El Sol (pt.3.2) (Namor x Latina!Reader)
(photos are not mine)
Summary: Namor showed you his home, you give him a piece of your heart.
Warnings: !! Reader is heavily implied/mention to be mexican— Mexican Spanish was used!! Hunger/fatigue (?), some angst, mention of the blip, that’s abt it me thinks !!Not Proofread!!
Series. Prev. Next.
Word Count: 11.8k
A/n: Regular posting schedule??don't know her 🤗 ANYWAYS... hello... Not my best work but i kinda like it. I hope you all enjoy, after 2 months 😭🤲
The Ocean. Big, blue, beautiful. The last time you saw it in daylight may have been over a month ago— under different circumstances too. The last you saw it, you were with friends. Smiling, having fun and planning on what to do for the night and coming days you were to be in Cancún. But now, you were walking to an unknown village, with unknown children in an unknown area.
No song. You still couldn’t believe it. Peace and quiet stayed in your mind. Your thoughts were yours, purely yours. Nothing loud and screaming, overtaking every nerve and inch of your body as you stared at the sea. Your skin, mind, and body were your own. Not belonging to the ocean and that unknown far off force. You felt whole. You can’t remember ever feeling like this.
But why was it suddenly quiet? Was it your location, the people you were with? Maybe you have been here before. The way the sun felt against your skin and how the sand dug into your thighs felt like a warm embrace you had long forgotten. Memories wanted to swarm and flood your brain but it had felt like something was holding them back, everything in the back of your mind. Blocked out by the hunger, thirst, and confusion you felt.
You really should be on guard, noting where and how far you were going but you kept drifting off. Staring at that open blue water. The light of the sun shining like crystal diamonds on its surface, luring you in closer and closer. Though you didn’t hear its song, the urge to get out of the heat made you wish for the cold relief of the water. With each step, you lean farther and farther to the left, closer to the water. You couldn’t help but try to see if it held the answers to your questions.
You weren’t sweating as harshly as before, only a few droplets formed on the edge of your brows as you walked. Sofia didn’t seem to mind or care, she never let go of your hand despite the sweat and humid feel of skin against skin.
It had almost been 10 minutes since you started walking, yet her smile didn’t fade. The bright red on her round cheeks didn’t cease as she kept looking back at you every few steps you took.
Her friends stayed a few feet behind. They hadn’t oppose her bringing you along and back to their home with them, but you could tell they did not like it, or for the very least very unsure. They stayed quiet, glaring and catching each movement and breath you took.
The two girls were older than their small friend. One taller and come into her features, a teen. Long golden wavy hair with deep brown eyes, almost black. Her gaze burned the brightest as she stared where your hands interlocked. The other was more anxious— scared— than intimidating. Shorter in height, small shoulder length curls hung from her head and wide hazel eyes looked back and forth between you and the friend she walked with.
You should be a responsible adult, ask them if this was alright, tell them what you really came here for. But the drag of your feet along the sand, heavier with each step and the shoes you wore, you didn’t seem to care anymore. Your thighs continued to rub against each other, the dull ache made worse with the sand that had gotten caught in between when you had fallen and sat in the sand.
You began to feel unsure of how much longer you could last standing or walking anymore. The heat, exhaustion, and hunger came at your body all at once and wrecked you as if you had been hit by a truck. You tried, you really did, to continue walking.
But you began to pray you were close to wherever this child was taking you, praying for the sight of someone or something that wasn’t neverending sand and water.
You were lost in your mind, eyes drooping lazily, blinking away the sweat that had slowly begun to build more and drop down onto your lashes, until the pulling of your arm became more intense.
Your hand was pulled forward, body jolting forward at the sudden and immense orce you could remember from before. Your eyes widened, looking down to the girl who held it, only to see her practically hauling you to that big bush of trees that had stayed in your line of vision for the last few minutes.
Only this time, the trees had an opening. And you finally noticed where she was pulling you.
Small colorful boats lined up against the tall green trees, tied against the trunks. They all pointed in one direction— towards the tables and chairs spread across the sand covered tall man made umbrellas,and tiny firepits scattered across the beach. Signs of life. Human life.
There was a man and a woman working at a small hut which looked to be a bar style restaurant, shouting at each other as music poured loudly through the small area you were in. They held colorful decorations in their hands, pink and green and blue party streamers. Fairy lights and small balloons were tied to the posts of the huts roof. Banners of white with colorful writing hung from the tin ceiling and confetti scattered along the table top of the large table in the middle of the area.The scent of food lingered in the air, filling your nostrils and lungs. You mouth water and you could practically taste what they were cooking.
“Don!” Sofia suddenly yells, pulling you harder and harder with each step. She lets go of one of your hands, waving her now free one in the air. The long fingers practically flew everywhere from how fast she waved her arm.
The man she called out for turned around from where he stood. The woman next to him turned her head as well.
Sun kissed and old wrinkled faces turn in your direction. At first, they lit up with joy. A soft type of kindness you yourself showed whenever you saw a family member. But those welcoming faces soon turned to muted ones of shock and fear as they took you in.
Nerves began to build up in your belly, the fear and worry you had previously been holding at bay taking over as the reality of a strange child finding you stranded and bringing you back to her home was not at all “normal”.
You bit your lip, your best attempt to hush yourself and try to ease out the anxiety and slowly build. You could feel it in your toes and fingertips, curling them with each step closer to those people the little girl seemed to know.
“¿Sabes dónde está mi abuela? ” Sofia asks them. So sweet, so innocent. Do you know where my grandma is?
The two adults stare at her. Their eyes moving back and forth between her, you, and each other. Their mouths opened slightly, creating an ‘O’ shape. The women's brows were almost raised up to her forehead, her face painted in shock and hesitation as she looked at the man on what to do. It seems he didn't know either, though his expression wasn’t painted on his face as clearly as hers. You could still see the shock in his deep set eyes, the way they widened only a bit, before he looked back at the woman and back to you.
A few beats passed, though they felt like an eternity, and he finally let out a deep sigh. A low whistle escaped his pursed lips, and he now pointed to the trees behind him.
“A la mejor está en su casa, pero no te lo juro.” He says. His voice was deep, dry and scratchy as if he needed a drink of water. It was tired as well, slurring slightly at each end of his words. Hopefully she’s in her house, but i don’t swear by it
You look towards where he points and there, standing in a small clearing between two tall palms, lay what you could tell to be a cement pathway. A way into the village. From here, you could see the distant brightly colored houses. You could have more children laughing, a mixed genre of music and more people shouting, blending together into one as the lapping of the waves filled the back of your mind.
“¡Gracias Beto!” Sofia yells. She looked back at you for a second, smiling even wider if now possible, before running ahead.
You looked at the man once, Beto, finally making eye contact. He looked you up and down, weary of who you were and what you are no doubt. But hunger struck once more, the growls and roars bursting through as you smiled slightly to him before following the little girl.
The change from sand to a sturdy dirt ground was greatly welcomed as you walked up to the small ledge that parted the two lands from separating.
But you couldn’t help but stare at your dirty and bruised legs before taking a few steps , wondering if you should actually go through with this plan. What’s stopping you from going back? Who’s to say Namor is coming for you? What if that voice and feeling were all in your head?
But hey, at least you’ve gotten this far.
~~~
The village was small, various cement houses of bright blues, yellows, and pinks spread out far but close enough to create a square. A small plaza of benches and a gazebo with papel picado hanging from lines lay in the center of it all. The streams connected go the edges of each house and all gather towards the center of that small golden building. It wasn’t grand, the small town could be considered dull with only what looks to be a corner store and a restaurant.
You saw children running through the streets, the clacking of sandals across the floor heard with the loud laughter of older kids and the crying of the younger ones filled your ears as you walked past them. Men and women sat in the middle of the plaza, laughing, gossiping, fighting, listening to music. People lingered on sidewalks, chatting and talking with others who poked their front halves outside their home windows.
The scent of food grew stronger, you could practically taste each ingredient and spice that had been added to that delicious smell. It smelled like birria. Rich and spicy, it reminded you of your mothers as you swallowed the building saliva in your mouth.
The sun didn’t seem as harsh anymore, the shade of the tall palm trees surrounding the village was welcomed greatly— along with the gentle breeze you felt with each house you passed, the fans from the inside being kind enough to expel some air outside as well. The harsh drag on your feet due to the sand wasn’t there anymore as you stepped on the rough concrete, though still a jagged and rocky— it was greatly welcomed.
As you looked around the small village, you began to feel as if you had been there before. The way the light hit the small golden needle at the top of the gazebo, you swore you had seen it before. Whether in dream or reality, it felt oddly familiar. Every step you took you couldn't help but glance at it— the feeling of being young and running through your family's rancho with your friends without a care in the world filled your heart.
Sofia continued to pull on your hand, yanking at it each time you slowed down to give your chafing thighs a break.
“Ya mero!” almost
You rolled your eyes and let out a sigh of relief, a smile rising from the corner of your cheeks. She talked to you as if you were family, reminding you of younger cousins and niece and nephews the way her tone changed when you did something she didn’t seem to like. Most children held back, she did not. You liked it, her boldness.
You soon came to a stop in front of a white house. Tall with a spanish tile rooftop, the curved brick complemented by rich dark brown window sills. Though the house was made of rough and hard cement, the wooden windows were slick and shiny, unlike the other houses where their wood was dull and dusty. Those you could get a splinter but here, the sanded round edges wouldn't allow that. You admired the fine craftsmanship of the house, noting that whoever owned this house cared for quality. What you could tell, every little plant and decoration this person had on the exterior was fine and crafted with precise work. Everything but a small wind chime of blue shells and crystals that hung outside the one window in front of the house— if caught your eye, and that familiar feeling inside of you grew.
“Queda te aquí, ahorita regreso.” Sofia says, but you don’t look away as she stepped inside that house. You could see the shiny porcelain floor reflecting light from the corner of your eyes, but the way the crystals and glass that hung outside shone more beautifully than anything.
Specks of light danced in circles with each other around its wooden surroundings. The window was wide enough you could see the layout of the room it lay outside of. The rich blue and white colors of the pillows and blankets inside neatly blended into the chimes light blues and greens. The shells that hung from the chime reminded you of ones you had once seen on the beach of your family's home. Ones you had picked up and carried in a small blue sand pail.
You remember that pail, why you got those shells and exactly why they stood out in your memory.
The memory of dragging your sister and brothers to the small walkway of the town, out onto the open sea just so they could help you gather sea shells and glass to create a piece of work for your aunt flooded your mind as you continued to stare at the small bundle of strings and beads. That piece of artwork was actually a wind chime you recalled. In fact, it looked exactly like the one you saw before you.
The realization only hit after you heard the clacking of sandals behind you. You swiftly glance in its direction, and are greeted by eyes that look like yours.
They were old in age, crows feet and wrinkles sagged around them but you could see and feel the life and fire that burned inside of them. They were your grandmothers— your mother once said to you she had only ever seen her, you, and her sister have eyes like that. That they were unforgettable, a thing that could always linger in the back of your mind even if you never saw them again.
And she was right. They were absolutely unforgettable.
The breath of your lungs escaped you slowly as you stared at your Tia, who was now holding the small hand of the little girl beside her, Sofia.
Now you finally realized she felt so familiar. Why she had said you looked like her grandma.
“Tia-“ You tried to begin, managed to take a breath of air. But she ran to you before you could even finish the word, shoving you into her arms.
