#'follow the script'

[ajdrawshq]

how messed up it must be to go from enjoying plays to feeling like ur stuck inside one..

[lucabyte]

A belief in Nominative Determinsim

[captainfern]

Just dreaming of Gaz with a breeding kink because I want that man's babies plz.

wrote this with my pussy ngl

fem!reader x gaz, 18+

kyle’s hands wandered. trekking across the hills and plains of your body, committing the cartography to his mind. he liked to feel the warmth beneath your skin, the way the fat of your legs moved so pliantly beneath the pads of his fingers.

he liked trailing his fingers downwards, too. further down from the mounds of your kiss-swollen breasts and the softness of your belly. down, down, his own personal odyssey— except it wasn’t a decent into the underworld. it wasn’t hell he was after.

it was your pussy— glistening and slick, warm and fluttering as his eyes raked across it. across her.

the closest he could get to heaven, he often thought when his dick was painfully hard and his head was swimming with thoughts of you.

two thick fingers rubbed up and down the puffy folds of your cunt, smearing the slick. he cooed, gentle and coaxing, voice thick with the taste of cigarette smoke and mint. you knew it tasted like that since he’d had his tongue down your throat for the precious ten minutes.

now, he circled the calloused pad of his thumb across your puffy clit. he did so periodically, still stroking your pussy with two skilled fingers, up and down, spreading you apart—

as he pushed his cock into you.

whispered praise and soft coos, gaz talked you and your pussy through it. mainly her, you noted with the slightest twang of jealousy appearing in the darkest depth of your stomach. but you knew there was no point in being jealous. she and you were the same, after all.

“look at how my girl takes me,” gaz muttered, fingers splitting into a peace-sign to straddle the girth of his cock, rubbing along the stretched entrance of your cunt. he smoothed slick across himself as he edged inside. he hummed, pleased at the sight of your drooling pussy stretching wide to accommodate him. “such a sweet girl. bet she’s really looking forward to me breeding her, eh?”

that, combined with the stretch, made you moan. your hands fisted the sheets of your bed, thighs quivering against his hips. gaz, smiling now, looked up from your cunt and peered at you, eyes glassy.

“oh, i know, my pretty girl, i know,” gaz whispered, pushing the rest of his cock inside you. bottoming out, he expelled the air from your lungs and filled the base of your stomach with fizzing pleasure— a static that sat, settled, stagnated, only for it to start up when he dragged his cock out, then pushed back on.

you moaned again, and the two fingers he had on your cunt trailed upwards again. warm and wet, they pressed down onto your clit. he started rubbing slowly, eyes watching the way your facial expressions flickered from one to another.

he set a deep thrust within a hard rhythm. again and again and again, his cock moved inside you, punching up so deep. so perfectly deep, threatening to nudge the base of your cervix. your spine tingled, that fizzing pleasure carbonating your bloodstream. he was always, always so quick to get you off.

“i know,” gaz repeated as a low whimper dropped out from between your parted lips. “you want me to fill you up, don’t you? want me to breed you? breed this tight cunt, yeah?”

“mmmyeahhh—” it wasn’t exactly coherent, but you forced it out of your mouth with a bit of saliva gathering beneath the tip of your tongue.

gaz smiled down at you, the hand on your clit speeding up now. the circles he drew tightened, and you could really feel the callouses now— catching on the swollen bud with a kick of pleasure to the base of your tummy. your legs twitched, fat rippling, toes curling.

his free hand held him up half-over you. his lean muscles flexed and tensed as he rocked himself against you, cock shifting in and out. your slick dribbled out of you, soaking the inside of your thighs and the trimmed patch of hair at the base of gaz’s cock. you could smell it in the air, too.

“gaz,” you moaned out for him, tummy drawing tight. “gaz, please.”

“please, what?” he chastised, teeth flashing through the cockiness of his grin. he looked so hot that you couldn’t even be mad for the attitude.

you blew out a breath, trying to steady your racing heart. “please come inside me. want you to fill me up.”

“yeah?” he groaned, blood boiling hot with pleasure. his release was already sitting, waiting, in the very base of his stomach, balls twitching and ready to empty inside your perfect pussy. “want me to breed you? want me to pump you full of my kids?”

