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#3am ramblings
lost-in-time-marie · 10 days
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Anemoia
There’s something about the gossamer of these sheer white curtains that strikes me. Maybe the way the winds move through them, makes them an alive and writhing thing. Or the way they remind me of the ocean, billowing out towards me, yearning to touch me, and then retreating away suddenly timid. I like images like that. Curtains blowing gently beside a thrown open window leading to a twinkling inky black sky. A large flock of birds that abruptly disperse, some unknown telepathic communication between them, as they soar off into the distance into some secret part of the world not meant for me. My soul recognizes something in these glimpses and fragments of fleeting moments. I don’t know what it is; a goodbye, an escape, a fleeing departure. I don’t have words for why my soul instinctively wants to leap out that window into the sky or bubble up and away with the birds.
~K.
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hyouka-m · 1 year
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You are my muse,
who reminds me of sunset views
And ocean blues
You
My sole addiction.
You are the dream I wish to pursue
The only one I can’t refuse,
You
My sole obsession.
You are the one I didn’t choose
My fate, who I never want to lose
the place where hope and magic infuse
You
My sole exception.
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popkicks · 1 year
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I need people to know how important Marisha Ray’s characters are to me.
I relate wayyy too heavily to Keyleth with my insecurities, anxiety, and pressure to do my family right.
Beau is stronger than I’ll ever be but her anger and bitterness at the world still resonates with me.
And Laudna, she is peak weird but also masks her sadness with her humor and extravagance. Something that I tend to do as well.
I wish I could thank Marisha for giving me three powerful women to find bits of myself in because it makes me believe that if those qualities make them amazing characters, maybe they are okay qualities to have. I hope to one day be as strong as Marisha bc the one trait that is true to her and all of her characters is their strength and perseverance.
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averyzversi0n · 1 month
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WHERE THE FUCKK ARE THE DAMON ALBARN FICS ON AO3 FROM A YEAR AGO BOOO BOOO BOOO BOOO I NEED SOMETHING TO READ WHILE IM HIGH AS FUCK IM ON A HIGH RIGHT NOW AND THE D IS FIREEEEEEE 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥FIREEEEEEEEE DAMON I LOVE YOIIUUUUUUU AAAAAAAAAAAAA CUPCAKKE HAS FIRE ASS MUSIC WOOO WOOO 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥DAMONNNNNN MAKE A SONG WITH CUPCAKKE PLEASEEEEEEEE
im so desperate im going to wattpad.
WATTPAD IS FOR NINE YEAR OLDS WHO ARE DISCOVERING SMUT FOR THE FIRST TIME AND IT RUINS THEM FOREVER.
damon albarn fanfiction community your never gonna guess what i just wrote. its being gatekept til further notice sorryyy
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unknown-darlings · 2 months
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‘it is a very greek idea, and a very profound one. beauty is terror. whatever we call beautiful, we quiver before it. and what could be more terrifying and beautiful, to souls like the greeks or our own, than to lose control completely?’
- donna tartt in the secret history
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throughout the book there are darker/more uncertain undertones hidden beneath a mirage
an example of this being the blissful day they spend on the lake, all written as though in a haze, only to end when camilla steps on the hidden glass, cutting her foot i can’t help but see the parallels between this and the idea that everything they do is controlled by the hidden dangers, both physical and mental, surrounding them
there is also a great separation between the idealised aestheticism of the story and the reality which is presented
whereas often an aesthetic of greek statues, ivy, and red wine in ornate glasses is what comes to be associated with the novel, the reality is champagne in teapots and hypothermia in mandolin factories
and whilst this is an aesthetic in and of itself, the contrast of the two appearances the book portrays says much about its lesson
a key example of this is the simple act of bunny choosing to start carrying around a book of plato, as opposed to trashier novels and magazines, just before julian visits. this act indicates the movement from the reality to the ideal, and so indicating this point
one way to illustrate this is through looking at the difference between poisonous berries and poisonous flowers, or hands covered in soil versus hands covered in blood after an act of murder
the berries and blood here representing the idealised version of the book many, including myself, have of the book as they both clearly indicate danger as well as fitting into a clear aesthetic
however the soil and flowers represent the reality the book portrays, the greater uncertainty and willingness to assume innocence despite the clear indications to the contrary
and so, through idealisation and the formation of a harmonious and elegant image in our minds, the uncertainties so evident when taking a step back manage to escape immediate notice, thus creating the illusion of harmlessness which so fools richard himself along with us
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beebopboom · 4 months
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Paranoia and Isolation
Aziraphale edition - mainly
(Now for this you are going to have to take the lockdown video as canon which I know I know it’s in that weird space but this is just for fun - take what you will)
Aziraphale’s and Crowley’s relationship quite literally has paranoia built into its foundation and that shit ain't just going to go away. Even in the Before the Beginning scene you see Aziraphale worried about someone listening in. However I'm not here to talk about the Before but the After, after Armageddon that is. On the bench you can see Aziraphale start to relax now that they have survived and really have no need to hide anymore until - until Crowley says it’s not over.