Her hold was tight, strong hands burying themselves in your hair as she tightly held your head against hers. She breathed you in, nose tucked in between your curls and lips gently kissing your cheek before she finally managed to say your name. She said it so quietly. But even then, the feeling like you were home washed over you.
You hesitantly lifted your arms up, scared to embrace her back. Scared that if the second you were to touch her, she’d vanish the moment fingertips reached her back.
But she didn’t. She was real, the grasp and feel of her thin shirt between your fingers was real.
You closed your eyes, relishing in that feeling she brought to you. You close your eyes tightly, just enough to keep those small tears of relief from dripping down your cheeks.
~~~
(Spanish will be written in english from this point forward)
You practically swallowed the food in one bite, gulping down spoonful after spoonful. You barely chewed, like a feral animal who hadn’t eaten in weeks and was now presented before a feast, though it was hardly anything extravagant. The smell of birria from before had come from her house, the smell still making your mouth water even as you ate the meat in front of you.
You almost moaned at the taste. You had gotten sick of fish and fruit from the small cave. The sudden burst of flavor and different texture was greatly welcomed, you could hardly even believe it was happening. When you were told you could find food in the small village, you did not think it would be a family recipe- didn’t expect to taste a memory from your childhood. Didn’t think to end up in your favorite place in the world either.
You licked the remaining broth from your lips, wiping small red dots left on the corners of your lips away as you sighed in relief. You placed your hands on your stomach, now full and no longer aching. A smile formed on your lips, the sunlight that poured in from the open window warmed your cheeks as you felt your Tía’s food warm your stomach.
“Thank you, Tia.” You finally say, taking a swig of the water she gave you. It was sweet, made of piña and had chia seeds inside. The flavored lingers on your tongue as you chew the small remaining pulp from the fruit.
Your aunts eyes—your eyes— gazed at you with all the kindness in the world. Though you could see a small mask of disbelief covering them, you knew you would have to make up an excuse as to why exactly you were here sooner or later.
Your Tia Beatrice, whom everyone called Betty, was one of the nicest women you can ever recall meeting. She was your mothers older sister, but seemed more youthful than all of her siblings. Her hair was a dusty brown, similar to that of Sofia’s, and her skin was tan with sun kissed freckles scattering all across her arms and face. She wore it in a neat bun, hair swooped back as small brightly colored pins held it back into place. It had been a few years since you had seen her last, but that kind and fiery personality lingered in everything she did. Her skin had sagged a bit, her shoulders fallen inward, and her back wasn’t as straight as before, but the energy that she radiated would make you believe she had not aged at all.
Every movement and word she spoke, it reminded you of why you had always admired her.
“It’s not a problem mija.” She says sweetly, her voice smooth and tender- just how you remembered. It made chills run down your spine as she grabbed your hand and placed it into hers. Soft wrinkled hands wrapped around your dry and calloused ones. Her fingers were slim and long, though knobby and hugging her bones, they looked as if they had never worked a day of hardship. You knew otherwise though, for if you looked close enough, you could see tiny white scars lingering across her hands
They reminded you of Namors, you thought. Though his hands were larger than hers, much thicker, and skin tanner as well, his hands were full of those tiny white scars as well.
Strange- how a God and a woman from nowhere can share a small similarity. Both led two different lives, had two different reasons for the scars, different healing times but nevertheless— those scars meant they were real.
You stared at her hands as you thought about him. A slight surge of panic creeping up from the back of your mind as you finally remembered him. That he was here with you as well.
You lifted your head slightly, not too quickly as to not surprise your tia but still fast enough. Lush green plants surrounded the window, blocking a few corners of your view outside into the world.The village was by no means large, memories of being here as a child slowly rising now that you weren’t so famished and could think properly. Everyone knew each other here, every neighbor knew every child, adult, cat, or dog here. So if Namor were to suddenly arrive, you would no doubt be able to tell if he did.
But it looked the same, nothing changed from the scene you arrived to. Children played and ran along the middle of the plaza, adults strolled on by, and the sound of music hadn’t stopped. Everyone minded their own business, not a sign of something new and strange appearing.
You sigh, looking back to your tia with a shy smile before standing up and asking where the sink was to wash your plate. “I’ll show you.” She says, standing up and leading you through the beaded curtain next to the dining room and into the kitchen.
The kitchen was simple. You spot the white tiled walls with small blue accents everywhere, reminding you of mediterranean styled ones. More blue and yellow accents continued in the decorative plates and fruit, making the room blend into one.
You spot the sink and go up to it. Grabbing the damp and still soapy sponge, you turn on the water and begin. As you do so, Betty begins to speak as well.
“Mija, I have no problem with you being here- and you know this of course! But I just have to ask, why are you here?” The words stun you. Even though you knew she would eventually ask and you would have to make an excuse, the words still shocked you. “I know that your mother and I aren’t as close as we used to be, but I do think she would have called me. So you can understand why I’m so curious, yes?”
She stands behind the small bar styled counter next to you, leaning forwards and looking right at you. You don’t dare to look at her, fearing that she might see the hesitation in your eyes to answer such a simple question. Though I suppose to you, it was a hard one.
You gulp, feeling small drops of sweat fall onto your brow as you softly and slowly brush the sponge over your plate. The red specks of the remaining broth smudge across the white porcelain you held between your pointer and thumb. You held it tightly, whether for the slippery water or for a way to relieve the tension you wanted to place in your jaw, you could not tell.
“C’mon, think of something!” You tell yourself. “It isn’t even that hard.”
You rush throughout your mind, hoping to find some lame and vague excuse for the time being, something to build a lie upon, but you were cut off. The sound of a voice came from the door.
“Ama!” The voice yells, and you recognize it instantly. Your eyes shoot wide as you turn to face the beaded curtain as soon as she walks through it. Her eyes look to her mother first, seeing her bent over the countertop and facing something else, she turns them to you.
Those big hazel eyes from your childhood stare right back at you, the same that Sofia has. You had no idea why you didn’t make the connection earlier— if your eyes were unforgettable, then what were hers? Shock ran throughout your body strong enough that you let go of the bowl you held in your hands. It fell and softly clattered on the tin walls of the sink as a wide and stupid grin formed on your face.
She screams, running to you faster than you could even comprehend. She nearly sends you flying back, your soapy hands wrapping around her exposed back for leverage and sobs begin to leave her mouth.
The jolts and sounds of her cries shake you to your core, your own eyes tearing up as you bury your head in the spot where her shoulder and neck meet. Tears fall onto her skin, as you both begin to laugh— you and your cousin, Yessenia. Sofia’s mom.
“God! Just look at you!” She shouts, pulling back and holding you by the shoulders to get a good look. “I haven’t seen you in years, what happened?” She asks, the wide smile on her face not budging an inch.
“Well y'know, shit happens.” You laugh, raising your hands to meet her own shoulders, steadying yourself from the small shake she gave you. Your still wet and soapy fingers dig into her plush arms, but she doesn’t seem to care.
“I bet!” Yessenia laughs as well, patting your shoulders before suddenly remembering something.
“Oh, and speaking about shit happening,” She turns back to Betty, the smile on her lips fading for a moment, her tone going serious,she finishes, “There’s a man at the door.”
~~~
You knew exactly who it was the moment the word man left her lips.
It hadn’t even been an hour, maybe half since you had been apart, but you had almost forgotten how beautiful he was. And in the sun? You swore you could stare at him like that for a lifetime.
You lingered in the small doorway that seperated the entrance of the house and the dining room, peering your head slightly around the small bend as Yessenia held your arm as if to hold you back.
“I saw him walking on my way back here from the main road. Said he was looking for someone here but I’ve never seen him before.” Your cousin begins to explain, her own head peeking out to see him as well. “Since you’re the newest thing here, I assume that's you prima. Was bringing him to my mom so she could point him in the right direction but it seems as if I ended up doing that myself, yeah?” She nudges your shoulder as she watches you look at him.
There’s no doubt she could see something in your eyes as you continued to study that faint but radiant glow that radiated off his skin. The thin layer of sweat that had built on his skin made him look fresh and dewey— and with the top of his shirt slightly unbuttoned? You could’ve fallen to your knees.
“Yeah, I know him.” You said quietly, half afraid those pointed ears might have some kind of super hearing and would pick up on how breathlessly you said the words. With all his other abilities, you wouldn’t be surprised if he did.
“So? Cmon introduce us.” Your cousin teases, pulling at the arm she held. You hiss, furrowing your brows at the slight pain the tugging caused.
“Aye!” You groan, turning to her and lightly punching her own back. She lets out a whine in response. Turning to Betty like a child, she asks her mother for help. Your tia rolls her eyes, chuckling and shaking her head at the two of you.
“She’s right though, are you going to introduce us?” Betty asks, a sly grin making its way onto her lips.
“You too?” You sigh, shaking your head and fighting the smile that wants from your lips as you turn your head back to the door.
In the few moments that you had your head turned, you had obviously expected nothing to change. You expected to turn around and see Namor standing there, doing nothing and talking to no one as the sun continued to shine on his skin, but you were wrong. Sofia now stood in front of him, having come from nowhere.
She stared at him with wide eyes, now full of wonder, sparkling with the rays of the sun as she stared and studied at every dent and wrinkle in his skin. They wandered from the tip of his nose to the ends of his pointed ears. Namor only stared back, his face disinterested and calm as he looked down at the small child.
Terrifying is what he would be called by many other children. The big, strong, and scary man that girls and boys would see from 10 feet away and scattered away at the intimidating aura around him. But not to her, no. You had no idea where she had come from, the last time you saw her being when she led you to your tia. Even if you had just met her today, you could already understand his child has a way of doing the unexpected. Much like her mother, there was a wide and curious smile on her lips as Sofia asked him for his name.
Your eyes widened and you found yourself walking towards the two the second you saw her mouth open to speak.
“Hey!” You shout, practically racing out the door the last few steps.
Sofia nervously backs away, doing the opposite of the man in front you who takes a small step closer.
Namors eyes widen, softening for a mere second as you come to a stop in front of the two. You smile at him, nodding your head in a small greeting, and a bit inside of your belly builds with nerves. The reality that you would have to introduce him soon hitting you like a truck. Your palms slightly begin to sweat, you tap your foot softly against the dirt of the floor, blinking fastly as you try to stutter out some words to say, wanting to rid of the silence you had just caused.
But the anxiety stops when he calls your name. Like a cool bucket of water has been dumped on you, every restless inch of you calmed down.
“I have been looking for you.” He tells you, the words smooth and softly hitting your ears.Your heart flutters at the sound.
“I’ve been waiting.” You respond, a shy smile creeping up on your lips.
You've seen him smile brighter than how he is right now, but it was something in his eyes that made the ones from before completely dull to how he did in that moment. Only the very corners of his lips lifted, not fully reaching his eyes which showed his true emotions. They were inexplicable, but you— you understood them. That tug in your soul you felt from before soothing your heart strings. You smiled back.
But your calm heart soon went haywire, stunning and shocking you as you felt Yessenia brush past you without warning.
“Sofia!” She shouts, reaching down for her daughter. The girl, who had been focused on you and Namor, turned to her mother. Sofias face lit up immediately, her chubby cheeks glowing red and arms widening as she ran to her mother.
They embrace each other, big arms wrapping around a small body as smaller arms wrap around a much larger one. She buries her face in her daughters neck, stuffing her nose in her daughters neck. As if it had been a while since they last saw each other.
