#// i do a lot of quizzes on here and it doesn't hurt to do it again!

[c4rdsharp]

WHAT CRYSTAL ARE YOU ?

snowflake obsidian.

you are all grit and closed fists. you refuse to let anything in through the cracks of your armor. you would burn the world to protect those you love. the heart of a warrior burns in your chest. and it also weighs your shoulders down. what is the price for being so strong? what have you sacrificed to make yourself feel safe? when was the last time you let someone see your soul? when was the last time you let someone see you and not just the masks you hide behind? not everything must be a fight.

tagged by : @zorkaya ( thank you! ) tagging : literally go for it. steal it from me. i am holding it out as we speak.

[adventuringblind]

Drive With You Forever

Chapter 12.5: Max and His Stamina

Max Verstappen x Charles Leclerc x Lando Norris x Reader x Oscar Piastri

Chapter summary: Lando is a pain and Max takes everyone apart because of it

Warnings: sexual things ahead, very little description os said sexual things because y'all can use your imagination, definate Dom/sub things going on, rope, a lot of rope,

Notes: I wrote this with the intention of shamless smut, and then I ended up with this. I actually really enjoyed just writing the interactions between all five of them.

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"This is you're fault Lando."

"Is not!"

"It definitely is."

"Pretty sure we wouldn't be here if you didn't antagonize Max."

"Is Max normally like this?"

"Only with Lando. We're innocent bystanders."

Having one person tied to each bed post is not how they envisioned ending their day. Max is nowhere is sight, and they've been waiting for him in nothing but undergarments for at least twenty minutes.

Three of them had no clue what they'd done wrong. Sure, Max had won another rave, but he'd very clearly said 'punishment' in his text after the race.

Lando had done a stupid thing a whispered in Max's ear while walking past one of his interviews. He'd yet to fess up what he'd said.

Charles is sitting with only one hand tied to the post because he'd done the other three. The other hand still has his phone to communicate with Max.

Consent is still important even if he's not in the room. And he was mildly worried that the female was going to panic that she'd done something wrong.

Oscar had only watched them do things like this and joined in a couple of times when he felt like he understood what was going on. One thing he learned early on is that Lando doesn't do what he's told unless he's in the mood to comply, and Max has less patience for that.

Charles is incredibly patient and can handle Lando. It's always shocking when Oscar sees him piss off the Dutch instead.

Oscar doesn't know where he falls yet. He's been going with the flow of things, and despite being the youngest, he quite likes telling people what to do.

"Os, Max wants me to go over rules with you while me wait." Says the Monegasque who is sitting comfortably with his knees bent.

Oscar shifts his gaze from the Brit to him. This looks much nicer than the one Lando had been receiving. "Didn't we already do this?"

"Yes, but he's being cautious."

"It's because of the Daniel incident." Says the female with no hesitation. She'd told him about it on their way to meet up at Max's hotel room a while back. They'd invited him in on something intimate for the first time, and she thought it best he knew.

They'd had discussions about everything prior. A few times, at least. But when he actually joined the first time, Max was incredibly hesitant. But he understood why and didn't take it as an insult.

"Safe words?" Charles quizzes him.

"Green for good. Yellow for slow. Red for stop." It's simple and universal for all of them. "No choking unless it's light for Charles and Lando. Don't put Y/N on her knees. Also, keep ties loose unless it's Lando. Make sure Lando communicates because otherwise, he'll let himself get hurt..." he thinks for a moment if he's missing anything.

"Anything you want to add to the list for yourself?" Asks the female.

"I've learned I don't like being hit or choked or things like that." He confesses. He's watched Charles and Lando get hit a couple of times and spanking is fun to give less fun to recieve.

"I'll add it to the list and make sure Max know as well."

They communicate so well like this. There is no shame and no secrets here.

"Lando, what did you whisper to Max to put him in a mood?" He asks. Both out of curiosity and for future reference.

"Possibly something about him not being able to take all four of us." Lando gives Oscar a cheeky smile. The other three collectively role their eyes.

"So we're here because Max has a point to prove." Charles shakes his head.

"You're not even completely tied up!" Complains the Brit.

"Max will do the other hand when he gets here, relax."

The girl pulls her knees to her chest. Her look is a bit distant, but not in an incredibly concerning way. “Max is on his way up.”

“Why do you look scared, chéri?”

She shrugs at the question. “Don’t want him to be mad.”

“Luckily for you, I think he’s only frustrated with Lando. He’s doing this as his podium celebration.” Explains Charles. She nods her head in understanding and relaxes a bit.

They hear the door unlock and Max leans in the opening of the of the room. He can perfectly see all four of them. “Everyone alright?”

Despite three saying yes, Charles begins to list off everything they’d talked about. “Os has the rules memorized now, Lando is still being petty, I couldn’t get my other hand done and needed to text you anyway, and y/n thinks you might be mad at her so reassurance is in order.”

Max makes his way over to them and gently takes Charles’ other hand. He uses the leftover rope to secure his once free hand. When he’s done he plants a kiss on Charlie’s head. “Thank you.”

Charles looks at Lando and eyes him smugly.

“So here’s what I’m thinking.” Max crosses his arms and stands at the foot of the bed. “I’m going to start with one of you, then add another, then a third, then Lando.”

“Why am I last?!”

Max shoots a glare at the Brit causing him to shut his mouth. “Because you started this. I could not let you off the rope at all.” Lando casts his eyes downward. Being last is better then nothing.

Max steps next to the female and unties Charles’ knots. He gently tugs them away from then kisses her wrists. “You’re not in trouble and I’m not mad at you.” Max pulls her into him and runs his finger across the bare spots on her body.

She sighs in content. Her body leans into him more just from the contact. Max could spend hours just memorizing her body, but he won’t torcher her. She’s done nothing wrong so there’s no need for it.

He’s got her finishing with just his tongue. The other three boys are now squirming.

Shockingly, Max goes for Oscar next. He unties his wrists and kisses them.

“Maxy, did I do something wrong?” Charles asks. It’s not whining, just confusion lacing his voice.

“Not at all, I just want things to be even, and you have been tied as long.” Max winks at him, and Charles nods in understanding.

"Perfectly honest, I have no idea what we're doing." Oscar trying to look confident but failing miserably. It doesn't help that Max is both tall and broad.

"Letting me take care of you."

Oscar hates it when his knees get weak. But he loves it when Max and Y/N are pulling him apart. Even more so as he gets to reciprocate.

To say that Charles and Lando are struggling would be an understatment. There is much more squirming then there was before.

Soon, Max is repeating his actions. Albeit more sweaty this time.

Charles had done his time and now is having his ropes untied and wrists kissed.

Charles definitely knows what he's doing as he's all over Max the second his hands are free. Charles is much more exploitative with his tongue than the rest. An advantage he uses over the other four.

It's not long until Max is picking him apart as well.

When four are heavily panting and all of them are shocked that Max is going to go another round. He eyes Lando with a cheeky smile. "Have you learned your lesson?"

Lando looks like he might cry if he doesn't have any physical contact in the next thirty seconds. He's begging Max to let him go.

When Max feels satisfied, he repeats his actions a fourth and final time. His kisses the Brit's wrists where he had been rubbing them against the rope.

Max takes his sweet time undoing Lando. His patience is immense. He's showing him just how good he takes all for them. It's meticulous, really.

Max almost collapses after everything. He didn't even know he could go for so long.

Charles disappears from the main room and comes back with towels for everyone. He passes them around and then helps Max move into something more comfortable. Practically putting on clothes for him, them covering him with a blanket. It takes thirty seconds until they can hear him snoring.

Charles sighs and shakes his head. "I hope you're proud of yourself, Lan."

Lando is still on the floor, catching his breath. He gives a thumbs up to show that he is, in fact, very proud.

Charles knows the routine and makes sure his three younger counterparts are taken care of. The female doing the same for him after she's done in the bathroom.

She hates it, but they'd learned their lesson after her first UTI.

Oscar and Lando are curled up next to Max. They leave no room on the bed for the other two.

"Max should start booking his own hotel rooms." She whispers over to Charles. "Maybe then we'll have a bigger bed."

Charles just laughs and drags her to the couch. It's not ideal, but it works.

Soon, the five are asleep. Much to the displeasure of a certain tall Australian who'd been trying to get a hold of any of them.

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[scoops-aboy86]

We see a lot of chubby Steve/weight gain post-high school but I think it would be interesting to see some fics where he’s still in school. Maybe he has to give up sports due to the concussions or something?

You're right and you should say it!! I have a bit of that in my love spell no go AU, before Starcourt happens and Steve goes full trauma-fueled must be able to protect everyone I know mode. 

So... might not be what you were hoping for but I wrote an almost 3k addition to that fic, during the part where Steve is still at Hawkins High. Swim is over for the year (and Steve avoids his pool now), and while he's still on the basketball team he's also smoking weed (helps with the nightmares, getting enough sleep, better mood, etc.) and snacking more. He's in the starter belly stage but has no complaints.

Part 1, (YOU ARE HERE), part 2, part 3, part 4, part 5, part 6, part 7, part 8, part 9, part 10, part 11 of the love spell no go au

The weed he bought from Munson is a godsend, and Steve wonders why he hadn’t thought of it before… only to remember that Nancy wouldn’t have approved. (Although she’s not a priss, exactly, she had barely even touched alcohol since the night Barb died. Until Halloween.) But he can sleep through the lonely nights now, which is worth even that hurtful pang of realization—that maybe, Nancy hadn’t been very good for him. 

(Sure, she had helped him study. And his grades had improved. But sometimes, too, she would smile and say, “You’re an idiot, Steve Harrington.” It had been cute at first, before Barb, when the smile had still been real.)

Whenever he thinks about that, or feels particularly lonely, he digs into his stash for a quick smoke out his bedroom window—never by the pool, not anymore. He gets into the habit of snacking after, even if it’s while doing his homework, because even when he’s a little bit stoned it’s somehow easier to focus on shit when he’s doing something else at the same time, and chewing works. 

(Nancy hadn’t liked it when he’d fiddled with his pencil or a rubber band or a Rubix cube or anything while she’d quizzed him with flashcards, even though he’d tried to tell her it helped. She’d fussed at him about it until he’d just… stopped.)

Other times, he zones out in front of the tv while working his way through a sandwich or a bag of chips or a sleeve of Oreos. Or takeout, a lot of the time, because his culinary skills pretty much stop at sandwiches, up to and including scrambling an egg for a breakfast sandwich. But a man cannot live on scrambled eggs alone, he’s learned that the hard way, so pizza or burgers or pasta in cardboard containers it is. 

It’s not just the munchies. After a while Steve gets into the habit of just… eating. It's not like his parents are around to notice, and Dustin and the other kids he babysits sometimes (for all that Mike protests that they aren’t babies and don’t need a sitter; what they do consistently need, however, is rides) don't care as long as he springs for enough that they can have some too. No one at school would dare say it to his face, and somehow it still doesn't manage to fully tank his slightly flagging reputation, but Steve is definitely starting to put on weight. He doesn’t care. 

