#...im delirious arent i

[shameless-and-delirious]

i do not play with ghost trick kitty

i just dont know which should be keychains which should be phone charms or both or neither.... Man

[baphomuttt]

boombox ult

[beesorcery]

google how do i tell my dad that the reason i keep bringing up elon musk's transphobia isn't that i've got gen z political tunnel vision that makes me blind to his "innovation" in electric cars but because i am desperately crying out for you as the father of a trans child to feel just as outraged and angry as i am that that man has so much power

[todayisafridaynight]

uhhh something something 'the only time a yakuza should laugh with his teeth is when he's with family or in trouble' something something arakawa gradually doing so more and more when hanging around jo something something Uh Oh™️

[mx-paint]

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[fatallyaddictedtofiction]

My memory might be serving me incorrectly, but it hurts so bad when i think about Dean confronting Mary in her mind, and dean is listing everything that happened to Sam because of Mary's deal with Azazel, but he doesn't mention ANYTHING about what happened to him: not that he went to hell, was tortured for 40 years, suffered years of abuse from John, almost died multiple other times, became a demon, bore the mark of cain etc etc and i know those arent a direct result of Mary's deal with Azazel, but the whole reason Dean became a hunter was because Mary died and John forced him to, and if Mary hadn't have made that deal she never would have died so early.

I just find it so so interesting and self-depricating when Dean measures in "Sam-sadness" or "Sam-age" when Dean was there too and could so easily say it effected him too, but because Dean has grown up his whole life devaluing his own while protecting Sam to the point of self-destruction, he cant possibly say how old he was at the time, or what happened to him.

I dont know im pretty tired and delirious right now this may or may not make sense?

[oceanwithouthermoon]

i think every single person in saikis group still sleeps with at least one stuffed animal, or in a few cases wants to but is too insecure to and just has lots of pillows/blankets instead (idc that weve literally seen some of their bedrooms and they arent like this idc idc its the vibe)

its saiki, kuboyasu, and saiko that are too insecure btw👍

yume definitely has the MOST stuffed animals on her bed, i think she barely has space for herself😭definitely makes little outfits for them too, probably has at least one teddy bear that she changes into pajamas every night with her

imu is in second place for the most

aiura only has a few but theyre really big ones, like a body pillow sized tiger stuffy and a unicorn or something like that

teru has a pretty regular teddy bear with various accessories she probably sews herself.. like cute little bows and scarves.. she also has a few stuffed animal keychains, and a couple of cutesy stuffies she got from yumehara

mera used to have a lot of those food themed stuffed animals on her bed, like sushi cats or burger cats if you know what im talking about, but she would get extra delirious in the mornings when she was hungry and try to take bites out of them☠️they are now stored on her desk or in her closet and her bed has just a few bunnies and cats yume gave her

hairo strikes me as the type of guy to keep his childhood stuffed animals and blankeys for the rest of his life because they mean something to him.. so he probably has a standard teddy bear, along with some superhero blankets and some build-a-bear stuffies with fun outfits (i bet you he thought superman and other superheroes were real guys when he was a kid, and looked up to them and wanted to be just like them)

nendo also has his old baby blanket and childhood teddy bear but they are absolutely in TATTERS

akechi has like an ocean themed entire bed i think☠️his sheets and blankets are shades of blue and he has a bunch of sea creature stuffed animals

toritsuka has body pillows but that goes without saying.. i think he also has a batman stuffed animal (or like, a build-a-bear with a batman costume.. because thats what i have lol) which he refuses to admit

saiko and kuboyasu never really got stuffed animals from their parents as kids and never thought to ask for them (neither of them know how they wouldve responded and it freaks them out) but they would always get secretly jealous of other kids who had stuffed animals and cute toys and keychains.. they probably both have some that either they made (yasu crocheting hc🫶) or were given to them recently by the group but they hide them out of embarrassment

saiki prob also has a few from the group and keeps them mostly hidden

[ravewing]

question about your infection au!! it's probably not possible, but if an infected were to recover mentally enough to communicate, would they do so? and how would they do it? i had an idea that they either communicate through ragged writing, or some form of Morse code through clicking of the tendrils (though to be honest with you i'd have a feeling they'd just beg to be put out of their misery)

im kind of delirious rn bc i just woke up from One of Those Naps (tm) so i might not he understanding this correctly but if you mean like after being cured then like they would end up with lots of scarring but overall would return to 'normal' (like their body's immune system would be able to fight off and kill anything the infection left in their body, including the tendrils that were growing in their lungs) (+ also the tendrils arent visible until stage 4, in which they are already incurable soo,,) BUT hypothetically like if that werent the case + the dragon maintained the tendrils somehow id think that like theyd come up with like some kind of sign language but the morse code is a really cool concept too!! id imagine that mute dragons already exist in wof canon so like there has to be SOME kind of sign language but idk. ty for the ask😋

