#(oh i am experiencing Emotions abt them)

[bacchuschucklefuck]

the never stop blowing up vhs is where cute twinks go to get harmed

[noxtivagus]

YK WHEN. WHEN HERMES DID THAT

[yourtouchismidas]

matty talking abt reader in interviews and just being like. so in love AAAAAAA sorry i know this isn't like a gigi related request but i love their relationship so much literally one of my fav book romances

don't worry about them not being gigi related! i love boyfriend, baby daddy matty too!

i don't think he talks about you too much because he wants to keep your privacy. but when he does it is so obvious how much he is in love with you. i think he talks about you inadvertently though talking about his music. like an interviewer will be like, "so this album is so classic 1975 yet it has this almost upbeat, optimistic twist that runs through the whole album that we don't see from you guys as often. is that something you intended?"

and matty is like "it's not something i necessarily intended while writing its just. we write from where we are in our lives and to understand our lives and i just am in a place right now, with life, and love, where everything just feels you know, dreamy, for lack of a better word and i do think that comes out in this album a lot. i do think there is fear in it too, in that, when you've been through those hard dark times and you are finally at a place where you're you know, so in love, and carefree and comfortable and supported, that that for whatever reason might go away. and also i guess, you know, on like track seven, where it's about this relationship where you love someone so much that sometimes it's just explosive, and like too explosive, how being in love that hard, can kind of cause you to hurt each other with it and you're fighting because of some inane shit but really its just cos of how much you love each other. so yeah. there is a lot of optimism in it. but a lot of other emotions that come with this depth of love i'm experiencing right now, you know? it's fun. to get to play around with music to express that."

and then there is other times, those rare times, where he straight up mentions you. maybe he does a "what's on my phone" interview and the background is a picture he took of you, looking all pretty on the beach. and he's like "background is my missus, obviously. because look at her. stunning. and then we unlock it and okay, last text message i sent. missus. obviously again haha. hopefully this is appropriate for the internet. what does it say. oh right." he laughs and he reads it out but it's a private joke between the two of you that no one else would ever get. while he is doing the interview you text him. "oh look missus has just text me. saying i love you. what a simp." but then he makes a kiss at his phone and says "i'm just gonna text back to that is that okay?" the interviewer says yes so he replies love you too darling xxxxxx "lots of kisses," he says to the camera, "i'm a lover like that."

[datastate]

(sending this as an ask because it got WAYY too long to be a reply whoops) i really like your opinions on the routes!! especially on the ais waugh…. i am planning on playing kanna's routes whenever i eventually replay this summer + i am excited to see what they entail…. but yeah overall i really like your thoughts and man do i need to replay yttd T_T it has been so long. (+ this is where the reply turned into a small ramble about qtaro because the autism) plus your comment about how the main games have gone + the qtaro thing. sorry i am ill about him. glad to see someone who understands his intent there because although i am not active in fandom ANYMORE i used to see so many people absolutely hating him for that (<- like obviously not the best way of going about things but he had intentions. okay?) (also i would like to make the comment of although in 8th grade i had intense hyperfixation on alice, ever since my first playthrough in 6th grade (HOW HAS IT BEEN THAT LONG?!) qtaro has + always will be my favorite sorry society….). i still remember when 3-1b came out + so many people were like "oh maybe qtaro is not deplorable" meanwhile i was over here #1 qtaro fan sobbing. sorry this is so long

(in response to this ask! also, for my own sake, i've broken up replying this into little sections :] <3 but i don't mind at all!!!)

REPLAYING YTTD

oho...!! i do think even a general replay (without seeing other routes) is really worthwhile to get a better feel for the characters & see how you can recontextualize things they're doing/have said at the time... i love combing through to see what nao and kai were up to in particular just before the main games <3

while i do think there was more that nankidai could've stood to do to differentiate the two routes particularly to make kanna & shin's separate routes feel like an actual choice, i do think that what small things are changed are still worthwhile & cool to see! i hope you enjoy your replay!!! :D

Q-TARO

YEAH exactly... i'm really sad that it's taken until his literal death to truly appreciate him as a character when more morally ambiguous characters like... well. shin, keiji, and even kai (though i'd honestly argue that most people don't see kai for who he is, you know; rather they place emphasis on his attractive appearance...) -- what they've done & how they behave are excused because they're, frankly, thin enough to care abt.

i've gone on about this before, so i won't linger much more than i need to, but i find it so strange that most people don't seem to recognize that - if not in the moment, i can understand that everyone's emotions are in a swirl. even the player's, but in chapter two when he says he felt a connection w kai - q-taro is autistic. and this definitely makes how he approached things in the first main game all the more understandable, personally... being so blunt about it when he'd settled on it being the clear solution, he even outright says that he doesn't want to see any of them just resign themselves right away to being voted out! & then we learn in ch3 as well that he's also experienced suicidal ideation which just lends so much more value to what he says...!! he doesn't want anyone to die, but certainly not with the belief that it's the only option they had. he wants them to at least have the chance to fight, just in case. and he's willing to hold himself to the same standard!

of course, first impressions mean a lot, but i feel like people saw this and completely missed the entirety of chapter 2 where he quickly warms up to gin afterward & even apologizes to sara for all she's had to deal with, despite it not being his fault, and expressing that he wishes there was something he could do even irt miley... he cares so much abt the kids within the group, even if it takes a lot of courage to support strangers when he knows he has other kids waiting at home for him... he still tries his damnedest, you know? i feel like there's something about that you have to respect. even when he's attempting to leave, you visibly see how conflicted he is about it & it's why sara can pick up on it so early, because he doesn't want to do this, it just feels like the only option... which. well. there's something to say about how gin's the one who's freely handing out tokens and yet q-taro goes to someone like sara first. someone who's been steadily pushed into the figurehead of the group, who is clearly strategic... versus someone who resembles the people q-taro's trying to get back to. hmmm. i sure wonder what the implications are here. (& i have a post for you. that you might enjoy... i've been meaning to write it for a while but i forget. but the idea is there.)

but. yeah... they didn't give him much room to grow in their mind after this point, which is so disappointing & definitely created a very toxic space. beyond that, it played into general southern stereotypes of him being the only homophobic/transphobic one, which i honestly often find treatment of to be in poor taste (it can be used well in stories, but you shouldn't just. throw bigotry on characters simply because you hate them...) -- but also just. blatantly untrue?

