#☽. ramble

[mo2k]

Geto: You have to come with me.

Gojo: Why?

Geto: *Silence* ….Because you’re going to be a father.

Gojo: *Shocked af* ….I’m pregnant?

*The whole fandom facepalms*

Geto: NO! I’m pregnant!

Gojo: *Even more shocked* You’re also pregnant??

Geto: *Punches Gojo*NO YOU IDIOT-

[vulturv0lans]

the way i thought this was really good fan art at first but it’s official????? neuvillette? ayato?? wrio????? hoyo really knew what they were doing by putting my 3 fav men in one picture they’re all so FINE istg hdjdjsnsjsnsksjdn 🧎

ayato’s legs are so LONG and wrio looks like he can devour you (please do) and the THIGH STRAP ON NEUVILLETTE??? please i am on my knees

[vmpzstqr]

LOVING these miles morales fics rn 😫!! i just need one where he’s jealous and life would be complete honestly 😵‍💫.

[turtledovenycx]

Idk why I’m saying this here but one time I cried bc of how beautiful Chan was, it was a very humbling and universal moment for me. That’s it, thank you.

Hi anonnie 🤍

I'm happy you said it here. I'm sure many of us on Stayblr can relate to this emotion. I've had celebrity crushes the infatuation stays for a week or two, and then it fades.

But Bahng Chan... How I feel for him is a different emotion in itself. I know reality, I know he will never be mine but it still doesn't change the way I feel. I would choose him again and again in every universe in every circumstance.

Anonnie, I understand how you feel the most... I'm an emotional person and I react deeply. I've cried so many times too. I cried when I saw his face the first time he won the award. I've cried when I saw how hard Chan worked to become who he is today, I've cried during Chan's room and cried so much when it had to be shut down, and I've cried when I think about how beautiful he is inside and out. I've cried because I am so proud and happy to be able to live, breathe, and admire him. I am overwhelmed with what I feel for him but at the same time, it calms me.

How can he be this beautiful? Like how? He is so handsome. Even if he believes differently. If I could, I would cherish him every day, and give him so much affection till he believes it himself. Channie is so handsome. He is the dream of many out there, he is mine I know that. His eyes- they crinkle when he smiles, his big nose that I've grown fond of- his nose is one of his insecurity but to me, it is the cutest thing I've seen, his plush lips, his cheeks, his smile lines, his dimples, his hair, body, arms, fingers, legs, everything!! god, I love this man so much. I love his smile and laugh... I'd die

However, Channie is more than handsome. His beauty is not limited to his physical features. I could say a million things about his features and millions more about his character and personality. Trust. The trust the team has in him, the trust the boys have in their hyung, he is their boulder you can't tell me otherwise. I picture him being there for the most mundane things without complaint. The way he cared for each one of them in the way they needed. He calms Jisung when he is anxious, and defends Changbin. Channie makes Seungmin believe that his voice is of an angel and that Minnie's smile is the best, he literally raised Jeongin. Chan is Minho's only hyung, He is Felix's best friend and Hyunjin's comfort. Us stays don't have to worry about whether the boys are taken care of. I know they are well taken care of and loved by their leader.

His soul. I have cried so much thinking about his soul. Chan has the kindest most beautiful soul I just know it. He has endured and he is wise. He is humble reminding us that to be perceived and respected you have to be down to earth. I've seen men at their best and their worst. I've experienced the worst most of my life but Chan made me believe that there were good and bad people, I was just stuck among the bad ones. He made me feel appreciated even though he was speaking generally, he made me feel valid, and he made me feel seen.

Some people can't understand that and I don't blame you, But if you have been through what I have been through, if you were in the darkness like me I think you would understand why I fell in love with a man who doesn't know me. I cry when he is sad, I cry when I'm proud of him and I cry because I love him. I hope he will learn to love himself soon.....

So love, I want you to know that when you feel the most humbling and universal moment, many are there with you. I am there with you. He truly is one of the best humans out there. I love him and I will continue to do so. He saved me, he saved a lot of us.

I kind of got carried away but I'm not really sorry. I love him, words are not enough, sentences are not enough, and pages won't be able to cover it.