He starts going to parties again half for a change of scenery, half for a change of food options. Pizza still makes a frequent appearance, but there’s popcorn and flavors of chips that he doesn’t usually buy and various kinds of snack mixes. (His favorites are anything that include M&Ms.) Sometimes, there are even cupcakes or cookies. He doesn’t dance, doesn’t even drink all that much and sticks to just beer when he does, never the punch. Most of the kids who come to these parties are there for the booze and the makeout opportunities, but he turns up to people-watch, bopping his head in time with the music if it's a song he likes, and park himself by whatever food the party has to offer. Sometimes Steve buys from Eddie if he's there, offers to share joints with him that Eddie, still wary, turns down. When the food runs out, Steve leaves.

Tonight, though, Tammy Thompson just will not leave him alone and he’s at a loss for what to do about it. She’s been talking his ear off about wanting to move to Nashville and become a country singer the entire time he’s been working on this extra large pepperoni and sausage with black olives—not his first choice, but it’s still hot enough for the cheese to stretch whenever he picks up the next slice, warm tomato sauce and grease dripping down the front of his polo more often than he can always catch with a napkin. 

“Did you want some?” he asks at some point, to be polite and hopefully indicate that he doesn’t care that she’s trying to tell him something. 

He can tell immediately that it doesn’t work, because Tammy lights up from simply being addressed, even though her answer is, “Oh, no thank you, I’m a vegetarian.”

“Right,” Steve mumbles, and crams nearly half of his next slice of meat-laden pizza in his mouth. Maybe if he talks with his mouth full. “More for me, then.”

The words come out muffled, but she still beams and offers to grab him something to drink, jumping up and scampering off before Steve even has a chance to respond. He sighs, downs the rest of the beer he’s been nursing, and takes the new one she brings him without saying thank you. Between the next pieces of pizza he pops it open, chugs it, and belches; she puts a hand on his arm. 

For a moment, at that, Steve feels a faint stirring of interest. He likes his food, did even before dropping swimming and picking up weed, and well before it started to show. Now that it has, he feels comfortable in his softer body. Good. And maybe… maybe he could handle dating someone who doesn’t mind how much he likes it. He imagines Tammy running her immaculately painted nails over his skin, places he’s noticed have been getting more sensitive lately, and suppresses a shiver. 

“Could you pass me that bowl of M&Ms over there?” he asks, testing the waters. Yeah, he could probably reach it if he stretched, but he’s starting to fill up and doesn’t feel like putting the extra pressure on his stomach. He sits back a little in his chair instead, shifting to get comfortable and laying a hand on his belly where it bows out over the waistband of his jeans. “Sorry, just, you know. Big appetite lately.”

“Oh, that’s okay, I don’t mind,” Tammy says with a giggle as she fetches the bowl for him. “Besides, you’re an athlete! I’m sure you’ll work it off in no time on the court.”

And yeah, no, that vague interest curdles immediately. As far as Steve is concerned, the only parts of himself he wants to get rid of are all in his head—the heartbroken parts, the nightmare and trauma parts, the desperately lonely and needy parts. But he’s not so lonely that he’ll hook up with a girl who’s willing in spite of how he looks, because what else could she possibly be interested in? His personality?

He barely even has one. King Steve has always been bullshit, Nancy was right about that much. 

Through the crowd, he spots curly hair and a flash of dark leather—Eddie. Good, he’d been hoping to buy more tonight, and this is as good an excuse to exit this conversation as any. 

Steve grabs a handful of M&Ms to shove in his mouth and flips the lid of the pizza box closed, handing the bowl back to Tammy and taking the box with him when he stands. “Well, enjoy the rest of the party,” he blurts. “I’ve gotta go see a guy about some drugs. Bye!”

As he makes his escape, some girl that he thinks he might have class with or something just about shoulder-checks him, but he’s solid enough that she ends up stumbling from the impact instead. The glare she gives him could peel paint… which is actually kind of refreshing, after enduring Tammy’s simpering for the better part of an hour. 

To Eddie’s perpetual frustration, now that Steve Harrington has started buying weed from him he can never seem to be free of the guy. Case in point: the “Hey, Munson, wait up!” that follows him to the backyard of tonight’s house party slash business venture. 

He waits until he’s down the patio steps before whipping around, prepared to glare and snap an impatient what do you want, Harrington, but ends up staring at a pizza box that’s being shoved in his face. 

“Pizza?” Steve says. 

Eddie blinks at the box, then at the boy holding it. “This isn’t your party. Doesn’t that mean it’s not your pizza to offer?”

“It might as well be, I’ve eaten most of it,” Steve replies. “No one seemed to notice, that makes it fair game.” 

Once, Eddie had been selling at a party and been bitched out for touching a single cookie, because those were for guests. He wants to scowl, but then his gaze flicks down to the partly open box and sees that there aren’t many slices left, eyes fixing on the evidence dripped down the front of Steve’s shirt and the way it’s… tight, across his middle. “You ate all but three slices of an entire extra large?”

He’s not sure what answer he expects to get. Maybe something like Of course not, dickhead, or maybe just, What, like it’s hard? But all Steve says is, “Yep.” And keeps looking at him with those sweet hazel eyes that seem bight and not too clouded by alcohol. 

Still, Eddie is wary. “Okay… You first.” 

Steve just shrugs and pulls out a slice, taking a bite before Eddie snatches it out of his hand. “Hey!”

“Just making sure it wasn’t poisoned first, sweetheart,” Eddie retorts, sneering for the excuse to call a pretty boy sweetheart in semi-public, butterflies stirring in his stomach at getting away with it. “Don’t worry, the rest is all yours.”

“Who’s tried to poison you?” Steve asks in a perplexed tone, folding the last two slices together to make a pizza sandwich and tossing the empty box onto the deck. Still following Eddie, because of course this is Eddie’s life. Love spell was a spectacular failure, but he’s still got the boy of his dreams following him around like a lost duckling because he’s got drugs. Fucking fantastic. 

And Eddie doesn’t want to get into the whole thing—those rumors from when Eddie had been in seventh grade and Steve had been in sixth, for all that they’re both in the same grade now, about some kid who’d been sent to the ER from a bad reaction to itching powder. There were variations where it had gotten in his eyes and nearly blinded him, or on his food and made his throat swell shut, or in his underwear and turned his dick so red his balls fell off. In reality, he had only gone to the nurse with a bad rash and hadn’t even been allowed to go home, but it left a goddamn impression. 

He doesn’t want to get into it, not if Steve either doesn’t remember the rumors or hasn’t connected them to his present day self, so he just rolls his eyes and says, “Are you looking to buy or what?”

Steve immediately brightens a bit, like a golden retriever spotting someone holding a tennis ball. “Yeah, I smoked the last I had before coming here but it’s already worn off I think.” And takes a big bite of his two pizza slices. 

So Eddie leads him to a darker nook around the side of the house for the deal, trying not to stare at the way Steve’s cheeks bow out while he chews, like a damn chipmunk. It’s cute. He’s kind of angry that it’s cute, that there’s still a part of him that lights up when Steve looks happy, satisfied, content—and right now all of those boxes are checked. 

“Want to smoke a little now?” Steve offers, once he’s paid and taken the baggie one handed, popped the rest of the food in his mouth, licked his fingers clean, and pulled out a pack of rolling papers. And Eddie pauses too long before answering, long enough that Steve takes the lack of refusal as a yes. 

Which Eddie should correct, because he usually says no to that sort of thing, especially when he’s at parties specifically to sell. He’s turned Steve down before, even; it’s like the guy has a whole thing about offering whenever he plans on lighting up asap. Eddie knows better to fall into that trap. 

But it’s a nice night. The weather is mild for spring, business has been good, and Steve licks his lips to get the last traces of pizza sauce before his tongue darts out to wet the paper and finish rolling the joint. Nice and tight, like the denim hugging Steve’s ass and thighs tighter recently. So Eddie sticks around, breaks his rule and tries to keep his face clear of any evidence that he is fixated on the few degrees of separation between smoking and kissing, heart hammering the entire time. He tells himself it’s a one time only thing, but knows he might be lying. Recognizes how addictive this could be. 

“Thanks for being here,” Steve says after passing the joint back and forth a few times, his eyes glazed and drooping. “Really needed this tonight.”

“That’s what I’m here for, man,” Eddie replies. He’s leaning against the side of the house practically shoulder to shoulder with his crush, and the high washing over him is really taking the edge off the jagged yearning in his chest. Like, he still wants, but he’s happy just floating in the present moment, content with the indirect sharing of spit. And this is… This is okay. 

Surprisingly okay. 

It throws Eddie for a loop because it’s at odds with the whole King Steve image. The whole puppet master persona that isn’t a bully, but can with a few words cut someone down socially to where the bullies could reach them, if they so wish. Popular kids at Hawkins High walk around with their noses in the air like they’ve never smelled a fart and refuse to start now, but this is the guy they turn around and start brown-nosing. King Steve isn’t nice, he’s used to being waited on. Kings do not say thank you to the court jester for simply carrying out his profession. 

Just Steve, though, is different. Just Steve is chill and finished most of an entire huge pizza while mostly sober, is filling out his clothes even better these days in Eddie’s opinion, and currently looks the most at peace he’s ever seen a person. No walls, no guard… Just Steve. 

Okay, that one split joint had gone straight to his head, god damn. 

“Well, I’m gonna take off,” Eddie announces, and can’t tell if he’s said it too loud or not. He pushes off the wall with a shake of his head. “You snagged pretty much the last of my inventory, so I’ll just get out of here before someone starts handing out the torches and pitchforks.”

Steve chuckles. “Like any of those guys in there know how to make a torch,” he scoffs. He manages to say it in a way that almost makes Eddie lean in. Makes him feel like he’s been let in on some sort of inside joke, like they could but those losers couldn’t. 

Which is—Okay, so Eddie does in theory know how to make a torch, he’d looked into it for one of his earliest homebrew campaigns, but Steve Harringnton? The very idea of Steve whipping off his shirt, tying it to a branch, soaking the end in something flammable, and lighting it up is something out of fantasy. Out of specific fantasies that he has had. It snaps Eddie out of the hazy bubble of they that Steve had somehow created with just a few words, and holy shit. Was that one of the side effects of his wonky spell, or was that Just Steve?

“Yeah, sure,” Eddie scoffs back, putting more distance between them even though he does want to lean in, dammit, but he wants Steve to want it too. Even though it’s on the tip of his tongue to ask the guy if he has a ride home, or if he wants to swing by the mom and pop ice cream place on Main for desert or something; Eddie has been practicing swallowing down urges like that since he’d hit adolescence. “Find me next time you need to top up your stash, Harrington.”

He walks away fast enough that if Steve responds he doesn’t hear it, heading for the back gate that he’d left the house for in the first place. His van is parked strategically nearby for a quick getaway, just in case the party got out of hand and a neighbor called the cops. 

And if his dreams that night feature a completely relaxed Steve Harrington chewing on never ending slices of pizza and that blissful look of peace on his face, his lips shiny with spit and grease, it’s not like Eddie is ever going to tell anyone.

