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Title - Ride you

Pairing - Sy x reader

Warnings - smut

Story - Sy wants reader to practice driving a stick shift. Reader wants to ride him instead.

“Sy are you sure?” You glanced at your fiancée who was sitting in the passenger side of the truck, dangling the keys out to you with a cheeky grin on his face. “Remind me again why I have to drive a stick shift?”

“Because my truck will be our second vehicle and I don’t trust that car of yours”.

“Sy!”

“Baby you got to learn. What if I’m deployed and that heap of shit you drive doesn’t start again?”

“Why do you hate my car so much?” You rolled your eyes as you started the ignition. “It’s a classic”.

“A classic heap of shit”. Sy laughed as you punched his arm. “Ok, ok .. just drive woman!”

“I hate this..” You grumbled as you crunched the gears. “I prefer my automatic”.

“You’ll thank me later”.

“Why am I driving out here in the bloody paddock?” You groaned as you drove along on the bumpy dirt road.

“It’s a dirt road that leads to a paddock”. Sy laughed.

“Same thing”. You rolled your eyes.

“Because I can’t trust you on the road yet”.

“Hmmmm”. You huffed and glanced at Sy as he put on his sunglasses. You smirked and decided to see how far you could push him. When he looked away you quickly moved your knee length dress up to your thighs then continued driving. “Sy baby?”

“Yeah? Sy looked at you then immediately glanced at your bare legs.

“It’s hot isn’t it? Can you turn up the air?” You kept your focus on the road but you knew that your dress was sitting just short of your lace boy brief panties.

“Oh yeah sure thing Sugar” Sy stammered as he fidgeting with the air conditioning.

You smirked when you noticed Sy adjusting his crutch discreetly. The captain was a big strong guy, but you were his one and only weakness. After leaning back in his seat and shifting a few times he huffed before placing his big hand on your upper thigh.

“Doing well Sugar”.

“I have a good teacher”. You chewed on your bottom lip as you slowed the truck down and parked to the side of the road. Sy glanced at you and raised his eyebrow.

“Something wrong baby girl?”

“I’m getting tired of driving Sy”. You turned to him slowly, your eyes on his huge bulge. “It’s so boring .. I feel like riding something instead”.

Sy licked his lips before unbuckling his seatbelt then leaning across to do the same to yours. His hand rubbed up and down your thigh.

“You wanna be my naughty girl huh Sugar?”

“You like that don’t you?”

“Fucking love it”. Sy leaned forward and sucked on your bottom lip before kissing you passionately. “Wanna take this in the back?”

“Thought you’d never ask Captain”. You winked at him before opening your door and getting out of the truck. You watched as Sy leaned across to push the seat forward before getting out himself. You grinned as you slid your underwear off and tossed them at him. “Get in Sy and no pants”.

“Bossy”. Sy rolled his eyes before unzipping his jeans and pushing them down along with his boxers. He grinned at you and slapped his thigh, his cock erect against his stomach. “Come ride me Sugar”.

You got in and crawled onto his lap as he pulled your skirt up. You sat on his thighs as he sucked on two fingers before easing them in between your folds.

“So wet for me already”. Sy rubbed his fingers over your clit before sliding them in. Immediately you moaned and rocked on his hand. “Look at you riding my fingers .. you want it bad don’t you love?”

You moaned louder and moved to fist his cock. You kept your eyes on his as you leaned closer and spat on your hand to lubricate him.

“Jesus”. Sy closed his eyes as you pumped his cock while his fingers moved inside you. “Tell me you can take me. I need to fuck you”.

“I’m ready”.

Sy withdrew his fingers and lined his cock up at your entrance. He groaned as you pushed your hips down to engulf him inch by inch.

“You’re so big”. You groaned feeling Sy stretch your walls. “Gimme a minute”.

“You can take me”. Sy rubbed your clit in circles. “Tight little pussy”.

Once he was embedded deep within you, you started to move and Sy moaned out loud. His hands moved to your ass then you felt a slap against your bare skin.

“That’s it .. fuck me good”.

You threw your head back as the truck started to rock. Sy pushed your t shirt up and you felt the cool breeze on your bare skin as he pulled your bra cups down and exposed your breasts. You knew how much Sy loved them as they were big and natural. He leaned forward to suck on one of your nipples as his fingers rolled the other one. Then he leaned back as his eyes watched your bouncing breasts then in between your legs.

“That’s it .. ride me hard like that. Make those tits bounce”. Sy moaned.

You loved how dirty he got during sex. It turned you on and he knew it.

“Like this?” You rode him harder and cupped your breasts in both hands.

“Fuck yeah .. like my own private porno”. Sy pushed his hips up to meet your thrusts. You cried out as he hit your cervix. He was so deep inside you that you swore you saw stars. Your hands gripped his t shirt hem as you tugged it up to reveal his rock hard abs. Instantly your hands moved to his chest as you lent against him for leverage.

“Fuck you’re riding me so well Sugar”. Sy groaned. “Gotta sit back and enjoy the show now .. your old man can’t keep up with you”.

You smirked as you continued to ride him hard. Your thighs burned, sweat glistened on your skin and all you could hear were squelching sounds coming from between your legs. You lent back slightly, letting Sy get the best view of your body. He was muttering profanities, clearly enjoying what you were doing.

Sy licked his fingers then twisted your nipples. He knew you were super sensitive there and it usually bought on your orgasm. You felt the tingle in your toes as he repeated the action.

“I’m going to cum”. You moaned.

“Yeah? Gonna cum on this big cock?” Sy watched between your legs. “Fuck .. how the hell do you take me?” His hand moved to your lower abdomen. “I’m in here. Oh fuck”.

“Sy”. You moaned as your stomach started to coil. “Oh god I feel it”.

“Come on Sugar. Give it to me”.

You screamed his name as the most earth shattering orgasm hit you hard. Your body jerked in spasms as Sy continued to move you up and down on his cock.

“Shit”. Sy muttered. “Can feel you gripping me .. fuck I’m gonna cum. Lean forward”.

You were tired and your body was limp and well spent as you lay against Sy’s chest. He moved you up and down on his cock quickly while muttering filth into your ear.

“Just a bit more. Need this pussy a bit more”.

“Cum Sy”. You were so tired and your pussy started to ache. He was a big guy and you knew you wouldn’t be able to walk tomorrow. All you could do was lay against him as he used your pussy as a fuck toy to reach his peak. It was always this way with Sy. He seemed to last forever.

“Sy”. You moaned. “Cum baby”.

“Close .. fuck so close”. Sy was grunting loudly as he pushed his hips up and down at a rapid pace while you lay limp against his chest. “Just a bit longer. Fuck your pussy is so good baby”.

You were tired as hell and your bull of a fiancée had a lot more in him, so you decided to play dirty in a bid to soothe your battered pussy.

“Please.. please Daddy ..”

“Fucking hell!” Sy faltered in his movements before snapping his hips again. “Keep talking .. keep saying that”.

“Need you to fill up my little pussy”. You sucked on his neck. “Your big cock is fucking me so well Daddy”.

“Lean back”. Sy grabbed hold of your waist as he bucked up into you. You knew he was watching your big breasts bounce around so you grabbed hold of them and moaned. “Daddy! Fuck me like that Daddy!”

“Yeah? Fucking tell me!”

“Look”. You leant back grabbing the seat behind you as you moved off your knees and spread your legs wide. You knew him well and this was by far his biggest turn on. “Look how big your cock is and how tiny my pussy is”. You gyrated your hips as he slowed his movements to watch you. You could feel him twitch. He was so close.

“Do you like that Daddy? You like stretching this little pussy?”

“Fuck yeah”. Sy grabbed at your knees, pushing them wider apart. “Jesus I’m close”.

You sat up slightly as his hands moved to your waist and he started using your body again.

“Cum Daddy”. You grabbed at one of his hands and moved it towards your face. Your mouth opened as you sucked on two of his fingers. “Pussy is getting sore Daddy. Need your cum”.

“Jesus fucking Christ!” Sy grabbed your waist hard as he released inside you. He was never a one shot kind of guy, instead he always came in a series of bursts. So you moved your legs wider across his lap, opening yourself up to him as he moaned. “Fuck that’s it. Take it”. His hand drifted between your legs as some of his cum started to drip out. He rubbed it all over your clit before moving his fingers back to your mouth to suck clean. The minute your lips parted he groaned loudly as he finished emptying his load inside you.

“Naughty girl calling me that. You know what that does to me”. Sy panted as he lay back against the seat. He was all sweaty and the truck smelt like sex.

“I had to get you to cum”. You kissed his lips. “I was getting sore”.

“Did I hurt ya?” Sy looked up quickly, his eyes looking over your body.

“No but you’re a big boy Sy”. You got up on your knees as he eased himself out of you. He saw you whimper and he looked concerned. “Don’t think I’ll ever get used to your big dick”.

Sy ran his hands over your stomach and hips. You could almost read his mind. He was into aftercare and although he never liked to hurt you, he knew that he was well endowed and anything rough left you a bit sore.

“Lay back baby”. Sy made you lay down as he pulled off his t shirt and slipped it under your ass. Gently he wiped you clean then bent forward to kiss your stomach. “Gotta reward you now love. You just lie there while I take care of ya”.

“Sy”.

“Let me make your pussy feel better baby”.

Before you could react his mouth was between your legs seeking out your clit. He gave it a good long suck and you moaned. Unlike other men before him, Sy had no issue with tasting himself between your legs. It was something that turned you on.

“Sy oh god Sy!”

Soon you were moaning, your hands grasping Sy’s hair as your walls clenched. His mouth had latched on to your sensitive clit while one of his fingers pumped into you. As you came down from your high you noticed Sy hovering between your legs and wiping his mouth with the back of his hand.

“You good?”

“Yeah .. fuck that was hot Sy”.

“Best car ride I’ve had Sugar”

“So you think I’m ok at driving your stick shift?”

“Your mean riding it?” Sy grinned at you. “The best baby”.

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Title - His last wish

Pairing - Sy x reader

Warnings - Angst, smut, stillborn

Note - This one’s long and holds an element of things that I’d say are personal to me. It was therapeutic to write but a bit deep so consider that a warning. Also had it sitting in drafts for ages so not the best with proofreading!

Summary - Reader returns home after ten years still holding onto a deep burden. She’s home to see her dying grandfather but is worried about crossing paths with the one who broke her heart.

It had been ten years since you’d returned home. Ten years since you left to chase your dream of becoming a doctor. And ten years since your heart was crushed into a million pieces when your first love told you “We’re going in different directions”. You’d managed to stay away this long - your family understanding your turmoil and agreeing to visit you in the city instead. But now here you were standing on your parents doorstep after they called and begged you to come. Your beloved grandfather was dying and had asked to see you.

“Honey! Oh honey!” Your mother opened the door and pulled you into her arms. “What on earth? You said your plane was arriving at midday! We were coming to pick you up from the airport!”

“I took an earlier flight Mum. I didn’t want you driving”. You smiled as your mother kissed you on the forehead. Truth being, you did it on purpose. Wanting to avoid the airport greetings knowing that you could very well bump into Sy since the military base was close by and he had a habit of visiting the airport’s cafe.

“Your Dad will be cross”. Your mother smoothed down her apron and as you breathed in the scent of fresh apple pie.

“No he won’t”. You pulled your suitcase inside. “When has he ever been mad at me?”

“Honey …” Your mother held you at arms length as she smoothed down your hair like she did when you were a child. “Thank you for being here. It will make him happy .. I know it’s hard for you”.

“Mum ..” You swallowed and recited your well rehearsed speech. “I was nineteen years old. Young and stupid .. don’t worry I’m passed it”.

“I’m your mother, I know you love. I know what you went through”.

“It’s the past Mum. I’m here for granddad and for all of you”.

Your mother studied your face before she sighed. She rubbed your shoulder and gestured towards the upstairs guest room.

“I won’t .. shock him will I?”

“No but your father is in with him”. Your mother smiled. “You’ll shock him no doubt”.

Your eyes flickered to the locket your mother was wearing, the one that matched your own around your neck. Your heart clenched knowing that the same photo was inside and for a moment you wondered if you’d made the right choice in coming home.

Your mother looked down at the locket and then back at you. She smiled softly.

“I’ve never taken it off”.

“Neither have I”. You swallowed the lump in your throat. “I just .. I wonder a lot .. and I just think .. did I do something? Was I to blame? I know that’s stupid .. but I still think like that”.

“Honey .. never ever .. just ..” Your mother grabbed your face as her eyes filled with tears. “You did nothing wrong. I was there .. I know”.

“Oh Mum”. You hugged your mother as you cried softly. Her hands rubbed your back while she hummed softly in your ear in a bid to comfort your broken heart.

“Take your time love. Just breathe ok? Everything’s alright. You’re the strongest person I know darling. Such a brave nineteen year old and now look at you. Twenty nine and a doctor. Honey I’m so very proud of you”.

“Thank you Mum”. You wiped at your face. “Sorry for being so emotional. It’s just .. being back here. Knowing Sy’s here. It’s brought up so many deep feelings and memories”.

“I know love. We appreciate you being here and I promise you that we will look after you ok?”

“Thanks mum”. You glanced at the stairs. “I’m going to go see him now ok?”

“Alright love. I’ll finish fixing your room”.

You paused at the bottom of the stairs before walking up slowly. You stared at the timber door to your left and your hand traced over the handle before knocking twice then opening it slowly. You smiled at the look of surprise on your fathers face. He was sitting in a chair next to your grandfathers bed. He jumped up quickly, causing your grandfather to open his eyes.

“What are you doing here! Did I miss your flight? I didn’t doze off?”

“No Dad! I got in earlier”. You laughed quietly as your father hugged you before kissing your cheeks. You waved at your grandfather who was blowing you a kiss. “Hi Grandpa. I came to see you”.

“Look at you”. Your grandfather beckoned you over and you rushed to the side of the bed to grab his hands. “There’s my girl”.

“I missed you Grandpa. Im going to be here for a few weeks ok? So don’t you worry about anything”.

“Im glad sweetheart. These doctors tell me I’ve only got a few weeks but what do they know?” Your grandfather smiled. “You’re the only doctor I trust”.

“And im here to look after you”.

Your grandfather nodded as he lay his head back against the pillows. His fingers touched the locket around your neck.

“Im going to see him soon sweetheart”.

Your heart ached and you nodded. You saw your father wipe his face.

“I know”.

“Im going to look after him for you”.

“I know grandpa”. Your lip trembled. “Thank you”.

“Wyatt”. Your grandfather whispered.

“Wyatt”. You whispered as your grandfather closed his eyes, sleeping in soft breaths. You saw your father quietly leave the room, giving you time alone. When the door closed you lay your head on the bed next to your grandfathers arm.

Wyatt .. you repeated over and over. Your baby boy born at only 26 weeks that took one breath. He had been your savior throughout your heartbreak over losing Sy. When you found out you were pregnant Sy had already been deployed. You found out he wouldn’t be home for 12 months and was in a restricted area so you had no way of contacting him. You planned on telling him .. bringing Wyatt to him. You just had no way of knowing that you would lose him. And then you found out that Sy had a new girlfriend … actually many new girls. So you decided not to burden him with the memory of a son that he never got to meet. Was it wrong? Maybe. But you were young and broken.

The days that followed you spent looking after your grandfather. You were glad you came because the time you spent with him were therapeutic. You went through old family movies and photo albums .. his health was deteriorating rapidly but he was also smiling.

“Sweetheart?”

“Yes Grandpa?” You paused as you were reading him a passage of a book.

“Go see that boy of yours”.

“Sy? He’s not my boy Grandpa. It’s best kept in the past”.

“For me? I just want you to have peace”.

“I have peace Grandpa”. You paused. “There’s no use in bringing up all that hurt. He’s moved on, I’ve moved on”.

“What about Wyatt?”

“What good would that do now Grandpa? I tried to tell him but he was gone you know that. Then it ., happened and .. it was too late”.

“It’s never too late sweetheart”. Your grandpa patted your knee. “You are still hurting”.

“So why hurt him? After ten years?”

“You know why .. the same reason you tried to tell him in the beginning”. Your grandfather paused. “Because he has a right to know”.

“What right Grandpa?” Tears stung your eyes. “He left me. I was nineteen and in love with him! Then I came back after losing Wyatt and he was with every girl he could find! Like I was nothing!”

“Love .. you’re still hurt. Can’t you see that?” Your grandfather stared at you. “Just promise me that you’ll talk to him if your paths cross. You don’t have to search him out .. if fate has it then that’s another story”.

You chewed on your bottom lip as you looked at your grandfather. You couldn’t say no so you nodded.

“If our paths cross ..”

Your grandfather smiled and motioned for you to continue reading. You sighed and settled back into the armchair as you tried to forget about Sy.

3 weeks later your Grandfather passed away peacefully. You felt heartbroken yet content that you had such cherished time with him. The funeral was held a week later and he was laid to rest. You spent that afternoon helping your mother serve afternoon tea to the people that were at the service. Extended family and friends that came to pay their respects.

“Honey can you please put on another pot of coffee?” Your mother asked you. You nodded and headed into the kitchen. As you waited for the coffee to brew you felt a presence behind you. Your hands griped the counter as you breathed in the scent of spice that you knew so well. Your knees almost buckled but you willed yourself not to turn around. Not now, today of all days.

“Been awhile”.

There was no mistaking that Texas accent. You breathed in deeply and tucked some of your brown hair behind your ear. Instinctively your hand moved to your locket. You could do this .. surely you could do this. You breathed in deeply and slowly turned around.

“Hello Sy”.

“Hello Sugar”. His eyes stared at you intensely. “Been ten years hasn’t it?”

“Yes”.

“You look different .. still pretty as hell but real different”.

“I’m not a teenager anymore”. You swallowed as you took in his muscular physique. “Neither are you”.

“Turned 30 last month, can you believe it?” Sy scratched at his beard, something that was new to you.

“20th of July”.

“You remember?”

“Course”.

“Well I remember yours too .. hard to forget”.

Your face flushed remembering how you lost your virginity to him when you were 16 on your birthday.

“Yeah ..”

“I’m sorry about your Pa”. Sy breathed in deeply. “He was a good man”.

“Thank you. Yes he was”.

“He was .. hoping you’d spend some time here. I bet he was happy to see you”.

“You spoke to him?” You studied Sy’s face.

“Well I …” Sy paused.

“When?”

Just turn as your mother came in. She stoped dead in her tracks when she saw you standing with Sy. She smiled and pointed to the pot of coffee which you passed to her.

“Hello Sy. Thank you for coming”. Your mother glanced between the two of you.

“I’m sorry for your loss Mam”. Sy stood awkwardly with his hands in his pockets.

“Thank you dear. I’ll uh .. leave you to it”.

Your mother left and an uncomfortable silence filled the room. You looked at Sy but he looked as unsure as you felt. You cleared you throat and wondered what to say but just as you opened your mouth Sy spoke.

“I should go. Just came to pay my respects”.

“Oh ok”.

“It was real nice seeing you”.

Before you could react he walked out. For a moment you stood still, digesting what had just happened. Then you heart started pounding and before you could think you charged out of the kitchen and followed Sy out of the house. How dare he just show up like that. How dare he act like nothing had happened between you both?

“Wait!” You saw him turn around in surprise. You knew this was wrong. You were too emotional and part of you knew you should just go back in the house but you couldn’t help yourself. You matched right up to Sy and pushed at his chest with both your hands as hard as you could. “Why the hell are you here? Why? Today of all days!”.

“I told you I came to pay my respects!” Sy grabbed hold of your wrists as you pounded at his chest. “Just calm down”.

“I’m not going to calm down!”.

“Just listen to me!”

“No! You fucking left me!” You screamed. “You left me and never looked back! You chose the army over me and never even cared to see how I was!”

“I did what was best for you!”

“Best for me?” You laughed through your tears. “You were what was best for me you idiot”.

“You’re a doctor! That’s what you wanted and I was holding you back”. Sy let go of your wrists slowly.

“Right! You knew what was best. You just wanted to be a bachelor huh? I was holding you back”.

“Thats not true”.

“Fucked half of the town haven’t you?”

“Now you listen ..” Sy raised his voice.

“I tried .. I tried to reach you”. You sobbed causing Sy’s eyes to widen I shock. “Came back after and you were too busy playing the field ..”

“I was in Afghanistan for a year”. Sy’s voice softened. “You tried to reach me?”

“I tried .. I couldn’t ..” Your hands grabbed fistfuls of his shirt. “I tried ..” You gasped for air.

“You needed me?”

“I .. needed you”. You could barely make out his face through your tears. His hands gripped your shoulders. “I didn’t know what to do .. I was nineteen Sy. I was so scared ..”

“What are you trying to tell me? Whatever it is .. tell me”.

“I didn’t know what to do Sy”. You were choking out your words between sobs. “I didn’t know what to do”.

“Tell me ..”

“I found out .. I was pregnant”. You gripped his shirt so hard that your knuckles turned white. “I was having your baby”.

“What? You ..” Sy’s eyes searched yours. “You were .. pregnant?”

“Yes”.

“I’m .. I’m a father?”

“I was nineteen. I needed you”. You struggled to speak. “He .. he …”

“A boy?”

“Wyatt .. I lost him. I lost him Sy”. You felt his body go rigid for a moment. He was wiping your face, trying desperately to understand you.

“Lost him?”

“I .. he came early”. You felt his hands cup your face. “Twenty six weeks .. I had him but he didn’t make it”.

Sy pulled you against his chest. It started to rain but neither of you moved. The water soaked through your clothing but you were transfixed .. sobbing against Sy’s chest. Your heart ached the same way it did when Wyatt laid on your chest and took his only breath. Your heart ached when your mother held you and told you he had gone. It all came back just like it was happening all over again.

“I’m sorry”. Sy whispered against your wet hair. “I’m so sorry Sugar”.

“So am I”.

He held you against his chest as your vision blurred. You were vaguely aware of his arms holding you up and then everything went black. You thought you could hear your mothers screams, but maybe it was your imagination?

You woke up in your bed. The first thing you thought was that you must have dreamed everything. But then you noticed your wet black dress in the clothes hamper and then Sy sitting on a chair in your room. He had dry clothes on and they looked like your fathers.

“Sy?”

“Yeah I’m here”. Sy looked up from his hands. “I’ll go get your Ma …”

“It’s ok .. just wait”. You glanced under the covers and saw that you were wearing sweatpants and a t shirt.

“Your Ma changed you .. you fainted outside”.

“Oh .. I’m sorry”.

“Don’t be”. Sy looked at you and you could see the sadness in his eyes. “You’ve had a hard day”.

“I’m sorry I yelled at you .. I shouldn’t have come after you like that”. You swallowed. “I shouldn’t have told you like that”.

“Doesn’t matter now”. Sy smiled softly. “You’ve been through a lot .. I’d take your anger a thousand times over if it would make you feel better”.

“Just seeing you again .. “

“Forget it now. I’m just .. glad I know”. Sy stared at the ground. “Can I ask you some things? If you’re up to talking that is?”

“Ok”.

“You wanted to tell me that you were having my baby?”

The way he said “my baby” tugged at your heart. You nodded.

“Came back home and went to the base. They told me you were deployed for a year”.

“What were you thinking then?”

“I was going to have the baby then when you came back .. tell you. I was going to see if you wanted us”.

“Wanted you both? You thought I wouldn’t?” Sy looked at you as his voice broke. “That I’d turn you away?”

“I wasn’t sure how you felt about me .. but I knew you would want to know Wyatt”.

“Jesus”. Sy rubbed his face. “You don’t have a clue how much I loved you do you? I pushed you to take that scholarship because you were smart and you deserved more that this town could offer. I wanted that for you because I loved you”. Sy paused. “I would have taken you back in a heartbeat though .. I mean that .. killed me to let you go”.

Silence filled the room. You watched as Sy’s chest rose and fell.

“Oh”.

“Tell me .. about him if you can”. Sy glanced at you. “Can you?”

“What do you want to know Sy?”

“He was .. born in a hospital?”

“Yes. I went into labor early but at the time I didn’t think so .. thought it was a false alarm”. You swallowed. “My Mum was with me. One minute everything’s ok then they were telling me that he was in distress and I had to push”.

“You would have been so scared”.

“I was .. I wanted to keep him inside of me for longer. I knew he was coming too early”. You felt your hands shake. “He was .. so perfect but so tiny Sy. He just .. wasn’t strong enough and he ..”

“It’s ok”. Sy looked at you sadly. “I’m sorry you had to go through that .. I wish I had of been there”.

“He looked like you Sy”. You reached for a tissue on the nightstand. “So much”. You reached behind your neck to unclasp your locket. You handed it to Sy. “There’s a photo of him in there. It’s only small but it’s my favourite”.

You watched as Sy opened your locket. He stared at the photo inside for what seemed like eternity. He closed his eyes for a moment before opening them again and he repeated this a few times.

“So small ..” He spoke the words to himself out loud. “I can’t believe that .. we made him. He’s just .. perfect”.

“I know”.

“Did you .. think after .. to tell me?”

“I came back a few months after because I heard you were home. I had every intention .. i went for a walk with my dad along the beach and I saw you ..” You chewed on your bottom lip as you fidgeted with the blanket. “You were with a girl .. actually you were with all your army friends .. playing volleyball but you were kissing a girl”.

“Oh”. Sy’s cheeks reddened at the memory. “I uh .. started seeing her for a bit. Didn’t last long”.

“Yeah so well I … didn’t want to ruin your life. Made sense at the time to me. I was young and thought why tell you? Wyatt was gone and you looked happy”.

“Sugar ..” Sy swallowed. “I wasn’t happy .. I was just trying to move on”.

“I saw you kissing her Sy .. you were different with me. You were all over her”. You sighed. “It doesn’t matter anyway. You were young too .. probably just enjoying not being tied down”.

“It wasn’t like that at all”.

“Like I said .. we were both young. Too young”. You saw Sy open his mouth then close it. There seemed nothing much more to say. The past was the past and neither of you could change anything.

“Was he .. was he ..” Sy stammered but somehow you knew what he was trying to say.

“He’s buried here … not far from where my Grandfather is”. You paused as your eyes flickered to Sy’s. “Do you want to go with me?”

“Yes .. yes I do”. Sy breathed out deeply. “And if .. if you have more photos?”

“My mum has an album that I made her. I’ll get it for you”. You watched as Sy nodded. Your heart felt constricted seeing how much pain he was in. Yet at the same time the weight in your shoulders was lifting. You closed your eyes for a moment thinking of Wyatt .. with great love came great pain.

The next few weeks were a blur. You spent countless days with Sy at Wyatt’s grave just talking. Which was nice because you also visited your grandfather and grandma too. But in the past seeing Wyatt’s tombstone was such a painful experience, but now with Sy it felt different. He sat next to you cross legged on the grass listening to every single detail about Wyatt’s existence. You told him everything from the beginning - how you found out, your morning sickness, your cravings for nachos and roast pumpkin. He listened .. almost intrigued as you opened your heart to him. After awhile it wasn’t just Wyatt that you talked about .. he told you about his deployments and all the terrors that came with his job. He told you about his parents divorce and also about his relationships since you.

“I’ve had a date here and there but nobody ..” You chewed on your bottom lip. “I was too busy getting into med school I guess?”

“No wealthy doctor tried to steal your heart?” Sy smiled.

“No”.

“Just for the record .. all those years ago .. the one you saw me with on the beach”. Sy paused. “She was someone I guess I tried to use to get over you. Now saying that out loud makes me feel really bad .. but I just needed to tell ya ok?”

“Sy .. it was so long ago”.

“I know .. but since we’re being honest”.

“I appreciate that”. You smiled softly. “My teenage self wanted to kick your ass though”.

“Don’t know what I would have done if I had of seen you that day ..”

“Guess we’ll ever know”. You played with a blade of grass as the sun started to set. “We should head back?”

“Do you wanna go some place first?”

You looked at Sy .. he suddenly didn’t seem like he was a 30 year old grown man. He reminded you of the Sy you once knew. Your Sy. He seemed apprehensive and a bit unsure of himself.

“Ok”. You let him help you to your feet and followed him to your truck.

Sy took you to a place you’d missed. A hill with a city view. The same place he’d kissed you for the first time. You felt your face flush at the memory and wondered if he was thinking the same thing. Your heart hammered against your chest and then you had to quickly turn turn your head before the emotion on your face showed.

“The sunset is nice here” Sy said as you tried to keep your breathing even.

“Come here often?” You turned to him and smiled.

“Only with you”. Sy stared at you. “And it’s been a few years”.

“I remember ..”

“You were sixteen”. Sy paused. “I was so fucking nervous ..”

“You were?”

“Course I was .. I knew it was going to be your first kiss. I wanted it to be special”.

“Sy ..” Your voice caught in your throat. “You shouldn’t have worried because everything with you was special”.

Sy stared at the beautiful sunset while you looked at his side profile. He was so different from the boy you once knew. He was a man .. a muscular man with a beard who was sure of himself in so many ways. But he was still Sy.

Slowly you reached for his hand and covered it with yours.

“We were just two kids Sy”.

“We were”.

“So much time has passed”.

“It has”. Sy turned to look at you. “But I’ll always love you. I’ll never love anyone but you”.

“Sy ..” You sucked in a breath.

“I wish things were different. I’d fucking do anything to re write the past. You have to believe me”. Sy turned his head and you knew him well enough to know that he was trying to hide his tears.

“Look at me Sy”. You watched as you saw his eyes filled with tears. Your hand reached to his cheek. “Oh Sy I’ve never loved anyone but you. And I’m so glad .. so very glad that it was you that was Wyatt’s daddy”. Your eyes filled with tears as you felt the wetness of Sy’s tears on your hand.

“I’m sorry”. He whispered. “I’m sorry that you lost your baby .. our baby”.

“I’m sorry too”.

He moved towards you and you waited. His eyes looked exactly how you remembered them, except his hands were different. Bigger, stronger .. they cupped your face as you inched closer.

“Stop me. Tell me you don’t want me .. tell me that you don’t have any feelings for me”. Sy’s lips were on your forehead, his breath hot against your skin. “Tell me now Sugar and I’ll drive you home”.

“I can’t Sy .. I can’t tell you that .. because it would be untrue”. Ten years of heartache and you were now at this point.

You heard him suck in a breath then his strong hands moved your neck up until you are looking at him. Your hands gripped the front of his t shirt and you willed yourself to stop shaking.

“I missed you”. Sy whispered just before his lips found yours. It wasn’t like the first time at all. His lips moved with purpose. His hands were now at the back of your neck, caught in your hair as his mouth opened and his tongue sought yours. This was a different Sy. He was older, experienced and wiser. You gasped into his mouth as his once tentative tongue was anything but. His hand moved to the small of you back, pulling you closer in the confined space of his truck.

“Sy .. I ..” You moaned as you broke apart for sure. “I missed you too”.

You missed ten years. You missed everything about him. You were scared but at ease too .. you wanted him to repair your fragile broken heart.

“Sy take me back to your place”.

Suddenly he was pulling back and looking into your eyes.

“I don’t need anything more. I just .. kissing you ..”

“I do .. I need you Sy”. Your lips trembled. “Please just .. don’t leave me this time”.

Your heart beat in anticipation as Sy stared into your eyes for what seemed like eternity. He slowly nodded before leaning over you to pull at your seat belt and buckle you in. As he moved back across you his breath passed your ear and you knew that he was just as needy as you were.

The drive back to Sy’s apartment was silent. His hand rested on your knee as you watched the city lights pass you by. Without thinking you fidgeted with the locket around your neck, immediately thinking of your son. But for some reason, this time you didn’t feel the usual ache in your heart. You felt at ease.

