So I looked at your older TUA gif sets and your tags (I love to read tags, when they are personalized).
My question now is:
Are Lila and Diego still your mom and dad?
And you you accept Five as your stepdad?
*serious not really serious*
Much love 💜
PS: I really appreciate all the hard work and hours you put into your gif sets and I recognize that you hate the subtitle part (what is it called again when you make a gif set with subtitle - I think you mentioned the term somewhere - I just forgot 😅).
Or did I misremember that part in your tags 🤔
omg sksksksksk all the above tbh. SO REAL though thank you i also love reading tags. i love opinions except when they're bad everyone should put tags on things i wanna KNOWWWW what you're thinking. neowwww.
i like to think it's like. lila has two hands so it's like this is five's wife, lila, and this is lila's (male)wife, diego so yeah they're all my mom and dad. lila and diego obviously the og mom and dad. but it's like i'm in the living room getting yelled at and five walks in with a coffee like what did i miss. go get em. or do crime. or something. all metaphorically, ofc
also YES i hate captions you remembered correctly. i just realized recently after. so long. that everyone usually italicizes their captions and that's why mine look different. also sizing and pacing and spacing. like i love dialogue but actually just kill me now. every time.
and thank youuuu i'm glad someone does. jk thank you thank you
You are the first person I found that also sees autistic trades in Carmy.
Last year after the first season (I loved it so much! I watched it 3 times & some episodes even more often) I even came back to tumblr just for this series, I needed more content!
I saw so much of myself in Carmy, I never before saw a character so much like myself (although I'm a woman, from Europe & not good at anything at all).
All his struggles with other humans, it was like looking into a mirror, seeing myself.
So I got a psychological evaluation for my anxiety and other stuff. After some research I thought maybe I'm autistic.
Getting officially diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and avoidant personality disorder with autistic traits.
I still have the feeling I'm autistic and at the same time I feel like an imposter for feeling that way.
Carmy is such a people pleaser, so unaware of how other people see him, his bursts of anger, his fidgeting with the spoon, wearing the same kind of clothes, him not understanding other people except in regards to food. Him getting used and abused by other people (NY chef, his mother and brother, even Richie but with him the punches at least back & does not only take it, take it and take it). Other people have to point out that his relationship with Claire makes her most likely his girlfriend, that reminds me so much of myself when I had to ask my sister if my boyfriend had shown interest in me because I could not say for sure.
And maybe I'm just projecting, but for me it looks like he never looks other people into the eyes just with Sydney (yes I do ship them but I do not mean it like that) and Richie. Maybe it's just me but I do not like to look into the eyes of people I do not know at all/well, it's hard work to do. But it's easier with people I know for longer and I feel safe with. I still let my eyes wander to be able to concentrate better but it's easier to look directly into their eyes. At least I think I'm better with them. Or it's the camera angles fault XD.
In regards to friends, do you think all the connection he does have in the culinary world see him as a friend but he himself does not recognizes them as friendships. For example Luca?
Sorry this is kind of long and I'm rambling.
A long text just to say yes I see it too. :)
I had a very similar experience with the show. I watched season 1 twice and I think I'm due for a rewatch quite soon.
During my first watch I didn't really see the autistic traits per se but I definitely related to him. Especially when he talks about routines and being good but completely burnt out at the same time - that was my experience at school.
I started looking into getting professionally diagnosed right about the time when I rewatched and I realized his experience echoed mine especially in the ASD related stuff. I made a post about it, and I believe it really resonated with some people within the autistic community, not just as a headcanon.
I feel you, I haven't gotten my official diagnosis because tests are very expensive. Plus, I'm a woman and I have been masking all my life, so it's hard to get a psychiatrist to believe that you are actually struggling. Maybe there's some overlap with avoidant personality because my psychiatrist has mentioned it a number of times, and it would make sense for Carmy to develop a disorder as a result of his family trauma.