_nyx.☽༊˚

[grimowled]

now onto some of grimm's personal reflections

while I write a more pilot and headcanon based portrayal, I am loving the direction they are taking with stolas (and stolitz) post the circus, and his personal growth arc. however i find the transition from the first eps (not including the pilot) to the latest to be a bit ... awkward, as if the writers abruptly course corrected and change their minds over who they wanted stolas to be.

let me explain: despite having had a eureka moment of realisation in the way his transactional relationship was affecting them, the way stolas acts with and talks to blitz (in the latest two episodes at least), as if he's never given him any idea (even unintentionally!) of acting superior and using him as a sexual pastime does not seem to be written into the show as an intentional critique in his character development and their communication issues, but rather put the burden on blitz for misunderstanding him and carrying striker-like prejudice towards royalty in general and his status. this is my personal impression, and perhaps I am wrong, and the writers are placing equal responsibility on stolas for his misleading actions towards blitz; in all fairness, blitz has intentionally ignored any signs and put on blinders when it comes to stolas' many ways to show interest (including being very public about them despite the threat to his royal reputation).

but the way it is currently being written seems to invalidate blitz's genuine gripe about first being treated as a disposable sex toy and thinking it's all stolas wants from him, and then being suddenly slapped with the genuine feelings stolas had all along.

another thing that I have noted, is that blitz did not really do much to lead stolas or his feelings on - other than the transactional sex, he didn't show him any interest in pursuing something more between them. though we as an audience know he cares for him deep down, because we see what goes through his mind, on the surface and as stolas should see it, it looks like he slept with him initially only to get his grimoire, and continuously acts cold, distant, does not respond to texts and if he does, they are short and dismissive, etc. so I take this particular detail as one of the reasons why I portray stolas as being obsessive and borderline stalker-y with blitz.

it also explains why stolas is quick to take blitz's initial shock response at face value and dismiss him. it confirms his fear that he may only be in it for personal gain and as part of a power imbalance dynamic.

anyway as per my interpretation, they both have valid gripes and it all comes down to communication issues, mental health and personal trauma response and insecurity.

i love them and I am rooting for them, your honour.

[revclver-jesus]

{{ also it is canon that takaya got his tattoos to cover needle scars from experimentation and like my man's arms used to be fucked up if he had to cover his entire arms huh oh my god dskhgdksd }}

[ruinakete]

♡ ・ LETTERS TO THOSE WE MOTHER ━━━ an introspective, drabble series dedicated to zephia & eremiya

. a few days after apping zephia, i reread the script of NMotE and fell in love with eremiya's character. the potential, the archetype, and most of all, the backstory she was given. though i disliked how it was thrown messily into the script, i had no doubt that she could be a character i'd enjoy writing. which, then, led me to wonder how similar and different she and zephia were. and i must admit that i grew obsessed with the idea of them interacting with one another ( though, at first, the thought definitely stemmed from a flickering, romantic piece i wrote for them. pardon my insanity it was a voice test for eremiya,, ).

thus, i created this! letters to those we mother, is a drabble series where i hope to do an in-depth exploration of their characters, both in who they are, what they are, and the potential was created for them. though this is self-indulgent, i hope to entertain whoever reads along, whether in succession or standalone.

thank you, TOA, for letting me have the opportunity to explore writing styles within this setting, as these two would never tolerate one another otherwise.

further information ( synopsis, table of contents, disclaimers, schedule, set-up; all to be updated with each drabble posted to the dashboard ) beneath the readmore!

. SYNOPSIS. what happens when fodlan shatters the mirror separating an archetype? what should unfold when these two sides, cut from the same lengths of glass, find their hands touching, skin-upon-skin, without the safety of a reflection?

zephia dahut kurosawa, a mage dragon faithful at the feet of her lord, and eremiya n. ahava, a bishop condemned to obey the voice of her lord, have crossed into each other's territory and, thus, will embark on the reluctant path that mothers must retrace once their children have grown into young adults. a lifestyle they would have walked, separately, lest their corruptions never been birthed.

neither of these beasts have savored the taste of motherhood the way fate planned them to. so, what now? will their faith create permanent cracks in the mirror? will a dragon's realism and a bishop's pessimism meld together into the flawed glimpse of another; optimism?

this, only time would reveal.

. TABLE OF CONTENTS. as of planned, currently.

i. origins.

ii. cradles & fires.

iii. tbd.

iv. tbd.

v. tbd.

vi. tbd.

. DISCLAIMERS. neither zephia or eremiya are characters that will be redeemed in this series. instead, i hope to explain their conditions and explore the consequences to which they must be condemned. with this in mind, understand that these two muses are bad people and will not change automatically in the first drabble. the journey of self-introspection is a long one.