“yes!” you all but chanted, your own voice echoing around your head like the blast of a pipe organ in an empty cathedral. although, what you were doing was less than devout. “kyle, baby, please come inside me— fuck, fuck, fuck—!”

you came around his cock without much warning. the fizzing in your belly overflowed all of a sudden, bursting over the precipice of your climax and flooding through you. your body trembled, warming up. slick drooled out from the entrance of your cunt, the thrusts of his cock making a mess of your groin and thighs.

gaz groaned, screwing his eyes shut. he focused on the feel of your tight, wet cunt around the thick of his cock, and the way it squeezed him. he focused on the melodic whimpers and whines being strung out from your mouth, and the way your breathing had picked up. he focused on the image he had drawn in his head of you, his beautiful wife, pregnant with his kid, belly fat and round, tits huge—

“oh, fucking hell,” he moaned, dropping his head. “ah, fuck, f-fuck, baby, oh my fucking god— ‘m gonna come, ‘m gonna come.”

his thrusts were sloppy as he ran out of steam. but you could feel, in your blissed state, the throbbing of his cock, hot and ready inside you.

“take it all, baby,” gaz whined out. “need you to take it all, okay? need to breed you so bad. need to stuff this tight cunt full’a my babies. need to breed you an’ make you a mama—”

he came with a guttural groan and, like a good girl, you took it all.

he plugged his cock up as deep as he could get it, a tight bottoming out, as he emptied himself inside of you. you could almost feel it sloshing directly into your womb, and the thought had your cunt clench around his gently softening girth.

“gaz…” you mewled as he dropped his body weight on top of you, his mouth immensely resuming his earlier exploration, sucking and biting at the sensitive skin across your chest and breasts.

“if you’re gonna ask me to pull out, the answer is no,” he said jokingly, but his undertone was serious enough that it almost turned you on. maybe you had a problem. he nuzzled your throat. “gotta lay like this for ten minutes. let it soak in.”

“that’s… not how it works.”

“trust me,” he lifted his head to kiss your cheek lovingly. “i know how my pussy works.”

you rolled your eyes. “you mean my pussy.”

“i said what i said.”

[rad-batson]

The Waynes - TV Pilot (Part 1 of 4)

Logline: In an effort to appear as harmless celebrities, billionaire Bruce Wayne hires a reality TV crew to document his family members' chaotic lives. (Part 2)

Part 2 Part 3 and Part 4 are up now!!!!

Did I get a B.A. in Creative Writing for this? Maybe

Btw (O.C.) means Off-Camera so they're in the room but the camera doesn't see them!

I am working on finding the best way to upload this to AO3, but I can't promise if or when it will happen. (I also need to make a new account.) So apologies for the lack of accessibility. Screenshots are my best friend and only option right now :) Also

DO NOT REPOST WITHOUT PERMISSION (THIS OBVIOUSLY TOOK A LOT OF TIME, I WILL BE OUT FOR BLOOD)

Part 2 is separate because I just couldn't fit all 24 pages into one post ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

(And for those wondering why I'm saying 24 pages instead of 50 like I said originally, it's because my FULL pilot is actually two episodes made to fill an hour block.)

[splitpierrot]

saw a take on bedman so bad i had to make this

(*yeah i know we dont know his age but imo hes prolly not much older than delilah)

[nathanbellamy]

I'm not another wounded creature for your collection, Charles. I don’t need to be fixed.

Giffing notable moments from the xmen scripts, pt 8

(*, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 9, 10, 11)

[roberrtphilip]

There's an awkward "first date" silence between them, the kind that suggests there isn't going to be a "second". Giselle tries her best to keep the conversation going.

[mspoodle1]

*ignore the crunchy bag* This is proof of concept to see if I could get it working. 😋

So...has anyone been able to successfully clone the University backpack and make it show up in game/function?

I tried working on this in 2015ish and never got this far with it. (I do visit old projects from time to time) This time I got a default replacement to work. But I have no idea how that would affect the npc backpack that also use/spawn. Not sure if the mesh is pulled from the main file because there are 14 other versions of the same backpack. The developers did this really strange for sure. (we won't talk about the geostates) The XML just says how it numbers the bags 1-14 and chooses randomly for the npcs to wear at University.

Anyone have any ideas? Or who to ask?