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[lynnlovesthestars]

Bg3 male matchup plz

Gender: cis female

Pronouns: she/her

Sexuality: heterosexual ally

Zodiac: Capricorn

Appearance: 5’2 African American hourglass body (although I’m more top heavy if you know what i mean) black curly wavy hair blackish brown eyes chubby cheeks wears glasses sometimes (im far sighted so it’s usually when driving in class or at the theater)

Mbti: infj

Enneagram: 2w1

Personality: kind smart funny motherly responsible empathetic anxious emotional moody perfectionist helpful people pleaser caring compassionate nerdy curious protective polite respectful indecisive fearful nervous introvert shy awkward clumsy low self esteem low confidence (more pertaining to my talents or personality then my looks) sassy sarcastic (I’m mainly these things with people i feel comfortable with like friends or family) soft spoken cute (my friends think im cute because i can be pretty innocent plus I’m small physically)

Likes: animals books reading writing fantasy magic sci fi anime music video games friends alone time learning personality quizzes sweets and bread helping being a part of something bigger than myself

Dislikes: spiders loud sounds people i care about not caring for themselves (im a hypocrite on this i take care of everyone else but not me) not being listened to weird holes and patterns math and tests (I’m being tested for a math disability and i have test anxiety)

Love language:

Giving: acts of service gift giving and physical affection (if they’re ok with it)

Receiving: words of affirmation and physical affection (although i can be shy about it)

Extra: i pace a lot i sing when im alone i talk to myself im a picky eater (mainly with textures) i have a cat i have minor ehlers danalos (a hyper mobility disorder) but it doesn’t hurt me like it does my sisters i get abdominal migraines which is basically like a migraine but instead of headaches it’s nausea

Thank you

hii, first of all sorry for being late, ive been keeping this ask in the drafts because of my fear of commitment (me and posting don't go along well, xD im usually there keeping everything in the draft n never showing anyone so this was holed up with some other stuff..) nevertheless here i am and i'd say you waited enough so here i go,,

I think every motherly person deserves their fatherly like opposite, this being said i think you'd pair up lovingly with Gale.

He does give that father, dad, parent vibe, doesn't he? ahah

I think you are so kind and bearing that you do need some care as well and Gale never fails at that. Not to say that he babies you, nor that he treats you as a child, but he definitely spends and indecent amount of time and effort in coddling you, making sure your every wish is taken care of, but most of all it's like he's your other half.

Before you know he can finish your sentences, he knows right away when something good or bad is happening, he can almost sense it.

I do see a lot of him in you and maybe that's why i know he'd be a lovely fit. They always say opposites attract but no one is better than someone that can understand you, that laughs at the same jokes, that can empathize with you and cheer you up..

He is protective, but he gets especially caring when you have a flare up, imagine with me for a moment.

He comes home from work and finds you on laying down in agony. Whatever he's holding is dropped on the floor instantly and he's rushing to your side, thousand questions he wants to ask you, yet he knows the pain must be so overwhelming he must first help you out.

He reaches for a few pillows, propping them around you making sure you are a little more comfortable before he's off to his study for a moment to find one of his alchemic creations and comes back, assuring you that the pain will go away with it.

As he's gently massaging the mixture on the painful areas he starts talking, as if to distract you. "You know how i know this concoct will work?" And he doesnt wait for your answer cause all he wants to do is soothe your pain, entertain you. "My knees are not what they once were, so i had to come up with a remedy" He smirks as he takes a moment to kiss your stomach. "Well the first time I adventured into alchemy didn't go so well" He chuckles. "When I applied the mixture to my aching joints they started burning, and dear me i was in even more pain" He laughs as he resumes his gentle kneading and massaging, and finally you start feeling the soothing cream gently activating. His hands glow ever so slightly as if he's imbuing the tincture with magic and all you can feel is the cooling sensation rippling gently over your skin. "Doesn't it feel good now, love?" He murmurs as he doesn't stop with his massaging, despite being done with the application he still wants to care for you. "Next time just let tara know you are in pain, and i'll be here in the blink of an eye, got it?" He kisses your forehead gently. "I will drop anything for you"

[stnaf-vn]

*sigh* SFW alphabet for Keagan?

(I can't remember if i did this already or not so here ya go--)

SFW Alphabet: Keagan Edition

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?) He'd be too embarrassed to start affection himself, but every once in a while, he'll gather all his courage and hold your hand or kiss you, then pretend like it didn't happen if you call him on it.

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?) Well, he'd be a lot less tsundere since you two are just best friends (although Friend might uh....might do a lil murdery)

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?) He loves cuddles, but he'd never admit it

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?) Lots of complaining as he cleans.

"Stupid MC.....can't clean up after themselves..."

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?) He'd do it in an honest way, and although it may be a bit cold-sounding, he doesn't want anything left unsaid between you two.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?) He'd get very flustered if you brought up the fact you two are engaged, and sometimes he feels scared or nervous, as if he doesn't deserve this....so he'll need a shoulder to lean on even though he may try to push you away.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?) He's a big pouty baby, but he's gentle. Example:

"Y-yeah. So what if I'm....hugging you....what's wrong with that?!"

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?) Loves hugs, but again, won't admit it. His hugs feel very warm and soft though, as if he is afraid of holding you too tight.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?) Imagine the slowest burn fanfic you ever read, then times it by 10. He might say it at your wedding or 5 or 6 years into your relationship....he'd want to say it earlier but he'd be too flustered to.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?) Can be jealous at times, especially if someone hits on you. And you can definitely tell when he is even though he won't admit it :)

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?) His kisses are gentle and soft, because he is afraid of being too rough and hurting you.

L = Little ones (How are they around children?) Keagan's personality doesn't change much around children (although he'd try to cut back the cursing and stuff)

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?) It takes Keagan hours to fully wake up, so if you try to get up before he does:

"hey....where ya goin'....?"

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?) Keagan refuses to sleep before you do (mainly because he likes how peaceful you look while you sleep although he'd never say that out loud)

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?) Well, Keagan is an open book, and is very honest about himself. He feels like in a relationship, if you don't accept him for who he is in the beginning, then things might not work out. So, he won't hide anything.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?) He can get annoyed pretty easily, but true actual anger takes a lot to get out of him.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?) He tries to remember things as often as he can. Like your birthday, your anniversary, etc.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?) It's the little things, like the way you hold his hand or kiss his cheek.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?) As much as Keagan is tsundere, he will absolutely protect you if you were dating. He's not like how he is in high school anymore...he's different. He's changed, and he will prove it to you.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?) He'd do what he can with his limited funds....

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?) Leaving the toilet seat up.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?) If its an important occasion, he'd try to look his best, but other than that, e h

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?) He loves you, but if you were gone, he wouldn't feel incomplete, he'd just feel like someone in his life was missing.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.) Keagan is secretly good at playing acoustic guitar, but he'd never show you (even though you can hear him from time to time if you live together)

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?) Messy, health food junkie.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?) He has to wear sleep headphones on or he won't be able to sleep.

[urlocalnonbinarybastardwrites]

hello! take your time with doing this, just thought it'd be fun to figure out which (pjo/mean girls) character you'd ship me with<3

I'm fem presenting, she/they, pansexual. i have really wavy (and sometimes frizzy) dark brown hair that goes down to my back (it's pretty curly after washing though) and i also have brown eyes! im the brown triad because my skin, too, is infact brown lmao (desi)

also have glasses! normal half moon shape if that matters?

i generally have a bit of a resting bitch face (I DONT MEAN IT I PROMISE) and mostly only smile a lot when I'm talking to people I like. unfortunately that makes people NOT COME UP TO ME !!!! DKDKFK :(

i imprint on people really soon (bpd) and like. absolutely if someone is nice to me for a minute I'll try my best to be their friend forever, but also it doesn't often show how enthusiastic I am for a friendship

very autistic so I need clear cut statements or I'll overthink to the point of having a THESIS about how much someone hates me

im kind of hyper. very very VERY hyper, and my love language is physical touch + words of appreciation.

bit of a mom friend - like. im also the therapist friend and i appreciate it <33

personality tests describe me as like, creative and analytic and shit? im fatally realistic but still a romantic to a point. also an absolute NERD, YES! also very protective. I've punched people for hurting my friends before yes

I'm not very active, my hobbies include reading and literary analysis and also, eating lmao.

idk if I should include anything else? sorry if this isn't enough for you 😭😭 um. if it helps I'm a daughter of hecate from like two quizzes, a daughter of venus from three !

Your Fandom Ship(s): Gretchen Wieners (Mean Girls) and Clarisse La Rue (PJO, luckyyyy)

OK, the main reason I ship you with Gretchen out of all the mean girls characters is I think you could be really helpful to her as a nice person and I think that maybe at first she thought you were a bit intimidating because we are resting bitch face, but eventually got over it and realized you were really nice person and especially after Regina she needs a lot of people that she can count on and a lot of truly kind souls which I feel like is a place that you could fulfill because you seem like a kind person and I feel like when you get on deeper terms of a relationship, you guys would actually be really well together and helping solve some of your Own personal issues and just have a really beneficial relationship. I thinkA as autism. She would be a bit confused, but once she got the hang of it, she would be pretty good at giving you clear and cut instructions at least the best of her abilities.

OK, you guys would be like an insanely cute couple. I just see kind of like enemies to lovers tension here but I mean honestly I just love the idea of you too together. I think that it would be funny for her to meet you because she would definitely think you’re kind of tough because you’re resting bitch face and then once she gets past that and sees that you’re really nice person I feel like you would kind of melt her heart a little bit and I mean, give me wrong. She would absolutely go rough on you at first, but I mean once she realizes your limitations. She would respect those and I just feel like you guys would be a really good couple together. She would know all your autism and boundaries solidly into the relationship, and yeah, just be super awesome and supportive and again the enemies lovers tension. I feel like it’s kind of rare in her life to have someone who really has her back and I feel like she thought it was super hot. The first time you punched someone for making fun of how muscular she was for a girl or something like that, and I don’t know I just feel like she feels like you really have her back and you guys have a nice stable relationship. 

[bluejaysandblackbats]

Kitten Heel

Fandom: DC Comics

Summary: Roy meets Jade in college and she offers to help him study chemistry in exchange for help in her music class. They develop feelings for each other, but Jade disappears after the semester ends. Nearly a year later, Roy catches a glimpse of a woman with a baby getting on the train. And she's wearing his bracelet...

Chapters: 1/?

Characters: Roy Harper, Jade Nguyen, Dick Grayson, Koriand'r, Ryand'r, Karras

Relationships: CheshRoy, DickKory, KoryKarras

Additional Tags: College AU, Not Actually Unrequited Love, Falling in Love, Complicated Relationships, Arranged Marriage, Established Relationship, Secret Relationship, Single Parents, Good Friend Roy Harper, Past Drug Addiction, Past Torture, Breaking Up & Making Up, Trust Issues, Angst, Romance, Hurt/Comfort

Chapter One: Chemistry

Roy scratched his head as he checked the answer to the homework question. He did his best, but Chemistry wasn't his subject. She knew that. Jade sat three tables down, watching her classmate grow more frustrated as time passed. Roy sighed and put his head down, locking his fingers behind his neck. He'd been at it for hours. Reading the chapters, rewriting his notes, going over the quizzes. He'd finally given up for the afternoon when he heard the click-clacking of heels against the floor. "Do you mind if I sit here?" Jade asked.

