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Late night edits for friends new band, working on this double exposure game

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The amount of cringe in my posting from my old Tumblr is just...incredible.

I sound like a half developed monkey man, and honestly it's made me quite proud to hear the way I talk and process information nowadays, I didn't think anything would help me feel better tonight but I was wrong. That helped me.

Writing helps me. Thinking about the incredible amount of thoughts we have constantly is baffling, and I can just tell how unbelievably negative my internal dialogue is and it's so deep that I can admit that it's also frustrating to try and change it. It's rooted so, so deep, I feel like I honestly could be going to therapy every day to deal with this stuff. I'm glad I write though, because looking back at my crass 2015 self, there's a lot of recurring themes:

Restlessness

Addiction

Dissatisfaction

Relationship disfunction

So how do I deal with those things nowadays?

Well, mindfulness is huge, and I am better than I used to be but that will be my focus this week.

Alcohol, you sly old fox. Read these messages my dude, 2014 you was saying straight up the same way you're feeling nowadays and it's okay. You're loved and no one wants to see you drink yourself into misery, and it's certainly not helping your misery. Alcohol distracts and puts you into a 2 day cycle of low frequency and function, and it's time to recognize that. It's been over a decade now of partying and what's come from it? So many good nights, sure, but the cost has got pretty heavy. The thoughts about your values is taking over and it's time to live towards those.

Let's start with kindness to ourselves. Let's do these things because we want to be a better person for us and our friends and family, not because you feel guilty.

All the love 🖤

All the power ✊️

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Misery Ridge Respite

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Hi

Hi

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People falsely fantasize this.

This mindset and lifestyle is a double edged sword and my brain are killing me.

Not good to be this drunk/high after a weird date. People are the worst. I am people.

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Wow. I was (almost) tumblr famous once. I just realized I started this blog almost 10 years ago, damn. I’m 30 now and I think it might be time to browse back.

Life is crazy y’all. The distance in between now and then feels so long, and yet almost like yesterday. Perception, attitude, goals, everything. Everything. How have you been lovely people? Hit up ya boy. Let’s see if this thing still works.

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@down-but-not-defeated

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Life can be so ironic. Years and years (something like 8 to be exact) after forgetting what it's like to love someone and practically giving up, she comes through and even in her total unavailability lights that part of you back up. The irony of her being married is such a "life" thing to do. And for once, it wasnt something learned, or developed, or even sparked by any sort of physical experiences. It was a pure, honest love where you were just happy for every word to come out of her lips at you. It was like seeing a better version of yourself reflected back at you which you realize is the most inspiring thing you could experience. And to this day it seems like a depressing thing, but honestly, that bit of hope has been illuminating. And if nothing else, I sure am one lucky person to even know someone that can do that to me.

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Man y'all, I dont get how I get this depressed. I just left a boatload of people who love me, a town where everyone knows me, and I feel so damn alone. And because of my following, tumblr is the only place I can really say this. Like, to anyone. And it still feels quite stupid.

You know what I would like to hear? A story like this, where someone found themselves by changing just a few things. Those are my favorite stories.

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cause im mr brightside

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Hello my old Tumblr friends, I hope you are doing well.  It sure has been a bit.

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thank you zion for being a shining light on this rainy day ⛈

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Walt is a little unsure about all this. Put me down fam! Just a preview of my Christmas photoset to come, if you haven't followed my photography page yet, go do so on Facebook at Stephan Pruitt Photography ya jabronies! #stephanpruittphotography #portraitphotography #nikond750 #family (at Barnardsville, North Carolina)

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Queen Sheba, ruler of Napland and shoestrings. It's a tough life, but she's been a (mostly) willing model for my new lens. #sigma35art #stephanpruittphotography #catz #catsofinstagram #catnap #photography #nikond750 #nikon