[wiihtigo]

wiihtigo.tumblr.com/post/743934944739557376/ okay enough about Nell dying. what about that bad ending 2 with Casey dying 👀

grimacing at you sort of mournfully

similar to nell I think it happens during some big event- not as big as a crisis event alien invasion like nell but a citywide threat..(otherwise known as a regular tuesday in gotham), nell is out as ladybug helping out along with some gotham regulars (i imagine batman and nightwing are skulking around) shes not working WITH them exactly. theyre just out and shes also out at the same time and theyre fighting the same things. you see.

casey tags along sometimes when ladybug is out doing her thing because she lowkey doesnt respect nells job and thinks they can just combine patrolling and hanging out, BUT this time she actually stayed home. shes just laying on the couch, maybe scrolling her phone or finding something to watch on tv or dozing off into a nap when something hits their building. For the kind of big show-y jackass-y destruction thats happening in the city ive had it in mind this is a joker stunt. Not that thats super important even, hes not directly involved with casey blowing up. Anyways something hits their building and casey is crushed or...pierced by debris. She manages to fish out to phone (now cracked to shit) and calls nell for help (her reasoning being that nell will treat her as priority and come get her and help her ASAP meanwhile the ambulance's and police in gotham are pretty busy already)

Luckily, Nell picks up and immediately hears something is wrong even though casey (delirious and in shock) does not open with "there is a wooden beam lodged in my ribs come fucking get me" and instead is like "um...are you almost finished with work i think you should come home now. someone broke your window. its cold in here" but her voice is really strained and shes breathing kind of hard.

Nell is already speeding away but hes really far from their apartment and these stupid henchmen just keep getting in the way and its hard to keep casey talking when casey is usually the one DOING THE TALKING. but they do. keep talking together i mean. nell is kind of short with her at first because hes also kind of freaking but once casey starts panicking near the end when hes starting to realize hes cooked he starts lying to him telling him that hes almost there hes almost up the stairs and to just hang on a second more (hes like 20 blocks away)

at first casey was like. freshly in shock. so she wasnt talking about things like they happened. she asks nell to come home and clean up the glass on the floor because if she looked down and sees the blood coming out of her she was going to flip out or something. but the longer nell takes the more she starts to get scared and desperate and whiny (notice how i can find ways to insult her even as shes dying..now thats love) the more nell lies to her the more her solid faith in ladybug saving her ungrateful self is wavering. shes never let her down before! casey always follows nell/ladybug around and gets into trouble and nell always picks up her by the scruff of her neck and drags her back home. its basically what their relationship was built on, nell taking a random criminal home and promising to keep her on the up and up. nell is big and tough and strong and confident and independent and stable. these are all qualities casey really liked about nell right from the get go and its why, aside from being given a rent free place to live in, she stuck around this long even through the less desirable traits of hers and how insufferable she finds her sometimes.

in her fear (and pain) she starts swinging wildly between anger and pleading like "why arent you here yet!??! do you think im gonna die?? are you even coming?? are you doing this on purpose because youre mad at something i did.? WELL IM SORRY! FUCK! WILL YOU PLEASE COME GET ME NOW!!!!!!' (im sure this isnt doing anything to help nells stress levels. can someone tell her to relax?)