Soo you were inside his apartment. Sy was watching as you walked around his living room glancing at photographs and the medals/trophies he had on display. You felt nervous. Not that you didn’t want to be there with him, but because you didn’t know how to initiate things.

“Sugar?” Sy smiled softly at you when you turned around. “You ok?”

“Yeah I’m just nervous. I don’t know how to .. do this”.

“This?” Sy smirked. “We don’t have to do anything”.

“I want to .. I just .. It’s been a long time Sy. I just need ..” You stammered. “I need you to take the lead”.

“I didn’t want to assume anything .. that’s not what this is for me”.

“I feel the same”. You watched as he walked over to you. Suddenly his hands gripped your hips, pulling you flush against his hard body.

“I’m happy to take the lead Sugar”. Sy’s voice was slightly rough, sending an ache between your thighs.

“Then take me”.

Sy suddenly lifted you up and your legs wrapped around his waist. He carried you to his room, kicking the door shut with his foot. His eyes were transfixed to yours and you could feel his heart beating quickly against your own.

He placed you on his bed gently and stood Infront of you. He pulled his t shirt off in one motion and you felt your mouth drop open at the sight of him. Ten years ago he was lean yet now .. he was a fit man with a large muscular frame and chest hair. He smirked before removing his jeans and before you could react he took his boxers off too. You gasped and flushed when you saw the sight of his rock hard erection standing firm against his stomach. He seemed huge compared to how you remembered him.

“Your turn”. Sy’s hands grabbed at the fabric of your skirt and soon it was on the floor. You hastily tossed your t shirt over your head followed by your white lace bra. You watched as Sy took in your naked form before his eyes settled on your white lace panties. “You’re fucking perfect Sugar”.

“I’m not”. You whispered as he moved over your body, keeping his weight on his forearms as he kissed you. “I’ve changed”.

“You’re beautiful .. you’re not a girl anymore love. You’re a woman and you’re perfect”.

“I have ..” You stammered. “Stretch marks .. from the pregnancy”.

“Where?”

You face flushed but you pointed to your lower stomach where the small white lines existed. You gasped when Sy moved lower and his lips kissed every one of them.

“You’re beautiful and these … are a reminder of him. I wouldn’t change them for anything”. Sy whispered against your skin.

“Sy …” your eyes filled with tears as he continued to cherish you. After a few minutes he slipped your underwear off and settled between your legs. He smiled at you reassuringly before gently opening your thighs.

“Let me love you”. Sy kissed your inner thighs causing you to tremble. “Relax Sugar”.

You sunk back against his pillows as you remembered how you both had to learn how to please each other. You smiled at how inexperienced Sy was back then and how he’d constantly ask you if he was making you feel good with each swipe of his tongue. But now … this was a different Sy as he held you thighs open with both hands. His tongue sucked on your clit, and he didn’t ask you a single thing before he pushed a finger inside you.

“Oh Sy .. oh”. You were shocked at how good he made you feel. He clearly knew what he was doing as he alternated between sucking, licking and pumping not one but two fingers inside you.

“You gonna cum for me Sugar?”

You face burned. This wasn’t the boy you knew. Sy had never communicated much during your intimate moments, yet this Sy was very vocal.

“Sy”.

One of his hands held your lower stomach to stop you from moving while his mouth sucked on your clit. Suddenly his fingers curled inside you and you arched your back. You felt heat pool in your stomach and you swore that you saw stars as you called out his name over and over again.

When you came to a moment later, Sy was still between your legs. He was looking up at you but his fingers were still moving inside you, riding out every last bit of pleasure. You watched as he looked between your legs and you fought the urge to close them.

“Don’t ..” Sy stared at you. His eyes were dark and he licked his lips before looking between your legs again. “Wanna see you Sugar. I’ve … Jesus I’ve fantasized about this for years”.

“Sy ..” Your face was heated as your eyes fell to his other hand which was fisting his cock as he touched you. “Sy .. oh god Sy .. feels so good”.

“I could cum just like this. Just watching me touch your pussy”.

“Sy!” You gasped. He had never talked dirty to you before.

“Don’t deny you like it .. I felt you clench on my fingers love”. Sy smirked.

“Can I touch you?” You whispered. Sy nodded before withdrawing his fingers. He held your gaze as he put his fingers in his mouth.

“You taste so good”.

“Lie down”. You smiled and shook your head as you changed positions. You leaned over him and kissed his lips softly. “Where’s my shy inexperienced Sy?”

“Long gone baby”. Sy smiled.

You laughed as you reached for his cock. He groaned as you moved your hand up and down his shaft like you used to do. You explored him slowly before watching as Sy spat on his hand and rubbed himself before replacing your hand with his. You were shocked but his reaction at the feel of your hand with the lubrication made you ache between you legs.

“That’s it love .. oh god yeah just like that”. Sy moaned. He had his eyes closed, head thrown back. Hesitantly you moved your hand to his base before lowering your mouth on him. You struggled with oral and you felt embarrassed to tell Sy that he was the last person you were with. You had no clue if you could make him feel good. Your doubts were gone the second you heard him gasp.

“Jesus! Oh god baby ..” Sy glanced down at you in shock. “You don’t have to .. oh fuck”.

You started to bob your head while your hand worked on him. Your clit throbbed at the sounds he made and the profanities thar left his mouth.

“Fuck baby ..” His hand moved to your head and gently applied pressure. You quickly looked at him and released him with a pop.

“Sy I haven’t been with anyone since you .. I’m not sure ..I just wanted you to know”. You muttered. “I just ..I want to make you feel good”.

Sy opened and closed his mouth before his thumb grazed your cheek. You could tell that he was lost for words. Ten years was a long time after all. You’d had a few dates here and there, some kisses and a few heavy make out sessions with a college of yours. But nothing further. Something always held you back.

You held Sy’s gaze as your mouth engulfed him again and this time Sy’s hand tangled in your hair while he gently helped you find a rhythm. He sat up slightly to watch you and the whole time he muttered praises.

“God that’s it baby. Jesus your mouth .. look at me, don’t take your eyes off me Sugar”.

You stared at him and your confidence grew along with the arousal pooling between your legs.

“God you’re beautiful .. so fucking beautiful”. Sy gently moved your mouth off him and sat up to kiss you passionately. He whispered in your ear that he was close and needed to be inside you.

He moved you onto your back and kissed you as he pulled his body on top of yours. You were kissing him back and so completely lost in the sensations that you were feeling.

“Sugar just a sec”. Sy lent across you and pulled open a draw. You realised he was getting a condom. You were glad that he was responsible but also a little bit hurt to know that he had used them with other women. Sy opened the packet with his teeth and you watched as he sat back between your legs and rolled the condom on. He looked up at you and noticed your expression. “You ok?”

“You .. have a big box of those”.

“Guess so”. Sy rubbed your hips gently.

“I didn’t mean to say that out loud”.

“It’s ok Sugar. But I can’t apologize for anyone after you .. I had no idea back then that I’d ever be with you again. I thought it was over for good”.

“I hate the thought of you with anyone else”. You paused. “I hate the thought of you using those with anyone else”.

“And I don’t want anyone else but you”. Sy lent forward to kiss you. “You still want me?”

“Course I do”. Your hands wrapped around his neck as he kissed you deeply. You felt him rub his cock up and down your opening before the tip moved inside you.

“Keep your eyes on me”. Sy’s fingers moved to your clit as he pushed into you gently. “That’s it Sugar. Oh Jesus you feel so good”.

“Sy”. Your eyes went wide as your body struggled to remember the act. You felt your walls tense as you willed yourself to relax.

Sy was halfway in when he moved to bring his mouth to your breast. He sucked on your nipple while his fingers moved in circles on your clit. You started to moan as you threw your head back. He seemed to know exactly what you needed. Gone was the awkward Sy you once knew. Once he felt you relax he pushed completely inside you inch by inch.

“Sy!”

His mouth left your breast and found your lips. He sucked on your bottom one before you opened your mouth and to your surprise he pushed his tongue into your mouth, mimicking the act between your bodies. You could feel his pubic hair flush against your bare skin as he ground his hips into you. You marveled in the feeling.

“You’re so tight .. god I’ve missed you”. Sy leaned back to look at you. “You ok?”

“More than ok”.

“You tell me if it’s too much .. I don’t wanna hurt you”.

“It doesn’t hurt Sy .. I just .. you feel so big”. You flushed.

“Yeah?”

You watched him smirk before he kissed you again. His lips moved to your ear.

“Gonna make you scream my name baby”.

Slowly he thrusted into you before pulling all the way out and thrusting back inside. Your hands clutched fistfuls of his sheets and you started moaning. He was playing you like an instrument.

“You like that Sugar? Gonna make you cum on my cock”.

Your toes curled as he continued to whisper dirty things on your ear. Your hands felt the way that his muscular back rippled before moving to his shoulders then his biceps. You realized then that you loved his arms. They were so strong and you couldn’t wrap your hand around them. He was very much a grown man now.

“Sy .. god you feel good inside me”.

“You feel like heaven”. Sy thrusted deeply into you as his hand moved to grip behind your knee, pushing your leg up higher so that he had better access. You couldn’t believe how deep he was. He was touching a part of you that felt so good. Your whole body started to feel like it was on fire.

“Right there Sy!”

“Yeah? Right there baby?” Sy hit the magic spot over and over again. “Need to feel you Sugar .. need to feel you cum”

You were struggling to breath, no words left your mouth as the most intense orgasm overcame you. You started shaking and your mouth opened to scream but for a moment there was a delay before you cried out. Your heartbeat was pounding in your ears as Sy kept thrusting into you. In your haze you watched him - sweat glistening on his chest, his muscles contracting in his huge shoulders and the words spilling from his lips made you even wetter if that was possible.

“I love fucking you .. god how I love you”.

You felt your heart explode as you watched Sy chase his orgasm. His hands moved both your legs over his shoulders and you felt him slide even deeper inside of you. The initial shock of the position he had you in quickly turned to intense pleasure as he touched a sensitive spot deep inside you. His hands found yours and he interlaced your fingers with his as he neared his release. A few deep thrusts and he exploded inside of you. He let out the most manly, almost animalistic sound as his hands moved your legs off his shoulders and his head dropped to you chest. Your hands stroked his back as he continued to thrust shallowly into you and empty ever drop of his release.

You held onto him as you struggled to catch your own breath and you hoped that Sy would need a moment to recover. You wanted to stay exactly the way that you were for as long as possible.

“I love you” You whispered softly. “Just in case you didn’t know”.

“I know Sugar .. nothings changed”. Sy’s mouth was hot against your skin before he kissed your cleavage then traced your nipple with his tongue. Heat instantly rushed to your face. You didn’t want to know where Sy leant the things he was doing to you .. he certainty wasn’t this way ten years ago. But part of you was thankful that you got to experience it with him now. You were amazed that even after such passionate love making that he was still attentive to your body. Still trying to draw out ever bit of pleasure from you.

“Sy”. You breathed into his hair as his mouth moved to your other nipple and his fingers traced your other bud.

“Hush Sugar”. Sy smirked against your skin. “I missed these”.

“Now I know why all the ladies want you Sy”.

“Why’s that?” Sy looked up at you before he rolled you both to your sides with him still inside.

“I don’t know what happened .. well I know but .. Sy you’re good .. so good in bed”. You blushed.

“Thank you Mam but I’m all yours Sugar. If you’ll have me”.

“I want you .. I can’t go back to before .. not after this ..”

“Then don’t”.

“You want me?”

“All of you” Sy smiled at you before moving out of your body slowly. You watched as he went to the bathroom and returned with a warm hand towel. You wondered what he was doing when he parted your thighs and started to clean you.

“What? Sy ..”

“Shhhh Sugar ..”

“Sy”. You winced slightly, knowing that years of abstinence would probably mean you wouldn’t walk straight the next day.

“You sore love?”

“Just worked muscles that haven’t been used in a long time Sy”.

“I wasn’t too rough?”

“No Sy. You were perfect”.

“Ok baby. You always talk to me won’t ya? Tell me if I do something you don’t like?” When you nodded he went to the bathroom to dispose of the used hand towel.

You smiled when he returned back from the bathroom and lay down next to you. He was on his back staring at the ceiling.

“What are you thinking about?”

You watched as Sy reached across to the nightstand draw and passed you an envelope. You nodded at it, indicating that he wanted you to open it.

“What’s this?” You looked at it, addressed to Sy.

“Open it”.

Slowly you did and as you clutched the paper your mouth fell open. You had to re read it.

“My grandfather sent this?”

“It came a few weeks ago .. He wanted to make sure ..”

“He asked you to come to the house after the funeral. He wanted you to see me”. You traced your finger over your grandfathers writing. “He .. wrote this when he was dying Sy”.

“He did .. and I’m glad that I kept his wish”.

“Oh Sy”. You put the envelope on the table next to you and pulled Sy down to kiss you. His hand roamed gently on your stomach and you knew Sy was thinking about Wyatt too.

“We can’t go back Sugar”

“No we can’t Sy”

“I wish we could”.

“So do I”.

“But .. even after everything .. I feel blessed right now”. Sy cupped your face. “With you, here in this moment”.

You felt lucky in so many ways. You got to see your grandfather one last time and you got to reconnect with Sy and tell him about the son you both shared. You had no idea what the future held except that you were happy .. for the first time in 10 years.

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[samaraj]

Title - His last wish

Pairing - Sy x reader

Warnings - Angst, smut, stillborn

Note - This one’s long and holds an element of things that I’d say are personal to me. It was therapeutic to write but a bit deep so consider that a warning. Also had it sitting in drafts for ages so not the best with proofreading!

Summary - Reader returns home after ten years still holding onto a deep burden. She’s home to see her dying grandfather but is worried about crossing paths with the one who broke her heart.

It had been ten years since you’d returned home. Ten years since you left to chase your dream of becoming a doctor. And ten years since your heart was crushed into a million pieces when your first love told you “We’re going in different directions”. You’d managed to stay away this long - your family understanding your turmoil and agreeing to visit you in the city instead. But now here you were standing on your parents doorstep after they called and begged you to come. Your beloved grandfather was dying and had asked to see you.

“Honey! Oh honey!” Your mother opened the door and pulled you into her arms. “What on earth? You said your plane was arriving at midday! We were coming to pick you up from the airport!”

“I took an earlier flight Mum. I didn’t want you driving”. You smiled as your mother kissed you on the forehead. Truth being, you did it on purpose. Wanting to avoid the airport greetings knowing that you could very well bump into Sy since the military base was close by and he had a habit of visiting the airport’s cafe.

“Your Dad will be cross”. Your mother smoothed down her apron and as you breathed in the scent of fresh apple pie.

“No he won’t”. You pulled your suitcase inside. “When has he ever been mad at me?”

“Honey …” Your mother held you at arms length as she smoothed down your hair like she did when you were a child. “Thank you for being here. It will make him happy .. I know it’s hard for you”.

“Mum ..” You swallowed and recited your well rehearsed speech. “I was nineteen years old. Young and stupid .. don’t worry I’m passed it”.

“I’m your mother, I know you love. I know what you went through”.

“It’s the past Mum. I’m here for granddad and for all of you”.

Your mother studied your face before she sighed. She rubbed your shoulder and gestured towards the upstairs guest room.

“I won’t .. shock him will I?”

“No but your father is in with him”. Your mother smiled. “You’ll shock him no doubt”.

Your eyes flickered to the locket your mother was wearing, the one that matched your own around your neck. Your heart clenched knowing that the same photo was inside and for a moment you wondered if you’d made the right choice in coming home.

Your mother looked down at the locket and then back at you. She smiled softly.

“I’ve never taken it off”.

“Neither have I”. You swallowed the lump in your throat. “I just .. I wonder a lot .. and I just think .. did I do something? Was I to blame? I know that’s stupid .. but I still think like that”.

“Honey .. never ever .. just ..” Your mother grabbed your face as her eyes filled with tears. “You did nothing wrong. I was there .. I know”.

“Oh Mum”. You hugged your mother as you cried softly. Her hands rubbed your back while she hummed softly in your ear in a bid to comfort your broken heart.

“Take your time love. Just breathe ok? Everything’s alright. You’re the strongest person I know darling. Such a brave nineteen year old and now look at you. Twenty nine and a doctor. Honey I’m so very proud of you”.

“Thank you Mum”. You wiped at your face. “Sorry for being so emotional. It’s just .. being back here. Knowing Sy’s here. It’s brought up so many deep feelings and memories”.

“I know love. We appreciate you being here and I promise you that we will look after you ok?”

“Thanks mum”. You glanced at the stairs. “I’m going to go see him now ok?”

“Alright love. I’ll finish fixing your room”.

You paused at the bottom of the stairs before walking up slowly. You stared at the timber door to your left and your hand traced over the handle before knocking twice then opening it slowly. You smiled at the look of surprise on your fathers face. He was sitting in a chair next to your grandfathers bed. He jumped up quickly, causing your grandfather to open his eyes.

“What are you doing here! Did I miss your flight? I didn’t doze off?”

“No Dad! I got in earlier”. You laughed quietly as your father hugged you before kissing your cheeks. You waved at your grandfather who was blowing you a kiss. “Hi Grandpa. I came to see you”.

“Look at you”. Your grandfather beckoned you over and you rushed to the side of the bed to grab his hands. “There’s my girl”.

“I missed you Grandpa. Im going to be here for a few weeks ok? So don’t you worry about anything”.

“Im glad sweetheart. These doctors tell me I’ve only got a few weeks but what do they know?” Your grandfather smiled. “You’re the only doctor I trust”.

“And im here to look after you”.

Your grandfather nodded as he lay his head back against the pillows. His fingers touched the locket around your neck.

“Im going to see him soon sweetheart”.

Your heart ached and you nodded. You saw your father wipe his face.

“I know”.

“Im going to look after him for you”.

“I know grandpa”. Your lip trembled. “Thank you”.

“Wyatt”. Your grandfather whispered.

“Wyatt”. You whispered as your grandfather closed his eyes, sleeping in soft breaths. You saw your father quietly leave the room, giving you time alone. When the door closed you lay your head on the bed next to your grandfathers arm.

Wyatt .. you repeated over and over. Your baby boy born at only 26 weeks that took one breath. He had been your savior throughout your heartbreak over losing Sy. When you found out you were pregnant Sy had already been deployed. You found out he wouldn’t be home for 12 months and was in a restricted area so you had no way of contacting him. You planned on telling him .. bringing Wyatt to him. You just had no way of knowing that you would lose him. And then you found out that Sy had a new girlfriend … actually many new girls. So you decided not to burden him with the memory of a son that he never got to meet. Was it wrong? Maybe. But you were young and broken.

The days that followed you spent looking after your grandfather. You were glad you came because the time you spent with him were therapeutic. You went through old family movies and photo albums .. his health was deteriorating rapidly but he was also smiling.

“Sweetheart?”

“Yes Grandpa?” You paused as you were reading him a passage of a book.

“Go see that boy of yours”.

“Sy? He’s not my boy Grandpa. It’s best kept in the past”.

“For me? I just want you to have peace”.

“I have peace Grandpa”. You paused. “There’s no use in bringing up all that hurt. He’s moved on, I’ve moved on”.

“What about Wyatt?”

“What good would that do now Grandpa? I tried to tell him but he was gone you know that. Then it ., happened and .. it was too late”.

“It’s never too late sweetheart”. Your grandpa patted your knee. “You are still hurting”.

“So why hurt him? After ten years?”

“You know why .. the same reason you tried to tell him in the beginning”. Your grandfather paused. “Because he has a right to know”.

“What right Grandpa?” Tears stung your eyes. “He left me. I was nineteen and in love with him! Then I came back after losing Wyatt and he was with every girl he could find! Like I was nothing!”

“Love .. you’re still hurt. Can’t you see that?” Your grandfather stared at you. “Just promise me that you’ll talk to him if your paths cross. You don’t have to search him out .. if fate has it then that’s another story”.

You chewed on your bottom lip as you looked at your grandfather. You couldn’t say no so you nodded.

“If our paths cross ..”

Your grandfather smiled and motioned for you to continue reading. You sighed and settled back into the armchair as you tried to forget about Sy.

3 weeks later your Grandfather passed away peacefully. You felt heartbroken yet content that you had such cherished time with him. The funeral was held a week later and he was laid to rest. You spent that afternoon helping your mother serve afternoon tea to the people that were at the service. Extended family and friends that came to pay their respects.

“Honey can you please put on another pot of coffee?” Your mother asked you. You nodded and headed into the kitchen. As you waited for the coffee to brew you felt a presence behind you. Your hands griped the counter as you breathed in the scent of spice that you knew so well. Your knees almost buckled but you willed yourself not to turn around. Not now, today of all days.

“Been awhile”.

There was no mistaking that Texas accent. You breathed in deeply and tucked some of your brown hair behind your ear. Instinctively your hand moved to your locket. You could do this .. surely you could do this. You breathed in deeply and slowly turned around.

“Hello Sy”.

“Hello Sugar”. His eyes stared at you intensely. “Been ten years hasn’t it?”

“Yes”.

“You look different .. still pretty as hell but real different”.

“I’m not a teenager anymore”. You swallowed as you took in his muscular physique. “Neither are you”.

“Turned 30 last month, can you believe it?” Sy scratched at his beard, something that was new to you.

“20th of July”.

“You remember?”

“Course”.

“Well I remember yours too .. hard to forget”.

Your face flushed remembering how you lost your virginity to him when you were 16 on your birthday.

“Yeah ..”

“I’m sorry about your Pa”. Sy breathed in deeply. “He was a good man”.

“Thank you. Yes he was”.

“He was .. hoping you’d spend some time here. I bet he was happy to see you”.

“You spoke to him?” You studied Sy’s face.

“Well I …” Sy paused.

“When?”

Just turn as your mother came in. She stoped dead in her tracks when she saw you standing with Sy. She smiled and pointed to the pot of coffee which you passed to her.

“Hello Sy. Thank you for coming”. Your mother glanced between the two of you.

“I’m sorry for your loss Mam”. Sy stood awkwardly with his hands in his pockets.

“Thank you dear. I’ll uh .. leave you to it”.

Your mother left and an uncomfortable silence filled the room. You looked at Sy but he looked as unsure as you felt. You cleared you throat and wondered what to say but just as you opened your mouth Sy spoke.

“I should go. Just came to pay my respects”.

“Oh ok”.

“It was real nice seeing you”.

Before you could react he walked out. For a moment you stood still, digesting what had just happened. Then you heart started pounding and before you could think you charged out of the kitchen and followed Sy out of the house. How dare he just show up like that. How dare he act like nothing had happened between you both?

“Wait!” You saw him turn around in surprise. You knew this was wrong. You were too emotional and part of you knew you should just go back in the house but you couldn’t help yourself. You matched right up to Sy and pushed at his chest with both your hands as hard as you could. “Why the hell are you here? Why? Today of all days!”.

“I told you I came to pay my respects!” Sy grabbed hold of your wrists as you pounded at his chest. “Just calm down”.

“I’m not going to calm down!”.

“Just listen to me!”

“No! You fucking left me!” You screamed. “You left me and never looked back! You chose the army over me and never even cared to see how I was!”

“I did what was best for you!”

“Best for me?” You laughed through your tears. “You were what was best for me you idiot”.

“You’re a doctor! That’s what you wanted and I was holding you back”. Sy let go of your wrists slowly.

“Right! You knew what was best. You just wanted to be a bachelor huh? I was holding you back”.

“Thats not true”.

“Fucked half of the town haven’t you?”

“Now you listen ..” Sy raised his voice.

“I tried .. I tried to reach you”. You sobbed causing Sy’s eyes to widen I shock. “Came back after and you were too busy playing the field ..”

“I was in Afghanistan for a year”. Sy’s voice softened. “You tried to reach me?”

“I tried .. I couldn’t ..” Your hands grabbed fistfuls of his shirt. “I tried ..” You gasped for air.

“You needed me?”

“I .. needed you”. You could barely make out his face through your tears. His hands gripped your shoulders. “I didn’t know what to do .. I was nineteen Sy. I was so scared ..”

“What are you trying to tell me? Whatever it is .. tell me”.

“I didn’t know what to do Sy”. You were choking out your words between sobs. “I didn’t know what to do”.

“Tell me ..”

“I found out .. I was pregnant”. You gripped his shirt so hard that your knuckles turned white. “I was having your baby”.

“What? You ..” Sy’s eyes searched yours. “You were .. pregnant?”

“Yes”.

“I’m .. I’m a father?”

“I was nineteen. I needed you”. You struggled to speak. “He .. he …”

“A boy?”

“Wyatt .. I lost him. I lost him Sy”. You felt his body go rigid for a moment. He was wiping your face, trying desperately to understand you.

“Lost him?”

“I .. he came early”. You felt his hands cup your face. “Twenty six weeks .. I had him but he didn’t make it”.

Sy pulled you against his chest. It started to rain but neither of you moved. The water soaked through your clothing but you were transfixed .. sobbing against Sy’s chest. Your heart ached the same way it did when Wyatt laid on your chest and took his only breath. Your heart ached when your mother held you and told you he had gone. It all came back just like it was happening all over again.

“I’m sorry”. Sy whispered against your wet hair. “I’m so sorry Sugar”.

“So am I”.

He held you against his chest as your vision blurred. You were vaguely aware of his arms holding you up and then everything went black. You thought you could hear your mothers screams, but maybe it was your imagination?

You woke up in your bed. The first thing you thought was that you must have dreamed everything. But then you noticed your wet black dress in the clothes hamper and then Sy sitting on a chair in your room. He had dry clothes on and they looked like your fathers.

“Sy?”

“Yeah I’m here”. Sy looked up from his hands. “I’ll go get your Ma …”

“It’s ok .. just wait”. You glanced under the covers and saw that you were wearing sweatpants and a t shirt.

“Your Ma changed you .. you fainted outside”.

“Oh .. I’m sorry”.

“Don’t be”. Sy looked at you and you could see the sadness in his eyes. “You’ve had a hard day”.

“I’m sorry I yelled at you .. I shouldn’t have come after you like that”. You swallowed. “I shouldn’t have told you like that”.

“Doesn’t matter now”. Sy smiled softly. “You’ve been through a lot .. I’d take your anger a thousand times over if it would make you feel better”.

“Just seeing you again .. “

“Forget it now. I’m just .. glad I know”. Sy stared at the ground. “Can I ask you some things? If you’re up to talking that is?”

“Ok”.

“You wanted to tell me that you were having my baby?”

The way he said “my baby” tugged at your heart. You nodded.

“Came back home and went to the base. They told me you were deployed for a year”.

“What were you thinking then?”

“I was going to have the baby then when you came back .. tell you. I was going to see if you wanted us”.

“Wanted you both? You thought I wouldn’t?” Sy looked at you as his voice broke. “That I’d turn you away?”

“I wasn’t sure how you felt about me .. but I knew you would want to know Wyatt”.

“Jesus”. Sy rubbed his face. “You don’t have a clue how much I loved you do you? I pushed you to take that scholarship because you were smart and you deserved more that this town could offer. I wanted that for you because I loved you”. Sy paused. “I would have taken you back in a heartbeat though .. I mean that .. killed me to let you go”.

Silence filled the room. You watched as Sy’s chest rose and fell.

“Oh”.

“Tell me .. about him if you can”. Sy glanced at you. “Can you?”

“What do you want to know Sy?”

“He was .. born in a hospital?”

“Yes. I went into labor early but at the time I didn’t think so .. thought it was a false alarm”. You swallowed. “My Mum was with me. One minute everything’s ok then they were telling me that he was in distress and I had to push”.

“You would have been so scared”.

“I was .. I wanted to keep him inside of me for longer. I knew he was coming too early”. You felt your hands shake. “He was .. so perfect but so tiny Sy. He just .. wasn’t strong enough and he ..”

“It’s ok”. Sy looked at you sadly. “I’m sorry you had to go through that .. I wish I had of been there”.

“He looked like you Sy”. You reached for a tissue on the nightstand. “So much”. You reached behind your neck to unclasp your locket. You handed it to Sy. “There’s a photo of him in there. It’s only small but it’s my favourite”.

You watched as Sy opened your locket. He stared at the photo inside for what seemed like eternity. He closed his eyes for a moment before opening them again and he repeated this a few times.

“So small ..” He spoke the words to himself out loud. “I can’t believe that .. we made him. He’s just .. perfect”.

“I know”.

“Did you .. think after .. to tell me?”

“I came back a few months after because I heard you were home. I had every intention .. i went for a walk with my dad along the beach and I saw you ..” You chewed on your bottom lip as you fidgeted with the blanket. “You were with a girl .. actually you were with all your army friends .. playing volleyball but you were kissing a girl”.

“Oh”. Sy’s cheeks reddened at the memory. “I uh .. started seeing her for a bit. Didn’t last long”.

“Yeah so well I … didn’t want to ruin your life. Made sense at the time to me. I was young and thought why tell you? Wyatt was gone and you looked happy”.

“Sugar ..” Sy swallowed. “I wasn’t happy .. I was just trying to move on”.

“I saw you kissing her Sy .. you were different with me. You were all over her”. You sighed. “It doesn’t matter anyway. You were young too .. probably just enjoying not being tied down”.

“It wasn’t like that at all”.

“Like I said .. we were both young. Too young”. You saw Sy open his mouth then close it. There seemed nothing much more to say. The past was the past and neither of you could change anything.

“Was he .. was he ..” Sy stammered but somehow you knew what he was trying to say.

“He’s buried here … not far from where my Grandfather is”. You paused as your eyes flickered to Sy’s. “Do you want to go with me?”

“Yes .. yes I do”. Sy breathed out deeply. “And if .. if you have more photos?”

“My mum has an album that I made her. I’ll get it for you”. You watched as Sy nodded. Your heart felt constricted seeing how much pain he was in. Yet at the same time the weight in your shoulders was lifting. You closed your eyes for a moment thinking of Wyatt .. with great love came great pain.

The next few weeks were a blur. You spent countless days with Sy at Wyatt’s grave just talking. Which was nice because you also visited your grandfather and grandma too. But in the past seeing Wyatt’s tombstone was such a painful experience, but now with Sy it felt different. He sat next to you cross legged on the grass listening to every single detail about Wyatt’s existence. You told him everything from the beginning - how you found out, your morning sickness, your cravings for nachos and roast pumpkin. He listened .. almost intrigued as you opened your heart to him. After awhile it wasn’t just Wyatt that you talked about .. he told you about his deployments and all the terrors that came with his job. He told you about his parents divorce and also about his relationships since you.

“I’ve had a date here and there but nobody ..” You chewed on your bottom lip. “I was too busy getting into med school I guess?”

“No wealthy doctor tried to steal your heart?” Sy smiled.

“No”.

“Just for the record .. all those years ago .. the one you saw me with on the beach”. Sy paused. “She was someone I guess I tried to use to get over you. Now saying that out loud makes me feel really bad .. but I just needed to tell ya ok?”

“Sy .. it was so long ago”.

“I know .. but since we’re being honest”.

“I appreciate that”. You smiled softly. “My teenage self wanted to kick your ass though”.

“Don’t know what I would have done if I had of seen you that day ..”

“Guess we’ll ever know”. You played with a blade of grass as the sun started to set. “We should head back?”

“Do you wanna go some place first?”

You looked at Sy .. he suddenly didn’t seem like he was a 30 year old grown man. He reminded you of the Sy you once knew. Your Sy. He seemed apprehensive and a bit unsure of himself.

“Ok”. You let him help you to your feet and followed him to your truck.