He looked up, helpless but afraid to swallow his pride. "Sure, I'm almost-." She took his homework and looked it over.

"You're in luck, you know," Jade smiled, "Chemistry's my best subject. Do you see this big number? The coefficient? You multiply it by the subscript, and you've got six. Right?" Roy nodded. "Okay, now what was the subscript for Nitrogen?" "Two," Roy replied. Jade smiled at him, raising an eyebrow as she waited for him to come to a conclusion. "Like this?"

"Exactly," Jade replied. Roy broke eye contact and thanked her. "I didn't just come over here to tutor you in Chemistry... I wanted to ask you a question because I've seen you play gigs at the college. Can you read sheet music?"

"Sure can... Why?" Roy questioned.

She unzipped her bag and took out a neatly folded piece of paper. "I'm taking a music class... But I don't understand the whole sheet music thing in practice. I think I get it, but the quizzes don't make sense." Roy looked at the paper and pulled out his iPod.

"Do you have headphones? I forgot mine at home," Roy whispered, "I'm Roy, by the way."

"Jade." She pulled a pair of headphones out of her bag and removed the zip tie. Roy grinned.

She plugged them into his iPod, and he opened an app. "You're taking Joyner's class? He'll only test you on this once... But the thing is a lot of the songs a simple if you learn to recognize the music. He usually doesn't grade too hard because he learned sheet music later in life. He plays by ear."

"Plays what?" Jade asked.

"Piano. I only know because he likes to do the open mic nights. He'll come in once a month and play a song, and if he sees his students there, he gives them extra credit," Roy replied as he played the notes for her on the app.

"ABCs," Jade replied.

"Or Twinkle Twinkle, but yeah... Exactly," Roy smiled. Jade looked over the second problem on Roy's homework.

"Hey, are you hungry?" Jade questioned. "Maybe we can finish this over lunch?"

"Are you asking me on a date?" Roy asked.

"Nope. I'm asking you to be my study buddy... Besides, I think better after I've had something to eat," Jade replied. Roy nodded.

"Okay," Roy replied as he packed his backpack. Jade stood up, and Roy followed her out of the library.

"What do you eat?" Jade asked.

"I'm not picky," Roy replied.

Jade decided on smoothies and sat at the park until they finished their homework. "When are you usually free?" Jade questioned.

Roy ripped a piece of paper from his notebook and wrote down his number, schedule, and dorm room number. "My roommate's a cool dude, so if you stop by my dorm to study or something and I'm not there, he'll let you in," Roy replied, "Well... I'm giving him too much credit. He'll be an asshole about it... But he'll let you in." Jade laughed.

"I'm probably not gonna stop by your dorm, but I appreciate you being extra available. Here, let me see your notebook," Jade replied. She wrote her number down and gave him her cell with her schedule. "It was nice meeting you, Roy-."

"Harper. Roy Harper," Roy interrupted as he shook her hand.

"Jade Nguyen. Nice to meet you, Harper Roy Harper. I'll see you Saturday morning?" Jade asked. Roy's eyes widened.

"Huh?" Roy asked.

"I'll call you with the details," Jade replied.

Roy waited until she was out of sight to bite his knuckle. "Fuck," Roy whispered. He texted his roommate and received a call a few minutes later. "Dick-."

"It's literally a random Thursday in September, Roy. Are you telling me you've fallen head over heels for a girl at first sight in a library?" Dick questioned.

"It wasn't first sight. You didn't see her-."

"You're thinking with your Johnson, Harper," Dick interrupted.

"Come on, I felt something-."

"Roy, please. I'm eating," Dick joked. Roy laughed.

"Are we hanging out tonight? Or are you busy?" Roy asked.

"Depends. Are you gonna talk about this girl you just met the whole time, or are you gonna hang out?" Dick asked.

"I'm gonna hang out," Roy answered half-sarcastic, "Are we still skyping Wally, or did he cancel?"

"He's gonna be late. Garth got dehydrated again, so he's picking him up from the E.R.," Dick replied. Roy laughed. "You can't laugh at Garth being in the E.R., Roy... Roy-." Dick fell into a fit of laughter.

"And he wonders why everyone called him Fish in middle school," Roy joked.

"I thought they called him that because he drank pool water on a dare," Dick responded.

"What are you doing right now?" Roy asked, walking backward toward his dorm.

"Watching you from the window," Dick answered.

"You missed me or somethin'?" Roy teased as he turned to look at their dorm window. Dick flipped him off. "Aww! I love you too, buddy." Roy returned the gesture.

"Are you wearing my sweatshirt?" Dick asked.

Roy looked down at the shirt and pulled the collar to check. "Nope, all mine, birdbrain. I've got the chewed-up collar to prove it," Roy replied, "Oh, and I think I might've found a Chemistry tutor."

"Don't tell me-."

"Yeah," Roy interrupted.

"That's gonna end well," Dick sarcastically replied as Roy made his way up the stairs. "I know you're gonna go for her anyway, but I want it on the record that I warned you."

"You don't even know her," Roy replied.

"But I know you," Dick answered as he opened the door. Roy hung up and dropped his bag. "You always fall too hard."

"You don't fall hard enough," Roy replied. He dug through his dresser and put his pajamas in his shower caddy. "Have you called Kory yet?"

"I'm still thinking," Dick answered. He flopped back on his bed, eating a slice of pizza. Roy grabbed a slice from the box and sat on the floor.

"You love her, don't you?" Roy asked. Dick sat up.

"Of course, I love her... But, it's complicated. She's engaged to somebody else," Dick replied.

"It's an arranged marriage..."

"A marriage is a marriage, Roy. She's committing herself to somebody else," Dick replied, "Do you know how serious that is?"

"No, but I know you've been irritable since she left. You should've gone with her. Kory asked you to go with her," Roy answered.

"I don't know anything about her world... And I'm not gonna go watch her marry somebody else-."

"Don't be such a big baby. It's an arranged marriage, Dick. And how much do you wanna bet her and Prince-Whoever-The-Fuck can't stand each other?" Roy grinned.

Dick groaned. "Okay... Fine, talk about your tutor. Anything but this right now," Dick replied. Roy took a bite of pizza and sat next to Dick.

"She's smart. Really smart," Roy replied, "And-."

"A brunette?" Dick interrupted.

"That's where you're wrong. Her hair is jet black," Roy half-joked.

[maybenotmei]

Hi can you do twin sibling deuce?? I would like to see him trying to a good twin brother :)

siblings !

alright, let's get started!

— ｖ（＾＿＾ｖ）♪

notes: ok who's gonna request ace as your sibling so we got ace deuce epel siblings as per usual i am not confident in my characterizations. i apologize in advance

also deuce is an only child ...? i just noticed lol ,,, so how do i go about this,,,, i love writing abt nrc students being siblings thanks andy LMAO

discuss: was he a good or bad brother when he was a delinquent? i say he was even though he got into a lot of fights before. he fought on behalf of you once when someone was acting pretty harsh towards you (or, if you're both the type to just fight it out, team up against said person)

but all that violence is all in the past. he wants to become a better student, and at the same time he wants to set a better example for you as your twin brother. though, the damage has already been done and you've seen everything...

but that doesn't mean he's not gonna try and work on himself and his attitude! he'll start by being absolutely more polite— and to be honest, the sight probably shocked you (after all, he was... well...)

truthfully, he might go to you for assistance in schoolworks if you're better than him in that aspect. if you're having trouble in a subject he understands at least, then he's willing to help you out. you two help each other out often (and if you were also like middle school deuce, he's kind of helping you become a better version of yourself too)

any sort of broken appliance? did someone smash your phone to the ground just for the fucks of it? deuce is here to (do his best and) fix it! (as well as Maybe almost going after the person who smashed your phone...) he's willing to help! to the best of his ability!

you two used to get really competitive physically, now he's trying to compete against you in academics. he's trying his best to be a honor student, and if you push him he may just even try his best to beat you in quizzes or examinations (no pun intended)

tell him i said good luck in algebra!

oh, but deuce isn't (extremely) mean to you! he cares (why do you think he attempted to chase after whoever destroyed your phone) and will be there if you want to say something to him or get something off your chest for a bit

hold him back when he gets violent in situations where it's unnecessary though please . he apologizes if ever he hurts you physically

overall, he really does want to see you do well in life. work hard just like him, alright? even if he's technically the one setting the good example (in this scenario) , set a good example for him too, okay?

i'm sending out my support to you and ace in dealing with his idiotic simple mind ^^

[cheste7]

Day 11 (27/11/23)🌟

my baby.... :( he always makes me feel better 😭

today was super tough for me i woke up early with the best intentions and here are some things i did

did my morning skincare routine🧚‍♀️

ate healthy breakfast (also some fruits)🍎

made the bed🛏

opened the balconies to let the fresh air in 🍃

then I took the subway to go to the hospital and take my uni lesson there. today it was orthopedics, and even the professor was moved while talking about a young patient...🦴

once at home i ate lunch

there was another problem with the water pipes and stuff in this house me and my roommates are slowly becoming plumbers or some sort of handymen🔧

my lower back and my shomach started to hurt so I had to stay in bed even if I had to do many things😫

I managed to clean my room 🧹

i transcribed my orthopedics lesson but I have to finish it to send it to my collegues, it's a hard task also because I was literally stuck in bed because of the pain💻🤕

for KOREAN i just watched an old wonwoo's interview with korean subtitles but I was too sore and tired to properly study with it. he really is too precious i wanna cry🇰🇷

for JAPANESE i learned lots of new vocabulary thanks to renshuu app, i also completed one kana crossword and some kanji quizzes🇯🇵

I was so tired that i literally fell asleep while studying so i didn't do much. sometimes i blame myself because my mind or my body doesn't work properly so i procrastinate too much and then i feel guilty it's hard to live in my brain📚😔

seventeen's songs i've recently gone crazy about:

anyone

trauma

kidult

fear

[inflamearc]

i can't remember where i saw it, but there was a post a bit ago that said "to self-destruct, you do the opposite of your preferred love language [to yourself]" and i've been thinking about that a lot. and i know it's all made up, but i do think it's a useful concept --- and that that's a practical way to Consider It. the quizzes only seem to consider the categories in terms of how we use the actions positively.

and i get why laura always scores 'acts of service', obviously --- hello, Meals On Wheels Girl --- but i don't think it applies to her private life, for the most part (though she always wants to be useful). i also don't think that denying herself help is anything, well, personal: it's not an option because she thinks she's protecting everyone, including [to an extent] herself.

however. 'physical touch' speaks for itself: she's very, very affectionate with people she cares about. she also tends to deny herself people she cares about, mostly sleeping with [you can imagine my scare quote energy toward 90% of them here] men who hurt her. the more 'lost' laura becomes, the farther apart she holds herself, because she doesn't believe that she deserves good things. the happier something makes her, the less she wants it, because bob does not react well to seeing her want things. and 'words of affection' --- that one's a little more interesting, i think? because language is so important to laura both as a character and a person, and she does really try to make sure that people know how she feels about them. a lot of the time, though, she gets scared, which in turn makes her angry, and so she ends up being unnecessarily critical / contrarian / just plain cruel. i can't say categorically that she doesn't mean it --- sometimes she IS venting actual frustrations --- but, for the most part, it just makes her feel safer. she'd rather a loved one hate her but be alive and well because of it, you know? and i think these are the things that are going to be most important for her to work on in the aftermath of [gestures], both for her healing and (sometimes) for their healing and also just because it's already stuff that she resents about herself so, so much.

