#AHHHH HHHHH HHH

[catboyelimgarak]

Online exclusive I am crying I want it to be in person but whatever I’ll buy it

[sysig]

Utterly Defeated (Patreon)

[kekkuda]

Uhh hhh long awaited update hello gamers! Ughhhh hhhhh i gotta go into 2 hr meditation again or there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth again pray for ya boy he’s doing ‘is best !! Eats a hydroxyzine ahhhh much better oh how I love being medicated and on the ball. Well and truly on top of it. Ciao!!!

[emisirrelevant]

WE ARE THE TIGERS WEEK DAY 7/ REUNION DAY

AHHHHHHHHH

HAPPY REUNION DAY MY FELLOW TIGERS/GILES COREY STUDENTS.

I JUST FINISHED WATCHING THE LIVESTREAM AND OMG IT WAS AMAZING.

SO AS MY POST FOR THE LAST DAY OF WATT WEEK, ENJOY MY NOTES I WROTE DURING THE LIVESTREAM:

Preston starting things off! Hello icon and legend!

YESSS GO CAROLINE!!!

MAJOR SHOUTOUT TO CAROLINE LELLOUCHE AND LEANNA (I didn't get her last name I'm sorry) FOR COVERING PARTS

COVERING FOR LIKE 4 songs 

APPRECIATE YOUR SWINGS 

AHHHH CHESS AND KATE

JENNY AND CELESTE ARE BACK I MISSED THEM

HAHAHAAA Kaitlyn holding the phone when she calls Farrah 

AWWWW ZOE AS FARRAH

GOD I MISSED THEM ALL

SHE'S GOT THE FARRAH BRAIDS

AHHHH “sure Riley, what could go wrong?” 

awww Caroline changing the way "welcome everyone" is said

OK WE'RE ON DON'T EVEN

BUT I DON'T EVEN CARE I DONT CARE

JENNY AND CELESTE YESSS

“Chords for Christ” HAHAA

“Is co-captain a thing now?” Iconic line +1

“It’s not nepotism it’s called friendship” Iconic line +2

WOAHHH A LITTLE LYRIC CHANGE? (I didn't get the words down I'm sorry but maybe someone else will remember)

SCRELTING!!

Oh god it’s Skype tomorrow time

OHHH THE WAY JENNY AND CELESTE TOTALLY GET INTO THE CHARACTERS

OH GOD BEFORE THE BREAKDOWN

CELESTE AND ZOE VOCALS!!!

OH GOD EVERYONE SINGING NOW

THE BEAUTIFUL HARMONIES 

UH THE ZOOM IN ON THE LAST LINE KNOWING WHAT HAPPENS TO CHESS AND FARRAH

“Unfortunately after that Chess is murdered” HAHA Preston narrating in between

RIP Chess now it’s abstinence song time

YESSS KAITLYN SINGGGGG

YESSS CLARK SPOTLIGHT TIME

The man has entered the plot

FOREVER FOREVER-

"or however long it takes" lol love that lil line from Clark

Their voices are great together

Awww they must have had a lot of fun singing this one together again

HHHHH

A SURPRISE?

YES PRESTON BEING REESE!

YOU CAN CHANGE THE KEY FOR TRANS ACTORS!!! (said by Preston himself, ICON!)

Ohhh Preston singing this gives it such a deep meaning and it’s so good in every way

CAROLINE NO IMMA CRY (Y'all she started crying doing the dialogue when Riley says when you're a Tiger, your team won't let you fall, anyone who breaks that promise breaks us, and then everyone in the chat got EMO)

OMG THAT WAS ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL

CAROLINE DID SO WELL

THEN FARRAHS SONG AFTER THAT OMG

EMOTIONAL DAMAGE

BUT YES ZOE BEAUTIFUL VOCALS AS ALWAYS

OMG WALLFLOWERRRRR

Omg Wonu and Caroline did so good

The VOCALS AND RUNS

THEM GETTING HYPE IN THE END AWW

Omg DEFENSE TIME

defense, defense 

AWW LOL WONU COVERING HER LIL LYRIC SLIP AHAHA

Wonu I love you 

A national treasure

TIGER PRIDE ALWAYS

TAMPER WITH A MURDER SCENE

YESSS WONU!!! SCRELT

LEANNA AS MATTIE YESSS

I LOVE ITTTT

YESSS VOCALSSS

HAHAHA SOMEONE SAYING "SHUT THE FUCK UP"

LEANNA DID SO WELL SINGING MATTIE'S LAMENT

Oh god here we go 

“Not my usual reaction to homicide” haha Wonu as Cairo I will always love you

“Welcome back everyone” while like 3 people have died

OH GOD MOVE ON IS AFTER PHOENIX IM NOT READY

OH GOD NOOO

My heart

Kaitlyn and Jenny their voices together

UGH THE HARMONY ON "don't let go" 

ALWAYS GETS ME

AHH THE HUG AT THE END (Kaitlyn, Jenny and Celeste all hugging it out but Zoe completely missing it haha)

YESSSS SYDNEY 

SHUT UP AND CHEER TIME

AHH HER KEEPING THE GROWL ON "SHIT"

LOVE IT

SYDNEY VOCALS

EVA SANCHEZ I LOVE YOU

OMG HERE WE GO 

Haha the lines in IDK

so good 

WONU SINGING SEE YOU ALL IN HELL is my religion

YESS CAROLINE DOING THE BREAKDOWN

AHHH THE C-C-C-CUT EM

Amazing.