You step aside, moving closer to Namor. You instinctively reach for his hand, and he grabs it. He gives you a small squeeze, and you do it in return.
You smile, heart warming as you watch your cousin and her daughter talk—about how their day went, what they saw, who they met. Sofias head tilted back towards you when that was asked, her bright eyes landing on your face and taking you in. You’re not sure if your Tia had told her what you were to her, but you had a feeling she knew. Though her eye didn’t stay on you for long, for they quickly moved to Namor. The grin on her face carving itself into more of an ‘O’ as curiosity began to make its way back into her face.
Yessenia noticed, immediately turning her own brightly hazel eyes to him. They studied his face for a few beats before wandering down. To where both your hands met. They widened, her own face mimicking that of the child still in her arms
oh
You stiffened, shoulders squaring as your cousin lifted herself from the floor.
She and Sofia almost looked identical like this. The way the curves of their cheeks lifted, the wrinkles caused from the slight grin in their lips, hair a puffy mess due to the heat. Mother and daughter.
“So uh,” Your cousin begins, “Would you like to come in?”
~~~
You sat at the edge of the table, an orange in your hands as you peeled the sticky and bitter peel off. Its leftovers curl into one large peel of its own, falling over your hands and onto the table.
Namor sat next to you, a spoon in his hand as he slowly and deftly ate a bowl of birria your aunt served him. The red broth spilling and staining the corners of his lips as it did to you. You had eaten with urgency unlike him. So calm, so out of place he was.
His hardened and intense features against a light and calm background, like a bull in a china shop. Though he was elegant in every move he made, almost diplomatic and composed, you had somehow forgotten he was a king. You wondered if they did things differently in Talokan, but you didn’t have time to think of that right now.
Your aunt stared daggers into him. She sat across from him, arms crossed and lips tight as she studied every spoonful and breath. Every twitch, every movement of his fingers, she knew and wrote down in her mind.
Your cousin sat next to her, her body the opposite of her mothers. Whereas Betty's posture was firm, back straight and head tall— Yessenia’s shoulders caved in, her hands in between her knees, and her brows raised high as she continuously glanced between them like a scared child, no doubt anxious of what her mother might say
Sofia sat next to you, her long legs having fallen into your lap as she lay her head on the table, observing the adults around her
Everyone sat in an uncomfortable silence, the only sound being the soft tearing of the orange from its skin and the occasional clunking of spoon against porcelain.
You teeth clenched, jaw tight as you tried to focus on the fruit you were peeling— trying to stop your hands from trembling.
You couldn’t explain why you would begin to tremble if you did, you just knew you would.
You believed it was for the questions your Tia may ask, about who Namor was, and how she would ask why you were here again. But you had done nothing wrong, right? You know your mother and aunt aren’t as close to each other as they were when you were growing up, but even then. Family would tell family when one went missing right?
Your stomach churned, thinking about how maybe your mother had called them. Maybe she has told them you disappeared, that you may have been kidnapped. Maybe they thought he had stolen you. (though he technically did-)
Your breath hitched, chest caving as the idea of all those possibilities came rushing in. You almost banged your hands on the table when your Tia suddenly moved, placing her hands on the table and leaning forward, only by an inch. But enough that you could tell she was trying to intimidate the man next to you.
She never backed down from a fight, you knew that. Your mother would tell you stories of how many fights her older sister had gotten into when they were younger. How Betty always came home with cuts and bruises, a bandage on her face every week from a new fight. And she fought for a reason, she liked to look out for those she cared for. Many picked on your mother growing up, their younger brother, and Betty’s friends. She didn’t hesitate to throw a punch.
But as she grew older her short temper faded, but that didn’t mean she had left fighting behind. She was passionate, a fire always burned in those eyes of hers— those eyes that belonged to you as well.
Even in her age, you knew she would fight Namor if he had done something truly terrible. Whereas many women fought with words, Betty liked to use both. And even if she knew he was a King— the serpent god K’uk’ulkan— she would still fight him.
She placed her hands on the table, fingers playing with the small table mat they had landed on. She stared right at him, eyes like a calm ocean that could explode into a sea of chaos if ticked off.
“So,” She suddenly spoke, her voice loud as it broke through the silence, “Why are you two here?”
The same question from before.
You looked at Namor, eyeing from the side and nudging his foot.
‘What do I say?’ You wanted to ask him. You tried to shout down that invisible string, your heart and soul crying out towards him as your hands squeezed the orange you held. Juices began to spurt, as you waited for an answer.
‘Whatever feels right’ The words came quickly, like a caress to your bones as they arrived.
You turned your head to find him look at you, eyes soft. That was enough to give you the courage to finally speak.
“My friends and I came to México for a trip, but I ended up running into him.” You began, nodding your head towards Namor as you said the last word. “He’s a friend of a friend, told me he was heading over here and I told him I had family in these parts. He offered to bring me to you all but that it might take a while to get here because he had other stops, I told him that was okay.”
You stopped for a beat, trying to study your aunt and cousin's face as the words left your mouth. Yessenia looked convinced, though still wary of her mother’s reaction. Betty did nothing but listen, lips still firm but less tight than to how they were. A sign she might be believing you.
“When we got here, the car broke down. Just a few ways down the main road, we missed our stop, so we got off. We waited for some cars to pass but saw none, I started to get hungry so we trekked off into the woods, trying to look for a path here. We ended up getting lost, I fell down a hill and that was when Sofia found me.” You finished, voice going soft as you said the last few words, looking at the girl next to you. She smiled, but her eyelids were heavy— sleepy from the activities of today no doubt.
The two women in front of you said nothing. Blinking as they looked at each other, and then back at you two.
Namor had finished eating, hands in his lap. He stayed quiet, calm and steady as he had been before. You wondered how he felt about all this, you almost wanted to ask how he would feel if it was him in your situation.
“Ah.” Your Tia simply said, nodding her head.
You turn back to her.
She believed that?
“You both are welcome to stay for as long as you would like,” She continues, “It’s one of our friends birthdays today, so tonight we will be having a feast, you are not obligated to come but it would be greatly appreciated.” Her eyes shift from Namor to you, gaze softening and the fire in her eyes almost vanishing instantly. She says your name, tender and sweet compared to how it was mere seconds ago, edge and intimidation still lingering in the whispering rasps. “I know there are a few people that will be happy to see you back, mija. You may not remember them but they surely remember you.” A smile appears— it seems as if she’s done with your companion.
Yessenia calms herself as well, stiff muscles going soft at the sight of her mother at ease once more. She turns to you as well, hands shooting across the table to grab your own sticky ones.
“Ouu, you’re going to love everyone! You might remember the kids we would play with all the time but everyone else is practically the same- oh my god you need something to wear!” She rambles, the words spilling from her mouth seconds before she could even finish her first thought.
She stands, coming around the table and practically hauling you off of your chair. Your knees buckle, almost falling as she pulls you to her.
You yelp, reaching towards the table, towards anything for stability, and you feel a hand on your back.
Namor holds you up, hands enveloped around your hips and sides to keep you from falling. You look back to see him standing, face firm and concerned for you.
Your face heats, your heart practically begins to pound out of your chest. You stare into his eyes, so intense and ready to protect. Because that's what he said he’d do, protect you.
“Are you alright?” He finally speaks. After minutes of silence, his words are meant for you and only you. As they were when you spoke at the door.
You smile, cheeks rising at the question. “I’m alright.”
His hands loosen from your body at the words. He nods, not doubting your response before backing away gently.
Your cousin only stares and watches the interaction. Take a note of it. Mischief swirls in the depths of her eyes, only for a second, before apologizing and beginning to speaking again.
“C’mon Prima, we’ve got lots of catching up to do.” She lets go of your hands, patting your shoulder and finally setting off to go deeper into the house.
You watch her go, giggling at the carefree woman. If you had not known about Sofia, you wouldn’t have ever guessed that she was a mother.
But before you leave, to turn back to Namor, “Will you be fine on your own?” You ask, not knowing how he might act or feel in an unfamiliar environment.
“I’ll be alright. There are some things I need to do, but I will be back later. I won't leave you. Will not.” He tells you, voice firm and sincere.
“Okay.” You respond, voice soft and barely a whisper as you nod, a shy smile on your lips.
You try to leave, but your feet won't budge. You keep standing in front of him, as if you were unconvinced with his words, almost afraid to go. A gut feeling like if you do, you might not see him again. Your heart cries out again as it did before on that beach. But an answer comes once more.
I’ll be right here.
The words cause a shiver to run down your spine. But you knew it to be true, felt it.
You nod your head, finally turning to follow your cousin.
~~~
The sunset colored the rooms white walls in orange and peach colors.
Your damp hair fanned out onto the sheets as small wet strands continued to cling onto your neck while your cousin brushed her hair from its tangles on a chair near her dresser. The scent of sea salt and citrus blew in from the window as the sounds of distant and muffled music played. You shut your eyes, trying to take your mind off the somewhat itchy fabric of the dress your cousin had lent you.
Most of the afternoon was spent with you and your cousin catching up, chatting and laughing about old and new memories before getting ready for the party you were invited to.
You had spoken about your friends, how your mother and siblings were doing. How you still loved the ocean and swimming. She spoke of her life in return, about those years you missed and what she and her mother did for a living.
You both reminisced on the times of when you were children. Being in her room brought up memories of your old sleepovers, how you would paint each other's nails and braid each other's messy hair. The way you would throw sand at each other and wrestle in the water, always sharing raspados on especially hot days and couldn’t find enough money to buy one for each of you. Though Yessenia had grown, changed her bright pink walls and girly bed sheets, you still noted the small painting you had made together hung up on her mirror.
In fact, when she spoke about Sofia and how she changed her life, she told you that the girl kept her young. That she let the small unhealed part of her childhood free to roam, that it made both her daughter and herself happy. She said she couldn’t be more grateful for that little girl.
The sun continues setting ever so slowly. A glare of light suddenly flashes in your eyes. You groan, throwing your hands in your face and lifting yourself up slowly to get away from the ray of light’s new home.
You sigh, shaking your head as you try to wake your mind from the small nap you tried to take. You stand, arms reaching to the ceiling as you stretch and the door to the room opens.
Sofia runs in, her hair wet and with a new outfit on, Betty following close behind.
You smile, sitting yourself back down on the edge of the bed, Sofia grabbing her mothers brush from her hands before asking you to do her hair.
“You know I used to fo your moms hair when we were little, she could never get the braids right. They always came out lumpy or crooked.” You told the girl who had sat inbetween your legs, parting her hair into three separate strands, brushing out small knots as you did.
“No, you just have a weird head shape.” Your cousin replies, turning her head to you from her seat.
You roll your eyes, snickering before going back to the task at hand. As you did, you felt the side of the bed sag a bit. Your tia had sat down near you, watching and peering over your shoulder as you combed your fingers between her granddaughter's golden locks.
“I could never do hair either- it was your mother who taught me you know.” Her voice was calm, soothing and soft compared to how it was earlier.
You smile, “Do you think it’s too late to teach your daughter?”
“Hey!”
You both snicker, cheeks rising and teeth showing from the small comment.
“Ugh, whatever!” Yessenia rolls her eyes, turning back to her mirror, flipping her hair dramatically as she does. Her jewelry jingled with each wave of her hand, clinking softly as she swiped a faint color of lipstick on her lips.
“Actually, I have a question,” She continues talking, calling your name at the end.