And yes, a lot of his "quirks", the things that make him seem high strung and shy, could also be signs of ASD. I hadn't noticed that he's literally wearing the same clothes all the time but you're absolutely right. The Claire storyline really shows that he doesn't know how to navigate relationships and needs it spelled out by someone else (and honestly, same). He's concerned with being "shitty" but doesn't know when he's being perceived as that and so he asks Sydney to be his gage (my sister is mine)
I think you're right about the eyelines, and I guess it makes sense in the kitchen, since there's always something to do, you can talk with people without looking them in the eye, or taking breaks in between. I like talking while I'm walking or in the car, no eye contact 👌👌👌
You make a good point that he isn't particularly aware of who is his friend and who isn't. When Claire called him and told him that Fak said he was his best friend, Carmy took a second to process and then agreed. He has no idea. And I think that also plays a part in being used by other people - if he doesn't know what friendship or a healthy family relationship looks like, he's going to take it all like that's normal, which is not great
I do believe that Luca and Chef Terry would consider him a friend. They took in one of Carmy's staff, no questions asked, just believing in his judgement. Especially Chef Terry talks about him with a certain fondness that feels very sweet. With Luca, they probably had a more competitive, sort of brotherly thing going on but they ended in good enough terms? I don't know, I'm just guessing.
Thank you for such a thoughtful and generous message! I believed that I would get backlash when I first posted about my feelings on this subject but everyone has been very kind and supportive (not everyone agrees but no one has been rude and I count that as a win lol)
I hope you have better luck getting a diagnosis, and that you get to navigate this chaotic world as easily as possible 💜
I want it known that me and Cat of @dear-indies have known each other since the inception of their rph. And they knew me when my indie blog was a sideblog to my personal blog (which I barely touch these days as I'm chronically logged in here instead) and I just want it known I love them a lot and they're one of my closest and bestest friends. :D
Hi,
I commented on your post regarding Sydneys tattoo, I mentioned it looked to me like a sea turtle.
Now I can't see my comment anymore, I did not remove it or anything else.
Did you maybe do something to my comment?
Your post is not the only post I commented where I get the information "Some replies may have been hidden, blocked, or removed" regarding my comment and I just want to know what is happening to my comments.
Thank you for your time and have a nice day!
So sorry but thanks to tumblr dot hell being the website that it is, I'm just now seeing this. I didn't restrict replies and I can still see your comment on that post so I'm not sure what was going on. I hope the problem is resolved for you.
BLE MIDI対応デバイスと言えばiPhoneやiPadですね。ということで、PC上のAbleton LiveからMIDI信号を送ってiPad上のGarageBandを鳴らしてみました。Ableton Liveからは問題なくUSBデバイスとして認識され、またiPadからも問題なくBLE MIDIデバイスとして認識されました。MIDIノートの送信もできています。
Stable Diffusion採用CUDA協助執行算圖,故電腦必須要使用支援CUDA的NVIDIA顯示卡,且算圖對於顯示卡記憶體VRAM的要求非常高(官方建議4GB以上)。
以下為最低耗用顯卡記憶體的webui-user.bat啟動參數,在此設定下,可以生成的圖片大小約為300*400還OK,但512*512就會出現經典的OutOfMemory了。
@echo off
set PYTORCH_CUDA_ALLOC_CONF=
set PYTHON=
set GIT=
set VENV_DIR=
set COMMANDLINE_ARGS=--xformers --medvram --opt-split-attention --no-half-vae
call webui.bat
do you like divine, immortal guardians tasked with millennia-long missions? how about a lonely girl who’s been handed way too many burdens and responsibilities? no? oh, well then...
how about a harbinger of the apocalypse born into the wrong person’s body and now seeks to destroy the very thing she is? there’s also some identity crisis involved. the situation is a bit complicated.
anyways, please give this post a like or reblog if you’re interested in writing with an independent and selective Fu Hua and Herrscher of Sentience roleplay blog from Honkai Impact 3rd!
Who here remembers back in the day when we'd do random ass cah games in what was essentially the middle of the night for my timezone? It was so much fun I remember laughing so hard I cried on multiple occasions
Let it be known that Zeke @tmrrwppl is a dork and I love them. And has known them almost as long as I've known Cat. And they're one of few I still have on my follow list of mutuals that's been around this dumpster fire for over a decade.