HHH MOVE ON REPRISE???

WE LOVE A LITTLE BIT

HHHH

OMG THE FINALE

NO NOT ALREADY

IM EMO

IM ACTUALLY SO EMO

THIS! SONG!

WE ARE THE TIGERS GO!!

Ugh seeing everyone up there singing together again MY HEART

OMG AND A LIL ENCORE

SINGING A CUT SONG OOH

EVERYBODY WANTS TO BE HER

OKAY BANGER

AS EXPECTED

YESSS VOCALS

OOH FARRAH AND CAIRO HARMONIZING

THE MOTIF OF "We are the soul of the school" COMING BACK IN THIS SONG TOOO???

OMggggg I wish it didn't end

That was amazing

So WORTH the livestream ticket

Ahhhh I love this musical

WATT my beloved, you will always be loved by me.

[subbysongbird]

Hhh fuck...

Me and Puppy called last night and it growled at something not going its way and I got all flustered and giggly and it noticed and started teasing me and then the words started to get more spicy and it kept calling me adorable for getting this flustered and I said I was getting hot and it cooed and asked what I think I could about that so I suggested I strip and I did and ahhhh

It continued to tease me and tell me how much it wants to fuck and fill me with all eir cum and pups and cock and hhhhh me begging the entire time and saying how much i want em until Iet out a pretty loud whine and it was just cooing and asking what's wrong and me telling it that I'm really wet and it's uncomfy and it cooing and telling me that it's sure there's something I can do about that and what I thought I could do

So me just saying that I could touch myself and it cooing at me and saying to go ahead and hhh

It was so hot.. puppy has a dom voice! And it's so hot dear god... ey is just... the absolute best dom... but! It told me such dirty things as I fucked myself and was a moaning mess for it while ey told me how much ey wished I was with it so it could fill me with cock and fuck me as hard as it can because I'm it's little slut and fuck toy to fuck and breed

Just.... hhhhhh fuck that was.... so hot... hope we can do it against soon

[yaksinhats]

Discord icon that I made for my girlfriend! It’s one of her npc’s from the game she DMs, Gregor the dragonborn wizard grad student. 

[adonis-koo]

Hiii!!! I am long ask anon hhhhh Just wanted to say I’m glad you liked it!!! I was worried you’d be annoyed bc it’s so long lmao,,,, if you really did like it tho I’d love to continue doing this with future chapters if you’re cool with it?? Idk it’s fun and not only do you seem like a cool person that I’d want to be friends with, when I sent the ask in and you responded to it, it /felt/ like friends discussing a good movie or something!!! But this is writing obviously,,,,, I mean not far fetched in my world tho I’m an actor so theoretically a friend of mine could write and make a movie that we could discuss,,,, and I also could see your stories as movies anyways,,, ANYWAYS not the point, if you’re cool with it I’d love to react to every chapter like that bc it makes me feel like I’m hanging out with a cool friend🥺 but AHHHH I’m already gonna re read the chapter bc it was so good,, I might actually just ,,,, binge read from the beginning tbh LMAO your writing is just so so good!!!! Also happy to hear we will learn more about jk and his boys later on!!! AND v happy to hear that there will be some /comforting/ happening later I love the fluffy scenes just as much as I love the angsty and sexc scenes lmao OH also glad I made you laugh LMAO I was truly going through it during that moment hhh anyways thank you for taking the time to read and answer my ask🥺 and if it’s cool with you like I said I’d love to keep doing that for later chapters!! Love you and your writing Missy!!!! -💜💜💜(can I use this to identify myself? Lmao)

Omfg you guys will NEVER annoy me with long reviews they absolutely make me squeal!!! My only heads up is that they take me a little longer to answer just because it takes me longer to gather the energy to dive into just as long- if not an even longer response sometimes haha! I love to give the same energy whenever I can when you lovely people take the time to send me very long and kind detailed reviews of a chapter! 🖤

And I’m so happy you get the vibe of friends just chilling and discussing a topic!! I never want my readers to take my word as strict law when it comes to the story, part of the fun on my blog is being cryptic and making readers second guess their theories and then the theories of their new theories, again and again. It just keeps a fun and mysterious atmosphere and opens up a lot of dialogue for what ways the story could turn out!

Hahaha you’ll definitely enjoy next chapter given how it starts out for sure!!! And YES YES YES please feel free to do your reviews as long or as short as you like 🥹🖤 I will love them regardless!

[haknew]

anon asked: I HAVE SONG RECS :DDD I tried not to do songs that you would have obviously heard before but a lot of the songs here are still popular but I couldn’t help but add them 😭

AHHHH thank you so so so so much for all the recommendations anon ! your taste is absolutely impeccable !!! i think i vibed with a lot of these maybe we are a bit similar ^~^ and no worries about your picks ! i totally support you and your incredible music taste no need to defend yourself :p ! popular songs can still be good ones ! thank you again and i tried ... to ... get through them all i’m so sorry JHGFDJHGDK you’ll see i get through like ... half and then ran out of energy T^T i’ll probably get back to this list some other time when i have free time and update with thoughts ! thank you for sending so many in ! i found so many new songs to add to my playlist heh thank you lovely ! 

