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[sweetcas]

drunkdean:

sweetcas:

*flutters* Hello, Dean. How are you?

Warn a dude next time will ya? *takes deep breath*

Well, I’m good I guess.. Yourself?

My apologies. I’m good, just seeing how you were doing. *looks around* Where’s Sam?

*Rolls eyes* That’s okay, Cas. I should be used to it by now..

Right. Well, thanks for that. *chuckles*

*Turns gaze away to the ground* He’s out, buying pie and booze for me…

Why? Is there something wrong, Cas?

No, nothing wrong. Just nothing really going on, everything is quiet. *shrugs* not complaining though. *goes over and sits across from him on the other bed* Dean, do you really need anymore booze? I can smell it on you.

So you’re bored and came here to kill some time, huh *smirks*

*Lies in bed, resting head on the bed headboard*

As a matter of fact, I do. I…I don’t…  *locks eyes with Cas* I don’t know anymore.. A lot of shit got into me, I guess…

Did Sam called you or something? I told him, I’m perfectly fine…

*swallows nervously* I’m not sure what I’m doing anymore and I don’t think I care…

*sighs* I didn’t mean it like that and Sam didn’t call me. Most angels don’t just pop in on their charges, Dean. I like…spending time with you, no matter what we are doing.

*tilts head* I just worry about you sometimes. If you wanna talk seriously, without criticism from your brother, I’m here, Dean.

Riight. I’m your charge. And I was joking Cas. I do that a lot, I know and I also know that it”s not fair to you, because you mostly likely won’t get any of my jokes and… *sits up in bed*

Talk? Nah, I think I’ll pass thanks. However, I… *Clears throat* I know I’m kinda of a douchebag to you sometimes Cas, I know that and… Well, what I really mean is that… *Stares at the angel* You’re one of the few people I know will always be there for me and I just want you to know that I enjoy your company, as well.

*takes a deep breath* You are more than my charge, Dean. I—I consider you a friend, which I don’t have many of, other than my family. I might not know what all that entails just yet but…I really see the good in you that you don’t see in yourself and I hate to see you beat yourself up all the time. *the angel looks at him and bites his lip* And I’m glad you enjoy my company too.

I want to experience things, like you do, Dean. I don’t understand humans like you do, and I’ve been around for a long time. Do you have anything in mind? *Cas raises his eyebrow and stares at his hunter in curiosity*

*Chuckes softly* You know what’s funny, Cas? That’s something I can relate to. Since I’m your charge or whatever, you would know that although I don’t show or talk about my feelings, I appreciate having you around. I-I… *Sighs*  I don’t know why I keep doing this to myself, and why you of all people, after everything you know I did, can still see good in me, you are really an angel, I suppose.

*Gets up and walks up to the angel* I don’t understand humans more than you do, Cas. In fact, these people confuse the hell outta me. Guess we have a lot in common, huh?

Is that so? Do you have any idea of what that would imply, Cas? *stares intently at his angel*

I have a few things in mind, Cas. Only… How much spare time have you got??

*smiles when called me an angel then suddenly Dean was a foot away from him*

*smirks* As much spare time as you need, Dean.

Alrighty then. Just tell me how you’d like to spend it and I shall make it happen *smirks*

Ummm *he gets distracted by the green eyes staring back at him* O-Ok.

*walks into Dean’s personal space*

…as long as it is with you, Dean. *he kept his stare with his hunter*

   *Continues to glare intently*

 Cas…

*Tilts head to the right, open lips but hesitates to lock lips with the angel, as if waiting for Castiel’s permission.*

*The angel looks at his hunter getting closer to him and amazingly quiet. Cas just stared at his lips, that he just wanted to kiss them but was afraid. Cas leaned forward enough to get closer to Dean with their lips only inches apart.* Dean… *Cas’s heart was beating so hard against his ribcage, he knew that Dean could probably hear it.*

 *As the angel gets even closer to him, Dean hesitantly leans in even closer to Cas. His heart is beating faster than he care to ignore. He’s been wanting this but was afraid the angel would pull back. Push him away and smite him. But Cas wants  this as much as he does and as realization washes over him, he crashes his lips against the angel’s.*

Dean closed the gap between our lips and I froze. First I didn't move and then Dean's tongue licked my lips, asking for entry. I opened my mouth and let Dean in. It was slow and calculated. Our tongues clashed and explored each other's mouths. Dean pulled back and looked at me for permission to keep going. I nodded and grabbed the back of his neck and pulled his lips back to mine. 

