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i want to think that saeran likes turtlenecks 

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this is amazing and hot and glorious so i’ll reblog, but don’t think i’ve forgotten about the second part to that college au you said you were working on, ya butt. 

a taste of paradise (1/2)

Bad Ending: Ray is unable to contain Unknown on Day 8, and he comes to kidnap you, taking you back to Mint Eye. CW: Kidnapping, non-consensual kissing/touching, drug use. 

“Are you afraid?” Ray looks at you earnestly, his eyes bright and unwavering. “Don’t be. I made it sweet, just for you. You told me you like sweet things, remember?” He holds out the bottle of swirling blue liquid, his gloved fingers twitching against the crystal. “Before you left. You told me.”

You don’t reply. You’re frozen with fear and dread, still disbelieving that Ray had managed to capture you and drag you back to this compound. No, not Ray. It hadn’t been Ray that had grabbed you roughly by the arm last night, clamping a hand over your mouth and spiriting you out of the woods, away from V’s side. It had been someone who looked like Ray, but wasn’t. Someone dark and smirking and dangerous, who had shoved you into a car and brushed his lips against your ear.

I told you that I’d make you mine, he had whispered, and you had shivered even as you desperately kicked and struggled.

And now you’re back here, at Mint Eye. The plush magenta of the carpeting is familiar to you, but far from comforting. As is the hand that comes to rest on your shoulder from behind, soft and yet so deathly cold.

“It didn’t have to be like this,” Rika says, quiet and mournful. “I didn’t want to have to make you take the elixir. But then you left us. You abandoned us, for V. You left the darkness to chase the light.”

Before you can respond, Ray surges towards you. “But she’s back now, right, Savior? I—he—brought her back, and now everything will okay, now, right? Everything will be happy now. As long as she takes the elixir.”

“Yes.” Suddenly Rika’s arms wrap around you from behind, just like they had only a few days ago. “You’re shaking,” she whispers. She holds you closer, her touch ever gentle, and yet her embrace feels like an inescapable prison. “Don’t be afraid. Ray is right. You’re back now, and that’s all that matters.”

“Please.” It’s the first word you’ve managed to say since you got here, and you hate how pitifully scared it sounds. “Please let me go.”

“Go?” Ray frowns, looking genuinely puzzled. “Go where? You’re right where you belong. With us.”

“If it’s the elixir you’re afraid of,” Rika says, “don’t worry. You won’t have to take a lot. Just a little today, to make sure you’re not tricked by V’s lies again. And then you won’t ever have to take any more of it again.”

You shake your head, thinking of V lying pale and shaking in his bed. You need to return to him. You need to help him. And you don’t want even a drop of what he had been forced to drink in your body.

Ray stares at you, gaze suddenly uncertain. “Why…why are you shaking your head? Aren’t you happy to be back here? Don’t you want to stay with us? I—I missed you so much, you know? So much that I thought I was going to die.” He pops open the bottle, and a sickly sweet aroma fills the air. “I spent all night making this, thinking of you. Thinking of everything we’ll be able to do together, once you’ve taken this. Thinking of all the things I’ll be able to do—with you—” There’s a sudden flush to his pale cheeks, and his eyes drop to the floor. “I’ve been thinking about you nonstop,” he whispers, voice hoarse. “We’ll be so happy, you know. I’ll make you happy. All you have to do is take this.”

There’s a part of your heart that aches at his words. You know this part of your heart wants to use your mouth comfort him, and use your body to lean into Rika’s embrace. But you can’t do either of these things. Not while V is still out there, injured and in pain.

“You’re still thinking about him, aren’t you?” Rika’s voice is sharp, suddenly, with an edge that you immediately recognize. But then it softens just as suddenly, and her hand stretches out in front of you. “Ray, give me the elixir.”

“…savior?” Ray complies, looking confused, and Rika’s fingers close around the bottle.

“When children don’t want to take their medicine, their parents will offer them something sweet like candy in exchange for their cooperation,” she says, her voice still right by your ear. It’s as soothing as ever, and yet your entire body is on edge. “My parents never did that for me, and we’re not children anymore. So if I want to get you to drink this, we’ll have to offer you something a little more…persuasive.” She tips her head back slightly, and you watch wide-eyed as she brings the bottle to her lips. “Watch me, Ray,” she says. “You’re going to do the same thing to her once I’m done.”

The bottle empties slightly as Rika pours some of the elixir into her mouth. But she doesn’t swallow. Instead, she brushes her fingers against your jaw and turns your head back to face her. And then, in the next breath, her lips are on yours.

