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They say they're all like: ohhh pretty- wait! Sharing is caring.

Humans like shiny things but they also value sharing, humans are critters.

This starts out as a nice gesture, then quickly becomes absolutely ridiculous.

1,024 dice. Man.

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I was at my dining hall and I was in the sandwich line. The new lunch lady didn't know if she had to only use the bread that was open. The older lunch lady said "just give her...*looks at me* him? It's hard to tell these days...just give the kid what they want."

Elderly women never fail to validate me😌

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I've finally watched Hazbin Hotel and Charlie is slowly curing my religious trauma.

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Yo,

How do I tell my family and friends that I've realized that I'm nonbinary and not a trans man or even transmasc? I did switch my labels from trans man to trans man after feeling like trans man was too binary for me I felt uncomfortable but then Transmasc didn't feel right either and I started realizing any connection to the binary that's strictly masculine or feminine, male or female is not for me. I wanna be me, I wanna look like myself.

I know gender is never static and your identity will change as you grow but my friends and my mom don't necessarily understand that, they're not in the loop of lgbtq stuff. I'm sure my mom will try to listen to me though but I dunnoooo, I've been thinking about this for a while.

IM FREAKING OUT I DON'T EVEN WANNA TELL EM‼️

i mean I'm keeping my name and my pronouns so I probably don't even have to tell them but AAAAAAH I definitely have to tell my brother cuz every time he outright calls me a guy it does make me uncomfortable now....

WHY IS THIS SO HARD??!! 😭

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People are totally cool with alloromantic allosexual fuck their friends or even fuck strangers without any emotional attachment but then have an aneurysm when aromatic ppl do the same....why???

as someone who's aromantic but very allosexual I just feel like queer people and allies who get up in arms at the idea of people fucking their friends and remaining completely platonic friends just really aren't the type of people who are gonna be actual allies to me. Like idk I don't think sex has to be some special intimate thing and I just think its age old conservative dogma being used to shame people this time just coming from people who claim to be more progressive. its dumb. its just "save sex till marriage or else you're impure" again.

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I like to use Disney princesses. Specifically Merida & Mulan. If I don't wanna do something I'm like....well Merida fought a bear I can finish my homework.

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My mom wants to see me on Sunday so I'm totally fine now, but of course it'll happen again very fcking soon I hate my brain🙂

I have BPD and my fp is my mom....it absolutely sucks. I feel like I can't share that with anyone cuz most ppl's fp are partners, or friends so I never hear about family being a fp.

She might not be able to pick up the phone or come to visit and I know that she has a lot of responsibilities but I just get so upset and I feel like she thinks I'm the most annoying thing in the world and I feel like a terrible son and then I just stop contacting her cold turkey but then she worries and then I feel even WORSE cuz now I worried her. I'm worrying and annoying and she hates me and I just miss my mom and I'm so tired I wish I was never born...

Anywaaaaays

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I have BPD and my fp is my mom....it absolutely sucks. I feel like I can't share that with anyone cuz most ppl's fp are partners, or friends so I never hear about family being a fp.

She might not be able to pick up the phone or come to visit and I know that she has a lot of responsibilities but I just get so upset and I feel like she thinks I'm the most annoying thing in the world and I feel like a terrible son and then I just stop contacting her cold turkey but then she worries and then I feel even WORSE cuz now I worried her. I'm worrying and annoying and she hates me and I just miss my mom and I'm so tired I wish I was never born...

Anywaaaaays

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2024 RISK map for transgender people in the us

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Literally today I had a Christian walk up to me and instead of saying gonna burn in hell, she just blessed me. She was extremely kind and enthusiastic and she just wanted to make my day a bit better. Do that instead of walking up to people and preaching some annoying ass sermon

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People are more afraid of us than the people who are willing to kill out of pure hatred and we're the abominations?

On February 7, 2024, an indigenous nonbinary teenager named Nex Benedict was beaten to death in a US high school bathroom.

The news has been spreading across social media over the past few days, with several news outlets misgendering and deadnaming the victim. I have seen a small handful of posts about the entire thing, but only a couple with any sources about what happened.