Pop

cherry by rina sawayama - super cute ! i love these kinds of pop songs it’s right up my alley :o ! 

xs by rina sawayama - her voice is so well suited for this style ! i watched the mv and djkfhskgrjf HHH idk she gives me mitski vibes even tho their music is pretty different, you have peaked my interest i’ll definitely look into more of her stuff :o !

comme de garçons by rina sawayama - the bass line T^T !!! the talk-y (?) parts are so good i got chills, it’s like a rave song low key haha :p ! it’s so good ! 

Any song by Rina Sawayama 😭 - yes yes i’ll try to look more into her stuff ! 

Kpop

123 by nct dream - i’m only an honorary guest of ncity but one of my irls ults them ! and dream’s music has always been a bit more my speed :o ! this has more nostalgic kpop vibes to it ! i said this before but i really am more a pop person at heart and this is so good ^~^ 

Up to you by pretty much and nct dream (HAECHANS PART HHHHH) - oooh are you a haechan stan 0v0 i like jaemin tho i admit my knowledge of dream is limited (my fren ults renjun heh) also yes yes consent is very important kids u.u dskjghkdfj YOU’RE RIGHT THO haechan is a singer he SINGS, i love the vocal harmonies ! 

Oasis by crush ft zico - those electric keyboard synths (?) amazing ! this song bops u.u 

Moon by everglow - !!! i actually have heard this a lot before ^~^ i got so excited when i saw this bc it’s so good ! it’s definitely one of my fav everglow songs too i think i overplayed it a lot when it first came out *v* 

Woowoo by dia - i love the ocean wave sounds ! that’s so cool i love how summery it is ! it kind of reminds me of loona too ! ggs are just >>> i love the fun and brighter pop songs so much 🥺

Secret garden by Oh My Girl - i’ve heard a few songs by omg ! and i really like a handful of them, secret garden kinda gives me early gfriend songs vibes too ! it’s so pretty ! i really love when songs utilize strings in their instrumentals too ! it’s a bit slower paced too which is really nice ^~^ 

Page by got7 - YEEEES okie actually maybe unpopular opinion but spinning top is one of my fav got7 albums ! i used to listen to the whole mini on repeat ! i actually used to ult got7 too for a few months heh ^^ BUT YEEES i love page ! got7 always have bangers love them so much 

Nekkoya by produce 48 - AHHHHH ANOTHER SONG I LOVE !!! i’m actually a wizone haha :p so i’ve seen produce 48 ! tho admittedly it probably contributes to my burning h*tred for mn*t and any survival shows ;;;; but i loved the title song so much ! i used to unironically play it on repeat djghskfj

Puzzle moon by gwsn - AHHHH YOUR TASTE !!! i also followed gwsn from debut and puzzle moon is so so so cute ! it’s such a bop too ! they have such fun and catchy songs ! 

Goblin by sulli - ahhh the xylophone chimes ! they make the song sound a bit haunting before the piano comes in ;;;; it really reflects the mv story so well i think ;;; and sulli’s voice is so beautiful ;;;; it’s got that characteristic background vocal harmonies that sm artists usually do and it’s just really beautiful ! 

What are you up to by kang daniel - today on can you tell jess is unfortunately a bg stan daniel’s songs have been so good :,)) i stopped following all the wanna ones closely after a while but ! he always surprises me ! his songs are such vibes u.u 

Best day ever by yeri and nct dream - the TRUMPETS YEEES it’s so upbeat and fun !!! the cheering is so cute i love it ! 

Hair in the air by yeri and nct dream - JAEMINNNNN !!!! I LOVE YERI SO MUCH PLEASE ! i love the vocal harmonies between her and the boys 🥺 it’s so cute T^T ! renjun’s a singer HE SINGS 

119 by nct dream - ah yes this is ncity brand u.u LOL they always have really filled chorus instrumentals and use a lot of vocals to fill up the space which i think is really cool and something i think immediately screams sm artist :0 ! i think renjun’s voice really sells this for me tho HIS VOICE IS AMAZING him and haechan yeees it’s a banger tho :,) 

Save me save you by wjsn - i love wjsn’s music so much ! it sounds so magic and ethereal and totally bops ! their voices are so beautiful too and work together so well and i think this song’s style really suits all the members’ voices so well too ! 

Loonatic by loona - YEEEEES loona are my ult gg ! and oec is probably my fav unit in terms of music ! i have spent many a day playing their whole discography ! haha :3 

Up by izone - MY GIRLS ! yes yes up is so cute ! i love it so much ! the choreo is so cute too ! i love izone please ;;;; 

N/s by stray kids - oh boy okie ;;;; i’m like not a good judge of a lot of hip hop / more rap heavy songs ;;;; bc i was classically trained as a singer in choir ;-; so i’m sorry i do not have much to say about this one ;;;; it slaps tho ! i probably wouldn’t listen to it normally if you hadn’t recommended it tho so ! good to listen to smth outside of my normal preferences  

Sunshine by straykids - OH very very different from the last skz song KJHGKFJHKD yea this is probably more my speed i’m so sorry LOL T-T it’s so good tho :o ! i don’t listen to a lot of skz bc i figured i wouldn’t be able to vibe with them but this one is so good i really like it ! skz and ateez man i’ve been trying to stan for ages but music is a big part of why i stan /stan/ certain groups more seriously and it’s also why i’m only honorary nctzen lol clearly i have been enlightened (literally *looks at my past ult groups* yeaaaa)

Blueprint by stray kids - YEEES IT’S SO UPBEAT ! i love upbeat and brighter songs (i am consistent like this T-T) it’s got summery tropical vibes to it too ! it’s so cute ! 