“No for my money the really big one is all of us against all of them”
Now for my money I’d say that put Aziraphale back into an "it's not over” mindset - that they still had to stay in their respective angel and demon roles to stay safe - and it’s followed with "time to leave the garden" or time to start all over again - and then crowley’s "temptation" to the ritz or putting himself right back into the role he has been playing for centuries
My point is that they have acknowledged that they will be left alone for a bit but eventually something is going to pull them back in - it's not over and it's still not safe enough to live out their forever together just yet - and they are just sitting around waiting for that something to happen, safe in their roles but now not trying to hide their relationship, at least that is to Aziraphale - it’s a fragile existence
Except they pushed it a little further than that didn't they? they were rather domestic and both planned confessions. why? what changed?
The pandemic happened and they didn't spend it together.
They had maybe a year of this new version of an old dynamic and they probably saw each other a lot until they couldn't. They were separated - largely due to themselves - but separated nonetheless. I mean my lord were they trying not to be but it wasn’t working because they were still trying to play into their roles. When the video was released it was about 2 months into the UK lockdown I believe and Crowley was already so very bored, planning on going to sleep if he couldn’t see Aziraphale. But I want to focus on Aziraphale because he was going stir crazy, he was restless. We see a lot of books most of which can be linked back to Season One and based on him saying he discovered a cookbook section I'd say he is just going through the whole shop, plus all the baking.
Now my point is in his isolation Aziraphale’s practically ingrained paranoia got ramped up and he didn't have Crowley there to bring it back down, so his brain latched on to what could happen to them next and he did what he’s best at - researching, starting with Tadfield. And he was writing it all down in a letter to Crowley (the contents of this letter haunt me, information? Love letter? Both? anyway) - the use of Esq (which I had to look up) is really interesting at this point in their relationship to because it is mainly used in a professional sense. But anyway Aziraphale, our angel that prides himself on his prophecy books, probably had a million ideas of what was coming and was narrowing it down by what happened in Tadfield
But then lockdown ended and they were able to see each other again so perhaps some of this faded into the background but didn't entirely go away. They get about another year before Gabriel shows up and man did they miss each other - those lines they had got so blurred and they slipped out of their roles even more - practically forgotten
And I’m not saying it’s just Aziraphale that is paranoid, I mean we see Crowley is also keeping an eye on Tadflied in the beginning of season two and his whole thing with Gabriel. But whereas Aziraphale’s isolation heightened paranoia had him throwing himself into trying to figure out what was going to happen so he could protect their future(*cough*cottage photo*cough*), Crowley’s had him trying his damnness to protect them as they were now so they didn’t need to concern themselves with Heaven’s or Hell's games - there was no point in it anymore, the whole angel and demon thing - so he dropped the act and started to just live (probably should have told Aziraphale that)
so like that is already so much miscommunication before they even meet up this season
and when the Metatron offers Aziraphale the job it really shined a light on that
It’s not something Aziraphale expects but good lord does it make his job easier in putting the last pieces together - now he just needs Crowley with him (I can do a final talk analysis later)
Except that doesn't happen because Crowley just wants to be done but Aziraphale is just so close and he is going to see this through
I mean before they even get to the lift he is trying to figure out and confirm what the next steps are. He definitely knew what The Second Coming was said to entail and his prediction that he wrote down in that letter was right - he had a plan
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razzithold · 10 months
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Honestly it does get on my nerves at times to see so many mean-spirited memes and complaints whenever a character that is largely shipped with another character by fanon later is canonically set up with someone else and the part of fanon that had that specific ship loses their shit and decides they're going to shit on whoever "ruined" their ship so to speak (usually a female character getting shit on so there's an underpinning of misogyny).
Like it's okay for ships to not be canon. You can still ship what you want regardless of canon. If you hate a ship you hate a ship, you don't necessarily need a moral justification every damn time, doesn't mean you should harass anyone.