[jvstheworld]

The Buffy Re-watch: S2E1 (part 1)

When She Was Bad

Here we go, Season 2!

Recap time with Antony Stewart Head doing the voice over.

Willow and Xander quizzing each other on movie quotes with ice cream, because friendship.

Xander says he's over Buffy, but he's still kind of interested.

Buffy was in LA over the summer, but didn't keep in contact with her friends that much?

And we get the first hints of romance between Xander and Willow even though nothing happens until season 3 They do have an almost kiss, but a vampire appears. Luckily Buffy is there to save the day.

Updated season 2 opening titles, and David Boreanaz is now part of the main cast.

Hugs all round.

Something is off with Buffy, whenever The Master is mentioned Buffy zones out.

Oh look, Hank Summers makes a rare appearance. Okay, here we see that despite that divorce Hank and Joyce are still on good terms with each other. Kind of makes m wish that they kept that instead of Hank being an absent father. It seems like he actually wanted to be in his daughter's life in someway.

Back to school and we see Cordy with her first world problems.

Ah, Snyder, such a loathing or kids and vivid imagery.

Boy sees girl, boy turns into gibbering fool- Giles sees Jenny, Giles turns into gibbering fool. Good timing there.

Snyder just being left talking to himself as he says he might as well be doing that. Humour doesn't have to be big laughs, sometimes small ones work just as good.

Giles at Burning Man, that would definitely be something.

Updated school sets, because they got a bigger budget this season.

The gang is back together. Giles is happy to see Buffy.

Willow and Xander had a bet going to see how long it would take for Giles to say he will consult his books. See, small humour works. Also true to form for Giles.

Training montage! Lots of quick movement to hide the stunt double's face.

Giles can tell that something is wrong with Buffy by her use of force and strength. Then we see a quick glimpse of The Master and we can deduce that Buffy most likely has PTSD. She is angry over what happened to her and wans to be prepared. While that makes sense, she isn't actually dealing with her emotions in a healthy way, or at all. She is taking her anger out on the training tool, but not properly processing what happened. I don't know much about PTSD but I would be surprised if Buffy didn't suffer in some way. Like seriously, she died and was brought back, that is going to have some serious ramifications, especially considering the circumstances which caused her death. This is also a complaint of mine for season 6. They brought Buffy back and just expected her to be normal after a few days? Fuck no! Get fucking real here. I can give them a pass this time because this is still all new to them. But in season 6, they should have known better.

A new group of vampires are in town, and the Anointed One is back.

Bad dream for Buffy. Does she ever have good ones?

Angel appears through her window to watch her sleep. Did he teach Edward Cullen that move?

Buffy gives Angel the brush off. He almost looks hurt. They did miss each other though. That's nice

Joyce knows something is wrong, but since when does kids tell their parents anything?

Cordelia wants in on the demon talk? She is trying, points for effort.

So, I have the two Cibo Matto songs featured in this episode on my YouTube Music playlist. I'm not a Spotify person, I use YouTube a lot so that justifies me having Premium. Also, they are good songs.

Digging up The Master's grave, can't be good. I am glad they gave the Anointed One a normal voice.

Buffy appears and the music changes to give a more creepy tone to the atmosphere. Angel didn't deserve her anger though.

Buffy pisses off everyone with one dance and a sentence. Talk about efficient.

Okay, part 2 tomorrow.

[slickshoesareyoucrazy]

"...And I Turned Out Fine..."

PLEASE DO NOT REBLOG THIS

I know my personal experience isn't the same as everyone else's. I'm not a navel gazing dipshit. But I do want to talk about my own bias here, I guess, having to do with this phrase and phrases like it.

I've said something like this probably thousands of times in my life. It was always trying to dismiss my own true feelings of not being fine. Literally every time I said it, it wasn't true. Not that it was exactly a lie. It was more an argument to myself so I could move past something shitty like it wasn't shitty and it shouldn't bother me. Sometimes I even justified shitty things like they were good for me. In some ways, some of the shitty parts WERE good for me, in the long run, but that doesn't mean I don't still have real trauma from them that I try to invalidate for myself all the time.

I think we're all basically made up of our traumas and their coping mechanisms. Optimism is one of mine. Sometimes that's really great. It's almost always great for helping out OTHER people who are having a hard time seeing their way out of shit, or can't find anything positive to hold onto in a dark time. I can see it. I'll show them where it is. I can spin a lot of things into brighter light, when someone else is already seeing the dark. I'm thankful for that part of me and how it serves other people. I really am. But for myself? Optimism, while often still really effective, means I'm just denying it's dark.

I never shared this anecdote between J and me publicly on the older, more followed blogs, and I may have shared it privately with a couple of you already, but it's on my mind again today, so here it is. In writing.

Maybe a year or two before tumblr hit my radar (maybe 2014ish?), J and I had a date where our son stayed over with my parents (I've always had mixed feelings about having our son stay with my parents, but there really isn't anyone else we trust at all around here. Anyway, so J and I usually went to dinner somewhere and then came home and did kinky shit together and watched rated R shit on streaming we couldn't watch when our kid was home. But this particular evening, after doing kinky shit, we were both web surfing some and we ran across one of those What Kind of Dom/Sub Are You? online quizzes (50 Shades was at peak popularity there, I think). So for silliness, we both took it. (We were living D/s since early 2007 at that point; so before 50 Shades existed). My results were all over the place, 20% of four labels each and 10% each of two more. J joked that I couldn't be labeled. His results were something like 85% White Knight Dominant. I remember the explanation saying that these 'types' were really concerned with safety, and very protective, and were 'typically drawn to submissives who are abuse/trauma survivors.' I said, 'You must be atypical. Because that's not me,' laughing at how ridiculous that suggestion was for me (it's dead on accurate for J). And he said, seriously, and kind of sad, 'Peaches? That's totally you.'

I admit that I use my happiness and security and accomplishments to justify my trauma and abusive past. I said, 'I did this, so my mom didn't really hurt me...' 'J says I'm a good mom, so I must not have been affected by that event...' 'What do I have to complain about in my life now? I turned out fine...' But the truth is all that hurt is still there, and that's why it comes out in the fiction. Because that's the place it's the safest to let it out still. Going to repost the first thing I wrote here with the no reblog control now that I can do that because all that's on my mind again today too.

[blot-squisher]

SFW alphabet for Rebecca Chambers

(I've still never played a RE game... So here we goooo!) SFW Alphabet Ask Meme for Surviving the Game for Rebecca Chambers!

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?) Unlike a lot of the people she's used to working with, Rebecca is amazing at giving honest compliments. If she sees something, she says something.

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?) Rebecca is easy going and generally very good natured. Expressing any interest in chemistry, general science, or basketball, and ya'll will be friends in no time.

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?) Used to being the shortest person in the room, she might climb you if you're tall/big enough (and she knows you're okay with it). Even if it's totally platonic, being physically affectionate with her friends is just a part of how she shows she cares.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?) Settling down could be nice, but not any time soon. Due to the nature of her work, Rebecca is very tidy and good at keeping the place clean. She can cook, just not a wide range of things. Due to school and work, and getting into collage early, she really just never had the time to learn.

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?) Face to face, probably over coffee. And a muffin. It's hard to be sad when you have a muffin.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?) Although the idea is nice, she's not in a place in her life where she feels ready to take such a big step with anyone.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?) Herman should take lessons from her on bedside manor. If you're hurt or just need someone to talk too, she's one of the best people you can go to.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?) Rebecca has those really nice hugs that aren't too tight or sweaty. She likes to give and receive hugs, and oftentimes can pick up on when someone could use one without them saying a word.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?) Platonically? Rather quickly. Romantically? That'll take a bit longer.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?) Rebecca is young and still inexperienced in some aspects of life, but that doesn't mean she's going to shut down or act like a child. Jealousy can be a great motivator when directed correctly, and she'll do what she can to use it as motivation to do better.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss their partner? Where do they like to be kissed?) Soft, sweet, maybe a little hesitant. Rebecca hasn't had a lot of experience with romance, so she's still got a lot to learn.

L = Little ones (How are they around children?) Rebecca likes kids. She finds their energy and curiosity endearing, but she isn't sure if she'd ever want any of her own.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?) Hopefully you don't mind getting up early! Someone's got to grab coffee and donuts for everyone on the way to work!

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?) More relaxed than the morning, that's for sure. Grab a good book and a cup of tea or coco, and feel free to curl up next to her on the couch.

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?) Rebecca can be a chatter box, especially when she's working. Oddly though, she knows how to talk without really saying much of anything. A few personal stories will make it in here and there, but only the things she's ready for you to know.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?) Rebecca is more prone to becoming exasperated before jumping to anger. That isn't to say she won't get angry if the situation calls for it.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about their partner? Do they remember every little detail they mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?) She has a pretty good memory, but if she forgets something important she'll do her best to make up for it. That kind of stuff happens from time to time.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in their relationship?) Working on a big project together. Whether or not it worked out isn't what's important, getting to have fun together is.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect their partner? How would they like to be protected?) Despite being relatively small and soft looking, Rebecca is proficient at both hand to hand and armed combat. She will fight if she needs to, although she prefers to look after the ones on the front lines before going there herself. Keep out of trouble and have her back when trouble finds you, and she'll make sure you both make it out alive.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?) Rebecca likes to play (harmless) pranks, so if you have a very small not super important date coming up, she's going to go all out. Everyone you know is going to be invited. There will be cake. But if it's something serious or personal, she'll take care to make it something special for you without going overboard.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?) Girl bites her damn nails so much her teammates actually put tape on her fingertips for a week to try and make her stop... She chewed through the tape...

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?) Although she likes to look good, it's not at the top of her priorities.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without their partner?) Considering it would be her first real serious romantic partner, yes. For a very long time.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.) She looks up to Jill and Ada more than anyone else in the Realm. Having known Jill since before being taken by the Entity, getting to see her again was a relief, and her expertise at dealing with Wesker was a boon to everyone.

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?) She's simply not a fan of overly dominant, gotta be in charge, super macho types. You can be tough and in charge without being an ass. There is no I in TEAM after all!

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habit of theirs?) Buried under a mountain of pillows, blankets, and stuffed animals. Infinite comfort items!

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That's 115 more posts than 2021!