Question by stray kids - another banger yeeeees ! i vibe with the lyrics too u.u love that 

Any mixtape by stray kids (but I really love 1 and 4) - oooh i still have a lot to get through so i’ll save these for my own time haha ^^ 

I’m your girl by khan

Revolution by Alexa

Secret by wjsn

I wanna be by key and soyeon

Handle it by twice

Teenager by got7 

Take by jus2 (CANNOT RECOMMEND THIS ENOUGH)

Bump bump by woodz

Stylish by loona - this is one of my fav loona b sides yeeees !!!! love them so much ! 

Outta my head by somi

Jpop

showersnow by orbit

show off by orbit

crazy love by orbit

any orbit song ngl 😭

poison girl by nanaka suwa

lost umbrella (I like the tsukishima kei version cause it sounds like lee know :DDD)

Notice by moe shop

Kawaki wo ameku (domestic girlfriend opening)

The day by porno graffiti (my hero academia opening 1)

Odd future by uverworld (my hero academia opening 4)

Again by yui (full metal alchemist brotherhood opening 1)

More English music

Luxury by azalea banks (Ive heard she’s said some terrible things tho 😭 WHY DOES IT SLAP)

Hurricane by Bridget Mendler (I miss this song and ready or not too 😭)

Little dark age by mgmt

I got a couple one direction recs bear with me here 💀

Happily, Magic, AM, 18, Tell Me a Lie, Through The Dark, Wolves, Night Changes, Better Than Words

Hip-hop/rnb

Leaked by lil tjay

Pretty little fears by 6lack and j cole

Water by joe gifted

The London by young thug

Bands by shoreline mafia

Swervin by a boogie wit a hoodie

Father stretch my hands pt 1 by Kanye west

More English music (indila is French)

Northern lights by kennie

I am not a robot by marina

Tourner dans le vide by indila

Parle a ta tete by indila

Greek tragedy by the wombats

Viva la vida by Coldplay (SHHHHH DONT ROAST ME)

La da dee by Cody Simpson (SHH IT MAKES ME HAPPY 😭)

Move your body by loving caliber and anders lystell (this ones good to make u feel like an early 2010’s movie protagonist :D)

Mariposa by Peach tree rascals

Sunflower by post Malone and swae lee (like many songs on here it’s popular but I still wanna put it here cause they make me happy 😭)

I got really carried away sorry I hope you haven’t heard too many of these 😭😭 OKAY BYEEE ❤️

[twstoric]

hhhhh imagine the boys in give u everything putting in a plug afterwards bc they really don't want to spill any of their master's cum. and like, the next day they go the whole school day trying to hide that theyre full of cum hhh - 💅 anon

THIS IS SO HOT NOOO PLSSSS AHHHH I’M GONNA KEEP THINKING ABOUT IT NOW HNGHHHH they really can’t go the whole day without feeling your cum inside them smh

[pieces-of-pie]

AHHHH

HHHHHHH

HHHHH

hhh

HHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

- me, screaming inside

[in-frangibile]

MA CHE CAZZO STA SUCCEDENDO ALLA MIA VITAAAAA AHHHH HHHHH H HHH HH H A H

[kyunsies]

Hi angel!!! Feels like it’s been awhile since we talked (although i did send one ask a couple weeks ago that I think got lost in the tumblr void…) Have fun at the concert tomorrow!!! I was trying to go the one near me next week but I have to work, so I’m going to miss it 😭😭 If you wanted to do a liveblogging kind of thing for your concert I think that would be really fun! I’m a little stressed out/anxious rn because my family is seriously thinking about moving back to michigan (which, don’t get me wrong, i’m very happy about, it’s just going to be a big change and I’ll have to find a new job and hhhhh 😵‍💫) Also, my sister and I were watching some of the newest kpop releases together and we watched the new Bvndit one! I remember you saying you liked them, have you had a chance to listen to the new song yet? Anyway I just wanted to say congrats on graduating and that I love and miss you 😘

-💜💜💜

HELLO MY LOVE <3 how have you been lately? and nooo i did answer it tho angel !!! it took me a while to get to it bc of graduation and everything, but i know i didn :( did you try searching in your tag? i'm sorry it took so long to get to it ;_____; but anyways bub thank u so much <3 i will have fun !!! it's going to be my first ever kpop concert ever and i'm just so so excited :) but on no, love i'm so sorry youre unable to go :/ they've changed this thing so many times it's a miracle anyone can go alsdfj ,,,, i myself wasn't able to go for the longest time until they changed the dates for the last time, otherwise i would not have been able to go ;_____; AND ??? OMG A MOVE BACK TO MICHIGAN ??? that sounds so stressful !!! but i agree w you, i love michigan hhh so i'm hoping it will all work out okay? let me know more about this as time goes on !!!!!!! if you don't mind me asking bc i can't remember if we talked about this last time, but what part of the state did u live in before/moving back to? ALSO AHHHH there have been so many good comebacks as of recent <3 I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT BVNDIT ALSDKFJ i will get back to you on that one even tho i've been so excited for it i cannot believe i missed it SDLKFJ :( i have been loving onew's album and the new got7 album recently too <3

AND THANK U FOR congratulating meon graduation sweets :( i cannot believe on this new chapter in my life but i hope it all works out okay <3 and i love and miss u too my angel !!!

