#{ i probably won't do these in groups of 3 again bc it took forever but FSDDS;;; }

[curseofbreadbear]

SONGS I ASSOCIATE WITH MY MUSES || ALWAYS ACCEPTING! || @bugsbloom

bugsbloom asked: 🎵 For Circus Baby, Cassidy, Cassie, Buster, and Glamrock Freddy (both normal and Proto!)

*breaks knuckles*

End Me - "Tell me I can still prove myself after all these years" // "You know, she's still in me; I'm still a girl who tried to be the perfect daughter" // "I have no sympathy. I've lost my will to care, I'm tired of my life being a nightmare"

Drift Away - "And then she smiled, that's what I'm after. A smile in her eyes, the sound of her laughter. Happy to listen, happy to play, happily watching her drift away" // "You keep on turning pages for people who don't care, people who don't care about you" // "And still, it takes you ages to see that no one's there; everyone's gone on without you" // "Aren't I a fool to have happily listened, happy to stay, happily watching her drift away?"

Copycat - "I'll become what you like; this is what you wanted, right!? Sacrifice all I know, I will teach myself to let go" // "I'm starting to talk like you do; here we go, I'll be gone soon"

What You Want - "Now here's a gift that I can relish; a victim who dies, but cannot perish. Every word that I hear you scream, every second you plead, I will be sure to cherish" // "You know you're gonna burn with me, wait 'til you see what I've got in store" // "I'll always come right back just to watch you fall! And every time we find you, you hide behind these walls; we're gonna break them down!"

Lost Children - "Tell your friends that I'm gone; they won't even care, they won't even stop to find me. Tell your friends that I'm dead, they won't even care, they won't even stop to mourn me"

Handlebars - "Look at me, look at me, driving and I won't stop; and it feels so good to be alive and on top. My reach is global, my tower secure, my cause is noble, my power is pure" // "I can do anything with no permission, I have it all under my command"

The Party Isn't Over - "I'm just lost, it's true, with some déjà vu...like I've been through this over, and over, and over again" // "The party was over, but you're gonna throw it again; throw it over, and over, and over again. It's our show and you know that it won't ever end. Don't bite off more than you think that you can chew, 'cause the party isn't over for you."

The Afternoon - "See the footprints in the cave? I would follow them if I were brave, to find out why there's no second set of footprints in the cave" // "If you take another look in the workings of your pop-up book, there's a secret message left there for you" // "If you choose a place to dig and you make a hole that's deep and big enough, you will find exactly what you need"

In Fact - "Step one: light me on fire. Step two: walk clean away. I won't burn long and evidence of your done-wrong will be gone in seconds, I swear" // "Oh, that's right; I did nothing and you were the mean one. In fact, you even broke my good tape deck. In fact, I don't wanna be friends"

BUSTER:

Awoken - "I've stoked the fire, seen more pain than you can know" // "Pushed by desire to change the way my steam will flow. Now I've awoken and I'm taking back control" // "I try my best to block out the screams, but they're haunting me in my dreams" // "I man these wretched machines; day in, day out, the grinding wears on my brain, undermining my sanity, making me question my reality"

I'll Be Good - "I never meant to start a fire, I never meant to make you bleed; I'll be a better man today" // "I'll be good and I'll love the world like I should; I'll be good for all the times that I never could" // "I've been cold, I've been merciless, but the blood on my hands scares me to death. Maybe I'm waking up today"

Epoch - "Everyone makes mistakes; I've had more than my share, but it's okay 'cause I'm gonna repair it" // "Take it back to the start, I've had a change of heart; I know we can make it better than it ever was" // "We are free to choose our destiny and be the way we want to be, a second chance, you just need to believe"

It's Getting Crowded In Here - "It's something quite peculiar, but we must outmaneuver the ones I've known for so long; they seek your foreign presence, unwelcome adolescence, yet something tells me they're wrong" // "If you need a safe place to hide, or a kind of partner in crime, in me you can always confide; your escape is a metter of time" // "We're facing all this terror, but when we work together, we'll find an answer that's right"

You Are The Music - "You can learn music, let me teach you three simple chords; with a D and a G and an A, you'll reap the rewards" // "You are the music, you are the pulse and the pitch and the time and the tune and the groove" // "You got a knack for the notes and a tantalizing touch with the tune, you got me over the moon"

When Can I See You Again? - "Switch on the sky and the stars glow for you; go see the world 'cause it's all so brand-new" // "Joined at the hip, your sidekick needs you; life is a trip and the road map leads you" // "Let me know before I wave goodbye, when can I see you again?"

PROTO FREDDY:

The Purple People Eater - "I commenced to shaking and I said "ooh-wee," it looks like a purple people eater to me! It was a one-eyed, one-horned, flying purple people eater. Sure looks strange to me!" // "I said, "Mr. Purple People Eater, what's your line?" He said, "Eating purple people and it sure is fine. But that's not the reason that I came to land; I wanna get a job in a rock n' roll band!" // "I saw him last night on a TV show; he was blowing it out, really knocking 'em dead, playing rock n' roll music through the horn in his head!"