Sy took you to a place you’d missed. A hill with a city view. The same place he’d kissed you for the first time. You felt your face flush at the memory and wondered if he was thinking the same thing. Your heart hammered against your chest and then you had to quickly turn turn your head before the emotion on your face showed.

“The sunset is nice here” Sy said as you tried to keep your breathing even.

“Come here often?” You turned to him and smiled.

“Only with you”. Sy stared at you. “And it’s been a few years”.

“I remember ..”

“You were sixteen”. Sy paused. “I was so fucking nervous ..”

“You were?”

“Course I was .. I knew it was going to be your first kiss. I wanted it to be special”.

“Sy ..” Your voice caught in your throat. “You shouldn’t have worried because everything with you was special”.

Sy stared at the beautiful sunset while you looked at his side profile. He was so different from the boy you once knew. He was a man .. a muscular man with a beard who was sure of himself in so many ways. But he was still Sy.

Slowly you reached for his hand and covered it with yours.

“We were just two kids Sy”.

“We were”.

“So much time has passed”.

“It has”. Sy turned to look at you. “But I’ll always love you. I’ll never love anyone but you”.

“Sy ..” You sucked in a breath.

“I wish things were different. I’d fucking do anything to re write the past. You have to believe me”. Sy turned his head and you knew him well enough to know that he was trying to hide his tears.

“Look at me Sy”. You watched as you saw his eyes filled with tears. Your hand reached to his cheek. “Oh Sy I’ve never loved anyone but you. And I’m so glad .. so very glad that it was you that was Wyatt’s daddy”. Your eyes filled with tears as you felt the wetness of Sy’s tears on your hand.

“I’m sorry”. He whispered. “I’m sorry that you lost your baby .. our baby”.

“I’m sorry too”.

He moved towards you and you waited. His eyes looked exactly how you remembered them, except his hands were different. Bigger, stronger .. they cupped your face as you inched closer.

“Stop me. Tell me you don’t want me .. tell me that you don’t have any feelings for me”. Sy’s lips were on your forehead, his breath hot against your skin. “Tell me now Sugar and I’ll drive you home”.

“I can’t Sy .. I can’t tell you that .. because it would be untrue”. Ten years of heartache and you were now at this point.

You heard him suck in a breath then his strong hands moved your neck up until you are looking at him. Your hands gripped the front of his t shirt and you willed yourself to stop shaking.

“I missed you”. Sy whispered just before his lips found yours. It wasn’t like the first time at all. His lips moved with purpose. His hands were now at the back of your neck, caught in your hair as his mouth opened and his tongue sought yours. This was a different Sy. He was older, experienced and wiser. You gasped into his mouth as his once tentative tongue was anything but. His hand moved to the small of you back, pulling you closer in the confined space of his truck.

“Sy .. I ..” You moaned as you broke apart for sure. “I missed you too”.

You missed ten years. You missed everything about him. You were scared but at ease too .. you wanted him to repair your fragile broken heart.

“Sy take me back to your place”.

Suddenly he was pulling back and looking into your eyes.

“I don’t need anything more. I just .. kissing you ..”

“I do .. I need you Sy”. Your lips trembled. “Please just .. don’t leave me this time”.

Your heart beat in anticipation as Sy stared into your eyes for what seemed like eternity. He slowly nodded before leaning over you to pull at your seat belt and buckle you in. As he moved back across you his breath passed your ear and you knew that he was just as needy as you were.

The drive back to Sy’s apartment was silent. His hand rested on your knee as you watched the city lights pass you by. Without thinking you fidgeted with the locket around your neck, immediately thinking of your son. But for some reason, this time you didn’t feel the usual ache in your heart. You felt at ease.

Soo you were inside his apartment. Sy was watching as you walked around his living room glancing at photographs and the medals/trophies he had on display. You felt nervous. Not that you didn’t want to be there with him, but because you didn’t know how to initiate things.

“Sugar?” Sy smiled softly at you when you turned around. “You ok?”

“Yeah I’m just nervous. I don’t know how to .. do this”.

“This?” Sy smirked. “We don’t have to do anything”.

“I want to .. I just .. It’s been a long time Sy. I just need ..” You stammered. “I need you to take the lead”.

“I didn’t want to assume anything .. that’s not what this is for me”.

“I feel the same”. You watched as he walked over to you. Suddenly his hands gripped your hips, pulling you flush against his hard body.

“I’m happy to take the lead Sugar”. Sy’s voice was slightly rough, sending an ache between your thighs.

“Then take me”.

Sy suddenly lifted you up and your legs wrapped around his waist. He carried you to his room, kicking the door shut with his foot. His eyes were transfixed to yours and you could feel his heart beating quickly against your own.

He placed you on his bed gently and stood Infront of you. He pulled his t shirt off in one motion and you felt your mouth drop open at the sight of him. Ten years ago he was lean yet now .. he was a fit man with a large muscular frame and chest hair. He smirked before removing his jeans and before you could react he took his boxers off too. You gasped and flushed when you saw the sight of his rock hard erection standing firm against his stomach. He seemed huge compared to how you remembered him.

“Your turn”. Sy’s hands grabbed at the fabric of your skirt and soon it was on the floor. You hastily tossed your t shirt over your head followed by your white lace bra. You watched as Sy took in your naked form before his eyes settled on your white lace panties. “You’re fucking perfect Sugar”.

“I’m not”. You whispered as he moved over your body, keeping his weight on his forearms as he kissed you. “I’ve changed”.

“You’re beautiful .. you’re not a girl anymore love. You’re a woman and you’re perfect”.

“I have ..” You stammered. “Stretch marks .. from the pregnancy”.

“Where?”

You face flushed but you pointed to your lower stomach where the small white lines existed. You gasped when Sy moved lower and his lips kissed every one of them.

“You’re beautiful and these … are a reminder of him. I wouldn’t change them for anything”. Sy whispered against your skin.

“Sy …” your eyes filled with tears as he continued to cherish you. After a few minutes he slipped your underwear off and settled between your legs. He smiled at you reassuringly before gently opening your thighs.

“Let me love you”. Sy kissed your inner thighs causing you to tremble. “Relax Sugar”.

You sunk back against his pillows as you remembered how you both had to learn how to please each other. You smiled at how inexperienced Sy was back then and how he’d constantly ask you if he was making you feel good with each swipe of his tongue. But now … this was a different Sy as he held you thighs open with both hands. His tongue sucked on your clit, and he didn’t ask you a single thing before he pushed a finger inside you.

“Oh Sy .. oh”. You were shocked at how good he made you feel. He clearly knew what he was doing as he alternated between sucking, licking and pumping not one but two fingers inside you.

“You gonna cum for me Sugar?”

You face burned. This wasn’t the boy you knew. Sy had never communicated much during your intimate moments, yet this Sy was very vocal.

“Sy”.

One of his hands held your lower stomach to stop you from moving while his mouth sucked on your clit. Suddenly his fingers curled inside you and you arched your back. You felt heat pool in your stomach and you swore that you saw stars as you called out his name over and over again.

When you came to a moment later, Sy was still between your legs. He was looking up at you but his fingers were still moving inside you, riding out every last bit of pleasure. You watched as he looked between your legs and you fought the urge to close them.

“Don’t ..” Sy stared at you. His eyes were dark and he licked his lips before looking between your legs again. “Wanna see you Sugar. I’ve … Jesus I’ve fantasized about this for years”.

“Sy ..” Your face was heated as your eyes fell to his other hand which was fisting his cock as he touched you. “Sy .. oh god Sy .. feels so good”.

“I could cum just like this. Just watching me touch your pussy”.

“Sy!” You gasped. He had never talked dirty to you before.

“Don’t deny you like it .. I felt you clench on my fingers love”. Sy smirked.

“Can I touch you?” You whispered. Sy nodded before withdrawing his fingers. He held your gaze as he put his fingers in his mouth.

“You taste so good”.

“Lie down”. You smiled and shook your head as you changed positions. You leaned over him and kissed his lips softly. “Where’s my shy inexperienced Sy?”

“Long gone baby”. Sy smiled.

You laughed as you reached for his cock. He groaned as you moved your hand up and down his shaft like you used to do. You explored him slowly before watching as Sy spat on his hand and rubbed himself before replacing your hand with his. You were shocked but his reaction at the feel of your hand with the lubrication made you ache between you legs.

“That’s it love .. oh god yeah just like that”. Sy moaned. He had his eyes closed, head thrown back. Hesitantly you moved your hand to his base before lowering your mouth on him. You struggled with oral and you felt embarrassed to tell Sy that he was the last person you were with. You had no clue if you could make him feel good. Your doubts were gone the second you heard him gasp.

“Jesus! Oh god baby ..” Sy glanced down at you in shock. “You don’t have to .. oh fuck”.

You started to bob your head while your hand worked on him. Your clit throbbed at the sounds he made and the profanities thar left his mouth.

“Fuck baby ..” His hand moved to your head and gently applied pressure. You quickly looked at him and released him with a pop.

“Sy I haven’t been with anyone since you .. I’m not sure ..I just wanted you to know”. You muttered. “I just ..I want to make you feel good”.

Sy opened and closed his mouth before his thumb grazed your cheek. You could tell that he was lost for words. Ten years was a long time after all. You’d had a few dates here and there, some kisses and a few heavy make out sessions with a college of yours. But nothing further. Something always held you back.

You held Sy’s gaze as your mouth engulfed him again and this time Sy’s hand tangled in your hair while he gently helped you find a rhythm. He sat up slightly to watch you and the whole time he muttered praises.

“God that’s it baby. Jesus your mouth .. look at me, don’t take your eyes off me Sugar”.

You stared at him and your confidence grew along with the arousal pooling between your legs.

“God you’re beautiful .. so fucking beautiful”. Sy gently moved your mouth off him and sat up to kiss you passionately. He whispered in your ear that he was close and needed to be inside you.

He moved you onto your back and kissed you as he pulled his body on top of yours. You were kissing him back and so completely lost in the sensations that you were feeling.

“Sugar just a sec”. Sy lent across you and pulled open a draw. You realised he was getting a condom. You were glad that he was responsible but also a little bit hurt to know that he had used them with other women. Sy opened the packet with his teeth and you watched as he sat back between your legs and rolled the condom on. He looked up at you and noticed your expression. “You ok?”

“You .. have a big box of those”.

“Guess so”. Sy rubbed your hips gently.

“I didn’t mean to say that out loud”.

“It’s ok Sugar. But I can’t apologize for anyone after you .. I had no idea back then that I’d ever be with you again. I thought it was over for good”.

“I hate the thought of you with anyone else”. You paused. “I hate the thought of you using those with anyone else”.

“And I don’t want anyone else but you”. Sy lent forward to kiss you. “You still want me?”

“Course I do”. Your hands wrapped around his neck as he kissed you deeply. You felt him rub his cock up and down your opening before the tip moved inside you.

“Keep your eyes on me”. Sy’s fingers moved to your clit as he pushed into you gently. “That’s it Sugar. Oh Jesus you feel so good”.

“Sy”. Your eyes went wide as your body struggled to remember the act. You felt your walls tense as you willed yourself to relax.

Sy was halfway in when he moved to bring his mouth to your breast. He sucked on your nipple while his fingers moved in circles on your clit. You started to moan as you threw your head back. He seemed to know exactly what you needed. Gone was the awkward Sy you once knew. Once he felt you relax he pushed completely inside you inch by inch.

“Sy!”

His mouth left your breast and found your lips. He sucked on your bottom one before you opened your mouth and to your surprise he pushed his tongue into your mouth, mimicking the act between your bodies. You could feel his pubic hair flush against your bare skin as he ground his hips into you. You marveled in the feeling.

“You’re so tight .. god I’ve missed you”. Sy leaned back to look at you. “You ok?”

“More than ok”.

“You tell me if it’s too much .. I don’t wanna hurt you”.

“It doesn’t hurt Sy .. I just .. you feel so big”. You flushed.

“Yeah?”

You watched him smirk before he kissed you again. His lips moved to your ear.

“Gonna make you scream my name baby”.

Slowly he thrusted into you before pulling all the way out and thrusting back inside. Your hands clutched fistfuls of his sheets and you started moaning. He was playing you like an instrument.

“You like that Sugar? Gonna make you cum on my cock”.

Your toes curled as he continued to whisper dirty things on your ear. Your hands felt the way that his muscular back rippled before moving to his shoulders then his biceps. You realized then that you loved his arms. They were so strong and you couldn’t wrap your hand around them. He was very much a grown man now.

“Sy .. god you feel good inside me”.

“You feel like heaven”. Sy thrusted deeply into you as his hand moved to grip behind your knee, pushing your leg up higher so that he had better access. You couldn’t believe how deep he was. He was touching a part of you that felt so good. Your whole body started to feel like it was on fire.

“Right there Sy!”

“Yeah? Right there baby?” Sy hit the magic spot over and over again. “Need to feel you Sugar .. need to feel you cum”

You were struggling to breath, no words left your mouth as the most intense orgasm overcame you. You started shaking and your mouth opened to scream but for a moment there was a delay before you cried out. Your heartbeat was pounding in your ears as Sy kept thrusting into you. In your haze you watched him - sweat glistening on his chest, his muscles contracting in his huge shoulders and the words spilling from his lips made you even wetter if that was possible.

“I love fucking you .. god how I love you”.

You felt your heart explode as you watched Sy chase his orgasm. His hands moved both your legs over his shoulders and you felt him slide even deeper inside of you. The initial shock of the position he had you in quickly turned to intense pleasure as he touched a sensitive spot deep inside you. His hands found yours and he interlaced your fingers with his as he neared his release. A few deep thrusts and he exploded inside of you. He let out the most manly, almost animalistic sound as his hands moved your legs off his shoulders and his head dropped to you chest. Your hands stroked his back as he continued to thrust shallowly into you and empty ever drop of his release.

You held onto him as you struggled to catch your own breath and you hoped that Sy would need a moment to recover. You wanted to stay exactly the way that you were for as long as possible.

“I love you” You whispered softly. “Just in case you didn’t know”.

“I know Sugar .. nothings changed”. Sy’s mouth was hot against your skin before he kissed your cleavage then traced your nipple with his tongue. Heat instantly rushed to your face. You didn’t want to know where Sy leant the things he was doing to you .. he certainty wasn’t this way ten years ago. But part of you was thankful that you got to experience it with him now. You were amazed that even after such passionate love making that he was still attentive to your body. Still trying to draw out ever bit of pleasure from you.

“Sy”. You breathed into his hair as his mouth moved to your other nipple and his fingers traced your other bud.

“Hush Sugar”. Sy smirked against your skin. “I missed these”.

“Now I know why all the ladies want you Sy”.

“Why’s that?” Sy looked up at you before he rolled you both to your sides with him still inside.

“I don’t know what happened .. well I know but .. Sy you’re good .. so good in bed”. You blushed.

“Thank you Mam but I’m all yours Sugar. If you’ll have me”.

“I want you .. I can’t go back to before .. not after this ..”

“Then don’t”.

“You want me?”

“All of you” Sy smiled at you before moving out of your body slowly. You watched as he went to the bathroom and returned with a warm hand towel. You wondered what he was doing when he parted your thighs and started to clean you.

“What? Sy ..”

“Shhhh Sugar ..”

“Sy”. You winced slightly, knowing that years of abstinence would probably mean you wouldn’t walk straight the next day.

“You sore love?”

“Just worked muscles that haven’t been used in a long time Sy”.

“I wasn’t too rough?”

“No Sy. You were perfect”.

“Ok baby. You always talk to me won’t ya? Tell me if I do something you don’t like?” When you nodded he went to the bathroom to dispose of the used hand towel.

You smiled when he returned back from the bathroom and lay down next to you. He was on his back staring at the ceiling.

“What are you thinking about?”

You watched as Sy reached across to the nightstand draw and passed you an envelope. You nodded at it, indicating that he wanted you to open it.

“What’s this?” You looked at it, addressed to Sy.

“Open it”.

Slowly you did and as you clutched the paper your mouth fell open. You had to re read it.

“My grandfather sent this?”

“It came a few weeks ago .. He wanted to make sure ..”

“He asked you to come to the house after the funeral. He wanted you to see me”. You traced your finger over your grandfathers writing. “He .. wrote this when he was dying Sy”.

“He did .. and I’m glad that I kept his wish”.

“Oh Sy”. You put the envelope on the table next to you and pulled Sy down to kiss you. His hand roamed gently on your stomach and you knew Sy was thinking about Wyatt too.

“We can’t go back Sugar”

“No we can’t Sy”

“I wish we could”.

“So do I”.

“But .. even after everything .. I feel blessed right now”. Sy cupped your face. “With you, here in this moment”.

You felt lucky in so many ways. You got to see your grandfather one last time and you got to reconnect with Sy and tell him about the son you both shared. You had no idea what the future held except that you were happy .. for the first time in 10 years.

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[samaraj]

Pairing - Bradley Bradshaw x OC Savannah Shay

Warnings - Smut

Story - A passionate weekend, a confession, a top gun pilot and a girl called Savannah

“It’s so good to see you sweetheart”. Your Aunt Penny pulled you to her side in the cramped bar. “But you have to tell him .. I know how you feel darling but he really has a right to know”.

“Pen ..”

“Sweetheart .. please”.

“I haven’t heard from him in months Pen. We spent one weekend together and he ..” You chewed on your bottom lip. “He made it clear that he was focused on his job .. he didn’t want a relationship and he even told me a family wasn’t on the cards. Something about his Dad leaving him?”

“Goose didn’t leave him love. He died when Bradley was a young boy”. Penny sighed. “There’s a whole lot of hurt there still”.

“He told me Pen. We talked about jobs and stuff … family came up too. He came right out with it, said he didn’t want kids at all. Thought .. he’d call at least?”

“Love, he lost his Dad young .. then his mum when he was a young adult. He’s lost a lot”. Your Aunt Penny rubbed your arm softly. “Rooster has a tough exterior but .. there’s a lot you don’t know about him”.

“Well I can’t just turn up in his life and say hey brad guess what!” You gestured to your growing bump. “You knocked me up and now your gonna be a Dad! Like it or not”.

“Honey …” Your Aunt Penny rolled her eyes. “How he takes it is his choice ok? But you have to do …” She drifted off, looking out the window.

“What?” You looked around her and saw Hangman and Phoenix heading into the bar. “Oh no! Thought you said they weren’t here? You said they were on some kind of mission somewhere!” You started to panic. That was the reason you came to see your Aunt .. knowing you could have the chance to talk to her without worrying about seeing Rooster.

“Mav told me that!” Penny got out her phone. “Jesus there’s a bloody message!”

“What?” You tugged at your oversized t shirt suddenly wishing you’d bought a sweater.

“From Mav. They abandoned the mission and arrived back at base”. Penny ran her hand through her hair.

“Shit that means …”

“Honey .. I had no idea. I thought we’d have this weekend together”. Penny watched as Phoenix laughed at Hangman before opening the bar door. “You can’t avoid this .. either leave now or stay”.

“Fuck”. You swore and realised Phoenix had seen you. No way out now.

“Sav?” Phoenix nudged Hangman as they both walked over. “That you?”

“Oh yeah .. just dropped by to see Pen”. You smiled as your heart raced. “Nice to see you guys”.

“Hey Sav”. Hangman ordered drinks then eyed you suspiciously. “You look different”.

You cringed, knowing you’d put on some weight but the bar was hiding your 5 month bump.

“Been binging too much with exams you know? I need to hit the gym”. You shrugged but noticed Phoenix eying you.

Hangman glanced at you again before noticing someone at the bar and engaging in conversation. You breathed a sigh of relief.

“You sure that’s it?” Phoenix stared at you as Penny cleared her throat.

“Yeah why?” You busied yourself wiping down the benches, praying that she’d leave it alone.

“No reason”. Phoenix took a sip of her beer. “Rooster is coming you know”.

“Rooster? Oh right”.

“You couldn’t have forgotten him”. Phoenix smiled. “You two were inseparable last time you were here”.

“For one weekend Phoenix”.

“Still .. Rooster really liked you”.

“Yeah well ..” You shrugged. “I liked him too but his life is just hectic you know?”

“Course I do. I live his life”. Phoenix smiled. “Uh speak of the devil”.

You followed her gaze as Rooster walked into the bar. He hadn’t changed. Sunglasses on, that same Hawaiian shirt that he loved. His skin looked a bit more tanned since you saw him last, but otherwise he was the same pilot that had stolen your heart.

“Pen?” You whispered, nudging your Aunt. “I need .. I can’t Pen”. You inched your way towards the bar door and spun around quickly before hurrying out.

“Sav?”

You kept walking quickly even though Phoenix was calling out your name. You finally made it into the back office and quickly shut the door. Your eyes fixated on your white sneakers while you mentally tried to figure out what to do.

“What now?” You couldn’t hide in the office forever. Rooster and his friends would drink for hours!

“Savanah?”

You jumped at the sound of his voice .. Bradley Bradshaw was standing on the otherside. You covered your mouth with your hands as you tried to think of a way out of the cluttered office. You eyed the small window then shook your head when you realized you’d never fit.

“I know you’re in there”.

You rested your head against the timber realizing how ridiculous the whole situation was. You were an adult hiding out in an office because you couldn’t confront the position you were in.

“Yeah I’m just .. I’m ..” You drifted off. “I’m just trying to find something for Pen”. You slapped your forehead.

“Sav .. what’s going on? You literally bolted out the bar. Don’t you wanna see me?”

“No it’s not that Bradley .. look it’s hard to explain”. You wiped at your eyes. “Uh .. can you meet me in the carpark maybe? Give me ten minutes?”

“The car park? .. guess I can do that”.

“I just need a moment”. You paused and listened as his footsteps faded. You glanced at your watch and waited. This was it .. you couldn’t get out of it now. All the months you spent crying, analyzing your choices, wondering about Rooster ..soon he’d know and nothing would be the same. You breathed in and out a couple of times before grabbing Penny’s jacket and putting it on.

As you walked into the carpark hugging the jacket over your stomach you saw Rooster leaning up against his truck. He was looking in the other direction so you saw his side profile. He still made your heart skip a beat after this time apart. Slowly he turned to look at you.

“Hey you ok?” He started to walk towards you as your lip trembled. God you hated your raging hormones. “Savannah?”

“I’m ok”. You stood in front of him as his eyes scanned yours. He looked hesitant after seeing the apprehension on your face. “Brad I’m sorry .. I mean .. I should have tried to contact you. I should have let Mav know at least .. but .. it happened and it was a shock and then ..”

“Darling you’re pretty when you ramble”. Rooster brushed your hair away from your face. “What’s going on?”

Slowly you stepped back from him and opened up penny’s jacket. Your hands moved protectively over your bump as you watched the mixture of expressions cross his face.

“This is what’s going on Brad. I’m pregnant”. You paused. “I’m having your baby”.

“Mine?” Bradley stared at you then slapped his forehead. “I didn’t mean ..”

“I’ve not been with anyone else Bradley .. a year before you and nobody after”.

“I just .. i mean .. I was careful”. Rooster rubbed at his eyes and you felt your heart sink. “I always used a condom”.

“Nothing is foolproof Brad”. You swallowed. “Look it’s ok .. I don’t want anything from you. I don’t need you to support us in any way ok? My parents have been great and I’ve got Aunt Pen and other friends. I graduate next month so I’ll be working and supporting us”. You wiped at the tears that had fallen down your face. “I don’t need a god dammed thing from you Bradley. Your life doesn’t have to change ok? Go back to flying planes and forget that we ever had this conversation!”

“Forget?” Bradley paused for a moment but you could tell by the way his jaw clenched that he was upset. “Why the hell did you tell me then?”

“Because I had to! You wouldn’t leave me alone till I came out the office!”

“Jesus”. Rooster rubbed at his jaw turn his eyes flickered to Phoenix and Hangman who came out the bar. Your eyes followed his and you knew the two could see your baby bump. There was no going back now.

“I’m going Bradley. I told you .. now you know. You choose what you want from here. You’re a big boy I think you can do that much”.

“Savannah ..”

“Go back to your buddies, go back to flying .. we’re not going to cramp your style”. You suddenly shoved at his chest hard before storming off. You were angry and hurt, his reaction was what you predicted. He didn’t want this baby.

“Sav?” Phoenix’s hand grabbed your arm. “Thought you were .. just .. give him some time”.

“I shouldn’t have to”. You smiled sadly noticing the way Hangman eyed Rooster. “I’m ok though .. going back to my life and yeah .., gonna look after this little one”. You shrugged suddenly feeling stupid that you had to explain to anyone. “See you guys”.

You waved at Penny as you fumbled to get your keys out your pocket. You saw that she was deep in conversation with Maverick who was sitting at the bar. They were no doubt talking about you and your pregnancy. You knew that you’d put Penny in a difficult position by asking her not to tell Maverick earlier. They had just started dating and you prayed that this wouldn’t cause a strain on their relationship.

“Fucking great”. You got in your car and started the ignition. You saw Phoenix deep in conversation with Rooster while Hangman was shaking his head. “Time to go”. You drove in silence wondering whether he was mad at you? Maybe he was just shocked? Confused? Maybe this was really the last time you’d see him?

You got back to Penny’s apartment and immediately went in your room to pack. You planned to leave in the morning and go back to your life, after all .. now that Rooster knew and was around it would just make things uncomfortable.

You had barely closed your suitcase when the doorbell rang. You assumed it would be Phoenix if anyone, she’d probably want to talk to you and to see if you were ok.

“I’m coming”. You yelled out as you fumbled with the key. You pulled the door open to find Rooster, hands in his pockets.

“What are you doing here?” You folded your arms against your chest. “I’m trying to pack so I don’t have time ..”

“Can I come in?” Rooster paused. “Please?”

You sighed then held the door open, noticing the tray of drinks and paper bag he was holding.

“I uh .. picked up coffee and Penny sent some muffins”. Rooster held them out to you.

“Oh ok”. You took the food and drinks, placing them on the coffee table. “We can talk here if you want. But like I said, I don’t have long because ..”

“I’m sorry”. Rooster breathed out deeply. “I freaked out .. I never .. I mean I didn’t think I wanted kids. I know what my job is like. My dad .. he died doing it and I remember waiting for him to come home and he never did”. Rooster watched you sit on the lounge before sitting down next to you.

“Bradley ..”

“No just listen please ..” Rooster shifted on the lounge. “I’m just so fucking scared .. I’ve made a point of never getting close to anyone, never letting anyone get attached to me. I’ve never had anyone need me before or rely on me. I’ve done that on purpose”.

“I know Bradley .. this wasn’t on the cards for me either. In the future maybe but not right now”. You paused. “I’m scared too. I have a baby growing inside of me Brad .. I’m worried that I won’t be a good mother, that I’ll mess things up like my own mother did”.

“Hey .. you won’t”. Rooster scratched the back of his neck. A sign you’d picked up on when he was nervous.

“Well that’s how I feel but .. I can’t let my fears get the better of me. I’m going to have a little person that needs me”.

“I know .. I’m sorry Sav. You turning up just now telling me that you’re pregnant”. Rooster swallowed. “I acted like a complete dickhead I know. I was just shocked .. Then all my fears got stired up .. i was too caught up in my god dammed head”.

“Brad .. I get that you don’t want to be a father. That you don’t want this baby. And I’m telling you that you ..”

“No that’s not it!” Rooster grabbed your hands. “That’s not it .. I mean, I thought that was it but watching you drive away scared me more. Truth is, you’re all I’ve thought about these past few months. Ask Mav .. you’ve messed with my head big time”.

“You’ve thought of me?”

“I’ve been caught out many times. Thinking of you when i should be focused flying .. been grounded mid flight because of you”. Rooster smiled softly.

“It’s not just me Brad”. You breathed out deeply. “It’s me plus one”.

“Think I played a part in that”.

“Yeah you did”. You swallowed feeling suddenly emotional. “You know Im grateful that you’ve told me how you feel about me, but you can still walk away you know that right?”

“Why the fuck would I do that?” Rooster cupped your face. “I want you .. i want this baby”.

“Really Brad? You really mean that?”

“Cross my heart love”. Rooster smiled. “Doesn’t mean I’m not scared shitless though”.

“So am I”.

Suddenly Rooster was kissing you and you were right back to your weekend with him .. his mouth felt the same, he smelled the same .. god how you’d missed him.

“Bradley ..” You breathed against his mouth as the kisses you shared made your toes curl. “Take me to bed or lose me forever”.

You felt him smile against your mouth before he leaned down and picked you up bridal style.

“Last room on the left”. You mumbled against his mouth as Rooster carried you like you were nothing. His mouth barely left yours as he navigated through the cramped hallway and into your room, kicking the door closed with his foot.

“You sure?” He looked down at you as you lay on your bed.

“Are you?”

“Yes Mam”

“Then come here”. You smiled as he pulled off his t shirt and undid his jeans before crawling over your body and undressing you. When you were clad in nothing more than your white bra and panties, Rooster kissed your neck then made his way down your body. You noticed the tension in his arms as he kept his weight off you.

“Brad”. You moaned as he lifted your bra cup up and covered your nipple with his mouth. His finger tweaked the other one gently.

“These are bigger”. Rooster smirked against your skin. “God you’re beautiful”.

You sucked in a breath as he continued down your body. His hands rubbed your stomach softly and you sat up on your elbows as you watched him take in your form.

“I made a baby”.

“We made a baby”. You corrected him.

“I did this … I can’t believe it”. Rooster kissed your stomach softly. “This is amazing .. you feel amazing”.

“You might feel him kick if you’re lucky”.

“Him?” Rooster looked up at you in shock. “It’s a boy?”

“Yeah .. haven’t told anyone”. You smiled. “We’re having a son Brad”.

“Jesus”. Rooster covered your stomach in kisses. “No more surprises ok? Don’t think I can handle any more!”

“You ok?” You ran your hand across his cheek.

“I’m ok Love .. I just can’t believe all this”. Rooster smiled at you, his hands still caressing your belly. “But as much as I’d like to keep talking about our baby, I really need to focus on my job”.

“Your job?” You laughed as Rooster shushed you and slipped your underwear off. His hands parted your thighs and he settled in between them.

“Yeah my job ..” He kissed your inner thigh as you threw your head back. “To make you cum”.

“Oh …” The moment his mouth sucked on your clit you were gone. He had an extremely talented mouth and seemed to play you like an instrument. His fingers eased inside your body and soon he had you right on the brink. His talented tongue flicked across your swollen nub as you gripped the sheets tight. Your toes curled and you screamed his name over and over again as you came undone.

“Brad”. You said breathlessly as you watched him wipe his mouth with the back of his hand. He smiled then lay next to you flat on his back.

“Ride me”. Rooster helped you straddle his waist as his hands moved from your hips across to the swell of your stomach. You moved up on your knees and lined him up at your entrance before easing down slowly.

“Oh god”. You felt that familiar stretch and burn.

“Slow love”. Rooster sucked on his thumb before moving his hand in between your legs. The sensation helped you relax and soon you had him deeply inside of you. “That’s it .. fuck you feel amazing. So tight around me”.

You began to move slowly and you marveled in the way that Rooster’s eyes were roaming across your body. From your face to the movement of your breasts, then in between your legs.

“You ok?” He gazed at you intently. “Talk to me”

“So good Brad …you feel so good”. Your hands rested on his chest. “Feel so good inside me”.

“Fuck .. you look like a goddess”. Rooster’s hands rested on your hips, guiding you into a slightly faster pace. He moved forward, capturing your nipple in his mouth. “These .. god baby you have no idea ..”

You felt your body flush. He had this affect on you .. knowing just how to set you on fire quickly. You were relieved that he loved the changes in your body .. the way his hands kept moving over your stomach and breasts told you that. You started to grow in confidence so leaned up on your knees slightly and started to really ride him.