even just. everything about his treatment of people in general being so understanding once you explain something to him, or his desire to be a good person worthy of looking up to (which is why it doubly wrecks him when he sees himself become disabled/suicidal in the hospital, because he's become such a rotten person and he feels it and it's a terrible, terrible cycle) for the orphanage kids & to prove something to the parents who abandoned him that he's still worthy of being loved too... he believes in equivalent exchange in social dynamics, only ever giving out what you can take, just... in what world would he be so insensitive?

and this isn't even bringing up the fact that he has slightly longer than shoulder-length hair + nonetheless treats kai/mishima with a lot of respect and care even with them both generally being considered (physically, as well as in their demeanor) strange. combined with the fact that he relates to kai on the basis of being "lonely" rather than "loved" for what's unchangeable about them... there's so much there to read into. not just with autism or ptsd, but. gestures. transgenderism, being mixed, so on. things that sara had people to help support her with prior to the death game, or that she lacked altogether (if she's fully japanese)

but i digress! i'm glad that ch3-1 skirted some hatred toward him, but i definitely agree -- he's such a well-rounded characters even prior to that & it deserved to be acknowledged...!!

[definitelynotshouting]

looking at that chart some of those combinations look like theyd taste. SO bad. also now i am wondering if someone bottled up an emotion for a long time and then a watcher ended up feeding off it would it taste stale.

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OH YEAH FOR SURE, some of those combinations are Bad fr. Idk if i'll be canonizing them to the extent i did for my oc but theyre definitely a bit of a guide for me when im writing.

The thing abt bottling emotions is like you are still very much experiencing the emotion, you're just trying to suppress/ignore/bury/conceal it through a variety of means. So i dont think it would taste stale so much as it would be like, the lacroix of feelings WKDWJDNSJ

[soggypotatoes]

today was the worst day, and of my own choosing haha

I went to uni, it was nice but I felt a bit.. I'm too tired to talk about it but it was hard.. but I did a whole assignment after class which was good! and then I rewarded myself by walking round the library a bit and doing some light reading aka a book abt modern slavery and specifically reading a few chapters written by victims of sex trafficking about the brutality they experienced, and I was all 'oh this is interesting and I'm being education so I am fine to be reading this' only for me to get up and fucking..

it's like staring into a bright light for an hour and then walking around the city with the imprint on your vision that you cant quite see through, yknow? like fuck. slavery is worse than ever and I'm profiting from it. anyway. time to go to my parents place.

and they're living in a nightmare situation rn (their house usually is but it's worse than normal bc my mum's incapacitated by recent surgery but refuses to value herself so shes looking after her friends 3 dogs for a week - 3 young, energetic dogs that jump on her ((SHE HAD SURGERY SHES IN PAIN ALL THE TIME)) and poo in the house and she also already has 2 dogs to look after and my dad's a workaholic who's barely around so I'm going over to walk them bc guess what I also value others over myself anyway)

I'm exhausteddddd y'all.. but I forced myself to find peace with it. it's just, being at my parents is so hard. always takes me like a week to recover when I go there and now I have to go most days even tho my dad and brother are fully able to look after her. I'm the one with empathy so I gotta do it 🙃

ANNNNYWAYS. I feel so much better now bc housemate and I watched a media I hate together and I got to feel my anger and frustration validated. that's something I'm learning, that for me, watching happy nice things makes me feel sad and like something's wrong with me. I need to share my emotions with someone even if it's just hate watching something lmao

[bunnihearted]

im still mad ._.

😭😭😭😭 fr im just so annoyed like i dont actually want my neighbors to die. they make me so angry and im irritable and it makes me feel better to make an offhand comment abt it that wont even make a difference to their lives. they will keep making noise everyday. they will go to work and they have friends and partners and they're living their lives w support and care and love. i sit in my room and rot all alone, going crazy by all the noise since my brain is so weak. in my experience, asking someone politely to consider the noise they're making only makes them agressive and vengeful (i.e they'll start making even more noise just to mess w u). the only thing i can do is to take my anger and express it in an agressive way in a space away from them. i have never killed anyone. i most likely never will (sorry but i cant promise i wouldnt kill a rapist, pedophile or animal abuser). i have never acted agressively or violently against my neighbors. if i heard they died i wouldnt celebrate (i would most likely just go 'oh that sucks :/' then go on abt my day bc even if u dont wanna admit it that's how most ppl would react). im not actively doing anything to cause them to die. i am not making plans that i want to carry out. all i do is make a comment born out of frustration and rage (bc honestly apartments shouldnt even be built to let noise thru) bc that's all i can do to channel my emotions.

"just bc they make noise" yeah bc i have to sit here every single fkn day and listen to every step they (3 apartment units) take. every cabinet they slam. every door they close. every chair they scrape against the floor. the guy next to me stands in his kitchen for hours some days, and i can hear him bang stuff in the sink. the ones in the apartment above him stand in their kitchen once in the morning and once in the afternoon and bangs smth (sounds like a hammer kinda) for 20 mins. in the middle of the night at 3 am when im trying to sleep they start making a noise that i can hear thru my earplugs so i cant sleep. the guy above me is drilling and hammering stuff regularly, which sounds like he's in the room next to me doing that. he also does smth that cause rhytmic bangs that can last for hours. they generate noise every single day. all throughout the day. im lucky if i can get 15 mins straight where it's quiet.

the thing is i've lived here for 25yrs. it's NEVER been this bad. one guy above me had a surround sound system and had it on high volume for an hour every morning but that was the only thing i heard. another neighbor next to me i could hear when they put away their clean dishes but i couldnt hear anything else. these apartments do not have "thin walls". sound does not easily slip thru. it does that when the inhabitants have no furniture and no decorations/stuff on the walls. and in combination with being heavy handed/heavy footed (some ppl are prone to clomping around while other ppl are light on their feet. some ppl use force to slam cabinets and doors instead of just closing them). ppl who live here recently are students, so they live here for a couple of years and therefore dont bother to get furniture. and that causes their apartments to let out all noise they make. ofc u can blame the architecture (again, buildings should be built to let thru noise). but i've never experienced this kind of noise from neighbors before, smth has changed lately). also bc of trauma im hypervigilant and my brain takes in and process everything in my surroundings. all of the constant bangs, stomps, and diverse noise makes my heart rate spike and makes me stressed, tense and angry. i have a high blood pressure bc of this. (plus theres noise everywhere constantly bc of construction outside so i never get to relax). my brain isnt healthy or normal when it comes to noise. that isnt my fault or smth i can control. it's also not smth therapy or medication can fix. my noise sensitivity makes me suicidal. and ofc thats no one's fault. my neighbors' are just living their lives, they dont care abt me and therefore they arent doing it with the intent to harm me

but im still in psychological agony bc of it. it's not their fault and thats why im not knocking on their doors and threatening to kill them if they dont shut up. but it's still driving me insane and thats why im venting abt my frustrations, expressing myself in a way that lightens my rage. for self preservation. 'wishing' death on someone actually isnt as straighforward as wanting it to happen. or making it happen. or being happy if it happened. if they died someone else would just move in and continue the noise. but in the moment it makes me feel better so i will say it. ppl have genuinely wished death upon ppl for way less. hell, ppl are out there killing other ppl for bs! women are being chopped up and buried in pieces by the men they thought loved them. yet i am a horrible monster for venting my frustrations without actually intentionally irrepairably hurting someone?

