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rydiin · 3 years
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Still surprised that Judge Scherer ruled in favor of the Defense for once 😳
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9 freshmen should of graduated today 💔
wish i was on here to reply on graduation day 😞. this one hit me pretty hard. you don’t realize how much time has passed until you pay attention to details like these. like imagine little alaina graduating high school..or some of the other young ones. seriously breaks my heart.
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2. Satz knows the expert’s findings are important; he said so himself. He needs accurate results so he can assess his own stance on it. But these attorneys are under the thumb of the families, scared for their own jobs. They need to prove they’re not spending too much time considering ‘him’. That’s why instead of defending what they know is crucial, thorough testing , they’d rather cut corners just to pacify the community (due to some leftie-media exposure leaving them entitled).
Yeah I completely agree. And tbh, I think that the evidence against NC is so strong, the media bias has been completely in favor of the State, the public view of him is absolute horse sh*t..so the State really does have some leeway in how strict they are with the validity of the expert evaluations that are done. Even if they had a couple experts come in, conduct their evals, and give sub-par testimonies in trial. The State still has a whooole host of factors working in their favor. So unlike the Defense, they are able to risk getting inaccurate results because they know that regardless, the odds really are in their favor on this case.
And your point on the community is spot on. Victim families on both sides of the aisle are putting pressure on the State to get this over with already. I don’t blame them for being frustrated with how long the process is taking. Like you insinuated, they’re more concerned about the public eye and how it could rule in their favor than doing the right thing and making sure everyone gets a fair trial here. It’s sad because of course the families wishes need to be taken into account, but in my opinion, when you speed things up just to appease victims families, you’re then throwing out some aspects of a fair trial, which doesn’t really help the family at all in the long run!! They deserve to have both sides present a well thought out, well informed case with a defendant that has been evaluated to the best of everyone’s abilities. If it were my loved one who died, I’d be much less worried about the speed of trial and more concerned with getting accurate answers. If that meant dragging it out another year, then so be it. However, I’m not one of them. I’ve had loved ones killed in horrific ways so I can empathize to some extent, but certainly not in the exact way. I just truly hope we get some good expert evals done. This is such a crucial point in the pre-trial process and it’s really gonna suck if we have to watch everything play out knowing that it was all rushed and none of it was done carefully and precisely. Makes me uneasy just thinking about it 😔
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rydiin · 3 years
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I’m sorry that I’ve gotten behind on asks because of this, but I got on here now really quick to answer one and hopefully can get back on the one a day schedule as long as life doesn’t throw anymore curveballs ☹️ I hope all of you are ok. I know we can’t interact much since everyone is just anonymous these days but do know I love and care about each of you. This community has my heart ♥️
this week has been so difficult. last weekend i found out my friend was missing. he was extremely su*cidal when he talked to his mom earlier that day and he had left behind his phone, money, everything and was nowhere to be found. the next day we find out there was a deadly car crash killing two in the small town he lives in. the bodies were so torn up from the crash that he was unidentifiable so we spent the whole week waiting to find out if it was him. and on Friday afternoon we finally got the news 😢 they had to use his finger prints from when he went to jail before to identify him.
investigators haven’t fully drawn conclusions yet but it seems he was driving with a girl he met and he swerved the wheel, resulting in a car-wreck su*cide 😓. im really close to his mom and she’s so broken- i don’t have the words to comfort her. ugh. i hate death so much.
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rydiin · 3 years
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this week has been so difficult. last weekend i found out my friend was missing. he was extremely su*cidal when he talked to his mom earlier that day and he had left behind his phone, money, everything and was nowhere to be found. the next day we find out there was a deadly car crash killing two in the small town he lives in. the bodies were so torn up from the crash that he was unidentifiable so we spent the whole week waiting to find out if it was him. and on Friday afternoon we finally got the news 😢 they had to use his finger prints from when he went to jail before to identify him.
investigators haven’t fully drawn conclusions yet but it seems he was driving with a girl he met and he swerved the wheel, resulting in a car-wreck su*cide 😓. im really close to his mom and she’s so broken- i don’t have the words to comfort her. ugh. i hate death so much.