Nell.....did the smartest thing anyone has ever done in the history of the world, and before, when he took the call and nightwing noticed his alarm and comes down to say "hey is everything ok--" he brushes him off and speeds off to go deal with casey himself. Because casey is his responsibility and he doesnt really like nightwing. or any of the bats. nell is self sufficient, over confident, and (quoting from marty) "she has tunnel vision and chronic independence syndrome and by viewing caseys wellbeing as her own responsibility she has inadvertently doomed them" (unquote) (crowd booing sfx)

he could have asked for help from someone who could fly, or asked oracle to patch him through to an ambulance to get to the apartment faster than she could, or accepted nightwings offer to help knowing that hes more experienced than she is as a hero or done any number of things that would have to involve swallowing his pride, but he didnt and when he arrives back home casey is already gone

to be fair she wasnt really thinking straight. but wow, way to go nell. you really fucked that one up. can we cancel this heinous heinous bug?

when i compare our intrepid heroes death scenes in my mind i lol bcuz nell is like (coughing up blood) fuuuck i cant believe i loved that stupid girl. oh well. bleh. but casey in her last moments is like NO NO NO NO NO I DONT WANT TO DIE STOOOOP WTF WTF WTF

i think shes so panicked and frantic and scared in her last moments the complete opposite of nell accepting death and feeling content she did everything she could have (at least in regards to crimefighting that day)

she probably didnt even think it was a possibility until the last minute. shes so self confident. too self confident. some might even call it...stupidity.

in the way nell is letting her eyes creak shut thinking about a phantom image of casey and is just filled with regretful sadness, casey is not thinking fondly on ANY memory shes clutching onto her phone and wishing nells voice would jump out of the speakers and be there in front of her and carry her away and keep taking care of her FOREVER i mean keep financially supporting her until shes casted into the new scream film. she cant accept shes going to die. she wont accept it. she did so much hard work for so long to make something of her life and it was all just going to end in one night...she finally found a friend she could stomach the company of, actually enjoyed the company of, and it was all for nothing. AGAIN! these are depths of despair only previously felt when booster FIRED HER! she doesnt ..blame nell, exactly. well she kind of does. but its different than it was with booster. she put the full brunt of blame entirely on booster to shield herself from the possibility .. maybe her own choices and actions have something to do with the outcomes in her life? (NO NOT POSSIBLE) she is angry at nell for not being there. but shes also sad and confused and scared and all these mixed up emotions and even though shes angry at nell Somewhat she also...eugh....CARES about nell, and she thinks that nell also cares about her. (unclear in what way. and now we'll never know..SAD) so she isnt casting hexes on her like she had with booster, who she knew didnt really give her the time of day like ever. she just wishes she wouldve been there with her

but when have i ever given casey anything she wanted.

again, i advise you to go knock down martys door if you want more nell deets but im told ted and michelle support him through this (and isnt that more than casey ever got in the canon end? see..not so bad)

im also told he doesnt tell spider, caseys mom, about casey dying until 8 months after the fact. which im sure just about drives that poor woman over the edge. nell bishop are you ready to die..?

[yi3248]

look at them... you do not know how excited i am to finally get them. there's also different holographic effects for the 4 stickers!! i especially love the snowflake effect on roach, like the snowflake is slowly blooming on it

THE TINY STICKERS OUUGH IM GOING TO CHEW ON THEM. so teeny tiny... im going to hide them all over my dorm sorry it's like 1 am and ive been feeling under the weather im a bit delirious

imagine my pleasant surprise finding out the seller packed 2 more sets of stickers??? i was already planning to have a give away, just so I know at least a set of them will be in good hands, in case the shop doesnt work out (international shipping is a nightmare wdym stickers arent allowed in airmail)

so tentatively, ill set up a give away, 1 place for a set of the 4 holographic stickers, 2 places for the glitter ghostroach + glossy ghostsoap. keep an eye out for info later this week!

also... would it be alright if the shipping takes at least a month, up to 3 months? 🥺 that's the economical shipping option, but the downside is the delivery time im so sorry about this

[calpalsworld]

question: do you think any of your doors entity designs would enjoy a little gift?

like, someone leaves a new vacuum for ambush or smth

Really cool question. I didnt think that much about their personalities!

The example you gave would be true. Rush and Ambush for example have no malicious intent. They are just doing their jobs and have been trapped doing their jobs for so long while under the mysterious cursed effects of the Hotel, that they have a hard time processing and understanding visitors. They dont mean to kill you. If you got them at a calm moment, (perhaps on break), they would pay attention to you and be grateful for a gift.

Dread is similar but I think she has been cursed longer than Rush and Ambush, so she is more delirious and confused. Shes really sad (I mean her name is Dread) but you could make her happy somehow I think.