“Fuck just like that .. Jesus”. Rooster watched you reach your hands back, grabbing his thighs as you started to really move. His hands grabbed your breasts as you rolled your hips.

“So fucking turned on right now .. god your body” Rooster was practically moaning. “Tight pussy, gorgeous tits …full of my baby”.

“Please .. Brad” You loved when he talked dirty and you were glad that your condition hasn’t changed anything.

“Everyone’s gonna know who you belong too huh? Who put this baby in you”. Rooster started to thrust up into you. “Can feel you clenching. You gonna cum for me love?”

“Yes ..” You panted above him.

“Cum on my cock”.

“Bradley!” You felt it starting. Coiling in your stomach and your heart beating loudly. “Please!”

“Let go”.

That was all it took for your second release to hit you hard and your ears rang from the sounds you were making.You felt the urge to fall forward, as suddenly your arms and legs felt like jelly. Rooster seemed to understand and he quickly sat up so that it was easier for you to rest your arms on his shoulders while the continued to thrust into you.

You moved to watch his face and he stared at you. His face and chest covered in a light sheen of sweat, his breathing ragged and his cheeks slightly flushed pink. You wished you could pause this moment because he never looked sexier to you than when he was about to climax.

“Need you Brad”. You felt his hands on your hips, stilling your movements as he chased his release. You felt him before you heard any sounds leave his mouth. He grunted into your shoulder as he came inside you with a few jerks of his hips. Warmth filled your body and then there was silence except for the sounds of breathing. His hands roamed your body, moving gently across your skin exactly how he was every single time.

“You ok?” His breath tickled your neck but was quickly replaced by his mouth, kissing the skin of your jaw.

“More than ok”.

“I came inside you”. He laughed. “Guess I can now that you’re pregnant”.

“Can’t get me pregnant twice Bradshaw”. You looked at him and smiled.

“I’m really gonna be a father”. Rooster stared at you before resting his forehead on yours. He slowly moved his hips, slipping out of your body and pulling you in closer.

“Yes you are .. we have a lot to look forward to”. You paused then grabbed at his wrist, placing his hand to the side of your stomach. “Can you feel that? I mean it’s only early and not like full on kicks but …”

“I can … kind of like a soft ..”

“Flutter?” You laughed. “That’s your son Brad”.

“Jesus”. Rooster placed his large palm across your stomach. “Probably woke him up with all that screaming you were doing woman”.

“Probably”.

“You sure .. sex is ok?”

“Brad! Yes sex is ok .. I can have sex right up till I give birth”. You paused. “That’s if you’d want to”.

“Of course I want to! You’re bloody gorgeous”. Roosters hands were back on your skin and you smiled, realizing that you might never leave your bed now that his fingers ghosted over the swell of your breasts, stomach and the juncture of your thighs. “You never looked sexier. Your full breasts, stomach .. everything”.

“Brad”. Your hands moved to his hair, tugging slightly as his mouth latched onto your breast. “Again?”

“Again .. now that I’ve gotten that out my system I’m gonna worship you”.

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Title - Breakup Makeup

Pairings - Sy x reader

Summary - A messy breakup leads to a chance meeting. But you’re not the same girl anymore and you’re determined to give Sy a taste of his own medicine.

Warnings - smut, oral sex, anal (this one is dirty) hate sex

This was an anon prompt and it took me awhile to write. I don’t like this Sy but sometimes it’s about being creative! I’ve sat on this one for ages because I kept going back trying to rewrite Sy but at the end of the day it was a new angle. I do want my Sy back though!!

“It’s been weeks since we’ve all hung out”. You turned to your best friend Jane and smiled as you walked along the busy road to the Italian restaurant where you were meeting your large group of friends.

“Tell me about it”. Jane rolled her eyes. “Life gets so busy sometimes. You look hot by the way”.

“You think?”

“Girl you’re going to be going home with someone tonight”. Jane laughed. “Remember that last guy? Gary?”

“God don’t remind me. I couldn’t walk the next day”. You groaned at the memory of your intoxicated, rough one night stand.

“So … he’s well and truly out of your system?”

“Who?” You glanced at Jane and noticed she was looking straight ahead.

“Sy”

“Sy? Yeah for sure. Why do you ask?”

“Because he’s there”. You looked to the large table that you were approaching. “I didn’t invite him. Shit. Do you want to go?”

For a moment you paused, your mask slipping. But then you remembered how toxic your relationship was. You argued more than any couple should, and he’d cheated on you countless times. But you were submissive and weak then - you kept taking him back.

“No biggie. He’s an ex anyway”.

“Sure you’re ok seeing him? Jane eyed you suspiciously. “Hundred percent sure babe?”

“Absolutely”. You felt your heart race as you walked closer. Your break up was messy and the last fight you had still burned in your brain. You had no idea what the argument was actually about but you’d both yelled, you’d slapped Sy’s face before breaking a glass and you’d both called in other names.

But that was over a year ago and a lot had changed. He’d gone off to the army, you’d scored a big promotion at work, cut your long hair off into a sexy bob and started “enjoying” the freedom of being single. In other words you’d picked up a lot of random guys and had a lot of sex. If a guy could do it, why couldn’t a woman? You felt like you were getting your control back. It made you feel powerful.

You were thankful that you’d worn your black leather mini skirt and white lace crop top that showed off your flat stomach and cleavage. You saw Sy look at you and you knew you had him right where any red blooded male would be.

You made a show of greeting all your friends before standing in front of Sy. You noticed his pupils widen as he looked you up and down.

“Hello Sy”. You smiled confidentially. “Nice to see you”.

“Hi Sugar”. Sy paused. “You look real good. Cut your hair?”

“Needed a new start”.

“It looks good”.

“That’s what all the guys tell me”. You smirked.

“All the guys?”

“Single has its freedom right?” You wandered over to the bar, knowing that Sy was behind you watching your ass. You moved purposely - giving him a show.

You ordered your cocktail and sat on the bar stool watching as Sy sat next to you. You crossed your legs slowly and knew that Sy noticed.

“You look good”. Sy took a sip of his beer before handing over his credit card to pay for your drinks.

“You don’t have to pay for me”.

“As if I’d let a woman buy her own drink”.

“I’m used to buying mine. Unless you expect something in return?

“And what would I be expecting?”

“I can think of a lot of things”. You chewed on your bottom lip, relishing how the tables had turned.

“Yeah?” Sy adjusted himself on the seat and you knew he was hard. He was like putty in your hands.

“Yeah”. You leaned in close to his face before running your tongue up to his ear. “You want to do lots of nasty things to me Sy, don’t you?”

“Don’t be a fucking tease”. Sy paused. “Are you seriously the same girl?”

You finished your cocktail keeping notice of how hot and bothered Sy was getting. You got off the stool slowly, not bothering to pull your skirt down which was now dangerously close to showing off your ass cheeks. You saw Sy look, and his mouth dropped open.

“I’m going outside to smoke”.

“You don’t smoke”.

“I do now”.

You grabbed your handbag and turned to wink at Jane who was watching you from across the room.

One time you wanted to be in control with Sy. Because it still upset you that you weren’t ever in control with him in the past. And it hurt you that he was the one to breakup with you. You were a woman scorned.

You knew he was following you into the outside alleyway. As soon as the door closed behind you, you lent back against the wall and dropped your bag. Your hand ran down your stomach in between your legs as you started to touch yourself. You saw Sy’s shocked expression.

“Are you the same girl?” Sy repeated. “What the fuck?”

“I’m not”. You watched as Sy rubbed his cock through his jeans. He came close to you, lips on your neck.

“You’ve fucked around”.

“Yeah so?”. You smirked. “Does that make me a slut?”

“I think it does”. Sy’s voice rasped into your ear.

“Are you gonna go down on me or what?”

“You dirty slut”. Sy groaned. “So fucking dirty”,

“If not I’ll just get someone else”. You smiled. “The bartender was hot”

“No”. Sy grabbed your throat as hand moved in between your legs. He swore when he realised you had no underwear on before roughly shoving two thick digits into you.

“Hold them still”. You looked at Sy before running your tongue across his lower lip. “I wanna fuck my self on your fingers”. You saw Sy’s eyes widen as you moved your hips frantically. You gripped his wrist, holding him steady. Sy wasn’t used to being told what to do and you loved it.

“Fuck”. Sy muttered before kissing you roughly. “Let me go down on you”. He was almost begging.

“Yes”. You watched Sy move on his knees, his fingers still in you as he started sucking your clit and frantically pushing up your skirt with his feee hand.

“Oh fuck”. You moaned. “Yes Sy!” Within minutes you orgasmed. You pulled his head close as you continued to shake.

You watched as Sy stood up slowly. You took his wrist, bringing his fingers into your mouth and sucking them.

“Dirty girl”. Sy started unbuckling his jeans. “Have you missed my cock?”

“I’ve had a lot of cock’s since yours”. You kissed his lips, slipping your tongue into his mouth. “Bigger than yours”.

“You fucking slut”. Sy turned you around roughly and you smirked, knowing that you’d wounded his ego.

You felt him line himself against your opening before thrusting hard into you. You muffled a scream as he filled you.

“You on the pill? Because I’m fucking you bare”

“I’m on the pill”. You panted. “Wouldn’t want any accidents”.

You wondered for a moment if he’d split you in two by the way he was pounding into you. You knew he was angry and this was a hate fuck right now. You heard him spit on his hand before easing a finger into your ass.

“You had your ass fucked yet?”

“Yes”. You heard Sy suck in a breath knowing how much he wanted that when you were dating. It was the first thing you tried after breaking up. A way of getting back at him. “Many times”.

He pulled out of your pussy and lined himself up at your ass. You knew he was angry. He pushed inside as you cried out. He wasn’t giving you time to adjust before he started thrusting wildly.

“Take it”. He said between thrusts. “Fucking take it whore”.

“I hate you”. You muttered as his hands gripped your hips.

“You hate me? Or hate that I’m destroying your ass?”

“That all you got?” You pushed back against him trying to take the control back. “I’ve had bigger and tougher boys than you Captain”.

“Fuck”. Sy continued to thrust into you as his hands moved to your shoulders. “Gonna make you scream my name!”

“Scream mine asshole”. You pushed your hips back knowing that Sy was losing his control. You could tell by his sloppy thrusts and the groans that he was making. You were growing bolder by the second, knowing that you had this power over him. He’d broken you after he left, and you wanted to repay him.

“Fuck!” Sy gripped your hips in an attempt to stop you from pushing back against him but you struggled until you felt him explode inside you. His body fell forward and he screamed … your name. Your face turned against the cool wall in front of you and although you were sore, tired and a sweaty mess you felt like you’d won.

You felt Sy’s hands on your hips as he pulled out and you heard him swear as he surely saw his cum trickling down your legs. You refused to face him. Instead tugging down your mini skirt and deciding you were in no shape to mingle with friends. Instead you’d have to walk back to your car.

“Hey”. Sy’s voice cut through your thoughts. You turned your head slowly. “I didn’t .. I didn’t hurt you did I? You .. fuck you got me so riled up. Hope I didn’t hurt you though?”

“I like it rough”. You paused before turning around. “Besides, you screamed my name remember?”

“Sugar I think we should ..”

“Talk? Sort through our shit?” You glared at him. “I’m not the same person Sy”.

“I can see that”.

“You ruined me”. You pointed your finger into his chest. “Back then .. you ruined me. So now this is the new me. I call the shots .. I make guys like you beg”.

You watched Sy open and close his mouth, not sure what to say to you.

“Don’t say anything. Just let it be”. You looked at him for a moment before walking away.

“I thought we were gonna .. “

“What?” You yelled over your shoulder. “Breakup then makeup? Fuck off Sy”.

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Title - Breakup Makeup

Pairings - Sy x reader

Summary - A messy breakup leads to a chance meeting. But you’re not the same girl anymore and you’re determined to give Sy a taste of his own medicine.

Warnings - smut, oral sex, anal (this one is dirty) hate sex

This was an anon prompt and it took me awhile to write. I don’t like this Sy but sometimes it’s about being creative! I’ve sat on this one for ages because I kept going back trying to rewrite Sy but at the end of the day it was a new angle. I do want my Sy back though!!

“It’s been weeks since we’ve all hung out”. You turned to your best friend Jane and smiled as you walked along the busy road to the Italian restaurant where you were meeting your large group of friends.

“Tell me about it”. Jane rolled her eyes. “Life gets so busy sometimes. You look hot by the way”.

“You think?”

“Girl you’re going to be going home with someone tonight”. Jane laughed. “Remember that last guy? Gary?”

“God don’t remind me. I couldn’t walk the next day”. You groaned at the memory of your intoxicated, rough one night stand.

“So … he’s well and truly out of your system?”

“Who?” You glanced at Jane and noticed she was looking straight ahead.

“Sy”

“Sy? Yeah for sure. Why do you ask?”

“Because he’s there”. You looked to the large table that you were approaching. “I didn’t invite him. Shit. Do you want to go?”

For a moment you paused, your mask slipping. But then you remembered how toxic your relationship was. You argued more than any couple should, and he’d cheated on you countless times. But you were submissive and weak then - you kept taking him back.

“No biggie. He’s an ex anyway”.

“Sure you’re ok seeing him? Jane eyed you suspiciously. “Hundred percent sure babe?”

“Absolutely”. You felt your heart race as you walked closer. Your break up was messy and the last fight you had still burned in your brain. You had no idea what the argument was actually about but you’d both yelled, you’d slapped Sy’s face before breaking a glass and you’d both called in other names.

But that was over a year ago and a lot had changed. He’d gone off to the army, you’d scored a big promotion at work, cut your long hair off into a sexy bob and started “enjoying” the freedom of being single. In other words you’d picked up a lot of random guys and had a lot of sex. If a guy could do it, why couldn’t a woman? You felt like you were getting your control back. It made you feel powerful.

You were thankful that you’d worn your black leather mini skirt and white lace crop top that showed off your flat stomach and cleavage. You saw Sy look at you and you knew you had him right where any red blooded male would be.

You made a show of greeting all your friends before standing in front of Sy. You noticed his pupils widen as he looked you up and down.

“Hello Sy”. You smiled confidentially. “Nice to see you”.

“Hi Sugar”. Sy paused. “You look real good. Cut your hair?”

“Needed a new start”.

“It looks good”.

“That’s what all the guys tell me”. You smirked.

“All the guys?”

“Single has its freedom right?” You wandered over to the bar, knowing that Sy was behind you watching your ass. You moved purposely - giving him a show.

You ordered your cocktail and sat on the bar stool watching as Sy sat next to you. You crossed your legs slowly and knew that Sy noticed.

“You look good”. Sy took a sip of his beer before handing over his credit card to pay for your drinks.

“You don’t have to pay for me”.

“As if I’d let a woman buy her own drink”.

“I’m used to buying mine. Unless you expect something in return?

“And what would I be expecting?”

“I can think of a lot of things”. You chewed on your bottom lip, relishing how the tables had turned.

“Yeah?” Sy adjusted himself on the seat and you knew he was hard. He was like putty in your hands.

“Yeah”. You leaned in close to his face before running your tongue up to his ear. “You want to do lots of nasty things to me Sy, don’t you?”

“Don’t be a fucking tease”. Sy paused. “Are you seriously the same girl?”

You finished your cocktail keeping notice of how hot and bothered Sy was getting. You got off the stool slowly, not bothering to pull your skirt down which was now dangerously close to showing off your ass cheeks. You saw Sy look, and his mouth dropped open.

“I’m going outside to smoke”.

“You don’t smoke”.

“I do now”.

You grabbed your handbag and turned to wink at Jane who was watching you from across the room.

One time you wanted to be in control with Sy. Because it still upset you that you weren’t ever in control with him in the past. And it hurt you that he was the one to breakup with you. You were a woman scorned.

You knew he was following you into the outside alleyway. As soon as the door closed behind you, you lent back against the wall and dropped your bag. Your hand ran down your stomach in between your legs as you started to touch yourself. You saw Sy’s shocked expression.

“Are you the same girl?” Sy repeated. “What the fuck?”

“I’m not”. You watched as Sy rubbed his cock through his jeans. He came close to you, lips on your neck.

“You’ve fucked around”.

“Yeah so?”. You smirked. “Does that make me a slut?”

“I think it does”. Sy’s voice rasped into your ear.

“Are you gonna go down on me or what?”

“You dirty slut”. Sy groaned. “So fucking dirty”,

“If not I’ll just get someone else”. You smiled. “The bartender was hot”

“No”. Sy grabbed your throat as hand moved in between your legs. He swore when he realised you had no underwear on before roughly shoving two thick digits into you.

“Hold them still”. You looked at Sy before running your tongue across his lower lip. “I wanna fuck my self on your fingers”. You saw Sy’s eyes widen as you moved your hips frantically. You gripped his wrist, holding him steady. Sy wasn’t used to being told what to do and you loved it.

“Fuck”. Sy muttered before kissing you roughly. “Let me go down on you”. He was almost begging.

“Yes”. You watched Sy move on his knees, his fingers still in you as he started sucking your clit and frantically pushing up your skirt with his feee hand.

“Oh fuck”. You moaned. “Yes Sy!” Within minutes you orgasmed. You pulled his head close as you continued to shake.

You watched as Sy stood up slowly. You took his wrist, bringing his fingers into your mouth and sucking them.

“Dirty girl”. Sy started unbuckling his jeans. “Have you missed my cock?”

“I’ve had a lot of cock’s since yours”. You kissed his lips, slipping your tongue into his mouth. “Bigger than yours”.

“You fucking slut”. Sy turned you around roughly and you smirked, knowing that you’d wounded his ego.

You felt him line himself against your opening before thrusting hard into you. You muffled a scream as he filled you.

“You on the pill? Because I’m fucking you bare”

“I’m on the pill”. You panted. “Wouldn’t want any accidents”.

You wondered for a moment if he’d split you in two by the way he was pounding into you. You knew he was angry and this was a hate fuck right now. You heard him spit on his hand before easing a finger into your ass.

“You had your ass fucked yet?”

“Yes”. You heard Sy suck in a breath knowing how much he wanted that when you were dating. It was the first thing you tried after breaking up. A way of getting back at him. “Many times”.

He pulled out of your pussy and lined himself up at your ass. You knew he was angry. He pushed inside as you cried out. He wasn’t giving you time to adjust before he started thrusting wildly.

“Take it”. He said between thrusts. “Fucking take it whore”.

“I hate you”. You muttered as his hands gripped your hips.

“You hate me? Or hate that I’m destroying your ass?”

“That all you got?” You pushed back against him trying to take the control back. “I’ve had bigger and tougher boys than you Captain”.

“Fuck”. Sy continued to thrust into you as his hands moved to your shoulders. “Gonna make you scream my name!”

“Scream mine asshole”. You pushed your hips back knowing that Sy was losing his control. You could tell by his sloppy thrusts and the groans that he was making. You were growing bolder by the second, knowing that you had this power over him. He’d broken you after he left, and you wanted to repay him.

“Fuck!” Sy gripped your hips in an attempt to stop you from pushing back against him but you struggled until you felt him explode inside you. His body fell forward and he screamed … your name. Your face turned against the cool wall in front of you and although you were sore, tired and a sweaty mess you felt like you’d won.

You felt Sy’s hands on your hips as he pulled out and you heard him swear as he surely saw his cum trickling down your legs. You refused to face him. Instead tugging down your mini skirt and deciding you were in no shape to mingle with friends. Instead you’d have to walk back to your car.

“Hey”. Sy’s voice cut through your thoughts. You turned your head slowly. “I didn’t .. I didn’t hurt you did I? You .. fuck you got me so riled up. Hope I didn’t hurt you though?”

“I like it rough”. You paused before turning around. “Besides, you screamed my name remember?”

“Sugar I think we should ..”

“Talk? Sort through our shit?” You glared at him. “I’m not the same person Sy”.

“I can see that”.

“You ruined me”. You pointed your finger into his chest. “Back then .. you ruined me. So now this is the new me. I call the shots .. I make guys like you beg”.

You watched Sy open and close his mouth, not sure what to say to you.

“Don’t say anything. Just let it be”. You looked at him for a moment before walking away.

“I thought we were gonna .. “

“What?” You yelled over your shoulder. “Breakup then makeup? Fuck off Sy”.

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Title - Wedding Night

Pairings - Sy x reader

Warnings - All the smut

Story - After a 12 month engagement, reader is married to the man of her dreams - and is ready to give him her virginity.

You were alone at last, standing together in the very expensive penthouse of the 5 star hotel that Sy had booked. He’d just carried you over the threshold and you had just found your feet, staring into his eyes.

“You’re my husband”. It was a statement and you smiled at him. Your hand found his and you laced your fingers together.

“I am”. Sy bought his hand to your cheek. “And you’re my wife”.

“We did it Sy. We really got married”. You glanced at the white gold band on his finger that matched your own.

“We did Sugar”. Sy’s fingers ran down your jawline.

“It was perfect”.

“Except for my father’s drunken dance moves”. Sy laughed at the memory. “God how embarrassing”.

“Leave him alone” You smiled. “He enjoyed himself”.

“Yeah he did. Everyone did”. Sy paused, searching your face. He ran his hand down your lace covered arm. “Would you like a drink? There’s an outside spa?”

Your eyes drifted to the outdoor spa, with beautiful views overlooking the city. Sy’s eyes stared into yours and you sensed the unspoken question. He had been so patient, but now alone with you .. his expression was needy. You knew that his patience had reached its limits. He wanted you.

“That sounds nice”. You paused. “Can you help me out of this dress?” Your breath caught in your throat as your mind wandered to all the fantasies you’d had of this night.

“Yeah .. turn around Darling”.

You felt Sy’s hands move gently to your hips before his fingers worked at the pearl buttons that made their way from the back of your neck to your waist. He moved slowly although you could feel the slight tremble of his fingers. You knew how long he’d waited.

Suddenly the fabric shifted off your arms and you clutched it to your chest. You turned to face him, watching his eyes move from your bare back to your face.

“The bathroom is ..” He looked momentarily shocked as you dropped the dress to the floor. You stood in your white lace bra and panties, along with a matching white lace garter belt and stockings. On your feet were your white satin high heels.

“Sugar”. Sy let his eyes wander down your body. “You’re so beautiful baby”.

“You’re still dressed”. You smiled as Sy worked to rid himself of the wedding suit. Soon he was standing in front of you in black boxers. You could see his hard on standing firm against his muscular stomach. God he was every woman’s fantasy.

“Are we? I mean ..” You stammered. “No clothes?”

“Naked? Yes baby .. if you’re comfortable?”

You nodded. He was your husband. You followed him to the spa, his hand linked in yours. You reached behind your body and unclasped your bra. Sy moved to push his shorts down before smiling at you. He got nto the spa slowly and waited for you with his hand outstretched. You stood topless In front of him before unclipping your suspenders.

“You are stunning” Sy whispered as he watched you. Your eyes flickered to his and you sucked in a breath when you saw his massive length. However, with shaky hands you managed to remove your stockings and flimsy white lace panties. Sy’s eyes were on the junction between your legs and you blushed, knowing that you were already wet. You took his hand and moved into the warm water, your back against his front as you both relaxed. He was hard against you but your thoughts were interrupted by his lips on your neck as his fingers undid the clasp that held your soft curls in place.

“You gonna be my wife tonight sugar?” His Texas accent seemed to resonate on your ear.

“Thought I already am?”

“You know what I mean ..” Sy sucked gently on your earlobe. “You gonna let me have you at last?”

“Yes Sy”.

You heard him suck in a breath. He’d been so patient with you, always respecting your boundaries. He knew from the beginning that you wanted to wait until your wedding night, and you knew how hard the wait had been.

“You been such a good girl .. saving yourself for me”. Sy’s hand drifted to your breasts and he rolled one nipple between his fingers. “Ain’t ya?”

“Yes Sy”. You moaned at his touch, thinking about the months he had explored your body without going too far.

“Good girl”. Sy’s hand continued to play with your nipple while his other hand moved in between your legs.

You gasped as he worked your clit before gently easing a finger into you. Up until now, this was as far as you’d let him go.

“Jesus baby you’re so wet” Sy started moving his finger.

“I want you Sy”. You started moving your hips gently and for a minute Sy let you, his hot breath on your neck.

“That’s it love”. Sy sucked on your neck as he pushed another digit into you. He stilled when he heard you gasp.

“Sy .. I don’t think ..” You felt full already. “I can’t”

“Baby let me get you ready for me love. I’m a big boy and I don’t wanna hurt you”. Sy moved his fingers gently. “See? You’re taking it baby. Relax”.

“Oh Sy …” You started rocking your hips. You knew he was much bigger than two fingers but you felt so full.

“That’s my girl .. look at you baby. You’re getting ready for my cock”.

Sy hadn’t spoken to you like that before and you felt your cheeks blush at the same time as your clit throbbed.

“You gonna cum on my fingers sugar?”

“Sy!” His dirty talk shocked and pleased you at once.

“You like it. I feel you clenching sweetheart”. Sy increased his pace. “Let go baby”.

You panted as you moved your hips, a strange coil tightening in your stomach and then it happened - you cried out Sy’s name as you felt your release come over you. You lay back limp against his chest while his fingers worked you through your orgasm. You were vaguely aware that he was scissoring them slightly and you knew that he was trying to prepare you.His lips were at your ear, murmuring praises.

“My good girl. You gonna be my wife now baby? Tell me you want me love .. tell me”.

“I want you Sy” You felt his fingers leave you and you turned around reaching for his cock. Your tiny hand grasped what you could and moved up and down his length.

“Jesus Sugar .. oh fuck that feels so good”.

“Can I taste you?” You felt your cheeks burn but the look on Sy’s face made you want continue. You watched as Sy moved up a step so that he was out of the water. Your knees rested on the lower step as you reached for him at the same time as his hands gathered your hair into a ponytail. He nodded and you lowered your mouth to him for the first time.

“Oh baby .. look at me”.

You glanced up and started to move your head up and down, trying to mimic what your girlfriends had told you. Your hand moved in time with your mouth and you watched Sy throw his head back.

“Fuck”. Sy muttered over and over again. You grew a little bolder and took him in your mouth deeper only to gag slightly. Sy quickly pulled your head up.

“Don’t baby. You’re not used to that yet love”. Sy watched as you released him with a pop. For awhile you used your hand and explored him, loving the sounds he was making.

“Can we go to the bed?”

“Yes love. I’m not taking you in the tub for your first time”. Sy pulled you to him and kissed you passionately. You both stood and Sy wrapped a towel around you so you could dry off before leading you to the bed. Within minutes your moans filled the room.

“Sy oh Sy!”

He was between your legs and you were grinding yourself against his mouth. He prolonged your experience by taking you right to the edge then pulling away and kissing your thighs. This went on for ages and it was the most delicious torture you’d ever felt. Sy was an experienced lover and he was determined to make this enjoyable for you.

He added a finger and you were so close to another release. But before anything happened you felt Sy shift. He was pulling your thighs apart further and moving closer to you, rubbing his cock up and down your slit.

“You ready love?”

“Mmmm yes Sy”. You kissed his lips as he lent forward, tasting yourself on his mouth.

“Love you” He pushed until the head was inside. You squirmed at the invasion but Sy held your hips in place. “I promise it won’t hurt long love”. You felt Sy’s thumb working on your clit as he pushed forward gently. “Breath baby”.

“Sy”. You felt yourself resisting the foreign invasion and Sy stilled, sensing your discomfort. His lips found yours and he kissed you passionately. He was an amazing kisser at the best of times but this kiss literally took your breath away. He sucked on your bottom lip before his tongue found yours.

“Just kiss me. I got all the time in the world love”

“I love you”. You whispered breathlessly.

“I love you too Sugar”. He resumed kissing you, inching forward slightly and taking his time. You were suddenly aware of a sting and you realised that he was at your resistance.

“I love you” Sy repeated before thrusting into you. “Sorry baby”.

You clung to Sy’s neck as you cried out. Your face nuzzled into his jawline as a few tears escaped your eyelids. Sy kept whispering sweet nothings into your ear while keeping completely still and allowing your body to accept him. After a few minutes you felt him slip his hand between your joined bodies as this fingers rubbed circles on your clit. It eased the throb between your legs.

“Sy”. Your voice was a whisper. “You can move”.

“You sure love?”

“No but you have to at some point”.

“Baby ..” Sy kissed your forehead. “It will feel better I promise”.

“Ok”. You felt Sy nudge your nose with his. He thrusted gently and you felt the pain ebb and flow. Again, he was watching your face as his fingers played with your clit. You started to feel pleasure and wetness seep between your parted thighs. “Sy .. oh ..”

“There you go baby”. Sy kissed your lips as he rocked his hips. “You’re started to enjoy it .. I can feel how wet you’re getting”.

“Sy .. oh it feels much better”. You involuntarily rocked your hips against him. You could feel your walls relaxing to accommodate him.

“Your pussy feels so good”. Sy saw you suck in a breath as you pulsed around him. “You like when I talk that way don’t you love?”

“Yes”

“Want more baby girl?” Sy pulled all the way out and plunged back inside as you arched your back. “Good girl .. you’re taking all of me. Jesus this was worth the wait”.

“Keep talking .. Sy .. oh”.

“You feel so good .. fuck”. Sy muttered in between thrusts. “Your pussy feels so good .. so tight. Fuck I’ve waited so long to feel you”.

“Sy oh god”. You felt your walls spasm and felt that familiar feeling again. You could hardly believe you were going to orgasm. Your hands gripped his shoulders and you felt your eyelids grow heavy but then Sy suddenly stopped moving.

“Trust me?”

“Yes” You we’re so close that your walls were already faintly pulsing.

“Roll over”. Sy pulled out slowly and watched as you moved onto your knees. You blushed, realizing he was looking at your ass. “Relax baby”. He gripped your hips and pushed back inside gently. He could feel your walls pulsing again. He felt so different in this position.

“Oh Sy I think I’m going to .. “

Before you could finish, Sy started thrusting into you from behind. Not too hard yet, just long deep strokes.

“Come on my cock Sugar”. Sy held your hips as he picked up his pace. You felt his hands move your ass cheeks open and you knew he was watching.

“Are you looking?” You panted as you turned your head. You couldn’t believe the horror stories you’d heard about other women’s first times - lying on their backs without any pleasure. But here you were on your hands and knees ready to orgasm again.

“Fuck yes. I’m watching your pussy take me. Baby .. best sight I’ve seen. Let me watch you come”.

“Sy ..” Your cheeks burned but you were too close to your release to overthink things.

“Fuck .. oh fuck”.

“Sy!!” You screamed his name loudly as your release hit you hard. You were shaking as you struggled to stay on your arms. You could hear Sy muttering profanities as you fell forward onto your elbows.

“God baby .. you came on my cock. Fuck ..” Sy was thrusting hard. “So wet .. fuck, so wet”

He came shouting your name. You felt his release coat your walls as he collapsed against your back. He ruttered against you for a few moments before pulling out gently. His hand rubbed along your spine, moving upwards to push your hair to the side.

“So good baby .. you were so good”. He kissed your shoulder, rolling you onto your back as he went to retreave a washcloth to clean between your legs. He came back a few minutes later and you watched as he parted your thighs. You saw a sticky mess of your releases and some blood but Sy acted like it was nothing. He cleaned you gently.

“I probably ruined the sheets”.

“Think I care?” Sy smiled at you as he continued to wipe in between your legs.

“No but housekeeping might”.

“I’ve paid for housekeeping”. You watched as Sy took the washcloth to the bathroom. You heard the water go on and you lay there waiting for him. He came back and laid down, pulling you into his arms.