“Yees?” You hum, not too worried about what she was to ask as you focused on carefully parting Sophia's hair into brains. But a light churning in the back of your mind caused the tiniest whirls of anxiety to stir.
“What’s up with him?”
“Huh?” Your head immediately jolts up at the words, peeling your eyes at her. You had known they would have questions about him (i mean who wouldn’t), and you had tried to mentally prepare yourself for them but as before, it was still a shock when it finally happened. Anxiety coursed through your veins and you felt the inner workings of your stomach fully stir.
Your fingers tighten on the strands of hair you held, trying to ground yourself in front of your family without making it obvious. But the child before you grunting in pain, truly bringing you back. You quickly apologize, going back to the task at hand to try to calm yourself before asking what she meant.
“I mean he was just so.. intimidating. The way he looked at my mom and I as if we were some kind of threat sorta threw me off , yknow? Oh- and the ears, the piercings too. I know we don’t go into the cities often but those threw me a bit more off.” She explains. Coming to sit down next to you, grabbing her sandals and bending over to put them on.
“Ah.” You simply say, biting your lip nervously.
“She’s right. I did not want to say anything but it bothered me quite as well.” You Tia agrees, her gaze shifting from your fingers to your face.
Worry crawls up your skin and bones as you try to ignore and push back the pressure suddenly placed on you. All the secrets and things you have seen, never to be spoken.
Namor trusted you. Had shown you Talokan. Had brought you back to your family.
You had not known how long you were in your own mind, but by the time you had blinked the ends of Sofias braids were being tied into small rubber bands.
And the pressure and tension still lingered in the air as the eyes of your cousin and aunt did not leave your face.
“So..?”
You gulped. The least you could do was keep a secret.
~~~~
The humid air caused a thin and sticky layer of sweat to build onto your skin, but the soft and salty breeze of the ocean helped calm your burning skin. The smell of sweet agua fresca and rich food filled your nose as you finally sat down on the large rectangular table.The ache of your feet lingered from earlier before as you scooted yourself back in.
The walk to the “party” was short, taking place on the beach in front of the small restaurant style bar you had seen that man and woman decorating earlier as Sofia guided you to your aunt. They were introduced to you as Maria and Hilberto (though everyone called him Beto) , and had apparently recognized you from before but were unsure if you were real. You smiled as they spoke to you of how they remembered you as a child, gap toothed and pig tails always full of sand.
They helped introduce you to everyone else in attendance as well. You formally met Sofia’s two friends from before, Lucia, known as Luz, and Clara. Luz was Maria and Beto’s granddaughter, the same pair of black eyes from the girl her grandmother both looked at you. Ones with delight and nostalgia, the other with uncertainty and anxiousness.
Clara was the niece of Yessenia’s friend. She seemed more worried and confused than anything, her brows arched upwards as her plush fingers gripped yours in a handshake.The shy girl clung to Luz— whose birthday was being celebrated. The two seemed close, linking their arms together and sitting at the farthest away from everyone, whispering things to each other as Sofia , who had wandered off to them, listened closely
It had taken almost 15 minutes to formally greet everyone, each person stopping to hold your hand and tell you how much of a free spirit you were as a child, how much Sofia reminded them of you. You can’t recall ever visiting your Tia’s home so often as a child but, you surely must have made an impression. Kind faces asked about your sisters and mother, how your grandmother was, and if you still loved the ocean. You answered accordingly to the first two questions, changing a few details and adding more to keep the conversations fresh. But the last, you simply smiled and nodded your head.
You let out a sigh of relief as the sounds of people talking and laughing surrounded you, finally not at you anymore. The sounds drowned out around you as you turned your head to the dark ocean to your left. Its waves a loud crashing and the only color from its foam lapping against the dimly lit sand.
You breathe in deeply, an attempt to soothe yourself and the tiny nerves from your fingertips slowly riding and building with anxiety at the fact there was still no song. It was so strange, too strange. The scenery felt so familiar too, your heart aching and almost crying out. You wanted to know why. Why now?
“I remember you.” A voice suddenly says. The words scare you. You jump slightly before you turn your head. Dark eyes and light stare at you, a familiar pair next to you. Sofia, Luz, and Clara.
Your cousin’s daughter sat next to you, her arms splayed on the table as she smiled and looked back and forth between you and her friends. The two older girls sat across from you— Luz directly in front and Clara to her side.
You stare for a moment, surprised at the fact she was talking to you. Her previous looks towards you were so.. condescending (probably not the right word)? You hadn’t gotten close enough to her to truly feel how she felt towards you, but her looks of suspicion were enough to make you stay away so as not to bother her. You were a visitor in her home, or at least that’s what you told yourself.
“Do you?” You curiously ask, turning your body to face her.
The stern look on her face falters at your words. Surprise flashed in her wide eyes, her guard let down. Something about her and her friend throwing a small side glance at each other said “She’s talking to me.” A hint of red on her cheeks as she continues to speak.
“I doubt you remember us though.We hardly ever spoke to each other, my mother never allowed me to be near the older kids- but you always seemed so fun. So genuine. But I remember you. I remember at the campfires all the kids would follow you and hear your stories.” She stutters over some words, her speaking hardly put together as well as her tough facade which was now gone.
She says the next words so softly. “Though we never spoke, they’re some of my favorite memories.
You don’t say anything in response as you look at you. The innocence of childhood twinkled in her eyes as she recalled the memories she spoke of, her face now seemed less sharp. Her almond eyes were less sharp, the dark of them seemed to have brightened.
You smiled at it.
“So, how old are you? You seem pretty young, I can't seem to remember seeing you the last time I was here.” You ask, leaning into the table to hear her response. The loud chatter of the adults filled your eyes, the heavy bass of the speakers near you strong enough that you could feel it in your teeth.
“I’m actually supposed to be as old as you.” She says. The words shock you, eyes widening in the few seconds it took to realize what she meant.
“Oh.” You say. “You as well?”
“Almost all of the children in the village actually. Clara and I were the oldest, everyone else was only under 10 years old. It went quiet that day, I was gone and back in less than a second.” Luz explains, her gaze intense as she spoke. But her eyes soon drifted to Sofia a few seconds after speaking.
“All but Sofia. She was the only small child left, having to grow up on her own. It surprised me today when we found you today. I can’t recall her ever meeting you, you were gone and so were we. But the way she simply just walked up to you as if she’s known you her whole life, it really… “ She struggled to finish the sentence, biting her lip as she looked down at the small plate of food in front of her. Her hands scratched as the flimsy and thin table cover, the plastic ripping beneath her fingertips.
“Hey,” you whisper, reaching your hand towards hers, gently pressing down on it in an attempt to stop her anxious fidgeting. “It’s okay. I understand.” You reply. And you did. The second you saw Sofia it was like something inside of your soul knew she was family, knew she would bring you somewhere safe. Even in a haze of hunger and dehydration, that air and familiarity of everything made you feel safe. It was only when you ate and spent the afternoon with your cousin that the memories began to flood back into your mind.
Clara had been quiet the entire conversation, her round face painted with interest but her lips almost trembling as she looked like she wanted to say something. Her leg bounced up and down, her eyes shifted to the small crowd of people dancing in a circle only a few feet away from the tables. She bit her lips as if in anticipation. Luz looked at her. Then at you.
You shrugged your shoulders, your hand leaving hers and going back onto your lap. You opened your mouth to ask the girl what was wrong, but the words seemed to bust through her lips as you did.
“Do you like to dance?” She asks suddenly, eyes going wide and a smile appearing on her lips.
“What?” That was definitely not what you thought she would ask.
“Oh, I’m sorry! It's just the song playing is my favorite, but do you?” Her voice was soft, but loud. Energy and light poured through her as she finally let go. Her hair swayed in the gentle sea breeze to the beat of the song, bounced up and down as she rocked her body lightly to the beat of the song.
It had no doubt taken you by surprise, but that’s what the three girls around you seemed to be special at. Surprising you.
Three girls. one who had never met you, two you can’t recall meeting- all a mirror of
“I do!” You smile, giggling as Luz nugged her friend in the side. Her face painted wigh a look that resd ‘Dont be rude!’
“Would you like to?” She asks after rolling her eyes as the girl beside her, extending her hand for you go take. Her plush hands were chipped, callosues and dry spots around the edges. Her nails short but with a thin coat of polish on top. Her makeup wasn’t the neatest, specs of mascara littered the apples of her cheeks but her eyes burned with a fire grander than you’ve seen before. Like a beast in a cage, waiting to be freed.
You look at Sofia, her eyes sparkling too as she practically jumped in joy to the beat of the song currently playing. That was enough of an answer.
“Yes!”
~~~
The water was almost freezing as it lapped against your burning skin, you almost swore steam was rising off of you. A thin layer of sweat covered your body, now being chilled and dried by the wind that blew through the trees. Hair stuck to your forehead and cheeks as your chest continued to heave from your previous activities.
You remember flying everywhere as the thumping of music rang in your ears. People jumped and sang loudly around you as you did with them as well. You had held the hands of the girls from before, the four of you spinning in circles and holding each other close and laughing loudly as your hips swayed to the song. Clara danced the most, not stopping even after the rest of you broke away from the crowd for a break. Her short hair bobbed up and down as she danced without a care in the world, moving from person to person as her spirit gave the party life.
You smiled, giggling to yourself as you cupped the water from the rushing waves into your hands to clean the sand that had stuck to your skin.
It had been so long since you last danced, truly danced.
You had left the crowd a few minutes ago, having worked up a sweat and burning lungs. Aching knees accompanied you on your silent walk to the shore.
You sighed, letting yourself truly breathe for the first time today. The day you have spent with your family was one you could only have dreamt of, and thinking about it actually made you realize that this was time you had been alone since the morning. You could hardly believe that just a few hours ago, you were still inside that cave. That the sun still had yet to touch you, that you had yet seen another human without that blue skin.
You plop down onto the sand, huffing and catching yourself with your hands as you cross your legs.
The crunching of sand is heard next to you, and instinctively, you look back to where it came from. Your heart almost sank in your chest as you stared at the dark and tall figure beside you. It almost began to beat out of your chest, rising and thumping in your ears. But that figure only sat down besides you, and it stopped.
Namor.
Your breath finally catches again, and you roll your eyes at him.
“What?” He asks, taking note of your huff. You shake your head and look away from him, scooching your knees closer to your chest and grasping the shawl you wore tight.
“I can’t believe you.” You try to say seriously, giggles escaping between syllables.
“What?” He pleads, voice becoming more concerned. He leans in closer to you, tilting his head and furrowing his brows.
You continue to laugh. “What!” He keeps insisting.
“Did you know?” You finally manage to ask.You had looked back at him, a stupid smile on your face.
Namor looks shocked, but soon enough, a smile of his own appears. A real smile. It was soft, the corners of hips lips rising, cheeks lifting just enough to reach the bottom of his eyes.
“Know what?” He asks, shoulders nudging yours as he scooches in closer to you.
“That I had family here. I feel like you must have.” You reply, doing your best attempt to stare him down. “You creepy, crazy stalker.” You joke.
His eyes widen, jaw going slack, before howling in laughter and throwing his head back. You explode in giggles as well. The sound of the music, waves crashing, the rustling of the trees, and your laughter; it all felt so familiar. Like you’ve been here with him before. Like home.
