Sometimes you spend Saturday (one of your two free days a week) sitting in the stairwell because your insurance will only fill your specialty meds thru the mail and your doorbell is broken so if you want to get your medication you have to watch for the FedEx truck
By you I mean me
(5 hours and meds still not here)
I am tired of having this body and I deserve a new one after the massive hell this one has put me through
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sometimes I look at the folders of 2 (3?)-plus years of art that has never been posted (or only posted extremely privately) and think I should try to monetize this somehow to help pay for certain medical procedures that are not covered by insurance
But then remember that there is not a market and so just move on to more reasonable strategies like saving money every month. also it is extremely antithetical to my nature to advertise myself (made getting a new job fuckin loads of fun) even for a cause like being more comfortable in my body so I doubt it would ever go anywhere
Also also I would feel bad about getting money for my dumbass drawings and/or weird written bullshit that isnt good enough for ao3
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On one of my usual walking routes there's a pair of mannequin legs out in the front garden of one house and today they were standing in and topped with snow
There's nothing else to this really but I do enjoy someone having a pair of very shapely mannequin legs that cut off at the lower torso out in all elements. If no one else got me the mannequin legs on [redacted street name] got me
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CW: blood and medical stuff
It is just over 7 years now since my diagnosis with an autoimmune* disease (~10 years since symptoms started) and I don't really have anything profound or useful to say, but A) don't let people tell you it's just stress without any further testing if you have unexplained internal bleeding and B) if you literally can't stay awake because you've been bleeding for a few months straight, don't listen to the PCP who tells you not to go to the hospital because your hands are too pink and rosy for you to actually be anemic and there's not much the hospital will be able to do for you anyway
Two-ish days after that appointment I was in the hospital and almost immediately getting a transfusion because I was so anemic. (I would end up getting a 2nd as well because continued bleeding + already low on blood = first one not enough.) Stayed there for almost a month until they got the bleeding under control.
This could have happened to anyone but it's hard not to think that being afab probably had something to do with the downplaying and dismissal of symptoms for 3ish years before being diagnosed. They did the classic "it's probably just stress" because I was a senior in college (and possibly because afab). I don't want to make this a never trust medical professionals kind of thing, because there are many good ones and some of them probably saved my life and/or prevented me from having major surgery (which turned out not to be necessary at the time b/c the med they tried started to work)... but also when things are obviously wrong and especially if they recur (like unexplained bleeding cropping up again and again over years) maybe don't take "it's just stress" as an explanation. Also fuck the doctor who thought he could diagnose anemia or lack thereof by hand color and who advised against further treatment ("just wait until your specialist appointment in a month!")
*there does seem to be some debate about whether my particular condition should be classified as autoimmune or not, but enough people do at this moment I'm just gonna go with it because it's treated like many autoimmune diseases are, with various immunosuppressants or immune system modulating medications
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Youtube waited 2 weeks to recommend me new motion twin game trailer? But served me like 20 jerma clips in that same period that I immediately said "do not recommend" to? Literally don't know what the fuck the algorithm is thinking. (I am begging algorithm stop fucking showing me that streamer man I do not like him I do not want to watch clips of him or compilations or vods or anything.)
I am... torn, because obviously something like this was coming, and I will likely enjoy the game, but I've been so spoiled by semi regular Dead Cells updates and also it's my Thing, and I'm bad at dealing with endings, so this is very bittersweet. More on the bitter side than sweet tbh but I'm actively trying to be a non-bitter person so.
Cute little guys tho, can't deny that. Definitely hope the game keeps some of the same visual interest as dead cells b/c probably one of the things that does make me come back to it is the visuals, especially the color palettes. Hades is very good in that regard too (and probably better in terms of style, but I'm a sucker for pixel art), but a lot of games* vaguely in the same arena as dead cells are beautiful but muted and/or deliberately kind of dark/grimy/restricted to very limited color palettes. Based on the fairly limited footage it definitely looks like it will.
*games I've actually played. There could be hundreds of great pretty bright games that get lumped into the same broad metroidvania/roguelike/roguelite/whatever category as dead cells that I havent experienced. Only speaking to what I've been exposed to personally.
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