anyway humans are making so much uneccesaary noise every day all the time. sm noise that dont need to exist. it wouldnt have to if society was better. i mean, the noise of fireworks kills millions of animals every year. noise can have a psychological and physical affect on many many ppl. you are lucky and fortunate if noise doesnt affect you. but ppl whose brains arent wired like you exist. and it is we who have to live in a world that is constructed to cause us harm every single day. i am allowed to be angry bc this is what my life is gonna be like every single day. i am allowed to vent in a way that is personally uncomfortable to you, bc it will never change and i know it never will. i am never gonna kill anyone bc they make noise. but that co exists w the fact that there's a lot of noise that humans make that is completely unessecary, but no one cares bc most ppl are normal and they dont care abt what ppl with sensory issues have to go thru.

im also allowed to vent abt my emotions in a way that is uncomfortable to u. maybe thats too much for u, and thats valid. but you need to recognize that you should just go hmm that's not it for me, and then move on and be on your way. it's condescending and arrogant to force ppl to only express themselves in a way you personally approve of. you and i may not value things the same, and therefore there's no reason for us to co exist in the same space. it might be "just noise" to you, but to me noise is excrutiating and affects me so deeply it gives me suicidal and homicidal emotions as well as physical stress responses that take a toll on my physical health.

[justablah56]

literally stimming so hard at your positive reaction to my rambles just now my hand hurt from how hard i was shaking it anyways YeS like ok i am just thinking so hard about the taylor mindscape idea cus i just have this idea of them needing to get some Item or whatever and it's buried wherever it's hardest to reach and that is Taylor's mind because he is the most emotionally repressed and he doesn't even realize it yanno and i also had the idea of like. like ok i was thinking about ron's mindscape thing but i alsoo thought. wouldn't it be fun if they were seeing taylor's memories but also feeling his emotions..... like.......... like when the memories start to get less upbeat but still seem okay from the outside they can Feel the loneliness... i have had this whole concept in my brain for less than a day but i'm actually rlly obsessed with it haahaha hi

also the thought of taylor watching all of his friends go through his memories and also the feeling of RELIVING those memories? and it isn't even stuff that seems that bad like. at first its happy funtimes and then it's being popular at school and then it's sitting alone at lunch and then it's being bullied and then it's not having anyone to defend him and then it's his only friend from middle school moving away and then it's being lonely at home and then it's more bullying and then it's him hiding in the bathroom even though he's fine and totally chill (like i said before about everyone being able to feel the emotions in the memory they can all feel his anxiety despite the composure on his face etc.) and there keeps being more kind of average memories and they're going through them and taylor is starting to. freak out. becayse as i said he is the king of emotional repression and there are layers being peeled back and then they all see the memory of nicky telling taylor he had to leave to protect him and then they see the memory of scary telling taylor that his dad went to hell to get away from him and everyone can feel how much that struck a nerve and how deeply it stings

and then everyone getting. concerned and taylor trying to convince them that he's fine and like his dad is hella cool and he HAD to leave and that's fine (just like his other old friend -had- to leave) and like he's fine flying solo he's always done that but he is very much freaking out yanno and i think at one point he tries to get everyone to give up on this and just leave because there's no point there's no point but really it is just him avoiding confronting his problems because before this he believed that there weren't any etc. etc. etc..... um welcome to the most self indulgent taylor angst concept i've ever had?

I am wiggling like the happiest worm you've ever seen abt this btw <3333 I get asks and I am literally physically wiggling happily , my favorite stim , the woerm ,, <33 anyways OUGH THIS IS ALL SO GOOOOD SHOVING IT INTO MY MOUTH LIKE RICE WHEN I DON'T WANT TO GET A UTENSIL !! I HAVE NO IDEA IF THAT MAKES ANY SENSE BUT IT DOES (KINDA) TO ME SO - but oagihhghh them having to dig through everything and just seeing all these seemingly small things and how Taylor *physically* experienced them . aND THEN ALSO HIS EMOTIONS !!!! FUCK !!!!! SO GOOD !!!!!! and Taylor trying to convince them that he's fine and it really wasn't that bad but they can physically *feel* the anxiety and pent up break down and ouuggghhhh OH AND THE THEM SEEING FIRST NICKY TELL TAYLOR HE HAD TO GO IMMEDIATELY FOLLOWED BY THE SCARY LINE ABWNMDMD EXPLODES !!! that's so good aoufjskx I love all of this

[burntlikethesun]

that post abt thasmin's ending/yaz leaving vs rose's ending is also why i can never really find myself too mad at donna's ending - like, martha leaving with a smile made sense, because that's where her character arc had taken her, but donna absolutely falls into the category of companions who wouldn't leave unless made to, and her reintroduction to the series has proven that even not knowing where the doctor is won't be enough to keep her away.

Exactly! Catherine's contract is up so she can't appear anymore, but her deciding to just up and leave wouldnt ring true after she fought so hard to find him again. I think her upcoming departure will be based on her finally having something to keep her at home, namely a teenage daughter and doting husband who would be left alone and heartbroken if something happened to her in space.

There was a great passage in the Writer's Tale were RTD ponders on Donna's ending:

"But am I worried that some viewers might find Donna’s departure too sad? Not remotely. Not for a single second. I believe, hugely, massively, that TV isn’t there to make you smile. Drama certainly isn’t. That ending is devastating. I hope it’s never forgotten. I hope people cry for years. In 70 years’ time, kids watching it now will be in old folks’ homes, saying, ‘Oh, why couldn’t Donna Noble have remembered just one thing?!’ There’s this great misconception that the Slitheen are for kids, and episodes like Human Nature and The Family of Blood are for adults. In fact, adults can enjoy daft green monsters, and kids can appreciate emotional grown up drama. If kids are upset then they're feeling something, and kids feel things vividly. The death of a goldfish is the end of the world. It's keen real and powerful for them. But that doesn't make it something to be avoided If they can reach that state through fiction, well, they're actually experiencing something wonderful. And important."

