#4n4 vent

[yourbabymama1]

This side of tumblr be like talking in Morse code lmfao

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[grlunnamed]

89lbs bc <3

[butt3rflycalz]

feeling miserable because your hungry>>>> feeling miserable because you ate

[thinnlywishing]

balancing depression and ed is so hard like everyone else is exercising to burn extra calories but i can’t even get out of bed to shower lol

[nbyinterrupted]

me: *panics over food* *hides my ed from all my IRL’s* *literally has an ed vent blog*

also me: i don’t have an ed i’m probably faking it

[teera-needs-therapy]

manifesting circle:

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🕯 - 22 lbs 🕯

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[iwouldstilldrinkdietcoke]

i have not eaten for 22 days

i am not goals

i am not something to be aspired to

i am dying

we are all dying

i see so many minors interacting with my posts and it breaks a part of me. get help please, i am 23 and have lost my entire life to this. i am all but on paper a college drop out, i had to move back home to a bad living situation, i'm not working and i've isolated myself from all my friends. please, please, get help.

i know treatment isn't accessible to everyone or even therapy sometimes. but as minors you have access to someone at school. a social worker, guidance counselor, a teacher, someone. there are also free online support groups and people who will help you find resources. please, you are sick enough. you have always been sick enough for help. healthy people don't feel "not sick enough". healthy people don't want to be sick.

here's a few support groups that are virtual and FREE

support group for teens with eating disorders who are in therapy (if you don't have a therapist they can help you find one or provide you with one)

Contemplating Recovery Group (after you RSVP the screen will show you that you have to schedule a free phone consultation. you do NOT have to do this, your RSVP will have already gone through and registered you for the group)

For Adolescent Individuals in Eating Disorder Recovery

and as always the NEDA Hotline

they are incredibly helpful and will look up the therapists and treatment options for you and take into account which insurance you have.

You are sick enough for help. You have always been sick enough. Everyone. deserves. help.

I'm rooting for you.

[eve555angel]

I hate when people look over at my phone while I’m on Tumblr and just make a face; like yes bitch I have an eating disorder...

[mel-annie]

yes but-

[mmkp]

i’ve lost track of how long i’ve been stuck in my head with this fucking eating disorder, talking to absolutely nobody about it. no one around me knows how much this is devouring every part of my life, makes me feel really alone

what’s even worse is i’m not going to tell anyone. i am doing this to myself

[freedrugsonline]

"ED spaces are so toxic" Everyone i interact w on here is so kind were not on the same spaces, i refuse to believe it.

[4n0rex14]

it feels so good once you get past being hungry.. now i can just starve to death in peace

[grlunnamed]

i haven’t had anything yet today <3 super excited because i’ve finally been restricting for long enough that the urge to eat isn’t as strong anymore

i think the new meds i got put on are definitely helping suppress my appetite though so that’s also a plus

cw: 90 lbs

[yourbabymama1]

I'm so fucking sad it hurts. I honestly don't remember the last time I truly ever felt happy even as a small child. I remember feeling depressed but not knowing what that was. I felt such satisfaction from traumatic things, inflicting pain and violence, self torture and hatred. I don't know if I truly deserve to be happy I don't know what to do.

[lifequitz]

[asherizdeadinside]

Getting your period means you're eating too much. - a note from me, to me.