Both Hides are ghosts, in pain/shy, but not too malicious. Halt(s) are ghosts too. I think the different staff has different personalities and intentions, but even kind ones accidentally harm you due to their ghostly properties.

Haste was just kinda aggressive before it was cursed so thats why it acts like that LOL. Would be normal and friendly and enjoy gifts (likes fashion btw) -- if you arent running late on your room reservation.

Grumbles are pretty aggressive and not really into human things anymore... they only have vague memories from a past life of what humanity is like...

Giggles and Screeches would probably play with you and love toys. But watch out.

Seek is not friendly at all. They're barely a person anymore. There's nothing they'd like from you sorry....

As for the other entities Im not sure but tldr; Yes most of them would like gifts! --although, ghost entities cant help but harm you, cursed employee entities have been driven mad, and those who have died and turned into something new are the most malicious, and would not appreciate most gifts.

[losercade]

Listening to Sherlock & Co! Thoughts so far:

EP. 4:

- this will be the last episode I listen to tonight 🫡

- 🗣 326 STEPS

- he CAN handle the stairs !!!

- let him go the pub if he wants

- "I'm unemployed!!" 😭😭

- I don't want to have conversation either, sherlock.

- "YOU ARE INCORRECT SIR!!!!"

- "I AM NOT YOUR BLOODY MATE"

- yell at him sherlock go off king

- LMFAO "unless your planning on challenging him to a duel"

- I died in minecraft shoot (delete this one it has nothing to do with sherlock & co)

- OH YEAH WE STOLE HIS PHONE

- NO MORE DRIPS

- no don't leave :(

- HES COVERED IN BLOOD

- oaqhwh.. his nose...

- I forgot he was a doctor lmao

- mrs. Hudson 😌

- "goodness me Watson I'm delirious"

- "when I was letting him beat me up"

- OH SHOOT THE VASES ARE STOLEN ARENT THEY?!

- oh maybe they're not

- "just doin my homework :)"

- THE MUG STORES THE ACID JUST FINE

- YOU GOT THIS WATSON I BELIEVE IN YOU

- MONEYYYYYYY

- tests also give me anxiety Watson

- "are you insane???" "No I'm broke"

- give Watson his sponsor yeesh

- oh this guy's a creep holy

- don't make her drink tea

- WRONG ? Oh no

- oh boy

- CREEP CREEP CREEP CREEP

- "prepare to be jealous 😌"

- WATSON LEAVE THE ROOM!!!! HE WENT "pretty please 🥺"

- WATSON NO

- EUGH HES CREEPY

- MY personal space feels invaded

- NO HIS MICROPHONE

- :(

- "I'm doing a podcast 😀"

- THE LORD OF THE MINGS IM SOBBINF 😭😭😭

- get out of there guys he's a creep

- YES GOSH KILL HIM

- RUN WATSON GO HELP HER

- HOLY CRAP IS THAT THE END

- good moral. Don't have acid in kitchen and don't have guests. Great.

- yay she's safe!!! :)

- CASE CLOSED CASE CLOSED OGMRJEGGRHEEJHEHEHEHEHWJJHhrhrr...

- oh he's alive...? Put him in jail

- counting steps :)

- lmfao he's right he did complain about having an empty fridge

- more money wonderful !!

- YEA SET UP A BUISNESS FINALLY SOMEONE SAID IT

- YES HELP THEM PLEASE 😭😭😭

- SHERLOCK & CO YEWHHAHGWGWGEYEGEGE

- oh boy

- I love this

- charge your mic better king

- "THE ADVENTURE OF THE SOCK THIEF 😒"

- OH I'm going crazy that was wonderful 😭😭😭 I love this sm

[cogbreath]

ngl even tho i had faith in both you and allah that whatever you had done would not be the end of you i WAS worried still so yeah like everyone else is saying i'm also rly glad that you're recovering. congrats on surviving life's bullshit yet again my friend. may the next one maybe be less painful tho bc that did/does not sound like a fun time

jazakallah khair ❤️

and i do wanna apologise for worrying you guys. we all do know that i didnt mean to but i do understand how even when we r aware of that, it can still hurt and be scary to see someone u care about end up in a situation like that and it can be confusing and frustrating cuz of the fact its so clearly not a good thing to do to oneself. but im rlly rlly thankful that despite all that you guys have it in your hearts to be so so gentle and kind to me which seriously means the world to me