So yeah. Martha had agency in her choice to leave, Donna had drama.. and Yaz had neither. she was asked to leave after saying she didn't want it to end and then just... went. It was below even some of the least respectful companion exits from the classic series. Like at least some of them got given love interests to stay behind with, or people to care for.

[dykeyote]

syd+jeddie chnt

ok im assuming ur doing this for the ask game but tbh even if ur NOT i still win bc i got to talk about my favs forever despite being wrong

SYDNEY SARGENT

sexuality hc: dunno ...... itd really help if he had a canon sexuality (hes gay .)

gender hc: oh idk ..... its not like hes a canon trans guy or anything .... who knows

a ship i like: im a seddie girl til either i die or they do but i also quite like him w soren and juniper :3

a friendship i like: i think his friendship w marisol shouuld be explored more tbh its really interesting to me (:

a ship i dont like: i moderately dislike elijah x sydney <- holding back the burning rage of a thousand suns

a random hc: i think he has a bizarre talent for understanding lyrics first time in songs to the degree that people suspect the bonfire may be providing them to him . which is STRANGE because he has auditory processing disorder but somehow he can listen to one of those really edited drawly goth songs where the lyrics are intentionally incomprehensible and immediately hear all the lyrics right the first time around but will not understand simple sentences you say to him at times

general opinion: hes literally my best friend i love him so much hes so dear to me and so fascinating and i want to kiss him and i love him so much that it actually is killing me i adore his silly little self

JEDIDIAH MARTIN

sexuality hc: doesnt label it . if he thought abt it for long enough and really cared to label it theyd probably identify as bi gay but he isnt planning on ever doing that so

gender hc: cisgender man who has very normal emotions about gender and experienced very reasonable and rational amounts of jealousy from the moment sydney transitioned onwards (worlds most closested transfem nonbinary 2 exist bc they were so fucking christian all of their life and the second they left christianity they were dealing with fucking debilitating guilt for the sydney thing so not really thinking abt "hey am i a girl")

a ship i like: again i heart seddie but i also like jed w soren and marie ann :3

a friendship i like: i am NORMAL about yvonne and jedidiah . i am NORMAL about yvonne and jedidiah . i am NORMAL about yvonne and jedidiah . i am NORMAL about yvonne and jedidiah . i am NORMAL about yvonne and jedidiah . i am NORMAL about yvonne and jedidiah . i am NORMAL about yvonne and jedidiah . i am NORMAL about yvonne and jedidiah . i am NORMAL about yvonne and jedidiah . i am NORMAL about y <- lying

a ship i dont like: i dont see a lot of jed ships that arent seddie and that i didnt like . make up lol

random hc: really really likes good smelling things . like VERY sensory seeking in that regard if they find a good smelling candle theyre keeping it w them forever . its why syd made their sheets peppermint scented thats a thing they do for them a lot to cheer him up

general opinion: my opinions on jedidiah martin are so complex and multifaceted and borderline deranged that if i attempted to synopsize them we would be here all week it would never end

[an-inspired-eternity]

begging you to talk abt penny + noel my beloveds

YES YES YES my faves fr :)))

for jane/penny:

sexuality headcanon: i'm open to other ideas, but my current hc in my notes is pansexual :)

gender headcanon: i really like transfem penny :0 i like the idea that her and ezra are the kind of trans siblings who transitioned at the same time and just switched their wardrobes

a ship i have with said character: these two both have repeats for the ship but haha spacedolls go brrrrrrr. alternatively i do think penny and constance can be cute :)

a brotp i have with said character: noel and penny are best friends idc what you tell me. the nativity incident was 100% planned on their end [espcially with the mccarter version having jane/penny quickly change her costume accessory to match noel] plus i think ezra has similar taste to noel so it's another reason penny would be familiar :)

a notp i have with said character: i don't hate the ship like if you like it romantically you're valid but jane/penny x ocean isn't really?? my thing??

a random headcanon: i imagine penny is my brand of autistic where when she's in a environment where she doesn't know/is less familiar with the people around she's like oh god don't fucking perceive me but once she's with the choir/her friends???? silly mode on

general opinion over said character: i love her she is so tbh autism creature

for noel:

sexuality headcanon: gay/generally queer [as stated in canon, i do see alloaro and asexual hcs for him sometimes and as an aroace person i am like <3 abt it but i personally have not tried to tackle it yet]

gender headcanon: ough. genderqueer nonbinary vibes. i lean on he/they pronouns specifically but thats because i am projecting *twirls my hair*

a ship i have with said character: there is simply no way on earth nischa isn't canon on atleast noel's end. send tweet

a brotp i have with said character: noel and ocean are the sibling dynamic of all fucking time okay they are so "only i am allowed to make fun of them" abt each other like YES noel is experiencing the cain instinct with her on a semi regular basis but also he would kill someone if they hurt her, hope this helps. if ocean needs to get away from her parents and constance isn't an option noel is offering that she come stay at his house for a bit

a notp i have with said character: none really besides the obvious factor of don't ship noel with the girls

a random headcanon: he has a little black cat and he loves her so very very much <3 because i think he deserves to have a little emotional support beast

general opinion over said character: noel is literally what you get when you create the ultimate richie blorbo like he's queer he's mentally ill he's got daddy issues he's got all the material to be a fave character of mine combined into one he's a package deal <3 just like me fr

[troglobite]

again pls let me be w the shows i watch lol

more Thoughts

okay also watching episode 2 again of this season and the tinhat is fully fucking on

WHY does ted care SO MUCH abt trent?

he says yes against everyone's wishes

trent just keeps staring at ted the whole time waiting patiently for his answer he HAS to know everyone is trying to get ted to say no to this idea

ted's SO excited to see him

he mentions a baggie of his hair ties in lost and found?! either it's true and for some reason ted made note of it, or he's poking fun at trent for having an incredible head of hair. lol

then beyond that

the thing that got me and made me wanna think out loud

was the exchange w roy in the locker room

"your ego is abt to jeopardize a lot more than one football game, okay?"

oh REALLY ted? HOW MUCH MORE? WHAT EXACTLY IS THAT MORE?

my god the tinhat it fits so snugly i love it

trent waits patiently awkwardly in the locker room for him and roy to come back out like my god

also i'm just.

okay he also--this is SO tinhat.

in rebecca's office

they mention handfuls

ted's like "never a handful of skittles, though, the dye gets all over your hands and it's sticky. and you CAN print that."