. SCHEDULE. estimated to be 6:00 pm on the 23rd day of every two months. ( ex. if the first drabble is posted on february 23rd, at 6:00 pm, then the next drabble would be posted on april 23rd, at 6:00 pm, and so on ) a brief prologue that contains a recap, teaser, and important information such as content warnings and writer notes will be posted at 9:00 pm on the 18th day of every two months.

. SET-UP. likewise, the order of drabble posting will switch between muses. this is with the hope that zephia and eremiya will have equal related posts to archive properly. the first drabble, origins, will be posted on zephia's blog, while the second, cradles & fires, will be posted on eremiya's blog. in that order ( zephia, eremiya, zephia, eremiya, etc ) the drabble series will be completed. none of these drabbles will be reblogged by either blog, simply linked. however, this post will be shared between blogs, just for easier access.

. final words from the mun. again, whether you read one or two or all drabbles in this series, i hope you enjoy it! if i missed any content warnings and need to tag any themes or spoilers, let me know and i'll correct the mistake. otherwise, that's all from me. see you on the 18th / 23rd, concerning the series, and may the day treat you kindly, reader! ( and ps. yes, i did choose the 23rd because the number is my birthday number MKSEWKMSDJN )

[schlattsdoll]

i've had this in my mind for a while now, slightly based around the song a punch up at a wedding by radiohead. angst galore, btw.

essentially schlatt crashes the reader's wedding. they are long exes and reader is getting married to their partner. schlatt still has some feelings for reader and is surprised to get an invite.

he was invited in a sort of "let's let bygones be bygones" way (and partly bc reader hasn't spoke to him since the breakup and wanted him to know they were getting married)

he originally decides not to go because he got the message that nothing will ever happen with you again and he wants to be happy for you and not screw anything up.

but as the date gets closer, he gets more depressed because there is a lot that he wished he'd said to you. and the night of the wedding, he decides, fuck it, i'm gonna crash their damn wedding. who gives a shit.

a few shots of jack daniels in him, he arrives at the venue, pushes past anyone who gets in his way and enters the banquet hall right as you're about to cut the wedding cake.

he's sarcastically and drunkenly shouting at everyone, particularly at you. ranting about how it should have been him at that altar with you, him cutting the wedding cake with you.

you're absolutely mortified seeing schlatt like this,

"you really came here just to piss on our parade?" your now-spouse asks, shoving schlatt.

"oh i pissed on yer parade?" schlatt mocks, pushing your spouse back. "too bad, motherfucker." and it just turns into a brawl.

you're screaming at both schlatt and your spouse to stop. eventually one of your parents pulled the two off of each other.

"did you come here just to start a fight? really, john?"

his heart broke at the way you said his name. there were tears of frustration and sadness in your eyes. as the alcohol cleared, so did his mind. he now realized the severity of what he'd done.

he ruined your wedding, the one day of your life you would remember for years to come. a magical day, and it was completely ruined. and it was all his fault.

he tries to apologize as security drags him out of the venue, but you had no interest in hearing him out.

to think you wanted to forgive him for everything, but he'd just demonstrated that nothing had changed. he was still that same asshole you dumped long ago.

all he could have done was apologize to you. but he couldn't even do that.

sorry if this got WAY too long for your liking lol, happy 777 followers ily <333

-stella <3

omg stella the angst? delicious <3 i have no notes tysm bb ilysm <33

[seeksmoon]

 these   quotes   make   me   go   insane,   because          1.   alune   sounds   like   she   doesn't   believe   aphelios   could   actually   die   and   is   more   surprised   than   horrified   that   he   is,   in   fact,   mortal,          2.   alune   somewhat   states   that   she   can   find   his   spirit   /   body   &   bring   it   back   to   life(???)   or   at   least   is   strong   enough   to   walk   where   he   did   no   matter   what   he   encountered   and   how   dangerous(????)   it   would   be   for   her          and          3.   alune   is   mad   at   herself   for   knowing   how   aphelios   will   die   and   not   preventing   it

 like.   how   am   i   supposed   to   be   sane   about   her

[asoulsreverie]

Spam like guys. I love it, gives me serotonin

[mo2k]

UPDATE ON THE SCIENCE COMPETITION!