Dean grabbed my waist and it sent shock waves through my body. He pulled us closer till our bodies were flush against each other. Dean started walking us, not breaking the kiss, until my back hit the wall with a thud. Dean's tongue fought for dominance and easily won, but I didn't mind. Dean grinded me into the wall as he ravaged my mouth. I moaned his name into his mouth and played with his hair. 

Hello, Dean. (@drunkdean)

[sweetcas]

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[sweetcas]

*The angel looks at his hunter getting closer to him and amazingly quiet. Cas just stared at his lips, that he just wanted to kiss them but was afraid. Cas leaned forward enough to get closer to Dean with their lips only inches apart.* Dean... *Cas's heart was beating so hard against his ribcage, he knew that Dean could probably hear it.*

Hello, Dean. (@drunkdean)

[sweetcas]

Ummm *he gets distracted by the green eyes staring back at him* O-Ok.

*walks into Dean's personal space* 

...as long as it is with you, Dean. *he kept his stare with his hunter*

Hello, Dean. (@drunkdean)

[sweetcas]

[sweetcas]

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[sweetcas]

Cas knew he look confused but couldn't hide it. It was written all over his face. "Fine. You are right; I don't understand. Humans confuse the hell out of me but I know you, Dean. You've saved the world more times than anyone knows, yet you still manage to only see the bad." He looked at the hunter with sincerity and love. "I just wish you would think about that, at least sometimes. You are a great man, Dean. Don't sell yourself short." 

~@futuredean2014

[sweetcas]

drunkdean:

sweetcas:

*flutters* Hello, Dean. How are you?

Warn a dude next time will ya? *takes deep breath*

Well, I’m good I guess.. Yourself?

My apologies. I’m good, just seeing how you were doing. *looks around* Where’s Sam? 

*Rolls eyes* That’s okay, Cas. I should be used to it by now..

Right. Well, thanks for that. *chuckles*

*Turns gaze away to the ground* He’s out, buying pie and booze for me…

Why? Is there something wrong, Cas? 

No, nothing wrong. Just nothing really going on, everything is quiet. *shrugs* not complaining though. *goes over and sits across from him on the other bed* Dean, do you really need anymore booze? I can smell it on you.

So you’re bored and came here to kill some time, huh *smirks*

*Lies in bed, resting head on the bed headboard*

As a matter of fact, I do. I…I don’t…  *locks eyes with Cas* I don’t know anymore.. A lot of shit got into me, I guess…

Did Sam called you or something? I told him, I’m perfectly fine…

*swallows nervously* I’m not sure what I’m doing anymore and I don’t think I care…

*sighs* I didn’t mean it like that and Sam didn’t call me. Most angels don’t just pop in on their charges, Dean. I like…spending time with you, no matter what we are doing. 

*tilts head* I just worry about you sometimes. If you wanna talk seriously, without criticism from your brother, I’m here, Dean.

Riight. I’m your charge. And I was joking Cas. I do that a lot, I know and I also know that it”s not fair to you, because you mostly likely won’t get any of my jokes and… *sits up in bed*

Talk? Nah, I think I’ll pass thanks. However, I… *Clears throat* I know I’m kinda of a douchebag to you sometimes Cas, I know that and… Well, what I really mean is that… *Stares at the angel* You’re one of the few people I know will always be there for me and I just want you to know that I enjoy your company, as well.

*takes a deep breath* You are more than my charge, Dean. I—I consider you a friend, which I don’t have many of, other than my family. I might not know what all that entails just yet but…I really see the good in you that you don’t see in yourself and I hate to see you beat yourself up all the time. *the angel looks at him and bites his lip* And I’m glad you enjoy my company too.

I want to experience things, like you do, Dean. I don’t understand humans like you do, and I’ve been around for a long time. Do you have anything in mind? *Cas raises his eyebrow and stares at his hunter in curiosity*

*Chuckes softly* You know what’s funny, Cas? That’s something I can relate to. Since I’m your charge or whatever, you would know that although I don’t show or talk about my feelings, I appreciate having you around. I-I… *Sighs*  I don’t know why I keep doing this to myself, and why you of all people, after everything you know I did, can still see good in me, you are really an angel, I suppose.

*Gets up and walks up to the angel* I don’t understand humans more than you do, Cas. In fact, these people confuse the hell outta me. Guess we have a lot in common, huh?

Is that so? Do you have any idea of what that would imply, Cas? *stares intently at his angel*

I have a few things in mind, Cas. Only… How much spare time have you got??

*smiles when called me an angel then suddenly Dean was a foot away from him*

*smirks* As much spare time as you need, Dean. 