[the tinfoil hat turns rainbow]

we need another way to refer to ppl who are having fun w crackships or batshit fan theories etc. even THAT needs a different name. alas, it's almost 5 am and i'm way too tired to think of any.

ANYWAY.

then my favorite little bit

trent's whole thing yada yada yada you're doing this bc of rupert mannion

"yeah basically"

"love that"

WHOMST ELSE WOULD LOVE THAT EXCEPT FOR SOMEONE WHO ALSO HAS AN EX (HUSBAND) THAT THEY'D LOVE TO PISS OFF?

i'm JUST SAYING.

that man has NO wedding ring and a YOUNG daughter.

he has that beautiful hair and a silly swaggering way of walking

his style is ridiculous

he uses and carries RAINBOW MUGS

he simply raises his eyebrows and keeps walking, A Change Man, after seeing colin making out w michael

also interesting that everybody's in fic and stuff being like "oh he calls him coach lasso"

no he doesn't he literally says "goodnight, ted"

he literally says ted

also just those LOOKS in that conversation

my god mmmmmm i have never been so tinhatty.

except for spn and tbh i Was A Fool. this time i'm just having fun.

they made/confirmed two characters as canonically queer! I AM SIMPLY HAVING A GRAND OL TIME WAITING TO FIND OUT WHO ELSE IN THE SHOW MIGHT BE!!!!! WHO WILL JOIN THEIR RANKS?!

mayhaps the "fancy" man who ted complimented as their first interaction who has a young daughter, no wedding ring, and no evidence of an ex, who reacted w the aplomb of a seasoned homosexual upon seeing colin and michael?

I'M JUST SAYING.

i could watch episode 2 over and over and over again

jamie and dani being friends is the best thing and jamie being rightfully irritated AND a bit jealous abt zava? excellent nuance.

he's right! they don't need him! but that comes from a place of awareness abt the team and caring for them, AND a place of jealousy bc HE wants to be the star player on the team. (along w dani and sam, of course, as much as he rags on them)

loved that bit.

anyway.

trent crimm, homosexual. love it. that man? he's queer.

i had forgotten abt keeley bc i was just like "yeah, yeah, plausible deniability, a lot of straight women talk like that"

i had brushed off colin bc it was one or two throwaway comments or camera framing and he was sort of the butt of a few jokes, an unserious guy.

but now?

my god.

and TRENT?!

i'm just.

HOOOOO BOY.

ALSO

THERE WAS ANOTHER AMSTERDAM REFERENCE IN EPISODE TWO.

the snowglobe in barbara's office that the camera most closely focuses on is AMSTERDAM. IT'S FROM AMSTERDAM.

like holy fucking shit this next episode is going to explode us all, isn't it?

i am. EXPERIENCING.

MANY EMOTIONS.

[pinkseas]

[parasocial bestie] am going thru hte ask and methinks everything's settled and now we can go bac to square one of our routine braining i think <333 ALSO I SAW THE POST ABT THE. DNI with me unless you are a perfect clone of me like REAL SO REAL altho we have diff interpretation on things icb i did manage to find someone out of pure coincidence who likes 98% of what i like abt xlmi and genshin in entirely i just <3333333 like EEEEEEEEEEEEEE i finally have a reason to take my mind off twitter. tumlr ur always hte man 4 me. anyway

"its just part of his life part of his duty nothing more and nothing less. but that doesnt stop the shame that comes with anything he perceives as failure" OH GOD YEAH THAT IS SUCH AN EXCEPTION he holds high standards of what he does to ppl but not what he does for himself. it just feels so fucking painful abt xiao's character never considering himself in everything Except when it comes to other ppl to the point he goes for self sacrifice is SO!!! and yet what he does hold such noble intentions of a selfless hero even by the means of thankless acts, that he'll never be a figure to be worshipped and known as much as other adepti do. "After living for so long... to die in the act of saving others would not have been a terrible thing." is always a line that gets me about his character in entirety that he really needs to see things in another perspective too.

"it may not be the Main focus but zhongli and xiao's relationship in this fic is basically the second biggest focus beyond xiao himself/the xiaolumi of it all tbh" even before The Brainrot Festivals GOD WE ARE SHARING THE BRAIN. ive always had this impression since the start i knew of xiao those years ago, how important zhongli is as that certain figure in his life; a master a mentor a guardian just someone who reflect on his life for experiencing the same thing. but xiao doesnt know that well about zhongli, about morax, and how much the guy's changed and felt the need itd be better for xiao himself to change too. it doesnt have to be the same, for what zhongli tries to teach him, it had to be something that makes his life at least, if not bearable, is simply for xiao to be comfortable and free of suffering bc the guy doesnt let himself to. and dkfksajhdas i explore this sm though brainrots and all the different scenarios like when i told u about them going fishing, and then there's the very Very important chain of events i had in mind how it is when xiao coped about rex lapis' death and what happened after knowing.

it's a little embarrassing to explain how but like yknow my tendency to just Hurt Xiao in ways not completely whump but in a form of vulnerability he truly needs that attention and care bc of his routines and duty are slowly eating him inside out. vulnerabilities of his emotional detachment affecting his body that makes him so human. i think abt how he supresses so much in the past pre-morax he genuinely doesnt know how to express anymore, and when he does, its a sensation so overwhelming that his body isnt used to it anymore with the catharsis all the fight and flight responses the adrenaline giving him the chest pain of just,.. having emotions yknow. and the death of the yakshas the disappearance of bosacius all had different magnitudes of emotion that the death of rex lapis affected him so much being the last straw of it all, how it all crashes down when exuvia fell and not rising back up again giving him that strong reaction then he Overworks To Cope.

then comes the time zhongli came to the balcony (in canon he reveals the truth in dreams,.. but i Like the two that they have a diff confrontation bc of how much zhongli knows xiao back then until the present) to tell everything, just for the revelation to hit xiao like a truck the pain the catharsis the exhaustion Everything hes been through the past few days where zhongli prolonged saying the truth now hit him that his body couldnt take it all and just shuts down. like boom he collapsed. and that's not a good reaction at all, and yet the yaksha recovers (as much as he managed, despite how weak it rendered him), assuring he's ok, trying to dismiss it with the same numbness that plagued him since morax saved him. back to square one. mf factory resetted himself, starting over. rex lapis is alive and thats good in all things thats it, all the unwilling attempts in processing it are now useless. and it brings a whole new story of how zhongli sees this all unfold altogether.