EDIT here is my last ask to u angel <3

[wlwjoy]

update in my lesbianism

ah ok so i was at this uni gay bar event with my only gay (male) friend & i was suuper nervy but after maybe? 1 hr? i catch this girls eye and!!! 😳 she was rly pretty ! i was so shy tho so i kept lookin away & lookin back & she kept lookin so i !!!! manouvered over near her with my friend just dancin yknow & eventually she says somethin abt my friend dancin & im like!!!!! shes makin direct eye contact with me & im so shy hhhh.....ive never had a girl rly seem interested in me... but shes so cute so i tried my best!!! to keep up a convo and!!!!!! ahhh it was so good she stayed with me the whole time🤧😢💓shes 1 yr above me & doin architecture & shes so cool hhhh shes like fully out & proud lesbian hhh 💓💓 she was drivin so she was drinkin water & i could tell she was as awkward as me so i felt???? idk safe.....☺️

anyway she went to the afterparty at a gay club but she drove there & i walked...i found her & we stayed together the whole night hhhhh!!!!!💓she followed me around & was dancin & i still felt nervy but ahhhh the eye contact i was combusting 😍💓💓 it was so intense like she rly was interested in me ahh 😫 i wanted to kiss her rly bad but she was sober & i was tipsy so i didnt want her to think i was just bein drunk 😔😔 anyway when she left i felt rly 😔😓 hhh sad so we left pretty soon after.....

BUT THEN DJDHHDHDHD next day (evening??) she messaged me askin abt how i thot the night was & abt the uni pride society (id never been bc i was too nervous) and ahhh she said she goes to the clubroom everyday & she hopes to see me soon hfhfhfhd 🤭💗💗💓💓 ahh im rly happy i rly wanna pursue this 💗

[rotatemp3]

I hope you are doing well lovely angel. Sorry I haven't been around, but I'm here to send you love and to check in on you (especially with all the Kyun teasers😉) ❤️❤️ - CEO Changkyun enthusiast

ANGEL!!!!! 💘 ahhhh i missed you so much it’s been so long i thought i would never talk to you again hhhhh <3 i’m ok angel thank you for checking in on me i’m definitely doing better now mentally than last week so it’s ok! how are you love? i hope you’ve been ok all this time if not then you can always come to me if you need me ok <3 and HHH the teasers GOD!!!!! don’t even get me started like the fake tattoos and his hair and the styling goddddddd he’s so sexy i don’t know what to do with myself!!! no thoughts inside my head just changkyun 💓

[linggahutama-blog]

Suamiku Tidak Tahu

Umur pernikahan kami sudah berjalan 2 tahun. Cuma setahun terakhir ini suamiku ditugaskan ke Australia. Bisa kalian bayangkan, setahun penuh kami harus menahan nafsu gejolak birahi. Aku tahu suamiku nggak bakalan nyleweng, atau bercinta dengan wanita lain.

Akupun juga begitu, meskipun ketika masih single, kehidupanku cukup bebas. Menurutku ML adalah bagian atau bumbu dari pacaran, hanya dengan suamiku ketika itu aku nggak pernah lebih dari peluk dan cium. Entah mengapa aku nggak bisa pacaran lebih jauh ketika bersamanya, mungkin karena suamiku sangat sopan, baik hati, gentleman, sangat menghargai wanita. Aku nggak mau merusak image diriku dengan bertingkah sembrono. Sejauh ini dia masih menganggapku wanita alim. Jahat juga sebenarnya, anehnya ketika malam pertama dia tidak curiga ketika aku tidak mengeluarkan darah. Mungkin dia saking percayanya sama aku. Syukurlah suamiku nggak pernah tahu rahasia ini dan tetap aku simpan sampai kapanpun.

Suamiku biasanya menelepon di minggu malam karena tarif telepon cukup banyak mendapat diskon, maklumlah hubungan telepon kami bisa memakan waktu minimal 2 jam, terlebih lagi kalau nafsu kami sudah menggelegak, mau tidak mau phone sex menjadi alternatif untuk menuntaskannya.

Selama ini suamiku selalu puas, Cuma dia tidak pernah tahu kalau aku tidak pernah orgasme atau terpuaskan. Bagiku melalui telepon terlalu maya, meski aku mencobanya dengan jari tetap saja hasilnya tidak memuaskan. Dan ini sangat menyiksaku, untuk menyeleweng rasanya aku belum bisa, meskipun bisa saja aku melakukan sex tanpa cinta seperti yang pernah kulakukan dimasa gila gilaan dulu. Tapi rasanya aku nggak tega dengan suamiku, dia sudah terlalu baik.