MY CLASS WON THE THIRD PLACE OMG!! I’M SO PROUBD OF OUR BABY (the car) AND MY BABIES (my friends) 🥹💖🫶

[vulturv0lans]

matched with a really cute guy with a REALLY CUTE dog today so i’m just thinking like,,imagine modern au neuvillette,,with a dog,,,and when you match and talk for a bit you decide to meet up but you make him promise to bring his dog (bc what’s the whole point if you can’t pet the dog) and as he’s getting ready he’s talking to his puppy like “we’re going to meet a very pretty girl today”….pls i’m down so bad for him

[turtledovenycx]

Since everyone’s going thru winter depression, have some random pics I found in my camera roll, to ease your mind 😌💍

Marry me !

Don't think I didn't notice the more number of Minho pics ... Also who decided to cut off Minho's hair I wanted more of it </3

Look at Hannielooking so .... *thinking of a perfect word) EDIBLE ?!!

and my Minnie <333

I love them sm

I needed this... my mind has been eased <333

[lilitophidian]

A response got my thoughts running.

Lilith.

The first woman to be called every name you could think of.

The first whore, slut, witch, hag. All of those things.

The first woman to be screamed at and accused. Sent on trial to the gallows to be hung by nonsense. Simply because she wanted her freedom over being a slave to what was asked for her. She didn't think there was true free will, and what had happened proved so.

In most depictions, she dawns auburn hair that was given prejudice for centuries. My Lilith did in Eden, and if you upset her enough, it will show under the platinum.

Lilith is a special symbol.

A symbol of independence for any feminine aura of any gender and none. She's a symbol of what happens when you put something into a box, and it bursts out with fire and flames ready to engulf you for ever thinking you could do such.

It's no wonder why she enjoys others who like their freedom, who fight against prejudice, and simply do not fall in line with the rest of the hoards. She might hate what she created in Hell, but they are all a part of her, which is probably the reason for her loathing.

They were the souls that followed her path, even twisting it into their own.

[revclver-jesus]

{{ OK i'm not liveblogging a let's play video i swear i will shut up but

YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND THIS IS AN EMERGENCY--

He's feeling?? Attachment?? For Minato????? He's feeling??? Attachment????????? For Minato???????????

*Dwayne Johnson eyebrow raise*

TAKAYA. TAKAYA! Jin is RIGHT there he just told you how special he thinks you are!!! what is this love triangle forming oml this is not the direction i anticipated-- }}

[ruinakete]

☽ ・WHAT MAKES A PERSONALITY.

a template ( created by the wonderful Ree ) for analyzing features of a personality beyond listing adjectives. written beneath a readmore because of length, not spoilers!

SELF-CONCEPT

VIEW OF SELF: highly upheld on a pedestal created by her late tribe and the hierarchy of Fell Churches. though clouded by a heavy sense of superiority, there is the slightest chance of self-awareness from her, though it is an introspection that takes time. what is important to her is that she, above anyone else, knows her heart and mind. no one else can claim to relate to all she has lived through and she knows this; though the level of tragedy she connects this with is debatable. likewise, her view of self is duller than her view of others, as she truly does not care for herself at her core. this is not self-deprecation, rather it is the monotonous feeling that comes from knowing that, at the end of the day, she is what her tribe and Sombron have made of her. there is nothing else and nothing more.

VIEW OF OTHERS: hardly memorable. unlike her, time will pass for them and they will die, so their only purpose is to serve until their last breath. will she remember their names? hardly, but the impact they have will outlive their body. as a direct result of her behavioral inconsistencies and traumas, she alienates herself from society and, thus, does not view humanity and other immortal beings in any positive light. they are only useful under a leash. they are only useful if they can be wielded as pawns. if they stray from their fated path, then they must be punished. it is as much a law as it is instinct. either way, none of them will equate to the space necessary in the void of her heart; what she needs is a family, and other people cannot give this to her.

VIEW OF WORLD: unforgiving. selfish. the world is cruel to those who surpass their fate and, thus, she bares her teeth and takes as much from the world as she thinks she deserves; which is everything it has to offer. in her eyes, the world is ever-changing and will not wait for you to mend your wounds, no matter how closely you hold it at heart. you will not survive if you are not the aggressor. her environment taught her that pain is love and such love, one strong enough to destroy what it has created, is punishment, in its own way. to love was to hurt until you knew nothing else; to grieve was to love with all your heart. if you sought love then you had to seek the pain that is obligated with it upon your faults. thus, all relationships of value between her and the world were, and will always be, transactional.

