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it should be a law that if it’s raining and you wake up feeling comfy in bed you shouldn’t have to answer to any of your obligations

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what if when todd looks so distraught in the last scene of dead poets society it’s not only because of mr keating leaving and the horrible things that have happened, but also because when cameron reads out the “understanding poetry” chapter it’s the same one that neil read all of that time ago…

it’s a reminder of how the world has moved on from neil so quickly. his role has been replaced whilst todd still sits there drowning in his grief.

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WHAT WE DO IN THE SHADOWS (2019 - 2024) I 6.05

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so i’m about halfway through reading the goldfinch and i’m in SHAMBLES. why did nobody tell me this book was going to ruin my life???

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Donna Tartt, from The Goldfinch (2013)

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Putting down Donna Tartt novels feels like a real break up because boy, I was possessing your spirit for 700 pages straight and now...poof, you're gone like a ghost.

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thinking about how Bilbo's insecurity throughout the whole trilogy is that he is not strong enough, he's just a hobbit, he is not capable for the quest. he doesn't believe he can be of use to the dwarves, he doubts himself. he knows he is a small creature of comforts that was never equipped to attack or defend or even burgle. while Thorin’s insecurity is that he is not worthy of his people's faith in him. he goes on the quest not for his own gains but despite Balin's reassurance that he has done right by the dwarves, Thorin wants to reclaim Erebor for his people, to restore their homeland. he continues on with bull-headed stubbornness even with several people telling him its a bad idea because he needs to prove himself a worthy king to people who already acknowledge him as such. he wants the arkenstone because it is the only thing that will summon the seven armies of the dwarves.

thinking about how in Thorin’s death scene, they answer these insecurities almost. Thorin apologises to Bilbo, that he's sorry he led Bilbo into such peril, that he's sorry that he failed him and Bilbo answers "I am glad to have shared in your perils, Thorin, each and every one of them." he says 'you failed, and I am glad I followed you anyway'. he says it is more than any Baggins deserves and Thorin answers "If more more people valued home above gold, this world would be a merrier place." he tells him not that he is deserving of battle but that 'the world is a better place with people like you'.

to me these are more heartfelt sentiments than simply 'you are strong' or 'you are a great leader'. Thorin tells Bilbo, who believes himself not right and too small that he is valuable, that he is so important in the grand scheme of things. Bilbo tells Thorin, who believes himself a failed leader, unworthy of his people's trust that he is proud that he had faith in Thorin despite.

Thorin gets to die knowing that his people do not regret having faith in him and Bilbo gets to live knowing that he is right for this world in a way that is his own.

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Gay people will be like “this is my comfort show!” And then show you the most emotionally devastating, stress-inducing, tragic piece of media you have ever witnessed

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the whole “poetry! i’m being chased by walt whitman!” scene is printed into my soul. that’s it

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whatever you do: don’t think about how todd probably gets another desk set each year on his birthday but he never has enough of his own courage to throw it without neil.

guys please don’t think about how he probably lets those desk sets gather dust as they stack up every year.

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what if he shows up right when the gun goes off and then they have a little romeo and juliet moment… i need to stop thinking too…

nono but imagine if todd had a gut feeling that something happened to neil so he made mr keating take him to his house, he climbs in through the window and sees neil on the floor (dead), with a letter on the table just for him, confessing everything

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what’s a girl gotta do for a morbid longing for the picturesque

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My entire taste in media is "gay people commit murder and are mentally unwell" and i think thats beautiful

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reblog to punch mr perry in the face

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pre–amphibian, margaret atwood

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i love this character so much......i hope they get seriously injured and almost die

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two bros sittin in a hot tub five feet apart cause they’re aroace