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Since I wrote this blog since 8 years, and I am very aware of that how I am very bad at this. I do have journal or blog on other site that I just stopped because I was focus on my up and down journey that distracted me in the real life.  I’m just wondering that if you can see this blog and still following me since silent of 8 years. 

I am pretty sure that y’all are been wondering what/how I am doing through my life for last 8 years.  Please be patient with me to explain all of these highlight of my life that I had been up and down journey which is possibly long blog.  After this, I hope that I can keep up with my blog for some reasons and my sanity.

After I graduated at Gallaudet University with BA History in 2011 which was my accomplishment.  I still do love history, but I realized that is my hobby and passion but it was not get me to this job for History. I returned to my hometown, St. Augustine, Florida. In few years later after my cancer treatments, I took online courses for alternate teacher with temporary certificate for Deaf school, and that was my goal to get a history/social studies teacher job positions and Master degree at University of North Florida. I took few times tests were failed, but it was close to exact numbers that they wanted me to pass. I realized I don’t want to pay more money to retake tests which I felt it was waste of my time.  It was not work out for me.

Back to the point, where I had mentioned that I had breast cancer and was in processing of chemo and radiology treatments in 8 years ago.  I had surgery to remove a tumor in my left breast that was cancer, and it was stage one that how I am lucky to be alive on this earth and thankful for my intuition.  I don’t want to explain or all of these things are very deepest details which is remain private.  I went through chemo and radiology treats, and was in remission in May 2012.  I’m still cancer free.  I still attending to my oncologist doctor to follow up, and yep, I still go to mammogram to keep check on it.  

Last three years of no jobs, because there was a good reason because the chemo and radiation treats were a lot of effect on my body and abuse my immune system to become weaker, and I was in a very long recovery from all of these treatment.  Yes, I was gladly to beat the cancer and still hopefully to remain to be cancer free. I applied part time job as front clerk/bagging at Publix for last five years.  I had another job was full time staff at Florida School for the Deaf and the Blind (FSDB) for few months and got fired over these petty things and I admitted that I made few mistakes.  I had to learn the important lesson that make me realized who/what I am and become a better person.  I was thinking about myself and my abilities.

Forward ahead on 2018,  until one day, I talked with my mother about my life, abilities, and etc.  She told me that I am really good at cooking in my whole life that I was not afraid to be in the kitchen often. I made my decision to jump start to applied First Coast Technical College that have Culinary arts program for 10 months only.  I enrolled in Jan 2019, and I already have passed two certifications which were my proudest and humble moment in my whole life. I graduated in Jan 2020 which was lucky that I was able to walk across the stage and get a certification.

Before I graduated, I found that I had uterus cancer which was in the early stage due to my medication and fibrous issues.  My doctor told me I had to hysterectomy to prevent the cancer from spreading all over my body. I must admit that I was disappointing that I will not have experience of pregnancy but I realized that I have some serious issues that could be dangerous to my life that may lead to death from all of that.  I am still okay with this, and accepted this fate.  After graduation, I had to prepare for the major surgery on Feb 4, 2020.  Keep in the mind, the COVID-19 were spreading all over in China and starting to find others got it in other countries.  At same time, I had surgery and started in recovery processing.  I have no job since Feb 4, 2020 and I am not that complaint about that.  Unfortunately, that COVID-19 was announced that was pandemic all over the world when before my birthday, March 12.  Yes, I’m 35 years old. It was interesting to see how it was going growing with up and down over many years.

I’m still don’t have job as chef or part time job yet, because I am still not clear it up yet for go back to work.  I still do keep to practice my culinary skills at home.  I realized that I still have this tumlr blog and what I need is help to increase or improving on my writing, thoughts, and grammar skills.  This is my second language as in English.  My primary language is American Sign Language (ASL). As you see that I have a lot of potential in my own abilities. 

I know I already have write a lot of these things about my life in this blog and I feel better for my sanity.  Again, I might will write some more details about the past and my experiences later in this blog that would help you understand what I already have been through this up and down journey as a Deaf woman. It is not simple, but it is still beautiful thing about me and my life that already have been blessed a lot. 

Love, 

Mandie

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It's my first post on this, and I do have another blogs for my friends only, and I hope it can expand all over it. I have no idea if I can inspire you the most, but it is just a small step to start it on this blog. 

Why I put on "It is my destiny" ??  I always believe in myself no matter what, because I can control on my own choices that can both good and bad for me to get through it within experiences, and increasing on my faith.  The future may surprise you often than you can imagine. 

I am processing and getting through breast cancer. I am 26 years old, and yeah, I know that I am young to have that. It is part of life that are not fair to us, but important is that I can understand all of it from this experience that make me aware of it, and able to help others by my messages and teaching through this blog.  I just want to touch other women that can inspire me and I can make inspire others in same way, which is the good way with positive overcome this cancer.  Cancer can't beat faith, love, teach, and positive are powerful.  That's what I love for some reasons that I want to growing to become a better person as a woman, and myself. 

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This is my favorite character that remind me to be mysterious to everyone that no one know my raw inner core.