When it finally died down, you both fell into a comfortable quiet. The cold of the air sends shivers down your spine, your hands going cold and hard as you tried to wrap your fingers in the thick shawl you wore. It didn’t work as well as you wanted, but Namors body heat certainly helped.
He hummed a tune you couldn’t quite place as you listened to the far off music still blaring on the speaker. It felt peaceful. The waves weren’t crashing and fighting each other for dominance as they did the night you left. The moon was out, no clouds hiding it from the endless sea below it. Something about the calm made you feel vulnerable. Like you wanted to tell the man sitting beside you every trouble you've ever faced.
You tilted your head to him, shifting your gaze from where the moonlight met the water and to him.
The profile you had grown to love in the time you had known him was there to greet you. And your heart went soft.
“You know, when I first got here, I didn’t even know where I was.” You suddenly began to tell him, the words escaping you before you could even process them.
“Oh?” Namor hums in response. What do you mean?
“When I fell, I didn’t know who that girl was. What beach I was on. I only knew that it felt like I’ve been there-here! before. And then I saw my tia, I ate her food. And everything came rushing back to me.” You explain, your cheek squished against the knee closest to your chest.
“Do you remember how I said there was always this.. song in my head when I was near the ocean?”
He nods, face stern and serious.
“Well, I always thought it was always there. On a constant loop like a broken record. But… being here made me remember it stopped once. It was a long time ago, the last time I had been here in fact. Which is…,”You sigh, thinking about the past time before resuming, “I had been walking along the shore at night, trying to resist that call from jumping into the water and trying to calm myself and sense— my own body that had been betraying me— until it went quiet. It was so sudden that I didn’t even realize until a few minutes after.
“I remember feeling such relief— such joy at the silence and peace. I couldn’t believe it was happening. I ran to my mother immediately, and cried in her arms as I repeatedly said ‘it's gone! it’s gone!’.” Your eyes began to burn, the corners blurring as you continued, “ She held me until I slept. But only when I woke up did it come back— there’s nothing I can say to describe my disappointment and sadness when it came back.”
You pause, catching your breath and composing yourself. Your voice did not waver, you spoke clearly, but the sudden weight that had lifted from your chest shook you to your core. You can’t remember the last time you told someone that, and at the same beach and ocean you stood before when it happened. Your fingertips buzzed and skin covered itself with chills as it remembered that past sadness and the sudden feeling of vulnerability.
“There’s something about this beach, about this sea in front of me, that makes it stop. And i would give anything to find what it is.”
Namor stays quiet, his eyes gone dark and serious. pain flashed behind those eyes of his as his jaw went tight at your words. you sniffled, turning your head back to the sea before you.
Silence built around you. It surrounded the place in which you sat, the cloudy feeling almost letting you sink into your thoughts if it were not for the warmth of his skin against yours. Shoulder to shoulder he finally speaks.
“And the song? How long has it been there?” His voice was gruff, as if clogged and pained. Almost like that lump that clogged your throat before crying had taken hold of him.
“Since I can remember actually, but it's been quite ever since I met you. When I saw Talokan, I heard it. But it was different then. It didn't call for me, didn’t beg for me to go find it and make me want to rip my skin off of my bones. But instead it welcomed me almost. It sang brighter, more beautifully. Those strings in my mind that played on land were coarse and rough, but beneath the water and in that blue light it was smooth and enchanting. I don’t think anything can compare. If that is what was waiting for me, I would always go back.” You tell him. Your voice is light and friendly, but you were the most serious you have been since you met him.
Namor only looked at you. Eyes misty and full of some kind of pain you knew you could not describe. A pain and longing you could only feel and know to be older than time itself. That tug inside your heart and soul told you he knew, that he wanted to say but couldn’t. That he could explain everything but can’t. There’s a key to his heart, the one he wants to expose and let you hold so badly but cannot. Not until he’s ready.
You see it. The way his lips twitched into a small smile as the pain that flashed in his dark eyes got pushed back into those depths it rose from.
Namor was not one for words. Or at least not with you.
You’ve seen him talk with ease and a confidence that you knew suited the title of Serpent God. His booming voice was loud and strong as he spoke to the women who took care of you in that cave. He was always so serious and stern when you saw him work, words flowed quickly and smoothly from his lips without missing a beat . But when it came to you, his words seemed to fail. As if everything in his mind went blank at the sight of you and the only way to express understanding was touch.
Touch. His favorite thing.
His large hand reaches towards you. Fingers combing through yours as they stilled from their curling action. His calloused hand held yours in a firm grip and held on tightly. You let it happen.
His touch, his body, his air, and mere presence warmed your once shivering body underneath that cold moonlight. The expanse of the endless sea before your eyes didn’t seem so big anymore, at least not with him there with you.
The beating of the waves and the music your family played only got louder— a familiar tune reaching your ears and you almost jumped.
You turned your head to the distant light of people still dancing.
“What’s wrong?” Namor asks, a bit stunned at your sudden movement.
“I love this song.” You simply respond, a smile on your face as you look back to him.
“Do you?”
You hum a quick yes.
“Tell me, what is it about?” He requests, voice so gentle and quiet, you wouldn't have been able to hear if his lips were not so close to yours.
You gulp, staring into his eyes.
You've probably stared into the eyes of thousands of people, but with him— it made you realize how truly intimate it is.
“It’s uh- about a man. He hears a woman's voice on the radio one night and falls in love with her. And he spends every day looking for her, clicking through every station every day in hopes to hear her voice at least once more. He’s desperate , says he looks to the sky and stars for her. Sleepless. Desvelado.” You tell him.
“Like you and the song from the sea. Only you’re searching for the end.”
His reply shocks you. But there’s a faint knowing twinkle in his eye. That look from before.
“I think I may have found it.”
You both smile one last time. Your head leans into his shoulder— his own falling atop yours soon enough— as you fall back into a comfortable quiet. Your arm hugging his as the warmth of his body seeps into yours.
You dreamt about him that night. Recalling how your hearts burned brighter than the moonlight, brighter than the sun.
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Good Days (Eddie Munson x Fem!Reader)
(photo not mine, will delete if asked)
word count: 5.7k
summary: Good or bad days, Eddie was always there.
warnings: best friend to lovers trope, fluff, cussing, tiniest use of weed, Season 4 ending didn’t happen teehee
a/n: First full fic in a while, hope you all like!! special thanks to my friend for being my editor and helping through my process:) <3 p.s: i listened to Touch Tank by Quinnie and Bad Habits by Steve Lacy the entire time i wrote this so thats kinda the vibe here 😋
Summer days in Hawkins, Indiana varied of being the worst, okay, or best days of your life.
Worst being the achingly hot days, over 90 degrees with a broken AC unit, nothing to do , and unable to go anywhere but stay in your hot ass room. The sheets of your bed made it unbearable to stay laying down, the leather of the couch sticking to your skin made you itch and irritated. Bonus points if it was a day when they were cleaning your parents pool, they forbid anyone from going in the water until 24 hours after the chlorine sets.
Okay days were much better, when the AC worked and the leather couch didn’t make you want to scream at anyone who dared to talk to you. You were able to walk or bike to a friends house, maybe hang out at the mall if you were allowed to go out. Uneventful days, not bad but neither amazing.
To others, the definition of the best summer days would probably be something like hanging out with friends, getting high in the woods, going for a naked swim at lovers lake in the dark. And you agree, doing all those things sounded amazing. But you liked the simple life. Hanging out and watching a movie, getting take out, singing karaoke, and playing board games with friends, doing all those things in one day seemed like the best summer day to you.
Today was one of those days. A pool day.
You’d invited Eddie Munson, your best friend and the “freak” of your hometown. You’d been friends with him since the time you didn’t know how to wipe off the sticky orange juice from your hands. Since middle school when he’d discovered his favorite genre of music and decided to reinvent himself. Since the beginning and end of high school, when the two of you seemed to have nothing in common anymore but could talk about everything. Everyone told you those four years of hell to “stay away from him”, that “that devil worshiper will corrupt you.” You ignored all these comments, laughing at them with Eddie later that same day. He’d accepted his title as the town freak, knowing that you understood him was enough to make him feel better.
Eddie had ran a club when he was in high school, the Hellfire Club. Where a bunch of Dungeons and Dragons loving nerds would band together and play campaigns, acting out as knights, warlocks, mages and elves of sorts in order to defeat their imaginary enemies. Not many people joined the club, seeing as everyone in the town followed the same “normal person” cliché, all afraid to even be associated with your old school’s drug dealer.
But not 3 annoying freshmen. 3 boys who ran after and idolized Eddie as their leader, waiting for any chance to talk to him at any time of day. All three attached to the hip of each other, always seen together and hardly ever apart. Eddie had grown fond of them, accepting their constant nagging to be around him, always accepting their request to tag along with him when he’d go out.
And thats how your backyard ended up like this.
Pool floaties full of sun kissed bodies, water splashed all over the cement floor surrounding the bowl of water used for swimming. Loud music blaring over a speaker, cups and chips thrown around the table and on the floor of the deck.
More people showed up than you had expected, all you did was say yes when Eddie asked if he could bring a few people along.
Apparently, a few people meant 4 kids and 3 other teens/adults to your house. You knew them all of course, having had gotten to know them earlier that year during That incident. The odd group combination of 4 freshmen, a kid from band, the queen of hawkins high, the ex king of hawkins high, hanging out with you and Eddie the freak Munson was something normal to you now, but from different viewpoint , it all still made you confused as to how or why you all are friends.
A red white and blue popsicle melted in your fist as you were away in your thoughts, the cold touch of the syrup running down your hand brought you back out.
“Shit.” You hissed, frantically looking for a napkin before it could create a bigger mess. The table had napkins scattered everywhere but not a single one was dry. Damn Dustin, canon-balling on the side of the pool you told him not to.
You look around hurriedly, seeing that Nancy was running inside. “Nance! Napkins!” You yelled to her before she entered through the sliding door. “Yep!” She yelled in response.
The cold treat continued to rapidly melt before you could even get a taste of it, praying that Nancy had actually heard your request seeing as she was in a rush.
You sighed to yourself as you looked down at your hands, full of sticky blue juice. You didn’t have long to be upset, a pair of arms wrapped around your waist suddenly.
“Hey!” You yelled, shocked at the sudden feeling.
“Hey!” A voice responded.
You twisted your body to try and see the person who had grabbed a hold of you. Messy brown hair came into your view as you soon realized who it was. His skin against your bare stomach made you burn in his touch, unsure because of the heat or because the butterflies in your stomach made a siren go off in your mind. He was so close, breathing against your neck as your face suddenly started to burn. The temperature of your body and the weather would’ve made you pass out unless Eddie’s wasn’t freezing cold, indicating he had just gotten out of the water.
“What’re you doin Eds?” You ask him, trying to wiggle your way out of his arms.
“Throwing you in the pool.” He says nonchalantly.
Before you could even process his words, you felt yourself being pulled in the direction of the pool. The flexing of his arms around your body made you panic in two ways.
He laughed loudly as he neared the edge of the pool, thinking your objections were hilarious.
“Eddie, my popsicle!” You yelled as you were lunged into the water.
A cold feeling engulfed your entire body as you heard muffled cheers and laughs from underneath the water. You swam to the surface as fast you could, gasping for air.
“Fuck you Munson! The pool’s dirty now, my parents are gonna be pissed!” You spat at him as soon as you caught your breath, swimming over to your now broken and floating popsicle.