Also, just because a character gets in a relationship or marriage or such doesn't necessarily mean they're blocked off from all other romantic and/or sexual relationships, polyamorous relationships exist as do open relationships.
Are you allowed to feel upset if something that was teased gets snubbed in favor of a different relationship? Sure. Are some of the fanon interpretations spawned due to queerbaiting? Often. Take that up with the writers and the companies restricting what they can and can't publish but don't take it to the level of harassing people over fictional characters. If a piece of media keeps going in a direction you don't like, you can choose to stop consuming and engaging with that media, it's okay. But also I do understand continuing to engage with media out of spite because of that good ol sunk cost fallacy and wanting to know how it ends. If anything that gives more fodder for people to write fix-it fics.
TL:DR is canon ships aren't endangering your ability to ship whatever the fuck you want, if you wanna ship the main character and a random background character that shows up in one scene rather than the canonical marriage, go for it, just don't harass real people over this fictional media.
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high-petroleum · 9 months
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I just realized something. Remember the theory matpat had about crying child’s name being Evan? Evan is just another variant of the name, John
They both come from Yohanan, the original Hebrew name
And that spawned names like Jack, Sean and so forth, which are just different versions of J o h n in different languages and cultures.
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harrietmjones · 1 year
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My mind has conjured up a moment/thought up scene for the show and I just had to share.
(Poorly structured/not edited writing below! You’ve been warned. 😂)
The scene starts with a shot of Lucy leaning against her kitchen counter, towards the bathroom, a particular turned on look on her face. We then see what (or who she’s looking at).
The bathroom door is ajar and there standing inside the room, with his naked back towards her, is Tim (the shot looks identical to that 5x01 scene, where Lucy accidentally breaks Tim’s mind in the hotel). He doesn’t know he’s being watched. The shot then goes back to Lucy, a close shot, who has some strong elevator eyes, as she seductively bites her lower lip whilst looking at him.
A beat passes, we assume she’s alone but next thing we hear is someone else speaking, “Enjoying the view?” (or something similar). Lucy jumps out of her skin. The shot immediately changes to a mid shot, where we see Tamara leaning against the counter too, a big amused grin on her face, as she’s looking at a now flustered Lucy quickly stand up.
Just as Lucy’s about to say something, Tim walks out of the bathroom with just a towel around his waist and sees both Lucy and Tamara standing there, Lucy still looking startled and Tamara is just smiling and laughing to herself, “So, I’ll leave you two to—do whatever it is you two lovebirds want to do.” And as she’s walking away and heading towards her bedroom, she calls out a “Morning Tim!” before shutting the door behind her.
Tim looks over at Lucy, as he makes his way around the kitchen counter, whilst assessing/processing what he just witnessed “What was that about?” he asks, with an amused smile on his face but Lucy just tells him it was nothing, before she walks a few steps over to him. They wrap their arms around one another, looking at each other with so much love.
They probably then walk into Lucy’s bedroom together for some morning exercise. 😏
I tried to be as concise and clear as possible but it’s a mess. Just, that scene in the show, is doing things to my mind! 🔥
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(Just a gif of Lucy and Tim kissing. ❤️)
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greetings-inferiors · 3 months
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Really, you only have 300 Randy?
Idk why u expected at least 1000, i know you're not a celebrity but you have a vibe lol
Anyways, the number means nothing anyways, i ran though my followers and half are empty blogs and 1 tried to sell me healthcare lol
Stop, stop, you’re all too much.
Yeah the follower number’s the funniest part of this website, because it means Jack shit, but everyone forgets that for everyone except themself, so they’ll think others have massive follower counts when they don’t, and people who do have massive follower counts will get next to no interaction. If I mentioned I had a three hundred and thirty one follower tumblr blog to, say, my mother, or my friend who’s never touched tumblr in his life, they’d think I’m really well known, or be concerned that too many people see what I post, whereas if I told my friend’s girlfriend who is the most stereotypical tumblrina I’ve met (in the most loving way possible) she’d probably go “yeah I have a thousand followers and the last time someone reblogged a post of mine was two years ago”.
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nouklea · 9 months
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I just realized the similarities between :
Wednesday and Goody’s discussion in the crypt after Crackstone and Laurel are gone
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And this scene from Robin Hood Men in Tights
(Wish I had found a gif, but I only managed to find a picture on reddit, from this post: https://www.reddit.com/r/MovieDetails/comments/6tcndk/in_robin_hood_men_in_tights_latrine_comes_to_the/ )
Latrine: Oh! My dear beloved sheriff of Rottingham! You’ve been run through! How do you feel?