I spent the morning combing through articles. This is a list of publications reporting on the story that don't deadname Nex:

Pgh Lesbian Correspondents: "Grieving Nex Benedict: the Brutal Killing of 16 Year Old Nonbinary Student in an Oklahoma High School"

The Pride: "Non-Binary Student Dies After Violent Bathroom Fight at Owasso High School in Oklahoma"

The Washington Blade: "Nonbinary Okla. High School Student Dies After Fight"

The Los Angeles Blade: "Oklahoma Non-Binary High Schooler Dies After Physical Alteraction"

LGBTQ Nation: "Teen Beaten to Death in a School Bathroom Bullying Attack. The School Didn't Call an Ambulance."

Freedom Oklahoma: "Rest in Power Nex Benedict"

Indy 100: "Thousands Raised for Non-Binary Teenager Beaten to Death at School"

The Independent: "Oklahoma Banned Trans Students From Bathrooms. Now a Bullied Student is Dead After a Fight."

Daily Dot: "Oklahoma's Top Education Official Called Out Over Libs of TikTok Ties After Non-Binary Student Beaten at School, Dies Later"

Daily Kos: "Libs of TikTok Targeted a District, Then a Non-Binary Student Was Killed on Campus"

Malang Post: "Owasso High School Mourns Pupil's Death After Altercation"

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TW: talk of organs, nerves, and nausea

When I get back to my campus I'm hiding out in my room, in the dark. This entire morning was so overwhelming to my senses.

Firstly I went to church with my mom and I could feel the booming of the music through my body. I dunno how ppl think that's cool or fascinating but I was so uncomfortable I felt like the bass of the music was flowing through the floor, shooting up my feet then exploring my organs like hands I FELT SO ANXIOUS AND TRAPPED.

Then I had to get my dreaded retwists. I never liked how neat my hair looks after a retwist and I definitely don't like how I feel during a retwist. I'm always tearing up at some points. It feels like my mom is combing my nervous system. Every time I hear and feel some strands of my hair stretch, or snap it feels like sliding through a slide dressed in wool, just infinite static shock to my entire body. I have to bounce and shake my legs because I feel like I'm being electrocuted and the volts can only escape through my legs. I genuinely feel so exhausted and overwhelmed I'm so close to crying, passing out or both.

I'm gonna take a good snooze while Criminal minds is playing in my new headphones, like I actually feel waves of nausea just poking at my insides 😭

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Clap if you're not doin well

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Two of my closest friends have a running joke where they use it/it's pronouns on each other and children(which is fcking hilarious) but every time they use it on me I feel strange but in a validating way. I dunno what to do with that . I went from she/her- she/they&they/she- she/they/he- she/he- they/he&he/they to strictly he/him and now I'm tempted to change it to he/it but I DUNNOOO

BEING GAY IS LIKE REALLY FREEING BUT CONFUSING BUT FUN BUT FRUSTRATING JOB😭

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The genius of Saltburn is that out of all the scenes that were obviously weird and disturbing, the bathtub scene, the grave scene, the vampire scene...the only scene I couldn't bear to watch(ha 🐻) was the scene where Felix visits Oliver's house.

The car ride made me slightly nervous cuz Oliver was on the verge of a panic attack but then when they stepped in the house and momma started talking I WANTED TO SHRIVEL UP AND DIE,

Idc what anyone says about that movie it made me feel a spectrum of emotions in just a few hours, it was amazing and awful I Love it but I'm never watching it again😭

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Character a.i is on crack

I'm "talking" to Steve Rogers and he walks up to me, it says "he towers over you" so I responded with: "You're taller in real life"

that a.i said "Well I take super serum drugs"

WHAT😭

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I hate Hate HATE polite culture!

"look at people in the eyes when they talk to you"

"smile when you pass by someone"

"speak when spoken to"

I DON'T WANNA!

I DON'T WANNA DO ANY OF THAT SHIT!

I don't wanna see everybody's fucking eyes and I don't wanna speak to every single person who happens to say hi/good morning/how are you

I just don't want to.

There will be multiple days spanning to weeks where I don't want to verbally communicate but Noooo Fuck what I want! If I simply don't feel like being verbal I'm the asshole!

THEN I'LL BE THE ASSHOLE, IF YOU TALK TO SOMEONE AND THEY DON'T RESPOND AND YOU TAKE IT PERSONALLY YOU NEED TO WORK ON YOUR INSECURITIES CUZ IT'S NOT ALWAYS ABOUT YOU!!! TALKING ISN'T ALWAYS ENJOYABLE FOR EVERYONE!!!