“Oh c’mon sweetheart, they’ll never know!” He exclaimed, spreading his arms open. A stupid smile on his face as he laughed with Dustin and Robin.
“They won’t but I will!” You huffed, grabbing the now soggier treat and tossing it to Eddie. A splat of blue painted his chest as he suddenly stopped laughing.
“Payback.” You said, shooting him a wink as Steve, who was floating nearby, burst into laughs. “Just gonna let her go,Munson!” He asked the tall boy in between laughs.
You rapidly turned your head to glare at him, how dare he provoke Eddie into a war between the two of you.
“Never!” Your friend yelled before diving into the pool, chasing after you.
Adrenaline rushed through your body as you tried to swim away from him and into the shallow end of your pool, grabbing the person nearest to you to hide behind.
A splash of water hit the person you were using as a personal shield, “Hey!” you heard them yell. Looking at the wet hair, you realized you hid behind Mike. Leaning over his shoulder you start to glare at Eddie, “Piss off!” You almost screeched.
All he did was stare at you, face flat with no expression before looking at Mike. “Alright Wheeler move or else I'll drown you.” He threatened the boy.
“Oh c’mon I didn’t even do anything!” He whines, hands coming up and out of the water, the splash landing towards the older boy.
“Did you just wet me?” Eddie gasped, dramatically placing a hand on his chest. “Oh that’s it! That’s it! Let’s go!” He exclaims.
The rest all happened too fast, grabbing Mike by his shoulder Eddie soon began to wrestle with him in the water. Lucas came up to hold Eddie off but that caused Dustin to come and hold Lucas back. Chaos started to spread as Steve, Robin and Max were soon pushed off their floaties and pool noodles to join the fight. Water flew and all the movements created large waves inside the pool, water jumping and spilling out onto the cement outside.
You laughed as you wrestled with the person nearest to you, struggling to keep their wet hands away from you by getting them even more wet.
The sounds of screams and laughter erupted throughout the entire backyard , soon becoming louder than the music that was already on full blast.
-
When the screaming and splashing of water died down, you all hopped out of the pool, everyone’s bellys hungry for whatever food that was lying around.
The hot summer air hit your body in a way that made you shiver as you wrapped yourself inside of the large beach towel you used to dry yourself with.
The grill smoked and smelled of burning charcoal as Steve fried up some burgers and hot dogs for everyone, looking like a father as he placed a hand on his hip and held a pair of tongs in the other.
You looked at him, sitting on the wooden bench of your table, giggling at his actions of fighting with Dustin and Max over if 2 hot dogs was the limit or if everyone could have any amount they wanted.
“Buncha dummies aren't they?” Someone commented, a presence looming over you at the same time.
Tilting your head up, you only see the outline of dark frizzy hair, the shadows of the sun on his back making the rays of light change direction and hit your eyes. Squinting you hold a hand to your brows, a makeshift visor so you can properly look into the person in front of you.
Eddie, with already half dried hair but body still scattered with droplets of water that rushed down his chest and arms. The sight of him was normal to you, having seen his physique for years but ever since your stupid crush developed, even looking at him made you shiver.
“Got that right.” You reply, looking into his brown eyes. Puppy dogs eye if you ever had to describe them, always wide and full of hope.
He chuckles at your reply, sitting down next to you, his bare knees touching yours, before handing you something.
“Here. Since I ruined the other one.”
You look down to his hand, noticing a vibrantly colored wrapper. You grab the object, the cold of it settling in your hand before fumbling around and grabbing it by the napkin it was wrapped in.
A red white and blue popsicle.
You smiled at him before thanking him for redeeming himself by buying you a new one.
“Least I could do. I mean after I did that.” Another laugh escaping from his lips, the noise sounding so sweet and sincere
“Better be the last time.” You joke, playfully punching his chest for “revenge.” Eddie, ever the dramatic, grasped your hand, yelling in fake agony about how dare you do this to him after he apologized. The action caused you both to break out into laughter.
A large smile was plastered onto your face as you looked into his eyes, falling deeper and deeper into them as he looked back. The last of your chuckles were let out as your senses suddenly became hyper aware of everything.
The way his strong large hands held yours, the rough pads of his fingers against the soft plush skin of your palm, how close his face suddenly was to yours. Breathe fanning into your cheek, the same as earlier. Wet knees touching, almost melting together from the heat of the summer.
An unusual aura surrounded the two of you, consuming your thoughts and lungs as you struggled to think straight. The simple action between you two, something that's been done thousands of times, suddenly felt so intimate and private now, making blood rush to your head.
“You look nice today.” Eddie suddenly told you.
And that was it. That was what sent your head spinning and heart pounding.
“Huh?” You can’t even talk, too stunned at the simple compliment. But under your circumstances it seemed like if he just told you you were the most beautiful girl he’d ever seen.
“Said you looked nice.” He repeated, sucking in a breath immediately after. You swear you saw a tinge of pink on his cheeks before convincing yourself it was your imagination.
He’d never think of you like that, right?
“Thanks.” You somehow managed to say, hand tightening its grip on the frozen treat he gave you. The hand on your knees closing into a fist as you tried to ground yourself from your thoughts.
“Hey! Food’s ready!” A voice cried out.
You quickly turn your head, happy for the distraction , you weren’t sure how much longer you’d have been able to keep looking at Eddie.
You saw Nancy, holding out a plate for you, waving her empty hand in the air to try and get your attention.
“I’m goin! Geez give me a minute,” You breathe out, rolling your eyes playfully.
“So i’m going to go-“
“Yeah yeah no worries.”
Those were the last words you exchanged with Eddie before managing to get up and walk away.
The previous events and actions played in your mind over and over again. Since when did Eddie compliment you? Well now that you think about it, often. Always bringing up how pretty you looked or how he liked your outfit whenever he’d see you, the realization made the air from your lungs leave once again. You quickly convinced yourself it wasn’t anything like that though, simply Eddie being Eddie. But since when was Eddie genuinely nice to you with words?
It all made your head hurt, spinning as you come close to a reality you want to deny, you thought you you were crazy for thinking that and blaming it on your hunger instead.
How were you going to live like this?
-
The sun started to set, its orange and purple hues laid out and colored your skin as you sat on the uncomfortable couch of your patio.
You thought back to earlier as you stared at the now calm waters. The fight had ended with everyone becoming too tired to even continue, forcing you and Eddie to call a truce so the “war” would stop. You let out a small laugh at the memory, knowing you’re probably going to look back on it again later tonight.
The cold breeze in the air meant it was getting late, everyone had already headed home. Leaving only you and Eddie, sitting together watching the fading moments of sunlight.
You were cuddled up next to the boy, his arm wrapped around you, holding you close in the cold. The heat and feeling of your bodies so near together made you recall how he had held you earlier. How gentle he was even then as he was about to betray you. How he had complimented you out of the blue, making your head and heart go nuts.
You turned to look at him, a joint in between his lips as he breathed it in. The cold air made his cheeks and nose slightly pink, his still bare chest as cold and hard as a rock. He looked beautiful.
The sight caused your cheeks to heat up once again. His pink lips parted as he let the puff of smoke out, tilting his head back as he did. The image made your stomach drop, that feeling that you’d been getting around him for the past few months returned. It was a feeling you could only describe as longing. You wanted nothing more than to grab him by the jaw and kiss him till you couldn’t breathe.
But you couldn’t. Eddie was your best friend, one wrong move and you might end up ruining everything. So you did nothing, leaving your heart aching each waking moment you shared with him. You didn’t realize you were staring until he saw you looking up at him, as if he had hung the moon and stars himself.
“Want some sweetheart?” He asked, his voice rough and gravely from the hit he had taken, the smell of the marijuana filled your nostrils and you wanted to back away. But you almost dismissed it entirely, the pet name he had given you made your chest tighten, the same feeling from earlier returning tenfold.
You felt absolutely crazy with your internal feelings. You’d known the boy for more than 12 years, watched him grow and mature in front of your eyes. Every passing moment you share with him now since you’ve realized your feelings towards him is just you constantly digging your own grave, falling deeper and deeper in love with the boy in front of you. And there was nothing you could do about it.
You made a small disgusted face, acting as if you didn’t feel what you had just felt. “I don’t think I can stomach it right now, my head hurts like a bitch.” You tell him, politely declining his offer. He shrugs at your excuse, putting the drug out on the nearby ashtray he had.
The radio played silently in the background, some Beatles or Queen song playing softly as the loud cicadas sang in the nearby trees. Everything felt good. The comfortable silence in the air soothed you, the feeling of your intertwined legs felt no different than how he held you when you watched horror movies with him. But from today’s incident, when the slightest touch of his knee to yours made you almost pass out, you don’t know how you’re still conscious right now.
The peaceful quiet was soon interrupted by Eddie, who suddenly stood up. The towel that wrapped your bodies together slipped off him and he left your once warm body, freezing.
“Hey, what’re you-“ you tried to ask him, before he suddenly dived back into the pool.
You sat there shocked, mouth open and eyes wide as you watched him slowly rise to the surface. He laid back against the water, spreading his arms and legs as if he was laying on his bed, and let out a sigh.
You giggled at his motion, crawling off the uncomfortable piece of furniture before walking to the edge of the pool.
“It’s cold Eds, why’re you back in?” You asked, slowly bending down to your knees, placing your hands in the water near his leg.
“Bored.” He simply responded, fixing himself so his body was in the water and only his head was out, looking at you.
“Gonna ruin your hair y’know, chlorine makes it all stiff.” You tell him, running a hand through the wet mop on his head.
“T’s already ruined, heat gets it frizzier than usual.” He responds, a goofy smile on his lips.
“Doesn’t mean you still can’t try to take care of it.”
He lets out a huff of a laugh at your comment. You let one out as well in response.
The two of you grew quiet, the splish splash of the ripples from the water repeatedly hitting the pools walls along with the radio playing blended in perfectly together.But you notice the song on the radio has changed. Some cheesy love song you couldn't exactly make out, talking about loving someone for so long, not knowing what to do without them.
The sky at last turned purple, all lights turning on, reflecting on the water's surface. The reflection of his shadow and yours in the pond beneath you, the cold wind hitting your warm cheeks, breathes coming from each of your mouths could be heard, almost as if you were both panting from running a marathon. The blood rushed throughout your body faster than before, something started to change in the aura of the night, similar to the one you had experienced earlier, as he cuffed the wrist of your hand that ran fingers through his hair.
His own started touching the spare one that was placed on the ledge, keeping you balanced, soon bringing it to intertwine with his. The popcorn pattern of the rocks left your skin dented with details, his own feeling so soft against yours.
The feeling returned for a fourthtime that day, your record for feeling this silly crush inside for less than 24 hours.
But it felt different this time, this time you stared into his eyes and didn’t look away as the pit inside you grew and grew faster. The air held a tension and feeling like if you were in the clouds, floating on pure ecstasy. The imaginary drug in your mind made you feel more confident, your arms almost starting to shake in nervousness and excitement as you finally decided, you were going to tell him how you felt. Right now.
Years of friendship are to be thrown out the window in this single moment.
You paused, remembering your favorite times with him. Cheering him up after he lost the talent show in 4th grade, him asking you out to the Snow Ball while you were sobbing in his arms after your crush rejected you earlier that day, staying late for several nights on the phone just to hear each other's voices. All memories that played a crucial part in your relationship, all memories that made you feel closer to him, all memories that just made you fall deeper in love with him without realizing it.