Sheriff: I’m dying you fool!
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yeetus-feetus · 3 months
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Tim isn't like Bruce btw. Tim is like Lex Luthor. (Like when we think of supervillain Tim he's not depicted in the way, say, Owlman is, he's depicted as more of a mad scientist type.) Most of the times he's gone off the rails I see him as cunning and cold and a little desperate, but he knows what he wants and he is willing to do whatever it takes to get it- typically Luthor traits. (Also very popular fanfics lean heavily into the cloning aspect and Bruce would never do that lol.)
Cass is like Bruce. Damian is like Bruce too. (Their evil alternate selves would so give Owlman vibes honestly.) They walk they Bruce, they fight like Bruce, they're emotionally constipated like Bruce, they're blunt and to the point like Bruce. Also if Bruce went off the rails it'd be mostly thoughtless murder murder murder and these two would definitely fall into that too if they went off the rails.
I like to think Dick is like his mother. That's why he's so good and confident and loud despite... well, Bruce. He gets his stunning looks from his mother too. And his heart is inherited from her, for sure. And his athletic ability is her. The manipulation tactics were probably picked up from Bruce tho ngl. But Dick is his mother's son in my eyes.
And Jason is his own person. He's purposely that way. After trying so hard to be someone else, trying to be a perfect copy of Dick, he can only be himself. Sometimes he sees his mother in his eyes and his father in the curl of his lips and Bruce in the way he holds himself, and he thinks he's them and that he's failed to be different and it scares him, but he's undoubtedly himself. And he's definitely not Bruce.
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charlies-trainhopping · 4 months
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AAAAAAAA
ITS 3:21AM AND IVE BEEN DRAWING THESE FUCKING WARRIOR CATS HC/CANON SEXUALITY BADGES FOR 5 HOURS STRAIGHT. I HAD COFFEE AT 7PM YESTERDAY AND IM PRETTY SURE IM STILL AWAKE BC OF IT. ALSO IM FREEZING.
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eye-stealer · 8 months
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Get up.
My mind is awake. It is the middle of the night, and all I hear is my own breathing, timed to the rhythm of the whirring fan, the cicadas croaking.
The night is warm, and my thighs stick together underneath my thin sheets. My entire face is warm, buried into the pillow that is never cold.
I can’t fall asleep. I don’t know when I slept last. My mind begs for the sweet release of nothingness but won’t shut up. I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this.
And then it’s suddenly morning. The fan is still sitting above me, but the cicadas are all gone. Dead now. They have been replaced by birds and cars and the sounds of life.
I turn over in my bed, but light finds me whichever way I go. I’m not tired but I don’t want to be awake and it’s hot and my legs are stuck together again and I can feel beads of sweat on my neck and my cheeks are hot and I hate this I hate this I hate-
Fuck.
It’s mid afternoon, yet the sun is still scorching, taunting me. I am outside and my thighs are stuck together. My head hurts. Did I have something to do today? When did I last leave my house? Why am I outside? God, it’s so hot.
I sit in the shower. I’ve been standing for too long, I need to sit. Wait, how long has it been? The water washes over me, and yet my thighs still stick together and my head is still pounding.
I feel along my arm. A bump. An enemy. I grab the washcloth and scrub and scrub and scrub and
It’s still there.
That fucking bump.
And another.
I scrub until I burn, and yet I am still sticky and uncomfortably warm.
I hate this I hate this I hate this
I lay in bed. It is noon. I don’t care. I am just breathing. My lungs can never get enough air. I am so tired. My head hurts.
Why is the sun so bright?
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averyzversi0n · 3 months
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im the worlds BEST argumentative antithetical manic pixie dream girl. I love alexa chung-
[yes i copy and pasted that]
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@flurrygina texting you at 2 & 3am i love youuu <333
purrrrrr why am i crying to suck it and see hello?
do you think alexa chung likes dr pepper. Do you think she has ever drank strawberry cream dr pepper i think she would like it, I mean i dont know since im not Alexa chung. I wish i was i love her. I need to know this before i die. Alexa chung please like dr pepper. Like I need to see a photo of alexa chung drinking a strawberry cream dr pepper asap.
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when i wake up somebody remind me to drink dr pepper.
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this is so me guys litteraly me i swear like its perfect
im just a girllll im just a girl in the worldddddd-
THATS ALL ILL EVER BEEEE
me when indie sleaze 🎀
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seroqueldreamer · 5 months
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Often times there's a choice between being honest or being polite. It seems people decided my honesty is anger. Incredible.
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