im not entirely sure how bad my situation really was, because it's honestly difficult for me to remember how much i actually ended up drinking, my memory is rlly blurry about it but i do know that i did pass out for a while. i wasn't exactly worried at first that i felt that i needed to puke and legit was shocked when i started seeinf it turning red n shit. i wanfed to believe that somehow it was just something i ate that was also red but when i started tasting the taste of iron i Knew. because it seemed to be becoming more and more bloody i was like. "o fuck." i was still aware of ans believing in the resilience of the human body, reminding myself that people have literally survived getting hit with a particle beam in the head, but nonetheless it doesnt change the fact that vomiting blood is something associated with fatal outcomes. i guess honestly it really doesn't matter either way what the true severity of it was and i shouldn't trouble myself too much about trying to figure it out because no matter what, it was a dangerous and bad situation to be in. also im not detailing more now about what happened so as to be shocking or graphic but like i just want to be honest about it so i can help process it and help u guys have more clarity on what happened now that im not as delirious and panicked as i was when it all went down

i wasnt scared to die and honestly no matter what never will be because of the way my brain is wired about the concept of death, but what i was most scared of was that ppl i care about and that allah would be mad at me. so it helps a lot to have that affirmed that nobodys mad at me and nobody thinks that i'm stupid or had it coming

sorry if this is more than u expected as a response, but you guys are some of the only people i can feel comfortable being truly deeply honest with. i dont ever intend to trouble you with things that arent your job to manage and i dont intend to freak people out. but maybe thats not nice to assume thats what anyone is thinking. ily

[actualbird]

SPEAKING of my bipolar, it is now well over a month after ive been on my new combo of meds and my current review of it is a solid 4/5

pros that have happened since ive been on the meds:

has generally stopped or dampened all the Worst Bits of The Way My Brain Is (not going into random crying jags out of nowhere anymore!!! not scratching at my face in a delirious rage that came out of nowhere anymore!! and much more not being done anymore!!! not as immensely paranoid and having vividly visual intrusive thoughts anymore!!)

has upped my productivity like CRAZY (i wrote two whole new fics and updated a fic i left on hiatus for over a year, i finished the dang nxx vol 2 analyses compilation)

has made me less of a raging fucking bitch when sensory overloaded. (now im just......a little bit of a raging fucking bitch when sensory overloaded. which is progress!!!)

cons that have happened since ive been on the new meds

the Not So Worst Bits of The Way My Brain Is still persists, but i assume i actually need like uhhhhh coping mechanisms for that. coping mechanisms that arent chain smoking dshfksdffs

the 100mg lamotrigine pill is fucking huge and i keep choking on it

[bulllinachinashop]

Youth pushes back lawlesness in a sprint through the desert of hallucinatory joy. I was a forest fire, you were a quick match, it was love before it was ash It's cliche the way we love, youths untamed heart its Helen and Paris and a thousand lives lost but it was love, it was love before they slaughtered it with their self righteous frontal lobe consequence I'm still left here where the dust has settled, I'm still trying to reshape your melted bones to make pinocchio into a real boy and its over, its over, its over. I know. The aftercredits roll but im still in the cinema reading it all, listening to our song. Its over, its over, its over. By the love that grew logics tumorouss cancer. The promises we made in the sand ate away by the ocean of 'what a shame. I loved you in my youth. Youth is a lifetime. And if youth is a lifetime. Leaving you became my death. The mothers knit sweaters for my children. they arent yours. delirious in their conquest of snuffing forbidden love. and i was a bull in a china shop. i refused to be molded into a 'good girl' trope until vacancy stretched and i was left bitter, mourning for i feared death. there is a me before you and the self after. and God i lost you for them and in the process, they lost me aswell. 'your bitterness consumes you' their laughter compells and i was never good at following my own rules. i know shattering the world wont bring me to you. I love you. -s.i.a. // This is the love letter I never sent.