You freeze, stunned into inaction. Rika’s lips are soft, but you hardly have time to register their feeling before she pushes on your jaw again, forcing your mouth open. Something cold and syrupy trickles onto your tongue, but it’s immediately followed by the taste of Rika, sweet and warm. You vaguely register a choked kind of sound coming from Ray, but then you feel Rika’s tongue moving languidly against yours, and your senses are swiftly overwhelmed. You think that you should push her away, or struggle, but as she caresses your face and explores your mouth you can’t do anything but helplessly whimper. Because it feels good. Her skin is always so cold, but her mouth is hot, and you feel like you’re melting as she deepens the kiss. Somewhere along the way, you swallow convulsively, unable to take the liquid clogging your throat. And finally, Rika pulls away, leaving you panting and breathless.

An unexpected wave of dizziness crashes over you, and you’re suddenly grateful for the way Rika is still holding you from behind. You stare dazedly up at her, flushed and still gasping, and find her smiling back at you. “Good girl,” she murmurs. “That wasn’t so bad, was it?”

You cough. You’re not sure how quickly the elixir works, but your mind feels fuzzier already. You’re wondering if those are the effects of the elixir or the kiss when Rika speaks again.

“Ray. It’s your turn.”

Ray is staring at you. His eyes are enormous, his entire frame rigid and trembling. The look in his eyes is impossible to discern; a dozen different emotions flicker through, too fast to process. “I—” His face is flushed, and his hand shakes as he takes the bottle from Rika. “My savior, I—”

“You want her to stay, don’t you?” You can hear the smile in Rika’s voice, and she presses a kiss gently to your temple. “Didn’t you say you wanted her more than anything? You love her, don’t you, Ray?”

“Yes,” Ray says immediately. He takes a step forward, bringing the bottle up to his mouth. “Of course I do. More than anything.” He looks at you, and his expression softens. “More than anything,” he repeats. “I want to make you happy. This elixir will make you happy. Will make us happy. Okay?” He hesitates again, bottle still hovering by his lips. “Is that okay? I…I don’t want to do anything you don’t want me to do. I don’t want you to hate me.”

Your vision swims, and you know the drug is taking effect now. You’re not sure what you say to Ray, but then in the next second he’s pressed against you, cupping your face gently in his hands.

“I love you,” he whispers. “I love you, I love you.” He takes some of the elixir into his mouth, and then covers your mouth with his. You feel it trickling down your throat again, and you feel Ray’s gentle probing as he tentatively moves his lips against yours. He treats you carefully, like you’re made of glass, his kisses deep and slow. It’s clear he doesn’t know entirely what he’s doing—he doesn’t have experience, not like Rika does—and yet this kiss makes you ache all the same, your body burning for more of his touch even as your mind rebels. His fingers stroke your hair, and his tongue moves slowly against yours as more of the elixir trickles into your mouth. When he finally pulls away, your knees give out from under you. He catches you by the elbows as Rika supports you from behind, and between the two of them you manage to stand upright again.

You can’t stop shaking, and yet your body is achingly hot. Please, you want to say, but your lips can’t form words. Even if they could, you don’t even know what you’d be begging for. Your mind is sluggish, and your movements are slow.

“It looks like the elixir is working. She needs rest,” Rika says. Her voice sounds faraway. “You don’t need to worry anymore. You’re safe now, with us. Ray and I will take care of you. Ray, take her back to her old room. I’m sure she’s missed it.”

You’re scooped up into Ray’s arms, and you’re too dizzy to struggle as he begins carrying you up a flight of stairs. “You’re so light,” he says. “So delicate. It was so easy to bring you here. I’m glad. I’m—” His voice cracks, and you vaguely register the wetness of tears dripping from his face. “I’m so happy. I’m so happy you’re back.” A familiar set of doors swing open, and then Ray is putting you back on your old bed, where you had slept only a few nights ago.

He kisses you again, on the forehead this time. You can see him smiling down you as your consciousness begins to fade.

“Welcome home.”

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When no one is looking~ 

*whispers* I love Lonbin…so much.

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grumpy lumberjack orc lady who just wants to be left alone to her forest, just her and her dog and her gf

she currently does not have a dog or gf and wants both desperately 

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royal kids 👑✨

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lololl amazing

derp

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Why can’t we help her. Whyyyyy Cheritzzzzzzzzzzz. 

i’m so so sad for Rika…She honestly deserved better and i don’t care what you all say,she deserved happiness as much as V did. This is the last chatroom with Rika before she committed suicide,by the way.I wish i could do something..save her..ugH MY HEART IS SO BROKEN

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Rika and BPD (Or, why you don’t have to like Rika, but shouldn’t just brand her as evil)

Okay, first off, TW for those who have BPD, or who have loved ones with BPD, due to the rather insensitive way in which Cheritz portrayed the disorder.