“How was that love?” Sy studied your face. “I didn’t hurt you? I tried to be gentle”.

“You were perfect Sy. How was it for you?”

“You seriously asking me that?” Sy chuckled. “I’ve waited 12 months to have you baby. It was the best thing and even more special because you’re my wife”.

“I wish .. I knew more though .. like how to please you”.

“Baby we have a lifetime to understand each other that way. But I’ll tell you something .. you don’t have to do a good dammed thing and you please me”.

“Love you”. You looked up at him and his lips met yours.

“Love you right back”. Sy paused. “You sore love?”

“Yeah a bit”.

“Well you lay back snd relax ok? Let me take care of you”

Before you could question him he was in between your parted thighs, smiling up at you as his mouth eased your discomfort.

“Sy! You’ve just .. came inside me!”

“Don’t care but if it bothers you I’ll just kiss you here”. Sy sucked on your clit gently.

You relaxed back into the soft fluffy pillow, your hands reaching in between your legs to stroke his hair.

“I could get used to this”.

“Good”. Sy glanced up at you from in between your parted thighs. “Because I’m gonna take care of you forever Sugar”.

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[samaraj]

Title - Wedding Night

Pairings - Sy x reader

Warnings - All the smut

Story - After a 12 month engagement, reader is married to the man of her dreams - and is ready to give him her virginity.

You were alone at last, standing together in the very expensive penthouse of the 5 star hotel that Sy had booked. He’d just carried you over the threshold and you had just found your feet, staring into his eyes.

“You’re my husband”. It was a statement and you smiled at him. Your hand found his and you laced your fingers together.

“I am”. Sy bought his hand to your cheek. “And you’re my wife”.

“We did it Sy. We really got married”. You glanced at the white gold band on his finger that matched your own.

“We did Sugar”. Sy’s fingers ran down your jawline.

“It was perfect”.

“Except for my father’s drunken dance moves”. Sy laughed at the memory. “God how embarrassing”.

“Leave him alone” You smiled. “He enjoyed himself”.

“Yeah he did. Everyone did”. Sy paused, searching your face. He ran his hand down your lace covered arm. “Would you like a drink? There’s an outside spa?”

Your eyes drifted to the outdoor spa, with beautiful views overlooking the city. Sy’s eyes stared into yours and you sensed the unspoken question. He had been so patient, but now alone with you .. his expression was needy. You knew that his patience had reached its limits. He wanted you.

“That sounds nice”. You paused. “Can you help me out of this dress?” Your breath caught in your throat as your mind wandered to all the fantasies you’d had of this night.

“Yeah .. turn around Darling”.

You felt Sy’s hands move gently to your hips before his fingers worked at the pearl buttons that made their way from the back of your neck to your waist. He moved slowly although you could feel the slight tremble of his fingers. You knew how long he’d waited.

Suddenly the fabric shifted off your arms and you clutched it to your chest. You turned to face him, watching his eyes move from your bare back to your face.

“The bathroom is ..” He looked momentarily shocked as you dropped the dress to the floor. You stood in your white lace bra and panties, along with a matching white lace garter belt and stockings. On your feet were your white satin high heels.

“Sugar”. Sy let his eyes wander down your body. “You’re so beautiful baby”.

“You’re still dressed”. You smiled as Sy worked to rid himself of the wedding suit. Soon he was standing in front of you in black boxers. You could see his hard on standing firm against his muscular stomach. God he was every woman’s fantasy.

“Are we? I mean ..” You stammered. “No clothes?”

“Naked? Yes baby .. if you’re comfortable?”

You nodded. He was your husband. You followed him to the spa, his hand linked in yours. You reached behind your body and unclasped your bra. Sy moved to push his shorts down before smiling at you. He got nto the spa slowly and waited for you with his hand outstretched. You stood topless In front of him before unclipping your suspenders.

“You are stunning” Sy whispered as he watched you. Your eyes flickered to his and you sucked in a breath when you saw his massive length. However, with shaky hands you managed to remove your stockings and flimsy white lace panties. Sy’s eyes were on the junction between your legs and you blushed, knowing that you were already wet. You took his hand and moved into the warm water, your back against his front as you both relaxed. He was hard against you but your thoughts were interrupted by his lips on your neck as his fingers undid the clasp that held your soft curls in place.

“You gonna be my wife tonight sugar?” His Texas accent seemed to resonate on your ear.

“Thought I already am?”

“You know what I mean ..” Sy sucked gently on your earlobe. “You gonna let me have you at last?”

“Yes Sy”.

You heard him suck in a breath. He’d been so patient with you, always respecting your boundaries. He knew from the beginning that you wanted to wait until your wedding night, and you knew how hard the wait had been.

“You been such a good girl .. saving yourself for me”. Sy’s hand drifted to your breasts and he rolled one nipple between his fingers. “Ain’t ya?”

“Yes Sy”. You moaned at his touch, thinking about the months he had explored your body without going too far.

“Good girl”. Sy’s hand continued to play with your nipple while his other hand moved in between your legs.

You gasped as he worked your clit before gently easing a finger into you. Up until now, this was as far as you’d let him go.

“Jesus baby you’re so wet” Sy started moving his finger.

“I want you Sy”. You started moving your hips gently and for a minute Sy let you, his hot breath on your neck.

“That’s it love”. Sy sucked on your neck as he pushed another digit into you. He stilled when he heard you gasp.

“Sy .. I don’t think ..” You felt full already. “I can’t”

“Baby let me get you ready for me love. I’m a big boy and I don’t wanna hurt you”. Sy moved his fingers gently. “See? You’re taking it baby. Relax”.

“Oh Sy …” You started rocking your hips. You knew he was much bigger than two fingers but you felt so full.

“That’s my girl .. look at you baby. You’re getting ready for my cock”.

Sy hadn’t spoken to you like that before and you felt your cheeks blush at the same time as your clit throbbed.

“You gonna cum on my fingers sugar?”

“Sy!” His dirty talk shocked and pleased you at once.

“You like it. I feel you clenching sweetheart”. Sy increased his pace. “Let go baby”.

You panted as you moved your hips, a strange coil tightening in your stomach and then it happened - you cried out Sy’s name as you felt your release come over you. You lay back limp against his chest while his fingers worked you through your orgasm. You were vaguely aware that he was scissoring them slightly and you knew that he was trying to prepare you.His lips were at your ear, murmuring praises.

“My good girl. You gonna be my wife now baby? Tell me you want me love .. tell me”.

“I want you Sy” You felt his fingers leave you and you turned around reaching for his cock. Your tiny hand grasped what you could and moved up and down his length.

“Jesus Sugar .. oh fuck that feels so good”.

“Can I taste you?” You felt your cheeks burn but the look on Sy’s face made you want continue. You watched as Sy moved up a step so that he was out of the water. Your knees rested on the lower step as you reached for him at the same time as his hands gathered your hair into a ponytail. He nodded and you lowered your mouth to him for the first time.

“Oh baby .. look at me”.

You glanced up and started to move your head up and down, trying to mimic what your girlfriends had told you. Your hand moved in time with your mouth and you watched Sy throw his head back.

“Fuck”. Sy muttered over and over again. You grew a little bolder and took him in your mouth deeper only to gag slightly. Sy quickly pulled your head up.

“Don’t baby. You’re not used to that yet love”. Sy watched as you released him with a pop. For awhile you used your hand and explored him, loving the sounds he was making.

“Can we go to the bed?”

“Yes love. I’m not taking you in the tub for your first time”. Sy pulled you to him and kissed you passionately. You both stood and Sy wrapped a towel around you so you could dry off before leading you to the bed. Within minutes your moans filled the room.

“Sy oh Sy!”

He was between your legs and you were grinding yourself against his mouth. He prolonged your experience by taking you right to the edge then pulling away and kissing your thighs. This went on for ages and it was the most delicious torture you’d ever felt. Sy was an experienced lover and he was determined to make this enjoyable for you.

He added a finger and you were so close to another release. But before anything happened you felt Sy shift. He was pulling your thighs apart further and moving closer to you, rubbing his cock up and down your slit.

“You ready love?”

“Mmmm yes Sy”. You kissed his lips as he lent forward, tasting yourself on his mouth.

“Love you” He pushed until the head was inside. You squirmed at the invasion but Sy held your hips in place. “I promise it won’t hurt long love”. You felt Sy’s thumb working on your clit as he pushed forward gently. “Breath baby”.

“Sy”. You felt yourself resisting the foreign invasion and Sy stilled, sensing your discomfort. His lips found yours and he kissed you passionately. He was an amazing kisser at the best of times but this kiss literally took your breath away. He sucked on your bottom lip before his tongue found yours.

“Just kiss me. I got all the time in the world love”

“I love you”. You whispered breathlessly.

“I love you too Sugar”. He resumed kissing you, inching forward slightly and taking his time. You were suddenly aware of a sting and you realised that he was at your resistance.

“I love you” Sy repeated before thrusting into you. “Sorry baby”.

You clung to Sy’s neck as you cried out. Your face nuzzled into his jawline as a few tears escaped your eyelids. Sy kept whispering sweet nothings into your ear while keeping completely still and allowing your body to accept him. After a few minutes you felt him slip his hand between your joined bodies as this fingers rubbed circles on your clit. It eased the throb between your legs.

“Sy”. Your voice was a whisper. “You can move”.

“You sure love?”

“No but you have to at some point”.

“Baby ..” Sy kissed your forehead. “It will feel better I promise”.

“Ok”. You felt Sy nudge your nose with his. He thrusted gently and you felt the pain ebb and flow. Again, he was watching your face as his fingers played with your clit. You started to feel pleasure and wetness seep between your parted thighs. “Sy .. oh ..”

“There you go baby”. Sy kissed your lips as he rocked his hips. “You’re started to enjoy it .. I can feel how wet you’re getting”.

“Sy .. oh it feels much better”. You involuntarily rocked your hips against him. You could feel your walls relaxing to accommodate him.

“Your pussy feels so good”. Sy saw you suck in a breath as you pulsed around him. “You like when I talk that way don’t you love?”

“Yes”

“Want more baby girl?” Sy pulled all the way out and plunged back inside as you arched your back. “Good girl .. you’re taking all of me. Jesus this was worth the wait”.

“Keep talking .. Sy .. oh”.

“You feel so good .. fuck”. Sy muttered in between thrusts. “Your pussy feels so good .. so tight. Fuck I’ve waited so long to feel you”.

“Sy oh god”. You felt your walls spasm and felt that familiar feeling again. You could hardly believe you were going to orgasm. Your hands gripped his shoulders and you felt your eyelids grow heavy but then Sy suddenly stopped moving.

“Trust me?”

“Yes” You we’re so close that your walls were already faintly pulsing.

“Roll over”. Sy pulled out slowly and watched as you moved onto your knees. You blushed, realizing he was looking at your ass. “Relax baby”. He gripped your hips and pushed back inside gently. He could feel your walls pulsing again. He felt so different in this position.

“Oh Sy I think I’m going to .. “

Before you could finish, Sy started thrusting into you from behind. Not too hard yet, just long deep strokes.

“Come on my cock Sugar”. Sy held your hips as he picked up his pace. You felt his hands move your ass cheeks open and you knew he was watching.

“Are you looking?” You panted as you turned your head. You couldn’t believe the horror stories you’d heard about other women’s first times - lying on their backs without any pleasure. But here you were on your hands and knees ready to orgasm again.

“Fuck yes. I’m watching your pussy take me. Baby .. best sight I’ve seen. Let me watch you come”.

“Sy ..” Your cheeks burned but you were too close to your release to overthink things.

“Fuck .. oh fuck”.

“Sy!!” You screamed his name loudly as your release hit you hard. You were shaking as you struggled to stay on your arms. You could hear Sy muttering profanities as you fell forward onto your elbows.

“God baby .. you came on my cock. Fuck ..” Sy was thrusting hard. “So wet .. fuck, so wet”

He came shouting your name. You felt his release coat your walls as he collapsed against your back. He ruttered against you for a few moments before pulling out gently. His hand rubbed along your spine, moving upwards to push your hair to the side.

“So good baby .. you were so good”. He kissed your shoulder, rolling you onto your back as he went to retreave a washcloth to clean between your legs. He came back a few minutes later and you watched as he parted your thighs. You saw a sticky mess of your releases and some blood but Sy acted like it was nothing. He cleaned you gently.

“I probably ruined the sheets”.

“Think I care?” Sy smiled at you as he continued to wipe in between your legs.

“No but housekeeping might”.

“I’ve paid for housekeeping”. You watched as Sy took the washcloth to the bathroom. You heard the water go on and you lay there waiting for him. He came back and laid down, pulling you into his arms.

“How was that love?” Sy studied your face. “I didn’t hurt you? I tried to be gentle”.

“You were perfect Sy. How was it for you?”

“You seriously asking me that?” Sy chuckled. “I’ve waited 12 months to have you baby. It was the best thing and even more special because you’re my wife”.

“I wish .. I knew more though .. like how to please you”.

“Baby we have a lifetime to understand each other that way. But I’ll tell you something .. you don’t have to do a good dammed thing and you please me”.

“Love you”. You looked up at him and his lips met yours.

“Love you right back”. Sy paused. “You sore love?”

“Yeah a bit”.

“Well you lay back snd relax ok? Let me take care of you”

Before you could question him he was in between your parted thighs, smiling up at you as his mouth eased your discomfort.

“Sy! You’ve just .. came inside me!”

“Don’t care but if it bothers you I’ll just kiss you here”. Sy sucked on your clit gently.

You relaxed back into the soft fluffy pillow, your hands reaching in between your legs to stroke his hair.

“I could get used to this”.

“Good”. Sy glanced up at you from in between your parted thighs. “Because I’m gonna take care of you forever Sugar”.

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Title - I need a hero

Pairings - Reader x Sy

Summary - Reader is a psychiatrist who’s devoted years to working with soldiers suffering from PTSD. She helped Sy recover and adjust back to life outside of the military. But after the loss of her parents she finds herself on the other side, slowly sinking. She needs a hero.

Warnings - Angst, loss of family

“Love? It’s going to be alright”. Your grandma smoothed back your auburn hair as you lay on the sofa. You were exhausted after the service and your face was sticky from where the tears had dried. You felt her gently remove your shoes from your feet. Her familiar hands softly stroking your calves as she tried to soothe you like she did when you were a child.

“I should be looking after you Nan”. You turned to look at the old woman’s face. “You lost your daughter and your son in law”.

“And you lost your parents sweetheart”. Your grandma wiped her eyes. “No matter how old you are, you’ll always be my grand baby”.

“I love you Nan”.

“I love you more”.

For awhile she just sat near you, occasionally rubbing your lower back, while you both got lost in your own thoughts.

“Why? Nan why?”. You whispered. “Some crazy kid gets high and decides to drive .. ends up killing them. Destroying our entire family with one bad decision”.

“I know sweetheart”. Your grandma paused. “Life just isn’t fair”.

“I’ve lost both of my parents at once”. You cried into the pillow. “One moment and my whole life has changed”.

“I’m here. Grandpa is here too love”.

“You don’t live here. You’ll have to go home soon Nan. I have no other family!” You sucked in a deep breath and instantly felt terrible for voicing your thoughts. You were an adult and you needed to get yourself together.

“We can move darling. Don��t you fret”. Your grandma kissed your head. “You just stop worrying. Grandpa and I can sell the farmhouse …”

“No Nan! I don’t … mum wouldn’t have wanted that”. You sniffed and rubbed your eyes. “You know how mum felt about that farm”.

“She loved you more than some darn farm”.

“Jesus”. You covered your face with your hands. “I need to get myself together. I’m 29 years old for fucks sake!”

“Watch your language sweetheart. You know how I feel about ladies who cuss”.

“Sorry Nan ..I just ..I have to get myself together”.

“No love. You have to grieve, be gentle with yourself. You need time love”. Your Grandma took your face in her old hands. “Now you listen to me love ok? Time .. you need to just let yourself feel all these emotions and you need to heal. You’re not rushing back to life or work .. I won’t allow it you hear me?”

You nodded then jumped when you heard a knock on your door. You got up slowly wondering who it could be? You’d said farewell to the last of your visitors hours ago.

“I wasn’t expecting company”. You glanced at your grandma who slowly made her way over to your door. “Grandpa might have lost his key again?”

A few moments later and you almost did a double take seeing Syverson standing in your living room holding a bouquet of white roses. He was a big man in uniform, but in jeans and a tight fitted t shirt he looked even bigger.

“Sy?” You noticed that your grandma disappeared into the kitchen. “What are you ..”

“Heard about the accident”. Sy slowly held the flowers out to you. “I just .. needed to see you. I wanted to tell you how sorry I was and .. well I just needed to check on you”.

You took the flowers and immediately bought them to your nose. Their aroma was heavenly.

“Thank you Sy”.

“Heard the service was this morning”.

“Yes”.

“I’m sorry”. Sy glanced at his feet for a moment. “I’m not good with words”.

“It’s ok .. I don’t feel like talking”.

“Right .. well I’ll get out of your hair”. He turned to leave but stopped when you spoke.

“Didnt say i wanted you to go”.

“You don’t?”

“No i just .. I’m a complete mess right now and ..”

Before you could continue Sy grabbed hold of your shoulders and pulled you close against his chest. One hand held your back while the other rested against your head.

“We’ll you’re allowed to be a mess Sugar”.

“I’m not used to being like this .. I’m normally ..”

“Dealing with head cases like myself?”

“You’ve never been a headcase”.

“You’re a bad liar”. Sy chuckled. “I was so fucked up. You helped me and … I’d like to help you”.

“Sy ..”

“No you just listen ok? I’m here for you. I’m not ..in the Military now. I’m back home and there’s no professional red tape .. it’s just me”.

“I’m not used to accepting help .. I just spent the morning pushing my friends away”. You glanced up at Sy.

“Well we’re not just friends are we? Don’t know what we are .. You were my psychiatrist. Does it even fucking matter? Just … let your guard down”.

Your grandma appeared with a tray of tea and freshly baked cookies. She smiled softly as Sy moved to take the tray from her.

“Oh thank you dear. I’m the grandma”.

“Syverson … but Sy is just fine”. Sy smiled warmly. “I just wanted to pay my respects. I’m real sorry for your loss Mam. Your granddaughter here helped me a lot … I’m ex military”.

“Thank you dear”. Your grandma paused. “I’m glad she helped you and thank you for your service”.

“You’re welcome Mam”.

“Darling are you ok if I head on out? Your grandpa just bought the car around. We’re going fo a bit of a drive .. just need to get some fresh air after this morning. That is if you’ll be ok here with Sy?”

You eyed your grandmother suspiciously but nodded before walking over to the window and checking for your grandfathers car. When you saw him you waved.

“Ok grandma. I’ll see you a bit later on?”

“Of course love”.

You felt the warmth of your grandmothers arms before you walked her to the door. You smiled at Sy as you passed him and told him to sit down on your lounge area.

“He’s a lovely young man”.

“Grandma please!” You rolled your eyes as she closed the door behind herself. You took a moment and rested your forehead against the door, smiling to yourself. Your grandma really was the sweetest woman.

“I’m back”. You sat down in the sofa next to Sy and immediately tucked your legs in. He handed you a cup of tea and you thanked him before bringing the mug to your lips.

“This is good tea”. Sy commented.

“Yeah Nan knows her tea”. You smiled and pointed at the cookies. “Try those. They’re her famous sugar cookies. Normally she makes them on Christmas but … she knows how much I love them”.

“Your Nan lives by?” Sy stuffed a cookie into his mouth. “These are amazing by the way”.

“My grandparents live on a farm .. a few hours drive. They’ve lived there since before I was born”.

“Other family?”

“My mum was an only child. My Dad had a younger brother but he died when he was young”. You paused. “My dads parents passed away when I was a baby”.

“Right .. well your lucky to have your two lovely grandparents”. Sy smiled. “And visiting their farm every now and then would be nice … get away from the busy city life”.

“Yeah ..” You swallowed the lump in your throat. “I just .. feel so odd right now. Like I’m scared of being alone”.

“Hey”. Sy moved closer. “That’s not odd and you’re not alone”.

“I’m a mess”. You breathed in deeply.

“You’re allowed to be”. Sy reached for your hand. “You’re used to dealing with head cases like myself … sometimes you’re going to be in a position where you’re not so strong yourself”.

“Sy thank you”. You studied his face. “For the visit and the flowers .. it was really nice of you. But trust me I’ll be ok. I just need some time to process things .. but then I .. well I’ll be back at work”.

“You really have no idea ..” Sy scratched his head. “Your boss won’t give you time off?”

“No my boss has been great. He told me to take leave ..”

“Then do it. Take your time .. I don’t .. I don’t start work for a few weeks?”

“What are you saying?” You were confused. You watched him fidget with the rim of his mug.

“If you don’t mind company … I’d like to spend time with you”

“Spend time with me?” You chewed on your bottom lip. “With me?”

“Yeah .. you’d be doing me a favor too. Otherwise I’d just be wasting my time tinkering with some old motorbikes I’ve got lying around”. Sy smiled at you. “So what do you say?”

“Ok?” You stammered. “I might not be the best company though?”

“I might not be either”.

“I’ve just .. well .. my parents just died”. You blurted out.

“And I’ve just started sleeping at night. Some nights I still wake up screaming”. Sy stared at you. “You helped me. Let me .. let me be there please?”

The weeks that followed bought you many things - peace, closure and friendship. You shared many days and nights with Sy and when you were feeling down he’d always call you. A few times you fell asleep to the sound of his voice at night.

One night he’d opened up to you while you cuddled up in your bed, phone rested against you ear. He told you about the things he saw during his time in the military that still haunted him and admitted to you that he’d wrote a letter to his parents that he kept in his bag - just in case he never made it home.

More weeks past and you noticed a shift between you both. You smiled more. You eyes seemed to hold his gaze. Talking about your parents didn’t make you sob uncontrollably - yes you were still heartbroken, but Sy was encouraging you to do some of the things your parents enjoyed doing. So you did - you read your mum’s book collection, took Sy along the hiking trails your Dad used to walk on, went fishing on the lake and started following your mum’s cake receipes with your Nan.

One day you were mixing the batter of your mums famous chocolate cake with your grandma in the kitchen when it suddenly dawned on you..

“Nan I think I’ll be ok if you and grandpa head back to the farm”.

“Love I told you before ..”

“Nan I’m ok”. You paused. “It’s not the same but you were right … I needed this time. What happened has been a lot to process”.

“Sy has been a big help”. Your grandma smiled softly. “He’s a lovely man”.

“Yeah he is”.

“Love … do you like him?”

“Sy? Oh .. I used to help him .. it’s complicated”.

“Why is it complicated?”

“Well … he’s just .. trying to help because I helped him you know?” You avoided your grandmas gaze as you spooned the batter into the greased pan. “He’s just a nice guy that’s all”.

“You think that’s he’s been hanging around for the past 6 weeks just because he owed you a favour?”

“Nan …”

“Sweetie … I think he’s a lovely young man. And maybe yes that was his original intention, but I think things have changed. I may be old but I see the way he looks at you”.

“Oh Nan ..”

“And you look at him the same way”.

You paused and looked up at the old woman’s smiling face. You smiled then rolled your eyes.

“Nan I’m not ready .. I just lost mum and dad”.

“You think there’s a time? I met your grandfather the same day the neighbours son kissed me. I didn’t like him at all. Your grandfather was helping to build the farm across from us and saw me upset. We got talking and the rest is history”.

“I never new that!” You laughed. “The neighbors son kissed you?”

“Roger”. Your grandma shook her head. “Nice enough boy but there was no … chemistry there. So what I’m trying to say is that I know those looks love. I can see it”.

You sighed and put the cake into the oven. You knew better than to argue with your grandmother.

“I’m sure he’s … taken. Maybe he has someone … maybe long distance since he’s moved a lot”. You blurted out.

“Has someone?” Your grandmother laughed. “Love .. you think he’d be spending all this time with you if he had someone else he was sweet on?”

“Maybe he’s not looking Nan .. he’s been through a lot. Leaving the army, moving back here .. starting a new job”.

“Quit making excuses sweetie! Just see what happens! Open that beautiful heart of yours”. Your grandma hugged you.

“Ok ok”. You relaxed into her embrace. “Promise me you’ll go back to the farm please? I’m so grateful to you both but I’m navigating things. I’m ok Nan”. You held her gaze until she smiled and the little wrinkles around her eyes deepened. She nodded and you hugged her again.

You decided to frost your cake and take it to Sy’s as a surprise. He didn’t know that you were coming but you hoped that he would be home. You saw his truck so quickly rang the bell holding the cake platter in front of you. The smile on your face faded when a woman opened the door.

“Uh hello? Can I help you?” The blonde smiled warmly but your stomach turned into knots. She was stunning.

“Oh I .. I was just ..” You suddenly felt light headed. How stupid could you have been? He was just being polite. He had someone he was dating. He just wanted to repay you for helping him .. like you were some long overdue debt.

“Were you after Sy?”

“Here”. You shoved the cake into the blondes hands. “Enjoy that. I baked it .. god knows why I showed up here with a stupid fucking cake anyway”.

“Whoa!” The blonde tried to reach for your arm. “Hey, I’ll just ..”

“I’ve got to go”. You quickly rushed to your car, ignoring the woman’s feeble attempts to explain .. whatever the situation was. You felt incredibly stupid knowing that you’d interrupted Sy. Or was it more? Your face burned and your heart hammered against your chest. No it was defiantly more. You felt jealous too. You quickly started your car knowing that you needed to get away fast but your hands were shaking.

“Hey!”

You glanced up in horror as Sy rushed towards your car after talking with the blonde. If you weren’t already mortified enough ..

Suddenly your car door was opened and Sy was bending down to look at you. You reached for the door but he had wedged his leg inside.

“I have to go”.

“Get out of the bloody car”.

You looked up when you heard his tone. He sounded pissed.

“Sy I have to go”.

“I said get out”. Sy moved to unfasten your seat belt. “I aint asking again”.

“I’m going home”.

“Not until you meet Becky”.

You looked at him is disgust. So her name was Becky? Did he enjoy seeing you in such discomfort?

“I don’t think ..”

“My sister Becky”. Sy raised his eyebrow at you and motioned for you to get out. “Seems like you didn’t really get introduced before”.

“Your sister?” Your face burned. “She’s your sister?”

“My baby sister yes”. Sy held open the door as you struggled to get out. Your arms instantly wrapped around your body as you glanced to where the blonde stood holding your chocolate cake. You were so embarrassed when she waved at you hesitantly.

“She stopped by … she’s here for the weekend”. Sy scratched his neck. “College break”.

“Oh I .. “

“You thought she was a girl I picked up?”

“No .. I mean …”

“You did”.

“I just .. I thought I was interrupting”. You stared at the ground.

“I would have told you if I was seeing someone”.

“Well I .. I just .. god Sy what do you want me to say?”

“How bout why you’re here dropping off a cake?” Sy held your gaze. “Why you got so upset seeing Becky here? And don’t go telling me some god dammed excuse that you thought you we’re interrupting ..”

“I .. baked a cake. And I .. thought of you”. You wiped your sweaty palms on your dress wishing the earth would open up and swallow you.

“Why’d you go thinking of me?”

“Sy ..”

“Tell me”.

“I just .. I thought ..”

“Just tell me”. Sy grabbed hold of your shoulders.

You sucked in a breath and glanced in Beckys direction. You watched as she took the cake and walked inside.

“Im scared Sy .. I can’t”.

“Why not?”

“Because I don’t know how … and then so much has happening you know?”

“I can stand here all day”. Sy’s voice was almost rough as his eyes pleaded with you.

“Why .. I mean why have you been there for me lately? Is it because of your time in the army? Some idea that you needed to repay me?” You sucked in a breath.

“Is that what you think?”

“I .. I don’t know Sy. I don’t want to read more into it”.

“I’m not playing that game”. Sy let go of your shoulders and took a step back. Your insides churned immediately. “I asked you .. don’t turn the tables”.

“Sy”

“I made it darn obvious. Now you tell me why you’re at my door looking all pretty in your floral dress, holding out a cake that you know that I’ll love”. Sy paused. “Tell me .. I’m not asking you again”.

“You made it obvious? Didn’t I just make it obvious too? I haven’t just rocked up here for no good reason now have i? And this dress ..” you touched the fabric with your hands. “It’s new! So I obviously wore it because .. well I thought you’d like it”.

“Say it!” Sy grabbed your face with both hands. “For fuck’s sake woman just say it!”

“I want you! There you go I said it!” Your eyes filled with tears. “But I’m scared you don’t want me! And I’m scared that you’ll think I’m a headcase who’s just lost her parents and now is looking to fill that hole!”.

“There you go”. Sy smiled softly. “I really needed to hear you say it … been losing my mind”

“Do you? Do you feel the same?”

“You really have to ask me that?”. Sy smiled then shook his head. “Love, I’ve been infactuated by you the moment I first saw you. But I could never do anything about it”. Sy touched your cheek. “Wouldnt have been appropriate since you were working for the army”.

“You always liked me?”

“Course I did .. you’re god dammed beautiful and so smart. Thought you were way too good for me though”. Sy inched closer to you and your hands immediately gripped into his t shirt, pulling him towards you.

“Kiss me Sy”. You whispered.

“Was planning to”.

Next thing you felt his lips on yours. They were warm and full, and as he opened his mouth he tasted like mint and sugar. You felt your head spin, your heart beat fast and you were certain that you’d bent your knee - just like they did in old fashioned movies. Sy had ruined you with just one kiss. Suddenly you felt him break away, inhale deeply then kiss you again. This time was different. He had you backed up against your car, his large frame trapping you in a way that made your legs turn to jelly. His hands gripped the sides of your floral dress, pulling your body so flush against him that you could feel every muscle.

“Sy”. You moaned you broke apart for air.

“Can’t wait till you’re fucking screaming my name”. Sy groaned into your neck. “But I think I should date you for a bit first, where are my manners?”. Sy looked at you, a smirk on his face.

“I’d like that”.

“Me dating you or you screaming my name?”

“Sy!!” You playfully pushed against his chest but he quickly grabbed at your thighs and you instinctively jumped up, wrapping them around his waist. He turned to reverse your positions, with him now leaning up against your car.

“Why did we wait so long to do this?”

“I don’t know”.

“You gonna be my girl Sugar?” Sy suddenly asked you as he raised an eyebrow.

“Yes”. You couldn’t help the smile that broke out on your face. “Sy?”

“Yeah?”

“Mum and Dad would have really liked you”.

“I’m sure I would have liked them even more”. Sy brushed a strand of hair out of your face. “And I know that because they made such a beautiful daughter who I have fallen for”.

“I feel like these past few weeks you have gotten to know them”.

“I have”. Sy smiled. “I know all your dads hiking trails and his favourite places to fish. I know your mum was an incredible cook and I’ve enjoyed rewatching some of her favorite movies with you”. Sy’s hands gripped your ass even closer to him and you bumped your nose against his.

“You know what we have to do now?”

“I can think of a few things?” Sy smirked but waited patiently for you to finish.

“I think .. you need to try my cake. And I think ..” you kissed his lips. “I need to say hello to your sister?”

“Yes to both of those but right now I wanna kiss you some more”.

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[samaraj]

Title - I need a hero

Pairings - Reader x Sy

Summary - Reader is a psychiatrist who’s devoted years to working with soldiers suffering from PTSD. She helped Sy recover and adjust back to life outside of the military. But after the loss of her parents she finds herself on the other side, slowly sinking. She needs a hero.