and i just,... shniffsniff....... think about what comes after, bc zhongli is not gonna let that slide even if he's pretending as a mortal even if he has to spend most of his time in the harbor since he wants to, but he also wants the best for xiao; the only one who hasnt let go of the past and accept change like the adepti does bc he doesnt know how. and its through the little things; giving the remedium, be it through posting or directly to the inn (id like to think verr goldet is the only one who knows by mere guess hes rex lapis, but respects his decision to step down no matter the reason, and zhongli trusts her immensely on the secret in exchange he becomes that special balcony visitor. an unspoken agreement o both of them.), the times xiao blacks out from karma and he wakes up on bed in his personal room in the inn with cold tea by the bedside. when he finishes his battle in the middle of heavy rain, drenched and cold, and he feels the bullets on his shoulder stop from the shield of an umbrella behind him; zhongli doesnt say anything more than to advise him of proper shelter nearby. when he finds xiao curled up, knees on his chest in his own needed respite, in pain but also in shame, zhongli takes the time to simply kneel and pat his head and keep him company until xiao can quietly teleport away. like god do you have any idea how much i love the thought of parental zhongli or at least a zhongli who Cares like can you tell

anyway icb thats enough for me to go on 4 paragraphs longer than i intended OK MOVING ON EVERYTHING YOU EXPLAIN ABOUT XIAOS WINGS,... GOD its the way it makes sense it makes so much sense he'd rather have any semblance of his past severed to build himself anew but its kinda funny too. that he intends as such and yet he also doesnt; still thinking himself as sinful as he was as the bloodhound who deserves all the punishment when the whole point of starting anew is Not Doing That and actually continue as a fresh warrior with new roles and new things to do without counting the past. like WHAT BRO

personally id go for the first one bc i still like the thought he keeps them for the mere sentimentality and i feel like he wouldnt bear to lose the only thing he wants to hold on about a childhood he lost before, even if he doesnt remember it. the mere thought of it existing providing him that sort of painful comfort its still there, even if seeing it hurts knowing he cant taste the joy of flight anymore. having flight being out of reach and he'd have constant reminders of it is just that little sign xiao never really moved forward even in the beginning o)-( he doesnt even summon it after it recovered, doesnt even pay attention while people tended it, only finding the solace of it existing at his back. and yknow for the Pain Points i actually thought that after it had been mangled so bad xiao never actually showed it to anyone its condition despite his human body recovered and he purposely Dismisses Its There than just Knowing, and its only when the pain of it being untreated becomes unbearable and at the right topic being brought up did he reveal them. guizhong had been so terrified of its condition, so pitied and devastated that they werent told and xiao was so small so young hes a child hes a child and he revealed them without an change in his expression to the moment he falls from the pain. the way he speaks of his wings as a mere fact it existed. and at some point in her grief to him she felt the need to just,.. restore his flight by making mechanical wings bc she just knew his real ones wont support him anymore even after treatment. and morax himself shared the exact sentiment, the two standing forlornly and the half-progress blueprints guizhong spent day and night in her tears to just give xiao back what he lost.

other bits im just AUUUUUUUUEUEUHUSHFVUFBKDSHFKJSDFKH SO TRUE SO TRUE UEEEEEEEEEEE CUS I RAN OUT OF BRAIN JUICE WRITING THE OTHERS. like i hope u get da message. i rlly spend everything on two things JDFHKSDJFHKSDJH ok but wait "learning to feel human learning to live as mortal people do learning the values of life itself learning how to love the little things" LIKE MAN....................................... also giggling wit u thats the problem on the theory when 500 yrs had passed then wats the use of scouting, hows the other world going bro? 500 yrs late and alrd destroyed? yeah

teehee

"i finally have a reason to take my mind off twitter" YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH and in the end isnt that the most important thing of all… LMAO no but genuinely so so so glad bc ur right the sheer Coincidence of liking so many of the same aspects of this game i love it so bad we're so cool and epic for this fr

"never considering himself in everything Except when it comes to other ppl to the point he goes for self sacrifice" yeah o(-( THE NOBLE INTENTIONS THE THANKLESS ACTS… dies a little bit. AND YEAH THAT FUCKING LINE KILLS ME EVERY TIME ITS SO. IM SO. IM SO.

"a master a mentor a guardian" HE IS SO IMPORTANT TO XIAO AND THEY ARE SO IMPORTANT TO ME !!!!!!!!! and ohhh my god xiao not realizing how much has changed and that zhongli thinks itd be for the better if xiao changed too… trying to teach him how to be comfortable and how to suffer less………..

"my tendency to just Hurt Xiao in ways not completely whump but in a form of vulnerability he truly needs" NO BC UR SO BASED FOR THIS imo xiao is like. either a) you have to really Get In There and take his walls down brick by brick with so much patience and care, or b) something uncontrollable has to come in and smash those walls to pieces all at once, to the point where he needs the help from others where he has no choice but to let people in and be vulnerable around them. specific people cant really try to force it, i REALLY dont think that would work at all i think thatd make things so much worse, but either lots of patience and care or smth that isnt done Purposefully By Anyone Else for the sake of him opening up yknow??

"bc his routines and duty are slowly eating him inside out" NO BEACUSE YEAH. YEAH. GOD. his karma :handshake: his duty settling on his shoulders consuming his life eating away at him so slowly but surely. and what would he do without them? who would he be without them? he doesnt even know. he thinks there'd be nothing left but there'd be so much and then so much room for him to grow, too, and i just. i just. fmgnmdfngmfdg.

THE CHEST PAIN OF EMOTIONS repressing so much he literally just doesnt know what to do with it im so. Explodes. that last fucking straw after centuries of hardship is something that can be so. AND XIAO TRYING TO DISMISS IT WHEN HE FLAT OUT COLLAPSES being ashamed to have been so """weak""" as for that to have happened going back to square one with feeling numb im so. and the way that changes zhongli's perception of everything ohhhhh my god. xiao going from someone so strong and resilient, every bad thing seemingly rolling off without stopping him, only to realize that while he is strong and he is resilient everything that he seemed to have dealt with on his own has just. made its way into his chest and festered there, buried and ignored and rotting, eating him alive bit by bit.