Hello, Dean. (@drunkdean)

[sweetcas]

*takes a deep breath* You are more than my charge, Dean. I--I consider you a friend, which I don't have many of, other than my family. I might not know what all that entails just yet but...I really see the good in you that you don't see in yourself and I hate to see you beat yourself up all the time. *the angel looks at him and bites his lip* And I'm glad you enjoy my company too.

I want to experience things, like you do, Dean. I don't understand humans like you do, and I've been around for a long time. Do you have anything in mind? *Cas raises his eyebrow and stares at his hunter in curiosity*

Hello, Dean. (@drunkdean)

*flutters* Hello, Dean. How are you?

[sweetcas]

"Dean, you always blame yourself, for everything. Everything is not always your fault. How many times do I have to tell you that?" Cas kept staring at the hunter, waiting for an answer. 

~@futuredean2014

Dean didn’t answer right away, not wanting to upset the angel any more than he had already managed to do so in the course of a few mere moments. He wasn’t sure how to really answer that question - he only found out Sam had said yes about a month after it had happened. And to be honest, he never really knew if Cas had known prior and held back because he didn’t want to hurt Dean, or because he knew it was inevitable.

Dean wanted to look away, but he didn’t.

“You were aware you were falling ‘bout a month after the first Croat outbreak in Texas. You didn’t actually tell anyone you thought it was happening until about a month later. But I saw you try to heal yourself when one of them bit you. You managed to, but something in your expression told me it… Wasn’t lookin’ good. You were losing your Grace.” Dean paused, trying to think.

“I found out Sam had said yes about two months after that moment.”

[sweetcas]

*sighs* I didn't mean it like that and Sam didn't call me. Most angels don't just pop in on their charges, Dean. I like...spending time with you, no matter what we are doing. 

*tilts head* I just worry about you sometimes. If you wanna talk seriously, without criticism from your brother, I'm here, Dean.

Hello, Dean. (@drunkdean)

*flutters* Hello, Dean. How are you?

[sweetcas]

No, nothing wrong. Just nothing really going on, everything is quiet. *shrugs* not complaining though. *goes over and sits across from him on the other bed* Dean, do you really need anymore booze? I can smell it on you.

Hello, Dean. (@drunkdean)

*flutters* Hello, Dean. How are you?

[sweetcas]

My apologies. I'm good, just seeing how you were doing. *looks around* Where's Sam? 

Hello, Dean. (@drunkdean)

*flutters* Hello, Dean. How are you?

[sweetcas]

@drunkdean

*flutters* Hello, Dean. How are you?

[sweetcas]

Dean sat next to me and my face was still in my hands. I could tell he was not sure what to do. "I-I'm sorry, Dean." He said through his hands and then ran his hands through his hair and looked ahead instead of the hunter. "I've caused you so much pain. To watch me deteriorate, plus losing your brother...I-I can't tell you how sorry I am." I looked at the hunter with tears in my eyes.

~@futuredean2014

Dean didn’t answer right away, not wanting to upset the angel any more than he had already managed to do so in the course of a few mere moments. He wasn’t sure how to really answer that question - he only found out Sam had said yes about a month after it had happened. And to be honest, he never really knew if Cas had known prior and held back because he didn’t want to hurt Dean, or because he knew it was inevitable.

Dean wanted to look away, but he didn’t.

“You were aware you were falling ‘bout a month after the first Croat outbreak in Texas. You didn’t actually tell anyone you thought it was happening until about a month later. But I saw you try to heal yourself when one of them bit you. You managed to, but something in your expression told me it… Wasn’t lookin’ good. You were losing your Grace.” Dean paused, trying to think.

“I found out Sam had said yes about two months after that moment.”

[sweetcas]

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[sweetcas]

Dean told me the truth without breaking eye contact. I could see the hurt in his eyes. I went and sat on the nearby bed and sat down with my face in my hands. “I-I…” I couldn’t put words together. I couldn’t even look up at Dean. 

~@futuredean2014

Dean stands up again, not sure what to do as the angel’s face goes from one of disbelief to… That look. That fucking look the angel used to always give him, like he was something awe inspiring and infuriating at the same time. Dean was never that man, hadn’t been close to it in a very, very long time. And suddenly, he was face to face with it again - it hit harder than Dean expected, coughing to clear his throat and bring a hand to Cas’ shoulder, squeezing gently.

“Hey, it’s okay. Of course I stayed with you. You stayed with me through a ton of shit, I wasn’t just gonna leave you cause you weren’t all angel mojo anymore.” Dean offered a smile - faint, but sincere.