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rydiin · 3 years
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I don't know how hurt you are with me. But i just want to let you know that i would never have personally insulted you about your work etc if i'd have known you were male. I thought you were female & that's shaped how i've interacted with you about NC. For now, we have real life stuff to focus on. But if you're interested in starting afresh, i'd prefer to reconnect on NewTumbl for the trial. It's maturer than this site. But if we interact again, it's as male & female. Ok.
bruh im gone all week and this is what i come back to 🤣 ffs i can’t w/ the trolls on this site 😩🤦🏽‍♀️
(made me laugh tho so tank u, was wondering if u were still here 🥰♥️)
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rydiin · 3 years
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I asked my boyfriend (who knows nothing about this case) to watch “What Pretending to be Crazy Looks Like” and tell me what his thoughts were. My goal in this was to get somewhat of a view on how convincing this viral analysis has been on the general public (who also knows very little about this case.)
Anyways, this was his response and ofc he wrote it in an educational essay format 😆 bc he’s on the spectrum and this is just how his brain operates:
“JCS - Criminal Psychology’s “What pretending to be crazy looks like” video on Nikolas Cruz was definitely interesting to watch, as someone who doesn’t know much about the case apart from traditional news media, however the video’s premise from the beginning left quite a bad taste in my mouth. Him trying to set the framework for what he believes “a crazy person” is, did not seem to make any logical sense whatsoever. As if being crazy means you have to act the same way as Jarred Murray did when he murdered a fellow student. All this being said, I do agree with most of the narrator’s assessment of Nikolas Cruz. I do believe NC was acting during his interrogation, and that he was trying to garner sympathy from the interrogator. However, to think that a teenager would go out of his way to murder 17 people inside a school, you’d have to be crazy yourself to say that there isn’t something mentally wrong with NC.”
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Although his reaction to the video was very simplistic, I think he made two important points:
1.) The narrator of this video walks through his analysis in a very arrogant way by presuming that he in fact KNOWS what a “crazy” person looks like. As if there is simply one standard for “crazy” and anyone who does not act according to this standard has no right to be seen as mentally insane or psychotic. It’s a very black and white way of viewing human behavior, especially from a psychological perspective. (I can dive more into this in future asks if you’d like.)
2.) Instead of walking the viewer through the whole interrogation, he chooses specific clips and parts to show. As my bf said, he would rather have watched the interrogation by itself and drawn his own conclusions, because by watching this video, he has no idea what the video creator edited out or what he chose to include in order to prove his point.
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1. Are they allowed to serve an order for the mental health experts because they ‘anticipate’ it will begin in Sept? Can they do that if no concrete date has been set and is based on speculation? Their blatantly doing this to botch his results up. They already know it won’t actually start that month because without a trial date, they can’t begin the jury selection and that would usually take 3 months to conclude anyway. Plus the arrangements of the media, venue etc.
Yes, the court does have the right to order deadlines throughout the pre-trial process. If they didn’t have a right to do so, you can imagine how this would be taken advantage of in the pre-trial process in any type of case. The Court has the power to make all sorts of orders that may seem unethical, illegal, or just unfair and corrupt. In this case, the Court can simply say (as Scherer did in the order) that they have a duty to move the case forward as efficiently as possible in order to prevent any “delay tactics” or unnecessary time gaps before trials. That being said, the Defense also has a right to oppose this order and file a Motion for Reconsideration where they would give their reasoning as to why the deadline could very well cause damage to their trial preparations and list their concerns as to validity of expert evaluations, etc. They may attach an exhibit to this motion as well depending on what type of evidence they want to show in order to convince the judge to reconsider the order. There are specific laws surrounding the right to file Motions for Reconsideration such as the requirement that the Defense would have to provide evidence and argue points that they hadn’t already when speaking before the Court. There’s also a time frame as to how soon the Defense would need to file this motion but I would assume they are in the process of putting this motion together right now as I’m not yet seeing one filed in the Case Detail and I can’t imagine them not arguing against the order.