Warnings - Angst, loss of family

“Love? It’s going to be alright”. Your grandma smoothed back your auburn hair as you lay on the sofa. You were exhausted after the service and your face was sticky from where the tears had dried. You felt her gently remove your shoes from your feet. Her familiar hands softly stroking your calves as she tried to soothe you like she did when you were a child.

“I should be looking after you Nan”. You turned to look at the old woman’s face. “You lost your daughter and your son in law”.

“And you lost your parents sweetheart”. Your grandma wiped her eyes. “No matter how old you are, you’ll always be my grand baby”.

“I love you Nan”.

“I love you more”.

For awhile she just sat near you, occasionally rubbing your lower back, while you both got lost in your own thoughts.

“Why? Nan why?”. You whispered. “Some crazy kid gets high and decides to drive .. ends up killing them. Destroying our entire family with one bad decision”.

“I know sweetheart”. Your grandma paused. “Life just isn’t fair”.

“I’ve lost both of my parents at once”. You cried into the pillow. “One moment and my whole life has changed”.

“I’m here. Grandpa is here too love”.

“You don’t live here. You’ll have to go home soon Nan. I have no other family!” You sucked in a deep breath and instantly felt terrible for voicing your thoughts. You were an adult and you needed to get yourself together.

“We can move darling. Don’t you fret”. Your grandma kissed your head. “You just stop worrying. Grandpa and I can sell the farmhouse …”

“No Nan! I don’t … mum wouldn’t have wanted that”. You sniffed and rubbed your eyes. “You know how mum felt about that farm”.

“She loved you more than some darn farm”.

“Jesus”. You covered your face with your hands. “I need to get myself together. I’m 29 years old for fucks sake!”

“Watch your language sweetheart. You know how I feel about ladies who cuss”.

“Sorry Nan ..I just ..I have to get myself together”.

“No love. You have to grieve, be gentle with yourself. You need time love”. Your Grandma took your face in her old hands. “Now you listen to me love ok? Time .. you need to just let yourself feel all these emotions and you need to heal. You’re not rushing back to life or work .. I won’t allow it you hear me?”

You nodded then jumped when you heard a knock on your door. You got up slowly wondering who it could be? You’d said farewell to the last of your visitors hours ago.

“I wasn’t expecting company”. You glanced at your grandma who slowly made her way over to your door. “Grandpa might have lost his key again?”

A few moments later and you almost did a double take seeing Syverson standing in your living room holding a bouquet of white roses. He was a big man in uniform, but in jeans and a tight fitted t shirt he looked even bigger.

“Sy?” You noticed that your grandma disappeared into the kitchen. “What are you ..”

“Heard about the accident”. Sy slowly held the flowers out to you. “I just .. needed to see you. I wanted to tell you how sorry I was and .. well I just needed to check on you”.

You took the flowers and immediately bought them to your nose. Their aroma was heavenly.

“Thank you Sy”.

“Heard the service was this morning”.

“Yes”.

“I’m sorry”. Sy glanced at his feet for a moment. “I’m not good with words”.

“It’s ok .. I don’t feel like talking”.

“Right .. well I’ll get out of your hair”. He turned to leave but stopped when you spoke.

“Didnt say i wanted you to go”.

“You don’t?”

“No i just .. I’m a complete mess right now and ..”

Before you could continue Sy grabbed hold of your shoulders and pulled you close against his chest. One hand held your back while the other rested against your head.

“We’ll you’re allowed to be a mess Sugar”.

“I’m not used to being like this .. I’m normally ..”

“Dealing with head cases like myself?”

“You’ve never been a headcase”.

“You’re a bad liar”. Sy chuckled. “I was so fucked up. You helped me and … I’d like to help you”.

“Sy ..”

“No you just listen ok? I’m here for you. I’m not ..in the Military now. I’m back home and there’s no professional red tape .. it’s just me”.

“I’m not used to accepting help .. I just spent the morning pushing my friends away”. You glanced up at Sy.

“Well we’re not just friends are we? Don’t know what we are .. You were my psychiatrist. Does it even fucking matter? Just … let your guard down”.

Your grandma appeared with a tray of tea and freshly baked cookies. She smiled softly as Sy moved to take the tray from her.

“Oh thank you dear. I’m the grandma”.

“Syverson … but Sy is just fine”. Sy smiled warmly. “I just wanted to pay my respects. I’m real sorry for your loss Mam. Your granddaughter here helped me a lot … I’m ex military”.

“Thank you dear”. Your grandma paused. “I’m glad she helped you and thank you for your service”.

“You’re welcome Mam”.

“Darling are you ok if I head on out? Your grandpa just bought the car around. We’re going fo a bit of a drive .. just need to get some fresh air after this morning. That is if you’ll be ok here with Sy?”

You eyed your grandmother suspiciously but nodded before walking over to the window and checking for your grandfathers car. When you saw him you waved.

“Ok grandma. I’ll see you a bit later on?”

“Of course love”.

You felt the warmth of your grandmothers arms before you walked her to the door. You smiled at Sy as you passed him and told him to sit down on your lounge area.

“He’s a lovely young man”.

“Grandma please!” You rolled your eyes as she closed the door behind herself. You took a moment and rested your forehead against the door, smiling to yourself. Your grandma really was the sweetest woman.

“I’m back”. You sat down in the sofa next to Sy and immediately tucked your legs in. He handed you a cup of tea and you thanked him before bringing the mug to your lips.

“This is good tea”. Sy commented.

“Yeah Nan knows her tea”. You smiled and pointed at the cookies. “Try those. They’re her famous sugar cookies. Normally she makes them on Christmas but … she knows how much I love them”.

“Your Nan lives by?” Sy stuffed a cookie into his mouth. “These are amazing by the way”.

“My grandparents live on a farm .. a few hours drive. They’ve lived there since before I was born”.

“Other family?”

“My mum was an only child. My Dad had a younger brother but he died when he was young”. You paused. “My dads parents passed away when I was a baby”.

“Right .. well your lucky to have your two lovely grandparents”. Sy smiled. “And visiting their farm every now and then would be nice … get away from the busy city life”.

“Yeah ..” You swallowed the lump in your throat. “I just .. feel so odd right now. Like I’m scared of being alone”.

“Hey”. Sy moved closer. “That’s not odd and you’re not alone”.

“I’m a mess”. You breathed in deeply.

“You’re allowed to be”. Sy reached for your hand. “You’re used to dealing with head cases like myself … sometimes you’re going to be in a position where you’re not so strong yourself”.

“Sy thank you”. You studied his face. “For the visit and the flowers .. it was really nice of you. But trust me I’ll be ok. I just need some time to process things .. but then I .. well I’ll be back at work”.

“You really have no idea ..” Sy scratched his head. “Your boss won’t give you time off?”

“No my boss has been great. He told me to take leave ..”

“Then do it. Take your time .. I don’t .. I don’t start work for a few weeks?”

“What are you saying?” You were confused. You watched him fidget with the rim of his mug.

“If you don’t mind company … I’d like to spend time with you”

“Spend time with me?” You chewed on your bottom lip. “With me?”

“Yeah .. you’d be doing me a favor too. Otherwise I’d just be wasting my time tinkering with some old motorbikes I’ve got lying around”. Sy smiled at you. “So what do you say?”

“Ok?” You stammered. “I might not be the best company though?”

“I might not be either”.

“I’ve just .. well .. my parents just died”. You blurted out.

“And I’ve just started sleeping at night. Some nights I still wake up screaming”. Sy stared at you. “You helped me. Let me .. let me be there please?”

The weeks that followed bought you many things - peace, closure and friendship. You shared many days and nights with Sy and when you were feeling down he’d always call you. A few times you fell asleep to the sound of his voice at night.

One night he’d opened up to you while you cuddled up in your bed, phone rested against you ear. He told you about the things he saw during his time in the military that still haunted him and admitted to you that he’d wrote a letter to his parents that he kept in his bag - just in case he never made it home.

More weeks past and you noticed a shift between you both. You smiled more. You eyes seemed to hold his gaze. Talking about your parents didn’t make you sob uncontrollably - yes you were still heartbroken, but Sy was encouraging you to do some of the things your parents enjoyed doing. So you did - you read your mum’s book collection, took Sy along the hiking trails your Dad used to walk on, went fishing on the lake and started following your mum’s cake receipes with your Nan.

One day you were mixing the batter of your mums famous chocolate cake with your grandma in the kitchen when it suddenly dawned on you..

“Nan I think I’ll be ok if you and grandpa head back to the farm”.

“Love I told you before ..”

“Nan I’m ok”. You paused. “It’s not the same but you were right … I needed this time. What happened has been a lot to process”.

“Sy has been a big help”. Your grandma smiled softly. “He’s a lovely man”.

“Yeah he is”.

“Love … do you like him?”

“Sy? Oh .. I used to help him .. it’s complicated”.

“Why is it complicated?”

“Well … he’s just .. trying to help because I helped him you know?” You avoided your grandmas gaze as you spooned the batter into the greased pan. “He’s just a nice guy that’s all”.

“You think that’s he’s been hanging around for the past 6 weeks just because he owed you a favour?”

“Nan …”

“Sweetie … I think he’s a lovely young man. And maybe yes that was his original intention, but I think things have changed. I may be old but I see the way he looks at you”.

“Oh Nan ..”

“And you look at him the same way”.

You paused and looked up at the old woman’s smiling face. You smiled then rolled your eyes.

“Nan I’m not ready .. I just lost mum and dad”.

“You think there’s a time? I met your grandfather the same day the neighbours son kissed me. I didn’t like him at all. Your grandfather was helping to build the farm across from us and saw me upset. We got talking and the rest is history”.

“I never new that!” You laughed. “The neighbors son kissed you?”

“Roger”. Your grandma shook her head. “Nice enough boy but there was no … chemistry there. So what I’m trying to say is that I know those looks love. I can see it”.

You sighed and put the cake into the oven. You knew better than to argue with your grandmother.

“I’m sure he’s … taken. Maybe he has someone … maybe long distance since he’s moved a lot”. You blurted out.

“Has someone?” Your grandmother laughed. “Love .. you think he’d be spending all this time with you if he had someone else he was sweet on?”

“Maybe he’s not looking Nan .. he’s been through a lot. Leaving the army, moving back here .. starting a new job”.

“Quit making excuses sweetie! Just see what happens! Open that beautiful heart of yours”. Your grandma hugged you.

“Ok ok”. You relaxed into her embrace. “Promise me you’ll go back to the farm please? I’m so grateful to you both but I’m navigating things. I’m ok Nan”. You held her gaze until she smiled and the little wrinkles around her eyes deepened. She nodded and you hugged her again.

You decided to frost your cake and take it to Sy’s as a surprise. He didn’t know that you were coming but you hoped that he would be home. You saw his truck so quickly rang the bell holding the cake platter in front of you. The smile on your face faded when a woman opened the door.

“Uh hello? Can I help you?” The blonde smiled warmly but your stomach turned into knots. She was stunning.

“Oh I .. I was just ..” You suddenly felt light headed. How stupid could you have been? He was just being polite. He had someone he was dating. He just wanted to repay you for helping him .. like you were some long overdue debt.

“Were you after Sy?”

“Here”. You shoved the cake into the blondes hands. “Enjoy that. I baked it .. god knows why I showed up here with a stupid fucking cake anyway”.

“Whoa!” The blonde tried to reach for your arm. “Hey, I’ll just ..”

“I’ve got to go”. You quickly rushed to your car, ignoring the woman’s feeble attempts to explain .. whatever the situation was. You felt incredibly stupid knowing that you’d interrupted Sy. Or was it more? Your face burned and your heart hammered against your chest. No it was defiantly more. You felt jealous too. You quickly started your car knowing that you needed to get away fast but your hands were shaking.

“Hey!”

You glanced up in horror as Sy rushed towards your car after talking with the blonde. If you weren’t already mortified enough ..

Suddenly your car door was opened and Sy was bending down to look at you. You reached for the door but he had wedged his leg inside.

“I have to go”.

“Get out of the bloody car”.

You looked up when you heard his tone. He sounded pissed.

“Sy I have to go”.

“I said get out”. Sy moved to unfasten your seat belt. “I aint asking again”.

“I’m going home”.

“Not until you meet Becky”.

You looked at him is disgust. So her name was Becky? Did he enjoy seeing you in such discomfort?

“I don’t think ..”

“My sister Becky”. Sy raised his eyebrow at you and motioned for you to get out. “Seems like you didn’t really get introduced before”.

“Your sister?” Your face burned. “She’s your sister?”

“My baby sister yes”. Sy held open the door as you struggled to get out. Your arms instantly wrapped around your body as you glanced to where the blonde stood holding your chocolate cake. You were so embarrassed when she waved at you hesitantly.

“She stopped by … she’s here for the weekend”. Sy scratched his neck. “College break”.

“Oh I .. “

“You thought she was a girl I picked up?”

“No .. I mean …”

“You did”.

“I just .. I thought I was interrupting”. You stared at the ground.

“I would have told you if I was seeing someone”.

“Well I .. I just .. god Sy what do you want me to say?”

“How bout why you’re here dropping off a cake?” Sy held your gaze. “Why you got so upset seeing Becky here? And don’t go telling me some god dammed excuse that you thought you we’re interrupting ..”

“I .. baked a cake. And I .. thought of you”. You wiped your sweaty palms on your dress wishing the earth would open up and swallow you.

“Why’d you go thinking of me?”

“Sy ..”

“Tell me”.

“I just .. I thought ..”

“Just tell me”. Sy grabbed hold of your shoulders.

You sucked in a breath and glanced in Beckys direction. You watched as she took the cake and walked inside.

“Im scared Sy .. I can’t”.

“Why not?”

“Because I don’t know how … and then so much has happening you know?”

“I can stand here all day”. Sy’s voice was almost rough as his eyes pleaded with you.

“Why .. I mean why have you been there for me lately? Is it because of your time in the army? Some idea that you needed to repay me?” You sucked in a breath.

“Is that what you think?”

“I .. I don’t know Sy. I don’t want to read more into it”.

“I’m not playing that game”. Sy let go of your shoulders and took a step back. Your insides churned immediately. “I asked you .. don’t turn the tables”.

“Sy”

“I made it darn obvious. Now you tell me why you’re at my door looking all pretty in your floral dress, holding out a cake that you know that I’ll love”. Sy paused. “Tell me .. I’m not asking you again”.

“You made it obvious? Didn’t I just make it obvious too? I haven’t just rocked up here for no good reason now have i? And this dress ..” you touched the fabric with your hands. “It’s new! So I obviously wore it because .. well I thought you’d like it”.

“Say it!” Sy grabbed your face with both hands. “For fuck’s sake woman just say it!”

“I want you! There you go I said it!” Your eyes filled with tears. “But I’m scared you don’t want me! And I’m scared that you’ll think I’m a headcase who’s just lost her parents and now is looking to fill that hole!”.

“There you go”. Sy smiled softly. “I really needed to hear you say it … been losing my mind”

“Do you? Do you feel the same?”

“You really have to ask me that?”. Sy smiled then shook his head. “Love, I’ve been infactuated by you the moment I first saw you. But I could never do anything about it”. Sy touched your cheek. “Wouldnt have been appropriate since you were working for the army”.

“You always liked me?”

“Course I did .. you’re god dammed beautiful and so smart. Thought you were way too good for me though”. Sy inched closer to you and your hands immediately gripped into his t shirt, pulling him towards you.

“Kiss me Sy”. You whispered.

“Was planning to”.

Next thing you felt his lips on yours. They were warm and full, and as he opened his mouth he tasted like mint and sugar. You felt your head spin, your heart beat fast and you were certain that you’d bent your knee - just like they did in old fashioned movies. Sy had ruined you with just one kiss. Suddenly you felt him break away, inhale deeply then kiss you again. This time was different. He had you backed up against your car, his large frame trapping you in a way that made your legs turn to jelly. His hands gripped the sides of your floral dress, pulling your body so flush against him that you could feel every muscle.

“Sy”. You moaned you broke apart for air.

“Can’t wait till you’re fucking screaming my name”. Sy groaned into your neck. “But I think I should date you for a bit first, where are my manners?”. Sy looked at you, a smirk on his face.

“I’d like that”.

“Me dating you or you screaming my name?”

“Sy!!” You playfully pushed against his chest but he quickly grabbed at your thighs and you instinctively jumped up, wrapping them around his waist. He turned to reverse your positions, with him now leaning up against your car.

“Why did we wait so long to do this?”

“I don’t know”.

“You gonna be my girl Sugar?” Sy suddenly asked you as he raised an eyebrow.

“Yes”. You couldn’t help the smile that broke out on your face. “Sy?”

“Yeah?”

“Mum and Dad would have really liked you”.

“I’m sure I would have liked them even more”. Sy brushed a strand of hair out of your face. “And I know that because they made such a beautiful daughter who I have fallen for”.

“I feel like these past few weeks you have gotten to know them”.

“I have”. Sy smiled. “I know all your dads hiking trails and his favourite places to fish. I know your mum was an incredible cook and I’ve enjoyed rewatching some of her favorite movies with you”. Sy’s hands gripped your ass even closer to him and you bumped your nose against his.

“You know what we have to do now?”

“I can think of a few things?” Sy smirked but waited patiently for you to finish.

“I think .. you need to try my cake. And I think ..” you kissed his lips. “I need to say hello to your sister?”

“Yes to both of those but right now I wanna kiss you some more”.

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Title - Making Waves

Pairings - Reader x Sy

Warnings - Smut

Summary - Reader and Sy have flirted with each other for months, but she’s tired of their games. He’s back from deployment and she’s determined to catch his eye at the party celebrations. A woman on a mission - armed with the skimpiest bikini she can find.

You knew that you looked good. Hell, hours of waxing, make up and styling were so worth it right now as you watched Sy study your every move. He was standing by the grill chatting to his friends that were busy cooking, but his eyes kept a watch on you. You were sitting on one of those pool deck chairs alongside your best friend Lacey. She knew about you plan and was carefully giving you instructions from behind the magazine she was pretending to read.

“Is he still looking?” You could imagine the grin on your friend’s face.

“He hasn’t taken his eyes off me”. You pushed the over sized sunglasses up on top of your head while you stretched out your long tanned legs. “When should I take this dress off? He’s literally going to pass out when he sees this bikini”.

“You have to wait till most of the people go! You need to get a bit more private time with him!” Lacey giggled. “Rub your legs a bit, maybe give him a tease?”

“Oh right”. You rubbed at you calves then shifted slightly. But not before chewing on your bottom lip, looking Sy straight in the eye and opening your thighs - just enough to give him a quick glimpse at your red string bikini bottoms covering your most private of places.

“What’s happening?”

“I just flashed the captain”. You tried not to laugh as Sy choked on his beer. You knew he saw right between your legs. You watched as Lacey peeked over her magazine.

“Shit! Is he ok?”

“I think so .. don’t think he was expecting that”. You smirked at your friend but wondered if you’d gone too far? You were really teasing Sy today.

A few hours past and most of the people had left and Sy was busy helping to pack up. You decided it was now or never. After some encouragement from Lacey and two glasses of wine, you stood up and pulled your black dress off. Sy was sitting on the edge of the pool taking a break with his legs in the water. His eyes grew wide as he watched you walk towards the pool in your skimpy excuse for a swimsuit. You’d never worn a thong before so you made sure to turn around, pretending to talk to lacey, knowing that Sy would get a good view of your ass. You casually got in the pool, as Sy’s mouth dropped open.

The water was cool and your nipples instantly hardened as you went under the water to wet your hair. When you surfaced you saw Sy strip off his shirt and jump in. Your heart beat like crazy. He had a body that made your mouth water.

“Hey Sugar”. Sy came up out of the water with droplets falling off his beard. “Where’d you get that bikini from?”

“Why? Do you like it Captain?”

“You been teasing me all day”. Sy followed you to the pools edge as you leaned up against the step.

“Have I?”

“Quit playing Sugar. Are you trying to kill me?”

“Dunno .. I’ve been teasing you for a long time. I don’t think you’re interested”. You chewed on your bottom lip as you tried to play it cool.

“Not interested? Why would you think that?”

“You never do anything about it”. You watched as Sy sucked in a breath. “I have needs Captain. If you don’t want me, I’m sure that I can find one of your men to satisfy me”.

“Hey!” Sy suddenly grabbed your hips, pulling you to him. Your breath caught in your throat at the close proximity. “You want to be satisfied huh? You think one of those guys could do a better job than me?”

“I’m tired of playing Sy …” You paused as his breath mingled with yours. His scent was intoxicating. You breathed in his unique aroma of sweat, mint and spice. “If you want me, you’d better show me”. Time stood still as you stayed like that - his hands on your hips and your faces mere inches from each other.

“Ok Sugar ..”

Before you could react, Sy was kissing your neck. Your eyes darted to Lacey who quickly packed her bag and grabbed the two remaining guys, ushering them away from the pool area. Alone at last. The thought was thrilling yet slightly scary considering it was a public place.

Sy’s lips found yours and he coaxed your mouth open as his tongue slipped inside. He tasted like beer and mint .. You were instantly wet.

“Watch”. His tone was gruff and commanding.

You looked at Sy as he kissed down your neck to your cleavage. His hands pushed down your bikini top, exposing your breasts. His tongue flicked out and he bent down to lick your nipple while his fingers tweaked the opposite one. You moaned but then cried out as he engulfed your breast and sucked on it. You couldn’t believe the noises he was making - groaning into your skin then slurping at your breast. He alternated sides and you grabbed his head, urging him for more. He moved away and released your breast with a pop as he looked up at you.

“So fucking sexy”. Sy’s monster cock was pressed against you and you noticed that he was moving slightly to get some friction. “I can’t wait”

“You wanna .. here?”

“I need to fuck you”

“What if .. someone sees? Do you want to go to ..”

“I can’t wait .. don’t make me wait Sugar”.

“You sure? I mean … you sure it’s ok here?” You swallowed. “I don’t want anyone watching”.

“You think any of those guys would risk getting on my bad side?”

You looked around and decided to take the chance so you nodded at Sy. His hands quickly freed his cock from his shorts and made their way to your bikini bottoms, tugging them down. Your eyes bulged when you saw how big he was .. all the rumors were obviously true.

He sat you on the step as he stood in between your legs. His eyes stared at your pussy as he moved his fingers between your open thighs.

“Let me see” Sy growled. “Let me see that pussy”.

You opened your thighs wider and heard him curse before he started playing with your clit with his thumb.

“Sy .. oh my god”.

“Such a pretty pussy”. Sy slid his fingers down, pushing two inside. “So tight”. He gripped the back of your neck while his digits pushed into you. Your hips instantly moved and that’s when you noticed his hand leave your neck to fist his cock. Your mouth hung open as you watched him move his fist back and forth while his fingers were inside of you.

“That’s it. Ride my fingers”.

Your face was hot. You needed him inside you. You moved your hips a bit, loving the sounds coming out of his mouth before you decided you needed more.

“More .. Sy .. please”.

“You want my cock now? Can you take me Sugar?” Sy withdrew his fingers and bought them to his mouth. “You taste so fucking good”.

“Please Sy!”

You watched as Sy ran his cock up and down your pussy before pushing forward. You groaned as he stretched your walls. Sy was big .. much bigger than anything you’d ever had inside you. He gripped your knees as he pushed all the way inside you.

“Fuck”. He muttered into your neck before moving to take your earlobe between his teeth. “Your pussy is so tight. How’s this big cock feel? Tell me baby”.

Your cheeks burned at the way he was talking to you.

“I said tell me”

“You’re so big!” You gasped as he somehow continued to push deeper into you.

“Yeah? You like it sugar?”

“Give me a minute”. Your hands moved to wrap around Sy’s neck as your forehead rested against his.

“Relax ..” Sy’s voice was gentle and you could tell that he realized that you needed to adjust. His hand slipped between your bodies and he rubbed your clit. “I’m not gonna fuck you properly till you say”.

“Sy ..” His fingers were magic and soon you were stretching to accommodate him and getting even wetter. “That feels good”.

His mouth was back on your neck as his fingers played you like an instrument. You could feel him gripping your knee tightly and you knew how hard he was restraining himself.

You moved your hips hoping that he’d get the hint and he did.

“You ready? Tell me that you want it”.

“Want it Sy”. You moved your hips again.

Suddenly both of his hands moved underneath your knees as he pushed you back onto the step. Your upper half was out of the water, your nipples hard like pebbles as the cool breeze hit them. Sy had you completely spread open and he took a moment to look at your joined bodies as he pulled out and thrusted back inside you.

Without warning he started moving his hips like a man poccessed, causing you to cry out as you gripped the side of the pool. Water was splashing as he grabbed hold of your hair, gathering it into a pony tail and pulling your head back. He was fucking you like a wild animal.

“Look at you .. just fucking look at you taking me”. Sy’s watched himself fuck you. “Taking my cock”.

“Oh fuck”. You trembled. The way that he was hammering into you, stretching you, owning you. It was too much. “I’m going to cum Sy”.

“Cum”. Sy gripped your hair hard, forcing you to look at him. “Cum on my cock”

You screamed as your orgasm took over. You felt it from your toes, spreading throughout your body as you throbbed around him.

You felt Sy pulsing inside you and you knew that he was close. Suddenly he pulled out of you, turning you around until you were kneeling on the step as he plunged back into you from behind. His hands were gripping your shoulders and water was splashing in your face as he chased his release.

“You want me to pull out?” He breathed into your ear.

It was the responsible thing to do in a fairly irresponsible situation. Yet you needed to feel him inside you so badly.

“Cum inside me”.

You felt him falter just a second before he resumed his maddening pace.

“You on the pill?”

“Why? You want to put a baby inside me?”. You swear that you heard him moan and you wondered if the captain had a kink? “I am don’t worry”.

“I’m gonna fucking fill you up so good”.

“Please Sy …”. You pushed your ass up to meet his thrusts. “Cum inside me. Want to feel you”.

“Fuck”. Sy’s rhythm was getting sloppy.

“Give it to me Sy”.

“You’re gonna make me fucking cum”. Sy thrusted as hard and as deep as he could then you heard a loud groan as he released inside of you. He continued to pump inside you, his hands moving to grip your hips as he rode out his climax.

Suddenly he stilled and turned your head gently as his lips found yours. He kissed you deeply and passionately before sucking on your bottom lip. Slowly he withdrew from you and you whined, already feeling empty without him.

“You want me to stay inside you?” Sy chuckled into your neck. “Sorry if I was too rough?”

“You weren’t .. I wanted it like that. You’re just so fucking big”. You giggled. “I don’t think I can walk!”

“Sorry”. Sy smirked and you know that he secretly loved hearing you say that to him.

Suddenly the mood shifted and he was putting himself back in his shorts while you adjusted your top. You noticed him reaching over the side of the pool to hand you your bikini bottoms. You couldn’t read him - he looked conflicted?

“It’s ok .. “ You swallowed. “We got it out of our systems Sy. We’re both adults. I’m sure that I wasn’t the first or last girl that you fucked”.

“You think I’m gonna just love you and leave you?”

“Truthfully? Yeah .. I think you will”.

“You don’t wanna .. continue this?” Sy scratched his beard.

You stared at Sy as you adjusted your swimsuit. What was he on about? He’d just fucked your brains out.

“This?” You pointed at his crutch with a smirk.

“Well that and …this”. He gestured between you. “I’ve wanted you for a long time and to be honest you’ve ruined me”.

“My pussy has ruined you?”

“Well that too”. Sy paused. “I feel like we just gave in to 12 months of pent up sexual frustration. From both of us .. but now that we’ve done it I .. well I don’t want to let you go”.

“I feel the same”. You smirked as he pulled you into his arms. “So how about dinner Syverson? Then maybe round two?”

“Yes ma’am”.

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[samaraj]

Title - Making Waves

Pairings - Reader x Sy

Warnings - Smut

Summary - Reader and Sy have flirted with each other for months, but she’s tired of their games. He’s back from deployment and she’s determined to catch his eye at the party celebrations. A woman on a mission - armed with the skimpiest bikini she can find.

You knew that you looked good. Hell, hours of waxing, make up and styling were so worth it right now as you watched Sy study your every move. He was standing by the grill chatting to his friends that were busy cooking, but his eyes kept a watch on you. You were sitting on one of those pool deck chairs alongside your best friend Lacey. She knew about you plan and was carefully giving you instructions from behind the magazine she was pretending to read.

“Is he still looking?” You could imagine the grin on your friend’s face.

“He hasn’t taken his eyes off me”. You pushed the over sized sunglasses up on top of your head while you stretched out your long tanned legs. “When should I take this dress off? He’s literally going to pass out when he sees this bikini”.

“You have to wait till most of the people go! You need to get a bit more private time with him!” Lacey giggled. “Rub your legs a bit, maybe give him a tease?”

“Oh right”. You rubbed at you calves then shifted slightly. But not before chewing on your bottom lip, looking Sy straight in the eye and opening your thighs - just enough to give him a quick glimpse at your red string bikini bottoms covering your most private of places.

“What’s happening?”

“I just flashed the captain”. You tried not to laugh as Sy choked on his beer. You knew he saw right between your legs. You watched as Lacey peeked over her magazine.

“Shit! Is he ok?”

“I think so .. don’t think he was expecting that”. You smirked at your friend but wondered if you’d gone too far? You were really teasing Sy today.

A few hours past and most of the people had left and Sy was busy helping to pack up. You decided it was now or never. After some encouragement from Lacey and two glasses of wine, you stood up and pulled your black dress off. Sy was sitting on the edge of the pool taking a break with his legs in the water. His eyes grew wide as he watched you walk towards the pool in your skimpy excuse for a swimsuit. You’d never worn a thong before so you made sure to turn around, pretending to talk to lacey, knowing that Sy would get a good view of your ass. You casually got in the pool, as Sy’s mouth dropped open.

The water was cool and your nipples instantly hardened as you went under the water to wet your hair. When you surfaced you saw Sy strip off his shirt and jump in. Your heart beat like crazy. He had a body that made your mouth water.

“Hey Sugar”. Sy came up out of the water with droplets falling off his beard. “Where’d you get that bikini from?”

“Why? Do you like it Captain?”

“You been teasing me all day”. Sy followed you to the pools edge as you leaned up against the step.

“Have I?”

“Quit playing Sugar. Are you trying to kill me?”

“Dunno .. I’ve been teasing you for a long time. I don’t think you’re interested”. You chewed on your bottom lip as you tried to play it cool.

“Not interested? Why would you think that?”

“You never do anything about it”. You watched as Sy sucked in a breath. “I have needs Captain. If you don’t want me, I’m sure that I can find one of your men to satisfy me”.

“Hey!” Sy suddenly grabbed your hips, pulling you to him. Your breath caught in your throat at the close proximity. “You want to be satisfied huh? You think one of those guys could do a better job than me?”

“I’m tired of playing Sy …” You paused as his breath mingled with yours. His scent was intoxicating. You breathed in his unique aroma of sweat, mint and spice. “If you want me, you’d better show me”. Time stood still as you stayed like that - his hands on your hips and your faces mere inches from each other.

“Ok Sugar ..”

Before you could react, Sy was kissing your neck. Your eyes darted to Lacey who quickly packed her bag and grabbed the two remaining guys, ushering them away from the pool area. Alone at last. The thought was thrilling yet slightly scary considering it was a public place.

Sy’s lips found yours and he coaxed your mouth open as his tongue slipped inside. He tasted like beer and mint .. You were instantly wet.

“Watch”. His tone was gruff and commanding.

You looked at Sy as he kissed down your neck to your cleavage. His hands pushed down your bikini top, exposing your breasts. His tongue flicked out and he bent down to lick your nipple while his fingers tweaked the opposite one. You moaned but then cried out as he engulfed your breast and sucked on it. You couldn’t believe the noises he was making - groaning into your skin then slurping at your breast. He alternated sides and you grabbed his head, urging him for more. He moved away and released your breast with a pop as he looked up at you.