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Jin Ling: Master Sleuth

[First] Prev <–-> Next

[spooksicl-e]

“a proper, manly embrace.”

edit:

[thekittyokat]

you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

[marzipanilla]

lol I did it first

[circeyoru]

Following The Script

[Human & Demon!Alastor x Isekai!Reader]

Similar Storyline: {Surprise, Surprise, I’m Here to Watch}

**Assume that Hazbin Hotel was completed and basically a lot of the characters’ back stories and endings were revealed. This is basically like those manhwas where you get isekaied to a novel/show/game that you know the ending to and stuff

You didn’t think it would happen but it did. You were isekaied. At first you didn’t know where you were, you assumed you went back in time since there was nothing funny about your new surroundings. That’s until you met him. Alastor, The Radio Demon, in child form

Oh he’s so cute!

Anyways, not surprised that you ended up in your favourite pastime show Hazbin Hotel. It was a long and tiring road, but you kept up with everything. Especially Alastor’s side of things since he was and is your favourite of favourites

The moment you knew where and when you were, you got to work. First deciding whether you want to be in Heaven or Hell after your death. You didn’t want to return to your world or go through the trouble of ‘accepting these characters are real’, they were real to you the moment you loved the show!

On one hand, in Heaven, you could rise in ranks and perhaps help Charlie beforehand and even travel down to Hell to talk to Lucifer, plus there was Emily, the sweet bean. But Hell was where majority of your favourites are. Guess, Hell it was

You took a page from Alastor’s book, to be a wolf in sheep’s clothing. You know what types of power you want and you cheated your way out of the system, all to prepare yourself to be a powerful demon in Hell

You were in a well-earned and respectful family, not extremely wealthy but there was power and money to flant, so you used that. Unlike Alastor, you weren’t much of a direct killer type, you prefer something else. Like poison or sickness. Times are behind now, so you got away with everything

Speaking of the demon or boy as he is now, you made friends with him. His backstory was tragic and sad, reliant on his lovely mother while hatred for his father. You somehow became his source of light as well, through your kindness and assertiveness. Well, your mental age was well developed, after all, so even without manipulation on your part, things would go your way

Until they didn’t. Your expertise in law and persuasion got you a scholarship away from home. A feet your parents were proud of, they immediately got plans to move away! Anything to be a stepping stone on your path to success

The issue was telling Alastor that you’re leaving for who knows how long. Easy to say, he didn’t take it all too well. It was like a truck hit him, and stray dogs were eating his remains alive. You still weren’t used to seeing him without smiles and all that. Guilt plagued you, you had promised to be by his side, yet here you are, leaving on such short notice

The two of you promised to meet again, exchanging letters in the meantime to update the other on what happened. You kept an eye out on Alastor’s situation since it would be around this time that his killing urges started. His first victim was indeed his father

Unknown to you, it wasn’t. His first kill was the young lad that had a crush on you. That boy followed you around like a lost pup, that thing was threatening your closeness with him. So he couldn’t help it. One day, he brought his prey to the forest and had a taste of first blood

The thought came to him, the next should be his ridiculous excuse of a father, but he can’t when you’re around. His father’s bad treatment of him was what led you to stick around him, even let him stay at your place. There were maybe some uses of that man

Not anymore, not when you were far away, not when your only communication was through letters that he had to wait forever to receive one. Not when the mistreatment got worse

He somehow hoped that you’d return to comfort him for his loss. It didn’t happen. Nothing changed. You didn’t return, not even during long holidays or when he told you he had gotten famous and loved as a radio host

He would have hated you if not for the last news that you passed away during the beginning of the Great Depression by some low life that robbed and killed you and your family. He thought he didn’t need you since you had been away, but he couldn’t stop that feeling of dread when realization hit him that you were gone as he prepared for the news to report on his radio show

The fated year of 1933 came, Alastor’s death year. You formed bonds with Rosie and built a name for yourself in Hell. You were waiting for Alastor’s arrival. His fall into Hell and his appearance as the newest Overlord was one that you waited so long to see for yourself, you couldn’t reveal yourself just yet, you had to see for yourself

And what a show he performed. He did not disappoint! “Alastor! That was amazing!” You approached his giant form while clapping your hands like a child at the end of a play. You have no fear since this was Alastor, if need be, you can escape

How. How did you know who he was? His title was established but not his name. Who was this lowly sinner to approach him? He tried intimidation, that didn’t work

“Come on, you don’t recognize me?” You questioned, giving him your signature look to see if it jogs his memory, if it doesn’t you’ll just lea—

“My darling doe?” Alastor’s eyes widened at the nickname that came out of his lips. It was you and you were in Hell? But you were an angel to him! What could have led you astray? Was it after you left him? What vermin tainted you?