Tapi prinsipku tidak bertahan terlalu lama, semua itu dimulai ketika aku curhat ke Januar rekan sekantorku yang membantu mengedit hasil tulisanku dinovelku yang kedua. Januar adalah teman lama yang baik. Benar benar baik meskipun peluang dia untuk mendekatiku sebenarnya cukup banyak dan mudah, terlebih lagi dia tahu persis bagaimana kelakuanku ketika masih belum menikah, tapi baiknya dia tidak mau memanfaatkannya.

Seperti biasa, minggu malam aku sudah bersiap siap menunggu telepon dari suamiku. Tiba tiba HP ku berdering, kulihat no HP Januar muncul di layar . Hmmm.. ngapain Januar menelepon malam malam :” Din...gue mau mampir ke rumah elo. Besok kan novel elo harus turun ke penerbit. Elo lupa ya...cepetan cek untuk yang terakhir kalinya.. OK ? Pagi besok gue ambil lagi. Gue udah di depan pagar neeh...“ Teriakannya di speaker HP membuat telingaku berdenging. Hhhh...anak ini mengganggu kesenangan saja.

Masuk Jan...pagar nggak dikunci kok“Teriakku dari teras. „Eh Din gue lupa sebenarnya di bab terakhir gue belum selesai mengeditnya. Tapi gak lama kok paling 1 jam an, gue edit disini aja ya…sorry banget deh jadi mengganggu elo” Katanya memohon pengertian.

Iya deh..elo terusin aja, gue juga lagi nunggu telepon dari suami gue. Biasalah udah kangen...eh baidewe kalo nanti elo denger gue mendesah desah, elo jangan ngeres ya...elo tahu sendiri kan kalo suami istri gak ketemu lama, ngapain aja ditelepon...dan jangan deket deket gue, elo di ruang tamu aja, jangan ngintip ok ?

"Aduh Din...gue kan bukan anak kecil. Gue ngerti dan nggak bakalan ngganggu deh... gue juga gitu kalo udah kangen sama cewek gue yang di Surabaya....santai aja. “ Ujar Januar.

Januar lagi asyik mengedit tulisanku di notebooknya sambil ngopi di ruang tamu. Sementara aku asyik bermasyuk ria dengan suamiku lewat telepon..hhh ya lewat telepon !! aduh menyedihkan....dengan hasil akhir yang sudah bisa ditebak !.

Dengan wajah lelah dan tersiksa aku menutup telepon dan berjalan ke ruang tamu. Hhhhh sudah selesai belum anak ini..

.” He Jan gimana...? selesai ? “ tanyaku.

Selesai non…hmmm elo ok ok saja ? wajah elo kusut gitu…”Tanyanya sambil mengisap pelan rokoknya.

“Hmmm… gue baik baik saja. Lagi gak enak badan aja, bentar lagi gue lembur deh. Elo bisa ambil lagi besok pagi. “ Kataku sambil membuka pintu depan.

“Ok gue pulang dulu, malem non” Kata Januar sambil melangkah menuju pintu.

Tiba tiba Januar menahan daun pintu sebelum aku tutup. “ Din Aku pikir kamu harus terus terang ke suamimu. Nggak bisa kamu berpura pura menikmatinya….sorry bukannya aku turut campur” Bisik Januar pelan.

Hmmm Januar mulai ber “aku dan kamu” artinya dia mulai bicara serius.

“ Jadi kamu denger tadi aku ngapain aja...dasar” Kataku sambil mendelik kepadanya.

“ Gimana aku nggak dengar, orang kamu mendesah desah keras gitu. Kalo jendela kamu buka pasti tetangga depan rumah juga denger non...masa gue harus tutup telinga “ Katanya balik protes.

“ Hhhh memang Jan...tapi aku nggak tega suamiku merasa bersalah. Sementara elo tahu sendiri gimana pusingnya kalo nggak kesampaian. Gue udah coba pake macem macem, kamu tentu tahulah, tapi hasilnya tetep aja. “ Keluhku.

“Din...gimana kalo gue bantu ? Gue bantu dengan cara gue...sorry gue bukan mau kurang ajar. Tapi gue tahu dulu elo cukup free dan gue tahu gimana prinsip elo. Gue juga temen lama elo, Jadi gue berani nawarin.” Katanya pelan.

“ Gila lo Jan..!! elo bener bener gila…!” Teriakku.

“ Kita nggak bercinta non…aku cuma muasin kamu aja. Tidak ada coitus...aku cuma membuat kamu nyaman aja...”Katanya pelan.

“ Maksud elo …? Nggak ML gimana…!?” kataku penasaran.

” Begini...kamu coba telepon suamimu lagi. Coba buat fore play dulu dengan omong omong. Setelah kamu agak panas, aku coba puasin kamu pake..mmm lidah....Sorry elo jangan kaget..gue cukup ahli dan pengalaman dengan yang satu ini. Gue nggak akan lebih dari itu…gue cuma mau bantu aja, anggap aja gue sex machine deh..”Katanya berusaha menjelaskan.