But yes, I agree with your frustrations and your opinions on the matter 😔 Jury selection will indeed take awhile (which is another thing I’m pretty concerned about the Court attempting to rush through- there’s so many cases where this has happened and you end up with jurors who had obvious signs of bias but ended up getting selected anyways). When they talk about trial potentially beginning in September, they’re also including jury selection in that. Jury selection is the first stage of Trial. So when you think of trial, don’t just think of the trial as one event- remember that there are multiple phases within a trial. The pre-trial process needs to be completed before trial (first step: jury selection) can begin. Opening statements happening in September obviously won’t be a thing. But I’m curious as to how the timeline will work itself out. Especially when you throw this virus into the mix, because there could easily be a spike again that would put off in-court proceedings as it has been. The uncertainty of this process as to how and when it will start moving forward has been chaotic 😣
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rydiin · 3 years
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Heyy i’m not sure if you already know about this but there’s quite an active parkland subreddit on reddit if you’re not apart of it already :D
yeah i see stuff about him on Reddit but tbh i prefer it here since i get the close interactions and it’d be difficult to try to keep up with both! maybe ill start joining in if i can learn to manage my time better 🥴 honestly tho, I’m not a Reddit person at all which makes it difficult because the site is so confusing to me 😂 I’ve seen info about the case under multiple subreddits. i remember some of the info I released months ago being posted on there but I don’t remember what it was under! it just popped up in my email. but it seems like you’re referring to a specific one. If so, send it to my inbox or ask and ill check it out 😊
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rydiin · 3 years
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Hello, you seem to be posting again. Welcome back. What conclusion have you reached as to why they are rushing these experts? End of August seemed reasonable. Why not eye up an Oct start date? What's the difference in a month? But the chief judge insists it has to be Sept (because that's his birthday month). They want to prove a point but it will backfire because the State will have inconclusive results too.
Hey! I think there’s a couple asks that followed that were related to this one but for now I’ll answer this then come back to the others 😊 Honestly I think at the end of the day, the State and the Judge are on the same page when it comes to a lot surrounding this case due mainly to politics. We know that Scherer has ties with many on that side so (imo) there seems to be some clear bias. But aside from that, the Defense can make a very good case against the powers of Broward and put a spotlight on their corruption (which the State and Scherer are also a part of- the school board, sheriffs office, judicial system, everyone in power is connected). So from the beginning of this case, we’ve seen Scherer consistently side with the State in their requests and she’s been very persistent in wanting to push this as quickly as possible. I think putting a deadline on the experts was just another way for her to regain control and move with the State’s desires. I’m sure she has her mind set on what she thinks should happen to NC, she knows what the State wants. She knows that allowing the time to move on isn’t in her own best interests, both personal and career-wise..so she made a move that worked for her benefit. I do think it could potentially work in the favor of the Defense as this crucial process being sped up could be used as reason for inconclusive or invalid results, so they could (and likely will) push this point in the appeals process.
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I never knew this but apparently the cherif who arrested NC said he was very obviously responding to “Command Hallucinations” and even though he wasn’t supposed to say this he said that Cruz was not deserving of privacy. However, the papers stating this apparently were leaked and then made private again because it would intefere with trial. Command hallucinations are a direct symptom of psychosis and the more I study psychosis, I really do believe NC suffere from a psychotic disorder. They’re defined by being out of touch with reality and I can’t find a phrase that fits him better. Whether or not he is /actually/ hearing voices, someone with psychosis would probably be more likely to mistake intrusive thoughts as voices, anyways. Intrusive thoughts may be 10x louder for those with psychosis and borderline auditorial. When you’re in that state, you’ll convince yourself anything is real, even your own perspectives, no matter how warped and he had plenty warped perspectives. It also explains why he might not truthfully be aware of the actions he did and why he’d be more impulsive with acting on these perspectives. Psychosis doesn’t always have to be from schizophrenia either so its just very interesting, especially that the cherif said this!
Thanks for the well thought out ask 🙂 I definitely wouldn’t shut down the possibility of NC being someone who has experienced psychosis. Questions like these make me SO intrigued and anxious to see the results of the mental health experts that will be evaluating him. If you’ve been following me for awhile you know I work in the mental health field (and unfortunately have a lot of lived experience via myself and loved ones) that relates to many of the topics we talk about in regard to this case, so now I’m thinking of people I’ve worked with and family members who have struggled with states of psychosis and trying to relate that to the behaviors we’ve seen in NC.
You’re right, he doesn’t have to have a bipolar or schizophrenia diagnoses in order to have experienced states of psychosis. In fact other issues (such as trauma) play a big role in triggering psychosis in individuals as well. We don’t know a whole lot about how NC was treated by his father before he passed or his mother while she was alive, but I personally do think the allegations of s*xual assault that he talked about in jail are pretty believable considering this is something that a loved one had made a post about after his arrest, and then he just so happens to be thinking about it in jail. And he clearly never sought help to deal with this trauma (assuming it happened), which could have triggered a lot of mental health issues to occur, including psychosis.
