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Are you that one dude that we are supposed to take Photoshop away from? the one where sammy (supernatural) looks sad?

I am! Sorry it took so many years to respond

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Another update in case you care (juicy boy troubles too)

Hey there yall

Recruitment was a success, at least I think it was; the bottom house (us) got the largest pledge class (which is absolutely unheard of and nearly impossible bless)

The juicy boy troubles tho:

So the bae is going to a college party on Saturday for his drumline stuff (like the alcohol drunk kind of party) which is fine, cool yeah? I hate alcohol and he knows that drinking makes me uncomfortable, and while I’m nervous about it and kind of upset, it’s gucci that he goes because I trust him (even though he broke that trust a while back by having roughly 9 to 10 drinks).

He’s on the marching band, which is pretty cool. He has practice from 8am-7pm every week-day where he gets to see his friends every day. Today is Thursday, which is a week day. Thursday is our date night. He had dinner with his drumline instead of me for Thursdate without telling me, and said I can get dinner on my own and come to his place to watch Game of Thrones with him “and have a non-traditional Thursdate.” By the way, he still got out of his drumline stuff before 7 (6:00, in fact). This will be relevant in a second.

Upon arriving to his apartment, he complained that one of his friends didn’t show up to the drumline dinner because that friend had already planned a dinner with someone. That was his first mistake, because WE already had dinner plans as well. (He got upset at me for being on the phone with my sister for too long a couple Thursdays ago, and yes I acknowledge the red flag)

His second mistake was asking me if I was okay with him going to see his friends (who he had just spent all day with at marching practice AND FUCKING DINNER instead me for Thursdate). Well of course I’m gonna say yes, I’m not going to be like no you can’t see your friends? I’m not even allowed to be angry at him anymore because I said it was fine that he see his friends.

His third mistake was complaining about his lack of time for me and that’s why we couldn’t do anything EVEN THOUGH HE GOT FINISHED AT 6. 

So now I’m supposed to wait up for him to come to my apartment after he’s done at his friend’s house at some undetermined late hour, go to bed with him when he gets home, listen to him apologize for not spending time with me and complain how bad of a boyfriend he is and then listen to myself pretend to be okay with it because I allowed it to happen, then he will turn his back to me to sleep and I will likely silently cry myself to sleep out of anger for being too weak to call him out on his shit.

The reason why I’m writing this:

Anytime I try to call him out on this sort bs that he pulls, he finds a way to bend the truth in a way that makes me question whether or not I’m actually right. And I’m not even sure if he does this or if I’m imagining this. I need help because I don’t know if he’s manipulating me. I truly don’t.

He makes me feel guilty for calling him out to the point where I’m afraid to do it anymore because I don’t want to hurt his feelings. 

He doesn’t even pay for anything. I pay for a good 15% of his meals (not including dates).

He’s right; he’s not that great of a boyfriend- and I don’t know how to tell him that. 

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#e9b816

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Life update: I HAVE POISON IVY

Don’t scratch!! It’s so itchy!! I have to take this sleep medication just to stop it from itching so I can fall asleep...ugh. Lucky five me though, it goes away within about a week or two, which is nice. I want to be able to hug my friends when I get back to Oklahoma. And  I also want to wear shorts without red dots everywhere...that would be nice. 

Good news though, I’m back in Oklahoma two weeks from today!!! Woo!!! 

If you have any tips for the itching/faster healing please let me know because the itching cream isn’t too effective and I hate having to take sleep meds because my texts to my boyfriend after they’ve kicked in are incoherent.

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reblog if your mother no longer sets your bedtime and your life has lost all structure

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hi...i need to rant about a really unpopular opinion which may be offensive and slightly NSFW and a little personal too...i really hope my boyfriend doesn’t find my tumblr account that’s all i have to say, it’s about porn pls proceed with caution

I hate porn. Sorry. If that’s the one thing that’s putting a gap between bae and I it’s that. He watches it, I don’t. I expressed that it hurts me when he does that, and he said he would try and stop, but he isn’t going to. I know him better than that. My dad didn’t raise a fool.