86 posts created (75%)

29 posts reblogged (25%)

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I tagged 110 of my posts in 2022

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#steddie - 32 posts

#steddie fic - 21 posts

#steddie twilight au - 20 posts

#waiting room - 18 posts

#my fics - 16 posts

#steddie ao3 - 16 posts

#eddie munson - 15 posts

#ronance - 9 posts

#anon answered - 9 posts

#steve harrington - 8 posts

Longest Tag: 140 characters

#lads let’s just imagine robin buckley going with steve to watch one of eddie’s shows and seeing the girl that she’s had a crush on for years

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#5

Stranger Things AUs that I keep thinking about:

Ronance High School Musical Au

Steddie Camp Rock Au

Steddie Stardew Valley Au

Scooby Squad zombie apocalypse Au

Ronance Bly Manor Au

Steddie Howls Moving Castle Au

Ronance Pride & Prejudice

Steddie JATP Au

52 notes - Posted August 20, 2022

#4

Steddie Buzzfeed Unsolved Au PT2 (PT1 Here)

Kind of obsessed with looking at it from Eddie’s point of view. The man is an age-old demon hiding in plain sight at a fucking digital entertainment company. Before joining Steve's show, his job was to make internet quizzes and low-effort viral videos along with other boring stuff behind the scenes. (I imagine him as the demon equivalent to the trio from wwdits. Like, most other demons are out there possessing little kids and ruining people’s lives and Eddie is writing quizzes to purposely give people the worse answers in their 'Which Character Am I?' quiz.) He doesn’t even try too hard to hide his demon nature. People just always write it off as something else.

Then he meets Steve Harrington and, for the first time in decades, he starts having fun. And, sure, it feels a little disingenuous to be wandering around these haunted houses acting like the ghosts aren’t real (because, you know, he can literally see every ghost they encounter) but it gets a rise out of Steve and isn’t that what demons are supposed to do? Get rises out of people. (Plus, being friends with a human gets a rise out of the other demons so it’s a win-win situation.)

So, he starts enjoying the job and seeing how far he can take it. (Which, apparently, is very far.) Suddenly, he is the co-owner of Goatman’s bridge and he’s laying on the pentagram belonging to the demon at Sallie House (which he’s pretty sure gives him some sort of claim but, then again, what does he know? Demon law is exactly as boring as it sounds and he refuses to learn anything beyond what he needs). Not to mention that he keeps getting invited into Holy Spaces and speaking to priests and it’s all starting to get him a reputation as something a lot more powerful than he actually is.

(Somewhere among the way he might start falling in love with his co-host. Though he doesn’t admit it. Even he knows that a demon-human relationship is something that only works out in CW shows and bad romance novels.)

But then Steve finds out that he’s a demon. God knows how but he starts flicking Holy Water at Eddie and reciting scripture that he’s definitely reading off of his phone. It hurts but what had Eddie expected? The guy is a paranormal investigator after all. (And that puts a horrifying thought in Eddie’s head. Does that make him a paranormal investigator as well?)

After that initial moment of panic, Steve calms down and, much to Eddie's surprise, he doesn't start looking at Eddie like he’s a monster. He’s just mad that Eddie has been skewing the results. (“It’s not a win for the sceptics IF A DEMON IS SCARING THE GHOSTS AWAY!!!”) (And yes, Eddie finally admits to himself that he’s in love with the guy because how the hell can he not be.)

They spend the next couple of hours talking about every case they’ve investigated. Eddie refuses to tell Steve which locations were actually haunted but does tell him which demons were real. After four seasons, it’s the least he can do. But then Steve starts asking about how old long Eddie's been around and they find out that him being a demon bleeds into their true crime stuff as well. Because Eddie is older than fucking dirt and he's been around for most of them. Not that he knows anything useful. (“Jack the Ripper? Oh yeah, I was in London for that whole thing. No idea who he was but the beer was good.”) Which drives Steve up the fucking walls.

Even though he'd never admit it, Eddie is scared that the revelation means that they’re going to end the show but Steve just takes it as a challenge. (And maybe Eddie lets him get some evidence now and then. Just never through the spirit box. He hates that fucking thing.)

65 notes - Posted August 25, 2022

#3

do you have any steddie fic recs?

Do I ever!!! Thank you for asking me this because there are so many fantastic fics that I need everyone to read :) (These are not listed in any particular way, I love them all equally and couldn't pick my favourite if I tried.)

The Babysitters Club by salemofficialbb [completed] I don't actually know if I read this or Sub Culture first but I know that I consider both of them my introductory fics when it comes to Steddie. This fic is a chat-based fic that focuses on the older kids and their efforts to get Steve & Eddie together. It's cute and it's fun and it's one I reread when I need to smile. It's got Ronance, it's got Jonathan/Argyle and a ship I really like but don't see a lot of, which is Vickie/Chrissy. I laughed out loud while reading this, I squealed at times, I felt lighter after finishing it. (Also, something I did not notice the first time around because I'm v dumb is that most of the time when the characters send photos in the chats, the author links to a Tumblr with the photos so you can see them. It's immersive and I love it and yeah, please read this fic if you want to smile.

sub-culture by palmviolet [completed] I know this one gets recommended all the time but there's a reason for that. This fic is just mind-blowing in every way. It's beautifully written and the author has such a grip on the characters that they might as well just start writing for the show. It had me hooked from the first chapter where Steve helps Eddie through a panic attack and I read the whole thing in one sitting and my life is better for it, I think. The author takes such care in writing the story in a way that's respectful not only to the time period (make sure you read the author's notes because I have learnt so much about 80s gay culture from this author) but also with the characters. I really feel like I'm not doing it justice but I don't want to spoil anything about it because it's just amazing. If you haven't read it, please do. It's well worth your time. [Also, while I'm here, please consider reading palmviolet's other works such as the lathe (a time loop fic that's taken years off of my life) and their who says it was simple series (I am a simp for Eddie & Max interactions and would like to see more of them.)

Camp Folktale, Summer of ‘86 by cairparavels [WIP] I'm pretty sure I rec'd this in a Waiting Room author's note because I am obsessed with it. It's a fluffy little camp councillor's au and every update has me kicking my legs and losing my mind. All the ingredients for a good soup are in this fic: Steve being uselessly in love with Eddie, Eddie being uselessly in love with Steve, the kids being little shits and trying to get them together, the kids having fleshed out little stories alongside Steve and Eddie, Ronance, Chrissy and Fred (which I didn't expect but love) and Mews II playing a pivotal role in not only Steddie's story but my happiness. The author updates incredibly regularly and every update is great so don't let the fact it's a WIP put you off. It's worth your time and a nice cheerful story if you want a break from reading a lot of angsty fics.

all my ghosts (are with me) by steve_the_hair_harrington (peter_parkerson) [completed] This is a series of three fics that focus on Steve's reaction to sleeping with Eddie for the first time. The first two don't feature Eddie as a character but rather they focus on Steve & Robin as she tries to help him through his realisation that he likes Eddie. All of the parts are very well written and the friendship between Steve & Robin is spot on. (Not to go on a tangent but I also really appreciate the way that this author writes both Robin & Eddie as autistic characters. I felt it was handled really respectfully and also showed that two people can be autistic and have different ways of presenting it, which is always really nice to see.)

I Wake Up When Everyone's Gone by beetlesandstars [completed] This one is angsty as hell and I love it. This one-shot focuses on how Steve and, to a lesser extent, Dustin deal with Eddie's death. It's not a very long read but manages to do a lot in a little amount of time and I love when stories really focus on grief. It's one of my favourite things to read about/consume. Especially when they tackle the idea that grief isn't uniform and one person's grief isn't going to be the same as another even if they're grieving the same person. And this author does that beautifully.

Who the fuck reads to you in hell? by lichtbringer (percyinpanties) [completed] Another one-shot. This fic is about Steve reading Lord of the Rings to Eddie while he's in the hospital recovering from the events of volume two. I love the snapshots of his friends while he's in the process of waking up. I love the characterisation of Steve. I love that Eddie is alive and being taken care of. I just love this fic.

Keep it Steady, Eddie by outofmygourd [completed] Another classic when it comes to Steddie fics but one that I've only recently got around to reading. This fic features Eddie working at Family Video with Robin & Steve and the slow-burn but incredibly sweet story of them falling in love. It also features Robin/Vickie and I smiled every time they were mentioned because they're so cute and I love them. Like with Sub-Culture I don't want to mention specific scenes and ruin them but there are so many amazing scenes in this fic. I really loved how the author incorporated the kids in a way that felt really natural as well as Wayne. It felt like the world was alive outside of Steve/Eddie and I just loved it. Definitely recommend this fic and also Not so Bad by the same author.

Some Cupids Kill With Dice by horrormoviebarbie [WIP] I bookmarked this fic with Lady Gaga's speech from that meme because I truly felt like it encapsulated the way I felt about it. In this fic, Steve Harrington is a single father to Dustin & Max who falls in love with his kid's English teacher, Eddie Munson. There are four chapters out right now and each of them felt like a gift from the universe. This author not only understands Steve on a cellular level but manages to create a story so amazing separate from the events of Stranger Things (I believe this is an AU in which there are no monsters) that I would not only buy it as a published book but I also want to see it made into either a TV Show or Movie.

the most remarkable thing about you standing in the doorway is that it’s you by greatunironic [completed] So I read the entirety of this fic in one sitting last night and it has changed me as a person. The characterisation of the kids as adults is perfect. The fear of rejection and the sunken cost mentality that if you leave something for too long then it's not worth touching? Killed me. The depiction of death (especially from a long-term illness) and the different types of grief that follow it took me out and put me back together again. I want to own Ed Levy's discography. I want to pin his interviews up on my wall. I want Madchen and Robin to be my best friends. I want this fic tattoed onto the back of my eyelids.

I don't know how many you wanted so I'm going to leave it there in case I've maybe gone a bit overboard. I do have more so if you'd like more, please let me know because I love talking about the amazing fics that I've read. Also, if you're reading any of these for the first time and you're enjoying them, please make sure to leave a kudos and a comment telling the author just how much you've loved them!

74 notes - Posted August 3, 2022

#2

Steddie Twilight AU ideas cause it's giving me brainrot:

Steve's parents are divorced. He spends most of the year living with his dad in Hawkins but spends summers and holidays with his mum across the country. He doesn't get on with either parent but it's easier to be around his mum because she's kind of just self-absorbed whereas his dad is overly-critical and just unpleasant to be around.

Steve misses his first go at senior year because he's roped into going travelling with his mum for a year after her latest divorce. It's not something he really wanted to do but he's nothing if he isn't a people pleaser and the chance to get away from his dad for a year was too good to pass up.

Except when he gets back to Hawkins things are... weird.

People keep going missing and turning up dead. Like, brutally dead. (Most of them drained of blood as well.) The police keep talking about animal attacks but Steve's never seen an animal pop someone's eyeballs from the inside out.

Also there's a new guy in town.

A ridiculously good-looking guy who works the night shift at the gas station but still turns up to school in the morning fresh-faced and rearing to go. A guy who, despite being a complete social outcast, is somehow joined at the hip with Steve's ex.