[upsidedowngrass]

do yuo yave any more liam thoughts im delirious rn a d i need my boy. I need my boy.

i ALWAYS have liam thughts every day of my LIFE . they may not be esp collected bc i have many so i dont have specific ones ive planned to share BUT ill throw some of my thoughts on him in Bullet Point Form and may end up elaborating on a few in particular :) (lot of these may be more vague, and some r more just things ive had on my mind cus ive been planning stuff!!!!)

generally, i think liam stays in airys world for a while, yeah, but i think he gets the contestants out before 8 months. this is mostly bc of charlotte. BUT also, we know airy has been in this place for "at least a decade," but oscar ALSO says he was on the plane "at least a decade ago." so its unclear how long airy WAS there for (if we assume that one takes place in the 2010s, in 2020-its vague and im not sure if cheesys ever clarified- but no code by pearl jam came out in 1996, so if its 2010s, hes only been dead for a bit over ten years, and 2020 would mean somewhere between 1996-2010, and this ISNT accounting for how long he spent in the waiting room) but it seems? that it didnt take him. actually THAT long to figure out how to teleport people to and from the plane. it seems to have been one of the easier things he figured out! (aside from actually creating planets) and? airy was a trucker. he COULDVE had tech experience, and i think sometimes people overestimate how much exp liam would have with tech as a telemarketer, ill have to look that up, but like. hed DEF have more exp w computers, just based on profession, so id imagine at least INTERFACING would be easier. the point of this is that i dont think liam would take long to find out how to teleport people, esp not ten years. especially with as much nonstop effort he shows in the series (compared to airy, who was likely in no rush, though im sure rushing WOULD mess with the speed that liam would figure things out), i think hed figure it out way sooner than airy did, and thats not even TRULY accounting that airy couldve taken any amount of time to figure it out

continuing that, ive seen ppl say that the computer wouldnt be able to teleport him home, but if my theory that the kill command is actually just an offshoot of the code used to teleport people (which ive posted abt before, but to summarize, when characters die, their bodies remain, but when the kill command is used, their bodies disappear, as shown at the end of universe modulation) is correct, the computer isnt restricted just to the plane. i think the extent of its abilities are mostly reserved for the planets it makes, but i think it may have otehr functions outside of these (such as interdimensional internet access, apparently). the point of all of this is that i think hed be able to send everyone home eventually, and i think it actually makes SENSE for him to get home. i think being able to teleport himself back home would take way longer than teleporting the others, esp since he most likely has the base code for the others (and airy didnt seem to actually BE concerned w getting home. he was lonely, but i dont think it was home that he was concerned with), but i think hed get home eventually

on that note, ive also said before that my family hcs for him vary. i OFTEN depict him as a middle child mainly bc it gives him people whove been waiting for him to come back that arent just one coworker. BUT i do sometimes depict him as an only child . it depends on the day. BUT!!! i thnk no matter what, once he gets home, he stays with owen the first day/night back. i think hed move in w bryce and amelia and charlotte very genuinely, but i think this would happen after MANY months. maybe a year or so. he needs some time. i think in that time, he stays w owen, OR if im depicting him as a middle sibling i throw him w one or both of them

also i dont actually think they contradict canon. ik a lot of people sometimes see liam NOT going to family after getting home as an indicator that he has no close family but like. tbh i dont think it even mattered HOW close he was w any family. i think the moment he saw that he was presumed dead, any hope hed had that things would return to normal, if that even was on his mind, just disappeared. because he was Dead.there wasnt anything left because he disappeared, he died, and that was it. before he looks at the notes he just kind of. looks lost. because at that pt he doesnt HAVE an idea of what hes going to do. all hes thinking abt is that this is Fucked. and i dont think it had anything to do w being close to people, or having friends or family (though it does seem to be mildly implied that he WASNT close w that many people, but i dont think that rly has much to do w whether he has siblings. siblings arent always SUPER tight knit, tho i think they were all at least friends :) ). i think he just. didnt know what to DO because he doesnt have almost Anything to his existence anymore, he just existed one day then he didnt!!! and then after looking at the notes, he still was dead, but he could still do Something about the plane with whatever he had left, not in possesions, but of Himself