Now. It’s perfectly understandable if you don’t like Rika. She’s done a lot of really terrible, hurtful things--things that are difficult to forgive. However, I do think it’s both unfair and inaccurate to brand Rika as outright evil, or call her a snake, a bitch, etc, etc, because her behavior is rooted in sickness rather than active malice. And no, don’t worry, I’m not trying to say that her mental illness absolves her of responsibility for her actions. She does need to be held accountable for her wrongdoings, but knowing why she does all of these things makes her much more sympathetic. Hear me out.

With the release of V’s route (hooray for everyone’s favorite teal cinnamon roll), we learn a lot of new information about Rika, and gain quite a bit of new insight into her character. With this new information, it’s become pretty clear that Rika shows textbook signs of Borderline Personality Disorder. The link provides a more detailed overview from the NIMH (which in turn is derived from the DSM-5), but I’ll list the symptoms below for easier access:

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Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment

A pattern of intense and unstable relationships with loved ones, often swinging from extreme closeness and love (idealization) to extreme dislike or anger (devaluation)

These first two are big ones, and are famously summarized by the phrase “I hate you, don’t leave me” that commonly characterizes BPD. And they’re very evident in Rika’s past and present behavior. She has deep-seated fears of abandonment stemming from serious childhood neglect and trauma (e.g., her dad abandoning the family, her mother killing herself, her aunt saying that she regretted adopting her...). Childhood neglect is a common risk factor for BPD, and it’s understandable why. If people have abandoned you from an impressionable young age, it’s easy to imagine that the pattern will continue.

This is (rather infamously) demonstrated in her extremely unhealthy relationship with V, as shown in the picture above. However, Rika isn’t doing this because she’s some awful manipulative bitch, as many seem to think. She’s doing this because she afraid that he’s going to leave her, just as her parents did. And she’s lashing out in response to that fear. While it’s unclear whether she’s referencing her adoptive parents or her biological parents (the former seems more likely, considering how the latter died when she was very young), it ultimately doesn’t matter. All of them abandoned her, and now she feels like another person that she loves is behaving in the same way that they are (e.g., not appreciating her, betraying her, etc). And so she thinks that he’s going to do the same thing that they did, and leave her.

The pattern continues with the MC, in V’s bad ending.

“I hate you, but I love you.” She’s not being contradictory here. She’s just exhibiting the idealization/devaluation pattern here once again. The symptom list goes on and on, with Rika checking off pretty much every single box:

Recurring suicidal behaviors or threats or self-harming behavior

Intense and highly changeable moods

Distorted and unstable self-image or sense of self

Impulsive and often dangerous behaviors

Chronic feelings of emptiness

Inappropriate, intense anger or problems controlling anger

Having stress-related paranoid thoughts

Having severe dissociative symptoms, such as feeling cut off from oneself, or losing touch with reality

All of her seemingly “bitchy” or “evil” behavior isn’t because she’s some terrible person, but rather stem from symptoms of a very severe personality disorder. Now, here’s where things get dicey, because Cheritz decided to take this woman with obvious BPD and then make her the villain of the story. I think it should be fairly obvious that people with BPD don’t normally start brainwashing cults and blinding their fiancees. As someone who has loved ones with BPD, this “violent and unstable” portrayal of BPD upset me, because it’s a tired old negative stereotype. However, as rare as it is, it is true that some people with BPD can become potentially violent when lashing out in fear and desperation. And that’s what Rika does. During dramatic mood swings, people with BPD often report feeling like they’re “losing their minds,” and can seem like two totally different people within the span of a few weeks (e.g., RFA leader Rika vs. cult leader Rika). And, as referenced by the last symptom above, extreme actions due to a loss of touch with reality are also possible (see: Mint Eye. She genuinely believes she’s helping lead these people into some kind of paradise). 

A lot of her other behavior, such as refusing to go in for treatment, also become more understandable within the context of BPD. BPD is infamously difficult to treat, and carries with it a very heavy stigma that would only be worse in Korea, where mental illness is still treated as a taboo subject. However, what people with BPD need is loving but firm support from the people around them to continue treatment. How V reacted, while based in good intentions, was very, very bad for Rika, by essentially enabling her destructive behavior and continuing the cycle again and again.

I have a friend with BPD who once told me that as much as she was sure everyone in the world hated her, she was the one who hated herself the most. I could go on and on, but the crux of the message is this: Rika does very bad things, but she’s suffering too. You don’t have to like her, or forgive her, but I think it’s important to recognize that she’s not evil. It sucks to see such a heavily BPD-coded character reviled in this way, because I’ve personally seen how people with BPD in reality get treated in very similar ways--getting called a “psycho” or a “bitch,” when they’re really just sick and in need of help. We should be better than that, you guys.

TL;DR: just check out the last paragraph, bby. thanks.

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Daughters and mothers

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akko decided to fuck magic and become a pokemon trainer

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Rika from V’s Route opening SO HYPED (take your time cheritz)