“Eds-“ you started, but were cut off immediately by him.
“Song reminds me of you.” He told you suddenly and simply, as if he were telling you about the weather, though a slight tremor in his voice as he did.
You were stunned. You stopped breathing, your eyes went wide once again, you felt your knees go weak even as you were sitting. You looked at him, hoping that what he said was a prank. But you realized it wasn’t.
His hand trembled in anticipation, but not from the cold. His cheeks were red, and his eyes had the same longing you held deep inside you.
You couldn’t breathe, either from excitement or nervousness. You wanted to lunge yourself into his arms, to hold him, to kiss him. But you didn’t, instead you waited and tried to test the waters before you didn anything else.
You were finally able to catch your breath, trying to relax yourself and body, giving him a soft smile before breaking your silence as he stared at you anxiously, worried of your reaction.
“Reminds me of you too.”
His once faded smile grew wide on his lips as the words hit his ears, the hand holding yours gripped you even tighter, and his heart was going a thousand per minute and he wanted to shout in joy.
“R-really?” He stuttered out, the same stupid smile on his face as he asked.
“Yes,” you giggled. Nervousness and excitement crept up inside of you all at once, unsure of what to do at the sudden mutual confession. Moving your hands you start to caress his cheek, trusting whatever instinct your body had, in order to try and calm him down from his racing heartbeat. Your body bends over the pool, the light illuminating your face as you stretch yourself closer to Eddies face and over the body of water.
He moves your intertwined hands, letting them go so you can grab a hold of both of his cheeks.
You smile at him as you move them, scared but yet so confident in your movements, but not realizing that he was grabbing your shoulders and pulling you down even further and closer to him.
So close that your lips were almost touching. You tried to lean it to him, finally going for the kiss you’ve been waiting for forever.
Until you felt yourself slip and get pulled down.
The water wrapped around your body the same time his arms wrapped around your waist once again. The action ruining the sincere moment, reminding you of how he had thrown you in a similar matter earlier that day.
“Eddie!” You gasp, grabbing his shoulder as soon as you come back up. Your body trembling in the cold, your clothes you had changed into now soaking wet. “Really? Again?!”
He laughed at your frustration and you rolled your eyes.
“Never mind I take it back! You’re only my friend!” You say, starting to swim away from him.
He snorts at your comment, “No baby, come back!” He says between laughs, grasping your wrist and pulling you towards him, the cold water wading against your body causing you to comply
You roll your eyes at him once you're back in his arms. Looking at him with half lidded eyes,your face painted with fake annoyance, he swears he could die from the love he feels.
“Liked you since I met you,” He tells you, voice barely a whisper. “Always loved you. Knew from the moment I saw you fighting some kid for calling me a freak, knew that I was folding into your arms immediately. Tried to push the feelings away but I couldn’t, you’ve got me wrapped around your finger. I‘d do anything for you.”
“I’d do anything for you too,” you tell him, gulping down on the lump in your throat. You don’t know why, but you wanted to sob. The moment you had been waiting for for so long finally arrived, and you didn't know what to do. Nights of planning and lines you’d prepared in your head if you ever told him all went out the window as he held you closer and tighter than ever before.
You couldn’t talk, in fear you’d start to cry. So instead you resumed your previous actions, bringing your hands up to his cheeks and pulling him close once again. Lips nearly touching as you lingered there for a few seconds before he pushed his head forward, closing the small gap.
His chapped lips fit perfectly against yours, you wrapped you legs around his waist as you moved your arms to embrace his shoulders, falling deeper and deeper into the kiss as you did. The lack of air made you lightheaded, and the way Eddie held you, so sweet and so tenderly, was the cause of your tears to finally escape from your eyes and you felt relief. Years of longing and pinning for each other were finally over, you couldn’t help but feel so overwhelmed that it made you cry.
Your tears mixed with the flavor of him and the bitter taste of weed he had previously been smoking made you feel dizzy. You felt intoxicated with his taste,his touch, everything about him in that moment made you think he was the only thing that mattered, that even existed.
You finally managed to pull away, gasping for air as you rested your head between his shoulder and neck, letting out breathy laughs as you tried to slow your heart down.
“Wanted to do that forever now.” You heard Eddie laugh out, the comment making you squeeze him tighter. He laid his chin atop your head, a hand coming up to brush your hair to soothe you.
“Did I live up to the expectations?” You ask as a joke, trying to calm your beating heart from
“Even better, babe.” He replies, and you swear you can tell he had his same old stupid smile plastered on his face.
The water surrounded your bodies, becoming warm in a way that almost felt like a blanket as you were held in your friend's arms. Almosting drifting off into sleep from the calmness of the scene. His scent invaded your senses as it had always when you’d get near him, but it was different this time. It had changed and you loved it more than you already had before.
“Remember when we’d swim every day that one summer? Your parents would get pissed at the amount of water we’d manage to get out of the pool, I remember how mad you used to get when I’d splash you.” Eddie started to talk, hands rubbing up and down your back, as if he could kneed your skin into his own.
“Yeah, I still do. You never listen though, ass.” You say in response, a teasing tone in your voice.
He throws his head back in a laugh, looking down to see your eyes.
“How’s today going? Good or Bad?”
You smile at his question. You always ranked your summer days, and he’d always listen. You’ve had this same silly tradition since the 7th grade, and he remembered them all.
“I think it’s going okay, my friends came over and I got thrown in the pool. That’s about it.” You tell him in an uninterested tone, shrugging at the end.
“Sounds boring” He looked at you with lovesick eyes, the same as you look at him now, letting a laugh escape you and one from him in return.
It was simple, sweet, the moment between you two. You had expected for it to either all backfire or for it to be something extravagant like in the movies when the heroine confesses her feelings for the love interest with the most calm and collected additude, but it wasn’t.
It didn’t need to be anything elaborate, didn’t need to be too simple. It just needed to be the two of you, that’s what made it perfect.
-
The sun rose once again, making its way into your room through the thin curtains. It’s light blinded you, hitting your eyes the same as it had yesterday. You felt warm, even though you knew the AC was on. Its loud noises shook your windowsill slightly as it let out the cold air.
Dazed and still asleep, you try to move but are stuck beneath something. You move your head, a figure of frizz and a man next to you. Then you remembered everything from the night before. How you and Eddie confessed your love for one another. How you fell asleep in each other's arms, relishing in the new found happiness of the drastic change in your dynamic. And there he still was.
All cuddled up beside you, Eddie's face between your neck and shoulder. Snoring loudly into your ear, arm resting against your chest.
Bliss spread throughout your body, the aching butterflies of longing you’d felt for almost 2 years now were replaced with those of excitement. You felt so happy, so caught up in this small moment between you two that you almost forgot about the entire reason who woke up.
The sound of people knocking on your front door is what caused you to jolt awake. The sound came every 10 seconds, and you knew, it was Eddie's children.
You moved out of bed unwillingly, sad to leave your , boyfriends? Best friends?, arms to go open up the door.
You heard Dustin shout your name from outside on your way down the stairs, “C’mon it’s hot as balls!”
You rolled your eyes as you unlocked the door, hearing Max and Mike argue with him on how weird and gross he was for saying that.
“What do you want you little shits?” You asked the second you opened the door, obviously pissed they ruined your morning with the boy upstairs.
They all turned to your direction in realization of your presence, holding up towels and goggles with large smiles on their faces.
You sighed, rolling your eyes once again. “Alright, c’mon.”
-
The water was back on the cement floor of your backyard, the sound of people yelling and laughing hit your ears as you stood holding a red white and blue popsicle once again. The bright hot summer sun hits your skin, warming you up and causing your favorite frozen treat to warm as well.
The cold syrup rushes down your hand as it melts, leaving a blue stain on your hands all over again. You hiss, looking to the table near you for a napkin, hoping that they weren’t wet, only to realize you hadn’t even brought any outside.
You almost start to panic, you were too wet to go inside and you didn’t even have a towel to waddle underneath your feet to not ruin the wooden floors of the inside.
But those worries were brought to an end as you felt a hand on your back. You look up to see Eddie, a large smile on his face as he hands you the paper towel you desperately needed.
“Thanks.” You say, rising to your tiptoes and giving him a small peck on the lips. The small action of affect caused everyone nearby to look at you two.
“Woah Munson! Finally got her?” Robin chuckled, hands around her mouth mimicking a megaphone as she spoke.
You blushed at the comment and your eyes went wide, having forgot no one knew about this new situation other than the two of you. Eddie however, didn’t mind.
He grabbed you by the shoulders, pulling you closer and yelling in a victorious manner, ”She’s stuck with me forever now!”
Robin wolf whistled in response and at the sight of seeing you two so close. Everyone else seemed to have screamed the words of “Finally!” “Watching you two was painful.” It was embarrassing, but you liked it. The fact that you and Eddie’s feelings were all out in the open made you feel safe, and you loved how your friends accepted it.
Of course the sudden shift in your relationship was going to be somewhat difficult to navigate in your daily lives for a while, but at least you'll have him with you through the entire thing.
You chuckled at all their reactions, looking into Eddie’s eyes. He looked back. The same lovesick expression from last night stuck on each of your faces as you wrapped your arms around his waist, happy to finally keep close in front of everyone.
You knew that everyday was going to be a good summer day, as long as you’re with him.
- Fin
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Again (Steven Grant x fem!reader )
(photo not mine, will remove if asked!)
Summary: After going on many failed dates, you give Steven a chance.
Warnings: Not-proofread, Fluff? idk what to call this, mentions of bad past relationships, men r trash but Steven
A/n: This is like not my best so please be nice 😭 Idk where I was going with this but i kinda like how it turned out. Loosely based off of the song We’ll Never Have Sex. I hope yall like it and if you have any tips on how i can improve my writing PLEASE be kind and leave them down below :)
The wind howled outside as you sat at the table, staring at the falling rain from the window. The leaves flying in the wind as your eyes followed them made nothing in the moment seem real.
I’m screwed.
You thought, acknowledging the fact you didn’t have an umbrella nor coat suitable enough to protect you from the harsh winds. The sudden storm caught you off guard, reminding you that you forgot to check the weather before leaving home. You cursed yourself as you slumped down, laying your head in your hands, asking yourself why you were even in this god forsaken restaurant in the first place.
It’s because men are horrible beings , you reminded yourself. Or are you just too weak? You were always getting into relationships and situations where they’d throw you around, use you when they wanted to be satisfied , always only called upon when it met their own convenience. And you never once said anything, always glad you were the slightest bit wanted.
Then one day you got sick of it, casted out every man who you deemed unworthy and disgusting. But that lead you to soon realize it was easier to get out of these situations rather than stopping yourself from getting in them.
Poor old Y/n, always too nice to say no to a guy. ‘He might be better than the last!’ you always tell yourself. Only to be left high and dry in the end , like always.
Today was no different.
You were being set up with some guy through a friend, she said he seemed nice enough for you so you took a chance and you agreed to a blind date. Now you were sitting alone, in a restaurant far from home, stuck in a storm.
“Knew I shouldn’t have come.” You whispered to yourself. Grabbing your things to go before the bell of the door suddenly rung. The winds outside roared as someone pushed himself through and into the quite establishment.
“Woah!” He half yelled, half awkwardly chuckled at the same time. Dripping from head to toe, he stood at the entrance and started to shake his hair off. Grabbing napkins, he began to pat himself down as best as he could.