MOTIVATIONS & GOALS: serve as Lord Sombron's greatest follower until he sees her as fit to be the mother of his child. whether it be one or plenty, she hopes to bear them and give fruit to lives of her blood. upon birth, they are hers, as a mother and idol and god. and that, the idea that, one day, someone she brought into the world will revolve that very world around her, is what keeps her focused on the future. but somewhere, along the line, another motivation has formed upon her arrival; protect the Four Hounds and restore what they once were.

WHEY THEY VALUE MOST: family, both in the physical and metaphorical sense. the idea of having and taking from someone who owes you their entire life for giving fruit to theirs.

EMOTIONAL REACTIONS

REACTION TO STRESS: most, if not all, negative emotions end in her lashing out in an attempt to regain the control she once lost. so, when stressed, her composure falters; she becomes jittery, scheming, and distant. she'll refocus all of her energy on picking apart the stressor and, upon recognizing what it is, eliminating it without hesitation. this could mean directly destroying the stressor or completing it, but whichever it is, she does not ignore it. it, also, does not matter what this stress comes from; whether it be a responsibility, environment, or person. the execution, however, of this determination is usually heartless and selfish, as she will go through anything and anyone to calm the nerves of her heart.

REACTION TO FEAR: though fear, too, is a negative emotion, it does not necessarily end in an unwavering sense of hostility. to fear something is to think that it has the weight to actually affect you. and, thus, it is fine to say that fear isn't an emotion she's faced often in her thousand years of life. upon first face of this subject causing her fear, she's incredulous. confused or shocked, rather than frightful. but when the emotion sets in, she becomes quieter. curt. this silence is not submissive, lest it be in the face of Sombron. her following reaction will be to right what has been wronged; control. she will combat this fear with confrontation if the risks prove to be lesser, but she knows her limits and will not provoke the fear if it will bring her harm.

REACTION TO SUCCESS: to revel in her success is not rare. this is, usually, done in the form of taunting the losing party. however, her reaction to success differs between the success of herself and the success of those she deems as hers. for the former, she does not seek praise. it is not the acknowledgment she requires, as that is flawed and not taken at heart's value. if not from Sombron, then she does not want it. however, praise is what she requires when her pawns succeed. for them to win is a win for her, as it reinforces the greedy pride of being able to create something worth loving. otherwise, success, to her, is conditional and can always be revoked. it is not something worth celebrating by the masses. in fact, it could be argued that success makes her hungrier for the possible retaliation that will follow.

REACTION TO FAILURE: depends highly on who she fails regarding the event. in light of disappointing Sombron, her apologies are swift, curt, as there is nothing else to say. her willingness to right, again, what has been wronged is high and she will take no other answer unless she's given the other chance. there is no guilt, as she does not recognize such a feeling, but the feeling aches similarly. if in the case of failing herself, her reaction is duller. again, at her core, she has come to terms with the fate she's been given, so all she is to do is find her way back unto the path paved for her. she'll try again, more determined, but emotional reactions are little to none. she understands herself best and will right herself accordingly, aiming to engrain into her the teachings that made her who she is.

DEVELOPMENT

IDEAL SELF: is constantly changing, to the point where she cannot fully recognize where she, herself, wants to be. what amount of development would be enough? from whom would this development come from? all she knows is that the ideal life she sees fit for herself is that of a mother, as it was the only thing able to fill the void in her heart. key word: was. new events have shone a light on her ideals and hope to shift them. unfortunately, because of her lack of concern for who or what she becomes, as her fate will always be written before her, the exact ideal self is unknown.

AREAS OF GROWTH: as mentioned before, loneliness is still a factor she hopes to heal. being alienated from others, even dragons like herself, because of the behavior she adapted to in hopes of defending her heart will always prove her efforts futile. to grow requires the knowledge to understand exactly what is necessary beforehand. thus, her concept of what can heal her is false and flawed. it's simple and, if she does not recognize her emotions and pick apart the years of manipulation, all will be hopeless.

BARRIERS TO GROWTH: the inability to wear her heart anywhere that is not the steel bars of her ribcages; the continuous conquest of favor for Sombron; the inability to recognize how she has affected the world and vice versa; the inability to be truthful lest she fear bleeding out on the spot; and time wearing away at the familiarity she should have with her own emotions. there is a lot that stands as an obstacle to her development. none of it will disappear quickly, so she must approach it slowly and with patience.