"but he also wants the best for xiao, the only one who hasnt let go of the past and accepted change like the adepti do bc he doesnt know how" THISSSS he doesnt know how. god. GOD. xiao seemingly so detached from the past, he himself not realizing just how much he clings to it the fact that he's still living in it something something a house on fire something something being so used to something that you dont realize its not supposed to hurt this much, its not supposed to feel this way.

"(id like to think verr goldet is the only one who knows by mere guess hes rex lapis)" THIS FUCKS i support this wholeheartedly it makes a lot of sense and mmmmm the mutual respect and trust they have for one another even unspoken…. the care they have for xiao the gratitude that someone is looking after him in ways they themselves are unable to do…. explodes.

BLACKING OUT AND WAKING UP ON HIS BED ohhh my god. there is osmething So Personal about all of that about zhongli not always actively Doing Something or Saying Anything but just BEING there being around xiao showing that he cares that xiao isnt alone. fuck. I CAN TELL AND I LOVE IT SO BAD ITS SO GOOD idk i like. i rly liked the idea?? but it takes more of a push for me to really Think About and brainrot parental characters or guardian figures and everything youve ever said abt them has made me go from "yeah that fucks, nice" to "yeah that FUCKS let me think about every scenario ever on earth with them now" which i am so grateful for <3333

"still thinking of himself as sinful as he was as the bloodhound who deserves all punishment when the whole point of starting anew is Not Doing That" YEAHHHHH man said alright let me sever all ties let me cut myself loose. except for every awful thing i have ever done which will live with me in my heart forever amen. king PLEASE

and god yeah wanting to hold on even without remembering it, that painful comfort the constant reminder of what he once had and never will again and IT BEING A SIGN THAT HE NEVER TRULY MOVED FORWARD…. man. Man. guizhong being so horrified and sympathetic, mourning for him when he cannot mourn for himself, MECHANICAL WINGS……. thinks so hard about those blueprints gathering dust, not quite perfected, eternally unfinished. thinks so hard about the traveler someday stumbling across them, or zhongli after his retirement digging them up again, either way them going to each other with the knowledge and searching for someone who could help make them a reality, working with perhaps inventors from fontaine and getting venti's blessing similarly to how its his power that allows the wind gliders to work (i think??) and using the traveler's knowledge from other worlds and familiarity with flight and determination to help xiao regain what was lost.

i like to think that where lumine is awfully fond of nature aether excels with machinery, maybe she could use what she'd learned from him or maybe he himself In The Aftermath if things go well enough could help and just. god. polishing up those finishing touches making them work testing them out. xiao being able to fly again. xiao healing enough mentally to be able to bring himself to even try fly again.

[beananacake]

hi. ok so i know accidental princess was made like.. months ago im not sure, but im absolutely HEARTBROKEN because i just finished reading it.

you truly, truly put everything into that series and god am i in live with reading it. it took me through so may different emotions that transcended me like.. hello? the period-piece slay that this is? i can not describe how much i enjoyed that shit. the way you were so consistent in all of the chapters, you never wavered from that old-english-period kind of language, both in dialogue, in exposition and literally any writing that you did for this series, and shit i cant tell you how much i admire your dedication. let me tell you there was not one moment where i thought your writing was any less from the gorgeous quality that it is. if you told me you weren't feeling a chapter, my bestie i would not have noticed at all. i was so immersed in reading this. your worldbuilding>> the language, the politics, the kingdom, all established beautifully. god i love those prussian royalties, smth abt them speaking german 🫣.. chile anyway,,

you managed to give each and every character mentioned a life—love, tragedy, realization, like you really made this story alive. i love how you gave spotlights to characters like louis, chelina, thibault, abigail, the grand duke, the king, and the late queen, even. how you managed to make them feel real, like they aren't just side characters used for the gains of the plot—it's incredible, really. there's just so much distinction between them, like i LOVE to see their personalities shine. you even gave the grand duke a backstory? like come on, man! i enjoyed seeing all the characters experiencing growth through different experiences. CHELINA AND LOUSIE LOVE STORY REAL>> oh my god i want a spinoff of his trip to zaragoza, damn. if i could, i would literally quote every line that made me scream and shout and cry, but there's too many to choose from!

you are so, so good with words and especially in making character dynamics and chemistry. reader and kit UGH i would die to have a love like them. every words spoken between them, especially any declaration of defiance and love against the king is gratifying to me. i can feel their passion in my bones.. for real. i LOVE how the theme i got is that you should always fight for love, even if the outcome isn't something you wished for. like that is such a serve. you deserve an oscar, a bafta, a grammy a golden globe and a restraining order, because i can not read this book for one second and not drown in a current of emotions. dont even get me started on the plot and how everything descended so beautifully. to me, it was planned out so well from the beginning and i love how you based the conflict off of the queen's death, like the grand duke?? that is so smart. its so evident that you put a lot of time in writing each detail of the plot and i was so consumed by it, it's true!! i spent 3 hours binge reading this whole thing and let me tell you my life changed. ok literature? work.

THE AMOUNT OF ANGSTT IS SO GOOD i LOVE forbidden romance esp if its in like a royal setting, and MY FAV is when the king finally realizes he can never stop reader and kit from loving each other—i adoooree that trope. almost forgot, but i was cryingg when i noticed the parallels and similarities between the cinderella movies and this story. like obviously this was based off of cinderella, but the things you switched and put in like reader having the principle of being kind and courageous, the lavender-blue lullaby sung from the mountains opposed to movie-cinderella singing it from her locked room, it's all too good. you really customized everything to depict this timeless, strong, selfless and beautiful main character. (the epilogue is amazing, by the way. love the children and love chelouis' children!! amelia is a sweetheart 🥹)

"If you do not think her worthy of me, then I am inclined to think that you are not worthy of her. She is twice more than I will ever be because she is kind and courageous.”

JAIL JAIL!! WHAT IS THIS?!! this is only one of the heart-moving dialogues from this series. this is actually the line that finally induced the waterworks for me. i mean everything made me emotional already, but this broke the dam. cmon now i cant get enough of it!

“I had been given the chance to bask in his love, even just for a while. I suppose these memories will suffice. They should last me a lifetime.”

i will actually start crying again

"You slowly opened your eyes, expecting to see the green color of your mother’s eyes but instead, you saw blue. The bluest of all blues you had ever seen."

fuck do i love the mountain saving scene..

ok anyway that is all. i hope you have a blessed life and thank you so much for writing this series, i love it! 😊

my dearest @mooncleaver, i just want you to know that I received this ask at a very opportune time; I was struggling so much with my mental health and I thought my writing was really bad and that The Accidental Princess wouldn't fly so well (for many reasons) but when I read this ask, all I could do was cry happy tears. This, along with the other asks I got for TAP, made me realize that there's a small percentage of people who read and liked (maybe even loved) my story. Thank you so much for taking the time of your day to read my little work and thank so much more for leaving this ask for me. To be honest, I wouldn't be opposed to you quoting all of the lines that resonated with you; I always love hearing people's thoughts about my stories.