“What’s with all that voodoo symbol around you for, you mad about something?” You questioned as you got close to his darkened face. While it was creepy and scary to some, you didn’t shiver in a bad way. “Hell to Alastor? Anyone home?”

It was your turn to freeze and malfunction as Alastor wrapped his arms around you in a hug, the shadows formed a dome around you two as he buried his face between your neck and shoulder. “How I’ve waited for this. I thought you were in Heaven.”

That’s right, Alastor never knew how twisted you were because you kept it under wraps, you never told him because you wanted his childhood to be a happier one, different from the show. You knew you’d see him again but he never knew and thought the worse. You hugged him back slowly, “I did some bad things and made some evil choices, Al. But I’m happy to see you are well.”

Once the two of you got over the wondrous reunion, all hell broke loose. Alastor’s name spread far and wide, dominating the weak and instilling fear. Deals were made here and there while you watched with pride and excitement. The last of his commitment was his relationship with you, a couple, to be bound to each other. Different from contracts, it was a binding link between the heart

Well, he already stole your heart before you were here, so. Yes, absolutely, definitely

It didn’t smooth you during his 7 years of disappearance. You couldn’t interfere because part of the plot centered around it, similar to how you wouldn’t change the fact that Adam will order for an earlier extermination. Even when you were an angel in Heaven, you can’t change those things

Unlike the stories, you liked the way Hazbin Hotel told its plotline and all the characters. You didn’t want a thing to change. You have the power to change, but you didn’t, you could have removed what others’ were suffering from, but you didn’t. ‘Evil choices’, you did it all for your favourite characters to exist and form bonds with each other

You could have spared Husk the deal made with Alastor, but that wouldn’t teach him to be who he is and help Angel later on. You could have saved Vaggie from losing her eye and wings, but that wouldn’t let her meet Charlie and see a change in sinners. You could have warned Lucifer but that removes Charlie’s drama with him. You could have helped or warned Alastor of his death and that deal he hated but you let him go on his disappearance so he’d return with a purpose and not pure entertainment

Sometimes, even with the romantic relationship you have with Alastor and the friendships you shared with everyone else, you still feel out of place and foreign. Like you don’t belong. You do wonder, what if you turned the world into chaos and watched them all dance? Would that satisfy you?

Alastor noticed that distant look in your eyes when you were left to your own devices. He caught that look even when the two of you were alive. You’d stare with the boredest look in your eyes like you knew what would happen and that spark of interest would only remain for at most a minute. That look you had intensified after his return. How dull was the world through your eyes?

When he returned from his disappearance, he expected you to yell or question him, yet you didn’t and welcomed him back like he returned from a late night of destruction. Almost like you knew. But he didn’t have time to ask or explore it. His freedom came first

Oh, he didn’t even know you were slowly slipping away from his grasp. If only he was more entertaining to the supreme being that knew all

Note: Hahahahaa! I'll let this down! Next time I'll ask if the person is not anonymous for the request. If it's anonymous, I'll just take it as it asked or I switch it up with something I can write.

Circe Y.

MASTERLIST

[tangledinink]

"Hey-- it's alright. You're okay. No. It's just us here, I swear. It's just the two of us. No one's gonna tell her. It's okay-- No, you did good! You did fine, Dee, you didn't even do anything bad-- you gotta breathe, hermano, come on--"

look, i would have loved to have let the gemini go enjoy that robot dinosaur with their new friends. :/ sadly the requirements were not met for that timeline so donnie has to get overstimulated and have a panic attack instead. bummer.

[sumwan]

I'm not sure how many people know about this, but the entire script for the Green Festival was actually shown in Tommy's DSMP tribute video from last year. It seems to have been written by Dream (it mentions "I" at some point when referring to Dream), and it's pretty interesting to see how they planned out the lore streams and what changed in the actual streams.

Transcription can be found under the cut.