As far as the sheriff saying he was responding to command hallucinations, I think this was just a surface level observation he made due to the fact that during arrest NC was shouting about demons and acting confused about what happened. NC is definitely saying that he was responding to command hallucinations, but the job of the State will be to prove that these claims were false and that he really did this knowingly and willingly and in a clear mental state (not in a state of psychosis or delirium or any other state of insanity where the blame could be placed in part on a condition).
I do feel like I have to add this, because when you go and read a textbook definition for psychosis you’d likely see something along the lines of, a state of mind where an individual is out of touch with reality.....and other things about how their common sense is affected, how there is an increase in anxiety, stress, depression, abnormal behaviors, etc. And after reading that it would be easy to become convinced that NC was in a state of psychosis. However, other things (outside of psychosis) could be responsible for the fact that he doesn’t seem to be in touch with reality and was having intrusive thoughts. For example, in his jail letters we see that he is CLEARLY not in touch with reality and the actual consequences of his actions. And these letters were written over a period of time, rather than him just speaking normal and then entering into a delusional state that changes his perception of reality. I’m not shutting down the possibility of him suffering from psychosis, but I am saying I think we need to look at all the factors here. Another factor to look at would be his behaviors throughout his life and how they relate to the massacre. Because it’s not as if we have this kid who was pretty “normal” throughout childhood and adolescence but then started to shift and had his first episode of psychosis and things went haywire. This is someone who was clearly troubled from a young age due to many factors. To me, psychosis does seem more unlikely when we consider his escalating behaviors that began at such a young age. And his developmental delays could definitely explain in part how out of touch with reality he is. I guess to put it in short and simple terms, I see NC as someone who had a whole life that was messed up and unstable rather than someone who was going in and out of psychotic episodes. (Then again, technically both could be true).
I tried to approach this ask from both sides: considering the possibility of him being in an episode of psychosis during the event, but also considering the possibility of him not being in a state of psychosis. You know me, I like to look at it from different angles. Especially in such a complex case where we have so many gaps that need to be filled in order to understand fully 😭 (not that we ever will 😔).
But I’m curious, because I think you sent this over a week ago correct? Have your views on his mental state changed after watching the “what pretending to be crazy looks like” video? You seem to be pretty convinced that NC was genuinely suffering from some sort of psychotic episode so I’d love to hear if any of the things pointed out in that video changed your mind at all or made you doubt anything. Or maybe you have some counterpoints as to why the analysis was off. Feel free to share I love hearing your guys views 😊
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rydiin · 3 years
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make it stop 😭
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these memes are everywhere 🤦🏽‍♀️
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rydiin · 3 years
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sorry work is crazy right now so not time to answer a whole ask tonight but will be back on here tomorrow!
But thought I’d share this real quick: so I’ve been wondering what a complete OUTSIDER to this case would think of the “What pretending to be crazy looks like” YouTube documentary since it’s spread so far and wide across platforms within the past week. I’ve seen it everywhere !
Anyways I’m forcing my bf (who knows nothing about the case bc he’s not into TC, but is also a very smart guy) to watch it over the weekend and report back to us what his feelings on the doc are. Whether it convinced him that NC truly was “pretending” to be crazy, whether he thought NC’s reactions were genuine, or whatever other thoughts it evoked. I’m just curious because everyone I talk to about this are already people who KNOW the case. I want to know what the mass public is thinking when they see this, because that gives us a better idea of what ‘random’ jurors will think when they see State arguments.
(Ofc any juror is already going to have an opinion on NC since it’s such a high profile case esp in FL but I still thought it would be interesting to get the view of an outsider viewing this analysis of the interrogation- because most of us have feelings invested into this case (so whether we like it or not, we’re prone to bias).