You stared in astonishment, realizing that that was the man you had been waiting for. Looking exactly like the pictures your friend had sent you. For some reason, you had half the mind to want to yell. But the other half wanted to laugh loudly at him. All you did was sit in place, contemplating on what you should do or say to the wet man at the door when or if he walks up to you.
And just on cue, he looked up and around the restaurant as you thought of him. Your mind starting to race as you grabbed your phone, pretending to be on it and praying he had not seen you staring.
The squelching of his shoes was heard as he made his way to you. Your heart beating faster and faster as he got closer. Then the wet noises finally stopped, and you looked up.
There he stood in front of you. A man with an awkward but handsome smile whose jacket and jeans were dripping wet. His hands fidgeting with the paper he was previously using to dry himself with, he asked “A-Are you Y/n?”
You stared at him, surprised at how attractive he actually was in real life. Something about him and his aura almost put you in a trance as you took him and his entireness in. You wanted to look away but couldn’t. The noise of a nearby notification going off is what brought you back to reality.
“Oh! Uhm yes, I am. Steven right? Please, sit! I’m sure it was freezing outside, let’s order you something warm yeah?” You finally responded , extending your hand out to the seat across from yours, urging him to sit down.
“Yes! and a-alright then.” He said in a slightly shocked and nervous tone. He slowly took a seat, taking off his jacket to reveal a complete dry shirt.
“Quite the weather we’re having, huh?” You commented, glancing outside and back at him, trying to set up a conversation.
“Yeah, came outta of nowhere! Was waitin’ for my bus and before I knew it i was drippin’” He started, “thankfully I had my jacket and was able to keep the better half of me dry.”
The way he spoke so excitedly made you want to giggle. ‘ Cute’ you thought. “Yeah, I hadn’t seen today’s forecast so I was caught off guard, horrible.” You said.
“It’s not quite horrible, let’s you remember that nature can always surprise you even if you think you know it all.” He tells you in a somewhat solemn manner.
“You big about that stuff? Nature and how life works?” You ask, curious on his slight change in tone.
“Oh me? Not really, I just yknow- Somethin’ I like to think about some times.” A ghost of a smile appears on his lips at the end.
Something about the action and manner of how he spoke made you want him to talk forever, even though you’d just met him. Strange, you thought . But payed it no mind.
You stayed quiet for longer than you’d intended, realizing an awkward silence was slowly creeping into the conversation you wanted to build.
“Oh so , Museum! My friend knows you from her job there right? Why’d you start working there?” You spoke ,wanting to know more about the man in front of you hoping that he would answer with some type of energy he previously had brought.
“Well you see, I actually love Egyptian Mythology! And the place I work at has an exhibition of all that sorts of stuff, I enjoy telling people about the stories of each artifact and how the ancient civilization used them. I find it to be interesting.” Steven said, so enthusiastically it almost stunned you. You’d never met a man who answered that question correctly, let alone so happily.
“Really? Personally, I don’t know much about that stuff but I’ve always admired how advanced such an ancient civilization was.” You wanted to urge him on, to have him to express his interest more to you. Seemed like a good conversation starter. “I usually like the stories in all that type of stuff, what’s your favorite?” You asked.
Steven looked shocked that you asked that question. He starred at you almost dumbfoundedly,and a spark in his eyes lit up. The slouched position of his shoulders soon perked up, his back straightening as he brought his hands up when he began to talk.
He spoke with such excitement , every word and description he told lured you in and made you feel as if you were there. He told you stories after stories and how they all connected to each other. He explained how a certain artifact was used during the mummification process, how or why they stored certain things, inventions and their uses.
This man in front if you shared so much information you didn’t even know one person could hold. The way every word flowed so easily out of his mouth seemed as if he had rehearsed how he was going to say them hours beforehand. It all drew you closer and closer to him, the entire time you listened to his rambling. More than half an hour had past and you still wanted more.
-
When Steven had arrived and you two had gotten to talking, it was around sunset. But now, the wind and rain settled, and the moon had come out. Shining behind parting clouds and illuminating the outside , the two of you continued to talk. About anything and everything.
You had found out Steven actually worked the gift shop, and was not a tour guide like you had originally thought . You told him that he’d be an amazing one, how he should stick up for himself and tell his boss he deserved that position! This lead to a conversation about annoying supervisors from old jobs, then to favorite restaurants, to old childhood memories, and the list went on and on.
He was unlike any man you had met. He actively engaged in the conversation, never once bragged about himself, respected when it was your turn to speak. In the few short hours you’d known him, you felt as if you’d actually known him forever.
When it was time for you both to leave, you thought he’d go his own separate way but he stayed with you. On the bus, every walk to the next stop. He held the doors for you, payed for both of your fairs every ride, he had even given you his jacket when you had commented on how cold it was. He was such a gentleman and you felt a fool to have fallen so fast. Every word you continued to exchange made you happier and feel as if you could explode from it.
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“My stop is the next one actually, I had a great time Steven, honestly .” You told him, getting up and beginning walking to the doors to soon exit.
“Really? Mine is too! Mind if I walk with you?” He soon followed after you. Running along like a puppy after it’s owner.
A giddy feeling arose as you giggled at his action, now more comfortable around him. “Of course” You replied, a smile on you lips.
Steven blushed, he found your laugh to be cute.
The two of you continued your walk home. After finding out Steven lived to the right and you the left, you told him to go ahead and go home. That you could walk by yourself and be safe, but he insisted that he should drop you off because “one never knows.”
The action made you beyond happy. Realizing a date had never walked you home before. Steven was beyond kind and charming that you had completely forgotten about your past , how a man who did want to walk you home just wanted one thing after.
You almost stopped at the realization, anxiety beginning to creep up and consume you. The thought that Steven might only be putting on the whole nice guy act was to make you swoon and probably allow him to sleep with you made you sick . You hated the fact you’d have to turn him down, after he had been so kind the entire evening.
He seemed so nice too, you thought. But then again, you had just met him.
You sighed as you arrived to your flat, standing outside the doors and looking up to the sky. The guilt of having to reject Steven became too real and it made you want to cry.
“Y/n? You alright, love?” He asked, noticing you were away in your thoughts. He noticed your now uncomfortable manner and became worried. The nickname he gave you stung, you had to stop yourself from wanting to forget about your pride and wrap your arms around him. It almost physical pained you with the fact you had to use harsh words to turn down what you thought to be a kind man.
“Did I do somethin’, I haven’t been talking too much have I? “
Taking a deep breathe, you turn towards him and begin to do something you knew you would regret for the rest of your life.
“Okay look, tonight has been amazing. I really enjoyed your company. Hearing about all of your interests, your job, and you just being so kind in general really made me think we could go out again. But then you asked to walk me home and.. I don’t think I can allow anything beyond talking right now.” You paused, waiting for a reaction from him. But nothing, he didn’t rage at your rejection and start to scream. In fact, he’d seemed confused, worried, and interested in what you had to say. So you continued.
“A while ago I told myself to stop getting into these situations, to not allow them to continue any further where I can’t stop it. So this is me standing my ground. I’m really sorry Steven, but I can’t let you come in.” You finished.
Silence.
He starred at you, almost dumbfoundedly for the second time tonight. He was confused and didn’t understand why you’d tell him such a thing. But he repeated your words in his head, trying to piece them out and solve the meaning behind them. And he did.
Shock colored his face, and he became embarrassed.
“Oh, no! Please, I swear it is nothin’ like that! I would never do anything to disrespect you or think of you in such a way that’s improper, I mean I’ve only just met you! I would really love to talk more and get to know you much better before I could attempt such a thing.” Steven stammered over his words, trying his best to make his intentions clear. His nice and innocent intentions that you had mistaken for horrible and evil ones.
Now it was your turned to be shocked and embarrassed. You wanted to scream at yourself for being so dumb!
Stupid, stupid, stupid!
“Oh! I’m so sorry! Really, oh my god. I didn’t mean to offend you if i did, I just- assumed because its happened so many times!” You half yelled, trying to explain to him your actions. You were on the verge of tears and wanted nothing more to crawl into a hole and die.
“No, no,no it’s alright, I swear I understand. It’s horrible that you and other women have to think like this. I just want to assure you I could never. And you might not trust me but I swear, you seem like a wonderful girl and I’d love to know more about you. Really.” He said, trying to reassure you.
You took deep breaths to try and settle down, a blush high on your cheeks as you managed to look back at the man in front of you.
“I- Thank you for.. that. I’m really terribly sorry I assumed such a thing. But, if this whole incident wasn’t too much of a red flag, maybe we can continue to talk more?” You finally were able to speak again, trying to get away from the embarrassing topic you had brought up. Though a cloud of shame still continued to hang over you.
Steven’s face lit up, “Of course, would love to.” He bashfully accepted your offered.
“Well I uh- best be on my way up, thank you, Steven. For everything.”
“Oh yeah, I need to be gettin’ home as well.”
A moment of silence. Neither of you seemed to make a move to leave. Staring into each others eyes, you felt as if something was missing. As if you left, you were to leave something unfinished.
So you made a bold move. Taking a step forward, hoping that if you did something might happen. And something did happen. He took a step too.
Now, you two were almost chest to chest. All but a few centimeters apart. Bubbles rising in your stomach as you knew the moment you were waiting for was coming closer and closer. Hope filled your chest as Steven extended his hand to your cheek, immediately melting into it as he did.
Titling your head up and forward to him, you close your eyes. Waiting. Hoping. For something, someone, to come to you.
And he did.
Soft, sweet, lips met yours.
Bliss.
The sweetest kiss a man had ever given you. You didn’t know how you’d live if you pulled away.
You melted deeper into the kiss, wanting more. Wanting him to continue further, abandoning all morals you previously had. But Steven pushed away.
You almost sighed in disappointment when he did. Opening your eyes you looked at him in confusion. He continued to hold you face in his hand, caressing your cheek with his thumb.
He did his best to resist you. Looking up at him with plump and pouty lips, he deeply wanted to respect your wishes and fought with all his power to not kiss you again and more passionately.
“Let’s wait a bit more, yeah?” He managed to whisper, his voice now raspy. It made you weak in the knees to hear him. Nodding your head, you managed to whimper out an “uh-huh.”
Steven lets go of your cheek, the warmth of his hands stays on your face as the cold wind hits you. You expect him to leave it at that, to bid you farewell and leave you there as you watch him go. But you’re wrong.
He grabs your hand, bringing it up to his lips as he bows down. You face flushes, becomes hotter than you think you can handle to the point where you might pass out. Such a simple action, but it made you almost swoon harder than the kiss.
“I’ll see you then?” He asks. Letting go of your hand, placing his own inside of his pockets.
“Yeah.” You reply, the word barely a whisper as you say it.
You don’t know how, but you managed to carry yourself inside. Opening the door without looking back, you enter the apartment complex, get inside the elevator, and inside of your home. All while a wide smile stayed on your face.
You thought about him, the kiss, and his touch. You tried to remember and keep the memory of his smell fresh in your mind, soon realizing you were still wearing his jacket.
“Oh,” You gasped, you had forgotten about it.
-
Outside, Steven Grant stayed where he was. Standing there, remembering the softness of your skin.
He smiles to himself and thinks about you. A sudden chills passes over him, the wind begins to howl as it did earlier that evening.
He suddenly becomes aware that he left his coat with you. But he doesn’t worry, nor call you and ask for it back. Instead he smiles, thinking about how he has an excuse to see you again.
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