Transcription The festival is happening. Fundy, Tubbo, Quackity, Ranboo, Niki, and anyone else that is generally around lmanburg can attend. Everyone starts streaming early for the festival. Before the festival starts, Quackity Tubbo and Fundy (and ranboo? I'm not sure who was there originally), have a meeting about how they're going to kill Dream.

They talk about how Dream trusts Tubbo so Tubbo is going to have to be the one to do it. That they've become sort of friends since Tommy was exiled. Tubbo agrees, still slightly doubtful that it would work. Tubbo says that Dream agreed to show up with no armor to for the first time ever, honor lmanburgs laws.

The meeting ends and they start the festival, talking about how Dream said he would be a little late.

Tommy and Techno at this point have been planning how they're going to ruin the festival (and get back Tommy's disc from Dream). They know that Dream will show up, but they don't know how they'll fight him without him escaping. (Ranboo finds them on the outskirts of lmanburg and tells them that Dream agreed to show up in no armor? possibly?) That sparks that they can hide around lmanburg and ambush Dream when he's at the festival. Tommy and Techno improv and mess around while trying to build an "ambush spot" (all of this is sort of unimportant to the plot so can be adjusted to make funnier/better streams for those two).

Tommy and Techno start streaming about 30 minutes after the others.

After some festival activities have been done, Dream shows up in full armor, placing obsidian again in a wall formation. Everyone sees him and runs over confused about what's happening.

They hop in a call with dream (techno and tommy join too but tell eachother to be quiet before joining.) Dream starts screaming about what Tommy did and how he really screwed up this time (tommy is kind of afraid and is looking at techno for assurance), and everyone is confused about what Tommy did, especially tubbo. Dream yells about the fact that Tommy destroyed the community house, the longest standing structure on the server, and how he has to pay for it. Quackity and the others don't believe it and decide to go look with Dream. (Techno and Tommy follow stealthily behind (invis), no one should see them).

Sapnap and anyone else from the original Dream SMP can log on now or already be on and come over to see. (Awesam, Callahan, George(probably not), Sapnap, BadBoyHalo, Punz)

They stand in front of the shattered remains and everyone is shocked that Tommy would do this, and upset. Everyone is insisting that Tommy really screwed up and that it's horrible.

Tubbo agrees but insists that he and lmanburg had nothing to do with it. Dream says that as long as Tubbo has one of the discs, he has everything to do with Tommy. Tubbo seems shocked and thinks about what Dream said. All of the Dream SMP original members agree and are talking about how he should give it so they can burn it once and for all. Tubbo is reluctant but seems to agree that Tommy keeps doing things that would put lmanburg in danger, so he doesn't want association.

He seems like he is about to give the disc, so Tommy reveals himself (techno too) and gets into a screaming match with Tubbo about it.

--Tommy and tubbo fill in what happens here, but it's a big argument and fight probably mostly improv-

Eventually after both nearly dying, Tommy realizes that he's fighting his best friend and stops. Tubbo is angry and gives the disc quickly to Dream, saying that it's just a stupid disc. Tommy is hurt by that but realizes that he's been blinded and has lost friends because of it. Tommy realizes that Dream now has both of his discs, and that they're back at square one.

Dream has an evil speech about how Tubbo is an idiot and that he never should have given him the disc. That Tubbo was never the president of L'manburg, but that everyone else had more control than him of his own country, even Dream. That he's the worst president because he was no president at all. Expose Ranboo as a traitor that has been working with Techno and Tommy, and that he can't even keep control of his own people. Give Tubbo the book with proof. That l'manburg is weaker than it's ever been, and that the only thing stopping Dream from completely destroying l'manburg was the fact that Tubbo had the discs and so Dream had to befriend him.

Now there's nothing stopping Dream from completely obliterating l'manburg. Everyone seems shocked and tries to talk Dream down, but Dream screams and tells everyone to shut up. Everyone goes completely silent. Dream asks Techno if he has any withers left. Techno responds basically like "oh do III" because he has so many.

--Techno should add more here so he has more of a role-

Dream announces that tonight is the final night of l'manburg forever. That he and Techno will finish the job that Wilbur started, and that l'manburg will be blown all the way to bedrock at (TIME, the next day). He tells everyone to say their last goodbyes, and to not try and stop him because Techno and him will kill every last one of them.

