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It's okay, if you thought you were over it but it hits you all over again. It's okay, to fall apart even after you thought you had it under control. You are not weak. Healing is messy. There is no timeline for healing.

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The best kind of people are the ones who come into your life, and make you see the sun where you once saw clouds. The people who believe in you so much, you start to believe in you too. The people who love you, simply for being you.

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Sometimes you have to forget what you want in order to remember what you deserve.

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Don't let negative and toxic people rent space in your head. Raise the rent and kick them out.

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Make yourself a priority.

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Flowers!

I got flowers today!!! It wasn't my birthday or any other special day.  We had our first argument last night. He said a lot of cruel things that really hurt me. I know he was sorry and didn’t mean the things he said. Because I got flowers today!

I got flowers today. It wasn’t our anniversary or any other special day. Last night, he threw me into a wall and started to choke me. It seemed like a nightmare. I couldn’t believe it was real. I woke up this morning sore and bruised all over. I know he must be sorry, because he sent me flowers today!

I got flowers today. It wasn’t Mothers Day or any other special day. Last night, he beat me up again. And it was much worse than all other times. If I leave him, what will I do? How will I take care of my kids? What about money? I'm afraid of him and scared to leave. But I know he must be sorry, because he sent me flowers today!

I got flowers today. Today was a very special day. It was the day of my funeral. Last night he finally killed me. He beat me to death. If only I had gathered enough courage and strength to leave him. I would not have gotten flowers today!   

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Depression / Anixety requires a tremendously strong person to endure its pain. You are that person. It may not feel like it, but you are.

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Friday 5th March 2021

Today is my day off work. YAY! but I feel so NAY. No Friday Feeling in me what so ever. I am exhausted. Mentally, Physically and Emotionally. My head feels heavy and I have lack of motivate to even do something with one of my two days off, I get weekly. The feeling of bottling a lot up recently due to stuff that has happened recently. Not with just me, but what is happening around me too. Never mind being in a Lockdown where everyday life is no longer “normal”.  What is normal anyway? The week has caught up with me and I feel burnt out. I fear of upsetting people with wanting time to be on my own and be in my thoughts. Struggling with my work and life balance, then juggling my job, family, boyfriend and friends.  Know I have been feeling some stress due to grinding my teeth and suddenly being unwell. Think I have been okay for awhile but due to recent events and maybe working some extra hours its caught up on me and lead for me to write this post. If anybody reads it or not. It is not in my nature to be selfish and I always want to help others but feel like days like today in paticular nobody cares or they try when I reach out, my anixtey gets the better of me and says “no”  So today/tonight I will be spending it shutting people out, but trying to reach out and talk about what's going on but constantly replying “I don't know why I feel this way, I just do” Nothing will be able to distract me from the constant overthinking and a lot of self doubt  I want to sleep but can't and I don't know why? The day will be spent in bed alone  Tomorrow is another day and I really hope it is better than today.   

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Real love is when you want what's best for the other person, even if it means your not getting what you want.

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In a world where you can be anything, be kind.

Caroline Flack

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I just saw the trailer for Caroline’s documentary. It is going to break me watching it but I think it’s important to hear her friends and family speak about Caroline and her truths. She was so special and my heart seems to hurt more than last year.

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If you can be anything. Be kind.

Caroline Flack 1979 - 2020

It has been over a year where Caroline Flack took her own life. All because she felt as if she could no longer cope with what life thrown at her. She had everything going for her. At the end of the day nobody is perfect and has their rollercoaster lifestyle. Behind her beautiful smile and positive attitude, she was hiding what was really going on with herself. I part blame the media for her death with her being in the limelight all the time, she just couldn't catch a break, but not just Caroline Flack but any other celebrities. 

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Bedroom!

a room for sleeping in.

I don’t just sleep in my bedroom. I pretty much live in there. Even eat and watch TV in there. It is as if its like a little home for myself I can call mine. I still live at home with my parents due to not being able to afford to move out finically! Don’t get me wrong, I have looked into renting and stuff, but its just not for me. Would rather buy somewhere and feel more comfortable. 

So over the past few days; I have been super busy with making some changes to my bedroom. Due to lockdown and spending a lot more time in my bedroom, and needed a focus to help me out mentally due to recent events. It was time for a change and an expensive process. My bedroom is not completely finished to how I want it, but due to time and expenses, it is still in process. I still find it crazy how doing something just so small like this, can keep you so busy and level headed for the period of time. 

Even though I was working completely on my own majority of the time, I didn’t not accept any help either. I feel its just something everybody should consider really cause its such a positive thing to do too, 

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Everything Okay?

If you or someone you know is struggling, you are not alone. There are many support services that are here to help. 

If you are located in the United States, consider reaching out to the National Alliance on Mental Illness HelpLine.

If you are located in the United Kingdom, The Mix is here to help you with any challenge you are facing.  Reach out online, on social or through their free and confidential helpline.

If you are reading this from in any other country in Europe,  Mental Health Europe has compiled a list of helplines and other resources in your country. 

For more resources, please visit our Counseling & Prevention Resources page for a list of services that may be able to help.

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get the most out of life, its my duty!

when I think about death, people who have died.

I don't want it all to end, never have I tried.

it makes me realise, I'm lucky to be alive.

don't want to pass life by only wanting to survive!

if I only got one chance, I'm ready to take it!

don't be scared of failure, never submit.

live life to the full, experience it all.

even through the times when I tumble and fall.

dust myself off, stand up, be proud,

if I have an opinion I shall shout it out loud.

I will always stand up for what I believe. 

have honour and pride in the things I achieve!

meet new people, see new places, make new friends, but remember old faces!

see the world for all its beauty.

get the most out of life, its my duty!

ensure I never neglect, the people I adore.

see them often, don't let it be a chore!

these are the people. who will define my life. 

they will be with me through trouble and strife!

forgive, forget.

everyone makes mistakes. 

piece my heart back together as soon as it breaks!

remember my regrets but still move on, 

if I sit and wait my time will be gone!

I shall live by these words and enjoy my time.

remembering happiness and enjoyment isn't a crime!

so when they axe wields and I pass away, people can say;

“she lived for each breath, each moment and each day!”

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change YOUR attitude and it will change YOUR life!

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you deserve to be happy, just by being yourself!

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