By the way, that part where you said I deserve an Oscar, a BAFTA, a Grammy, a Golden Globe, and a restraining order: I literally laughed out loud and thought i had never received such a compliment from someone, ever. I will definitely remember this for years to come.

As for the Chelina and Louis spin-off, don't worry. It's in the works. I've always planned to write something for them because theirs is a story that is as beautiful as Kit's and Reader's, maybe even more. I'm just not sure how soon I would get to writing it but I would surely do because it's a story worth telling.

Thank you thank you so much for reading the story! You hold a special place in my mind and heart for leaving such words! <3

[scarlethallow160]

i genuinely. dont know if i still identify as bi or am a lesbian experiencing comphet omfg like. ultimately it doesnt “matter” cuz ik im gonna be single forever but like. idk i dont wanna start saying im a lesbian and then it turns out i still do like men or i continue calling myself bi but then potentially start dating a man or w/e and then the realization hits that Oh i am definitely Not attracted to you and then cause a mess with the potential guy

idk idk idk even when i was in denial in middle school ive technically always liked girls but ive had crushes on guys etc but……i dunno im not sure if i’ve realized i just have a huge preference towards women or am Only attracted to women

my journey with my sexual orientation has fluctuated so much over the years too like i’d be like “oh i can develop that emotional attraction to women but im not immediately physically attracted to them” when i was younger but the past couple years im like UM WRONG WOMEN ARE SO BEAUTIFUL AND ATTRACTIVE WTF but im also like. was that just comphet when i was younger?? since i grew up in a small racist and homophobic hick town and wanted to be “normal” and liked??

but also with men like. i am IMMEDIATELY repulsed and disgusted when some nasty incel dude tries coming onto me (which is like. normal lets be real) but i have no idea how i’d react if an actual normal decent guy was interested me? OR HOW I’D REACT IF A WOMAN WAS INTERESTED IN ME CUZ none of these have ever happened to me lmao

and like. there are legitimate criticisms to weird behavior from bi women etc but lately (and idk why i keep getting them?) i keep getting videos of lesbians talking about how they dont like bi girls and would never date one etc etc so im like…….man i dont want my label to like. take me out of the running either LOL or make me feel bad 😭

idk. i genuinely dont know i think abt this all the time now tho. which is funny cuz i have NO game and NO experience and p sure i have like. a fear of intimacy or my anxiety would make it impossible for me to be intimate with anyone (bc of my. lack of experience) so like,, dating doesnt seem like an option for me anyway but i’d at least like to Know

and this one is so dumb but also tryna beat the bi to lesbian pipeline allegations….. I KNOW ITS DUMB but regardless of sexual orientation it annoys tf outta me when ppl act like bisexuality is literally a phase or “the next step” before u come out as gay or smthing cuz i’ve had ppl basically tell me i wont identify as bi or long or “everyone who was bi comes out as gay eventually” IDK AGAIN IK THATS DUMB but that attitude still annoys me

magic 8 ball am i 100% gay

[withleeknow]

in exchange for a WT snippet, I can proffer this for the microwave https://vm.tiktok.com/ZGeq3Murh/ 🫡 when the husband agenda crosses over with the rockstar boyfriend vibe also I just love seeing idols pursue their goals like “go little rockstar” indeed also this is the hottest thing he's ever done

foing back to our roots for a sec: new airport mimo alert https://tinyurl.com/2s38mae3 it's giving duality bc smth abt this look is extra extra adorable but also when + how did he get so buff overnight tf

SO MANY SKZOOS MY HEART 🥺🥺 do you have any BT21 babies in your collection?:) + TWO MORE DAYS JENNN! the way they simultaneously applied for paid leave THIS IS THE REUNION OF THE CENTURYY 💜💜

the microwave exploded wtf... what if i start watching en-o'clock and just fully bury myself in the rabbit hole... 🫠 this is awful onigiri i cannot have another boyfriend, the roster is overloaded and the microwaved exploded !!! but man every time i see him with a guitar i black out for a second...

AIRPORT MIMO 😭 i'm not saying that i spent a good chunk of my day yesterday staring at the pics and sweating through my eyes but... yk... i don't wanna talk about the boobs there's nothing there i refuse to look at them lest i want to yeet myself out the window

BUT I WAS JUST SAYING THIS LAST NIGHT

for some reason this look is just sooooo wt coded to me. maybe not everyone will see it but this is the vision in my head of them in the future in their happily ever after era lol. his hair is a little shorter than it is now in the fic... maybe they've moved in together at this point, some time after graduation... maybe this is him getting back from vacation or an internship abroad or smth idk... she's picking him up at the airport... she's pouty bc he cut his hair... i need to stop bc i'm getting ahead of myself bc this is wayyy into the future and you guys haven't even experienced their angsty era yet lol

SKZOOS MY EMOTIONAL SUPPORT BABIES. if you decide to get any skzoos for yourself, know that i am 100% with you 😭 i don't have any bt21 plushies (yet!) but i have a mang standee, rj and cooky airpods cases, and a tata keychain! do you have any? 👀

NOW JUST ONE MORE DAY ONIGIRI. LESS THAN TWENTY FOUR HOURS. FUCK ??? when i read that they'll all be there to welcome him back i almost cried. MY SEVEN 😭 oh my god i will definitely wake up tomorrow in tears when i see pics of them together. god i can't believe we're here onigiri we're gonna cry so much tomorrow 😭

also yesterday my friend sent me this and i just... [bursts into tears] fuck look at his baby maknae line and his rapline why would someone make this beautiful thing 😭😭😭

ALSO. here's another wt snippo for you hehehhe. i realized i don't have a lot of juicy snippos that i can post without essentially giving out spoilers lol

It's been about two weeks since you'd seen him, though the memories of that evening are still fresh in your mind - the evening of the group dinner, when he'd kissed you goodnight and left for his parents' house the following day. True to his words, he did send you pictures of the cats - ones of Soonie wearing a matching hoodie with him, a few of Doongie and Dori napping at the foot of his bed. There was an accompanying text - The kids miss you - along with a frowning emoji, and it made you wonder if what he really meant was I miss you.