“Aduh Jan…elo aneh aneh aja…ide gila darimana tuh…ah paling kamu aja yang kepingin banget ML sama aku…dasar. “ Kataku tersenyum, bisa aja nih anak…

“ Nggak Din…bener deh, gue cuma puasin kamu pake lidah. Toh cuma pake lidah. Gue nggak akan remas remas elo kok, murni gue cuma ingin membantu. Jadi elo telepon suami elo lalu gue jilatin punya elo. Elo bisa bayangin suami elo yang muasin..”Katanya berusaha menjelaskan.

Hmmm sebenarnya boleh juga idenya. Just for sex…toh kami tidak ML yang sebenarnya.

” Elo serius mau bantu Jan….?” Tanyaku lirih.

Seperti kerbau dicocok hidungnya, Januar menuntunku menuju telepon. ‘ Relaks saja non…coba kamu telepon suamimu lagi “ Katanya sambil mengambil karpet dan menempatkannya di depan sofa. Aku mulai menelepon suamiku lagi.

“ Hai honey..masih kangen neehhh ? “ Teriak suamiku. “ Aku masih belum puas pa…please puasin aku lagi..” kataku mendesah.

Perlahan tangan Januar menyelusup ke balik rok ku dan menarik perlahan celana dalamku. Pelan dan lembut Januar mengelus bulu bulu kemaluanku. Ahhhh gila…kenapa aku setuju saja dengan rencana gila Januar, tapi aku tidak berusaha menghentikan tangannya malah meletakkan kakiku ke bahunya.

Perlahan Januar mendekatkan kepalanya ke belahan pahaku. Lembut sekali lidahnya mulai menyentuh permukaan klitorisku. Ahh setahun tidak disentuh benar benar membuatku gemetaran..gila efeknya sampai segini hebatnya. Sambil kupejamkan mata aku berusaha membayangkan suamiku. Lidah Januar makin menggila, ujung lidahnya mulai masuk ke dalam miss V ku, sementar jarinya memutar mutar di klitorisku.Aaahhh rasanya bener bener nikmat.

” Gimana sayang...hmmm enak ya” Bisik suamiku. Aku semakin keras melenguh...” Gimana jilatanku sayang...hmmm slruup...! ahhh enak honey...kamu sexy banget.” Bisik suamiku lembut. Aaahhh kasihan suamiku, tidak tahu dia kalau aku sedang dipuaskan oleh lelaki lain dengan menggunakan suaranya. Ahhh aku memang gila...

Januar memang benar, jilatannya sungguh luar biasa. Tampaknya dia sudah ahli dan sering melakukannya. Suara suamiku mulai memburu, mungkin dia juga mengocok batangnya. Dan kakiku makin menekan membenamkan kepala Januar makin dalam. Suara lidah Januar mulai berkecipakan. Entah suamiku mendengarnya atau tidak....masa bodo, pokoknya aku harus harus mendapat orgasmeku. Dan aaahhhh..!! aku menjerit keras, ketika Januar menyedot habis cairan cintaku. Bersamaan dengan itu suamiku juga berteriak dibalik teleponnya...rupanya dia juga ejakulasi.

Januar tersenyum sambil bertanya dengan kode apakah aku puas ? Gila gue udah teriak teriak, dia nggak tahu kalo gue udah orgasme.

Tapi aku masih ingin mendapatkan orgasme yang kedua...

” Mas coba bisikkan kalo batang mas masuk ya....aku pingin batang mas masuk...please..aku kepingin neeehhh..” Bisikku ke suamiku. ” Ok honey aku masukkan ya....tapi kamu harus teriak dong biar aku juga puas...ok ? aku masukin ya...” suara suamiku gemetar menahan nafsu.

Januar kini kebingungan bagaimana memuaskan aku kalau permintaanku seperti itu. Aku kode Januar untuk melepas celana panjangnya. ” Cepetan buka celana elo !!” Kataku tanpa suara tapi cukup jelas bagi Januar untuk memahami bahasa mulutku.

Januar terdiam beberapa saat dengan wajah bingung...tapi dia cepat tanggap, perlahan dia meloloskan celana panjangnya.

” Gue masukin ? ” Tanyanya tanpa suara sambil menunjuk ke arah vaginaku. Wajahnya kelihatan belum yakin. ” iya buka cepet !!!” Mulutku teriak tanpa suara sambil menurunkan celana dalamnya, gila !!! punya Januar lebih besar dan lebih hitam dari punya suamiku. Aku membuka pahaku lebar lebar, dengan ragu ragu Januar mendekatkan batangnya yang menegang hebat mendekat ke bibir vaginaku, dia menggesekkan batangnya ke klitorisku yang sudah memerah, gila enak sekali.....

” Mas yo mas...masukin...aku udah pengen nehh...”bisikku ke suamiku. Dari balik Telepon suara suamiku tambah memburu” Ok sayang aku masukin pelan pelan ya...hmmm enak kan ? gimana... udah masuk enak kan ? ”

Aku kode Januar dengan kedipan mata untuk segera memasukkan batangnya. Dengan sinar mata bertanya tanya Januar mulai menekan batangnya. “ Masukin aja “ Mulutku berkata tanpa suara. Dan perlahan batang besar Januar mulai masuk sedikit demi sedikit. Akhirnya blleessss seluruh batang Januar tenggelam ke vaginaku. Aku memekik…aaaakkkhhh…

“ Aduh honey…kamu hebat… Belum pernah kita ngeseks lewat telepon seperti ini…gila kamu bener bener menghayati honey…” Teriak suamiku.