“So fucking sexy”. Sy’s monster cock was pressed against you and you noticed that he was moving slightly to get some friction. “I can’t wait”

“You wanna .. here?”

“I need to fuck you”

“What if .. someone sees? Do you want to go to ..”

“I can’t wait .. don’t make me wait Sugar”.

“You sure? I mean … you sure it’s ok here?” You swallowed. “I don’t want anyone watching”.

“You think any of those guys would risk getting on my bad side?”

You looked around and decided to take the chance so you nodded at Sy. His hands quickly freed his cock from his shorts and made their way to your bikini bottoms, tugging them down. Your eyes bulged when you saw how big he was .. all the rumors were obviously true.

He sat you on the step as he stood in between your legs. His eyes stared at your pussy as he moved his fingers between your open thighs.

“Let me see” Sy growled. “Let me see that pussy”.

You opened your thighs wider and heard him curse before he started playing with your clit with his thumb.

“Sy .. oh my god”.

“Such a pretty pussy”. Sy slid his fingers down, pushing two inside. “So tight”. He gripped the back of your neck while his digits pushed into you. Your hips instantly moved and that’s when you noticed his hand leave your neck to fist his cock. Your mouth hung open as you watched him move his fist back and forth while his fingers were inside of you.

“That’s it. Ride my fingers”.

Your face was hot. You needed him inside you. You moved your hips a bit, loving the sounds coming out of his mouth before you decided you needed more.

“More .. Sy .. please”.

“You want my cock now? Can you take me Sugar?” Sy withdrew his fingers and bought them to his mouth. “You taste so fucking good”.

“Please Sy!”

You watched as Sy ran his cock up and down your pussy before pushing forward. You groaned as he stretched your walls. Sy was big .. much bigger than anything you’d ever had inside you. He gripped your knees as he pushed all the way inside you.

“Fuck”. He muttered into your neck before moving to take your earlobe between his teeth. “Your pussy is so tight. How’s this big cock feel? Tell me baby”.

Your cheeks burned at the way he was talking to you.

“I said tell me”

“You’re so big!” You gasped as he somehow continued to push deeper into you.

“Yeah? You like it sugar?”

“Give me a minute”. Your hands moved to wrap around Sy’s neck as your forehead rested against his.

“Relax ..” Sy’s voice was gentle and you could tell that he realized that you needed to adjust. His hand slipped between your bodies and he rubbed your clit. “I’m not gonna fuck you properly till you say”.

“Sy ..” His fingers were magic and soon you were stretching to accommodate him and getting even wetter. “That feels good”.

His mouth was back on your neck as his fingers played you like an instrument. You could feel him gripping your knee tightly and you knew how hard he was restraining himself.

You moved your hips hoping that he’d get the hint and he did.

“You ready? Tell me that you want it”.

“Want it Sy”. You moved your hips again.

Suddenly both of his hands moved underneath your knees as he pushed you back onto the step. Your upper half was out of the water, your nipples hard like pebbles as the cool breeze hit them. Sy had you completely spread open and he took a moment to look at your joined bodies as he pulled out and thrusted back inside you.

Without warning he started moving his hips like a man poccessed, causing you to cry out as you gripped the side of the pool. Water was splashing as he grabbed hold of your hair, gathering it into a pony tail and pulling your head back. He was fucking you like a wild animal.

“Look at you .. just fucking look at you taking me”. Sy’s watched himself fuck you. “Taking my cock”.

“Oh fuck”. You trembled. The way that he was hammering into you, stretching you, owning you. It was too much. “I’m going to cum Sy”.

“Cum”. Sy gripped your hair hard, forcing you to look at him. “Cum on my cock”

You screamed as your orgasm took over. You felt it from your toes, spreading throughout your body as you throbbed around him.

You felt Sy pulsing inside you and you knew that he was close. Suddenly he pulled out of you, turning you around until you were kneeling on the step as he plunged back into you from behind. His hands were gripping your shoulders and water was splashing in your face as he chased his release.

“You want me to pull out?” He breathed into your ear.

It was the responsible thing to do in a fairly irresponsible situation. Yet you needed to feel him inside you so badly.

“Cum inside me”.

You felt him falter just a second before he resumed his maddening pace.

“You on the pill?”

“Why? You want to put a baby inside me?”. You swear that you heard him moan and you wondered if the captain had a kink? “I am don’t worry”.

“I’m gonna fucking fill you up so good”.

“Please Sy …”. You pushed your ass up to meet his thrusts. “Cum inside me. Want to feel you”.

“Fuck”. Sy’s rhythm was getting sloppy.

“Give it to me Sy”.

“You’re gonna make me fucking cum”. Sy thrusted as hard and as deep as he could then you heard a loud groan as he released inside of you. He continued to pump inside you, his hands moving to grip your hips as he rode out his climax.

Suddenly he stilled and turned your head gently as his lips found yours. He kissed you deeply and passionately before sucking on your bottom lip. Slowly he withdrew from you and you whined, already feeling empty without him.

“You want me to stay inside you?” Sy chuckled into your neck. “Sorry if I was too rough?”

“You weren’t .. I wanted it like that. You’re just so fucking big”. You giggled. “I don’t think I can walk!”

“Sorry”. Sy smirked and you know that he secretly loved hearing you say that to him.

Suddenly the mood shifted and he was putting himself back in his shorts while you adjusted your top. You noticed him reaching over the side of the pool to hand you your bikini bottoms. You couldn’t read him - he looked conflicted?

“It’s ok .. “ You swallowed. “We got it out of our systems Sy. We’re both adults. I’m sure that I wasn’t the first or last girl that you fucked”.

“You think I’m gonna just love you and leave you?”

“Truthfully? Yeah .. I think you will”.

“You don’t wanna .. continue this?” Sy scratched his beard.

You stared at Sy as you adjusted your swimsuit. What was he on about? He’d just fucked your brains out.

“This?” You pointed at his crutch with a smirk.

“Well that and …this”. He gestured between you. “I’ve wanted you for a long time and to be honest you’ve ruined me”.

“My pussy has ruined you?”

“Well that too”. Sy paused. “I feel like we just gave in to 12 months of pent up sexual frustration. From both of us .. but now that we’ve done it I .. well I don’t want to let you go”.

“I feel the same”. You smirked as he pulled you into his arms. “So how about dinner Syverson? Then maybe round two?”

“Yes ma’am”.

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[samaraj]

Title - One night with you

Pairings - Reader x Rob Pattinson

Warnings - Romance, smut

Story - Reader and Rob are grounded in Boston for one night when flights are cancelled due to weather. They are instantly drawn to each other.

A layover in Boston wasn’t on your agenda. You just wanted to get home after a busy weekend but the storm had grounded all flights. You’d been given complimentary overnight accommodation with a departure leaving the following morning so you reluctantly accepted your fate. You pulled along your luggage and waited for a cab, but it seemed like every other disgruntled passenger had the same idea. You stood in a line, tugging on your thick winter coat and hoping you wouldn’t freeze to death on the sidewalk.

“I got a ride to the hotel if you want?”

You spun around to lock eyes with a familiar face. You remember standing next to him in the line a short while ago. You had smiled at each other but he seemed quiet and reserved. You glanced at his face and tried to put your finger on where I’d seen him before.

“Uh?”

“Four seasons?” He spoke in a warm English accent. “We’re going to the same place? I mean .. I’m just offering? I have a driver …” He stammered as he gestured to the black car as he ran his fingers through his hair.

“Oh right ..”

“Or you can stay?” He pointed to the line. “I’m just offering .. I don’t want to seem odd but I recognized you from before and thought I’d offer”.

“No that’s ok. Uh .. yeah thank you”. You wondered if you still had your pepper spray in your purse? You tapped on the fabric of the bag and felt it. “Let’s go?”

He surprised you by grabbing your suitcase and leading you to the car. An older man in a suit quickly got out and took both the bags and put them in before ushering you both into the backseat.

“Thank you”. You sat inside the very expensive car and glanced at him before snapping your fingers. “Twilight! That’s where I’ve seen you!”

“You got it”. He blushed and laughed.

“Robert Pattinson?”

“That’s me”. He quickly gave the driver directions before turning to you”. “And that’s Ross my driver”.

You waved at the older gentlemen before breathing out deeply. You were really in the backseat with Robert Pattinson?

“Oh … I’m Mia by the way. Mia Correnti”.

“Correnti? You’re Italian?”

“Part. My Dad is .. My mum’s American”.

“Ok”. Robert smiled. “You were on your way home?”

“Yes. I spent the past week here attending seminars. It’s been hectic so I was looking forward to going home”. You paused. “Where were you off to?”

“I had some business meetings. New projects to discuss .. I was meant to be going back to the UK for a few weeks”.

“Ok”. You fidgeted with you gloves that were in your lap before noticing Robert smiling. “What?”

“Are you nervous around me?”

“Not really .. well a little. I mean .. I’ve never met a Hollywood actor before”.

“Can’t I just be Rob?” His eyes locked with yours. “It’s easier .. being Rob”.

“Oh right .. of course!” You smiled at him and heard Ross chuckle. “Look to be honest with you I only ever saw the first movie. I just .. I mean ..” Your face burned. How were you planning to explain that you weren’t a fan of the franchise?

“Not a member of the cult then?” Rob laughed.

“Not that you weren’t good in it! I meant ..”

“I’m kidding .. I’m not a fan myself”.

“What? You didn’t like the movies you made?”

“Don’t get me wrong. I’m incredibly grateful for Twilight. It helped make my career in a way .. I just wasn’t prepared for what came after it you know? People get so invested into the story and characters”.

“And they want you to bite them?” You smirked and Rob laughed.

“That too”.

“I uh .. I saw your movie Remember me?” You watched as Rob studied your face. “Now that was a great movie. The storyline and just .. the emotion. I like movies like that. With depth”.

“Wow. Thank you”. Rob ran his fingers through his hair again and you realised that it was probably something he didn’t even know he was doing. “That movie meant a lot to me”.

For a moment you both sat in silence before Rob turned to face you slightly. He wiped him palms on his jeans and you realized that he probably wasn’t used to talking with random people.

“So you said you were in town for a seminar?”

“Uh yes .. I came with my supervisor ..” You shook your head and laughed, realizing that Rob had no idea what you were on about. “Back track .. I’m a doctor. Well .. I’ve just finished my degree and I gained an internship at the hospital with a specialist. She wanted me to come to the seminar with her”.

“You’re a doctor? That’s amazing!” Rob smiled at you.

“Thank you. I just graduated last month so it’s still all new to me”.

“What area do you hope to work in?”

“Obstetrics”. You watched as Robs eyes grew wide.

“As in delivering babies?”

“Yes Rob”. You laughed. “Babies”.

“Wow”. Rob shook his head. “Mia that’s incredible. Defiantly not something I could ever do .. I had to film a birth scene for twilight. Oh my god , I’m still traumatized!”

“Well real life birth isn’t anything like giving birth to a part vampire”. You nudged his shoulder playfully before sitting back quickly in your seat. Why were things so comfortable between you both? You chewed on your bottom lip as you pretended to focus on the cars out your window.

“You ok?”

“Oh yeah .. I’m fine”.

“You went all .. distant”.

“Did I?” You looked at Rob and smiled as he raised his eyebrows at you. “Well I just realised how easy it was to talk to you ..”

“And that’s a bad thing?”

“No! I mean .. it’s a good thing but we’re probably never going to speak to each other again”. Your cheeks reddened.

“I enjoy speaking with you Mia”. Rob paused. “Would you like to spend today together? I mean I can’t … like go out for dinner but maybe order in? I’ve got .. paps following me”.

“Paps? You mean paparazzi are following now?” You looked around. “How do you know?”

“I can tell .. you get used to it after awhile”.

“Oh right”. You sucked in a deep breath. You noticed Ross watching you from the rear view mirror. He smiled softly. “I’d like that Rob. What else are we going to do anyway?”

Soon after Ross pulled up at the hotel but parked the vehicle around the back, away from prying eyes. He was a lovely man and seemed to have a fatherly relationship with Rob. He got out your bags and asked you to wait for him while he went inside.

“He’s checking us in?” You glanced at Rob.

“Yeah. And he just inspects my room before I go in. Ross used to work for the police before he retired. Now he gets to follow me around on this crazy ride”.

“He seems lovely. But .. he checks your room?”

“Yeah someone bugged a room I was staying in Munich once. Ross found it”. Rob paused. “The joys of being an actor”.

“Rob that’s terrible!”

“Stories sell”.

“But you’re a person! Why don’t they see that?”

“Because not everyone is like you Mia”. Rob scratched the back of his neck as he studied the ground. You wondered if the price that he had to pay for his success was worth it? He seemed lonely for a person who was always in the spotlight.

Ross came out shortly and helped you both up to your rooms. They were on a private level but opposite each other. Part of you was surprised that Rob didn’t have the penthouse.

“I’m not that self obsessed”.

You glanced at Rob as you hopped out of the elevator. Had he read your mind?

“You mean?”

“I saw you looking at the penthouse level. You thought I was going there”. He laughed along with Ross.

“Well …”

“I try to be normal Mia”. Rob gestured at Ross. “He knows I prefer a burger and fries over fine dining”.

“That’s true Miss”. Ross nodded as he led you to your room.

“Thank you Ross. I really appreciate your kindness today”.

“It’s my pleasure Miss. If you or Rob need anything I’m just a phone call away”. Ross smiled at you.

“Please call me Mia. I hope I get to say goodbye before I go tomorrow?”

“You will miss .. Mia”. Ross smiled warmly at you before wrapping an arm around Rob and telling him his schedule for tomorrow.

You awkwardly smiled while you stood opposite each other. Rob pointed at his room after a moment silence.

“I’m going to order a burger, would you like to eat with me? I mean, I can order you anything you like ..”

“I’m just going to shower and change but I’d love a burger with you”. You laughed at Rob’s awkwardness. “I’ll knock on your door in an hour?”

“Sure take your time”.

You grabbed your suitcase and headed into your room. As you closed the door you stood dumbfounded at the beautiful suite you were staying in.

“Oh my god”. You muttered as you walked around, eyeing off the marble bathroom and spa, sunken lounge with fireplace and massive kingsized bed. Surely this was not complimentary of the airline!

An hour later and you were knocking on Robs door. You felt a bit embarrassed wearing your warm tracksuit and sneakers, but as soon as you saw Rob all your feelings disappeared.

“You’re matching me!” You laughed and pointed to the navy adidas tracksuit that he was wearing. Yours was black, but still it was funny that you both wore the same thing.

“This is hilarious”. Rob laughed and held the door open. “I just wanted to get into my comfy clothes”.

“Same here!”

You noticed Robs suite was the same as yours so after clearing your throat you asked the question.

“I think I owe you something for the room. I mean, it’s not the usual complimentary airline accommodation”.

“It is if you’re me”. Rob paused. “You can check with reception. I didn’t pay anything”.

“Are you serious?”

“One hundred percent”.

“Oh ok .. I just didn’t want you to think that ..”

“I wasn’t Mia”. Rob smiled softly. “I wasn’t”.

“Ok because I’m not like that. I wouldn’t be agreeing to burgers with you if i didn’t like spending genuine time with you. Not because you’re Robert Pattinson the actor”. You swallowed. “Just because you’re Rob”.

“Thank you Mia. That means a lot to me”.

You followed Rob into the living area where you smelt the most delicious smell.

“Is that .. Barney’s? Barney’s burgers?”

“Yep”. Rob laughed as you sat down next to each other. It was warm and cozy with the fireplace lit. He pushed a bag towards you which was full.

“Rob there’s a lot of food in here!”

“I forgot to ask what you liked” Rob shrugged. “Oh and there’s soda and milkshakes. Again, I forgot”.

You laughed as you pulled out a burger and accepted the chocolate shake which Rob suggested you try. For awhile you savored the food before speaking.

“Where does Ross stay?”

“Oh he has family here. He spent the day with them while I was in meetings today so he’s staying with them tonight”.

“Does he travel with you?”

“Here in the US. Sometimes overseas but I usually have another two guys who come on those trips. Ross is getting a bit old and I like him to stay around his family”. Rob smiled. “He’s a bit like a father to me”.

“I can see that”. You popped a French fry into your mouth. “He’s a lovely man”.

“He is and he knew me long before twilight”. Rob smiled. “So what about you Mia? Family? Partner?”

“Oh .. um .. my parents and I have an older brother who’s deployed”. You paused. “I don’t .. have anyone. I mean, I’m not with anyone”.

“Ok”.

“You .. you um were with your co-star for quite awhile right?”

“Four years”. Rob took a long sip of his shake. “Guess your know how that ended? It was pretty public”.

“Well I don’t believe everything I read”.

“You read correct. She cheated on me”. Rob sighed. “Can’t blame her though. It was hard on the both of us. We didn’t know how to navigate things. I was away a lot …”.

“Doesn’t make it right”. You quickly covered your mouth with your hand. “I’m so sorry. I shouldn’t have said that”.

“No you’re right Mia. It’s ok though .. I’m over it”.

“Was she .. your first love? Your last relationship?” You closed your eyes for a moment and wished the words had never come out of your mouth.

“Kirsten? No I didn’t love her. I haven’t experienced that yet with anyone. I think it was just lust maybe? I don’t really know. And yeah … I haven’t had much time”. Rob glanced at you. “You?”

“Oh I don’t think I’ve had a relationship really. I’ve dated but nothing serious. I’m a bit of a hopeless romantic at heart and I feel like I’m just waiting for the stars to align”. You laughed. “I’ll probably be waiting forever!”.

“Why settle for anything less?”

“Well that’s true”. You paused and took another sip of your shake. “Your life as an actor .. does it get lonely?”

“A lot. It feels like I have a million friends but nobody I can trust”. Rob paused. “I’m always traveling, living out of a suitcase .. but I do love my job dont get me wrong”.

“I understand. Everything has a price”. You sighed. “I had to work hard to get into med school. I wished I could have had a social life and gone out and partied .. my nose was always in books”.

“You’re right .. there is a trade off for everything”.

“Exactly”.

“Do you know what? This is the deepest conversation I’ve had in a long time”. Rob smiled

“I aim to please”. When Rob raised an eyebrow at you, you blushed. “Oh my god .. I didn’t .. I mean I ..”

“You go so red when you’re embarrassed”.

“And you play with your hair!” You blurted out causing Rob to laugh.

“Ok I’ll take that. Because it’s true”.

“I like it though. You have great hair”. You groaned, realizing that you had zero control over your mouth.

“Yeah? You like my hair?”

“I do. And do not comment on my cheeks ok? They are literally burning right now because I’m saying things that I should be keeping to myself!”

“Why?”

“Why? Because we’ve just met! You’re going to think I’m some weirdo!”

You watched as Rob lent back in the lounge. He was watching you intensely and you wondered what he was thinking.

“I think you’re a lot of things Mia, but weird isn’t one of them”.

Silence filled the room and you swallowed a lump caught in your throat. What was this strange energy between the two of you?

“What .. do you think about me Rob?” Your voice was low and you watched as Rob lent forward slightly, hanging onto your every word.

“Well .. I think you’re beautiful, kind, smart, funny”. Rob paused. “And genuine”.

“Thank you”. You licked your lips. You knew deep inside that you should probably go back to your room. What if Rob did this to girls all across the world? Charmed them? “Rob I .. I’m a bit worried right now to be honest”.

“Worried?”

“Yeah but please don’t be upset or offended”. You paused. “I’m thinking to myself .. we just met and you’re lovely, handsome, sweet and charming. I don’t know if you .. like do this often?”

“Have burgers with a girl that I just met after we both missed our flight?” Rob smirked at you.

“Rob ..”

“I’m joking Mia. But the answer is no. I don’t … do this”. Rob gestured between you both. “At all. I don’t trust easily and I certainly don’t go around picking up girls everywhere I go. Truth being, most of them just want to sell me out to to make money”.

“I didn’t .. Rob I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have bought that up”. You swallowed the lump in your throat. “I feel in my heart that you’re not like that”.

“I know I live in the public eye Mia. But reality is, I’m more like a hermit”. Rob smiled.

“I really enjoy your company Rob. I’ve never met anyone that I felt at ease like this with”. You paused. “I’m actually glad our flight was grounded”.

“Same here. And I feel the same”. Rob ran his fingers through his hair and you laughed.

“You’re doing it again”.

“Oh right. The hair thing? Bad habit”.

You jumped when thunder crashed loudly outside the hotel window. The storm was getting worse by the minute. Suddenly Rob was by your side, an arm wrapping around your shoulders.

“Are you scared of storms?”

“Oh .. well kind of. I just hate all the noise you know?” You felt his arm rub your shoulder and you were surprised at how his touch calmed you. Without thinking you rested your head against his shoulder.

“You ok?”

“Yeah”.

Your heart beat rapidly against your chest. You had no idea how your paths crossed or why you were with Rob at that very moment. All you did know is that you felt comfortable with him and there was an energy that connected you both. The thought scared and thrilled you at the same time.

“Mia I’m really glad you got in the car with me today”. Rob’s voice was soft.

“I’m glad too Rob”. Your palms were suddenly sweaty. And it wasn’t to do with the thunderstorm outside. Every stroke of Robs thumb against your shoulder seemed to send electricity through your body. You started to panic and jumped up suddenly.

“I have to go”. You grabbed your hotel key and bolted towards the door. You sucked in a deep breath focusing on getting as far away from Rob as possible when his fingers touched your elbow.

“What’s wrong?” His eyes searched yours as you faced him. “I thought .. you enjoyed talking with me? Did I do something? Say something?”

“No Rob .. I just .. I can’t explain”. You sucked in a deep breath. “I’m just a bit confused and I think it’s better if I go”

“Ok I don’t want to make you feel like that. I understand”.

Your heart clenched when you saw the sadness in his eyes. You wondered if he thought you were pushing him away? Maybe he thought you didn’t like that he wasn’t the Hollywood actor persona?

You smiled softly and without thinking you reached for his hand. He looked surprised.

“I like you Rob. And that’s why I need to go back to my room”. You glanced away from his face. “I just .. it’s nice to have met you and for some stupid reason I feel like there’s this natural connection with you”.

“That’s not stupid”. Rob took hold of your shoulders gently. “It’s been so long .. in fact I can’t remember the last time I had this with someone. It’s really nice to be able to just be myself. Sometimes I get worried that people will expect me to be like the characters I play. I’m nothing like that in real life”.

“You’re so much more Rob”. You watched as his cheeks reddened slightly. He smiled then looked away.

“Thank you Mia”.

“Maybe we can .. have breakfast in the morning? I do want to see you again. I guess I just need to process all this. I don’t even know what it is”. You fidgeted with your hands feeling very awkward. But when you looked at Rob he was just smiling softly.

“Breakfast sounds great. We can ride together to the airport if you don’t mind going in the back way? I’d hate to be photographed with you and have you dragged into my world when you didn’t want to be”.

“I understand Rob. And no I don’t mind. I’d like to see Ross again anyway”. You smiled. “He reminds me of James Bond”.

“Don’t tell Ross that!” Rob laughed and put one hand on the door frame. “But yeah he does”.

“See you in the morning”. You touched Rob’s arm. “And thanks so much for the burger .. actually everything”.

“You’re welcome”.

Rob held the door open for you and watched until you were inside you room. Once the door closed you leaned up against it and tried to calm your breathing.

“This is crazy”. You said out loud. How could you possibly feel this comfortable with someone you’d only known for a few hours?

The hours that followed were difficult. You couldn’t sleep as the storm continued to crash outside. You’d closed the blinds but the lightening still flickered into the room. You hated being alone. You sat up clutching the soft quilt to your chest. You couldn’t …no that would be completely inappropriate. You shook your head. If you went to Rob’s door what did that mean? If you couldn’t even work it out then what did you expect from him?

“I’ll never see him again”. You whispered to yourself. “After this night .. never again”. You ran your hands through your hair. You were tired of being so god dammed perfect all the time. You never did anything crazy, never did anything without pre planning. You were always overthinking and analyzing things.

“To hell with it”. You pushed the covers back and without another thought, jumped out of the bed and headed across the hall to Rob’s room. You chewed on your bottom lip as you knocked loudly. Once, twice …nothing. You mentally slapped yourself. He was obviously sleeping.

“Mia?” Rob opened the door just as you had turned around to go back to your room. “Are you ok?”

You turned around and swallowed. He stood there only in black boxers. He was lean yet muscular with defined abs and a V that extended lower. You watched as his eyes took you in and it was only then that you realised you were wearing a soft pink cami which was probably far too sheer.

“Rob I .. did I wake you?”

“It’s ok. What happened?”

“I just .. I couldn’t sleep and ..” You felt yourself blush. “I just ..”

“Is it the storm?”

“Well yes and no”.

“Mia ..” Rob’s voice was almost a whisper. “Why are you here?”

“Because I …I just ..” You stammered as Rob took hold of your wrists, pulling you closer.

“Yeah?”

“I don’t want to think so much”.

“Then don’t”. Rob stared at you. “Do you want me Mia?”

“Yes .. do you want me?”

Rob smiled as he tugged on your arms. His hand went to the back of your neck before he leaned down to kiss you. Softly at first, then opened mouthed as his tongue founds yours.

“Rob ..” you pushed against his shoulders until he backed up against the wall. His hands found your waist as you kissed him like you life depended on it. Both of your moans filled the hallway as you started to rub against his body. His hands gripped your ass, encouraging you.

“Bedroom”. Rob panted as he moved back and picked you up. Your legs wrapped around his waist as he carried you inside, kicking the door closed. He waisted no time moving you to his huge kingsized bed and climbing over your body.

“Oh Rob”. You moaned as he kissed your collarbone before tracing the outline with his tongue.

“God I want you”. Rob whispered in your ear before he started to move lower, kissing your cleavage before sucking on your nipple through the satin material. “You’re so fucking gorgeous”. Your hands moved to the hem of your cami as Rob moved back so that you could pull the material off. As you laid back down you watched his eyes take in your naked body. He sat between your opened legs and bought his finger to his mouth, wetting it before bringing it to your nipple, tracing around it and watching it harden. You arched your back and he repeated it to the other nipple.

“Please”. You had no idea what you were begging for but Rob seemed to know as his mouth engulfed your breast. You cried out as he sucked then bought your nipple between his teeth gently. His mouth was now on your stomach, kissing down between your legs. You felt his fingers hook into the band of your lace panties before pulling them down and off your legs.

“Oh fuck”. Rob muttered as he looked between your parted thighs. “You’re so wet”. Before you could respond his mouth was kissing your inner thigh, then his fingers parted your folds as his mouth took you to heaven.

“Rob .. oh my god!”

Rob sucked on your clit as he eased a finger inside you.

“I’m close”. You moaned as your stomach started to coil. Your heart beat fast against your chest before you felt your vision blur. Your hands moved in between your parted thighs to find Rob’s hair and you tangled your hands in it as you screamed his name.

“Rob!”

You were vaguely aware that his mouth was kissing your hip then your stomach as you came down from your orgasm.

“You’re beautiful”. Rob muttered as his mouth enclosed on your nipple again.

“I want you”. You glanced at him.

“We can stop here if you want? Mia I don’t want you to think …”

“Make love to me Rob”. You smiled softly. “I want you”.

For a moment he stared at you, his eyes almost drinking you in before he captured your lips in a passionate kiss. You could taste yourself but it didn’t bother you. Your hands were tugging his boxers down and and then you felt him, completely naked against you. You reached between your bodies to stroke him and he groaned. He was much longer than you expected, but you spent a few minutes getting to know every bump and ridge on him.

“I need .. wait Mia”. Rob tried to move off you but you shook your head.

“I’m on birth control to .. help with my cycles”. You studied his face. “You’re ok? I mean .. I haven’t been with anyone for a long time. Are you ..?”

“Me? I’m clean Mia. I have to do Medicals often”. Rob paused. “I have one in my wallet though .. I can …”

“I just want to feel you. I trust you”.

“God Mia you’re killing me”. Rob kissed your forehead.

“Please Rob”

“Ok”. He parted your legs further and rubbed himself up and down your slit.

“Go slow”. You whispered. “It’s .. been a long time”.

“Of course”. Rob swallowed as he pushed inside your heat. He studied your face as he eased himself into your tight channel slowly.

“Oh my god”.

“You’re so tight”. Rob grunted as he looked down between your joined bodies. “You ok?”

“Yeah”.

“Can I .. keep going?”

“You’re not all the way in?” You felt full already.

“Half way”. Rob reached down to stroke your clit. “You’re so .. god I need to move”.

“It feels good”. You rocked your hips against him.

You watched as Rob sat back and gripped your hips with two hands as he pushed himself completely inside you. You willed yourself to relax because he was much longer than you’d had before. Once he was all the way in he started thrusting gently, his eyes drifting from your face to between your legs.

“God Mia”. His hands were on either side of your shoulders and he lent down to kiss your lips. “You’re so fucking perfect”. Your hands traced his back before moving to his hips, feeling the back and forth motion as he rocked gently.

“More”. You breathed against his neck. “Please Rob”.

You heard a groan and then felt him pull almost out of you before thrusting inside. He pulled back to look at your face before repeating the motion.

“Are you ok?”

“Yes .. I want you”. You pushed your hips up to meet his and you could see his resolve snap.

His hands moved underneath your knees as he held your legs open and started thrusting into you quickly. You tried hard to study him above your because god he was a sight that you never wanted to forget. Messy hair, a light sheen of sweat covering his chest .. and his expression. Head throw back, chewing on his bottom lip while he muttered a string of profanities. You wanted to watch him but your own pleasure was taking over.

His grunts and your moans filled the room along with the bed creaking and the sound of skin upon skin. Your senses were heightened and you were close to another orgasm.

“I can feel you ..” Rob panted. “You feel tighter .. you’re going to cum. God I want you too”.

“Yes Rob. Keep going!” Your hands covered your breasts as your whole body bounced on the bed as Rob pounded into you. He was close and you desperately wanted to finish with him.

“Come on my cock. Jesus I want to feel you”.

You screamed hearing the words come out of Rob’s mouth. Your body gripped him tight as he thrusted deeply inside of you and found his release with a shout of your name. Your arms wrapped around him, holding him as he continued to jerk inside of you. After a moment he moved up of your body slightly while your hands caressed his back.

He looked down at you and smiled softly before kissing your lips and rolling to the side. His hand gripped your hip as he eased himself out of you gently. When he heard you whine he pulled you into his arms.

“Come here”. Rob faced you and touched his nose against yours. “That was amazing. You were amazing”.

“I’ve never ..,felt that way before”. You smiled. “You made me feel so good Rob”.

“I aim to please”. Rob smirked and you laughed. You watched as Rob traced invisible circles across your shoulder as he looked deep in thought.

“What are you thinking about?”

“You”. Rob smiled. “Just you .. how easily we clicked, how beautiful and smart you are. How you make me feel .. how you just felt”.

You blushed and linked your fingers together. Lying with Rob in the aftermath of your lovemaking felt so right.

“It’s been awhile for me Rob”. You blushed and then smiled as Rob’s fingers brushed your cheek. “I just want you to know that I don’t .. do this. I don’t sleep with someone I’ve just met. The last person I was with was over a year ago”.

“Hey”. Rob pulled your chin up slightly so that you could look at him. “I sense that. Mia .. you don’t regret what just happened to you?”

“No!” You sat up clutching the sheet to you chest. “Please don’t think that. I just needed you to know that this is completely foreign to me. I’m just drawn to you .. You just make me feel alive”.