Ok I’ll be back on tomorrow to answer an ask or two 😊
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rydiin · 3 years
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have you watched the video on nc called “what pretending to be crazy looks like” it has 26 million views 😳
ok i know i always try my best to answer asks in order but ive been waiting for someone to say something about this!!!!! is nobody here anymore or what why did it take so long 🥺😭
yes ive watched it and would love to hear anyone’s thoughts! i won’t go into my personal thoughts right now but i will say that it was an extremely well thought out video and i value the guy who created the video- he has a great channel to check out. but for any of you hoping that the Defense might be able to use NC’s mental illness as a Defense at trial via insanity plea or really any mental defense that makes him appear crazy as if he was not in his rational and right mind during the event- prepare to be blackpilled 🥴
im sure the State has seen it and is extremely happy that it’s getting so many views. like its so widely viewed that ive seen multiple memes about it completely outside of the tc realm!! so the public is definitely being convinced that NC was “pretending to be crazy” in order to blame shift what he did. which isn’t a foreign concept to this blog- we’ve discussed this possibility many times before! but was interesting to see the argument put together in such a well thought out and clearly articulated way. that’s all i will say!
you can watch it here for anyone who hasn’t seen it yet 🙂
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rydiin · 3 years
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It seems like NC may have been the classic story of the bullied becoming the bully but on steroids
I do think there’s a bullying aspect to this case but I think it’s much more complex than NC merely being bullied and as a result choosing to inflict violence upon those that bullied him. In fact, I’ve gone off about this before because I really don’t think that anyone who looks into this case and NC as a person, (from young childhood up until the massacre) can honestly say that this was just an escalated event of the bully victim becoming the bully. If you haven’t yet read Andrew Pollack’s book I would highly suggest doing so. I believe I made a few informational posts on the book where I posted most of the relevant information when it comes to NC’s issues. But from what we know, NC had very aggressive and violent tendencies from an extremely young age- before he even entered the public school system or had much of a chance to be bullied by anybody. So since we know that he was showing violent tendencies before even entering the social settings where he could’ve experienced bullying, we know this goes much deeper than an escalated reactionary event.
That being said, he was clearly outcasted by many when he did enter the public school system. Due to his learning disabilities, developmental delays, behavioral issues, etc. the people in power at these schools took their own actions to isolate him such as requiring him to be harnessed on the bus, having him take separate classes, giving him special accommodations. So when students see things like this happening, they tend to view their peer as “different” and make their own negative judgements which likely led to a lot of outcasting.
But then we have NC’s own behaviors to toss into the mix. I’m NOT saying that bullying is ever okay, but I do think he contributed to how he was treated because he was overly aggressive and unstable. For example, jumping off school busses, cussing out teachers, throwing chairs, breaking glasses, throwing things at girls..these are all actions that can propel people away and make them want to keep their distance. I don’t think he wanted people to keep their distance. I think he longed for friendship and for people to value him, but his attention seeking efforts were negative and therefore the attention he received was negative. But I don’t want anyone to think I’m saying that any reports of how he was treated were deserved. For example, his brother not letting him come hangout with him and his friends because he was ashamed of NC- that must’ve been incredibly hurtful for NC because he just wanted to fit in. But the records we have show he was born different from the majority of his peers and he knew this. This is likely why he was so desperate for attention from others, because he had been treated as “special” his whole life and just wanted to fit in with the “popular” crowd, the people who seemed to be adored by everyone and found romance and friendships easy, unlike NC.
I guess my point is that while, yes, we do know he was treated as a social outcast by many and I’m sure there were multiple occasions where he was bullied, A lot of this resulted from his behavioral issues and the systems that set him apart from an early age. I think the sh**ting had a lot more to do with his mental state than how people treated him. I think some often forget that he HAD friends. It wasn’t as if he was literally hated by everyone and thrown into trash cans at school daily. In fact, there’s many incidents reported of him bullying others. Having some close friends who had the same interests as him didn’t prevent him from doing this. He was clearly struggling with both mental and neurological issues from a very young age and unfortunately did not get the help and reinforcement that he needed in order to avoid this outburst of aggression and hatred. NC seems to be a lot more complicated of a suspect than most make him out to be.
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Now that I think about it, I actually would not be surprised if another one of Nik’s fixed interest (due to autism) is love/relationships. Obviously his biggest fixation is guns/warfare and what not, but he was also very fixated on the idea of love/relationships and it was to the point where if he couldn’t pursue it, he would spiral. Not to mention it’s probably one of his biggest sources of daydreaming, which also seems to be a huge stim of his. I remember seeing this in of his reports from school! Being on the spectrum myself, a lot of people automatically assume we are very isolated beings, which he definitely was in some regards, but with that also comes the possibility for some people to be super attached to certain people/ideas and i know a lot of people on the spectrum reporting love/romantic relationships has been a fixation for them at some point!
