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NICE TO SEE YOU... AGAIN

It was summer when I first saw you, you gave me that smile that makes my heart go crazy, and you looked at me as if I’m the only one in that café. I remember how I didn’t give you my name easily but inside I’m dying to be yours already. I remember how I would rush from school to the café to see you, because I know you’ll be there, I know you’ll let me listen to the voice memos that you recorded and asked for my opinions, and I know that you will never get tired of my rants about school. At the end of summer I finally told you my name, I finally told you my feelings. And that was the time you told me, “I’ve been waiting to say this to you. I love you. I love you, Y/N. I love you since the first day I looked into your eyes. I knew that you were the one.”

Years passed, going to an award shows, sold-out concerts, red carpets, staying up all night to accompany him while writing songs, exchanging cute messages, nonsense an argument, listening to all my rants, shared apartment, listening to each other’s dreams, and the list goes on. You taught me what love is, what forgiveness is, you taught me so many things. I never thought I will see the world, most especially I never thought I will see the world with you, the man that makes me feel so loved.

We’ve been through a lot, so many ups and so many downs. We managed to keep it private as much as possible, we managed to keep our relationship into ourselves. Those were the best 8 years of my life. You were the best part of my life.

“Hi.” He greeted me as if it’s the first time he saw me.

“Hi.” I said. I smiled, not the smile that I usually gave him, today I gave him an reassurance smile to tell him that I moved on and that I’m not mad anymore.

“I’m happy to see you again, Y/N.”

“Me too, Shawn. Congrats on your tour by the way.” I smiled.

“Thank you. You too, Congrats on finishing med school.” He smiled. The smile that he usually gives me, the smile that I fell in love with. “I’m so proud of you, Y/N.” He said with so much sincerity in his voice.

I just smiled. This is the most unexpected time and place to bump into him. But maybe that’s why we get to bumped into each other is to reassure each other that we’re both in a better place now, that we’re both content with our lives now. That we’re better even if there’s no “us” anymore even if it’s just me and him now.

“Nice to see you, Shawn.” I smiled.

“Again.” He whispered. I heard it, but I didn’t look back at him because I know that if I do, I’ll be so hurt. We’re better now, we’re okay now. I’m happy for him, and I know that he’s happy for me too.

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STAY

“Shawn please!” I’m begging him, begging him to stay.

“I’m sorry, Y/N. But I can’t stay. I can’t keep on coming back to you when I know that I don’t love you anymore.”

“But Shawn please-“

“Y/N, you have to move on. Please, I’m doing this for the both of us.”

“I don’t understand Shawn, I don’t.” The tears that are falling down into my cheecks are unstoppable. This is just too much.

“Someday you’ll realize that I was right. That breaking up with me is a good thing, this is for you. I’m doing this for you.” He wanted to cry but he’s trying so hard not to.

[shawnmlovin-blog]

NICE TO SEE YOU... AGAIN

It was summer when I first saw you, you gave me that smile that makes my heart go crazy, and you looked at me as if I’m the only one in that café. I remember how I didn’t give you my name easily but inside I’m dying to be yours already. I remember how I would rush from school to the café to see you, because I know you’ll be there, I know you’ll let me listen to the voice memos that you recorded and asked for my opinions, and I know that you will never get tired of my rants about school. At the end of summer I finally told you my name, I finally told you my feelings. And that was the time you told me, “I’ve been waiting to say this to you. I love you. I love you, Y/N. I love you since the first day I looked into your eyes. I knew that you were the one.”

Years passed, going to an award shows, sold-out concerts, red carpets, staying up all night to accompany him while writing songs, exchanging cute messages, nonsense an argument, listening to all my rants, shared apartment, listening to each other’s dreams, and the list goes on. You taught me what love is, what forgiveness is, you taught me so many things. I never thought I will see the world, most especially I never thought I will see the world with you, the man that makes me feel so loved.

We’ve been through a lot, so many ups and so many downs. We managed to keep it private as much as possible, we managed to keep our relationship into ourselves. Those were the best 8 years of my life. You were the best part of my life.

“Hi.” He greeted me as if it’s the first time he saw me.

“Hi.” I said. I smiled, not the smile that I usually gave him, today I gave him an reassurance smile to tell him that I moved on and that I’m not mad anymore.

“I’m happy to see you again, Y/N.”

“Me too, Shawn. Congrats on your tour by the way.” I smiled.

“Thank you. You too, Congrats on finishing med school.” He smiled. The smile that he usually gives me, the smile that I fell in love with. “I’m so proud of you, Y/N.” He said with so much sincerity in his voice.

I just smiled. This is the most unexpected time and place to bump into him. But maybe that’s why we get to bumped into each other is to reassure each other that we’re both in a better place now, that we’re both content with our lives now. That we’re better even if there’s no “us” anymore even if it’s just me and him now.

“Nice to see you, Shawn.” I smiled.

“Again.” He whispered. I heard it, but I didn’t look back at him because I know that if I do, I’ll be so hurt. We’re better now, we’re okay now. I’m happy for him, and I know that he’s happy for me too.