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I randomly check if you've unfollowed me when you haven't reblogged something from me for a long time 🫣

uhm sorry if i am not a good mutie 😔

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secret: i'm getting back with my ex. i'm catching the bus to her house today to spend the weekend. i'm so nervous i feel sick even though i'm happy to be doing it

are you feeling sick bc you are nervous?

hopefully it's the right choice for you x

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Günün yorgunluğunu atma hali var bende.

gözler kapansin uyuyuyu ozaman

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Naber

hiiic sende

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a secret from my heart to yours: im in love with a friend, they're not interested in a relationship right now, I had to take off work cause I couldn't concentrate from thinking about them too much

you had to take off work? 😭 oh wow, what if you open up to them? maybe they will start being interested in a relationship when they have the same feelings towards you

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that's too cute 🥺🥺🥺 thank you, angel-soul 💌

I’m glad you exist and I’m happy you came back to this place. Your writing and kind words always brighten my day when I’m feeling not so good. Thank you ✨

this message made me really feel better after a tiring day, and i have to thank you; my pleasure, sweet soul 🥺🤍 sending you a warm hug 🫂

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I’m glad you exist and I’m happy you came back to this place. Your writing and kind words always brighten my day when I’m feeling not so good. Thank you ✨

this message made me really feel better after a tiring day, and i have to thank you; my pleasure, sweet soul 🥺🤍 sending you a warm hug 🫂

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we ended up at the seven eleven, and while I got gas she dropped in to pick up some snacks. The ride had been quiet, and I stood there in silence as the gas pumped into my thirsty car. We’d both been thinking it, I guess, I mean that’s what she told me before the silence drifted into the car and stayed for good. She said we both had lost that feeling that brought us together. I didn’t know I had lost it, so that was the weird part. Usually, when something is lost, it’s weird for you not to be the one to notice. We grow so attached to our things, our feelings, and emotions. How could it ever go missing and I not notice? But maybe she was right. She came back to the car with tears in her eyes, she brought snacks too, she bought a Dramamine to help with her car-sickness, and headphones. I thought, god, who buys headphones at the seven-eleven? Especially when it was her playing the music on the ride there - songs that sounded like they were her way of communicating through the silence, like two pow’s trying to share a moment when their life had slowly been snatched away from them. All of the songs were of heartbreak, and I don’t know if this was intentional, but she had a way of foreshadowing events. Like one time, in the weeks prior to her quitting her job, she had mentioned that the company she’d always wanted to work for would be more attainable to her. And again, I thought she was happy. But how was I to know what she was saying? That I saw it coming? That I had lost the feelings of being in love?

I pulled the hose out of the car and twisted the lid until the familiar click sounded, and then I placed the hose back on the fuel pump and hopped back in the car. She’d wiped the tears off and smiled. She told me that everything would be ok, then she put on her headphones and reclined her seat and drifted off into a nap while I drove the rest of the way home.

and what happened then? 🥺 did you both find your way back to love?

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I remind him of slow rain 🥺. ( he went in detail about this.. But idk if I should put it here lol😭)

slow rain sounds so peaceful to me; we love it when a man articulates himself well 🥹🤍

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I think about my old best friend often, but I doubt she even cares how I’m doing now.

it hurts to have left pieces of yourself in others, and it even hurts more to keep pieces of others in yourself alive

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in love with my best friend again oops

again and oops? 😭

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Secret: I love him so much I don't know what to do with myself sometimes but we've been married for 5 years, the butterflies just never stopped they may ebb and flow but they don't stop

"the butterlies just never stopped they may ebb and flow but they don't stop" - what a beautiful description 🥹🤍

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Put a secret in my ask box.

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I don’t like still water nor kisses that don’t burn.

— Nancy Bacelo, Contemporary Uruguayan Poetry: A Bilingual Anthology, transl by Ronald Haladyna, (2010)

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How intense is your love?

words can't do justice to its intensity