Monster - "What's that coming over the hill? Is it a monster?" // "Confused, mind bruised, it seeps out; face-down, home town looks so grey" // "Convexed, you bend, twist, and shout; stand up, brush off, get moving"

Used to the Darkness - "Then my eyes got used to the darkness, and everyone that I knew was lost and so long forgotten after you" // "I'm just a man, I'm only flesh and bone; I can't bring it back on everything I've done. Now there's no one else left to love, I'm used to the darkness"

[sunnybimbo]

I think I might have a personality disorder, but I have no actual proof. Do you have anything that could help me bring it up with my mom, who probably won't believe me, and/or get some professional help? Thanks so much -💐

tbh anon i think you may have accidentallypressed on the wrong blog when u submitted this question

just please note that i am in no way the best person to listento when it comes to these kinds of things. i dont think i have personalitydisorder (but who knows these days tbh ¯\_(ツ)_/¯) and so i may say somethings that sound insensitive (BUT TOTALLY ACCIDENTALLY). so anyone whoactually has experience please feel free to point out mistakes, give tips, etc. 

ALSO: im gonna be 100% clear when I saythis: I have no idea if BPD (borderline personality disorder) is just a blanket term for all other personalitydisorders or what, so I am obviously not an expert. But it is what popped up like 85% of the timewhen I google’d a bunch of this information.

adding a read more bc this got kinda long

first thing: be firm. 

It’s very easy todoubt yourself when it seems like literally everyone you talk to thinks you’rewrong. You’ll probably hear a lot of people say things along the lines of you “can’t”be that because you act like this. But just remember that you knowyourself best, despite what parents, therapists, friends, etc. try to tell you.

It’s literally your mind.

So be very clear and very assertive (butnot violently so) when you finally decide to bring it up. 

Don’t let your mindbe swayed, because it’s just going hurt you in the long run.

Second: there are many different types ofpersonality disorders so I think before you try to bring it up with anyone, youshould figure out which one you believe you have.

It might help to look up thecharacteristics of each type and make a list of the ones you have in common forwhen you actually try to get some help with this.

Parents are very hard to talk to aboutthese sorts of things, so I may not be that much help in this department becauseI literally never go to my mom with any problems until they get Really Bad. Pluseach parent kind of parents differently, so it could totally go any directionbased on how you talk to your mom. Despite anything I say, try to appeal to herin a way that you know she’ll listen to.

For example, if she’s very empathetic, tryto appeal to her emotions. Tell her how youfeel when it comes to your disorder and how you think getting professional helpwith make you a better person in the long run. Just try to talk about ~emotions~and all that.

If she’s more logical (which I’m a bitmore comfortable with appealing to ngl), I would definitely go with the listthing I mentioned above.

Try to find as many characteristics thatyou have in common with the disorder you think you have and tell her why you associate so strongly with itbased on that list. Tell her how you think it’s affecting you and how you thinkyou would benefit to some treatment. Show her some official sources and pointout similar behaviors you exhibit.

But if she ends up not believing you, I want you to know that it’s not the end of theworld. 

It may feel very very bad tonot be trusted about this sort of thing, but just know that you don’t have tolive with your mom forever. And getting your own place and Adulting is a verydaunting thing, but you will getthere eventually. And then you willbe able to get the help that you deserve and you won’t have to deal with hermaking you second-guess yourself the entire way.

As for professional help, I think it may be something you have research for yourself. 

I’m kinda assuming you live in America (and we all know how fucked up our medical system is), but if you live somewhere else there may be a few (for example) therapists you can go to without having to have parent’s permission. 

But it’s definitely something to research for your specific area. there may be a private help group for people going through the same thing, perhaps finding someone who has this disorder and figuring how they get help with this could help you as well, etc, etc. 

Now, I have no idea how old you are, whatyour home life is like, whether you work or not and already have your ownplace, so most of this advice could probably easily be thrown out the window.But I do hope that I’ve given you just a little bit of help or atleast somesupport.

I do actuallyknow that sometimes just talking about it and having someone believe you without havingto jump through hoops to prove yourself can be an immense relief. 

Don’thesitate to contact me again if you want to/can, and I’m sorry I wasn’t as muchhelp as you might have expected.

Here are a few pages I found whilelooking up some points, and they might you a little bit (if you haven’t alreadyseen them

http://www.dbtselfhelp.com/html/_coming_out__with_bpd.html– an article about Merinda Epstein who came out publicly about having BDP and the reactions of the people she knew.

http://www.mentalhealthamerica.net/conditions/personality-disorder- defines what a personality disorder is and a few different types.

http://psychcentral.com/quizzes/borderline.htm- an online borderline personality test. (I took this and apparently I’m verylikely to have BPD woopsie). Of course it’s no way official, so don’t take itas 100% fact, but once you get your results, a few more things pop up (like ‘what is bpd’) that mayhelp you learn more about this subject.

EDIT:

i got a few outside opinions are here’s the gist of what they said:

a few youth communities may be able to help you depending on your age and location. but there are a few online communities that may be able to help you

group therapy is common a little cheaper than one-on-one

a lot of stuff is treated differently based on the disorder you have, so make sure u research everything! leave no stone unturned and all that