense she's less inclined to censor herself when she's with him

they have the weirdest friendship and I love it ok

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so Candice spoke to her

[9:00:13 PM] Phoebe: "I figured as much. Really, it's... yeah. It's fine.

It's not your fault. You couldn't have known.

Would you... mind if I ask you a question, though? If that's okay..."

[9:01:31 PM] Candice: "You can ask, and I'll try to answer."

[9:02:29 PM] Phoebe: "Was that the first time? The only time, that is.

I'd just like to know."

[9:03:25 PM] Candice: "The first time was a long time ago.

I swear I had no idea. I may be a little loose, but I'm not that skanky."

[9:04:56 PM] Phoebe: "... Okay. Thanks.

And really, it's fine. Not your fault that he didn't tell you.

But, yeah. Thanks for telling me."

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she can't even bring herself to be properly mad at him

it all just keeps coming back to internalizing all of that anger and redirecting it back towards her, thinking of all the things she should have done

i thought she was over that

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I already said too much. I already shared too much, and I want all my secrets back. I hate getting close to people these days, I always regret sharing too much, caring too much, doing too much, feeling too much.

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It's back to square one now, isn't it?

"Please don't make me do this right now." 

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He's cheating with Candice.

After two years, they're very soon to be officially over. It was only a matter of time, but she still isn't okay. I'm not sure how she expected it to happen, but it wasn't like that. It wasn't so easy.

She hasn't cried like this in so long.

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mal de coucou

n. a phenomenon in which you have an active social life but very few close friends—people who you can trust, who you can be yourself with, who can help flush out the weird psychological toxins that tend to accumulate over time—which is a form of acute social malnutrition in which even if you devour an entire buffet of chitchat, you’ll still feel pangs of hunger.