Dream leaves.

Everyone is left in shock, (maybe techno has some funny monologue here like it's awkward that I just left him there with everyone or something)

No one knows what to say. They realize that Dream has gone completely insane and that he has to be stopped. (techno is gone by now) They realize that Dream made a mistake by telling them the time, and they decide that they will all plan to work together and stop them. If all of the server fights together they can beat Techno and Dream. They get hyped about it and Tommy and Tubbo agree to fight together, despite having 1 canon life, that they're willing to put their lives on the line for l'manburg. They kind of have a reunion.

--Possibly Tommy leaves or ends here?-

Quackity seems blood thirsty and wants to punish Ranboo for conspiring with them and being a traitor. Tubbo disagrees and Quackity and tubbo get into an argument, Quackity insists that he HAS to execute him because he was a traitor. Tubbo gets mad and flips out on Quackity insisting that he's not going to be like Schlatt and execute him next to his own festival decorations (call back), that they need to ALL be together, ALL of them, otherwise they will lose to Techno and Dream. As long as he agrees to fight, he will fight with them. Quackity still seems to disagree, Tubbo puts his foot down and mentions what Dream said. That everyone else always pushed him around, but no HE'S the president, and his word is final, anyone who goes against it is committing treason. Quackity reluctantly agrees, but says that what Tubbo said doesn't mean they can't deal with the traitors after they stop Techno and Dream.

-End of this stream-

Bullet points for Tommy-

Starts Stream a little after Tubbo and the others start.

Plan to go to l'manburg to ruin the festival

Show up at l'manburg, with lots of invis potions, investigate what's happening

Dream shows up, join VC secretly Hear Dream freak out about the community house, seem confused, follow them.

Once Tubbo seems like he's going to give up the disc, tommy interjects

Fight tubbo

Give up on fighting tubbo and realize that you're fighting your best friend

Listen to Dream evil speech

After Dream/Techno leaves, convince everyone to work together. Talk about putting your life on the line for l'manburg.

Bullet points for Techno-

Start Stream a little after Tubbo and the others start.

Plan to go to l'manburg to ruin the festival

Show up at l'manburg, with lots of invis potions, investigate what's happening

Dream shows up, join VC secretly Hear Dream freak out about the community house, seem confused, follow them.

Once Tubbo seems like he's going to give up the disc, tommy interjects

Fight tubbo

Give up on fighting tubbo and realize that you're fighting your best friend

Listen to Dream evil speech

Join in when Dream asks if you have withers, *whatever else you want here*

After Dream leaves, awkwardly leave and head back to your house

Dream is there and Techno & Dream briefly talk about what they're going to do, Techno shows Dream the wither room

Bullet points for l'manburg-

Start Stream a little before the festival

Have meeting with cabinet about killing Dream, how Tubbo should be the one to do it because he's trusted.

Start the festival, Dream said he would show up a little later.

Dream shows up in full armor and is building an obsidian wall.

Realize and run over pissed off. Join his VC (don't see tommy / techno)

Listen to Dream, then go see the community house

Be mad at Tommy

Tubbo fights with Tommy after almost giving up his disc

Fight ends, Tubbo gives the disc to Dream to end war

Listen to Dream evil speech

Ranboo was a traitor for Techno/Tommy

After Dream/Techno leaves, Tubbo and Tommy convince people to work together. They talk about putting their lives on the line for l'manburg.

Quackity wants Ranboo executed

Tubbo puts his foot down and insists that he will not be doing that, that he's president.

Bullet Points for original DreamSMP members:

After l'manburg and dream show up at the community house(it's blown up), show up and seem upset and distressed that it was blown up. That it was the oldest artifact on the server and it had a lot of memories.

Follow Dream's lead, mostly agreeing with what he says.

Once Dream brings up the disc that Tubbo has, insist that it be burned and turned over by Tubbo.

Once Tubbo turns over the disc, Dream gives and evil speech

Realize that Dream is taking it too far and l'manburg's a part of history and is a free country

Follow Tommy/Tubbo's lead, talk about how you guys can stop Dream and Techno if you all work together

[notesfrompanihida]

sorry i started vagueposting about you when you didnt respond the way i wanted while i was in the middle of trying to kill myself. do you still like me