And Steve doesn't care about this new guy. He's just some guy. He's just... concerned about Nancy. (Especially after Robin tells him that Nancy ran away for almost a month while he was gone and then came back different.) So, yeah, he keeps bumping into Eddie and trying to get information out of him. (Like why his insanely gorgeous eyes keep. changing. colour... or how he's never tired even though Steve knows he doesn't get off work till like 6am.)

Except they just keep hanging out and Steve's concern shifts into a full-on gay crisis when he realises that 1) thinking about Eddie's eyes and rings and long soft hair isn't bro behaviour, and 2) Eddie is a vampire and he might actually be the one committing the murders

123 notes - Posted July 15, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Steddie AU: Buzzfeed Unsolved Edition (PT2 here)

Steve Harrington, a life-long believer in all things spooky, starts a silly little web series with his friend, Robin. The first season is relatively tame. Just Steve and Robin sitting in the front seat of his car, driving around Hawkins and talking about urban legends and unsolved mysteries. It's cheap to make and, hey, he's getting paid to hang out with his best friend so Steve isn't about to start complaining. But in the gap between Season 1 and Season 2, the show goes viral. Suddenly his bosses want him to go to haunted locations and try and capture evidence of the supernatural. Robin, rightly, backs the fuck out at that. Real or not, she doesn't want to mess with that sort of stuff. Not when the consequence is potentially being haunted for the rest of her life.

Enter Eddie Munson, a co-worker of Steve and Robin, who is so utterly unbothered by the supernatural that they have to put him on the project. The dynamic is perfect: the true believer and the absolute sceptic. And, as much as it surprises Steve, he actually kind of likes hanging around with Eddie. Office rumours be damned. Together they work their way through all the most haunted locations in America, collecting evidence (or as Eddie calls it *bullshit*) and not solving a single damn thing.

That is until the fourth season of the show when Steve suggests they try and perform an exorcism as the big season finale. He's bought a cursed doll on eBay and has all the equipment ready for the shoot. It's the first idea that Eddie ever shoots down and Steve can't work out why until one day he reads a fan theory that Eddie is a demon. It's an inside joke of the fandom and the accepted explanation as to why they never get any concrete evidence. And, sure, it's dumb but so is Steve sometimes, so he splashes Eddie with Holy Water the next time they're working late on set. And, well, that's the story of the first supernatural mystery that Steve Harrington ever solves.

238 notes - Posted August 23, 2022

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Admirer Central Pt. 2

Pairing: Intelligence Unit x Member! reader & Mystery Man x reader

Summary: The team has been dying to find out who Y/n's fiance is, but when it comes time for everyone to meet, things don't go according to plan

Requested: Yes, by multiple anonymous

Warnings: mentions of crimes, guns, and injuries

Word Count: 746 Words

Pt. 1

"So," Hailey started and took a seat on the edge of my desk. "You've been with this unit for a couple of months now, but we still don't know who your fiance is. When do we get to meet him?"

"Yeah," Jay agreed. "When do we finally get to know who it is?"

"When the time is right," I reply.

Adam groaned. "Come on. You've been saying that for months now."

"I'm not doing it on purpose," I claim. "He's just like us. Always busy with work at the firehouse. Plus, he's just taken on a side job, so I don't get to see him too often either. I'll talk to him when I get the chance and let you all know when we can meet up. How's that sound?"

"We'll allow it," Kim declared. "But we're still gonna keep pushing."

"Yes we will," Kevin concurred.

"All right. Now, I need to finish this paperwork, so if you'll excuse me," I say and turn my attention back to my work.

...............................................

The team and I had been following a gun dealer case for the past few days. A bunch of illegal automatics had been sold throughout Chicago, and we were trying to stop the dealer from selling anymore. We had set up a meet, and everything was going great. Well, until things took a turn.

"Y/n get down!" Jay shouted. I dove to the floor, hitting it with a thud as a spray of bullets flew over my head. When I pushed myself up though, a throbbing pain started pulsing from my calf, and when I looked down, I saw that a bullet had managed to graze my leg, leaving behind a pretty deep cut.

"I've got him!" Adam called out from across the warehouse. "Everybody good?"

"I may need some help," I tell my co-workers.

"Ooh," Kim cringed when she saw the cut. "That doesn't look too good."

"It doesn't look too bad. It should just need stitches," I guess. "Could someone take me to Med real quick?"

"I've got you," Kevin spoke and bent down to help me up. At Chicago Med, all I needed were a few stitches, like I had guessed earlier. And once that was taken care of, Kevin and I headed back to the district. Up in the bullpen, all of Intelligence was sitting at their desks filling out some paperwork.

"Hey. You okay?" Hailey asked.

"I'm fine," I assure her. "I mean, it hurts like hell when I walk, but other than that, I'm okay." Just then, my fiance came bounding up the stairs that led into the bullpen, and Trudy was right behind him.

"Sorry for the interruption. He insisted he come up," Trudy disclosed.

I waved Trudy up. "It's fine. Thank you for brining him up."

"What the hell, Y/n? I was stopping by the hospital to check on a victim I saved earlier and Will told me you had just been there and needed stitches. Why didn't you call me?" Kelly quizzed.

"Because I didn't want you to worry," I respond.

"I'm your fiance. I have every right to worry," Kelly countered.

"Hold on a second," Jay interrupted. "Severide is your fiance?"

"Wait. You guys know each other other?" I question.

"I know everyone up here. We've worked with each other a lot over the last few years," Kelly confessed.

"This whole time we thought we didn't know who Y/n's fiance was. She never gave us your name," Adam shared.

"A lot of cops like to keep their personal lives private. I am one of those cops," I state. "But now, since you've all met my fiance, you can stop bothering me about it."

"Aw. But that was fun," Kim muttered.

"I'm off shift in like two hours, and it looks like you guys are almost finished with work, so would you want to meet up at Molly's after shift?" Kelly posed.

"Only if we get to hear all kinds of embarrassing stories about Y/n," Kevin put forth.

Kelly smiled. "I'm down to share some things."

"This is why I didn't want to introduce any of you. Because I knew this would happen," I admit.

"Shut up. You love us," Hailey teased.

"Yeah yeah yeah," I murmur. "Lets just get back to work. That means you too, Kel."

"All right. I'll see you guys later. Bye Y/n," Kelly said and leaned over to press a quick kiss to my lips.

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Hi, I was wondering if you could write about the dorm leaders finding out that their s/o is a magical girl, specifically one from madoka magica who had become a witch a while after finding out the truth about magical girls? s/o in this scenario had already died in witch form, but had woken up in a coffin after their death, looking normal despite everything and remembering everything. they still have their magical girl form, witch form, and soul gem, but goes out of their way to avoid using them

Sorry for all the words, I just love madoka magica and twst, so I thought it’d be cool if they interacted

YOU FUCKING READ MY MIND OR WHAAAAT!? I ABSOLUTELY LOVE MADOKA MAGICA TOO!!!!! KAKFWJFKDJDK THIS REQUEST WAS EVERYTHING I WISHED FOR. LETS GO LETS GOOOO. Also, a little information, twst and pmmm share a company of creation, so this is not so out of idea!

Dorm Leaders with a Magical girl s/o, from the Madoka Magica Universe.

Riddle Rosehearts

He doesn't even notice anything at first with you. You were a normal person after all. But he got interested in you after you... Stopped him in his overbolt form, and the way you reacted...

That sudden transformation and that sparkling gem, with that weird outfit.

He talks with you after all of these events passed, and you don't want to answer them. You walk away with melancholy in your eyes.

He didn't touch this after that. It takes him a friendship and starting a relationship with you so he can know something, besides seeing your ring and knowing your “magical” form.

You explain him everything you know, how you are supposed to not be here, how you know you are probably dead, and still figuring out your new powers and opportunity here. You even show him your soul gem and explained why you didn't wanted to use your gem to not expose yourself to draining your magic, knowing what it happens...

He is confused but understanding. He reads and reads hoping to find out about something like this in all of the books, even the old ones.

Does his best to protect your soul gem and to not let anyone touch it. Not even in their ring form.

But nothing, so he hopes he can stop your witch form if it evens happens.

... But it happened, after a fight you two had about the laws of the Queen of Hearts, you couldn't stand this and run away, transforming you into a witch.

Turns out, your witch form is more terrifying that his overbolt. And the labyrinth...

Well, let's just say that it does say a lot. Filled with talking rouses with teeth that whispers the rules and depressives toughts. A enormous garden only iluminated with red lights and familiars securing the witch in the center of the garden.

Fighting with your witch form was the thing that more hurted him, even if he looked like a real leader out there protecting everyone.

After slaying you, he cries, he cries so hard only to find...

Your soul gem.

OK BUT WHY- sorry to interrupt your angst moment but. why.

Turns out that you cant fucking die twice, and your witch form only releases all of your corrupted magic and lets you know how to take care of her.

Riddle hugs you so hard and cries on your shoulder, and promises to not be so harsh on you, not even on the rules.

You hug him and kiss his head.

You still don't want to use your powers too much, and the insecurities about your soul not being in your body are huge. But Riddle reassured you that there is no one more human that you.

Still studies everything he can of your magical powers and everything, so expect quizzes and study dates with you so he can figure out a lot of things.

Doesn't know everything, but this queen will protect your soul with everything he has.

Leona Kingscholar

He sense something off about you, well he smelled something off about you and your "lack of magic"

His eyes are on the ring that you always hide from everyone else like you stole it.

He became more active for this, since he didn't wanted Ruggie to do this for him, he will discover this secret of yours on his own and...

Falls in love. That wasn't the idea but he does it tho.

You feel him very close to you, and soon you fall for him too. But you feel that your soul is too far from him to touch you.

Soon, he discover your soul gem and magical girl form, when spying you on the botanical gardens.

“How can my soul reach him and feel him, if its not even on my body anymore...? I must say this to him... But, what if he...?”

His ears go down, now he understands. He has to hear all of this from you so he gets off the tree besides you and reveals himself.

You get more terrified than embarrassed. And something inside you cracks.

That how he met your witch form, in fact. He was the first victim of your labyrinth.

Was totally afraid to use his unique magic on your... Witch... Form. Or whatever that was. He know it was you after all.

Let's not talk about your familiars that looks like lions and horrific animals of the jungle. Besides the plants that look made in the hell, and the enormous garden with no sun at all. Yeah, that labyrinth was hell and sure it explained how you feel.

So with some help from Ruggie who was also dragged into your labyrinth, he smashed your witch form to receive your unconscious body and that weird gem it appeared in your hands.

He mantains your gem with him and growl at anyone who even TRIES to look at it.

When you wake up in Leona's room, you confess everything in tears and he hugs you and pats your head.

“Such a strong herbivore...”

That night he became your boyfriend and protector.

This magical girl thing, he didn't get it. But he understands the situation, a wish from an eternal life of fight, tsk.

You hate to transform you or use your new witch form that learned how to use, but sometimes he is a little bit dense and need to get out of bed.

Even if he is a lazy grumpy lion, he does his best to make you don't even use your magic. Since he doesn't want you to suffer from anything regardless of your soul being trapped in a gem.

And also, knowing the intelligence he carries, soon enough discovers that the magic rocks used on wands can help with taking the impurities out of your soul gem.