Good point!! I think I have a post about this somewhere unless it was on one of my old accounts (rip). A lot of people who either aren’t on the spectrum themselves or don’t understand the language of fixed or special interest, stimming, etc., probably get confused by asks like this but if anyone reading this hasn’t already taken it upon themselves to gain knowledge on the autism spectrum it’s definitely worthwhile if you’re interested in this case. (A special interest for someone on the spectrum is basically a fixation on something- something that captures their attention and focus; they can easily invest hours into thinking on, studying, engaging in whatever this interest is without becoming bored or disengaged. This differs from an ordinary interest, due to the fixation (and often knowledge) aspect.)
I feel that NC’s special interests are sometimes hard to spot due to the fact that not only was he on the spectrum, but he clearly has a whole host of mental health issues that come into play. This is why over time I’ve found it difficult to dogmatically say that one of his special interests was “violence” as some have said, because I feel like that may not only create stigma against those in the spectrum, but neurological abnormalities plus mental health issues make it difficult to differentiate what part of his fixation on violence was due to autism and what part was due to mental health issues. Because those are two very different things.
As far as love goes, I do find it very possible that this was one of his special interests which I’ve always found interesting because from my own experience what I’ve seen is more common than not is that those on the spectrum actually struggle with love/romance rather than having it as an intense interest, whereas with NC, it seems to be the opposite. Looking back on all of the information that we’ve gathered throughout the past years, his fixation on romance seems to go much deeper than your average pre-teen boy who enters puberty and realizes girls are pretty. He was obsessed with the idea of finding a soulmate- a girl who would complete him. Even in teenage years he was obsessing over marriage and finding someone to spend the rest of his life with. Most teens do go through an obsession or atleast increased interest in romance due to hormones and biology but I think most recognize NC’s fixation on specific females to be much more intense than your average teenage boy. I think that this is even telling when you look at the way he fixated on specific girls and could not get them out of his head. So it’s not like he was just raging with hormones and wanted whatever girl he could possibly get, he wanted specific girls and fixated on them for months and months after his brain should’ve logically known he didn’t have a chance with them. I think this is an indicator that differentiates his experience from the neurotypical teenage boy experience because his fixation on romance led to specific fixations on specific females where he would literally sit there and make up fake scenarios in his head that completely contradicted the reality that he wasn’t getting anywhere with them.
I honestly find romance special interests in people on the spectrum to be very rare and difficult to figure out because it’s so much more intricate and sensitive than something such as legos or trains or species of animals (just for simple example), because these are humans they are fixating on and growing fonder of due to developing knowledge and once you add the emotional and hormonal connection, it really does make things complicated for an outsider looking in.
I appreciate you making this point because I think that so many people who aren’t aware of NC’s various characteristics (neurological, mental health, personality) tend to be like “why tf was he so invested into a girl who clearly didn’t like him back?!”. They fail to consider the actual brain activity that possibly led to these fixations, and also fail to consider his situation holistically.
What I mean by that, is just remember that his father died when he was very young and was therefore raised as a mamas boy. He was far too spoiled by her (which is a whole nother post), but this likely led to his fixation on women as the solution to all of his issues. He craved nurturing and care and affection. He wanted to care for someone and receive the same in return.
My point in saying that is; remember that NC is not only on the spectrum. Yes, he has developmental delays and he has his own special interests, his own stims, his own quirks. He is definitely on the spectrum. But in trying to look at him and his case holistically, I’m constantly trying to factor in parental/family upbringing, side issues such as bullying and social interactions, along with mental health issues which we have a glimpse into. These all play a role into his actions,/behaviors, and mindsets as to how he dealt with certain desires that kept coming up.
I like that you mentioned the daydreaming, because I feel like his letters and conversations since being incarcerated show that this fixation on women was not merely suppressed once he was taken out of an environment where he had romance interests surrounding him. Even in an environment where he rarely sees females, he continues to fixate on them and invest likely the majority of his time (so it seems) into thinking about romance and love. To me, this is a strong indicator that romance/females/love really is his special interest.
I could write so much more but this is already so long! Would love to dive deeper into the connection between his special interest in romance/love and the violence that took place on the day of the sh**ting. But for now, I’ll leave it there. Thanks for the ask ❤️
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