“Mia”. Rob cupped your face. “It’s ok. Just lie with me. We don’t have to explain anything .. I just want to lie with you”.

You watched as Rob eased the sheet away from your fingers. The material fell away leaving your naked breasts exposed. Rob’s hand found your cheek and moved gently downwards to your neck then to your cleavage.

“Just lie with me Mia. Forget everything else”.

You moved down and rested your head on his chest. His touch was so gentle as he traced the swell of your breast. You knew that he was right .. you didn’t need to talk right now. You just needed to be with him.

Neither of you slept that night. You made love once more just after midnight. This time you were on top while Rob held your hips. Your hands were on his chest and your heart swelled as he told you how beautiful you were. After that you both dozed off for a few hours before you were woken up to Rob’s hand in between your legs and his lips on your neck. He told you how he dreamed of you and woke up so hard that he had to have you again. You sensed a shift in him, like whatever dream he’d had must have turned him on because he was rock hard in your hand.

Rob ended up taking you from behind as you clung onto the bedhead. As he thrusted into you he told you that it was exactly how he’d dreamed. He bought you to orgasm countless times but it was something he said that made your heart clench.

“Don’t forget me”.

His words repeated in your head until your eyes filled with tears. You heard him call out your name behind you as he came, before he leaned over you to kiss your shoulder. You tried so hard not to cry but you couldn’t help it. Tears rolled down your face as the reality hit you .. he’d be gone soon. You were two different people. You didn’t fit into his world.

You felt Rob’s hand move your cheek to face him slightly as he kissed your lips. The second he did you felt his body tense.

“Mia are you crying?” Rob tried to pull out of you as gently as he could before moving to your side. He guided you to the bed facing him as he held you in his arms. “Did I hurt you? Was I too rough?”

“No Rob, you didn’t hurt me”.

“Please Mia .. what’s wrong? What did I do?”

“Rob …” you wiped at your face. “You didn’t do anything wrong”.

“Talk to me”.

“You said .. don’t forget me”. You sucked in a deep breath. “Rob, we’re never going to see each other again. I know that. But hearing you say it ..”

“Do you want to see me again?” Rob wiped your face. “I said that because .. being with me isn’t easy. Few can handle how my life is. To be honest it’s shit at times. I’m always traveling .. there are cameras in my face wherever I go. Stories are published that aren’t true .. family and friends get dragged into it too. I just .. I wasn’t sure”.

“Do you want to see me again Rob?”

“Of course I do! But my world isn’t yours Mia. I don’t want to hurt you”.

“Do you want to try?” You waited with baited breath.

“Yes I do Mia. But only if you think you can handle all of me”.

“Rob …” You kissed his lips. “I want that. I want all of you”.

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Title - Confession Part 2

Pairings - Sy x reader

Summary - Sy returns home after his 6 month deployment.

Warnings - smut

You melted the moment you saw him walking through the airline terminal with Max. You let go of a breath you didn’t even realise you were holding. Max was home, Sy was home. The two most important people in the world were really home. You heart clenched the closer he got - 6 months of phone calls and the occasional FaceTime. 6 months of wondering if he was ok. 6 months of imagining this moment. And Max .. your brother had called you and told you that Sy had spoken to him, and he was happy for you both to get to know each other. His support meant everything to you.

Soon Max was hugging you and over his shoulder you saw Sy greet his family. You knew in a matter of moments you’d get to touch him again. When his eyes found yours you felt as if time had stopped. He inched closer and you noticed max subtly pull your family aside.

“Sugar”. Sy’s arms wrapped around you as you pulled on his military vest to crush your body against his. He held you close for a moment then pulled back and tried to kiss you. Your hands quickly pushed against his chest.

“Please not here .. I need .. I need to be alone with you”. You prayed that he’d understand.

“Of course love. Sorry, I wasn’t thinking straight”. Sy smiled at you. “Course you don’t want out first kiss to be public”.

You nodded when he’d asked you to come by his apartment. His hand lightly brushed yours and you swear you felt a spark. It was strange how two people with so much distance between them could have got to the stage you both were. With physical limitations, you’d both talked and got to know each other on a different level. And there was a different kind of intimacy - one where he’d describe how he’d kiss you and you swear you could almost feel his lips.

A while later and you were inside his apartment. Sy had showered and you were glad to see his military gear gone. He moved towards you and picked you up as you involuntarily wrapped your legs around his waist. He took you to the kitchen where he placed you on the table before his hands moved to your thighs to open them while he stood inbetween. His hands cupped your face and he moved slowly until your lips collided. Softly at first then he coaxed your mouth open and his tongue found yours.

“Missed you”. Sy muttered in between kisses. “Read your letter a thousand times”.

“I slept with yours under my pillow”. You whispered as he kissed your jaw. “Is this so real? Tell me it’s real Sy?”

“It’s real Sugar”.

“I’ve wanted you since I was a teenager. I’ve wanted you for so long”.

“You think I didn’t want you? I tried to stay away .. you were Max’s little sister”.

“Oh Sy”.

“I remember you on your sixteenth birthday. God you looked beautiful in that blue dress”. Sy looked into your eyes.

“You remember that dress?”

“Course I remember”. Sy smiled. “But you were sixteen and I was twenty one. Just seemed wrong of me”.

You wrapped your legs around Sy’s waist and pulled his body close. You could feel his hardness against your core. He watched you closely as you moved against him and your mouth fell open.

“Sy”. You kissed his lips.

“What do you need love?”

“I spent 6 months imaging being with you .. 6 months dreaming of you”. You rolled your hips and Sy groaned.

“I know love. I did the same”. This time Sy moved against you and you wondered for a moment if you should just rip his clothes off now? Why wait? Hadn’t you both waited enough?

“I want to take you out on that date”. Sy still moved against you but you could read between the lines. “I don’t want to ruin things by jumping in too fast”. Sy shook his head. “Never thought those words would come out of my mouth”.

You rested your forehead against his. He was right. As hard as it was not to just jump into bed, what you had deserved more.

“I’d like that Sy”. You smiled softly. “I’ve been waiting 6 months for you to take me out”.

His hands gripped your thighs and you could tell he was having trouble holding back. You touched the side of his face and knew that you both needed to reel your emotions in.

“I want to see Max .. spend time with him. And you need to rest and see your family. How about this weekend?” You paused. “I think that would be logical?”

“You’re right Sugar”.

“I don’t want to be apart from you though”. You smiled. “Not even for two days”.

………..

The next few weeks you were inseparable. Dates with Sy were amazing and you discovered that the big beast of a man was actually a romantic at heart. He took you out to new places, you went out for dinner, diving off a reef and even booked tickets to take you out to the ballet. You found that heartwarming, knowing that he had zero interest in dance, but had listened to you enough to know that you’d always wanted to go. You were aware that he studied your face that night more than the dancers on the stage - later admitting that he found his own happiness seeing the joy on your face.

You’d made out a lot but he’d always be a gentleman and you knew that crossing that boundary had to come from you. So one night as you were kissing on his sofa you pulled his face to yours.

“Take me to bed Sy”. You watched his breath hitch as he studied your face. “I’m ready”.

“Sugar I don’t want you to think …”

“Sy .. I want you”. You kissed his lips softly. “Do you want me?”

“Course I do love”.

“Then take me to bed”. You smiled softly. “Don’t think you’ve ever gone this long before an I right?”

“I don’t care about myself love. I care about you”.

“And I’m saying I want you”. You stared at him. “I want you”.

“Sugar I need to ask ..”

“In college. I’ve only been with one guy Sy. And to be honest it was over before it started”. You paused. “Part of my plan to get over you .. it didn’t work”.

“Sugar .. wish I had of acted sooner”. Sy swallowed. “Feels like wasted time”.

“No Sy. Things happen for a reason”.

“Do I need ..”

“I don’t want you to. I’m on the pill to help you know .. with my cycles”. You felt your cheeks flush. “Is that ok .. I mean ..”

“Just do you know love, I’ve never not worn a condom before”. Sy kissed your lips. “Always been responsible. But with you .. I’d love to feel you. If you want that too?”.

You kissed him and things soon got heated. He picked you up bridal style and carried you into his bedroom.

He laid you down on his big king sized bed while he stood and pulled off his t shirt. You moved up on your elbows and watched as he pulled down his shorts and stood there clad in his navy blue boxers. Just looking at him made your insides turn to jelly. He wasn’t just physically handsome but it was the way he licked his lips, his chest heaved and his muscles tensed.

“You’ve got too many clothes on love”.

Sy unbuttoned your jeans and helped you wriggle out of them. He moved them slowly over your feet as his eyes fell to your delicate pink lace panties.

“You’re stunning”. He lent over you and raised your arms as he pulled off your t shirt. When his eyes saw the matching bra he sucked in a breath. “My god dammed fantasy”.

Before you could react his mouth captured your lace covered nipple and you cried out. You loved the way he was in no hurry to remove your underwear, he was just enjoying being acquainted with your body.

“Perfect”. Sy muttered as he kissed your cleavage only to repeat the action to the other nipple. This time he sucked, dampening the fabric so that it stuck to your sensitive skin. He spent time kissing your lips and neck before resuming his attention to your breasts. This time he teased you - sliding his tongue along the top of your bra cup, mere inches from your hardened nipple. You grabbed the back of his head, urging him to do more.

“Hands here”. He took your wrists and moved your hands above your head. “Don’t move them darling”.

“Sy …” You moaned when he teased you again and you arched your back. “Please”.

“Because you asked nicely”. You felt him smile against your skin before he pulled your cup down and bought your breast to his mouth. You moaned loudly, loving the way he took as much of your breast into his mouth and sucked before pulling away and flicking his tongue around your nipple.

“Sy .. please .. feels so good”. You felt wetness pool between your legs.

“Let me try the other one”. Sy repeated the action and you grinded against him. So this was foreplay? Not exactly the experience you had with your collage boyfriend who kissed you before squirting lube between your legs and trying to push inside you. The experience had been awkward and painful.

Sy moved you to the side and unclasped your bra before removing it from your arms. For a moment he hugged you, feeling your skin upon his before he moved lower, kissing your stomach. You froze. No guy had ever gone down on you before.

“Wait!” You saw Sy jerk his head up fast. “Are you …”

“You ok Sugar? Talk to me”.

“I’ve never ..”

“Oh ..” Sy smiled at you as his hand caressed your thigh. “Lemme show you what you’ve been missing then. If you don’t like anything you tell me ok”.

“But do you .. like doing that?” Your cheeks burned.

“Lay back darling. Let me make you feel good and I bet you’ll tell how I feel”.

You lay back against the pillows as Sy moved in between your parted thighs. Before you could feel uncomfortable with how close he was to your most private parts, his mouth sucked on your clit. The sensation had you crying out and your hips moved. Sy reached an arm out to cover your stomach, keeping you still while he repeated the action. This time he slid his tongue down further only to lick up your slit.

“Sy .. oh god”.

His arm let go of you and you felt his fingers part your folds. He repeated the action with his tongue until you were a moaning mess then he slid his middle finger inside you.

“You gonna cum for me darling?” Sy moved his finger in and out while he sucked on your clit. You grabbed fistfuls of the bedsheets and started feeling a coiling in your stomach.

Sy added another finger and let go of your clit with a pop. He moved up slightly and watched your face as he increased the pace.

“Come on baby”.

“Sy! Oh god Sy!” You screamed so loudly you were certain his whole street heard you. You’d heard of earth shattering orgasms but you never thought you’d ever experience one. Your body shook and you noticed Sy watching you with hooded eyes as they drifted from your face to between your legs where his fingers still moved inside you.

“Can’t”. You grabbed his wrist, suddenly feeling sensitive.

“God you’re beautiful when you cum”. Sy removed his fingers and hovered over your body. “I wanna kiss you so bad”.

You bought your lips to his and tasted yourself. He pulled back and smiled before kissing you again. You were surprised at how little it bothered you considering his mouth had just been in between your legs. But maybe that was because it was Sy.

“Want more sugar?”

You nodded but surprised him by reaching down to stroke him through his boxers. The moment your hand touched him your eyes widened. He was huge. Your collage boyfriend was apparently 6 inches and that hurt like hell. Sy touched your face gently.

“It’s ok darling. I got you”.

“You’re .. I mean, you’re big”.

“Don’t worry love. I won’t hurt you”.

“Can I .. can you take these off? Can I touch you?”

“Of course Sugar”. Sy removed his boxers and lay down next to you while you took him in your hand. You couldn’t even take him all and you swallowed as you moved your hand up and down slowly. You watched as Sy groaned and closed his eyes.

“That’s it love”. His hand covered yours, showing you how he liked to be stroked. After awhile he let you take over and you made sure to roll your wrist slightly over the head. He seemed to like that. You crawled down his body and before he had a chance to react you moved your mouth down on him at the same time as you stroked him. You couldn’t take much of him in your mouth- he was long and wide.

“Jesus baby”. Sy looked down at you. “Sugar you don’t have to do that”.

“I want to”. You smiled at him. You kept going and you felt Sy’s hand move to the back of your head. He applied gentle pressure and you let him guide you for a few minutes. “Stop love”. Sy’s voice made you release him from you mouth.

“Are you ok?”

“I don’t want to finish in your mouth Sugar”.

“Oh” your cheeks burned. But Sy’s thumb rubbed across your swollen lips.

“Are you ready?”

“Yes Sy”. You went to move onto your back but Sy stopped you and helped you climb over his body.

“This way will be easier for you to control”. Sy pulled you down for a passionate kiss. “Take your time love”.

You raised up and felt Sy line himself up at your entrance. You lowered yourself down slightly while Sy’s thumb rubbed circles on your clit. You paused, with just his head inside you. You could feel yourself stretch and burn to accommodate him.

You watched as Sy bought his thumb to his mouth and sucked on it before moving it back between your legs. The sight turned you on. Sy’s other hand gripped your hip and rocked you back and forth. You felt pleasure and discomfort all at once.

“That’s it Sugar. You feel amazing love”. Sy’s hands ran up your sides to your chest. You gasped as he massaged your breasts then rolled your nipples. The sensation went to your core.

Seconds past and you managed to keep moving down on him. Your legs burned and you started to wonder if this torturous pace was worse for Sy. You needed him to fill you.

“Lean forward”. Sy grabbed your neck, pulling you onto his chest as he kissed you. You cried out into his mouth as he thrusted up into you quickly, embedding himself deep inside of you. You felt your clit rubbing up against his pubic hair and you realised he was completely inside of you.

“Let me get used to you”. You murmured into his neck. You felt so full.

“You ok?”

“Yes .. I can’t believe I’ve taken all of you”.

“Just you wait love .. I’m going to give you another orgasm in a minute”. Sy kissed your collarbone, groaning when you rolled your hips. He gripped your ass, urging you on.

After awhile you sat up, feeling more confident. Sy’s hands gripped your waist as you moved up and down on his shaft.

“Oh god .. it feels good”. You felt wetness pool between your legs. A patch was on Sy’s lower stomach and you saw him glance there.

“Jesus you’re so wet baby. That’s it love .. ride me”. Your hands fell to his chest as you let Sy move you up and down. “Feels so good to be inside you Sugar”.

“Oh Sy”. You threw your head back. He was hitting a spot that made your toes curl in the best possible way. “Right there!”

“Here love?” Sy started to move his hips up. “You’re going to come for me, I can feel it”.

“Sy!” You started chanting his name as he held your hips and repeatedly hit the spot over and over again. You fell forward onto his chest and swore you saw stars as you orgasmed intensely. You were aware of Sy rubbing your back, his hips still thrusting into you .. you sat up slowly.

“Why haven’t you …?”

“Can you lie on your back love?”

You nodded and rolled over. You watched as Sy opened your legs and pushed back inside you, gasping at how deep he was thrusting as he chased his release. You watched him carefully, wanting to see the exact moment.

“Tell me what you need?” You could tell he was close but not quite there. After the pleasure he’d given you, you wanted him to enjoy it too.

“Hold your legs open for me”.

You gripped behind your knees as Sy groaned and started thrusting wildly into you. He started cursing, raised himself onto his knees as he watched himself move in and out of you.

“I’m close”. Sy groaned as he looked at you. “This is how I pictured you. In my bed ..” He thrusted quickly. “Spread open for me .. Jesus .. fuck!” Sy came inside you shouting your name. When his movements slowed he moved to kiss you and you kissed him back, wanting to stay joined with him.

“Stay”. You pulled him back when he went to pull out of you. “Not yet”.

“I don’t want to crush you love”. Sy grabbed your hips and rolled you until you were lying on top of him. He was still buried inside of you. “There you go”.

“Stay inside me. I don’t want this feeling to end”. You whispered against his chest.

“Was it ok Sugar?”

“Oh Sy .. you made me feel alive”. You kissed his chest softly. “Now I know that the gossip is true”.

“What gossip?”

“That you’re amazing in bed”.

“Is that what people talk about?” Sy laughed as he kissed your head. “Well I’ll be truthful love .. that was the best experience I’ve had because of how I feel about you”.

“How do you feel about me?” You looked up at him. Did he feel what your felt?

“Well .. thought it was obvious? I love you Sugar”.

You smiled. Your heart already knew it but hearing Sy say it made your feel complete.

“Love you too”.

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Title - Confession Part 2

Pairings - Sy x reader

Summary - Sy returns home after his 6 month deployment.

Warnings - smut

You melted the moment you saw him walking through the airline terminal with Max. You let go of a breath you didn’t even realise you were holding. Max was home, Sy was home. The two most important people in the world were really home. You heart clenched the closer he got - 6 months of phone calls and the occasional FaceTime. 6 months of wondering if he was ok. 6 months of imagining this moment. And Max .. your brother had called you and told you that Sy had spoken to him, and he was happy for you both to get to know each other. His support meant everything to you.

Soon Max was hugging you and over his shoulder you saw Sy greet his family. You knew in a matter of moments you’d get to touch him again. When his eyes found yours you felt as if time had stopped. He inched closer and you noticed max subtly pull your family aside.

“Sugar”. Sy’s arms wrapped around you as you pulled on his military vest to crush your body against his. He held you close for a moment then pulled back and tried to kiss you. Your hands quickly pushed against his chest.

“Please not here .. I need .. I need to be alone with you”. You prayed that he’d understand.

“Of course love. Sorry, I wasn’t thinking straight”. Sy smiled at you. “Course you don’t want out first kiss to be public”.

You nodded when he’d asked you to come by his apartment. His hand lightly brushed yours and you swear you felt a spark. It was strange how two people with so much distance between them could have got to the stage you both were. With physical limitations, you’d both talked and got to know each other on a different level. And there was a different kind of intimacy - one where he’d describe how he’d kiss you and you swear you could almost feel his lips.

A while later and you were inside his apartment. Sy had showered and you were glad to see his military gear gone. He moved towards you and picked you up as you involuntarily wrapped your legs around his waist. He took you to the kitchen where he placed you on the table before his hands moved to your thighs to open them while he stood inbetween. His hands cupped your face and he moved slowly until your lips collided. Softly at first then he coaxed your mouth open and his tongue found yours.

“Missed you”. Sy muttered in between kisses. “Read your letter a thousand times”.

“I slept with yours under my pillow”. You whispered as he kissed your jaw. “Is this so real? Tell me it’s real Sy?”

“It’s real Sugar”.

“I’ve wanted you since I was a teenager. I’ve wanted you for so long”.

“You think I didn’t want you? I tried to stay away .. you were Max’s little sister”.

“Oh Sy”.

“I remember you on your sixteenth birthday. God you looked beautiful in that blue dress”. Sy looked into your eyes.

“You remember that dress?”

“Course I remember”. Sy smiled. “But you were sixteen and I was twenty one. Just seemed wrong of me”.

You wrapped your legs around Sy’s waist and pulled his body close. You could feel his hardness against your core. He watched you closely as you moved against him and your mouth fell open.

“Sy”. You kissed his lips.

“What do you need love?”

“I spent 6 months imaging being with you .. 6 months dreaming of you”. You rolled your hips and Sy groaned.

“I know love. I did the same”. This time Sy moved against you and you wondered for a moment if you should just rip his clothes off now? Why wait? Hadn’t you both waited enough?

“I want to take you out on that date”. Sy still moved against you but you could read between the lines. “I don’t want to ruin things by jumping in too fast”. Sy shook his head. “Never thought those words would come out of my mouth”.

You rested your forehead against his. He was right. As hard as it was not to just jump into bed, what you had deserved more.

“I’d like that Sy”. You smiled softly. “I’ve been waiting 6 months for you to take me out”.

His hands gripped your thighs and you could tell he was having trouble holding back. You touched the side of his face and knew that you both needed to reel your emotions in.

“I want to see Max .. spend time with him. And you need to rest and see your family. How about this weekend?” You paused. “I think that would be logical?”

“You’re right Sugar”.

“I don’t want to be apart from you though”. You smiled. “Not even for two days”.

………..

The next few weeks you were inseparable. Dates with Sy were amazing and you discovered that the big beast of a man was actually a romantic at heart. He took you out to new places, you went out for dinner, diving off a reef and even booked tickets to take you out to the ballet. You found that heartwarming, knowing that he had zero interest in dance, but had listened to you enough to know that you’d always wanted to go. You were aware that he studied your face that night more than the dancers on the stage - later admitting that he found his own happiness seeing the joy on your face.

You’d made out a lot but he’d always be a gentleman and you knew that crossing that boundary had to come from you. So one night as you were kissing on his sofa you pulled his face to yours.

“Take me to bed Sy”. You watched his breath hitch as he studied your face. “I’m ready”.

“Sugar I don’t want you to think …”

“Sy .. I want you”. You kissed his lips softly. “Do you want me?”

“Course I do love”.

“Then take me to bed”. You smiled softly. “Don’t think you’ve ever gone this long before an I right?”

“I don’t care about myself love. I care about you”.

“And I’m saying I want you”. You stared at him. “I want you”.

“Sugar I need to ask ..”

“In college. I’ve only been with one guy Sy. And to be honest it was over before it started”. You paused. “Part of my plan to get over you .. it didn’t work”.

“Sugar .. wish I had of acted sooner”. Sy swallowed. “Feels like wasted time”.

“No Sy. Things happen for a reason”.

“Do I need ..”

“I don’t want you to. I’m on the pill to help you know .. with my cycles”. You felt your cheeks flush. “Is that ok .. I mean ..”

“Just do you know love, I’ve never not worn a condom before”. Sy kissed your lips. “Always been responsible. But with you .. I’d love to feel you. If you want that too?”.

You kissed him and things soon got heated. He picked you up bridal style and carried you into his bedroom.

He laid you down on his big king sized bed while he stood and pulled off his t shirt. You moved up on your elbows and watched as he pulled down his shorts and stood there clad in his navy blue boxers. Just looking at him made your insides turn to jelly. He wasn’t just physically handsome but it was the way he licked his lips, his chest heaved and his muscles tensed.

“You’ve got too many clothes on love”.

Sy unbuttoned your jeans and helped you wriggle out of them. He moved them slowly over your feet as his eyes fell to your delicate pink lace panties.

“You’re stunning”. He lent over you and raised your arms as he pulled off your t shirt. When his eyes saw the matching bra he sucked in a breath. “My god dammed fantasy”.

Before you could react his mouth captured your lace covered nipple and you cried out. You loved the way he was in no hurry to remove your underwear, he was just enjoying being acquainted with your body.

“Perfect”. Sy muttered as he kissed your cleavage only to repeat the action to the other nipple. This time he sucked, dampening the fabric so that it stuck to your sensitive skin. He spent time kissing your lips and neck before resuming his attention to your breasts. This time he teased you - sliding his tongue along the top of your bra cup, mere inches from your hardened nipple. You grabbed the back of his head, urging him to do more.

“Hands here”. He took your wrists and moved your hands above your head. “Don’t move them darling”.

“Sy …” You moaned when he teased you again and you arched your back. “Please”.

“Because you asked nicely”. You felt him smile against your skin before he pulled your cup down and bought your breast to his mouth. You moaned loudly, loving the way he took as much of your breast into his mouth and sucked before pulling away and flicking his tongue around your nipple.

“Sy .. please .. feels so good”. You felt wetness pool between your legs.

“Let me try the other one”. Sy repeated the action and you grinded against him. So this was foreplay? Not exactly the experience you had with your collage boyfriend who kissed you before squirting lube between your legs and trying to push inside you. The experience had been awkward and painful.

Sy moved you to the side and unclasped your bra before removing it from your arms. For a moment he hugged you, feeling your skin upon his before he moved lower, kissing your stomach. You froze. No guy had ever gone down on you before.

“Wait!” You saw Sy jerk his head up fast. “Are you …”

“You ok Sugar? Talk to me”.

“I’ve never ..”

“Oh ..” Sy smiled at you as his hand caressed your thigh. “Lemme show you what you’ve been missing then. If you don’t like anything you tell me ok”.

“But do you .. like doing that?” Your cheeks burned.

“Lay back darling. Let me make you feel good and I bet you’ll tell how I feel”.

You lay back against the pillows as Sy moved in between your parted thighs. Before you could feel uncomfortable with how close he was to your most private parts, his mouth sucked on your clit. The sensation had you crying out and your hips moved. Sy reached an arm out to cover your stomach, keeping you still while he repeated the action. This time he slid his tongue down further only to lick up your slit.

“Sy .. oh god”.

His arm let go of you and you felt his fingers part your folds. He repeated the action with his tongue until you were a moaning mess then he slid his middle finger inside you.

“You gonna cum for me darling?” Sy moved his finger in and out while he sucked on your clit. You grabbed fistfuls of the bedsheets and started feeling a coiling in your stomach.

Sy added another finger and let go of your clit with a pop. He moved up slightly and watched your face as he increased the pace.

“Come on baby”.

“Sy! Oh god Sy!” You screamed so loudly you were certain his whole street heard you. You’d heard of earth shattering orgasms but you never thought you’d ever experience one. Your body shook and you noticed Sy watching you with hooded eyes as they drifted from your face to between your legs where his fingers still moved inside you.

“Can’t”. You grabbed his wrist, suddenly feeling sensitive.

“God you’re beautiful when you cum”. Sy removed his fingers and hovered over your body. “I wanna kiss you so bad”.

You bought your lips to his and tasted yourself. He pulled back and smiled before kissing you again. You were surprised at how little it bothered you considering his mouth had just been in between your legs. But maybe that was because it was Sy.

“Want more sugar?”

You nodded but surprised him by reaching down to stroke him through his boxers. The moment your hand touched him your eyes widened. He was huge. Your collage boyfriend was apparently 6 inches and that hurt like hell. Sy touched your face gently.

“It’s ok darling. I got you”.

“You’re .. I mean, you’re big”.

“Don’t worry love. I won’t hurt you”.

“Can I .. can you take these off? Can I touch you?”

“Of course Sugar”. Sy removed his boxers and lay down next to you while you took him in your hand. You couldn’t even take him all and you swallowed as you moved your hand up and down slowly. You watched as Sy groaned and closed his eyes.

“That’s it love”. His hand covered yours, showing you how he liked to be stroked. After awhile he let you take over and you made sure to roll your wrist slightly over the head. He seemed to like that. You crawled down his body and before he had a chance to react you moved your mouth down on him at the same time as you stroked him. You couldn’t take much of him in your mouth- he was long and wide.

“Jesus baby”. Sy looked down at you. “Sugar you don’t have to do that”.

“I want to”. You smiled at him. You kept going and you felt Sy’s hand move to the back of your head. He applied gentle pressure and you let him guide you for a few minutes. “Stop love”. Sy’s voice made you release him from you mouth.

“Are you ok?”

“I don’t want to finish in your mouth Sugar”.

“Oh” your cheeks burned. But Sy’s thumb rubbed across your swollen lips.

“Are you ready?”

“Yes Sy”. You went to move onto your back but Sy stopped you and helped you climb over his body.

“This way will be easier for you to control”. Sy pulled you down for a passionate kiss. “Take your time love”.

You raised up and felt Sy line himself up at your entrance. You lowered yourself down slightly while Sy’s thumb rubbed circles on your clit. You paused, with just his head inside you. You could feel yourself stretch and burn to accommodate him.

You watched as Sy bought his thumb to his mouth and sucked on it before moving it back between your legs. The sight turned you on. Sy’s other hand gripped your hip and rocked you back and forth. You felt pleasure and discomfort all at once.

“That’s it Sugar. You feel amazing love”. Sy’s hands ran up your sides to your chest. You gasped as he massaged your breasts then rolled your nipples. The sensation went to your core.

Seconds past and you managed to keep moving down on him. Your legs burned and you started to wonder if this torturous pace was worse for Sy. You needed him to fill you.

“Lean forward”. Sy grabbed your neck, pulling you onto his chest as he kissed you. You cried out into his mouth as he thrusted up into you quickly, embedding himself deep inside of you. You felt your clit rubbing up against his pubic hair and you realised he was completely inside of you.

“Let me get used to you”. You murmured into his neck. You felt so full.

“You ok?”

“Yes .. I can’t believe I’ve taken all of you”.

“Just you wait love .. I’m going to give you another orgasm in a minute”. Sy kissed your collarbone, groaning when you rolled your hips. He gripped your ass, urging you on.

After awhile you sat up, feeling more confident. Sy’s hands gripped your waist as you moved up and down on his shaft.

“Oh god .. it feels good”. You felt wetness pool between your legs. A patch was on Sy’s lower stomach and you saw him glance there.

“Jesus you’re so wet baby. That’s it love .. ride me”. Your hands fell to his chest as you let Sy move you up and down. “Feels so good to be inside you Sugar”.

“Oh Sy”. You threw your head back. He was hitting a spot that made your toes curl in the best possible way. “Right there!”

“Here love?” Sy started to move his hips up. “You’re going to come for me, I can feel it”.

“Sy!” You started chanting his name as he held your hips and repeatedly hit the spot over and over again. You fell forward onto his chest and swore you saw stars as you orgasmed intensely. You were aware of Sy rubbing your back, his hips still thrusting into you .. you sat up slowly.

“Why haven’t you …?”

“Can you lie on your back love?”

You nodded and rolled over. You watched as Sy opened your legs and pushed back inside you, gasping at how deep he was thrusting as he chased his release. You watched him carefully, wanting to see the exact moment.

“Tell me what you need?” You could tell he was close but not quite there. After the pleasure he’d given you, you wanted him to enjoy it too.

“Hold your legs open for me”.

You gripped behind your knees as Sy groaned and started thrusting wildly into you. He started cursing, raised himself onto his knees as he watched himself move in and out of you.

“I’m close”. Sy groaned as he looked at you. “This is how I pictured you. In my bed ..” He thrusted quickly. “Spread open for me .. Jesus .. fuck!” Sy came inside you shouting your name. When his movements slowed he moved to kiss you and you kissed him back, wanting to stay joined with him.

“Stay”. You pulled him back when he went to pull out of you. “Not yet”.

“I don’t want to crush you love”. Sy grabbed your hips and rolled you until you were lying on top of him. He was still buried inside of you. “There you go”.

“Stay inside me. I don’t want this feeling to end”. You whispered against his chest.

“Was it ok Sugar?”

“Oh Sy .. you made me feel alive”. You kissed his chest softly. “Now I know that the gossip is true”.

“What gossip?”

“That you’re amazing in bed”.

“Is that what people talk about?” Sy laughed as he kissed your head. “Well I’ll be truthful love .. that was the best experience I’ve had because of how I feel about you”.

“How do you feel about me?” You looked up at him. Did he feel what your felt?

“Well .. thought it was obvious? I love you Sugar”.

You smiled. Your heart already knew it but hearing Sy say it made your feel complete.

“Love you too”.

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