For now, he wants you to stay. Because coming back to your world it may means losing you.... Forever.

Azul Ashengrotto

He knows how much interest you have on that weird ring with a jewel with the color of your clothes, so he is quick to see if he can do anything to get it in his hands.

But before even getting into it, he falls in love with the sweet person you are. Treating him like a true person, caring and loving for him.

The octopus just became a sweet boyfriend.

Still, he is curious about that jewel you carry, and he decided to ask. You breath deeply before telling him about everything; The contract, the wish, the powers, and the witches.

His expressions change throughout the whole story, and just climbs to you, with fear of losing you.

This fear consumes him and becomes the reason you enter in despair; He wants to protect you and treats you like a damsel in distress. Always trying tht you dont even do your own homework, or polishing your soul gem.

Sick of this, you try to talk with him, but it feels like talking to Kyubey. So you snap.

This witch form and your labyrinth makes him discover the form he has been treated you, and also scares you when he told you about it.

Full sets of laces around manniquies, the same rom but more distorted as you got inside of every door, and the unframed photos filled with graffiti on a language he couldn't understand.

He has seen some deep things on the ocean, but wasn't prepared for this. Specially the familiar who looked like him.

Jade and Floyd enter the labyrinth and of course fight you alongside Azul, who cries thinking he lost you. But he found your unconscious body besides him when the labyrinth disappears, only throwing your soulgem in his hands.

When you wake up, surprised, he hugs and cries, apologizing in tears about his demeanor. He shouldn't tried to close you up, you are so strong!

You pat his head an laughs.

Now, going with the magical girl theme, he has an idea since he is friends with Idia. The magical transformations and all, he looks up to it and even claps sometimes.

He still didn't get your... Witch form... He is terrified really. Prefers to watch you practicing if needed.

He is curious about what did you wish for. Out of everyone he is the more curious, really.

If he has to pay idia for him to found a way to help you mantain your soulgem, he will do, and like the others, they will found that magic rocks help clean the Impurities off your soulgem.

He understands you can't use your magic since it means you probably draining mentally and physically, so he tries to help, now with limits.

He tries so hard :)

Kalim Al-Asim

This pure boy didn't get this at all, he just thinks that you like gems and to get close to you he buys you both of jewelry.

This makes you laugh and soon accept one of the necklaces with a declaration of love, and soon he makes a whole party about this!

You are so happy that he doesn't do any questions and just enjoys dancing and hanging around with you. He is such a perfect boyfriend.

So you decide to tell him about everything, but...

“ Oh, wanna play magical girls? Sure! ”

He doesn't get this as seriously as you want to be. You even transform many times to show him, but he laughs and thinks its a show, claps and says you are the best witch out there.

And that made you crack.

For your luck, Jamil was near when you got into your witch form, so Kalim didn't got hurted... Not physically, but, emotionally, lets just say he was shocked.

He stand outside, looking at the entrier of the barrier, criying silently while Jamil tried to understand the situation.

Of course he gets to calm Kalim down to destroy this threat to him, and with the help of the Scarabia students, the witch was destroyed and Kalim just hoped to see you...

And you were there, with your unconscious body and your soul gem in your hands.

Jamil tried to push him away and destroy it, not knowing exactly what he was doing, but Kalim put himself in front of you two and made him swear to not touch you.

After waking up in a super comfortable bed, that it was Kalim's, you found your boyfriend fallen asleep on the floor, waiting for you. But this wasn't the only person.

You talk with Jamil, explaining everything to him and he listened. He understood how it was being treated like that from Kalim's part, but he says he it's not so bad, you two need to talk it out. You thank him and then, you feel someone in your lap- It was Kalim, asking for your forgiveness.

Now that you two talked that night, Kalim understands and does his best to not make you use your powers... too much, since he loves the outfit and transformation.

He wants to see it everyday, but he just does this when you tell him that you can't do it: :(

Sweet baby loves your magical powers. And sometimes kisses your ring to make sure you dont feel like he is kissing an empty body!

This mf went with the best tailor in the Hot Lands and got your magical girl costume in exact size so you can use it with him!!! 

Or so he can use it. 

yEAH HE USED IT AND IT WAS SO CUTE, PRETENDING TO SAVE THE WORLD WITH HIS OASIS MAKER. 

That was until he flooded the entire kitchen in Scarabia and Jamil screamed. 

You two were floating on a little couch lmao. 

A big win for the only magical girl in NRC.

Vil Schoenheit

Your graceful movements and paranoid character catch his attention.

He has never seen someone move or defend themselves like that without magic, how curious.

Makes Rook stalk you but couldn't find anything more than...

... his big crush on you.

So he decided to make his move and befriend you, so he can finally confess.

You two do a great pair! And he likes the way you move and manage on P.E. Seems like something you have done before.

His doubts begin to arise after this. And when he sees your magical form when he wakes up from his overbolt at the vdc...

“Its okay. Im here Vil”

His heart beated faster at the sight of the angel that he told his story in his overbolt form.

Well, turns out you can use magic! But it's another kind. You confess to everyone about this. And explain everything; That does a click on Vil's head. Of course you have done this... You were a fighter!

He becomes obsessed with your look and with your dance, but he may worries too much.

He doesn't want you to show this side of you to anyone else, says, but he wants to protect you.

He makes you dance like a doll on your magical form to please him and to "relieve stress"

But the situation becomes stressful enough when you ask him if you are a bird on a cage again.

And Vil answers that he just does what you should have done before taking that contract: Live.

And that break you. Literally. Your soul gem breaks and he know he fucked up.

The horribly labyrinth that you built in your form witch is confusing and he can't get out. The cages inside makes him understand something.

First, that weird character trying to attack him was you. Second. He really has to see how he treats you.

Rook enters on the picture like the hunter he is, and destroys your witch form alongside Vil.

Your soul gem drops, and Vil takes it with care to your unconscious body and lets it there until you wake up on his bed.

When this happens, Vil and you talk about everything and take on conclusion your new control over your soul gem and his apologize to how he treated you.

He loves your magical girl outfit, but he tries to redesign it. To be more casual, or to be more comfortable to wear.

Your witch form doesn't scare him anymore. He feels pity for that form that you control.

Loves the jewelry that you gain at transforming your soul gem. And the color of it.

“It's the color of your soul, it really suits you...” says while kissing your ring.

You two form a beautiful pairing. A queen and his magical Knight

Idia Shroud

He is another one who instantly notices your attitude and agility.

Spies you from his tablet or the college cameras. That ring seems very familiar to him. And the way you can dance and pass P.E like nothing, how you almost don't feel pain...

He starts to stalk you. Wants to know more about you.

One time, trying to see what you got on your hand, you two bump into each other and Idia tried to start a conversation. But fails miserably.

Your laugh and consideration was everything for him, and soon he forgets his old mission and starts a new one; Befriend you and level up your love for him.

This escalated quickly, and soon you were in Idia's room like his partner, reading some manga. Until he talks.

“You know i used to think that you were a magical girl? Haha cringe...”

But your silence and seriousness when you looked at him gave him everything.

You two sat and you explained to him everything, he is not really good at comforting but...

He is more excited about you being a magical girl.

Yep, he starts rambling about magical girls and everything about your world he knows. This obviously make you comfortable.

He doesn't stop, he insist too much onto seeing you in action, and his grin is terrifying.

He only saw you as a product? As another one of his waifus?

“C...C'mon y/n, i have always wanted to see a real magical girl transformation, i swore that i will look away if there are nude parts...”

That break you, again, and you screamed at him that you are not a fucking anime girl.

And slowly, your gem became dark and...

You transformed his room into a horribly labyrinth full of anime photos of yourself in different poses. But the words in these posters where horrific. “NO HOPE LEFT” “ONLY TO BE SEEN” “IF IM REAL TOUCH ME” “SHOW ME THAT IM YOUR ONLY WAIFU”

His room was filled with these, and when rare figures made out of paper, anime figmas, and plushies started to attack him he screeched. This magic remembered him about the overblot so he knows what to do.

With Ortho's help he gets into the heart of the labyrinth, and your witch form awaits him there. He is terrified but know what to do.

And soon the job has ended. Your body layed on the floor unconscious with your soul gem in hand.

He waits until you wake up to talk about everything and ask for forgiveness.

“I was s..so wrong. I'm so sorry, you shouldn't have transformed because of me...”

He doesn't wanna say that he wants to study you but.

You hug him and talk. You dont feel comfortable with this and for a while you prefer to forget it.

Now, when you are better and everything is forgiven, lets see!!

Idia loves your with form that you invoke. He tries to draw and take data from them.

Your magical girl costume is the best! He doesn't wanna skip any part of it even tought you are tired. But this dork promised to stop for a week.

He gives you a magic sintetic rock that is gray. This one helps you clean the impurities of your soul gem and you are more than happy for his help.

He is your number one fan and always wants to see you happy, being a magical girl or not.

Well, maybe there are witches here...?

Malleus Draconia

Doesn't even notice anything unusual on your behavior or jewelry

Thinks you are another human without magic. And your relationship goes smoothly.

Tsunotaro always appears in your garden and has tea parties with you. Those are the best!

Obviously you two start a relationship and he takes you so gentle like you were a bride made of glass.

But everything change when he noted you using magic in a overbolt fight he has seen.

He goes to you and talks about what was that, and you tell him everything.

You are not a human... He understands, but feels a little hurt you didn't tell him sooner.

Then he slowly stops seeing you. He avoids you obviously. He wants a time to think.

You wait for him at the garden until the tea is cold as ice. And he still hasn't appeared.

This is getting on your nerves, specially the part that he is so difficult to find.

One night you two bump at each other on Ramshackle, and try to get out of his mouth the reason why he is ghosting you.

“I have various feelings to treat before knowing how to treat you, y/n, i don't even feel you are human anymore, how i should refer to you?”

He was more worried about that!?

“ I guess i should have shut my mouth then ”

And he is the only who noticed that you became a with and trapped him in a horrific labyrinth.

An enormous and gigantic castle with rooms so separated that they could be individual houses. Paintings of him distorted and broken. And don't forget the creepy familiars that looked like mini zombie y/n! Slowly corrosing and hoping onto getting on Tsunotaro.

He easily gets to you and your witch form, an horrible part of your heart. And your death body.

He slays it with just one attack and after the barrier is destroyed, he takes you in his arms with your gem.

When you wake up, he apologize for treating you different only because of your title. He understands that. It happens to him always. You two swore to treat each other like partners.

After this, he wants to see more of your magic. But understands if you wanna put it away.

Admires the ability of having your consciousness on a soul. Magical. Making you ethereal

He is the one healing the impurities off your soul gem.

He makes you feel more comfortable with this side of you.

You are not in the normal world anymore, and you are not a witch, a human or a magical girl anymore. You are y/n. And Malleus is fond of you.

“I will protect you, my knight in magical armor, if you swore to me that you will be your own you.”

Maybe staying is a good idea. Playing hero is an option, or not...?

Hope you like this answer! I put everything on it, i swear. I really love madoka magica, took inspiration from a dream i had. If you liked it, please request more!