Sementara Januar mulai menggoyang pantat sexynya maju mundur. Semakin cepat dan semakin cepat. Aku pejamkan mataku, nikmatnya sungguh luar biasa. Gesekan kulit kasar batang Januar sungguh memberi kenikmatan yang tidak bisa dikatakan. Semakin cepat dan semakin dalam, sehingga sofaku berderit derit seperti hampir patah. Aku tutup mulut Januar jangan sampai dia melenguh atau bersuara. Bisa berabe dong...

Akhirnya orgasmeku yang kedua tiba...sungguh merupakan kenikmatan yang tiada taranya sampai tubuhku terhentak berkali kali. Aku masih membayangkan batang Januar yang masuk ke tubuhku adalah batang suamiku... Sorry Jan..nggak mungkin aku membayangkan kamu. Oleh sebab itu aku menutup mataku. Bagiku saat ini kamu adalah mesin seksku...seperti yang kamu tawarkan.

Begitu aku selesai orgasme, Januar mengerti bahwa dia harus berhenti....dia tahu diri bahwa dia tidak boleh ikut memuaskan dirinya, situasinya kurang tepat kalau dia ikut ejakulasi. Sesuai janjinya sendiri bahwa dia hanya ingin membantu. Aku sangat menghargainya. Dia mengerti aku tidak mau kalau spermanya memenuhi rahimku.

”Thanks honey...aku puas sekali” Bisikku ke suamiku....Perlahan Januar menarik keluar batangnya dari vaginaku. ”Apa kamu bener bener puas sekarang sayang...hmmm ? Suara suamiku masih bergetar. Thanks honey...aku tutup dulu ya..mau pipis dulu...” Kataku berusaha menutup pembicaraan. Segera aku tutup telepon tanpa menunggu jawaban dari suamiku.

Aku langsung memandang Januar dalam dalam :” Thanks Jan, kamu memang hebat...kamu nggak papa nanggung begitu ? atau aku bantu keluarin pake tangan ? sorry aku nggak mau kamu keluarin di dalam, terima kasih kalo kamu paham” Kataku pelan.

” Din...kayaknya kamu yang lebih gila..maksud gue kan nggak sejauh ini...” Kata Januar sambil memakai jeansnya.

” Sorry Jan...menurut gue nanggung sih..thanks ya...elo memang sahabat yang baik. Mungkin lain kali gue mau balas kebaikan elo tapi entah kapan.” Kataku tersenyum.

Januar cuma menggeleng geleng kepalanya dan kemudian mencium keningku sambil tersenyum.....” Aku pulang dulu...”

Ditempat tidur aku termenung...hhh gila juga dengan apa yang aku lakukan bersama Januar. Tapi aku masih punya hutang dengannya. Pikiran nakalku mulai berkembang, teringat dengan masa masa gila dulu. Mungkin tidak ada salahnya aku coba lagi sekali kali untuk variasi saja.

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hello mädch! i'm sorry i haven't been around,, tbh i spent most of the last 2ish days being lazy and sleeping,, which i guess is ok bc i kind of gave myself that break! (+ i think this is why i've go to bed at 2 💀 i should fix that) i've missed sending you asks T^T but how have you been?

i think i talked abt uni in my last ask,, i really do hope to reach that goal bc it's smt i see myself being passionate abt :')) and after you explained the differences b/n the ICU/NICU i kind of get it. i feel like anything involving adults increases stress levels esp compared to babies/younger children. imo it feels easier to get kids to listen to you (also babies can't really do anything LOL).

recently i've been watching a lot of cat videos!! i really want one in the future. but aside from that,, today i watched a video of how to make cheese shaped cookies :)) the combination is.. interesting but they look so so cute ;__; - 🌱

AHHHH LOVE don’t be sorry :( iwwilk always be here for u no worries about that 🥺💖 i’ve been thinking about you !!!! but i’m glad u took some rest for yourself <3 JDJDJ i feel like i’m the only one that goes to bed at like 11pm here HHH IM A GRANDMA in a 22 year old body :)

oh hun if you’re passionate about it you’ll achieve it !! <3 it’s so hard to see yourself doing what u love with just a couple years to go (it’s so hard seeing myself actually working as a nurse omg) but you will end up where u need to be 💓 and omg yes for sure ……. like the NICU and ICU are equally as stressful but for me personally i find infants more calming than adults if that makes sense HHHHH i really just don’t want to be with adults like i feel at home with children 🥺 one of my clinical rotations was in the NICU and i was just like …. this fits, i love this, it’s what i want to do :(((( so hopefully i’ll be able to do this :)

ALSO ;____; i wish u can get a cat soon hun !!! it’s always nice to have a companion <3 ALSO SJDNDKDJ I WATCH COOKING TREE ALL THE TIMEEEE i’ve been subscribed to them for like a year now hhhh the videos are so CALMING <3 thank u for sharing this bub hehe i hope you have a wonderful day 💕💓💖💗💘💞