on the subject of how he responded to things, i think SO often about how he seems to respond to stress. thruout the series, he is shown responding to small AND major stressors, and ive dedicated my life to studying the minute details of Liam Behavior so that i can make sure i understand him As Much As Possible. and? he is soooo not loud. under any pressure, he just Stops doing things. like the end of ep 1 could be excused as shock, but there are SO many instances of him just sorta. Stopping, or at the very least Not speaking when stressed, just tuning things out (if hes not full on dissociating, but since hes also generally Quiet it CAN be hard to distinguish if he is or not, since sometimes he may just Not be talking. i still have yet to study him wrt this but i will eventually), theres even lighter examples of this, like him Not saying anything in ep 2 when everyones yelling at airy, or him passing by bryce in ep 13 and seeming to think that would work? he just. often responds to things by NOT responding to them. there are only a few instances where he deviates from this, such as in ep 2 when he yells at airy, in eps 10 and 13 when he yells at bryce, and the many many times he yells at airy thru eps 17 and 18. but what ties these all together is that what REALLY pushes him to go from quiet to loud is when people are Ignoring Vital Details. when they are Confidently sticking to smth thats Incorrect and WONT listen to him (which is a bit more subjective w bryce ofc, but its still Incorrect to him). i think this also can of course extend to morally incorrect, as shown in ep 18, but even then, i think the main catalyst for what he says there is desperacy. he isnt asking airy why owens on his computer because he doesnt know. liam can be reckless throughout one (which is HEAVILY influenced by stress), but hes not stupid. he KNOWS why owen was there. i think THAT was just. denial? a need to know why? i dont know what specifically the emotion is, but at that pt, airy is acting FAR beyond what liam can reason him to not do. and? liam DOESNT say anything when he tries to kill airy. liam yells when people are being illogical, or not listening. because he WANTS them to listen. but airy wont listen to him. ive said it before but ill say it 2 billion times more that liam trying to kill airy was NEVER abt anger. really? he was acting how he acts when STRESSED. when hes NERVOUS . he historically Stops talking when hes under a lot of stress, and yells when indignant or frustrated

this does influence how i try to depict him, because i dont think hes an esp angry person, but when people wont Listen i think THAT does make him mad (and i think its also why he doesnt go to people when he gets home. if he wanted to talk abt things, he wants to talk to people abt how they ARE, not a fake version that people will believe. i think him getting a therapist post-canon is very challenging because of this. he is very stubborn) but when hes stressed or nervous he seems way more likely to Stop doing anything, and its smth i try to take into account when writing him SO much. he CAN be scared and still talking n stuff, but if its too bad hes more likely to freeze up

man tho. people joke abt him fighting REALLY poorly in ep 18 but i think people forget that he is running on FUMES. airy has been chopping down trees for years, hes fine. but liam got to bryces house and slept til morning, and seems to have maybe slept a litttttle? in ep 13, but its not very clear. he may have just sat there til the coast was clear for him to steal bryces car. who knows. but THEN he crashed a car (NOBODY points out that he was limping. either he was very out of it or that guy injured his leg AGAIN. i dont think it was a breakage but he SEEMS like hes in pain and then forgets it). then died a bunch of times. spent a WHOLE day awake. then went to airys world. and is just around for a while, cries, talks to airy, and Likely sleeps a little til morning. or at least lays there. its ALSO not clear. and keep in mind, he JUST spent the week before nonstop hitchhiking with likely minimal food or water bc he... doesnt have money (which i dont think is needed in airys world. i think it and the plane maintain people who live there, but thats its own hc). that, and with the way i interpret how the waiting room heals injuries, his leg may not have fully healed (which airy DEF didnt help. you are NOT supposed to straighten out broken legs. it was better than nothing but that guys leg is NOT healed) similarly, i dont imagine his arm is doing much better. those last few parts CAN be set to the side since that IS just how i interpret the waiting room but even aside from those. all of this to say that when he is fighting airy i think he is VERY obviously Really Fucking Tired. like yeah of COURSE hes not going to aim an AXE well. this guy hasnt known rest in 7 months and KEEPS getting injured. OBVIOUSLY hes not gonna fight well!!! hell, hes never FOUGHT someone with an AXE before. i think hes a little inexperienced on that front too!!!!!!

OH YEAH. sleeping thing reminded me. i think he and amelia sleep on the floor so much out of habit. i think they could sleep ANYWHERE but also bc theyre both so used to shitty sleeping conditions, good sleeping conditions make them fall asleep SUPER fast. this eases w time but i think it happens a lot. i think for the first few months, if liam has one blanket he just goes wow! thats comfortable (falls asleep)