First of all, those women in porn are oftentimes trafficked sex slaves, especially the not-as-professional videos. They don’t want to be there. They’re being raped.

Secondly, my body doesn’t look like that, at all. In fact, some men who are not used to seeing a woman’s natural naked body may be quite taken aback by what there is to see. My boyfriend has seen me, and he didn’t bat an eye, and he always tells me that I’m beautiful, but I feel like somewhere within him he wishes I looked like one of them.

Thirdly, I don’t like the objectification that it encourages at all. My body is not an object, and neither is yours. Y’all know that.

My point is, even though he already knows what my body looks like, it still pains me that he’s watching that sort of thing and using it to get off. He even told me once that he’s gonna go do it like??? Really????

And yeah, I’m going to talk to him about it, don’t worry. I really just used this to outline my thoughts.

End rant, thanks for listening.

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Do you have a Lane Bryant near you? I'm a 40 DD and they have my size and far higher. I'll admit that, other than clearance, it is a bit pricey though

Thank you for the information! I think there might be one around. I’m looking on Amazon now!

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What sorority are you in? Do you go through recruitment? What's the rep that your sorority has?

I am in a sorority! I went through recruitment, and my sorority doesn’t have the best reputation; however, it’s turning around big time. We have a brand new house. PLEASE PM me on twitter at @quartkneegeller if you have any questions, I urge you!! I can give you so much advice!

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You're in a sorority?

I am! 

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ALL I WANT IS A CUTE BRA FOR UNDER $35 IN MY SIZE

I wanna keep my boobs perky until at least age 25.

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This is my only outlet besides my boyfriend to rant and will still accept me

Anyway, my bra size (as of today) is a 30DD and I attempted to find some online bc none of my bras are that size, and it was like nah we don’t have any or yeah just pay like $75 for one. NO. 

Also, my life is good right now. Bae and I are fab. I haven’t seen him in over a month, and won’t for another month, but it’s summer so that’s how it is. But he’s still goofy as ever, which is always a plus. He

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I am procrastinating (update on my life)

Hi everyone!

I don’t think yall care to read much about how my life is going, but I’m definitely going to talk about it anyway, because I feel like it.

This is the beginning of dead week. For those of you who don’t know, that is the week before finals, and has a lot of work. I have three essays due very very soon (in 18 hours) so naturally I’m here. Hi.

I’m actually pretty on top of things, and posting here is in no way hurting any of my progress, I’m just taking a break. Anywho, I am going to talk about my emotional state, then my life in general.

I’ve been finding myself to be not sad, but empty/numb, which hasn’t really began to worry me until about now actually, probably because I just accepted that reality. I still have feelings though, just for some reason I’ve been getting more negative feelings than positive lately, and it’s probably (hopefully) stress, even though I don’t feel stressed. I’m confused, but that’s okay. I refuse to believe that I have depression though, because there are people out there who have it much worse than me who would beg to differ. 

But I probably do have anxiety. And that’s okay. I pretty much know how to cope with it, and that’s really nice. I just hate how drained and empty I feel though, it’s no fun yall.

I still have the same boyfriend, and he’s a cool dude. I don’t want to talk to him about these things though because he’s already pretty stressed himself, and I don’t want to burden him with my stuff, and if I do, he’ll start to pity me or get really sappy about it and stuff. But I really should tell him. I’m just glad he doesn’t pry information out of me about these things, because it does make it easier to talk to him.

He also might turn it into a competition though but that’s a different story for a different time. I’m going to talk to him about that too though, that he is always turning things into a competition, which really isn’t okay.

My dad is making pumpkin pie for when I get back from Oklahoma, which I am psyched about. I LOVE PUMPKIN PIE YALL. Also, my dogs are really cute so that’s a positive in my life. My boyfriend is really cute too. So are my friends. Everything is cute to me right now and nothing is okay. 

Alright, please let me know if you have any questions or anything about college life or sorority life or anything of the source, because I can tell you! 

Peace out

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Are you in a sorority?

Yes I am! Do you have any questions?

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