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Played a little more tonight because I wasn't frozen by the ghost of all the other tasks I could be doing 👍

Finally have been able to play a video game for more than two seconds. Made a new wood elf warlock. Her name is Allorah and I don't know much about her yet! I'll make a new portrait for each act as she changes her look up (gets covered in scars and buzzes her hair off 👍)

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repaint :^)

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found a drawing by my dear friend @shllebyy on my computer and wanted to try my hand at it :>

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Just some recent pics :)

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found a drawing by my dear friend @shllebyy on my computer and wanted to try my hand at it :>

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Rosie in the garden 💜

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up there

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"I feared how I would see her next. I'd seen her body in the hospital; it had taken on new angles that shouldn't exist. Surely she was angry. Surely she couldn't come back whole."

I'll probably never make a full comic adaptation of All That Hair All That Blood, but wouldn't it be cool if I did 👉👈

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Thinking about how I absolutely would've died in childbirth if I hadn't been at a hospital

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waiting in the starless sky

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Going to talk a bit about my mental health under the cut. It's unlike anything I've ever experienced before and I was curious if anyone has experienced something similar?

I don't remember anything from September—December 2023. I remember falling behind on everything, and I remember spending a lot of time in bed, and then nothing.

I woke up in January. I was aware again; not in a fugue state anymore. But every day felt like a nightmare. I woke up and the air was burnt and yellow and awful. My bones were bruised. I cried all the time; everything felt horrific and sticky. I crawled my way through each individual day until around late January when most days were fine again and I felt mostly normal.

But it's not gone away. Those days still come. The days where all I can do is sob and wait for the day to end so I can try again, see if it's any better the next time. Where the days feel sinister and nothing helps. Which like, don't get me wrong, I've been depressed before. But not like this.

I have no photos from that time. Very few texts. A couple social media posts. Everyone I've talked to said I seemed subdued but did everything as normal; dinner was cooked, my son was taken care of. But I didn't draw, or play games, or watch movies. I didn't sing or make jokes. I just sort of existed.

I'd ask my psychiatrist but she passed shortly before all this started happening :')

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I tried a different direction and it worked!!

"If you see light" 2024, repaint

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Insta got to see these WIPs so you should too ✨

I don't usually... have WIPs? I usually finish a painting in one, maaaaybe two sittings. But these are being difficult!! The second one I'm mostly just ambivalent about, which means it's time to either trash it or try a different direction 🤷‍♀️

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a retouch of an old painting! Mostly lighting changes and creating a clearer composition 👍

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Hi

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because she was mentioned so I watched a bunch of her cut scenes and I got briefly obsessed 👍

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Glory to the Forsaken!!!

I was SUCH a simp for Sylvanas the Banshee Queen... I guess I never really stopped being one but I have... mixed feelings now, as many do lol

Undead 4ever