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strugglingatart · 5 hours
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REBLOG IF YOUR BLOG IS A SAFE SPACE FOR AROMANTIC PEOPLE AND IF YOU THINK THEY ARE VALID
I want to see how many people actually are willing to say this and not just act like it
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strugglingatart · 5 hours
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if theres one thing i always fuck with is creepy dream realms
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eps 3 | 7 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12
taglist: @dapper-nahrwhale @leelovessharks @disdoorted-crows @blueskiesandstarrynights @thedragonemperess @depressedtransguy @starchaserbaby @genuine-possum @joshkiszkashusband (lemme know if u want to be added or removed)
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strugglingatart · 5 hours
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Been thinking a lot about how Fabian uses the word triggering. He uses it in reference to the sexy rat, to the term 'turncoat', and (i believe) about Chungledown Bim
And he says it like a joke, right? Like the point is that Lou is making a joke because haha a sexy rat and a mirror abandoning Fabian and a funny-named gnome that wants to shit in his mouth are all funny concepts so why shoudn't it be funny that they're traumatizing
Except, I think Fabian is using that term earnestly. I think he is genuinely upset by how a sexy rat wanted to violate him in the nightmare forest and that in order for him to progress he had to lay down and give coerced consent to it
I think he is deeply hurt by people he loves leaving him. Sure, this time it's a mirror being a 'turncoat', but it's also his mom going on vacation with Gilear. And thinking about how Fabian interacts with Cathilda, treats her like a parent and a caregiver, you have to think that his dad was at the very least emotionally unavailable (if not physically so) and we all know about his mom's sensory deprivation egg
I think Chungledown Bim terrifies him in ways he can't articulate. The representation of how he's fallen short of his father's legacy persuing him endlessly. Being given spells and wealth and access by his devil father. Tracking him down to degrade him in an extremely visceral way
Fabian says that things are triggering with a smile on his face and a laugh in his voice. He's learned that saying the uncomfortable thing means money being thrown at a problem. He's learned that you're supposed to distance yourself from your feelings, to self-medicate
He doesn't have the skills or the practice to tell his friends in all seriousness that the things they say bother him. Remind him of his hardest days - in Leviathan, the Nightmare Forest, the Red Waste
And the part that hurts the most is that if he had this earnest conversation, his friends would be there. They'd respect him. Maybe help him unlearn some of the lessons that have shaped this ineffective request for help in the first place
But he doesn't ask and he says it as a joke and they hear it as a joke and nobody heals
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strugglingatart · 12 hours
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strugglingatart · 13 hours
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answering “are you dating” with “it’s complicated” when the complicated part is that hes a manifestation of your worst fears that tried to fucking kill you is insane btw
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strugglingatart · 13 hours
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so fucking funny the degree to which brennan really relies on murph rolling badly and how thrown he looks whenever he rolls well
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strugglingatart · 13 hours
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missed bad kids opportunity to say “winter break, i believe in you!”
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strugglingatart · 13 hours
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kristen highlighting that her and adaine are so close that just seeing something wrong in her eyes would know something is wrong oh they’re all friends!!!!
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strugglingatart · 13 hours
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God The Themes of Gorgug being told his rage is what makes him unintelligent and brutish, and it being what keeps him from being dominated/afraid, like him being told rage is losing himself and it being what helps him keep his mind UGHHGUHGUUG
YES!!!! also like the debate of what rage means and can it be more than merely the false dichotomy of destructive/protective, the constant reinforcement that rage is what’s limiting him and it’s actually what’s driving him forward!!! I am so emotional about it oh my god
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strugglingatart · 13 hours
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gorgug’s heart beating faster and faster and gorgug, a science genius, a drummer rockstar, finding a rythm.
oh the feelings that i felt
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strugglingatart · 14 hours
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Siobhan having Adaine learn the Psychic Lance spell so she can hit an invisible Kettlechip Krispycream is so great. "I just wanna know where that bitch is. "NO ONE hates her more than Siobhan.
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strugglingatart · 14 hours
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it’s objectively so funny that it’s only been months in game since sophomore year meanwhile in real time it’s been like 4 years
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strugglingatart · 14 hours
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Ahhhhhh, Murph's Baron was so good!!
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strugglingatart · 14 hours
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something about the bad kids not knowing who baron is, not knowing if he actually had dated riz or not, something about riz ducking any and all questions about baron, something about riz not being in the same room as baron for longer than a minute, about them all teleporting away as baron finally came after them in his final form, something about riz's nightmare being that his friends will judge or reject him for his aceness, something about that fear made manifest literally hurting his friends but riz himself escaping without a scratch, never explaining who or what baron was to him
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strugglingatart · 14 hours
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hey girlie
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strugglingatart · 14 hours
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SO THERE WAS NO SAVE HUH Brenan really said I want pvp AND WE WILL HAVE IT Also may I remind y'all he handed each person a card individually the first time when it went to Lou so Brenan CHOSE that, the next time when it went to Siobhan he held up the four and the players picked... I love it Also lowkey wanna know what all the other cards said
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strugglingatart · 1 day
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It’s about the aesthetic
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